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#or you didn't grow up in trauma
katevd · 9 months
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i think it's been 010 years since blue tongue me ?
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Someone hacked my brain, good luck.
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lucienarcheron · 3 months
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The idea that some people still think Nesta’s main traits are supposed to be bitchy, mean, and a hater…idk what to tell you but the whole point of her healing journey is to not be those things because all it did was hurt everyone around her and herself.
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introspectivememories · 3 months
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i keep getting supersons content on my feed and like idk how many more times i have to tell tumblr i do not care about aged down jon kent
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fated-normal-767 · 4 months
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“Everyone I care about would hate me” Zephyrus you literally only care about one person and that person is openly having gay sex with a man .
Yeah Zephyrus is so repressed he actually spends most of the game believing that gay people will hate him for being gay. what. unexplainable type of guy.
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lith-myathar · 6 months
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#really really hate how thoughtless and oblivious i can be to my own bad behavior#ill know something is important or that a shouldn't do a particular thing#but over time and assumptions and small acts of carelessnes shit just....fades and accumulates and one day#i look up and ive done something very stupid and hurt someone else#and i didn't feel it happening#my mind will take things and hide them from me is what it feels like. ill know they're there but it fades into the background noise#i am hard on the things in my life including people and relationships. and i am always so vulnerable to my own fuckin lmfao inattentivenes#this is why i struggle so much with the idea of ever having an intimate partner or children. it doesn't matter how much i care.#eventually and inevitably i do damage.#and i know consciously that people make mistakes and all you can do is try to course correct and make it right. but it's better#not to hurt anyone in the first place and i really don't know if i will ever be capable of that.#trying to convince myself this kind of shit is growing pains but man. man. i can't stop being what i am and it really#really feels sometimes like i am just destined to break and neglect#but then that ''im broken'' thing feels like trying to dodge around taking responsibility and improving. and i should be better than that.#but god how tf are you supposed to stop dissociating from the reality of what you're doing when you're. dissociated.#all i can ever think to do is isolate#*sigh* guys i think i might need to graduate to therapy with a trauma specialist#or adjust my medication. god. im so tired.#why is it so gd hard to be a normal decent person. it doesn't seem hard but then
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roobylavender · 9 months
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(Really long ask ahead i’m sorry!) I think your thoughts on dick and his similarities vs differences to bruce are so interesting! Personally i’m wondering how much of NTT played an influence on this kind of characterization bc i’ve never fully finished ntt but i read like nearly all the pre-80s batman 1940 issues lol and dick very much was portrayed as more idealistic than bruce in some ways while more no-nonsense (? For lack of better word) in other ways, like when it comes to batman easing up a little on selina for romance reasons LOL. Though ofc dick totally turns into - well, a dick - in team books, as i grow older i find myself far more compelled by a potential story of an 18 yr old who seemed to have the whole weight of the world on his shoulders (by his own perception) and breaking under his own impractically strong sense of duty and sky-high expectations for others, then realizing as he grows older that it doesn’t have to be that way esp after seeing the perspectives of characters like kory, wally, joey, roy, etc. Like personally as someone who never really had a huge interest in NTT anyway, i’m surprised at how desperately people want to hold on to the characterization of dick when he was 18-19 and never letting him grow past that, like it’s so difficult for me to believe that at age 25 he would be the same uptight controlling kid that he was at 19. Maybe i’m biased though bc i was like one of those insufferable INTJ internet stereotypes as a teenager, and while that worldview did bring me achievements i’m proud of like the fact that i’m in med school rn studying what i love, i still know that at age 22 i have changed SO much from when i was 18 and i can’t imagine any reasonably mature or normally-functioning person (let alone someone high-functioning like dick) not doing the same lol. Especially since dick is the kind of person who would literally die if he’s not constantly growing and evolving past his faults bc of his insufferable perfectionism, idk how he’d be willfully blind to the negative effects of his worldview in early NTT and refuse to grow from there. He even has a quote that’s like “i’ve spent years as a student of my own behavior” which i always found highly encouraging bc i know he really does want to improve himself even at his worst. It reminds me of that Marcus Aurelius quote: “if someone can prove me wrong and show me my mistake in any thought or action, i shall gladly change. I seek the truth, which never harmed anyone; the harm is to persist in one’s own self-deception and ignorance.” But what are your thoughts? (Thank you for reading all this 🥹)
oh i absolutely agree! i cannot tell you how many times i think about the person i was a couple years ago and who i am now like i cringe so much omg.. maturity is an ever persistent process even if we don't recognize its effects immediately and it absolutely is crazy to think that anyone would remain in such a static state of mind for several years on end. esp when like you said dick is someone who wants to be better! so despite his several hypocrisies it is nonetheless in his best interests to look internally and analyze and evolve. and i feel like that very much could have happened had there been any actual segue between dick's breakup with kory and his re-entry into the batfam. i don't think there was much of a connection between these two sets of writers at all and so what you got is what felt like two very distinct parts of dick's life that didn't necessarily reveal a bridge point. so it's not entirely unrealistic that dick may grow to be the person (at least to some extent) that bat canon portrayed him to be in the years that followed but i certainly think as it stands it felt unearned and like all of his issues explored in ntt were conveniently swept to the side without any semblance of closure (albeit i do think some of these issues are addressed in outsiders '03 but in that dickheaded way that winick explores things generally. so i'm not sure it's the kind of closure people actually want). it's very sad and ig that's what people cling to more than anything. it's not that they're opposed to him growing to be a better person but that they're opposed to a version of dick who feels like he sprung out of nothing
#ironically enough i Do think dick going back to gotham after the kory breakup made sense#like when something that big happens in your life what are you going to do. seek the advice of the one person you look up to more than anyt#ing right. but marv wolfman complicated things by writing bruce the way he did so rather than bruce playing an active part#in guiding dick through some of his issues and mistakes he instead became dick's burden to bear through extensive post knightfall trauma#and i mean you all know i Love knightfall. i really do it gives me brainworms upon brainworms#but i wish there had been just one moment. like after it was all over. that bruce and dick actually got to talk and like#discuss dick's problems yknow#i get the feeling they didn't delve much when writing prodigal bc they had to set up the next arcs and stuff but it's like#come on. come on. they could've afforded it. if dick really had to come back to gotham for a temporary stint where he tried to find himself#than a proper conversation with bruce about what he was going through should have been a part of that#bc i do think working with bruce's new cavalry of three teen heroes (tim / steph / cass) would have borne wonderful opportunities#for dick to grow as a leader and peer considering his ridiculous expectations of others and how this would measure up against teenagers#but the problem is that bat canon decided he was going to magically gel with everyone bc he was emotionally more well adjusted than bruce#was. like ok. ok. whateverrrrrrrr#like idk it's so funny they were given a dick with a plethora of issues and instead of using any of that ammo they were like nah#we're going to make our lives harder and give him new problems manifested out of thin air. totally makes sense. bullseye#outbox
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pastafossa · 11 months
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Do you see Jane as yourself or a separate person because when I read x reader fics I feel like I always make up characters that I think would fit more but idk
Me personally, I see Jane as a different person, just one with a few attributes I share! And that's kind of on purpose. I've essentially tried to make her a mixture of all of us, of the fandom, of the love we—me included—have for Matt and that world. That's why she's never physically described, why her original family is kind of murky and lost. She's both herself—her own character with a shaped personality and flaws and strengths—but also all of the readers, including me, and she looks like what each of us wants or needs to see, comes from where we need her to come from. Which is how I think of a lot of great Reader characters when I'm reading, or characters I style after me in RPGs! They're me but they're me in another world with another life story, which makes them different in their own way, in the way any alternate universe version of yourself might be different.
Because of Plot Reasons (TM), you can never really make a reader fully everyone, it's true. There are always choices the plot requires a Reader to make, which is one reason I've set Jane up with the backstory she has, and why we're exploring questions of identity through her that I want readers to consider - wouldn't we be the same as her, make a lot of the same decisions, feel the same loneliness and wariness and trauma, if we'd all gone through what she has? And if you spend all your time being someone else, how long until you start changing? How much of you is created and how much of you is born? How much of you would change if you went through what she did? And what if you did go through what she did? This could be you, what if? In that way, she's potentially (since some see her as entirely separate, which is fine!) a sort of a variant of us, an AU, a what-if, in which our lives and selves were morphed by circumstances beyond our control. This is how I see the CYOA books I read as a kid, and there was a great article I read a few months ago that sums up the You in CYOA, Reader fics, RPGs, and TRT pretty well (it's the highlighted bits I found most accurate, the part about not having 'relatability' I think was a misunderstanding of what You POV/Reader/the best CYOA books were about if done right since it CAN be relatable, though the rest of it after that still feels accurate).
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So I don't think your stance is unusual at all! I've got a whole range of readers—some who see Jane (and other reader characters) as fully them, some who see her as wholly separate, and some who land somewhere in the middle. All of those for x Reader are valid, and I work REALLY hard to keep her as relatable as possible for that reason, so that even if someone does see her as someone else, you can still understand and appreciate her choices when the plot forces her hand. But that's the thing: where you stand on whether a Reader character is you or someone else or even a pre-established canon character is fluid. Everyone sees them differently, pulls on that costume, slides into that skin in their own way. And I think that's really awesome tbh, since it means we get a million different flavors of a character who's still essentially the same.
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thesharktist · 5 days
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Movie Vanessa and Cassidy are so painfully this song
Mainly Vanessa to Cassidy, ough, my heart breaks for them, so horribly
``Oh, brother of mine
It's been a long, long time
Since I've seen my face in your eyes
Oh brother, I've returned
To my burn scars of birth
Charcoal and iron brought me back``
Already with the first verse, it sets up how long it's been since they've really seen each other.
Also, the burn scarscof birth just OUGH
And I left you alone in a house, not a home And I watched the burning grow as my hair filled with grey
Vanessa got to leave and grow (hair filled with gray) while Cassidy was left alone (dead lol) in a house (the pizzeria).
Oh brother, I see You burn like me The singes on our skin like a brand Oh brother, I confess There is little of me left that could care about dousing the wildfire
Her guilt knowing they both suffered under their father and are likely to die because of him, which is why she doesn't want to douse the wildfire, she thinks she deserves to burn, too.
Anyway this is such a good song and I'm a liiiitle insane about Cassidy and Vanessa
(@sotogalmo i think you'd like this)
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helga-grinduil · 2 years
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'shiggy leave my son (bakugou) alone'
did people somehow miss the part where it's mostly just afo in shigaraki's body now and not shigaraki himself anymore orrr....... horikoshi literally spelled it out for you guys
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enjoltrwolfstar · 2 years
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VegasPete is reminding me that I basically have no morals when it comes to fiction, I'm always one abusive dad backstory and one kind of good action away from forgiving and forgetting everything, I'm sorry 😭😭
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viiridiangreen · 4 months
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uh cw fatphobia ig lol
me: i got a stationary bike
my partner's parents each time we've met since incl at the family gathering. also the entirety of my social feeds outside this app: OH YOU HATE YOUR BODY? I HATED MY BODY TOO OMG!! YOU WANNA LOSE WEIGHT? YOU WANNA B U R N F A T???? RECIPES TO SLIM DOWN! THIS ROUTINE GOT ME SHREDDED IN A MONTH! BECOME UNRECOGNISABLE! SHRINK GET SMALL FUCKING DISAPPEAR <3
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#tbf their mom has been much more businesslike abt it. probably bc it's her actual job#their dad has the most braindead take on it and immediately made it abt himself though lmfao#like...... no dude the fact that i wanna be more active and feel better and get stronger isn't an invitation#to go on a 30min long tirade on how you got fat directly & precisely bc you were depressed and directionless#& then made a bet w your ex that you'd look exactly like Will Smith In I Am Legend (???) in 6mo like#and have lived in a cycle of restriction vs excess and weight cycling and etc since#and have also used this experience as an excuse to assume shit abt people based on how they look#..........and I'm not even Fat-fat. i didn't grow up w the stigma and there's a strong likelihood#that the minute my lifestyle stops being absolutely completely sedentary im gonna drop a few kg and be done with it#i can't imagine dealing with this nonsense while trying to have a childhood#people can be so fucking gross abt others' bodies literally just shut up#ALSO!!! i'd much rather be in this situation than the shit i was living thru as a thin kid#whomst literally didn't get fed enough!!!!!#literally only grandmas would raise their eyebrows and try and get some food in there ( which isn't perfectly unproblematique but it comes-#from the impulse to NOURISH and they're so real for that goddamnit)#every other adult complimented me on my ability to overeat garbage at events and stay thin#like.......#have you considered i was actually literally being neglected and overate when there was available unrestricted food bc of that trauma? lol#lmao
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moskowins · 4 months
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yeah,   yeah,   eli and demetri are cute,   but miguel and eli?   they own my heart now and forever.   out of all the bonds that eli could ever have and i want to see more on screen,   in order it goes:   eli/miguel,   eli/sam,   eli/robby,   and eli/tory.   i said what i said.
#out of character. ⁽ edie ⁾#don't get me wrong#eli and dem are incredible and they had a beautiful friendship but the show refuses to acknowledge that dem genuinely never accepted#that eli was growing and changing and tried to pull the hawk persona from him without a care of why it had happened or what it meant to eli#he looked down on him for it and it's why hawk turned all the affection he had into active hatred#and eli was horrible to him and you don't just move past that and go back to how things were. eli and dem are so so different now#and they need to fix so much between them. they can and they will but it's also okay to not go back to how things were#they outgrew each other and that's okay. it's valid and it happens and they can still be close without going in circles#eli and miguel's friendship is so important to me because they grew together and miguel actually saw eli for who he was#miguel was the only one who could see his friend even when he took the rage and anger and need for control too far#he knew eli didn't stop being eli just because he was putting up this front and diving head first into it#also the fact that sam and eli have so much in common yet have always been on opposing ends and a balance to each other? makes me feral#i need more of them because i know they can be such a good team and it warmed my heart to see them root for each other#sam and eli are so passionate and have the capability of being so raw and real and their fighting styles are the most balanced tbh#they've been everywhere all at once and i need them to be a duo and fighting together because everything they hated each other for was a#doing of their trauma and their fears and everyone else tbh. sam and eli don't really know each other at all#and they have so much to unpack and see in each other because i do think that they have a lot in common and balance each other#eli and robby whew so much to unpack there too and i just need them to not gloss over what happened between them#and same with eli and tory because at some point they were all they had in ck when everything changed#and hawk was loyal to her and cared for her and he was displaced and it sent him deeper down#anyway justice for eli and actually seeing ties that matter without him just being shoved into an old friendship
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placesyoucallhome · 6 months
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🧺— Random domestic headcanon
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Ruhka keeps the house spotless, but being honest, a lot of that is done by mammets. What he does do is cook, dinner enough for everyone, at least most nights. Food is important to him, he knows what it's like to not have it, and he won't let someone go hungry or thirsty.
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Nemo actually lives alone at the moment, like alone alone, out in the wilds of La Noscea, not far from Bronze Lake. With Tako of course. He gets a lot of his general perishables from Qiqirns in the area. But being so alone, he's quite self-sufficient when it comes to the household. He cooks, keeps house and mead equipment clean, laundry hung up in the back yard to dry, makes simple meals that he eats whenever. He would probably struggle a little bit with learning to live with someone, all told.
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Yvet was, literally, born and raised in a cave, more or less. He does try to keep things tidy but beyond scrubbing linens in streams and hanging them over branches to dry or wiping down bowls or counters with a wet rag? He might not be as rigorously spotless as some might want. His childhood was the sort that he was told to suck it up or cut off the bad or moldy bits of rations he was given, and he wasn't going to be given more to make up for it so he often didn't bother throwing part away. A lot of it was simply learning to live with some grime, so he doesn't second guess a lot of it now. But generally he only needs to be told otherwise once, if a partner wants things done a certain way, he will make sure it's done, and always done, that way.
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oedipushansen · 7 months
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not enough ppl talk abt father by front bottoms past the first few lines which is such a shame bc the entire song is so good
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rosaacicularis · 1 year
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thinking about watcher!grian angst....
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