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jerry-loves-you · 2 years

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If they makes you happy more than i do please you can leave out

#not needed #people i have my life sticks to me

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umblrspectrum · 1 month

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hi heres art so you pay attention to me now go read the tags

#ive been rewatching episode 7 like its the only thing on youtube and made note of many things #first off. the solver can only have one host. nori mentions skyn wants to kill off all the other solver hosts (with the dds) and disregards #the idea of both uzi and doll being its current host when they get chased #plus the main solver possessions only occur when skyn is out of the picture (the fightt in ep 7 is only after n decapitates “tessa”)#solver uzi is possible too but i dont count her cause she doesn't have the yellow #personal theory is that its more an instinctual response to overheating or something and not full on possession #second off nori calls the solver cyn. how does she know that name #cyn was on earth and only showed up to copper 9 recently and i presume nori's been here her whole life #it probably wasn't the other dds cause none of them made it down and they're all more savage beasts #since cyn specifies n's team retained their personalities and that makes me think the other teams didnt #also also we should've immediately questioned tessa arriving in the same type of pod as the mds when they were revealed to not be sent by j #im running out of characters also the people who dont like when i use tags like this can bite me #murder drones #murder drones nori #artori? that sounds cool #ill probably just stick with nori though #i have so many solver heart refs now #art #episode 7 #murder drones episode 7 #murder drones episode 7 spoilers #using the same black for shadows as my lineart doesn't work when i have to draw thin things over it #murder drones spoilers

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designernishiki · 10 months

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it’s kinda funny to me how that dumb scene in kiwami 1 of majima getting shot and left for dead in the harbor was basically just added as a half-assed way to explain majima not being around for a bit of the plot, but they accidentally(?) just made it seem like start of a chain reaction where majima ended up feeling slighted and heartbroken after being abandoned like that and then lashed out about it via smashing a big truck into the building kiryu was in. and yeah that isn’t inherently a romantic thing as-is but then they go and add the part where majima grabs a hostess and performatively hits on her as in-kiryu’s-face as possible, she says she’s already in love with someone, and majima lets her go immediately, no questions asked, making a big fucking point of it just to say see THAT kiryu? I appreciate when people are HONEST about their FEELINGS. people who won’t just BACKSTAB someone who CARES about them to save themselves. is that so crazy kiryu?? huh??? anyway make it up to me get down here and fight me right fucking now

#I think on another level he was sorta saying like ‘hey kiryu. you’re making it extremely clear that you don’t trust me and my intentions #and I’ve been trying to show you- over and over again- that I’d do just about anything for you and your safety #but I can’t just let my mask fall off in front of everyone- I need to keep up the unpredictable morally grey wildcard act for both my sake #AND yours. because disguising my helping you as crazy random violent outbursts and weird stalker behavior #is the only way I CAN help you. do you think it would go over well with shimano or literally anyone else if I was outright helping you out #of the kindness of my heart and fondness for you? stop being so fucking dense and look past the crazy wacky nonsense for a second and #maybe you’ll realize that all I do at the end of the day- really- is help you and put my own life and reputation on the line for you.#I am an honest guy when it comes to my real values and when I told you I wouldn’t let anyone kill you unelss it was myself- I meant it.#I’ve taken a knife and a bullet for you now. can you REALLY not see through the act yet? am I REALLY that unpredictable when you think about #it?’#that was a longer explanation than i intended but. it was difficult to put into words #I basically feel like it could be read as him implying kiryu shouldn’t backstab the people who put themselves on the line to help him #and/or pointing out that he’s never actually done kiryu dirty and has stuck to his word protecting him in the ways he can #trying to say yeah all this is a crazy act and all but when it comes down to it you Can trust me #it really makes sense when you think about it that he’d have to help kiryu/show affection towards kiryu in unpredictable convoluted ways #at that point in time because. I mean. there’s a reason he was the only person who showed up to welcome kiryu when he got out of prison #and that’s because A) he sticks to his word and his loyalty to people he cares about and B) no one else had the balls or the batshit insane #mask to wear to ward off anyone asking real questions like majima did. because ANYONE associating themselves with the supposed #patriarch-killer was a HUGE NO-NO at the time. someone important showing up for kiryu and welcoming him back outright could’ve caused #all-out warfare probably. except majima. because majima was dedicated and smart enough to use his widely-feared wildcard persona #(that everyone tended to view as incapable of having any Real agenda to worry about) to his And kiryu’s advantage #does that make sense??? I feel like it makes a lot of sense if you get it to click in your head #kazumaji #majima #kiryu #yakuza #kiwami 1 #yk1 #rambling

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fatuismooches · 2 months

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EVEN MORE CUTE DOTTORE MOMENTS TO MAKE YOU SMILE 🙏 (because I am too tired to post anything of quality)

#smooches talks #ouhhhh... to experience the domestic life with him...#someone motivate me to start writing actual fics again...#the dottore honeymoon fic merely has the title “medicus scriptor amorem” and “Honeymoon fic” in the actual document LMFAO #i made it on... january 27 oops #idek if im gonna stick to that name because google translate for latin is so bad omfg #(TO THAT KIND PERSON WHO SENT ME IDEAS ILY AND I PROMISE I WILL RESPOND. I PROMISE IM NOT IGNORING U)#i also have another wip i havent touched with loving the harbingers when they weren't in the fatui yet #no like seriously i think churning out 50k words did something to my writing state 💀🙏#a snippet from dottores part: Il Dottore’s strength was nearly unmatched in the Fatui being the Second Fatui Harbinger and all.#what most people do not know is that he was… certainly not the best fighter during his Akademiya days.#A claymore was also out of the question - he grumbled when he had to lug his numerous research materials and parts to the desert…#In the end you settled on teaching Zandik the basics of a sword. do with this as you will...#however i am still so proud of myself for fabulam diu oblitus #i was rereading in class bc i was bored and i was like #damn i kinda ate with this #thanks for listening to smooches mini writing life crisis if u made it here #okay i go sleep now... i have midterms this week #OMFG THESE TAGS R SO LONG IM SO SORRY

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nebuladreamz · 11 months

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Birthday time :D

I doodled this on the 18th, figured it’d be nice to save for today.

This past year has been the most wildest year of my life. To everyone I’ve come to known, old and new.

You mean the fucking world to me. Here’s for an even better rest of our year, together.

@f0rtunesfuture @amberluvsbugs @garbagechocolate @darkxsoulzyx @kandidandi @just-a-drawing-bean @cacaocheri @bunmuffin @sleepykas @xitsensunmoon @justaduckarts @skizabaa @starsketchez @fernzwing @smoljeanius @ilsole @tuzesdays @magicclownjuice @ohno-the-sun

(If I haven’t tagged you there is a Very(tm) high chance I am either unsure if you’d want to be tagged or too much of a coward to do it anyways but that does not mean you’d mean less <3)

#nebula art and doodles #i was gonna digitalize this but i thought it’d be funny if it wasnt #thank you to everyone who has come with me on this wild journey #only about 7-8 months since i first joined the dca fandom #since i joined ao3 and tumblr #and ever since then i have made some fucking incredible friends #i am so goddamn thankful to every single one of you fuckers /aff #for every goofy bit #every silly question i get #every ounce of serotonin ive gotten for people enjoying my things #you’ve all made my day just a little bit better for everytime i see someone like the things i create #to all my followers #to all my mutuals #to all my friends #thank you for making my life better #thank you for everything #i know for a lot of my moots i dont interact or talk to you #but do know i see you #and i appreciate you for sticking around #feeling sentimental as fuck thumbs up #anyways the fact that i share a birthday with sonic the fucking hedgehog sure is something #gotta go fast i guess

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uncanny-tranny · 2 days

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Part of my experience with abuse is hoping I get a kid like me so I can know how easy it can be to love them, how easy it is to not treat them how I was treated, and breaking that cycle. It was only hard for them to love me as a child because they didn't love me in the first place. They wished for me to know the hate they had, and I refuse to carry their water for them like that. It was never hard to love me.

#mental health #mental health recovery #abuse #abuse tw #even if i never become a dad i know what it's like to love strangers as though they were my flesh #and i wouldn't wish them the hate that i experienced #treating myself like a stranger in some ways helped me realize i never deserved any of it #anyway. if you were treated this way: you weren't hard to love as a child #even the most 'out of control' chuldren are not impossible to love #aand the effort to love them is worth it every time #because loving and respecting people is worth it even when it's not always easy #like i'm not saying parenting is easy. but the easy part ought to be the love part #maybe that's the first easy thing you should do before having children i think #because as a hastag abused kid: we can tell when you hate us. we can feel the searing hatred #we can tell when you wouldn't care if we died. and it sticks with you #and you become an ANTI-role model to us #i am well into my life as an adult and my abusers from childhood are STILL my anti-role models because of how awful they were

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skullfragments · 3 months

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when you’re a group of two where one is captain of the basketball team and the other is the weird genius student but you’ve finally embraced your true love for singing (and each other) and audition in the call-backs for the school winter musical after winning the basketball championships and the science decathlon, respectively.

here’s a close up or two:

#WE’RE SOARIN FLYYINNN #i was giving myself a headache over who should be who #so i finally said ‘fuck it crowley is taller’#and thus he is troy and azi is gabriella #yes i listened to the hsm soundtrack while i drew this #tbh i had the time of my life lmao #my new goal is to have other people wish i never picked up a pencil #i have been enabled for too long #i need the batshit crack adjacent content to keep me going #it fuels me #remember in stick to the status quo #the skater kid plays the cello like an electric guitar #that is HIGH QUALITY CINEMA. TO ME.#anyway #feel free to be insane with me #while i laugh at my own jokes #good omens #good omens fanart #sara does art #aziracrow #high school musical #hsm #breaking free #WHAT TEAM #WILDCATS #GETCHA HEAD IN THE GAME #another thank you to tumblr user crawley-fell for seeing my vision in their brainrot series

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swinging-stars-from-satellites · 2 months

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frickin shite that was the worst small group I've ever been to in my life

#the eisegesis made me want to rattle out of my bones in frustration #got corrected for trying to cross-reference because ''we only stick to our one passage'' and nearly fucking cried about it #I PHYSICALLY CANNOT NOT CROSS-REFERENCE SCRIPTURE #not only is it a shitty hermeneutical process but it's also just Not How My Brain Works!!#y'all have seen me crossreference on this blog it isn't just the Bible! I can't Not crossreference things to save my life #and I basically got (admittedly she was trying to be kind about it) corrected in front of the entire group of 20somethings #and the couple that leads it are so PARTICULAR and nitpicky and it has to be done their way or you're gonna get corrected #my first introduction to her was her coming up to me while I was working the sound booth and telling me about something #wrong with my production setup that I KNEW ABOUT and WAS AND STILL AM NOT ABLE TO CHANGE #(our camera for livestreams doesn't have a high enough mount and I don't have space to extend it higher so we catch the tops #of people's heads in the camera shot)#and the girl I went bc I want to get to know her better WASNT EVEN THERE #I spent the entire time trying not to cry or look at anyone #I need to find a different small group... sorry all the kids my age were nice but I can't handle the structure or leaders #Lu rambles #adulthood woes

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yuckydraws · 4 months

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Healing & Growth

(gif made by my friend @robanilla-arts is below - slight warning for flashing! Thanks again, Rob!)

#if you feel like reading it - I'm gonna ramble in the tags.#Don't really feel like having it attached to the post for forever... cause what if i just wanna reblog some fairysona art??#anyways #this year sucked a lot. in a lot of ways. but im grateful for it.#healing is stupidly hard and annoyingly enough? not linear in the slightest. Yet infuriatingly - it is worth it.#I am far from done with healing. I've barely scratched the surface.#but im learning and connecting with myself along the way.#The biggest step I've taken this year is working on my people pleasing ways. it's a bad habit birthed from a lot of different traumas.#but it no longer rules my life.#I am not passive anymore - and surprise! that doesn't make me a horrible or evil person.#my kindness is no longer a weakness. its still a part of me and always will be. i won't let go of it.#but it is no longer to a fault #there are people undeserving of my kindness... i realize that now. I know what i will and will not put up with in every kind of relationshi #im still learning and exploring - and i've said a lot of goodbyes this year. I'm sure i will say more.#but that's okay.#some relationships are forever - some serve you for a while and teach you a lesson when they end.#and some relationships stick around and don't *have* to have a deeper connection #and that's also okay.#I didn't think I'd make it through this year in all honesty. I was very close to ending it all on multiple occasions.#But. for what it's worth - as of now im glad im here.#i will continue to struggle and have my hard times. im not naive enough to think depression just goes away.#but im okay for now and im moving forward.#there will be pauses and abrupt stops and likely some good ol' rotting involved. but when i can - ill be moving forward.#i will not speak a word of 2024 because no matter what it will have it's ups and downs.#but i will continue to keep working on myself. and that's all anyone can do in this weird life.#if you made it through all of that... uhhhh wow you got a crush on me or smth? /j/j/j/j #but fr - if you read this far... thank you. i hope you're faring well and that you have a happy celebration tonight.#sleep well and dream well when it comes to you #yucky draws #my art

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arom-antix · 7 months

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Viktuuri week day 6: Love

#no one said love had to be happy #love can also be the indescribable pain of abandonment and longing because some times cupids arrow just hits at the wrong time #and i love making my little paper dolls suffer #i had actually planned on making all the pieces for viktuuri week sad or angsty in some way but i ran out of time and fluff is so much fast #but ive had this piece planned since like july so i was NOT giving it up #also this is the only piece with my trademark flower symbolism and i couldnt just not stick to my brand #the flowers used are sacred lotus; red spider lily and camellia japonica dahlonega if you wanna know their meanings in hanakotoba #look at me being nice #giving you the names instead of you having to figure it out on your own #i really do sometimes forget that other people havent spent hour long sessions researching flower language and symbolism #so like if you wanna know the meaning of a flower ive used in a piece just ask #i will happily rant about my thought process #anyway ANGST #yes i did take great pleasure in getting to draw every detail of this and especially his pained facial expession #AND THE HAIR #drawing the highlights gave me life #and just MMM i loved drawing this so much #yuri on ice #yoi #yuri on ice fanart #yoi fanart #fanart #art #arom antix art #arom antix #viktor nikiforov #viktuuri week

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goldkirk · 4 months

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My five happy things for the day

• paper that has a good feeling texture

• things not feeling like an emergency EVERY second of the day, only part of the time

• the fact that these cheapo stamp ink pads from Walmart a few years ago somehow still have a bit of functioning ink not dried out?

• I’m able to track and retain conversations for longer periods of time again, I’m finally finally finally feeling some progress

• putting on a warm hoodie or coat when feeling chilled

#fivethingsaday #I still can’t believe people LIKE me!! ?! ?! ?! ?!#I’ve accidentally wound up dumbfounded with a delightful number of friends #like. wait. I thought you guys were playing a very long trap or were only liking me because of obligation or worth vs hassle ratio.#I thought I was just enjoying it before it vanished! but yowza!!!#apparently I DID get the chance for it to be real #and I am in the middle of living an adult life I didn’t think I’d see!!!#so anyway holy shit I apparently am not secretly a poison to people #these cool people I’ve been so admiring of and wished I could really have a life with someone like them as a friend #BITCH I DO IT IS ME #what the FUCK.#anyway I’ve got to go keep trying to wrangle my very uncooperative knee #and marvel at the slowly-dawning reality of being liked actually not just kept around #god grade school age social hierarchy lessons sure get roots down in deep #I’m so pleased as punch and totally in skeptical disbelief. I’m also delighted and horrifically embarrassed and feeling stupid and feeling #unbearably grateful and feeling quite particularly like I’m in the Truman show and also won the lottery #I’m going to do a lot of STICKING WITH IMPORTANT ROUTINES FOR MY WELL-BEING about it #add to journal

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veliseraptor · 10 months

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eagerly awaiting the time when i will not be so fucking tired

#i miss having energy. i miss talking to people. i miss being emotionally available for my friends.#i miss a dog #< that wasn't going to be one of my tags here but it autofilled for me and i'm sticking with it #this is my real life #i'm doing a bit better in some ways but i'm still so goddamn tired

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mattodore · 6 months

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i’ve been pretty quiet on here and avoiding my activity and dms these last few weeks because october was easily one of the worst months i’ve had in a very long time and i lost my family dog of seventeen years and had a medical scare for not only myself but my cat and just all these things happened at once that felt incredibly hard to bounce back from mentally… but aside from being sick atm things are starting to get better for me and my family so hopefully i can actually start being. normal. again soon 🧎

#river dipping #i don’t think i get personal on here very often just bc. the pd. um #but i figured i should say something bc my avoidant personality disorder is uhhhhhhhh #certainly Avoiding.#i’m so sorry if you’ve messaged me or @ed me or just tried interacting in any way #ik i wrote in my pinned navigation that yea i take breaks and avoid my activity and it’s nothing personal #but i still just wanted to reiterate it #i tend to keep notifications off for tumblr and my activity and everything like i only ever check when i’m mentally prepared for the State #my brain goes into when interacting with people #it’s not that i’m ignoring you!! my brain is just. very bad.#and i have a lot of trouble actually replying #especially in private messages #i’m much more comfortable talking publically which is why discord is so not for me 😭#i really have been pushing myself out of my comfort zone a lot this past year and it’s certainly helped a ton #but still. it’s a disorder i’ve had my whole life so 🤷 it’s still sticking around ykwim #so i’m sorry 😔 but i’m also incredibly thankful toward everyone who’s taken the time to talk to me and interact with me and just thought of #me in general even when i’ve been so isolated recently #ummmm but on the bright side i moved out finally and am at a place that isn’t gonna poison my brain anymore so ‼️#it took a few horrible days for my pets to get used to the house but things are fine now and i’ve set up my room and am :) doing better #surprisingly my panic disorder has been absent since the move… which is very weird for me #i fr think my previous place might actually have been poisoning me like i’m serious #……..i might delete this post in a bit if i start feeling too crazy abt being vulnerable lmao. um.#but for the people that’re online rn! my beloved friends and lovers yk #there’s my little update

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gncrezan · 2 years

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testing out how different the pen pressure is on the new laptop w/ @asphodelgame <3

#yes its time i apologise to the pagans again!!! sorry everyone #my art #persephone #hermes #fields of asphodel #asphodelgame #foa #using the tablet on a new laptop is crazy my tablet has never responded like this . i wanna practice LOL #somehow i was surprised that using a laptop that was 7yrs old and screamed every time it opened photoshop didnt perform well .#but i am also here. testing this all out . and im always constantly in a foa mood cause i got attached to seph after a character study #so here i am <3 i think rezan next . or D and X cause what i've seen from the update i just adored how annoying they are #i also need to draw stuff for wts cause i had it all sketched on my old laptop....#also done very quickly so excuse the mistakes on this im just having the time of my life getting my tablet to RESPOND!!!!#i also need to draw live cthonic reaction cause the idea of people around seph n hermes being like ohhhh okay. they dont know anything #**chthonic SORRY i cannot spell or think rn #ive sketched live pyri reaction before anyway i think we should get the whole gang into it #is just so funny . TO ME ONLY MAYBE . but its so funny #ive also been meaning to draw all the foa cast as quick busts cause i need to beat sameface off with a stick but just havent gotten around..#ok enough of the tag wall . thakn u for coming to the ted talk

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bookshelf-in-progress · 8 months

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A big part of author life is learning to make peace with the stories you'll never write.

#adventures in writing #there are layers to this #one part is learning that not every intriguing idea can or should be a complete story #you can just let it sit in an idea folder as a fun daydream and that's fine #then there are the ones that just cycle through #catch your attention for a while but then fall away #but every so often they come to mind and get developed further #and it's likely that one day maybe some of them will stick around long enough to get written #then there are the ones you have to let go #they interested you for a long time and may even have in-depth developments/significant parts of drafts #and you have to recognize that there were fatal flaws to the idea that prevent it from coming to life #and/or you've moved beyond the person you were then and aren't going to be able to write that story in the way it needs #but some of those still stick in your head #coming to mind and making you think maybe you could revamp them into something usable #and you gotta decide if it's worth the effort or if you should prioritize more recent ideas #because this process is cumulative and gets worse as you get older #today i am very very close to trying to find someone who's read my arateph stories #and asking if they'd let me just spill all the plot points of all the arateph retellings i've never written #some have fatal flaws but all have at least some aspect that i really loved #and it kills me not to have any of it in other people's imaginations #the main character and themes of the princess and the pea one #the character arc potential of the goose girl one #the clever (i think) twist on the central little red riding hood moment #one heartwrenching scene in rapunzel #i don't know if i'll ever be able to write the stories but the ideas still live in me and sometimes it hurts to keep it inside #anyhow have a good day

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fayesdiary · 1 year

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Came to the realization that Robin is everything Grima wishes they were and I'm gonna spend an indefinite amount of time obsessing over it

#fire emblem #fire emblem awakening #fe13 #robin #grima #my rambles #i know this sounds insane but hear me out #grima has a line in their main heroes form where they ponder how their life would have been if they were human #and while its a reference to robin wishing they were fully human and able to live with the shepherds from future past 3 it still fits great #robin spends their new life in a friendly environment with people who care deeply about them and trust them with their life #while grima was viewed solely has as a threat to be destroyed or a weapon to made use of ever since they were born #robin gets to forge so many bonds with so many people while grima spent aeons trapped alone in a labyrinth after their creator #tried to kill them #and even after robin proves to be a genuine potential threat to the world the shepherds still stick by them and believe in them #while grima has always been viewed as a menace simply for existing #robin gets to be caring snarky silly and have genuine interest in things and most of all hope #while grima by the time of awakening has been so consumed by hatred and cynicism they wish everything including themselves to end #i know some of this stuff is hc but that won't stop me from obsessing over these two #should i have put this ramble on the actual post and not on tags? probably

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