random papa headcanons

i genuinely don’t know where this came from haha. they range from zodiac signs to hobbies to mental health so sorry for the inconsistency lol. please enjoy <3

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primo

- primo is one of the most kind and caring people to exist in the world. he’s very intelligent as well- he has a mind suited for many jobs. sometimes he wonders what he would’ve done if he didn’t follow in his father’s footsteps.

- he’s a great writer in all regards- poetry, essays, speeches, all of it. he did exceptionally in school and was very humble.

-primo is great at conflict resolution. he’s direct and efficient but considerate of people’s feelings as well.

-generally pretty healthy mentally but has struggled with depression periodically throughout his life.

-i don’t think primo ever planned to be a father, he didn’t even think it was possible considering his responsibilities. but as he got older and reflected upon his life he regrets that he never had children.

- we all know about primo’s legendary garden, but his next project he’s dreaming of is an orphanage in the clergy. or just to overall encourage more inclusion of children :,) (when appropriate ofc haha)

- a hopeless romantic deep down.

-virgo/libra.

secondo

-secondo is a great artist. he likes painting landscapes and scenery. hes also really good at drawing buildings/ architecture. when he was younger he thought maybe he’d be an architect. some of his paintings are hanging around the clergy but nobody knows they’re his.

- good at math but doesn’t enjoy it persay.

- reads a lot of classic novels (and romance books lol) if he’s reading something trashy in public he’ll switch the cover so he isn’t judged and can maintain his reputation ☠️

-i think he’s struggled with depression throughout his life that’s beyond situational. even when he was at his peak, something chemically in his brain just wouldn’t let him fully soak it in.

-extroverted but very distant simultaneously. has a hard time getting vulnerable with people.

-smokes a lot of weed. i think all the papas do tbh

-huge music connoisseur (prestigious metalhead) (will say “name 5 songs” if he sees you wearing a band shirt)

-biiiiiiig leo/capricorn energy.

terzo

- terzo has adhd for sure lmao. he was never diagnosed though.

- he was the walking stereotype for ADHD as a kid: a rambunctious and high-energy boy who struggled in class.

-terzo is very intelligent, though. he just never cared about school too much. he was good at talking his way out of trouble.

-terzo is incredible sensitive to rejection. so much so that he would have a very very hard time confessing his romantic feelings towards someone. (feelings that move beyond sexual attraction)

- his hypersexuality, though he genuinely just loves sex, is often a subconscious quest for dopamine and validation.

- he has a very kind heart, goes out of his way to make people laugh if he sees they’re struggling.

- loooooooooooves to watch reality tv or anything full of drama.

-either a scorpio or a gemini.

-very active online. he’s a little obsessed with reading fan forums and posts. but he also just loves the internet in general

-i think he was the most interactive with fans, he would respond to fan mail most frequently. when he got horny mail from someone he would often respond with equally something equally risqué ☠️but of course when the subject matter was serious or heartfelt he would respond genuinely.

copia

- copia drew comics when he was younger and still does. over time they’ve evolved from mystical stories to simple doodles to get him through the day.

- sometimes he’s a little forgetful and mixes up his papers, so when he confidently hands his mother a comic strip she’s featured in, it’s a little awkward.

- copia loves animals, and he always has. he was afraid of dogs (specifically bigger ones) when he was younger, though. he also likes birds and can identify most species. (so can primo!)

- copia had a little bit of ocd throughout his childhood that’s lessened up over time.

-he also has generalized anxiety that’s lessened after he’s become papa which is shocking

- he has inattentive adhd. he’s an exceptional worker despite his negative symptoms because he pushes himself so hard to succeed. but sometimes he gets a little burnt out and forgets to rest, or spirals into an unmotivated state.

-we all know he’s a huge dork, so to elaborate upon that: he likes star wars, star trek, dc, and comics of all sorts.

-he has a funko pop collection in his office (including one of himself LOL)

-i think he’s a gemini and i’m so passionate about this. that or a pisces.

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thanks for reading yall :,)) i have more stuff coming up i promise i’m just not able to work as frequently due to school!! i hope you enjoyed.

<3, alice

Redacted!verse Actor AU

Idea from @angelcactus :)

Everyone hates shooting scenes with powers, its is so awkward

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The Mates refuse to stop laughing for shifting scenes so they film the shifting process separately.

Sweetheart's cloking affect is a mix of Green screens and CGI.

For the D.A.M.N goup magic scenes no one can quit laughing. Lasko's the most, so thats why you can see the air so it doesn't look like he's using telekinesis.

The vampires have it easy because for their running affect its just them running normal but sped up.

Gordi and cute episodes take a long time to come out because they have to do the scenes first them gordi has to film the lines for his thoughts.

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The Invertion was a movie made for the angst, but it was one of the most expensive, and difficult thing they have ever filmed.

The Imperium is a spin off show. fliping roles and making fun of the headcanons made for the original show.

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The non-canon videos and the hbs/hbw (and the patreon vids) are made audio only by a voice actor online, made for the listener's enjoyment.

The original cast is perfectly fine with this and encourages it.

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The wolf bois forms are CGI, they have real trained wolfs on set and in the editing process they make them appear bigger

For scenes when they are fighting or being pet, they use the larger ones and put wolfs on a green screen box.

They dread filming these though because of the wolfs still being curious creatures, non are harmed though.

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Irl Sweatheart is really scary, so going from scary to weird and loveable is weird for everyone else

Irl Milo and Asher are brothers and irl Marie is their mother

Irl Sweatheart and Asset are cousins

Sweetheart and milo are dating

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Irl Asset has hours of make-up to put on so irl Markus tends to keep them company

Irl Asset and Markus aren't dating, but they are good friends

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Irl Asher and baabe are dating and they have been sense high-school

Baabe and Freelancer are the only two actors that are never alone for their scenes

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Irl Angel, Freelancer, and starlight are siblings. Guy is their cousin

Angel and David are married, and have been for 5 years

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Irl quinn and Alexis are siblings (twins)

Quinn started crying after a fight scene with tank because he hit them too hard and they got the wind nocked out of them

Quinn and Alexis is the youngest adult on set (early 20s)

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Irl darlin is fucking ginormous and when first meeting irl caelum they scared him

Irl darlin is terrified of two things, Loud noises and Irl Sweatheart

Darlin is the oldest on set (early 40s)

Darlin is like an older sibling for Qinn and Alexis

Sam and darlin are dating

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Irl freelancer and gavin are married and have a kid (adopted)

Irl Caelum is their kid

Freelancer is the one to bring treats that they made to set, so if you see cakes, cookies, ect, that the cast didn't make on screen they were made by them.

Freelancer as ADHD

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Irl Caelum is 10 going on 11 soon

Caelum is dyslexic

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About Me

My name is Morgan Alexander but I also go by Chou and Cedar

My pronouns are he/they, but neos are fine too :)

I am 15 and going on 16 though I’m somewhere above 60 in my heart

I am a… hoo boy, this is complicated. Um, I'm transnasculine and nonbinary as well as an oriented aroace (bi/omni cupio/quoiromantic graysexual, to be specific), so… gay af but also no, thank you. I’m also romance-positive and sex-neutral

I have a spicy brain (also known as Asperger's, ADHD, depression, anxiety, and MaDD with some gender dysphoria and unlabeled weirdness sprinkled in for good measure)

I also have a weird body (Type 1 diabetes, Celiac disease, Hashimoto’s, and chronic pain from joints and headaches and shit as well as some other symptoms)

My ethnicity is confusing because my family didn't keep good records, but I'm mixed (about ⅓-½ Blackfoot, ⅔-½ European) and white-passing

Very introverted, I like my alone time more than being around another person no matter who they are. Honestly, I might be a little socially anxious…

A dual high school and college student set to graduate in 2026

INTx-T (can be either INTJ or INTP)

Leo, I guess? Born August 16, so yeah. Not really into that astrology stuff, though

Converting to Reform Judaism as soon as I’m able to

Everybody deserves equal rights no matter skin color, religion, gender, orientation, physical appearance, or class. I'll respect your opinion as long as it doesn't disrespect anybody's existence. Don't agree with this, don't interact with me and get off my page

AKA transphobes, homophobes, ableists, racists, MAPs, zoophiles, etc aren’t welcome

Inbox and DMs are open, happy to make friends or mutuals (and might be open to a QPR or romantic relationship after I get to know you :) )

Asks are fine, and I love talking to people (online, that is) so just reach out if you want to know more about me

Don’t send me NSFW content. Like, ever. I may dabble in writing it (I write SA sometimes, varying from not-at-all to moderately graphic, but to be honest I only really write it so that there can be major hurt/comfort and I always depict it as a horrific act of violence and in some cases torture), but that doesn’t mean that I am interested in sexual content or comfortable with it. I am also a minor and asexual so it’s a big no-no

Artist (drawing, painting, and photography), comedian (stand-up), musician (piano, violin, vocals, and guitar), poet, and writer (original novels, short stories, and fanfics). Happy to do commissions on any of my chosen art forms, just DM me :)

I speak and am learning to speak ASL, English, French, German, Hebrew, Italian, Latin, Polish, Portuguese, Romanian, Spanish, Swedish, and Yiddish (I alphabetized lol)

I like pretty much all music except country (Jolene is an exception)

I have precisely 69 Spotify playlists and am very proud of it

I’m actually starting an alternative rock band called Blue Humor. I’ll let you know when our first album drops

I like a lot of music, with over 32 pages on my list of bands I like (actual thing, might post the link later but it’s a list of over 1200 bands that I enjoy and am constantly expanding)

My fandoms include Abbott Elementary, Adventure Time, A Series of Unfortunate Events, Aurora Cycle, Big Hero 6, Bo Burnham, Brooklyn 99, Cavetown, Coraline, Creepypasta, Danny Phantom, the DCU, Deadpool, Derry Girls, Disenchantment, Disney, Doctor Who, Downton Abbey, Good Omens, Game of Thrones, Gravity Falls, Gregor the Overlander, Heartstopper/Osemanverse, Hunger Games, I Am Not Okay With This, In a Heartbeat, Into/Across the Spider-Verse, IT (2017/19), Jamie Dodger, John Mulaney, Jurassic Park/World, Jurassic World: Camp Cretaceous, Les Miserables, Lord of the Rings, Manifest, Marvel, Merlin, Monk, Monty Python, Mythic Quest, Narnia, Night at the Museum, NOAHFINNCE, Our Flag Means Death, Over the Garden Wall, Once Upon a Time, ParaNorman, Parks & Recreation, Red, White, and Royal Blue, Riordanverse (Percy Jackson, Heroes of Olympus, Kane Chronicles, Magnus Chase, etc), Shaaba, Sherlock (BBC), Star Trek, Star Wars, Steven Universe, Stranger Things, Supernatural, Ted Lasso, The Adam Project, The Afterparty, The Good Place, The Goldfinch, The Hollow, The Office, The Simpsons, The Sims, The X-Files, Tim Burton, The Owl House, The Umbrella Academy, TwoSet Violin, Wednesday, Wings of Fire, and Young Royals.

I'm sure this is a weird concept for people who haven't pondered it before but how is there not more non-European white people out there feeling soul crushing emptiness not knowing what it will ever feel like to know the physical land or the culture/people of the places their ancestors come from? I'm mixed Native and Caucasian with maybe a few stray Asian and Polynesian lines further in my ancestry. I am mostly white but am integrating with the local Native tribal community and have since I was a child. I'm currently in the adoption process. I am profoundly grateful to know them and to at least live on the ancestral territory of my Native side. I can't help but feel so lonely and alienated on a soul level though because I will likely never be able to patch that side of my family in the same way for my European ancestry. I recognize how much more important it is to focus on the culture more at risk of going extinct, I just wish I could explore them both with the same ease. I grew up without and still don't really have any friends but online I'd always find myself being most at home feeling when talking to Scandinavians but more so with English and even more than that with Irish and Scottish people specifically. Obviously I got along with tribal relations fine but I mean as far as relationships go like in school or otherwise white dominated areas. I am 21, never been kissed, and most of my relationships have been online/LDR. The best one ever actually was with a Scottish person and we were together for years but he dumped me out of nowhere one day without even a fight and he's never been back in contact with me since to my worst dismay. I truly feel like if my white ancestors never left hundreds of years ago I may honestly have had a better childhood with more of a chance of having a social life. Even if I didn't I would've at least had sacred wells and hills and ancient monuments to explore and meditate in to connect to my ancestors. I love my Native ancestry and by all means I agree with their values and relate harder to their culture on every level because of how close I was to it growing up, but I can't help but feel people who are completely white with absolutely no historical connection to their current lands should have at least a little feeling of unease never knowing where they come from? I understand if I was only white that I wouldn't be me and genetically I'd be a whole different person but I mean hypothetically if I were to be the same personality/consciousness I'd probably be a lot more well off socially and emotionally if I'd at least grown up in a more Celtic setting. I really hate when I see Americans trying to be all in people's faces when exploring Celtic and honestly European culture in general for "ancestry" reasons because I am fully aware of how objectifying and detached that comes off and I really don't want this to sound like something from one of those Americans. The feelings in my head and heart are just too big for my autistic ADHD brain to even begin to process in a way that words can do justice to. At the risk of sounding like a loser- I crave a deeper connection to the Earth around me and with people who are familiar with my ancestral cultures. I'm not saying they actually have to be from them, reincarnation exists in Celtic belief so just because you're not from that place in this life doesn't mean you weren't connected to it before. Idk. I'm rambling at this point. If you're a druid or otherwise passionate about Ireland, Scotland, Wales, Celtic Britain, Aisle of Man, Cornwall, Brittany, etc please DM me I'm begging. I've recently enrolled in the OBOD so I'm really hoping to find people to learn/talk about bards with and just general friendship ;-;

surprised i’ve actually stuck with learning japanese for so long and actually feel like i’m progressing, though. with my adhd, i sort of thought i would do it for a few days and drop it.

doing classes probably helps me a lot. for one, i probably would have never figured out an effective method of self-studying a language for me (which happens to be getting a textbook apparently, which i never thought about before even as a possibility… i guess the sources i looked up online before didn’t really mention doing that).

the structure of it is just pretty good for me: do the exercises, reference the textbook when it introduces new things when you encounter them in the exercises and slap new vocabulary in flashcards + listen to the audio where they have passages of reading stuff (it’s called kaiwa?) and try to repeat what they say.

i tried learning chinese before years back and man. now i’m not surprised it didn’t work out. language learning apps just don’t really work for me. i tried duolingo and hellochinese before, but i’m just not great at sticking with apps, apparently.

i think i was trying to read hsk 1 graded readers most of the time, mostly checking words i didn’t know. cool, except that was most of what i was doing and i didn’t really retain anything. for some reason, i didn’t think of ever studying grammar, either. i tried watching peppa pig and well. that was too boring and didn’t feel helpful, either.

i still sorta want to learn chinese one day (pretty useful here; some jobs are chinese-speaking only or predominantly speak it at work; i think i dodged an internship opportunity by not knowing the language… have family that speaks it, most everyone i know irl have some degree of chinese language knowledge thanks to school lmao… + kind of a heritage language for me… + some people only speak chinese/don’t know english or don’t have good proficiency in it. meanwhile i don’t know anyone who speaks japanese personally lmao

though japanese stole my brain cells and attention first, eh. don’t feel like i have the time or energy to devote to 2 languages at once without feeling like i’m hampering one, i guess. also currently have mixed up chinese with japanese while trying to speak so that’s also a thing. if i get to a point where most of my study ends up being immersion and feel like i don’t need textbooks anymore, then i’ll probably start then?

there’s also things to consider regarding the differences of mandarin here vs the rest of the world, i guess. some stuff regarding words: we use 厕所 for toilets, 英文 for english, which is apparently different regionally. and i think there are more (not that i know of). + our mandarin accents all sound close to taiwanese speakers/southern accent but we use simplified in writing… lol, not sure whether i should seek out mainland or taiwanese resources in the future. not sure if it even matters much… i’d also like to learn chinese through japanese too by then, which would probably affect selection.

Hi! I see that since you mentioned match ups are open people have eagerly hopped in. I honestly don't blame them since you're so good at it. It's really fun reading everyone's match ups so I wanted to give it a go too! I wanted to avoid mentioning or comparing characters to avoid influencing the results but like simplifying a person's personality is hard so I'm just gonna roll with it, lol.

In terms of personality, I'm an introvert but that doesn't mean I'm shy. I can be (I have, like, 3 different anxiety diagnosis) but usually I'm generally low energy and relaxed. Very deadpan. So much so much so that people tend to laugh even when I'm being serious. I'm a Taurus and I find the description very much fitting. I take pride in being pragmatic, grounded, down to earth. I like taking care of people in a more realistic way (and just in general). In spite of seeming calm or blunt I'm actually really sensitive and emotional (although I'll never show others my vulnerability). I always try to consider the other person's feelings which is why I'm often called kind and considerate. A good listener. I'm quiet so that comes with the territory lol. I generally don't like to talk about myself and will only say something if asked/spoken to first. In simple terms I'd say I'm a weird mix of Jumin(practical, decisive, analytical) and V(emotional, sentimental, self sacrificing). I always end up getting the most hearts from them when I respond honestly especially Jumin haha. One last thing for me is that along with my millions of anxiety disorders(including paranoia so I heavily relate to Rika and Saeyoung) I also have ADHD(I guess *also* like Saeyoung lolol). As I'm sure you can tell by now I don't have the one that makes me bounce off the wall. I believe the one I have is called inattentive and it makes me a total space cadet. But I was very imaginative and creative so I think it was good trade off? I'm pretty sure my mom thought child me was a plant because I was so quiet and still. Never cried that much and was an "easy" child except when she had to coax me to do things. Then I was stubborn lolol. Definitely a Taurus haha.

For work and study, ever since I could hold a crayon I've been drawing and art has always been my focus. In public school I'd pick the all the art classes and I'd even take outside classes during summers off and when I grew out of that I'd do self study with books and online tutorials. I do illustration and graphic design and my major in college was visual communication design (which is a wordier way to say graphic design). I got my associates but sadly had to drop while doing my bachelor's (would love to get a master's and study art forever but it's just a dream for now). Currently, I work as a bakery clerk part time until I can get a better job but I like it. I like seeing people's faces light up saying "SO PRETTYYY~" when they see our cakes. I do a little bit of everything so bread bagging, baking, set up, orders, cake decorating. It's very well rounded job where I'm breaking a sweat and feel like I'm earning my dollar while also having creative input. I like giving the customers advice for their get togethers and parties. It's nice. I'd like to one day have my own brand and put myself out there as an artist but for now this is fine enough.

When it comes to hobbies I feel like it's on the nose cause I like to be creative and have my hands moving. The obvious is drawing (both digitally and traditionally. Love using soft chalk pastels) and baking but I also like more crafty hobbies like crocheting and scrapbooking. I'm a big stationary nerd and I love collecting paper, notebooks, stickers/washi taped, pens/pencils, ect. Been into watching bookbinding vids. I also have the more typical hobby of listening to music, reading (big book nerd put me in a book store I'll leave with a tall stack), big gamer nerd.

Some other miscellaneous info about me is my favorite color is green 💚. I generally like deep earthy, natural colors but I also like gentle pastels like pink and lavender. I'm a big dog person and I dislike cats. I'm actually afraid of them and they cause me a lot of anxiety. I would never cause trouble for them and I hope they are homed to people that genuinely adore them. I just don't jive with them. I can and have taken care of them in a pinch. I wouldn't let my personal stuff cause them harm. I definitely understand and relate to dogs more. I want to grow old with a bunch of pups to take care of lol. I don't want kids so cute puppers will do. I have hazel eyes and rusty red hair. When I was younger my hair was much brighter yellow orange compared to Saeyoung but as I got older it turned into a deeper, darker rust red. I also have freckles all over. My favorite shape is stars! I love astrology and magic and whimsy (again such a contrast from how I present lolol ⭐)

Im more prone to forgiving and moving on and I found Saeran's AE really relatable. It brought up a lot of topics that were really important to me that I feel a lot of people overlook in stories about healing from abusive parents. I really can't hold onto my anger for very long and generally prefer to look at people for what they are and either work with them or move on. I don't like letting others take my time and energy which is why I'm "nice", or at least normal, to even people i don't like. I feel like being petty and angry all the time is draining. It's just my style of healing. On the contrary I find anger and yelling very triggering for me even from friends who I know won't hurt me or are speaking on my behalf. The antagonististic energy is just very uncomfortable. I prefer a gentle touch I can trust. Everyone is capable of getting angry, it's healthy and normal, but I prefer someone who's first instinct isn't to jump to anger but understanding. Makes me feel safe.

That's about everything I can think of. I don't normally think about myself so it's hard to write haha. Hopefully that all made sense. Thanks for taking the time if you see this. 😊

I match you with...

Jihyun!

Hear me out, I know this might sound odd, but you seem to fall into the same realm as his heart.

Don't take this to mean that you're self-destructive, it's actually that you're passionate and that this passion is what inspires you to be who you are. Even though it may not be a lucrative career to survive as an artist, you find a way to make it work, and in doing so, you don't sacrifice what helps you feel like you have artistic liberty. Not a lot of people have that opportunity, and it would be interesting to be close to Jihyun, wouldn’t it? He didn't give up on his dream of painting, he simply found something else to fill the void in his chest because his father made him believe he would never be able to make it. 

Seeing you be your most authentic self is a challenge to everything he's ever told himself. You're the kind of person who challenges him, because while you are similar, you are inherently different, as well. It's not a bad thing, it's something he welcomes, and he can't help but want more. 

He's not the kind of person who's going to jump to anger when something goes wrong. You don't have to be afraid of being in a conversation with him, especially not with the two of you are upset, because he has a level enough head to know that you need to take some time to breathe, and do whatever you need to do before you come back to the conversation. Nothing ever feels like it's going to explode when you're with him. It feels like you can overcome any challenge that comes your way. 

Hey everyone, this post is going to be a bit different. Pride month is nearing an end and I was ask to make a special something for this project I'm in.

I want to talk about my journey with discovering my sexuality and gender identity, along with my battle with my disability battle with ADHD.

I was around 15 or 16 when I started to question my identity. I didn't understand what or why I was different from everyone else around me. I didn't understand why I faked being in love with boys or found myself only falling in love with fictional boys but not real guys. Then I began to think harder. I realized that maybe I wasn't so straight.

As I was finding my way I explored different labels, explored my gender, and eventually finally admitted that I needed therapy for my health.

At first I thought I was bisexual and nonbinary. At the time it felt correct, but time past and I realized it didn't make sense or feel right. I needed to keep looking. Then I identified as lesbian and demigirl, but once again later down the line they didn't feel like me.

Finding your identity takes time, trying things out for a time and seeing what makes you feel you. There is no rush, no impending doom waiting around the next second.

I finally found my gender when I was looking online about different genders in the trans and nonbinary umbrella: trigender.

Trigender is a gender similar to gender fluid. One identifies as three genders, whether all at once- like a mix of colors- or flux between the three- like colors melting into another.

Trigender was the labe that felt right, where I felt myself click into place. I felt like a woman, a man, but in between- nonbinary. It made sense and felt just right for me.

As for my sexuality? I am still into women, but I now use Gynosexual as my label. It is a gender neutral way to say that a person is attracted to women identifying genders or feminine traits. Which I am.

I also figured out I am ageosexual. Ageosexual is a sexuality on the asexual spectrum. Ageosexual is a sexuality where one isn't disgusted seeing anything sexual in nature, able to watch 'adult fun' without being uncomfortable, but still having no desire for sexual intercourse of any kind.

I can handle a sex scene or joke in media, but even the thought of actually having sex makes me uncomfortable and nauseous. I don't like even the thought of anyone I may date in the future see me naked, god forbid touch me.

I will hold hands, kiss on the cheek, peck on the mouth, cuddle, hug, but anything else is a no. Just no.

So after finding the labels that fit me and have found myself comfortable with them, I settled on my pronouns next: they/them. I didn't like being referred to as just she/her, just female. I liked the more neutral they/them as it feels better and more like me. It felt right. But everyone around is still having to get used to my pronouns and using them. Learning is still going on, my family no used to my pronouns as they spent years with my old ones.

But my mental health during this? I went to see a therapist at 16, working on my depression and anxiety first. I was prescribed medication to help deal with my issues and given tools to help manage what the medication can't. Medicine isn't a cure for mental health, it just helps manage the issues one has.

After I was given the starting tools I worked on myself and tried hard in high school. I was more energetic, I felt less tired, and I had more motivation. It didn't last however. I began to have issues with attention, I kept getting distracted easily, forgot things constantly, was restless, overall a mess without knowing why.

Then my doctor prescribed me with a medication I recognized my mother taking. It was one she took for her bipolar. So I thought for a while I had bipolar, stupid I know but hey I wasn't thinking clearly. But soon I was diagnosed with ADHD, given medication and tools I needed to manage things, and found myself more relaxed- and given confirmation that I do not have bipolar. I could sleep longer than four hours. I could finally have my thoughts slow down. I even could focus better.

But the struggle wasn't done. You see, during one summer on a boiling hot day, I tried to end my life by heat stroke. I had turned my heater on full blare on the hotest day that week. Then I took a nap, hoping to anyone listening that I wouldn't wake up. I woke up, drenched in sweat, realizing what I nearly done. I turned off the heater and quickly tried to cool myself down. I only confessed about till six to seven months after that happened. This was when I was around 19, probably 20. I had dropped high school before this, the stress of dealing with family problems, moving, and the pandemic just beginning. I wasn't great mentally.

I have also experienced cutting before, something common sadly with people dealing with depression and constant stress. It wasn't a good feeling. The pain of cutting was not what I enjoyed ever, but I am ashamed to say this, but I did like how it made me numb to everything.

In the present day I am much better, not perfect but not a mess, I'm simply okay. I've been through so much and have many years to go hopefully. To end this post as it is long enough as it is I will say this:

Your journey will not be like anyone else's, it's your life and you will find the pieces of yourself in time. You just have to find what feels right and what is comfortable. You may have a hard time with your disabilities, mental or physical, but you have support around you ready to help. There are people who want to help you get better, you'll find them. I know it. Just be kind to yourself, allow time to feel out what it is you need. And allow yourself to make mistakes.

The worst thing I ever did was try to be perfect, to be strong. In actually, it's okay to be weak and to be imperfect. We all need to learn by making mistakes, grow from them. And sometimes we need to let out emotions, to stop trying to hold everything inside.

It's okay to be yourself.

Tagged by @luvtxt (thank u bestie 😳)

Are you named after anyone?

Erm. No . Not my birth name. But Rain originated from a Warrior cats oc i had when i was 10 ish hahaha

When was the last time you cried?

In the shower but i wuz just being dramatic / needed to get it out of my system

Do you have kids?

I have a bird with the mentality of a four-year-old, does that count?

What sports do you play/have played?

played soccer & softball was i was really young. Not by choice. My parents just wanted me to do something (i didnt like it)

What’s the first thing you notice about someone?

i mean. Their appearance if it’s in-person. Online, i tend to look at how their profile is decorated Lol

Eye color?

Any talents?

being alive in 2024

Scary movies or happy endings?

Scary movies or bust 👻

Where were you born?

Cali-freaking-fornia

Hobbies?

Drawing, sculpting, sewing, plush-making, doll-making, tufting, etc… Currently i enjoy doll-making, which is a mix of sculpting & sewing (i make art dolls!)

Any pets?

Two springer spaniels, 1 tabby cat, and 1 birb (cockatoo— my son)

Height?

we don’t talk about it

Favorite school subject?

uhrm . None. teehee (i hate deadlines)

Dream job?

I do not dream of working . That’s capitalism talking, babey! But. Im currently getting my degree in Nursing (RN) with a minor in Radiology. I like to craft though and wish i could do it professionally. I have menthol eelness (undiagnosed adhd)

erm. I tag uh . @bowserinthesky @g-thrice that’s it lol

♕ ( muse p / 29 / cis woman / she, her, hers ) — did you see ZARA HART wandering around the island today? they kind of look like GRETA ONIEOGOU from certain angles? i heard around town that the ER NURSE is PLUCKY, and OPTIMISTIC, but also STUBBORN, and IMPULSIVE. people say that they remind them of PURPLE BAND-AIDS, THE SMELL OF MAPLE SYRUP, and UNTIED SHOELACES, and SPECIAL by SZA is definitely their theme song. they seem like a nice enough person, but we all know how hard it is to keep a pristine reputation in a small town. ( admin jay / 26 / cst / she, her, hers )

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zara hart was born and raised in kings haven, massachusetts. she spent her whole life in one little town with the same greasy diners on the same three streets, and she hated it. it was probably why she got into trouble so often: idle hands, as the saying goes.

also, you know, the unmedicated adhd didn’t help lmao. 

it didn’t help that her parents spent most of their lives in the family restaurant. at first, zara did her homework in the back booths, but after one too many vaulted straws and games of 'the restaurant floor is lava', she was banished to ride her bike outside–as long as she looked both ways, twice.

her parents did their best not to let zara in on their economic problems, but it was pretty obvious as she got older. in high school, she waited tables at the restaurant, and quickly realized after watching that her parents struggle that her dreams of running away to italy, meet some dashing stranger, and then drive away from the world together into to the fading sunset in his vintage roadster weren't going to happen.

instead of living out a lifetime fairytale, she went to school online and got her nursing degree, and now she's a nurse in the er at the same hospital she was born in. 

pretty much her entire identity is taking care of other people, and her signature move is getting over-involved in people's, especially her parents. she knows that her dad has struggled with his vices in the past, so she's personally going to ensure he doesn't fall into his old habits.

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overall, zara is sunshine personified ( including the searing heat from her fits of passionate rage when feels something is unjust ). she's the kind of person that believes in the best of everything (think jess from new girl, phoebe from friends, and leslie knope from parks and rec). however, she does have a quick temper, and is constantly working on being as zen as she wants people to think she is.

a goofball who enjoys pranks and shenanigans at all hours of the day. she’s lowkey an adrenal junkie; that’s why she specialized in er nursing instead. she loves the blood and gore lmao. 

she’s an avid runner. i know, gross, but she gets up at five in the morning everyday just so she can run a couple miles before work, or she'll get home and run after a graveyard shift. there's something sick in her head.

she’s a not-so-secret Hopeless romantic. her dream is to run into her soulmate on the beach at sunset, and they'll both be listening to taylor swift and somehow get their air pods mixed up.

but in reality she doesn't have time for romance after one too many failed relationships, and tbh no one can ever live up to her dream diary, so all her dates stay in her mind.

she will do anything for a friend, but she will let no man cross her–women and non-binary babes get a few more free passes.

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best friend: ( m, f, nb ), squad ( m, f, nb), childhood friends: ( m, f, nb ), roommates: ( m, f, nb ), exes: ( m, f, nb )

all the connections tbh. slide into my dms, or like this and i’ll hit you up !

Finally putting together a proper intro dtjgdtjyfytjfj-

Hi! I'm Insurgui/Mel, I'm aroace, and I'm still figuring out my gender! Rn I identify as graygender. I mostly just reblog stuff, but I also enjoy rambling about my critters and stuff! I have ADHD and do my schooling online and my sleep schedule's fucked up, so you might see me post pretty much any time of day.

Also I use bro/dude/guy as gender-neutral terms and am still working on using tone tags! I am still learning! Pls lmk if I make you uncomfy because usually I don't realize it- Also I'm not the best at remembering things hgfghdfdhgfd-

Please ping me if I forget to respond to something!!! I've noticed that I have a bad habit of forgetting to respond to stuff if it lasts more than a day, very sorry if I ended up doing this to you I promise it's not intentional-

Also I am okay with mentions and asks! Pls don't message me unless we're mutuals though it makes me anxious.

Btw tag guide:

#insurgui talk is my original post tag! Most reblogs won't have tags unless I'm rambling in the tags

#ramble time is my rambles where they're long enough that I put a read more thingy. I typically only ramble about AUs I made or my original characters/projects :)

#insurgui's art is the tag I use for my art! I don't usually post it here unless I'm super proud of it or feeling spontaneous

And current hyperfixations/interests! Will try to update:

HYPERFOCUS!!!

None ATM

Not my current hyperfixation but I'm still interested in it

Chonny Jash/CJRP

KinitoPET

Pokemon

Winter of 83

Welcome Home

Don't Hug Me I'm Scared

ENA (kinda?? Haven't messed with this one in a while but I like the aesthetic and the vibes and whatnot <3)

HLVRAI

Portal series

Also a whole lot more it would take very long to list them all ghfghfjfgh-

Basically just interests in general this hasn't changed in a long time

Horror/Unfiction

Lab and Science stuff (especially when mixed with horror!)

Robots and Computer things

Weirdcore/Dreamcore

Webcore

Animation

Music!

15 Questions // 15 Mutuals

Got tagged by @picnokinesis​  - I actually saw this one 🤣

1) Are you named after anyone?

My first name if after an 80s Marillion, one of my middle names is the French version of my nanna’s name.

2) When was the last time you cried?

I’m not too sure, I’m not usually much of a crier unless super stressed out. The last I can probably recall is January, but there may have been something between then and now (April) that set me off.

3) Do you have kids? 

I have a bunny and I love her.

4) Do you use sarcasm a lot?

More than I probably should, but it’s not as chronic as my swearing!

5) What sports do you play/have played?

Oh man, time for my undiagnosed childhood ADHD to surface; Running, Basketball, Mixed Martial Arts, Horse Riding, Football, Field Hockey, Volleyball, Rock Climbing, dance & Pole Dance (classing these as a sports/fitness activity). And though I never did it competitively, I swam *a lot* as a child.

6) What's the first thing you notice about other people?

Probably their hair or height. Or their present presentation. Whatever is the most super-obvious visual detail because I am not observant.

7) What's your eye color?

A greenish-blue.

8) Scary movies or happy endings?

I do love scary movies (scary, not gory or brutal fetish-fests), but ultimately I’m a happy-ending kinda person. Put me through the emotional wringer, but leave me feeling satisfied. Even if I can appreciate a tragic or bittersweet ending for it’s narrative or artistic means, I need to leave happy.

9) Any special talents?

Nothing in particular special comes to mind, but I’m pretty good under pressure and taking control when things start breaking down. I like solving problems, finding solutions, and I’m not usually one to flustered or stressed out in unpredictable situations.

10) Where were you born?

Hospital in Edinburgh. 2.02 AM and about a week late (a quality that will stick with me to this day).

11) What are your hobbies?

Hello ADHD is that you. My ongoing hobbies include DIY (nothing is safe, things are being painted, renovated, re-tiled, decorated, I have no idea what I’m doing). Gardening (mostly keeping our plants alive), writing/drawing (very sparse, these are very stressful hobbies for me), crafting (learning to sew, and still have a calligraphy set and pyrography pen to use), Making lists (at this point it’s more a hobby than practical!), Fandom events/activities (comes with fandom server management), video games (so many video games), Reading (mostly fanfic, but I hope to get back to books at some point), yoga. Past hobbies include horse riding, violin, origami, knitting, puzzles, pole dance, dance, cycling, acting/improv, amv/video editing, online roleplay, film making, plus some others I probably forgot.

12) Do you have any pets? 

YES. I HAVE A CUTE SASSY BUNDLE OF OPINION AND CALIGA AND I LOVE HER

13) How tall are you?

Just pushing 5′3″ ):

14) Favourite subject in school?

Either Art, P.E, or Media Studies, depending on what we were doing at the time (fuck you beep test)

15) Dream job?

Don’t really know anymore; whatever pays me decently and doesn’t take up my life so I can live comfortably, travel, and keep up my hobbies.

Tags, in case you’re interested! @purplecatdad​ | @sweet-by-and-by​ | @avengertonystark​ | @gaslightwestern​ | @krystal-callahan​ | @sunspott​ | @mephistia-arts​ | @littlestarofthewest​ | @theyoftenwhisper​

BY THE WAY CHATTERS

Here’s some stuff about me if you even care

My name is wav I have been going by that name for years ever since middle school and although I have tried many times to abandon it I have not been able to shake it off (Taylor swift reference).

I am a 19 year old boy if you couldn’t tell by the way I am and talk about things.. I am very autistic and have had adhd ever since I was a little little child. I got ostracized as a child for it because I was the only kid in normal non special ed class who had any kind of neurodivergence and so kids didn’t really like me x3

I am asexual I don’t like sex it’s kinda lame and stuff there’s a whole story to that but you guys will never know!!!! I want to eventually prolly fall in love but I’m not very sure about that right now because I’m scared of love and relationships and I have trust issues so I’m not willing to do that right now

I currently only really hangout with 2 people, both are women, both are 22, one is in love with me, one is lesbian. Let’s start with R (the one in love with me). Now R is like awesome because she cosplays and when I ask her to do a cosplay she says “okay!” And it’s pretty awesome if you ask me. She knows I don’t have any actual feelings for her we have had the big talk about that and she’s okay with it. R is very very very very very pretty and awesome and sweet and kind but I am unfit to be in a relationship and she’s old 🤢🤮. She likes a lot of the same music I do and the other day I was really craving to listen to hatsune miku and then I started playing some and she knew the songs and it was awesome I #love R she’s one of my besties for reals

Next is C. C is lesbian so she isn’t in love with me but she always calls me cute and a twink which I think is really funny. She also says I look really breedable sometimes and I don’t know to feel about it. C is like a mother to me because whenever I’m sad she lays me on her shoulder and pets my hair and then I fall asleep laying on her shoulder and then I have my legs on R then I end up staying the night at their house.

C & R both have a lot more money than me (I am poor) so they drive me around and give feed me almost everyday and it’s the best life I could ask for.

Back to ME tho

My entire life people have told me I’m like a dog and I’ve kinda just accepted it at this point but it still feels offensive but I think deep down I know it’s true.

Here are some bands and artist I like!!!

Sodaboy64

Pavement

Mike krol

The smiths

The strokes

Weatherday

Hallowed

Nick drake

Radiohead

Dinosaur jr

The unicorns

Plumtree

Pixies

My blood valentines

Glass beach

Swirlies

The microphones

The cure

Cap’n jazz

Weezer

I hate myself because

The Sundays

Stephen malkmus and the jicks

Mad planets

Sunny day real estate

Mineral

Yuck

Moses Campbell

Cafe tacvba

Caifanes

Birdbath

Unwound

Neutral milk hotel

Jeff mangum

Stephen malkmus

J mascis

Bôa

Crying

The breeders

Feeble little horse

Worst party ever

Hatsune miku

Myself

That’s just a couple of them mostly the ones I listen to more than other music I like.

Here’s where I post music sometimes if you even care

Hhsjbf

Today I think everyone should listen to tuff ghost by the unicorns!

The unicorns are a Canadian indie rock back from the 2000s. I like to say they’re kinda like a mix of the microphones and jack stauber (if he made good music :3) but they are REALLY good!!! And not very talk about anywhere that I can see so make sure to share this song and band around with your friends!!

This is the end of the post thank you for reading my word vomit :3333

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I have decided to make my post pretty sometimes, as a treat. I cannot promise that I will always do this, but I'm feelin' pretty alright right now and I feel like doing it, so I'm doing it!

I think I'm not going to hold myself to any standard with this blog aside from my tags to help my future self find past entries. The main thing I want this blog to be is an outlet. I don't want to end up avoiding posting here because I don't feel up to making the post look or sound good, ya know?

Anyway, I don't know if I have much to write about today. At least, what I feel like writing about.

I went to Nashville with my boyfriend a few weeks ago to meet his parents for the first time. I have mixed feelings about it. They're lovely people and I especially like his mom.

But I noticed that during the whole trip, he was masking in front of them. And at the end of the day, when we were alone in our room, he seemed exhausted from having to put up that front of being "normal" all day. And that just really sucks. It honestly hurt. It hurt me to see that because I love him. I love him so much. I love who he is, I love that he's kinda quirky and weird. I love his interests and how he infodumps and the way he paces constantly when he talks. But he felt like he had to hide that from his parents and that makes me so sad.

I wish they loved him the way I love him; unconditionally.

There's a whole other complicated situation regarding him and his parents and I have my own feelings about that, but I don't feel at liberty to write about it here. I feel like it's more his business than mine, so I won't write about it out of respect for his privacy. But suffice to say, I feel for him. My heart hurts for what he's going through.

On a brighter note, I just took my official GED social studies test and passed! I took it on Thursday and found I passed about 10-15 minutes after I finished. This was my first time taking an official GED test!

There are four tests you have to take to get your GED. Social studies, science, math, and reading. So I'm one quarter of the way to getting my GED! This is the closest I've ever been and I'm honestly so proud of myself. I can hardly believe it, to be honest.

High school was extremely hard for me. I was battling extreme academic anxiety, depression, and had undiagnosed ADHD. School was unbearable for me. I dreaded waking up everyday, just the thought of opening my backpack to start homework was enough to send me into an anxiety attack, I openly talked about wanting to kill myself every single day.

My grades were only good enough to scrape me by. In some classes, I even outright failed. Namely, chemistry and algebra in 10th grade. Math was always my hardest subject. It just never clicked with me. I didn't pay attention in most of my classes. I never really did projects or papers. The only class I thrived in was English. I've always been good with reading and writing and I've always been proud of that. I was also pretty okay at Spanish. Lowest grade I ever got in that class was probably a C.

Anyway, I was also attending a dual high school/college program from 9th-10th grade. We took real college classes alongside our high school ones and earned college credits. When we graduated, we also earned an Associate's Degree.

I dropped out after 10th grade; the pressure was too much. The anxiety was too much. I felt like I could never breathe.

After I dropped out, I enrolled in an online school instead. I thought that, if I didn't have to wake up at a certain time and get ready and go to a physical place and interact with people all day, that maybe that would help.

It didn't.

Still, the thought of even opening the laptop and logging into class would hit me with a wave of anxiety that would make me nauseous. I was always avoiding school.

When you're in an online school, you need to log in a minimum amount of hours in the school year to be able to pass and continue to the next grade, regardless of how well you're doing. At some point toward the end of the school year, my mother got a call from my school, telling her that I hadn't logged in enough during the year and that there wasn't enough time left in the school year for me to make up the time - I got expelled.

So I had to repeat my junior year. 11th grade, I tried a new online school.

To be honest with you, I don't think I would've passed that year either. I still barely logged in. Still barely did my work.

But it never got that far because the school I was attending was literally shut down in the middle of the year.

So... I was kind of just left floating. I could either put myself through more personal hell by enrolling in a fourth school, or I could just call it quits and get my GED instead. I was 17 going on 18 at this point.

School was torment for me. I knew what I was going to do.

But, unfortunately for me, I was an anomaly that no one knew what to do with. When I turned 18, I started trying to get my GED. Well, I was aiming to take the HiSet test, but it's basically the same thing. However, in order to be able to get your high school equivalency, the state needs proof that you dropped out of high school. You're not legally allowed to have a high school diploma and a high school equivalency and the state is very strict about this. I don't know why anyone would go through the trouble of getting a GED if they already have a high school diploma (seriously, it's a HASSLE trying to get this fucking thing) and I don't know why it would even matter if someone did. Regardless, they're extremely strict about this rule. However, because my school shut down and literally did not exist anymore, I couldn't contact anyone to get official paperwork saying that I dropped out.

Eventually, I just had to write something myself explaining the situation.

But that wasn't the only hurdle! Of course it wasn't! Because this is my life we're talking about!

Whenever I would go online to try to schedule my test, the website would give me an error and tell me that I wasn't old enough to take the fucking test!!!!!!!!

This was something that could not be bypassed!

I tried. I fucking TRIED to get my GED when I was 18 fucking years old. I wanted to. I tried to. But time after time, I was a victim of circumstance.

Do you understand how it feels to know that the world views you as lazy and unintelligent and aloof when you know that isn't true? It feels like having a labelled stamped on your forehead and no one takes the time to listen to what you have to say to explain yourself after they read what you are. You get shoved in with a group of people that are looked down upon, that are considered less than. It feels like screaming at a brick wall.

So now I'm 23, going on 24, and I passed my first quarter of the GED test.

So much has happened in my life that has taken my attention away from education. And really, I just felt like it wasn't for me. My brain didn't work the right way. I'm not compatible with the way school works.

I think I'm starting to feel differently now that I'm medicated. I'm not certain. I'm still very hesitant about it because of the fact that school was my own personal hell for so long and I wish I were exaggerating. But I've been going to math classes twice a week to study for the math quarter of the test and surprisingly I'm the student in the class that the teacher has to say "Let someone else answer," to. Almost everything just clicks and makes sense? I don't know why math is suddenly kind of easy for me. I fear even saying that out loud because I might jinx it.

Math used to feel like reading a language I'd never seen before. But it doesn't feel like that anymore and I don't know why. It's actually kind of scary? I'm scared I'll lose it.

Anyway, I have two more tests scheduled already. Science and reading. I'm not worried about reading, I could pass that in my sleep. I didn't even bother taking the practice test. Science I was worried about initially, but apparently it's the test with the highest passing rate, and I did really well on the practice test, so I shouldn't have anything to worry about, really.

I'm gonna walk that fuckin' stage in July if it kills me! '24, baby!

tw: third year anniversary of ending one of the worst points in my life uwu so mental health issues SH talk Past thoughts of suicide talk

I'm very not used to people following this account man. Genuinely this is gonna be a very personal ramble I'll be having so be warned. I know since this is online it was always gonna be seen but I'm not used to it. Luckily this didn't happen while my account was peaking or else there'd be a lot more issues than needed.

So! Halloween was my 3 year anniversary of not killing myself, and today (or yesterday as of 4 hours ago) is my 3 year anniversary of going clean from self-harm. It's a bit ironic how I was actually contemplating hurting myself during these days, legitimately not as a relapse thing but because I have some chest acne that's been bothering me and turning them into scabs tends to make them go away faster. I don't count that as self-harm at all since it's not emotionally based on release but more as a weird side effect that I can now do thanks to my self-inflicted high pain tolerance. This anniversary is especially important to me because it's been six years since I planned to die. So now I've spent about as much time suicidal as I've spent recovering. Though it's more like 3 and a half years, so check back next June.

I know it's poor taste to say, but there are a few good things that came from all this mixed in the ocean of terribleness. I genuinely like my scars (how they feel, look, represent). I don't think they make me look better than before but I don't think they retract from my appearance at all. I get tattoos now instead of hurting myself to get the same meaning in a healthier way though. I also love having a high pain tolerance, it gives me more options on how to live my life and keeps me from hurting as much in general. And now that I'm hyper-obsessed with not becoming an abuser like my intrusive thoughts say I will inevitably be, I'm learning a lot about myself and how I function in order to work around and fight against impulses. Uh. And that's all the good things. And I could go on for hours about everything else and the rest is all bad.

I think I'm doing a lot better than I was last year. It's honestly strange. I kind of feel like I'm experiencing my childhood again, because everything's normal now. Middle school and puberty has been associated with being traumatized to me, so now that everything is normal and nobody is hurting me (and it's so fucked up how that tremendously traumatic experience is really just a 7-year event that could have happened to anyone, that I can just stumble upon trauma and will inevitably stumble into pain like that again against my will it's so fucked), it feels like I'm a kid again. A very, very, very, very busy kid. A kid who needs naptime and eats too much candy for Halloween and can still kind of summersault and somehow still has too many expectations for the world. I'm hoping maybe I can reclaim some of the hope I used to have. Normalcy feels nostalgic to me I guess.

But yeah, I'm doing better. I'm always tired, I cry pretty much daily, I have the emotional maturity/understanding of a 12-year-old, and despite having been in the semester for like 11 weeks I still haven't scheduled an appointment with the counseling center, but I got diagnosed with ADHD, I'm having more fun with my fashion than ever, I fully understand and accept myself as trans despite being so cis-passing, and apparently I see myself as worthy enough to ask my splat out. I wasn't able to ask her out on Halloween, mostly cuz I knew she was too busy and didn't wanna burden her further. However we eat lunch together now and if I can get my rizz together I might ask her for dinner. I was not able to see myself as worthy enough for another relationship last year.

I'm happy to be alive. I've always been happy to be alive. It's just that I spent so long not living that I stopped thinking there was a point. And now I'm alive again. It's nice.

ISTD - Target Audience Research

University Students in the UK

I have decided to refine it to university students in the UK for my target audience. This makes it easier as the age range will be 17+ so I can be more specific with my outcomes and my research

there are approximately 2.86 million students in the UK ranging from first year to postgraduate

proportionately more overseas students studying postgraduate courses

over 160 universities in the UK

age range - 17-29

Disability

approximately 436,730 students in the UK have reported having a disability or mental health issue

144,230 (33%) students with disabilities have learning difficulties such as dyslexia, dyspraxia and ADHD.

131,900 students reported mental health conditions such as depression, schizophrenia and anxiety disorder

Religion

47% of students have no religion or belief

the majority of religions include Muslim, Hinduism and Christian

Ethnicity

73% of students are of white ethnicity

12% of students are Asian

9% of students are black

4.5% has a mixed ethnicity

2% were of other ethnic groups

Potential reasons why this user range has an increase in mental illness

Screen Time

on average, students spend 55 hours online a week, but only 14 hours of this doing university work

57% of students admitted they use the internet more for entertainment purposes than for studying

more than a third of those age 16-25 spend at least 3 hours a day on social media

this can affect sleep quality as studies have found those who use social media before bed tend to be disturbed the most during their sleep

A publication in the journal of medical internet research found little evidence that spending more time on social media impacts mental health, however it does impact self-esteem

clear relationship between low self-esteem and mental health issues

studies are unclear of whether there is a clear impact or not

some studies have linked increase social media use with depression and anxiety, however some have found it can increase social support and reduce loneliness.

Weather

For international students coming from warmer climates and moving to the UK, especially in the colder months has been shown to have a big impact on students' mental health

Weather has a direct link to mood

Cold weather also increases the number of physical health issues for students such as colds and flus

less exposure to the sun can drastically affect mood

Seasonal affective disorder affects around 2 million people in the UK and can affect any age

reduced sunlight exposure results in lower serotonin hormone levels and higher melatonin (stimulates fatigue)

Financial Issues:

51% of students surveyed said that the rising cost of living was impacting their mental health

one in three students surveyed were struggling financially

75% of students were found to be worried about finances

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Johnson, A. (2023). The impact of social media use on young people’s mental health - NIHR School for Public Health Research. [online] NIHR School for Public Health Research. Available at: https://sphr.nihr.ac.uk/news-and-events/news/the-impact-of-social-media-use-on-young-peoples-mental-health/ [Accessed 11 Oct. 2023].

Money (2022). Cost of living and student mental health - Money and Mental Health. [online] Money and Mental Health Policy Institute. Available at: https://www.moneyandmentalhealth.org/cost-of-living-students/#:~:text=Financial%20hardship%20and%20mental%20wellbeing&text=Half%20(51%25)%20of%20the,%2D19%20pandemic%20(12%25). [Accessed 11 Oct. 2023].

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Got tagged by @krokaxe Thank you!! :D Tagging @violettea @lobo-chan @library-bat 1. Are you named after anyone?

I am technically named after my father though I was originally going to be named Beverly. Rica is also my name in all but a legal sense

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2. When was the last time you cried?

Literally yesterday, was reading a fanfic and I started crying about it. I've got a hair trigger crying instinct

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3. Do you have kids?

Fuck no, but I got niblings I love very much

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4. Do you use sarcasm a lot?

I'm from Northern US, if we aren't being sarcastic you should be concerned

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5. What sports do you play/have you played?

I dont do it regularly but badminton, horseshoes, cornhole, and bowling

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6. What's the first thing you notice about other people?

Online it's mostly vibes, some of yall are more honest about yourself in a way that's really uncomfortable. In real life people's eyes are the first thing I tend to notice

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7. Eye color?

Dark chocolate-y brown uwu

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8. Scary movies or happy endings?

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9. Any special talents?

I'm a pretty good writer if I do say so myself, strong voice for the characters I'm writing when I do. That said my only real 'random' talent is my ability to read really fuckin fast

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10. Where were you born?

Texas in the land of the screaming Eagles

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11. What are your hobbies?

Writing/Roleplaying of both the play by post and TTRPG variety, way too many video games, watching all sorts of media from horror to comedy to action to fantasy, and a host of neglected hobbies from ADHD spurts of obsession

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12. Do you have any pets?

A mixed tortie named Tear

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13. How tall are you?

5'2"

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14. Fave subject in school?

English and Sociology

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15. Dream job?

None? I don't really have a dream career but I'm happy doing customer service work as long as I'm paid well and treated with respect