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dreadful-windandrain · 1 month

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listened to the real will wood album three times yesterday. here are my thoughts:

am i being detaIIIIIIIIINED? am i under arrest?? (yes!)

"this is a song written by a dead guy" the implications..........

unsyncopate cotard's solution right this fucking second

the transition into dr sunshine lives is SO GOOD

was it when i left the cave and swore i'd. NEVER GO BACK!!!!!!!

how did he make white knuckle jerk hornier. what's with the moans. and why do i like it better than the original.

HEART BLUER THAN MY b-b-b-b-bbbbbaaaaa~a~LLLLLS!

the weird voices he uses in thermodynamic lawyer sure were a choice

fucking ADORE front street live. even better than the original and my favorite off of this album. literally just. the tempo changes. "if you're not on your worst behavior... get the fuck out!" "is this shit enough proof for you?" "give us all that fucking osmosis! oh, yeah!!" "sing it with me you fuckers!". he made a villian song sound even more evil. wtf and well done

i trusted you i trusted you i trusted you i trusted you i tru

the long ass intro for hand me my [x], i'm [y]! is fabulous. the anticipation!!!

the tempo is also faster here than the original which is awesome but overstimulating as hell when the second half of the bridge hits

take it away, creeps

here's a song *first chord of 2012*

by retracing myyyyyyyyyyyyyyy ste-epppppppppp pssssssssss

the guitar riff that starts mr capgras makes my brain perk up like a bluetooth speaker being connected

FUCKING HURT EACH OTHER! COME ON!!!!

yet another banger intro! the latter half of this album does not miss!

can we drop this shit? i wanna see you at each other's throats, man, make some fucking noise. one two three oh YEAAAAAAAH

the transition here also. magical.

i definitely didn't almost cry at the end of fibrodysplasia ossificans progressiva when the tempo slowed down and everyone was vocalizing

-ish is so fucking underrated oh my GOD you people don't talk about it enough

the people who sang "myself again" after "and i'm gonna be"...... read the room

the new harmonies on where do you get off, front street, and mr capgras give me life

overall i love it but i do believe that ww didn't sing the song with five names to spite me personally. he did sing it on in case i die but still. you don't know how much tax fraud i would commit to hear it live with a full band

#will wood #will wood and the tapeworms #wwattw #the real will wood #wii woo #wee woo #ren's rambles

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rreids · 9 days

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they should lift the porn ban just for my gifs

#these mgg ones.. GOD it should be me #ren's rambles

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music-of-moonless-skies · 3 months

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I hate to say this (especially given that Hannibal and Will have their own "melody" that he hears in his head) but Will Graham definitely is the kind of guy to only listen to podcasts, not playlists

#will graham my beloved #will graham #hannibal #hannigram #hannibal lecter #hannibal nbc #ren's rambles #will graham hc

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johnpeelsession · 7 months

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The notes in the last reblog REEK of entitlement "Just go to local shows" as if these local shows aren't almost exclusively ran by or in bars and therfore only people over drinking age can go lol yall love hounding on us young people for not being "in a scene" or experiencing a subculture irl but we can't even participate in most if not all events and shows because god forbid alcohol isn't involved. This "local scene" yall are making up isn't accessible or just doesn't exist

#ren's rambles #and I say we bc im under drinking age #punk subculture #diy punk #punk scene

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between-two-fandoms · 3 days

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Send me things about firepilot and/or polyfire in my ask box! I'm absolutely not procrastinating being productive in favor of thinking of Tommy Kinard with his two favorite boys.

#evan buckley #tommy kinard #eddie diaz #firepilot #bucktommy #buck x tommy #eddie x buck x tommy #911 abc #ren's rambles #i love these dorks so much

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saewokhrisz · 5 months

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swing with me

#ops personal tag ramble upcoming did you know my tablet pen has been dead for the past month i had to draw this on my laptop #w my small kamvas pro 13 (i use a kamvas pro 20)#had to cuz the idea was rotting at my brain <3 #shuake #akeshu #persona 5 #p5 #persona #joker #ren amamiya #akira kurusu #goro akechi #my art #illustration

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chiricat · 8 months

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big bro yu

#alternatively: 345 #finished p4 manga in 1 day. yet another emotional rollercoaster #p3 #p4 #p5 #minato arisato #makoto yuki #yu narukami #souji seta #akira kurusu #ren amimaya #persona 3 #persona 4 #persona 5 #cat’s art #they draw yu so well in the manga man #like hes gorgeous. stunning. JUST LIKE AKIRA… WWWAH #pushing off the ramble again because a) i forgot and b) i dont wanna make a post… i think ill just hide it in the tags as always www

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pyjamacryptid · 1 year

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Feeling like the ultimate nerd niche right now. I’m studying information science, specifically cataloguing, while in a library. Immersive experience. Like a 4D movie.

Self-portrait on Lined Notebook Paper, c. 2023

#ren rambles #library #libraries #information science #library and information science #cataloguing #my art #ren doodles #doodle #doodling

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starstrike · 3 months

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Mithrun's desire as an SA analogue

TW discussion of SA and detailed breakdown of aesthetics evoking SA. The way I discuss this is vivid in a way that may be triggering, though there is no discussion of actual sexual assault. Just survivor's responses to it.

People relate to Mithrun and see his condition as an analogue for a few different things, like brain injury or depression. And I think all of them are there. But I also see Mithrun's story as an SA analogue, and Ryoko Kui intentionally evokes those aesthetics. I think it's a part of Mithrun's character that a lot of people miss, but I very much consider it text. This is partially inspired by @heird99's post on what makes this scene so disturbing; so check out their post, too :)

So to start off with, the demon invades Mithrun's bed, specifically. There's even a canopy around it, which specifically evokes this idea of personal intrusion; the barrier is being pulled apart without consent or warning. The way the hand reaches towards Mithrun's body from outside of the panel division makes it almost look like the goat stroking over his body. It's an especially creepy visual detail; similarly, the goat's right hand parts into the side of the panel as well. It's literally like it's tearing the page apart; but gently. So gently.

Mithrun is in bed. It is his bed that the demon is intruding on. He's in a position of intimacy. The woman behind him is a facsimile of his "beloved" that he left behind; the woman who, in reality, chose Mithrun's brother. He is in bed with his fantasy lover, who is leaning over him. While this scene isn't explicitly sexual, it is intimate. And it is being invaded. The goat lifts Mithrun gently, who is confused, but not yet struggling.

The erotics of consumption and violence in Ryoko Kui's work(remember that the word 'erotic' can have many different meanings, please) are a... notable part of some of her illustrations. I would say she blurs the lines between all forms of desire: personal, sexual, gustatory and carnal, in her illustrations in order to emphasize the pure desire she wants to work with and evoke to serve her themes. Kui deploys sexual imagery in a lot of places in Dungeon Meshi, and this is one of them.

In this case, horrifically. The goat's assault begins with drooling, licking, and nuzzling. The goat could be enjoying and "playing with" its food. But it can also be interpreted as it "preparing" Mithrun with its tongue as it begins to literally breach Mithrun's body. The goat also invades directly through his clothing; that adds another level of disturbing to me. There's nothing Mithrun can do in this moment of violation. Mithrun is fighting, but he is fighting weakly, trying to grip on and push away when he has no ability or option to. All he can do is beg the goat to stop. And it doesn't care. This all evokes sexual assault.

The sixth panel demonstrates a somewhat sexual position, with Mithrun's thighs spread around the goat's hunched over body. In the next, the goat pulls and holds apart Mithrun's thighs as he nuzzles into him. The way the clothing bunches up looks a bit as if it has been pushed up. It has pinned Mithrun down onto the bed, into Mithrun's soft furs and pillows. It takes a place made to be supernaturally warm and comfortable, and violates it. It's utterly and intimately horrifying. To me, this sequence of positions directly evokes a rape scene. I think Kui did this very explicitly. These references to sexual invasion are part of what makes this scene so disturbing; albeit, to many viewers, subconsciously. It makes my skin crawl.

This is also the moment the goat takes Mithrun's eye. Other than this, the goat seems exceptionally strong, but also... gentle. It holds Mithrun's body tightly, but moves it around slowly. It doesn't need to hurt Mithrun physically. But in that moment, it takes Mithrun's eye. Blood seeps from a wound while an orifice that should not be pierced is penetrated. This moment, the ooze of blood in one place specifically, also evokes rape. That single bit of physical gore is a very powerful bit of imagery to me.

Finally; it is Mithrun's desire that is eaten. After his assault, Mithrun can find no pleasure in things that he once did. He is fully disassociated from his emotions. This is a common response to trauma, especially in the case of SA. It's not uncommon for people to never, or take a long time to, enjoy sex in the same way again; or at all. They might feel like their rapist has robbed them of a desire and pleasure they once had. I think this makes Mithrun's lack of desire a partial analogue for the trauma of sexual assault.

Mithrun's desire for revenge was, supposedly, all that remained. Anger at his assaulter, anger at every being that was like it; though, perhaps not anger. Devotion, in a way. To his cause. I don't know. But the immediate desire to seek revenge is another response to SA. But on to Mithrun's true feelings on the matter.

This is... So incredibly tragic. Mithrun feels used up. Like his best parts have been taken away. Like he's being... tossed aside. This certainly parallels the way assault victims can feel after being left by an abuser. Or the way assault victims feel they might be "ruined" forever for other partners. These are common sentiments for survivors to carry, and need to overcome. In the text, it's almost like Mithrun feels the only being who can desire him is a demon who might "finish devouring" him. That that's his only use. It's worth noting that Mithrun trusted the demon. Mithrun's world was built by the demon, and Mithrun, in that way, was cared for by the demon. I think this reinforces Mithrun's place as a victim.

There's also something to be said about Mithrun as a victim of his own possessive romantic and sexual desire. The mirror shows him his beloved just dining with his brother, and it infuriates him. He doesn't know if the vision is real, nor if she has really chosen his brother as a romantic partner. The goat then creates a whole fantasy world where she loves him. As Mithrun's dungeon deteriorates, she is the only person that continues to exist. Mithrun continues to have control over her. And that is the strongest desire the demon is eating, isn't it? There's something interesting there, but I don't know what to say about it.

In conclusion, I think Mithrun's story is an explicit analogue for sexual assault-- though, certainly, among other things! The way the scene plays out and is composed explicitly references sexual violation and invasion of the body. His condition mirrors common trauma responses to sexual violence. And, at the end, he finally realizes he can recover.

Let's end on a happy Mithrun, after taking the first step on his journey to recovery :) You aren't vegetable scraps Mithrun. But even if you were-- every single thing in this world has value. Even vegetable scraps.

#Mithrun #mithrun dungeon meshi #dungeon meshi #ren rambles #dungeon meshi meta #tag later #I refuse to post at prime time look at my dunmeshi meta boy #tw sa #sa tw #this is literally 1200 words slash 6 pages if I added citations and a proper essay format as well as an introduction to Mithrun's character #and general introduction of the text itself #this could literally be an academic paper #lmao #ren meta #rb this plsss i want ppl to read my essay

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dreadful-windandrain · 5 months

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thinking about how the song with five names and hand me my shovel, i'm going in! are intrinsically connected.

how the former is a warning call to the singer of the latter. you can break a shovel if you break new ground, it cries. quit while you're ahead. stop before you learn something about yourself you regret. and the other says, heaven sent me. i'm untouchable. this is all i am meant to do now. hand me my shovel.

how the latter is a desperate plea to the singer of the former. this is not enough, it cries. i need to hit the bottom. come with me. don't be afraid of altering your worldview, even if it's uncomfortable. and the other says, gimme that old time religion. i will never change. i would rather accept a belief i know to be implausible than recognize who i really am. it's good enough for me.

thinking about how both of the singers are wrong. neither of their views are beneficial to their lives, but they stay stubborn. one uses introspection as a form of self-harm and the other ignores introspection as a form of self-harm. self-sabotage versus ignorance. in the end, both of their minds will snap. both will cave under the weight they've put onto their own backs. it's just a matter of how they get there.

#i know ww has said his songs and/or albums don't have narratives but fuck. man...........#will wood and the tapeworms #will wood #wwattw #self ish #the song with five names #hand me my shovel im going in #wii woo #william woodiam #wee woo #ren's rambles

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rreids · 13 days

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something about mgg as a loserboy can be so personal to girls..

#ren's rambles

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music-of-moonless-skies · 2 months

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15 questions, 15 friends

tagged by @permanentreverie

are you named after anyone? I think my first name is after some random famous person but my middle name is after my great grandmother

when was the last time you cried? today, watching my best friend perform <3

do you have kids? nope lol

what sports do you play/have played? Volleyball in middle school counts I guess

do you use sarcasm? more frequently than I speak without it

what is the first thing you notice about people? eyes, style, the sound of their voice

what is your eye colour? brown

scary movies or happy endings? both

any talents? according to who? me?

where were you born? the US

what are your hobbies? singing, reading, playing instruments, watching movies, sketching

do you have any pets? one dog

how tall are you? 5’1

favourite subject in school? English! English! English!

dream job? absolutely no clue, please don't ask me about my future

Tagging: Anyone who wants to! I don't care if you've just randomly stumbled upon this post, if you want to do an ask game, do this one and say you were tagged by me

#tag game #lin tag #ren's rambles

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johnpeelsession · 6 months

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I really do have the best taste in music and movies like nobody else in the world knows what the fuck I'm not talking about

#maybe i AM pretentious #ren's rambles

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decafdoodlez · 3 months

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