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cashmoneyyysstuff · 3 months
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shoto’s been staring at you for a good 5 minutes now.
you’d figured he was zoning out about three minutes in but then you looked up from your homework at him and he smiled at you, that cute little loverboy smile he does that have your legs feeling like jelly and has your heart push against your chest like it wants to escape.
okay so he wasn’t zoning out. then what is it ? did you have something on your face ? was he waiting for you to say something ?
"is there something on my face ?" you blurt out, already wiping at your chin and around your mouth
he blinks, registering your question and his eyebrows furrow lightly “no, there isn’t.” he answers curtly. reaching his colder hand up to pull your hand away from your face. you’re so much more confused now that you fail to realize he held onto your hand for a moment longer than necessary.
“so then why are you staring at me ?”
he lightly tilts his head to side at that, looking at you questioningly “ why should i not be looking at you ? does it bother you ?”
“wh—no no !” you sputter, he’s flipped the tables on you now “ i was just wondering what was up because you’ve been staring for..a while now” you trail off, suddenly feeling a little embarrassed. his eyes widen just a fraction and you think maybe you got it all wrong somehow and he was zoning out, but then he’s lowering his head in shame “i’m sorry, yn. i didn’t mean to make you uncomfortable with my staring..” he apologizes.
you’re frantic, shaking your head so hard you fear you’ll twist your neck and waving your hands hurriedly “ no, no, no ! it’s okay, sho ! you didn’t make me uncomfortable or anything !” you feel relieved when the tension on his face dissolves the slightest bit “ i was just curious, that’s all” you sigh, your arms fly back next to you because you feel like your sweating buckets and you really don’t want him seeing pit stains.
he hums like he’s thinking about something then suddenly a small smile breaks onto his face and you feel like you’ve been hit dead on by a semi truck. shoto todoroki’s ability to be so effortlessly pretty is and will forever be an enigma to you. “ i like looking at you” he starts “ whenever you do mundane things like studying, you always have this look on your face. i like it, i think it’s cute.”
okay, so turns he was out to kill you.
“ i-i do ?” he responds with a simple “mhm”. you feel like you’re sweating a lot more.
“oh.” is all you say. it’s all you can say because what the hell were you supposed to say ?!
shoto doesn’t look all that bothered by it, cool as usual, simply opting to keep staring at you. you fiddle with your fingers for a bit before you lift your head up to meet his unwavering stare “ i—uhm—thank you.” you whisper. he shakes his head “don’t thank me, you don’t have to. if you want me to stop, i can try to.”
he can try to. you feel like you’re losing your mind.
you’re way beyond flustered now. todoroki’s not a man of many words but when he does use them it throws you for a complete loop, you feel like you’re on a rollercoaster. “no that’s fine.” you answer meekly.
“you’re sure ?” you nod and he hums. “okay then, if you don’t mind.”
“it’s fine” you confirm, feeling your face heat up. “i like looking at you, too.”
you definitely like looking at the handsome smile that forms on his face from your words.
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tomkinard · 6 months
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Which is a thing!
DANANDPHILGAMES Dan and Phil are Dating Boys
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henarikat · 1 month
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“Hey. Don’t tell anyone about this place, okay? I want to keep it… exclusive.
You’d keep a secret for your friend, Mr. Qi, wouldn’t you?”
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Overworked Mascots (Mickey Mouse x Bugs Bunny)
I do not own any of these characters that appear here. They all belong to their respective studios. Enjoy!
This is inspired by the lovely art of one @thesunpapaya (sorry if you don't like being tagged, I remembered you saying you'd read fics from this ship so I figured it'd be safe to tag you). Particularly this piece and these pieces.
Get ready
Eat, Rehearse, Film, Press Conference, Film, Eat, Sleep.
Mickey was so tired.
Eat, Rehearse, Film, Press Conference, Film, Eat, Sleep
Yet tired didn't feel like the right word.
Go to this gala, go to that event, film some more, sleep.
But a weight unlike any other pulled him down.
Go out for lunch date with Minnie for the press. Film. Go to Dinner date with Minnie. Don't let people know something is wrong. Sleep. But not with her, to maintain your image. For the children, Mickey.
"Mickey Mouse! Is it true you and Minnie are broken up?! Any words regarding the rumors of Minnie Mouse's affair with her costar Daisy Duck?!"
"Haha! I don't know where this is all coming from. Minnie and Daisy are just swell pals. And me and Min are as right as rain. Happier than ever" Not.
Eat, Rehearse, Film, Meetings, Film, Eat, Sleep.
He took a long puff from the cigar between his finger tips, letting the smoke choke him before releasing it with a slow blow. He licked his lips to rid the dryness he felt on them.
Remember you're Mickey Mouse.
There wasn't a day in his life where he didn't forget it. Everyone made sure to remind him.
Remember we own you.
There wasn't a day in his life where he didn't wish he was elsewhere.
Keep up appearances. Stick to the script.
Don't ruin the magic, Mickey.
The magic for him had been ruined a long time ago.
"Are they gone?", Mickey asked tiredly. His ears could still make out the yelling outside but it got fainter and fainter.
The human in the room with him squeaked as he acknowledged him. A rather mousey (hehe) young man Mickey had taken a liking to and hired to be his P.A. The practical boy was efficient and quick, much more so than his previous personal assistant. Sure, the young man had to be quickly trained in the ins and outs of toons but he caught on quick, something Mickey liked. And the best part:
The boy took Mickey's secrets and kept it like they were his very own. Mickey appreciated that.
The young man peeked out and addressed one of the guards outside. There was some talk Mickey wasn't in the mood to listen into before his assistant came back in.
"They got rid of most of the paparazzi. There might still be some stragglers but most of them will be outside of the building. Security is keeping an eye on all entrances. Only toons, residents and employees are allowed into the building and onto this floor", his assistant informed him.
Mickey nodded," Thank you, Connor. You're an angel", he said with a small smile.
Connor beamed," It's a pleasure, Mr Mouse", he said happily before his eyes went down to the empty scotch glass on the table next to Mickey," Would you like a refill?".
"Please", Mickey said holding up the glass for Connor to take," Dad knows I need it before Iger comes to scream at me again for my sloppy performance".
"The performance wasn't that bad-"
"I forgot several lines and had to ad-lib my way to a line I do remember. I even hesitated a few times"
"Actors improvise all the time!"
"Not. Disney toon actors", Mickey grumbled," We have to stick to the script. Stay within the line. Conform. Or else", he said. It was almost like a mantra at this point, something that had to be ingrained into Mickey's head as if he had been forced to write it on a chalk board 100 000 times.
Don't ruin the magic, Mickey.
Connor sighed," Bullshit, its all bullshit", he mumbled as he flipped through Mickey's schedule.
It truly was. And it was the reality of Mickey's life.
"So what's next on today's agenda?", Mickey asked, sitting up a little and trying (and failing quite frankly) to appear his normal, happy self (if his normal happy self had a cigar in one hand and a glass of scotch on the other).
"You're expected back at Disneyland for the nighttime parade. Photos will be taken. Iger asks you be a little bit more affectionate with Minnie this time as visitors noted you were a little distant your last appearance. Again, nothing spicy. You made a lot of parents uncomfortable with that kiss you pulled a few months ago, the memory is still fresh", Connor said, walking up and down as he gave Mickey the run down on what needed to happen.
"Be affectionate but don't be affectionate. Got it", Mickey said as he downed his glass of scotch in one go.
"Still so freaky you can just... swallow all that and not even get the least bit tipsy", Connor said looking mildly intrigued.
"Eh, toons have made stronger stuff in the past and lived", Mickey said as he set the glass down," Anything else?"
"That's about it. You're free for the time being, like 3-ish hours", Connor said," If you'd like, I can have an impromptu meal arranged for you and Mrs Mouse in a public place for the time being. Mr Iger requests you spend more time together".
Mickey held up a hand and shook his head," No, no. I'd... I'd rather not meet with Minnie today. She's got her own stress to deal with", he said.
"Of course, Mr Mouse"
Mickey sighed. The end of his cigar came and he put the last butt of it out before grabbing another. If there was one thing Mickey had in common with his dad, it was the awful smoking habits. But smoking took his mind off things. Things that would otherwise stress him out.
Like the situation between him and Minnie. The less he thought about the situation between him and Minnie, the better his mood will be.
"Connor, be a dear. Fill up, would you?", Mickey asked politely and his PA followed his request with little complaint.
"At least, now you'll get a tiny break from it all", Connor piped up. The young human paused as something in his ear piece went off," Excuse me, sir. There's something I need to check on".
Mickey waved him off and continued his smoking and drinking, deep in thought with a foul expression on his face. He leaned back into his chair and took a long drag of his cigar, wondering how his life had come to this.
He was meant to be perfect. Practically in every way. The Ideal Toon. The one all Disney toons are encouraged to follow. The board spent many, many years, even dating back to when his Dad was still alive, crafting this image of his. This child (or rather: stern parent) friendly image that was more shallow than a dried up puddle in the summer. It had worked for the most part. Most folks assumed Mickey was devoid of personality, a puppet of Disney. Just The Mascot.
"I've been scrubbed clean, now left in pain with my skin so raw from this abuse."
This scandal was very close to that image cracking. Extremely close. So close in fact, he had gotten screamed at by several people. Including Bob Iger, who he knows is ready to tear into him again in person eventually once the paparazzi cleared somewhat. Adding in his disaster of a performance during a live show, Mickey would bet Iger would be screaming at him for a straight hour.
Mickey would let him. Because Mickey was so tired. Too tired to fight.
He heard the door of his study open and Connor stepped back inside again.
"Sir- Mr. Mouse?"
"What is it, Connor? I'd rather be alone for a moment-"
"You have a visitor, Mr Mouse…", Connor said.
Mickey's eyes met the doorway and he finds what he thought to be the most beautiful toon in all the Animation Industries standing there, gazing at him with an almost demure smile. Mickey's tired eyes met theirs and it seemed like he was in a trance. His face grew warm at the sight of the white, figure hugging dressed that showed off an hourglass figure. His eyes wandered to the ruby red lips and he swallowed the lump in his throat. On his finger, his wedding ring burned him.
"I sincerely hope I'm not intruding, Mr Mouse", the toon said demurely.
It took all of Mickey's acting skill to school his face and make sure he didn't "wolf out" for lack of better words in front of his personal assistant who was still there watching.
"Of course not", Mickey said in faux calmness, "Do come in, ma'am. Connor, can you leave us for a moment?".
Connor did as he was told, but not without his eyes flickering between Mickey and the toon with the same energy as a nosy neighbour finding out something scandalous.
Mickey swore his personal assistant will be the death of him…
…If this gorgeous piece of art before him didn't kill him first.
The toon in question sauntered towards him, hips swaying in ways that were borderline provocative (Mickey could hear the Censor monkeys at Disney screaming). They didn't immediately reach him however, instead taking a turn to take from the nearby bourbon and pour themselves a pint.
Mickey stared, trying to find his voice under the collection of saliva no doubt building up in his mouth. Eventually, he found it.
"Were you waiting long?", he asked quietly, not wanting to break the intense air that surrounded them. He felt warmer than usual.
An airy chuckle fluttered through the atmosphere of Mickey's study.
"Oh, don't you worry too much about that, honey. I kept my li'l head occupied just fine", the toon said. Their accent was clearly forced in a toon way, accurate but still clear it wasn't their natural voice. They smiled at him a beautiful buck-toothed smile.
"You didn't have trouble getting in?", Mickey asked.
"Cute fella got me in through the side door"
Mickey sighed, leaning back into his seat again with closed eyes. He felt the emotional exhaustion of the day catch up with him and he tried to relax. His ears perked up hearing footsteps, assuming the toon was about to take a seat nearby. Only to feel the weight of a body come sit on his lap. His eyes flew open.
Oh gosh
"Hope you don't mind if I take a seat here. You looked very comfortable", the toon cooed, buck teeth disappearing as their mouth made a perfect 'o' shape.
Mickey's heart raced and was about ready to run out of his chest. His body grew hotter.
He felt the white fur shawl pull over him and bring him closer. As he got closer, he could the sweet, fruity perfume his cigar smoke had been hiding. A gloved hand came to caress his cheek with uncharacteristic tenderness.
" You look tired, doc"
Mickey's breath hitched as he felt furry lips brush against his cheek. Whiskers tickled him.
"Bugs…", he whined.
"Mickey", the bunny in question chuckled as he teased the mouse he had trapped under him.
Mickey swallowed the building drool his mouth had accumulated.
"I have somewhere to be in 3 hours", Mickey warned as Bugs leaned into him.
"Is that so?", by that tone, Mickey could tell Bugs was not taking that warning seriously," What if you were just a wee, tad bit… late?", he said, tugging on the Mouse's tie.
For a moment, Mickey entertained the idea.
"As much as I want to… I'm in hot water enough as is today", Mickey murmured. He put his dead cigar in the ashtray.
"Should I leave then?", Bugs asked, moving to get up, but stopped when he felt Mickey's arms snake around him and keep him in place.
"Stay", it was as much a demand as it was a plead.
Bugs grinned and made himself comfortable again. As he did that, Mickey hid his face in Bugs' neck, inhaling that sweet perfume.
"This perfume… with this dress. Are you trying to kill me", Mickey whined, causing Bugs to snicker.
"Depends. Do I get a portion of your money in the will?", Bugs asked cheekily.
"No"
"Aw", Bugs pouted as he took his glass of bourbon and had a sip," And here I was hoping I was going to get something special".
"The only special thing you're gonna get if Disney finds out you're in my will is an investigation", Mickey grumbled as he tugged Bugs closer.
"Ah yes. I'm sure Mr. Iger would be very amused by those pictures you have of me", Bugs teased.
Mickey groaned," Ugh, don't bring him up…", if he could, he'd hide in Bugs' neck for the rest of eternity.
Mickey couldn't see it, but Bugs' face grew the slightest bit soft and sympathetic.
"Rougher day today?", Bugs probed.
"Yeah…", Mickey muttered.
Bugs hummed and shifted his position to comfortably lay against Mickey. This did involve Mickey moving his head away from Bugs' neck so Bugs could sink a little lower. Their faces came quite close together as a result.
Mickey gazed at Bugs and moved his hand to cup the furry cheek of his rabbit lover, stroking the soft white fur of his muzzle. He could feel Bugs stiffen for a moment under his touch before relaxing.
"Why’d you get all dolled up today?", Mickey asked.
"Can't a rabbit try to look pretty once in a while", Bugs wrly replied.
"You always look pretty. You're the prettiest toon I know", Mickey said earnestly.
Mickey could tell for the tiniest millisecond, Bugs was stumped. But that quickly fell as Bugs grinned at him, lashes fluttering flirtatiously.
"Am I as funny as I am pretty?", he asked jokingly.
"Twice as", Mickey responded with a grin.
"Do I make you laugh?", Bugs asked, pulling on Mickey's tie and leaning in.
Mickey gave him a small peck on the cheek," You knock my socks right off, doll", he said sweetly as he reached for his glass, having not drank a drop since Bugs entered.
Bugs subtly preened under the compliment and Mickey smiled fondly behind his glass.
"That still doesn't answer my question though", Mickey continued.
"What if… I don't want to answer it", Bugs replied.
Mickey hummed, his thumb brushing over the area under Bugs' eye, feeling that area felt a little off. Like it was more freshly painted. To hide something.
"Rougher day, today?", Mickey inquired softly, repeating the question Bugs had asked him earlier.
It was a quick shift of his gaze and the way Bugs started subconsciously biting the glass that clued Mickey in on his mental state.
Bugs Bunny was not great with feelings. Mickey spent years learning all of his tics so that he didn’t neglect the rabbit's feelings. Mickey won't lie, it was hard as Bugs was an incredible actor (almost to his detriment), but learning what all the little movements and nervous tics meant was entirely worth it to Mickey if it meant this radiant rabbit found it worth it to stick around a little longer.
That's why Mickey didn't speak much further on that. Instead, he pulled from his vest pocket a pack of cigarettes, slipping one put for Bugs to take. Bugs slowly took it and placed it in his mouth. Mickey provided a lighter as well and held it to Bugs' cigarette.
This action evoked a memory in Mickey. Something that happened years ago, but that Mickey could remember like it was yesterday.
It was one of those film parties that got held after a successful movie. Who framed Roger Rabbit had been a massive success and the entire cast had been invited.
Mickey sat on the rooftop, that night, feeling like absolute dirt despite the happy festivities. A cigarette hung loosely on his lips as he stared out at the lights of city.
One moment, he was alone. The next he had his temporary co-star next to him. Bugs Bunny, looking right as rain to the unaware populace.
Mickey had offered Bugs a cigarette on the promise he told no one about Mickey's awful habit. Bugs laughed, agreed to it and took the cigarette.
Mickey watched for a few rather pitiful seconds as Bugs struggled to get his lighter to work before showing mercy and lighting his own lighter, hovering it within Bugs' gaze with the silent offer of lighting it for him.
The action made Bugs pause long enough for Mickey to notice the hesitation. But he didn't have time to dwell on that as Bugs placed the cig near the lighter.
"What a gentleman", Bugs cooed before giving Mickey one of those zany kisses crazier toons did before running away.
The action stumped Mickey so much he almost dropped his cigarette. His expression must have been funny, because Bugs started to laugh. And really laugh.
Given that those sort of kisses never had any meaning behind them, Mickey should've just forgotten about it and moved on. But he didn't, the kiss and Bugs' charming, captivating laugh stayed with him that entire night.
They talked more. Mickey tried his damndest to be normal in front of the Looney hare but it was getting hard with every laugh he miraculously managed to pull from Bugs.
At some point, they were playing a strange game of keep away. Bugs had snatched the last cigarette Mickey had wanted and played a game out of it. Mickey had to get it back from him.
One thing led to another. A push, a body hitting the wall. Mickey trying his hardest to keep Bugs from escaping. A small, innocuous slip. Mickey falling into Bugs by accident. Their lips meeting in a tremendous smash.
Neither of them moved for a sharp minute before Mickey finally willed his body to move. Apologies came out like rapid fire from Mickey who fervently checked if Bugs was okay and continuously apologised for his large overstep of a boundary. Bugs himself was quiet as he watched Mickey rapidly apologise, his body frozen against the wall.
When Mickey tried to leave, he felt a trembling hand on his back keep him in place. His eyes widened, looking up at Bugs in the darkness. You could just barely make out the dark blush on Bugs' face.
"Stay", it was as much a demand… as it was a plead. But Bugs still removed his hand from Mickey's back, giving the mouse the option to run away and not look back. The option to forget.
Mickey stayed.
Both of them moved in tandem for the first real kiss. And the second kiss, the third kiss and the kiss after that and the many other kisses after that. The moment they truly separated was when Bugs heard someone approaching the roof. Mickey looked at their dishevelled, almost undressed states, frozen and worried about being caught. Had Bugs not picked him up and hid, they would have surely been caught.
And perhaps, that was what made that situation all the more enticing. The adrenaline of almost being caught. The danger of it all. The kiss after that had occurred was one of relief but also of one with the prime knowledge that if they were ever caught, they would be done for.
That seemed to be all the encouragement both of them, a sad pair of disgruntled, overworked mascots, needed to pursue this further.
"Penny for your thoughts, doc", Bugs inquired, flipping a penny in Mickey's direction, that the mouse flawlessly caught as he was brought back to the present.
"Just thinking on some old memories", Mickey said softly," About that night", he elaborated.
"Ah", was all Bugs said.
Mickey gazed at Bugs. Bugs gazed back. Mickey gently took Bugs' free hand and left a kiss on it.
"I know I said earlier that you look pretty everyday- that wasn't a lie, but golly, you look really stunning today, doll", Mickey murmured softly as he laced their fingers together.
Bugs chuckled, his white fur turning the slightest bit pink at the compliment.
"Well, I do remember you saying this was your favourite dress of mine. Thought you'd love to see it again", Bugs explained coyly," Tell me, who do you think wore this style better. Who do you like it more on. Me, Marilyn or Madonna?"
Mickey chuckled," You wore it better, of course", he answered sincerely. He leaned down and murmured in Bugs' ear," Though, being honest, I always liked it best on my bedroom floor".
Mickey pulled back and watched with amusement at the flustered steam leaving Bugs' ears before the rabbit burst out laughing. He sighed, absolutely besotted with Bugs and his charming laugh that never failed to captivate him. Mickey spied a little floating heart popping close to his head.
"The Censor monkeys are gonna have your hide for that, Mick", Bugs cackled.
"So long as I got you to laugh", Mickey said grinning.
Bugs chuckled as he cupped Mickey's face.
Mickey relaxed at Bugs' touch, leaning in until their noses touched.
"I wish I didn't have places to be", Mickey murmured," I wish I didn't have all this work I need to".
"Same here….", Bugs whispered as he wrapped his arms around Mickey's neck.
But they were both there right now. And they'll take that little spark they needed to keep going.
Their lips met in what began as a soft kiss that dived into something more desperate, passionate and deep. Time was less of a worry when you were with someone who made you feel like the world stopped and you were the only other there. Track of time was lost. So later, the knock on the door felt like a bitter awakening from a good dream.
"Mr. Mouse?", the door handled jiggled.
"Wait outside, Connor!", Mickey squeaked as he thought of his half-dressed state. .
"Mr. Mouse, the car is here", Connor announced through the door.
Mickey inwardly cursed and sighed. He felt hands squeeze his arms and he looked down at Bugs who gave him a tight smile.
"I don't want to go", Mickey murmured.
"I don't want you to go", Bugs whispered back.
But as mascots, the wants of their owners always came before their own. Mickey had to leave.
"Will you still be here when I get back?", Mickey asked, a little frightened of Bugs' answer.
"I'll stay so long as you come back", Bugs said earnestly, giving Mickey a peck on the cheek before getting off of him.
Mickey smiled softly, grabbing Bugs' hand to leave a kiss on it before making himself presentable.
"As handsome as ever", Bugs quipped as Mickey finished checking and tidying himself.
Mickey chuckled at the quip, turning to Bugs with a short wink as he walked towards the door.
"Wish me luck", Mickey said cheerfully.
Bugs looked outside at the late afternoon sky," Oh Evening Star above, I wish this maroon some luck", he drawled.
Mickey laughed at the little joke.
"Thanks Bugs. I'll see you later" I love you.
Mickey never openly said those three special words before. Neither has Bugs. Though, always unsaid, the two just had an instinctive feeling they knew what their true feelings for the other were.
"See you later, Mick", Bugs said before Mickey left his study.
Mickey sighed, already missing Bugs' warmth as he walked towards the building's elevator where Connor dutifully stood.
"Ready to go, boss man?", Connor questioned.
"Yeah, let's get this over with", Mickey muttered as the elevator doors closed and began it's descent downwards.
Mickey was not looking forward to what was sure to be another dull parade of him standing and waving. But he found solace in that he'll have someone special waiting for him to arrive home.
And Mickey yearned for the day where he could finally have that sort of thing every day. With no worries for either of them.
Until then, he's willing to endure being Disney's well-behaved mascot just a little while longer.
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t4tnashuu · 4 months
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[sticking nose into hq tumblr] u guys like manga panel edits right... yeah... ok great
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thesinlesssinner · 7 months
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I don’t know who needs to hear this today but liking a villain or antagonist does NOT make someone a bad person, and you have zero right to make others feel bad about the characters they like. I say this because someone on an OFMD FB group just flipped out at me for DARING to say Izzy’s my favorite character. Like girly pop if you think that’s bad wait until you find out about my undying love for Hannibal Lecter and Lestat. I told them they’re entitled to their ridiculous and very wrong opinion of me.
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beck-nightengale · 5 months
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Just some more Enderal shitposts.
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onboardsorasora · 2 months
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Ok everyone’s focused on testing so no one’s looking over here.
Ima need someone to write the fic where Daniel has an existential crisis about his age when one of his pubes grows in grey.
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Ok~ It's Confession time again~
If even ANY of these gorgeous men paid even a speck of attention to me - I would be an absolute MESS.
I would completely embarrass myself, or I'd run away or something and you wouldn't see me for DAYS.
Just DO NOT PERCEIVE ME PLEASE. />.<\
I'm ridiculous.
Also like; most of the time I feel like I'm pretty desperate to love, to touch, be loved and be touched up on, but sometimes even just the mere thought of it - of even being looked at, even being perceived is too much???
Like it's so overstimulating I actually want to run away and hide until they forget I even exist.
Does any of this make sense? 😩
Please tell I'm not alone in this weirdness that is currently me rn. />m<\???
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wyn-n-tonic · 1 year
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O! I feel this on the writing juices!
How about i want to see you for Marcus Pike?
well... this is about four months late and i'm so sorry but thank you for being patient with me, my love.
Word Count: 477 Author's Note: Not explicit. Written in first person but no descriptions so...
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Maybe I’ve forgotten what it felt like—touch, desire, the quiet intimacy of close contact in a warm bed.
Love.
With a gentle touch and soft brown eyes, he’s right here. Telling me what I’ve been missing the whole time. I keep thinking about how funny it is, too. Because I don’t think I ever really knew what all those things I’ve been missing felt like.
Everything up til now—up til him—has been about my body. My sexuality. My willingness to perform for their pleasure and never demand any of my own. But I was in love with him before I knew it and I didn’t want to give solely because he wanted to take. Truth be told, he didn’t want to take anything.
It was constant back and forth from the moment he held on close and half drunk and whispered, “I wanna see you.”
Marcus’ fingers are curled around my upper thigh, a tight grip as he fights against heavy lids as if sleeping is just unacceptable right now.
Six weeks ago, I’d given up on something like this ever being my reality and now I’m too hasty with my feelings and declarations without an ounce of embarrassment because he beats me to it every time and all it’s ever felt is right.
“I know it’s early—“ 
“Marcus, it’s midnight.”
He yawns, trying his best to shake his head against the pillow. “I meant between us.”
“Oh. I guess.”
“Don't do that, baby,” he whispers. “Don't give me that tone, I’m not saying it as a bad thing.” 
His grip tightens and he pulls my body closer to his, resettling his own body against mine with a closeness I’ve never had.
“You're so beautiful,” he breathes out. “I’m so glad I spilled coffee all over you, can’t believe that put us here together now.”
“I think my chest is still a little red from that.”
His nose bunches up. “I think that’s a hickey.”
When I try to pull away in mock annoyance, he grabs harder still to hitch my leg around his hip and presses himself up between my legs again. It took him three dates to say he loves me and he immediately backpedaled and begged for forgiveness never wanting to cause discomfort. 
“I love you,” he says for the second or fourth or eighth time tonight. “God, I fucking adore you and I know it’s early but—fuck—nobody’s ever seen me the way you do.”
Waiting for another yawn to pass his lips, I try to push more space from between our bodies—try to take in as much warmth from him as possible. He’s right, it’s early and, maybe, there are flags my colorblind eyes are missing in this teenage daydream, honeymoon haze we find ourselves in. I’d like to soak in as much of it as possible.
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2birds1pencil · 1 year
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ajdrawsig · 29 days
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me when i start posting regularly and people start actually interacting with my blog O_O
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welcometohighwater · 1 month
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when visual artists are also extremely extremely hot
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starsweetiie · 1 year
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i feel embarrassed gposing in public its like im committing a crime in broad daylight
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bestiegirlboss · 1 year
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girlies braiding each other’s hair, painting each other’s nails, and doing each other’s makeup:
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beck-nightengale · 1 year
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Just finished rendering Part II of my Jade Enderal vid series and scheduled it onto YouTube but I'm scared of self-promotion oh my god.
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