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Jump Festa 2024 recap
Still trying to remember the 30 minutes. I don’t think it will be archived. If one misses it, you won’t see it again unless someone recorded it.
Anyway, Enojun is so used to attending the Jump Festa events he’s an expert already. So before starting he asked the audience to say their names, that is Enojun egging the public to chant “Azakami” and vice versa. One attendee who posted on X Twitter said that she was so shy chanting Enojun’s name. This year has been Azakami’s first time. He presented two series. Apart from RKDD, the other was a baseball anime, Boukyaku Battery, produced by MAPPA. Other cast members included Mamoru Miyano, Yuji Kaji and Nobunaga Shimazaki. And do you know what Youhei’s character name is?? Aoi Todo. Yes, yes. The universe is rarely so lazy. This seems to be an alternate universe of Jujutsu Kaisen’s baseball episode. (There’s a manga, I gathered… and the first publication date coincided with Akutami’s JJK.) Yuji Itadori and Aoi Todo. Together again. Joking. Apologies.
From Enojun’s X
Only two questions from the audience were picked. I didn’t get their answers. The first one was their fave gag scene and the second was between a detective and an assistant, which role would be suitable for them. Of the first, Enojun remarked that Ron’s Torage self-made T-shirt. But like what I said I didn’t get the rest of their answers. Sorry.
This might be Youhei’s first time, but darn, he’s so good at entertaining the audience already.
All in all, it was short but very enjoyable. Here’s crossing my fingers that someone would have recorded their shoujo moments. Just witnessing their reaction after the other uttered the dialogue from episodes 6 and 7 made me giggle!!! Just like @eiko-hoshino just commented, Enojun ran away as soon as Youhei said the words “I cried and screamed when I was arrested five years ago, didn't I? I've finally figured out why I'm not as panicked this time. Five years ago, I didn't have Toto.” Cringe and embarrassment. 😂 Perhaps. Enojun, you don’t need to be shy. Truly understand as it was an emotionally charged dialogue and to perform it in front of the audience might be daunting. And to be the recipient of that would have been tremendously challenging. It didn’t matter if you were only acting.
Edit: Come to think of it. Methinks Junya was reenacting the scene where Toto was running while Youhei’s Ron realised Toto’s importance to him. Junya didn’t run away bc he was embarrassed or so. He was acting the scene out. 😂
Anyway, Enojun, don’t worry, your Toto is so good. When it was his turn to say his fluffy moment, he and Youhei stood up again but Youhei insisted not facing the audience. 😼 So Enojun continued, “You can't quit over something like that!… It was just an accident. I swear, don't write me off as a goner so readily. Next time, I'll stop you. So I want you to have some faith in Kamonohashi Ron, too!”
The audience was so delighted and the online comments surged with heart emojis and awwws.
Hopefully, someone did record it. It would be nice to rewatch it.
#kamonohashi ron no kindan suiri#ron kamonohashi#totomaru isshiki#akira amano#ron et toto#ron kamonohashi: deranged detective#deranged detective#rkdd news#rkdd on jump festa 2024#rontoto#youhei azakami#junya enoki
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Is there a love story behind elloona👀???
I’m glad you asked 👀
To answer your question: Yes. There is, in fact, a love story behind my relationship with @maruke2003.
Here are the names in case you don’t remember:
El/Ellie — @maruke2003
Seph — @halfblood-princes-crown
Astro — @astronova-00
Martina/Mars Bars — @bookwalmartav
Will/Willow — @somesnapefan2
Rose — @rosetheslytherpuffxoxo
Teddy — @teddyscottish
Anyway
I’ll start from the ✨beginning✨
Disclaimer: This is input from both sides. I have told El about this question and we’ve discussed it.
Funnily enough, we met through our first adopted child—Seph. He was the reason El and I became friends, wives, and mothers. 😌
So, I never noticed El, even though she noticed me a little before. I only really noticed her when she began sending Seph Snupin drabbles to try and convert him into becoming a Snupin shipper.
(I’ll get to that in a bit ^)
How we felt about each other before we became friends:
El told me that: “You intimidated the fuck out of me but I wanted to be your friend cuz I thought you were cool.” (😕) Because of my aura, apparently.
And, I feel bad for saying this but, I was a bit weirded out when I first noticed her sending asks to Seph. Back then, I was only friends with four members of the Elloona fam (Seph, Astro, Will, and Martina) and Seph was my fave person on Tumblr. I wasn’t weirded out in a mean-sorta-way, I was just like “hold the phone. who’s this person and why’s Seph friends with them?” because I’ve never noticed their existence before and was curious because they really seemed to love Snupin, so I was like.. there’s a Snupin shipper trying to convert my bestie and I didn’t know about it?😭
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Moving on, it had finally dawned on me that Seph didn’t ship Snupin, so I was like *le gasp* and sent him this ask where I expressed my shock over him not shipping Snupin and told him that I can send a bunch of recs. Seph of course refused (🙄). On the other hand, @maruke2003, seeing this, tags me in the replies (all the replies are there in the post I linked btw, so you can go check them out for yourself) and asks me to send me some recs for our wonderful OTP, and I, being myself, decide to create The Ultimate Snupin Fanfic List and list almost 50 fics—in which there are series included (so idk if each part of the series counts as an individual fic). She thanked me for it and noticed that one of the fics I recommended to her was Lily’s Boy by SomewheresSword, so she was like “OMG I LOVE LILY’S BOY” and told me I went a bit overboard. I told her she had wonderful taste and apologised, then she said she opened like 20 new fics and that “we’ll need to chat about Snupin one day cuz YES.”
Here was the exchange, for the lazy ones:
And that was that. I was just like “aight ig they’re pretty cool (if you ship Snupin, I automatically like you, that’s the rule), I hope we’ll manage to convert Seph one day.” I simply moved on with life.
Then around two days later El DMs me, iirc it was about Lily’s Boy (and Snupin fics as a whole), I was kinda like “oh” but replied anyway. We got to talking and it was enjoyable, then we soon started messaging each other everyday. And then boom. Chaotic Snupin-loving besties.
How we became wives:
One day, a random idea popped up in my head: What if El and I had a ship tag for our interactions for both of our blogs? I thought it’d be a fun little touch to both our blogs and so I told her about it, and she said we should make a ship name for us. Then we exchanged some choices and El came up with: ✨Elloona✨
I don’t remember at what point of our relationship did we start calling each other wives, but it just happened. I’m pretty sure it might have started when Ellie edited her bio and added “Moon is my wife” (🥹), and I was like omg let’s do that for each other and so I changed my bio. And we pretty much just went with that.
El and I kinda made flirty comments with each other bc we’re both dirty-minded and we love to make dumb jokes, so I think that’s where it started.
How we became mothers / How we became The Elloona Fam:
One day, Ellie just told me “I adopted Seph” and I was like yoooo. I thought it’d just stop at Seph but El and I soon started to gather up more and more children.
Here is the order of who we adopted:
1. Seph
2. Astro (who declared themselves as our child 🙂)
3. Martina
4. Rose
And we also got siblings for ourselves, Ellie has two siblings—our children’s aunts: Will and Teddy. I don’t have a sibling in the Elloona fam (THE POSITION IS OPEN but if we aren’t that close I’ll have to decline <3), but I suppose I have more than enough irl siblings to make up for that 🤷♀️
One day, El came up with a new tag: “The Elloona fam.” And now we just accepted it as our family name. We also created some other tags: “stan the Elloona fam for clear skin,” “Elloona and their first child,” (<- I came up with the first two 😌), “the Elloona fam,” “Elloona fam,” and “the Elloona sisters.” We might create one for the children but they hardly interact. 🙄
So yeah, I guess this just about covers it. Thanks for asking!
#i’m using all the elloona fam tags here btw#->#elloona#stan the elloona fam for clear skin#the elloona fam#elloona fam#elloona and their first child#the elloona sisters#ask#asks
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VERY interested in creator commentary for the 3rd life webweave (seriously one of the coolest things ive seen made in this fandom, its gorgeously edited AND very funny AND the quotes themselves are all knock-your-socks off material. That Rosencrantz And Guildenstern Line Holy Shit)
Okay so first off THANK YOU that's super kind! It's nerve-wracking posting graphic design that is reconstituted from other sources, bc I've seen it perceived as a 'lazy' or unskilled format, so this is really really encouraging to hear.
I am not a concise person, which is why this has taken so long! I realized as I was initially responding that I was trying to dive into three separate topics:
The actual process I follow, my tips + tricks on making web weaves
Analysis of my 3rd Life web weave
My philosophy towards web weaves and collage as an art form
Only one of those is the question you actually asked, so #2 is what I'll be talking about in this post! However, I am working on a video overview of the other topics, because I think they're worth exploring - I will obviously post that on this blog once it's done.
To avoid jumpscaring anyone with a wall of text, I've thrown my commentary under a readmore.
The one takeaway I'll mention before we dive in is if anyone has a character/narrative web weave request, please hit me up! I have so many I'm working on, having a next topic suggestion is super helpful to narrow things down.
General Creation Comments
I am At All Times collecting images, so it's only a matter of time until I make a webweave for a group/ concept/ person:
(My phone storage is Certainly being utilized. Also I will never be free of making these.)
It just so happened that my Third Life folder filled up fastest/ felt like it was in a good balance to work with, so that's what I started with!
I try to use a mix of text and images, and both serious and funny stuff. Even at its most serious the Life Series is also funny, and it's important to reflect that!
That said, if you compare the jokes I've picked in this piece vs the void falling web weave, you'll notice the jokes on this one trend sharper. The 'How to Detect Misery' and 'How to Tell if it's Over' memes (both from @thatsbelievable, who is a GREAT source of web weave content) are morbidly funny. Surviving horrific circumstances, preparing to suffer, unimaginable violence, eroticism and death, covered in blood - all of the jokes are violent.
As I go, I weed out posts that don't fit, or (mostly) prune text posts out. Too much text ruins the flow, and I LOVE words so I tend to have too much writing and not enough art.
3rd life had only a few things that didn't make the cut, bc I was fairly judicious as I added to that folder, but these were scrapped:
As I added the posts I knew I wanted and split them between panels, I naturally started seeing a 'flow' from early game biomes/bases and the more tender pairings, into violence + devotion, and then ending in.. something. I wasn't sure what I wanted the end to be yet.
I ran out of posts, and knew I needed Wayyy more images to offset the text, so I went looking through the Smithsonian's excellent collection of CC0-licensed art!
That's where I found the Perfect Image - that last picture of the red angel laid low. I knew immediately that it needed to be most of the final scene, with very little obscuring or distracting from it.
Okay, diving into specific panel analysis!
Panel One
It's the beginning, so everything is still fairly light - lots of brown and green tones.
The summary (imo) is that every faction in 3rd Life is in different stories!
Grian and Scar are playing cowboys, an old Western style narrative where they're beholden to each other, out to get the Bad Guys (even if objectively they're the ones being violent little instigators).
Flower Husbands are a greek fucking tragedy, Jimmy's sudden loss and Scott in mourning, trying to cause as much destruction as possible before the gods knock him down too.
Dogwarts are a middle English story of fealty and homosocial bonds and dying for honor.
And the Crastle is like. Shakespeare or Arthur Miller or Stoppard. They are in a theater, they are playing with all of the narratives. Too aware of the trajectory they're on, and entirely unable to stop it.
The images on the first page are the four primary pairings in 3rd Life - top left, in the background of the 'How to Detect Misery' meme, is the desert. The sudden punchline of that meme felt like a good starting point - a creeper-blast of a joke.
The pair to the right represent Scott and Jimmy. I liked the Impressionist and classic myth-inspired stylization. Also, the toga blended near-seamlessly into the desert hill so it looked almost like a wing, implying a tie to angels as well as foreshadowing Jimmy's death AND Scott's partnership with Grian/Scar.
Up in the top right-hand corner is a little Crastle, and the pair embracing on the right side of the page are Bdubs and Cleo. The red hair fit, but it was the old-fashioned clothing and sense of finality that I really liked.
On the left is Dogwarts - Ren and Martyn. I wanted an image that had a very different style, as they were opposed to desert duo + everyone else. I felt the sketchy ink stood out and elicited ideas of worn vellum paper. It felt like a sketch you'd discover sitting in a chest of a long-worn-down enchanting room.
There's a forest and a mostly-occluded castle in the background art on page one, also meant to represent Dogwarts. That forest bleeds into the next page, where the violence really begins.
Panel Two
We've started with a forest, but it's darker than the last one, and wilder.
Bursts of red stand out violently on the page.
'Fallen Angel' is a classic for emotionally fraught blorboposting! There are many, Many Mountain Goats songs that fit, but the way a-doctor-not-a-fangirl paired this line with this painting was striking to me. In particular, I like how 'getting revenge' was something that drove most of 3rd Life, even though Red Lives (come unhinged) were meant to be the driving force of violence. They weren't supposed to have bonds, they weren't supposed to have allies! But it's the bonds that drove the violence.
The 'I heart eroticism and death' cut-out plopped onto the collage was intended to feel like a kind of cheesy tourist stamp - 'I killed my friends in horrible death games and all I got was this lousy t-shirt' vibes.
The 'First off' comment feels like the illogical thought proces all of the doomed players (so, all of the players) were following - "if I just do well enough at murder, this will all be over."
The 'moments of grace' image is probably my most indulgent addition. I wanted a softer, quiet nod to the good parts, to the fun and the joy in between the violence. In particular, the dawn breaking on waves reminded me of the short span Grian and Scar spent tensely placing TNT under sand in the desert. I imagine silent cooperation and the sussuration of sand on sand, and quiet for just a few minutes.
'It's better to know how to let others unmask you and to endure the rule of the game' means: if you are too good, if you survive long enough, you will end up alone. This is about Bdubs and Cleo - kings of roleplay, of being a little overeager and dying for it and getting a mercifully quick ending. It is also about the cactus ring.
Panel Three
The centerpiece of this page is 'G-d's Idea', the beautiful abstract painting of a blood-soaked angel. It makes me insane every time I see it. Grim reaper in mourning kinda guy
I wanted to do something to tie more directly to the end, but didn't want to pull a disembodied-face-in-90s-grad-photo approach to add Scar. So I found a drawing that looked like the Monopoly Mountain build, and carefully added it onto one wing. I really really like this as an addition, it is probably my favorite combination in this post.
The Anne Carson quote is obvs in Minecraft font - I also split up the lines, so that the left and right side loosely create their own sentences/ideas. "There is a theory that watching other people is good for you" and "Unbearable stories may cleanse you of your darkness." I wish I had been more careful with the contrast on 'yourself all', but oh well, we can just call it being difficult to read an experiential facet of the poem.
"Do you want to go down to the pits of yourself all alone?" is a good fucking line, and manages to mirror both the commentary on us the viewers AND the experience of the creators AND the experience of the characters. We get to experience violence vicariously, the creators get to experience it with friends + in safety, and the characters (or character, I should say, just Grian left by the time you're reading this) are experiencing that low point totally alone.
Aside from the obvious fit, the Rosencrantz + Guildenstern lines stand in as a conversation between the viewers and the characters. The appraising description of kiling and dying beautifully makes way for a mournful interruption that no, fuck that, this isn't a game for us (with some obvious irony there).
Finally, I needed it to end funny; the whole thing is already more serious than it probably should've been. I like this joke because it's short, and it implies the aftermath in a comedic way. Picturing everyone spawning back into Hermitcraft, covered in blood, upset, but mostly with a profoundly awkward sense of 'well I fucked that one up. That got a bit more homoerotic than intended, and now every other shopping trip I have to make awkward eye contact with the person I mcMurdered."
Again, thank you so much for your ask and kind words! I'm looking forward to making a general guide video on web weaves one of these days :D
#salem tag#salem chatter#3lsmp#3lsmp meta#i am going to go pass out but i hope some of this is what you were hoping to hear about lol#salem answer
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For the meme about questions about your muse's series: who are some of your favorite characters?
man i love the whole cast so i’ll really just introduce some of my faves because they’re ever changing a circulating thing for me lol ....so aside ogata
ASIRPA - the deuteragonist! Asirpa is essentially child pulled into this mess by her father faced with big questions, not only about her dad but also about the ainu. Frankly, it’s an unfair burden hard to share with others. She’s also very afraid of being left alone by Sugimoto after the gold hunt is over.
SUGIMOTO SAICHI - main character haha. I love him, I don’t talk about him as much but he’s a fantastic character too. On one hand he does have a good heart but he can be awfully shortsighted and just ...stops thinking sometimes. Fiercely protective, haunted by the war but also violent, ruthless and without mercy not only to others but to himself.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BWKvFlQlrZA << also this scene never fails to make me cry (im giving anime link here but read manga if u want to get into the series lol anime’s missing a lot)
TSURUMI TOKUSHIROU - ahh idk how to put this eloquently and shortly. god there’s so much anyway he’s hot. Upper half of his face is wounded, scar tissue surroundings eyes and his forehead leaking brain liquid sometimes still, normally wears a plate for this reason. He’s one of the big players in series, wanting to acquire the gold to ,among other things, start a coup at Hokkaido. Intelligent, charismatic. He’s gentle, loving to his devoted followers ‘’rising’’ them with love . In a way he does genuinely love his followers, the loyal ones anyhow but only in exchange to complete unquestioning, loyalty. “Shinigami” he’s called and also “the devil”, seducing (so to speak)people to his side.... I could write a lot about him, he’s so many things and he’s fantastic.
Boutarou the Pirate (Oosawa Fusetarou) - One of the escaped convicts with a tattooed skin (code for finding the gold.) He drowned people and robbed them. Can hold his breath for a LONG TIME under the water. Tall man with long hair and HUGE FEET (36 cm). Recent addition to the story, he seems to be from a poor background. His goal is that he wants to built a country, to become a king of it or pick someone’s goal HE deems worthy of it. I believe he basically wants to become someone big enough for he lacked importance but ..... 259 will confirm that. I love his whole motif of being a sea monster basically, i really hope he’s a longterm stay in the cast....
KADOKURA - a lazy, simple guy that wants nothing but peace but is however dead loyal to Hijikata Toshizo. He’s someone that was born under unlucky star, constantly getting into accidents but on the flipside it seems that he also has a freak luck in staying alive. He’s absolutely not in the same level in the fighting as many others are in the cast, he cant run for a long time, but he’s still valuable asset in his own way. Like Shiraishi he’s a valuable asset in his ordinary self... He doesn’t even hav I really just enjoy the presence of these absolute nonfighter types that run out of breath running etc.
There’s a recent plottwist that sure will cause trouble for him, poor guy.
He’s a tanuki - not ... literally but that’s the general motif he has! Maybe not the huge balls tho.
#god i wanted to include so many others sobs#im not good at writing character profiles lol#shiraishi has recently been plucking my heartstrings#what a good guy#watcherofthecrypts#not editing series questions into ask posts bc lazy
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last christmas (spencer reid/reader)
Title: Last Christmas
Requested: no
Couple: spencer reid/gen-neutral!reader
Category: mostly fluff, but some angst
Content Warning: cheating, swearing, christmas (tagging bc i know some ppl don’t celebrate and could be a trigger), pregnancy, engagements, verbal arguments, kissing/making out, swearing, post prison/post series (minor spoilers, but idk)
Word Count: 7,864
Summary: last christmas: reader gets proposed to on christmas night. The very next day, they find out their fiance is cheating on them. So they go spend the night with their best friend, Spencer Reid. this year: Reader gets proposed to by someone special.
A/N: being forced to listen to christmas music for 3-6 hours at work can really do something to someone. And that’s either murder or writing a cute one-shot… so I went with the latter… bc that’s so much easier than murder. and, this was hardly edited.... sorry for any grammatical errors... Anyways, happy holidays, thank you all for the love and support! Check out my masterlist!
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Last Christmas:
It’s the most wonderful time of the year, as the song would say. The lights on the trees and houses around were beautiful. The downtown was always decked out with bizarre lights and statues, as well as people in full 18th-century garb. Loved ones gathering to celebrate the holidays with their friends and family.
I didn’t know anyone who loved Christmas more than myself. Everyone who knew me, knew that Christmas was my favorite holiday. I tried my hardest to live my best stereotypical Christmas movie life. I’m pretty sure my boyfriend hated it… So, I guess it’s a good thing that all my friends and co-workers loved it.
“I don’t exactly understand why we have to go to this party,” Jasper looked down at me with a mild annoyance. I smiled before knocking firm on the door. A quick glance at him told him to be quiet.
“We went to your work party, so it’s only fair we go to mine,” I looked back at the door. A moment later, the door flew open and there stood David Rossi with his wife, Krystall, beside him. “David, Krystall,” I smiled as I pulled my hand from Jasper to hug the couple. “Merry Christmas,” I hummed happily once we parted. I turned to Jasper and took the bottle of wine to give to them.
“And to you. Please, come in. Reid, Penelope, and Emily are all here.” David graciously took the wine from me and invited us in. I grasped Jasper’s hand once again and pulled him inside.
“Do you need help with anything?” I looked towards David as I took my jacket off. Krystall took it and brought it to a spare room, where I would assume all the other jackets were kept.
“We’re almost done. Just get yourself a drink and relax,” he smiled and hugged me one last time. I looked up at Jasper and led him to the living room where Spencer, Penelope, and Emily were. I only knew they were there because I could hear their laughter and lively conversations.
“C’mon, we don’t have to stay for too long,” I looked up at him with a smile. He nodded before pecking my lips, “I promise,” I smiled as I stared at him.
“Yeah, okay,” he nodded as he glanced at my friends, “I’m gonna run to the bathroom real quick, I’ll be right back,” he whispered before pressing a kiss to my lips. I smiled and watched as he walked away. Once he was around the corner, I walked over to the living room.
“Hey you,” Emily looked up at me as I sat next to Spencer, “How are you?” she smiled. I looked at Spencer and smiled.
“I’m good. Jasper’s nieces and nephews woke us up at like 5 in the morning… And we were up late wrapping their presents,” I laughed and shook my head, “But it was exciting watching them rip through everything,” I added and nodded.
“Sounds Henry and Michael,” Spencer dryly laughed as he looked over at me.
“Or was it because they got to see their Uncle Spencer?” I asked, raising an eyebrow. Spencer looked away from me and smiled, a small blush rising on his cheeks. “I’d get that excited too if I saw you first thing in the morning,” I smiled.
“Could you be any cuter, I swear,” Penelope looked between Spencer and I. I looked at her and raised an eyebrow.
“And on that note, I’m going to the bathroom real quick,” Spencer looked at me before standing up.
“Oh, Jasper’s in there right now, so it could be a minute,” I looked up at him as he started to walk away. “Or you could find one of the other many bathrooms Rossi has,” I smiled at him.
“Yeah, yeah,” Spencer waved me off before he walked away. I watched as he walked around the corner, leaving it to be just me, Emily, and Penelope.
“How was your guys’ morning?” I looked back at them with a smile. Emily looked at Penelope before looking at me. The smile she wore made me feel warm and fuzzy inside.
“It was good. It was pretty lazy. Just Andrew and I,” Emily nodded before taking a sip of her wine. I nodded and watched her sip. “He said he’d be joining us, but he’ll be a little late,” she added once she put her glass down.
“Oh good! I’d love to see good ole Mendoza,” I laughed. Emily looked at me and raised an eyebrow. “What? Andrew is a great guy,” I shrugged.
“Well, I had a great Christmas! I got to see my Chocolate Thunder and his spawn and Queen,” Penelope cut in before either of us could further a comment.
“How is Morgan? I wish I got to see him more,” I frowned as I looked over at Penelope. Jasper stepped back in, and Spencer was right in tow. Spencer returned to his seat beside me and Jasper on the other side. There was a certain tension in the room now that those two stepped in. I knew those two always butted heads, but they tried to get along for me. But at the same time, I hated when they were around each other. There was always something for them to fight about. And, most of the time it was nothing.
“Uh, well,” Penelope started after a moment of very awkward silence. I looked at her and swallowed the lump in my throat. “Derek’s great! Hank’s great! I swear I could just eat him up,” her voice was high pitched as she lifted her hands like she was pinching an imaginary person’s cheeks.
“Derek or Hank?” Emily looked at Penelope with a raised eyebrow. I wanted to listen into the conversation. But it was so hard when I had two bags of testosterone sitting beside me.
“Are you okay,” I looked over at Jasper and whispered. He tensed as I grasped his hand. He looked at me and smiled lightly.
“Yeah, yeah, work called,” he nodded and looked down at me. I furrowed my eyebrows before pouting. I furrowed my eyebrows before pouting. I could hear Spencer’s scowl from behind me. I wanted to turn back and tell him off, but I refrained.
“But it’s Christmas,” I whispered.
“Don’t worry. It was an easy fix, over the phone,” he smiled before pecking my lips.
After several minutes of banter with everyone, Jennifer and Will, Matt and Kristy, and Luke arrived, all with various bags or boxes. I instantly got up to help someone or everyone, or anyone who wanted my help (and that happened to be Luke).
“Merry Christmas,” Jennifer smiled as she embraced me. I squeezed her tight before muttering the words back to her. She looked at me and raised an eyebrow, a little bit of concern in her eyes. “Did you have a good day,”
“Of course I did,” I smiled as I looked at her. I sighed deeply before looking over my shoulder at Spencer and Jasper. They were talking to each other and I honestly couldn’t tell if the conversation was a good conversation or not. I was just worried that Jasper and I would be leaving early and having an argument on the way home.
“Your boys fighting?” Jennifer asked as she followed my gaze to the two men.
“Honestly, with those two? I never know. I just wish for Christmas they wouldn’t fight,” I rolled my eyes. Jennifer laughed lightly as she looked back at me.
“I’m sure they’ll get along, someday,” she reassured. I looked back at her, dropping my shoulders. “And, for now, don’t worry about it,” she hummed once she saw my disappointment.
“Anyways, Penelope saw Chocolate Thunder for Christmas,” I looked over at Penelope and smiled. She looked back at me with a childlike excitement once I talked about her forbidden love.
“Oh? Really? I would love to hear more about that trip,” Jennifer looked over at the people sitting in the living room. I smiled as I watched Penelope recount her trip to the others.
“Wine,” David appeared beside me with a glass of wine. I smiled before graciously taking it from him.
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I was happy to see that Jasper seemed to join in on the conversations with everyone, instead of sitting and wallowing in whatever emotion he was in. But I knew something was going on, because I could feel a certain annoyance or nervousness coming from him. Being on a team with a bunch of FBI profilers really helps to tell when something is wrong.
I smiled at Spencer and Jennifer before silently excusing myself to sit beside Jasper. Even though I couldn’t see him, I could feel Spencer’s eyes watching me. No matter what the situation was, he was always protective of me. He was my best friend, so I shouldn’t be too worried. He was more protective over me when it came to Jasper, too. He hated Jasper.
“Is everything okay,” I asked as I sat beside him on the couch. He turned to face me more and grasped both my hands. A certain worry was in his eye, which made me worry. “Is everything okay,” I looked at him, trying to push away all my anxieties.
“I just wasn’t sure if I would get the chance to ask you a question,” his voice was low. I furrowed my eyebrows as he pulled his hands from mine. I watched as he stood up in front of me. He cleared his throat, getting the attention of everyone else in the room. The room went silent as everyone turned to look at Jasper and I (but mostly Jasper). “Can I have everyone’s attention for just a moment,” he spoked, shoving his hands in his pockets.
Once he was certain he had the floor and everyone’s attention, more specifically mine, he looked back at me. He had a certain gleam in his eye that made me feel happy, and the exact opposite of nervous and worried.
“You’re the only person I’ve ever loved. There is no one I would rather spend my entire life with than you,” his words were smooth like butter and he was as relaxed as ever. He slowly lowered to the ground, kneeling on one knee. I brought my hands to my lips as I gasped. The girls around me were instantly squealing from excitement and the guys were stunned into silence. Spencer just glared from his seat across the room. “Will you marry me?” Jasper asked as he pulled his hand from his pocket. A black velvet box was in his hands, and inside was a diamond ring. I widened my eyes and felt the breath escape my lungs.
The room fell silent with his proposal. Everyone’s eyes fell on us, and I could feel the cold and mildly judgemental stare from Spencer. Of course, I wanted to say yes. I loved Jasper. And, no one could make me feel otherwise.
“Of course I’ll marry you, you fool,” I smiled at him as slid to the edge of the couch. A series of applause came from everyone as Jasper slid the ring on my finger. I rested my hands on his cheeks before pulling him into a kiss.
“Well, I think it’s time to pop open a bottle of champagne,” David spoke in a cheery tone before standing. I looked up at him with a smile and watched as he walked towards the kitchen. I looked back at Jasper before kissing him once again.
“I’m going to see if he needs any help,” Spencer spoke cooly before leaving. I looked at him, watching as he left. I looked over at Jennifer with a raised eyebrow, silently asking her to go see what’s wrong. She nodded before chasing after Spencer.
{***}{***}{***}
“Again, congratulations,” Krystall smiled as she hugged me. I returned the hug. As I pulled away, she grasped my hand. “Merry Christmas,” she looked up at me. I smiled before turning to David.
“Thank you guys so much. I’ll see you on Monday,” I looked at the couple again before turning to leave. Jasper had already gone out to the care to start it, seeing as it was very cold out.
“I’ll walk you out,” Spencer spoke up from behind David and Krystall. I looked past the couple at Spencer. He was already wearing his jacket and scarf. He wanted to leave the second Jasper proposed.
“Yeah, of course,” I smiled and nodded. Spencer gave his pardons to David and Krystall before we finally stepped outside.
“Did you have a good Christmas, Spence,” I looked up at him as we walked down the sidewalk. He kept his eyes low on the ground as we walked, and the silence he gave me was nearly deafening. I glanced at him, half worried because he’s never ever this quiet. Even when a sour police officer was getting annoyed or fed up with him, he wouldn’t even shut up.
“Yeah, yeah, spent it with my mom and JJ’s family,” he nodded as he kept his eyes low. I smiled and nodded. “What about you,” he finally looked over at me.
“Yeah, yep… Spent it with Jasper and his family and friends,” I nodded as I shoved my hands into my pocket.
“Not yours?” Spencer stopped walking. He grabbed my wrist, causing me to stop. I turned around and looked up at him. “I mean, it’s not very fair that he forced you to spend the holidays with his friends and family, and he looked like he wanted to jump off a bridge the whole time you were here… And you weren’t even here that long,”
“Spencer!” I looked up at him as I exclaimed. I stared at him with wide eyes. “What the hell is going on with you?” I dropped my shoulders as I looked at him.
“I’m just speaking the truth,” Spencer shrugged before he put his hands in his pockets. I shook my head and let out a laugh of disbelief.
“I gotta go,” I shook my head before turning to leave. I could hear Spencer muttering something to himself as I turned, and I just knew he had more to say.
“He doesn’t even love you!” Spencer shouted as I walked towards the car. I froze, staring at the window and Jasper sitting inside. I’m sure he could hear my argument with my best friend. My heart was in my throat and I could feel myself starting to get sick. My head started to get a little woozy. “I’ve seen the way he’s looked at you and talked to you! And, he doesn’t…”
“Spencer,” I turned around to look at him, feeling the irritation growing in my head and my heart. He was looking at me, face filled with fury. The expression on his face told me he was telling the truth, but also Spencer would never lie to me.
His eyes grew watery as he stared at me, and I knew the next thing he would say would probably break my heart. He was already telling the truth, a truth that I didn’t want to believe.
“Please don’t marry him,” his voice lowered as he spoke. And I swear I heard it crack. I swallowed roughly as I looked at him. “He was constantly talking to someone tonight, texting someone. I heard him on the phone with someone when I left the bathroom, and I know it wasn’t work,”
“Stop,” I looked at him, trying to get him to stop talking before he said anything more that would embarrass the both of us. “Goodnight, Spencer. I’ll see you Monday,” I nodded at him before slipping into the car.
“Ready?” Jasper asked, looking over at me as he grasped my hand. I looked over at him with a smile before nodding.
“Yeah,” I whispered before looking back out the window at Spencer. He was still standing on the sidewalk, staring at me. He wore a very hurt expression on his face, and I swear a tear was rolling down his cheek. And before anything could happen, Jasper started the car and pulled away from David’s house and my best friend.
{***}{***}{***}
“Have a nice day,” I looked up at Jasper as he slipped from the bed. He pressed his lips to my forehead, wishing me a good day, before leaving to get ready for the day. I was only asleep for a few minutes before my alarm went off, forcing me to get out of bed and get on with my day. And, although I still had a few more days left of no work, I still had my plate full of errands and chores.
Once my day finally started, I made way towards the dry cleaners. I had to pick up a couple of my blouses and a few slacks. Work had wrinkled and nearly ruined a few of my clothes, and the only place that could fix them was the dry cleaners. After the dry cleaners, I had to get a few groceries, seeing as all we had was some leftovers from Jasper’s parents’ place.
My phone started ringing, almost shocking me because I wasn’t expecting anyone to call me today. But I was more relieved when I saw that it was Jennifer calling.
“Hey, have you talked to Spence?” Jennifer asked as I pressed my phone between my head and shoulder. I furrowed my eyebrows as I readjusted the grip on the bags in hand.
“No, not since last night. We kind of had an argument before I left,” I muttered as I grabbed my phone. The memories of the argument with Spencer came back, and I tried my hardest not to recount them. I looked up at the sidewalk and people ahead of me and saw Jasper. He wasn’t alone though. Another woman was in his arms.
“Are you even listening to me?” Jennifer spoke, her tone mildly annoyed that I wasn’t answering any of her questions or acknowledging anything she was saying.
“I’m… I gotta go. I’m sorry,” I muttered before hanging up and shoving my phone in my pocket. I looked at Jasper and the woman and watched as he deeply kissed her.
I took a deep shaky breath before rushing back to my car. I didn’t even care about my fresh dry cleaning as I shoved it into the back. Tears were slowly rolling down my cheeks, and I wasn’t sure if there was a way I could stop them.
Not wanting to go home, the place that I would be reminded of him, I drove around, trying to figure where to go. Until I found myself standing outside Spencer’s apartment. I wasn’t exactly sure if I had knocked until the door swung open and Spencer was standing in front of me.
“Wh-what are you-Wait, is everything okay?” he asked, reaching a hand out to grasp my arm. I swallowed roughly and allowed him to hold my arm, and then my hand.
"I'm sorry… I didn't know where else to go. I didn’t want to go home because he’s there. And I just didn’t want to be around him,” I looked at Spencer with moisture in my eyes. He looked back at me with confusion settling on his face as he stared.
“What… What happened? What’s wrong?” He asked as he stepped out of his apartment and rested his hands on my shoulders. I looked up at him before allowing myself to fully break down. Spencer widened his eyes before pulling me into a hug. I pressed my face into his chest and sobbed.
“He cheated on me!” I exclaimed after a moment of crying. Spencer backed away from me to get a better look at me. “I was out doing errands… And I saw him…” I took a deep breath and wiped my eyes. Spencer looked at me as he slowly realized what I had said. I could tell he didn’t really know what to do, so he just hugged me again before pulling me inside.
“Sit, I’ll get you… I’ll get you tea. You like tea.” Spencer looked at me as he sat me on the couch. I looked up at him before wiping my cheeks. “Yeah, I’ll make you tea,” he nodded before leaving me alone in the living room. I looked towards the direction of his kitchen, listening to the clatter he was making. I could hear him talking to himself, saying stuff about Jasper, and me, and work, and the party last night, and our argument last night. I definitely shouldn’t be hearing him saying these things. It was an obvious thing that should be said to me another time.
“Can I stay here for the night?” I looked up at Spencer as he reentered the living room with a mug of hot water and teabag. He looked at me as he sat beside me. I graciously took the mug from him and put the teabag in it.
“Of course. You didn’t even have to ask,” Spencer looked at me as he grabbed a throw blanket. I sighed deeply as he placed it over my shoulders. “You can stay for as long as you need,” he looked at me as he furrowed his eyebrows.
“Thanks, Spence,” I looked down at the tea and shrugged, “I don’t know what I’m going to do. All my stuff is over there.” I wiped my eyes again. Tears just wouldn’t stop rolling down my cheeks, I was starting to feel a little ridiculous.
“Luke, Matt, and I will go over and bring it here. And you can stay for as long as you want," he insisted. I swallowed roughly before wiping my eyes. I looked up at him, trying to smile but it was rather unconvincing for the both of us. “You know that my place is your place,” he added and returned a genuine smile. His smile made me feel a little bit better and turned my unconvincing smile into something more convincing.
“Thank you, Spencer,” I whispered as I looked down at the cup of tea. The steam coming off it was rather soothing. “I don’t know how I didn’t see it! God. I’m so stupid! I’m sorry I didn’t believe you,” I looked at him, my statement sounding stupid.
“Hey, hey, it’s okay,” he whispered a hand and wiped my cheeks. I could sense that he wanted to say more, because he always as more to say, especially when it’s about proving someone wrong. So, when he stopped at ‘It’s okay’ I was a little confused. “You didn’t want to believe something that should be false. I understand that,” he folded his hands in his lap.
“I just don’t know what I’m going to do,” I looked down at the engagement ring on my finger. I wrinkled my nose before taking it off and chucking it at the coffee table. The ring dinged as it bounced on the hard surface. I muttered a few profanities as I stared at the ring. Spencer looked at me with a raised brow. “I guess that means you’re getting what you wanted… I’m not going to marry him,” I dryly laughed as I looked up at him.
“I didn’t want it like that,” Spencer whispered as he looked back at me. I looked up at him and frowned. “I was being selfish,” he whispered, mostly to himself. I raised an eyebrow before looking down at the ring.
“You’re allowed to be selfish, Spencer,” I mumbled before looking back at him.
“You’re right. But I want to be selfish for the right reasons,” he looked back at me. I swallowed roughly and shook my head. “He doesn't deserve you. And you don't deserve to have your heart broken by some guy,” Spencer muttered. I raised an eyebrow. “We don’t have to talk about it now, though, when you’re ready,” he assured.
I didn’t really want to press why he wanted to wait till I was ready. I was honestly always ready to talk to him, no matter what it was. So, I guess we’ll have to wait till he was good and ready. Even if that meant a very long time.
{***}{***}{***}
New Year’s Eve:
New Year’s Eve was especially difficult. Usually, I love it, just like Christmas. But this time… This time was different. I supposed being cheated on during such a big holiday can do that to you. My spirit for any exciting holiday was simply diminished and gone now.
So, that’s why I was sitting at the kitchen counter in Rossi’s house with my third glass of wine. I was really trying not to wallow in self-pity. But it was so easy when my excitement for the new year was just… gone. The others seemed okay with my sadness. Although, Spencer was the most concerned than anyone else. Everyone was off in the living room, laughing in their conversations. I just wanted to be alone for a moment.
“Hey,” Spencer looked at me as he sat beside me at the counter. I looked up from my drink and at him. A lazy and drunk smile grew on my lips as I looked at him. “Are you okay?”
“Yeah, I’m doing great, Spence,” I looked at him as I stood up. He raised an eyebrow as I stumbled a bit. He grasped my arm to steady me a bit. “I’m gonna go outside. I need some fresh air. You stay here,” I patted his chest before leaving.
Spencer allowed me to go outside alone, I was half expecting him to follow me. So, I was happy when I took a seat outside. The air was a little bit chilly and nippy, which was mildly sobering. I kinda wished I had another drink with me.
I heard the back door open and then slam shut, causing me to turn around and look. Spencer was walking towards me with a blanket over his arm. It was only a few minutes since I came out here, he can’t have missed me that much.
“Here, it’s cold,” he offered me the blanket as he sat on the other outdoor chair. I took it and wrapped it around my shoulders like a cape. We sat in an uncomfortable, unnerving silence. I just wished he would say something so we wouldn’t be in the quiet.
“I just needed a few minutes alone. Everyone inside is just a little bit too loud for me,” I shrugged as I looked at the space between us. Spencer’s hum was unconvincing, but I’m sure my excuse was just as unconvincing too. “They’re too happy and I’m, well, not,” I looked up at him.
“I understand,” Spencer nodded, like he knew how I felt. I stared at him, only a little bit annoyed that he said that he understood. “Do you want to talk about it?”
“Spencer, I’ve been living with you for the last week, you already know how I feel,” I looked up at him. The previous few nights I was up most of the night sobbing, mostly because I was heartbroken. It was bad and a little embarrassing because Spencer was the one who took care of me. “Thank you, for that… I do appreciate it,”
“You’re my best friend,” he whispered as he looked at me. A friendly smile grew on his lips as our eyes locked. “I care about you. And, I’d do anything to keep you safe,”
I didn’t really have anything to say, because I knew he meant it. He knew I felt the same way about him. There was a reason why I went to his home instead of Jennifer’s, or Emily’s… And, that reason was because he cared about me and he was my best friend.
I scooched the chair closer to him and threw the blanket over his other shoulder. He looked over at me with a smile and his hair flopped in front of his eyes. I smiled as I brushed the hair away from his face.
We fell back into our comfortable silence. My head was rested on his shoulder as his fingers slowly entwined with mine. I don’t think I was supposed to notice him holding my hand, but I did.
“Can I ask something from you, Spence,” I asked, lifting my head from his shoulder. He looked at me with furrowed eyebrows, like he wasn’t sure if my question was a trick or not.
“Of course,” he nodded and looked at me. I turned to face him more, looking up at his face.
“Kiss me,” I whispered softly. My eyes flicked between his eyes and lips, and it was taking everything within me to not just kiss him. I could easily blame the copious amounts of alcohol I consumed earlier in the evening. Or I could blame the true and exact feelings I had towards Spencer. If I could, I’d wrap them up in a box with a bow and give it to him with a note tag that simply said ‘I love you’, but I wouldn’t. I won’t tell him the real reason why I want him to kiss me. It’s only been a week since my doomed relationship ended. I couldn’t tell him, yet. So I told him a lie. “I’m drunk and heartbroken, Spencer, please just kiss me,” I whispered as I lifted my hand to his tie.
“I, uh, I... “ Spencer mumbled as he glanced towards the house. I knew no one was watching what I was doing out here, and I knew they wouldn’t care about what Spencer was doing. They were all too busy playing various drinking games and too involved with themselves to care. “Is that a good idea? I’m not so sure that’s a good idea,” he muttered as he moved closer to me. And it wasn’t because I was tugging his tie.
“I think it is… I think it’s the greatest idea ever… Why else would I be asking?” I looked up at his eyes before smiling. I dropped my hand from his tie and noted that he wasn’t moving away from me. “Tell me, Spence, would I be a fool if you kissed me?” I looked into his eyes. My reflection was noticeable in his irises and it made me smile knowing I was that close to him.
“You’d never be a fool,” Spencer whispered, his breath tickling the space above my lips. I smiled and nodded.
“I don’t know about you, but I was pretty foolish last week,” I dryly laughed. Spencer furrowed his eyebrows before shaking his head. “Please, kiss me,” I quietly begged.
He placed his hands on my cheeks before pressing his lips to mine. I hummed happily as we kissed. I could barely keep myself up and myself breathing as he gently worked his lips against mine. My heart was beating in my chest, but at the same time, it was fluttering. He was so gentle and soft, like if he went any harder he’d break me. But, I’m already broken. The butterflies I was feeling in my stomach grew and caused a heat to work its way up my cheeks. But it wasn’t just a kiss. It never is just a kiss with people. And, Spencer is more than just a person. A kiss with Jasper just felt like eh, it left me feeling nothing. But a kiss with Spencer left me wanting more. I wanted more of my life with him. It was in the few mere moments we were kissing that I realized I really did love him.
Spencer was the first to move away from me, but only a few inches. Our noses were still touching and our foreheads were still pressed together. I licked my lips and smiled softly.
“That was…” I opened my eyes and looked at him. The smile on my lips grew wider as I looked at him. His eyes scanned my face, looking for any sort of worry or fear I might have had. But I had none. “Amazing,” I whispered as I dropped my shoulders. Spencer visibly relaxed as I finished talking.
“Good,” he laughed softly as he looked back at me.
“Best kiss I’ve ever had,” I whispered with a smile. Spencer returned the smiles he looked at me. “I know you’d fool me if you kissed me again,” I murmured against his lips. Spencer smiled before pressing his lips back to mine. I hummed as I wrapped my arms around his neck to hold him as close as possible. I didn’t want to move from my spot, and I knew Spencer didn’t want to move either. “I’d be okay if you did it again,”
“I love you,” Spencer muttered into my mouth, causing me to freeze in my spot. I kept my eyes closed because I wasn’t sure if I wanted to look at him. “Oh fuck, I shouldn’t have opened my mouth,” he groaned before tilting his head back away from me. I quickly opened my eyes and looked for his face. “Now I’m the fool,” he murmured against my lips. He was clearly embarrassed because I didn’t say anything back. I was mostly shocked because I wasn’t expecting it.
“Don’t say that,” I whispered, bringing my hands to rest gently on his cheeks. He looked at me with furrowed brows, like I was the one who was wrong about our words. “I love you too,” I smiled softly at him. Spencer looked at me, like I was suddenly a light in the darkness. And, I really liked the way it felt when he looked at me like that. “Like, I wished I realized it sooner… And, before I met, you know,” I muttered as I talked about the man who broke my heart a week ago. A look flashed in Spencer’s eyes at the mention of his, I suppose, enemy. I knew he wanted to kill the man. “I’m happy I did realize it though,” I smiled as I looked at him.
“I am too,” he finally said something after a moment of silence. The smile on his lips and in his eyes, and all the previous anger and hatred melted away. “I wish I could have told you sooner,”
“You told me at a perfect time, Spencer,” I whispered before kissing him again. I nearly fell back in a fit of laughter as he tried deepening the kiss, but I was happy he kept me steady.
“Don’t worry, I got you now,” he whispered as he held me close.
{***}{***}{***}
This Christmas:
You would have thought that I was going to hate Christmas this year. I mean, considering what happened last year? He basically ruined my week and the whole holiday for me. But it got better, thanks to Spencer.
I looked up at Spencer as I wrapped my arms around his and rested my head on his shoulder. He looked back down at me with a smile before knocking on the door.
“I hope everyone had a good Christmas,” I whispered as I looked at the wreath on David’s door. Krystall must be happy about her decor this year.
“Well, this is the first year neither of us really spent it with anyone else from the team,” Spencer replied as he brought his other hand to rest on my arm. I smiled before nuzzling my head more into his shoulder. “Well, This would be the first year I didn’t spend with JJ and Will,” he spoke again, changing his answer.
“Next year,” I smiled softly as I looked up at him, “Who knows, maybe next year we’ll have our own family,” I smiled smugly. Spencer laughed and shook his head, but the happy gleam in his eyes told me otherwise. Of course he wouldn’t actually verbalize that he wants kids, it’s just been known for years that he wanted them.
“Maybe,” he looked down at me and winked. I rolled my eyes and shook my head lightly. My words were cut off by the front door swinging open. Krystall was standing by the door with a wide smile on her lips. She looked pretty happy to see Spencer and I.
“Merry Christmas, you two,” she smiled as she stepped to the side to allow us in, “Did you have a good morning?” she looked at us as we walked in.
“Wonderful,” I smiled as I looked up at Spencer and smiled. He returned the smile as he unbuttoned his jacket. Of course, we wouldn’t exactly talk about what we did this morning, I’ll just say it was a little NSFW to share with people you work with. And, somethings gotta stay between Spencer and I.
“Is anyone else here?” I looked back at Krystall as I slipped my own jacket off. I don’t really know why I asked if anyone else was here… Spencer and I were the last ones to show up...
“You’re the last ones to arrive,” she smiled at us, “Jennifer and Will brought their boys,” she spoke as childish laughter filled the moment of silence after her words.
“Oh! We were just talking about we didn’t see them this morning,” I looked up at Spencer as I moved closer to him. He carefully wrapped an arm around my waist, holding me closer to him. “I can’t wait to see them,” I smiled as I looked at Spencer. He returned the look with a loving look in his eye.
“Well, I know you two know your way around the house, everyone is in the living room. If you need anything just let us know,” Krystall smiled at us before leaving to put our coats somewhere. Once she was out of our sight, I looked back up at Spencer.
“We should probably go see everyone,” I smiled as I looked towards the kitchen. Spencer gently placed a hand on my cheek, guiding my face to face his. “What,” I whispered as I looked up at him.
“I love you,” he returned the whisper before pressing his lips to mine. I hummed as I melted into his kiss. His hand was firmly placed on my waist and he carefully pulled me closer to his body.
“God, not in Rossi’s house,” a groan came from behind us. I pulled away from Spencer and looked over my shoulder. Emily was standing in the doorway, looking at us as she lifted her glass to her lips.
“What, he was just hugging me,” I smiled at her. Spencer’s hands were still firmly on my me. And, it was very clear that he was not just hugging me. Judging by the expression on Emily’s face, she definitely saw more than she bargained for.
“Sure you were,” she smiled at us, “Spence, David needs you in the kitchen,” she looked at Spencer before pushing herself off the wall and leaving. I pouted and looked up at him.
“It’ll be just a minute. Save me a seat,” he whispered before quickly pecking my lips and swiftly leaving me in the foyar. More laughter came from the living room, causing me to smile. I instantly knew I wanted to join in the laughter and fun with the others, more specifically the two young boys.
When I stepped into the living room, everyone greeted me with a lot of excitement. It felt like they hadn’t seen me in months, but we just saw each other two days ago.
“Hey, Merry Christmas,” I smiled as I looked at everyone. Michael and Henry ran up to me and wrapped their arms around my legs, “Hey you two,” I ruffled my hand in their hair.
“Boys,” Jennifer called from her spot on the couch. I looked up at her and smiled as her two boys let go of me. I smiled before taking a seat at the armchair. “Where’s Spence? Did he come?” Jennifer asked as she watched me sit. Everyone had this weird sort of energy, like they knew something that I didn’t exactly know. I always hated when they did that. They knew that too. Granted, I’m not typically a person who likes surprises or secrets.
“Yeah, he’s helping Dave with something in the kitchen,” I smiled as I looked at her. Michael ran up to me, holding a toy truck he got this morning. “Whoa! That’s such a cool truck, Michael! What else did you get?” I leaned and braced myself on my knees. He was very quiet as he told me what he got, but he was very enthusiastic about everything. When he finished telling me everything he got, he cautiously climbed onto the chair and sat beside me.
“You were supposed to save me a seat,” a voice came from behind me. I looked behind me and saw Spencer, looking down at me with a wide smile. “I’ll just have to sit over here,” he faked a pout before going to sit on the other armchair.
“What can I say, the fellas love me,” I smiled as I watched him sit. As much as I loved sitting with Jennifer’s boys, I really wanted to sit with Spencer. Even from across the living room, he knew that too.
As the night went on, food was eaten, drinks were drunk, presents were exchanged. I still had a 4 year old little boy attached at my hip, and there was no getting rid of him. Don’t get me wrong, I loved him… But, there were things that I wanted to do. Like sit with Spencer, and talk about things other than toys and little kid things…
“Can we talk real quick?” Spencer asked as he squatted beside me and Michael. I looked at him and nodded, feeling my face falter slightly. I looked down at the boy on my knee, silently telling Spencer that my shadow probably won’t leave me alone. Spencer looked over his shoulder at Jennifer, silently telling her something.
“Hey, Michael, c’mere,” Jennifer spoke to her child. Michael looked up at me before hugging me and leaving me alone. I looked back up at Spencer before standing up.
“Privately?” I asked, raising an eyebrow. Spencer swallowed roughly and nodded before grasping my hand and bringing me outside. The door clicked shut behind us as we walked towards the sitting area. I was instantly hugging myself to keep myself somewhat warm, because it was cold and I wasn’t wearing my coat.
“I’ll be quick, I’m sorry,” he cringed, grasping both my hands to hold them. I furrowed my eyebrows as I warily looked at him. The anxiety that I was feeling was through the roof, and I knew he noticed it too.
“Is everything okay,” I whispered as I looked at him. I was worried something was wrong. Why else would he want to talk to me alone? But, something couldn’t have been wrong, because he was smiling and laughing and looked happy.
“I just wanted to talk to you for a second... And without Michael by your side,” Spencer laughed as he looked back at me. I smiled as I looked up at him. “And I wanted to have a moment with you, alone,” he looked over my shoulder at the house. Something flashed in his eyes as he pulled one hand from me and put it in his pocket. “In fact… I wanted eternity with you,” he whispered as he looked at me. I dropped my shoulders as I slowly realized what he meant. “I know Christmas is your favorite, and last Christmas was ruined… But I wanted to make it mean something to you again…”
“Spen-”
“Will you marry me,” he whispered, pulling out a small grey box and opening it up. The ring was a plain silver band with a diamond embedded in the center. I looked at him and smiled. “I know it’s barely been a year… But,”
“I want to spend the rest of my life with you,” we both said it in unison. He looked up at me and smiled, his eyes a little bit moist. Mine were also welling up a little bit.
“Of course I’ll marry you, Spencer,” I whispered looking at him with a smile. He returned the smile before sliding the ring on my finger. I placed my hands on his cheeks before pulling him into a kiss. Cheering and applause came from inside, causing me to laugh against his lips. I looked up at him and smiled. “I love you,” I whispered softly.
“I love you too,” Spencer smiled before kissing me again.
{***}{***}{***}
The following morning Spencer and I were downtown. We didn’t have much to do, so we explored downtown while the holiday decorations were still up. Spencer was actually taking me to an after Christmas movie thing at a black and white theater. Our quiet laughter and conversation made me feel happy. Our conversations were mostly filled with the excitement of our new engagement and future wedding.
That was until I was stopped abruptly as we walked into a familiar man and woman. I stared at him, feeling a certain sickness rise in my stomach. Spencer’s arm went back around me in a protective manner. My body went frigid as I stared at the man and the woman, so I was thankful for Spencer’s embrace.
“Jasper,” I spoke, almost breathlessly. I swallowed roughly as I stared at them. Jasper was quiet for a long time. I knew for a fact he was pretending to not know who I was. But he 100% knew who I was, and who Spencer was.
"I almost didn't recognize you," he laughed as he looked at me. I started back and held back the scoff. "You look so different,"
“Well, it’s been a year, so it doesn’t surprise me,” I looked at him and then at his wife. His pregnant wife. I only knew they were married now because of the ring she was nonchalantly showing off to Spencer and I. I wouldn’t be surprised if she thought I was wallowing in pity for a full year. They’re probably both surprised by seeing me with Spencer, Jasper more than her. I bounced back from our spilt faster than he probably thought.
I ignored them and looked up at Spencer, who was staring at Jasper with such laser precision I swear he’d kill him. But, to be fair, Jasper was staring at Spencer with the same amount of hatred. I knew his wife was clearly uncomfortable with everything that was happening. I was uncomfortable.
“Well, it was nice seeing you again,” Jasper looked at me with a smile that was faker than a Kardashian’s ass.
“We best be going now. Spencer and I have an appointment we can’t miss,” I spoke as he opened his mouth. It was obvious he wanted to have the first out, but we just spoke over each other. I looked up at Spencer before grasping his hand and pulling him past the couple. Not another word was spoken between us, and not another word will ever be spoken between us. But, that’s okay. I have all I could ever need or want.
I looked up at Spencer before looking back down at the ring on my finger. The ring that he placed there. This is a lot better than last Christmas, and I can’t wait for the rest of my Christmases to be with Spencer.
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Can I ask what the problems were with Austin’s official art? I’m a dumbass who doesn’t play the sax lmao
first of all you’re not dumb, most of the inaccuracies i’ve spotted are just obvious to me b/c i’ve played the sax for like, a decade lmao. also i know this post is ridiculous and nitpicky and i’m not trying to like. attack v*ria or anything so please don’t send me messages later lol
so like what sticks out the most is that it’s literally just a stock image of a saxophone edited into the drawing. she colored the bell (the curvy part at the end, where the sound comes out of) + the mouthpiece so you might not see it at first but if you zoom into the buttons it’s pretty easy to tell lol. i put the (flipped) original drawing at the bottom of this post if you need to reference it.
now onto very specific things that irked me:
1. austin’s sax is a tenor, but it’s the size of an alto: both instruments look the same but you can tell the sax in question is a tenor b/c of the curve before the mouthpiece. here’s a cute little graphic to illustrate size differences!
as you can see the tenor is significantly bigger lol. the sax in austin’s official art should’ve been like, twice as big.
2. the saxophone is flipped. honestly i didnt even notice this until I was typing this up but the keys on the bottom of austin’s sax are what your right hand rests on. it looks as though she imported an image facing the other way and then decided to flip it, even though that’s not how saxophones work lmao!! you just plain don’t see all of the buttons from that angle. for comparison...
3. his hands aren’t even in the right spot!! though the sax looks super confusing to a non-player, i promise there’s a method 2 the madness. i did my best to label the pics above - though the buttons I circled aren’t all of the buttons you use they’re generally where each hand rests/where your basic notes come from. (there are additional buttons on the sides for flats/sharps/octaves etc but that is absolutely not the point of this post lol). i pointed this out in the image down below (and flipped it bcuz now it irritates me that it’s not facing the right way lmao):
I mean you could make the argument that he’s holding it or something but like, his fingers are clearly drawn to be pressing buttons of some sort, but i mean, first of all it’s honestly levitating bc he has no real grip on it, second of all there are easier and less risky ways to hold ur sax, and third of all my final point:
4. there’s no neck strap: bro you can’t play a sax while holding it up with no neck strap. u just can’t. trust me ive tried many times as a joke lmao. if you can play it just doesn’t sound great bc your fingers are just pressing down on everything!! if you let go of some buttons to play different notes u WILL drop it!! neck straps exist to allow you to play both while standing and sitting. also the sax is like, a heavy instrument (especially the tenor & the bari) so the strap on ur neck (i’ve seen some for the back too w/ the larger saxes) helps to distribute the weight so you’re not like, dying.
i just. idk like the reason i know these things is because i’m a saxophonist but like, i’d figure that if you’re being paid to make official art for a real book series you’d like... put in like 2 seconds of effort? at least use one reference of somebody actually playing?? do 30 seconds of research??? there’s so much about this that’s so lazy i just can’t get over it. like i understand that the saxophone is an extremely complex instrument that’s very hard to draw but like... idk ? like i said you’re literally being paid
anyway here’s the drawing i made with some of the stuff fixed b/c it would not stop bugging me!!
#long post#also not sax related but some people have pointed out that the coloring of his hands is sus#lmao im so sorry this is so much
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I was tagged by both @rampagewriting and @heelsamizayn to answer this and it seems like a fun time and my brain’s being a bag of dicks rn, so whhhhy not... Here we go.
0) Name/Nickname? If ya wanna share it.
Ashley, AA, Snark - mostly on here. Oh and lil bit, but... family only.
1) If you could bring any two fictional characters (from books or film/tv) into the same world who would they be, what world would you put them in, and what would their relationship to each other be?
Uhhh... Uhhh... Okay, alright, hm... This is going to be an unconventional answer but.. I’d take Bucky and Cap and I’d drop them right into the middle of The Walking Dead. Hear me out.. They’re both military trained / enhanced superheroes and they can walk that line of having compassion and being totally ruthless if they must. I think it’d be neat. They’d be friends / psuedo brothers, of course.
2) If you could drop yourself into any fictional world from books or film/tv, which would it be?
Oh god, oh noooo.. Every part of the fifteen year old trapped within my old woman body is screaming at me to answer Harry Potter -cos magic.. But.. I’m going with The Walking Dead. Just for the simple fact that I could smack both Lori and Dale Horvath in the back of the fuckin head.
Alternately.. I’d really wanna hunt vampires with Edgar and Allen Frog, and the eighties were my shit, so.. That too.
3) What’s your spirit animal?
A cat or a raccoon. I have under eye circles, stay up late, eat only junk and I’ll bite if you take my food plus kinda chonky ( raccoon) and I like to take naps, I’m... adamant about cleaning / grooming plus, I like to sit around and give people side eye when they’re doing dumb shit. ( cat.)
4) What is the most unpopular opinion you hold?
NO. NOPE. NOT ANSWERING. ISSA TRAP.
Okay, since I obviously have to put something here, I’ll say it. And I’ll start with wrestling:
Seth Rollins is vastly overrated and I don’t get the whole.. Attraction to him. And the same goes for Cody Rhodes. Also, is it just me or are his fucking intros too long? Idk, maybe that’s me and my lack of patience. If you like either of these, sorry, continue to do you, but.. I’m not a fan and I honestly don’t particularly care about either and this is my own personal opinion. I’m allowed to have one. I’m not saying bad shit about either guy here, if you take it that way, it’s your own damn problem? I’m not telling you not to like them. I’m simply saying I do not.
As far as media goes : Fifty Shades of Gray is fucking dumb. I mean.. 10 page contract.. to get what has to be mediocre dick, at best? And it’s not even written with any regards to true BDSM concepts for the most part? Nah. I’ll pass.
And now, for one about our current situation: I think the idiots who hoarded TP at the beginning of this should be allowed to return things.. Provided it’s unopened, they have a receipt, and they don’t see a fucking dime of the money they spent and that the money from the returns goes to masks / other methods of protection for front line workers or straight into the unemployment packages and the stimulus thing. Like literally, the hoarder gets nothing, people who need TP / sanitizer / etc get UNOPENED NEW PRODUCTS and the front line workers get the proceeds of the voided returns. We all win here. (I realize this probably cannot happen, but. It’s one way to kind of... help this current shit show we’re all trapped in.)
5) How do you like to style your hair most often?
Uhh.. Down. I’m too goddamn lazy to be bothered.
6) I always love this overdone question - you’re allowed three books on a desert island, what do you bring? (Note: Survival Guides don’t count).
The Shining, The Dark Towers series - Stephen King, The Client - John Grisham and The Outsiders - S.E Hinton
7) Something new you’ve learned in quarantine/lockdown/corona times?
That no matter how hard I try, I cannot apply false lashes. That more than two noisy things going in the background is TOO MUCH. Oh and I’m pretty damn good at baking when I bother to try / don’t toss out the directions.
8) Favorite alcohol? (Or non-alcoholic beverage if you don’t drink!)
Haven’t drank in... a while-ish. But my favorite thing to drink when I do is vodka or tequila. Occasionally White Claw ( i know, i know.). Favorite non-alcoholic beverage is water lately.
9) Music you can’t stand? Music you love?
I’m gonna get torn the fuck apart for this but yolo.. I can’t get into K-Pop. I’ve tried. It’s just.. It’s up there with new pop for me. Older boy bands / pop stars? Not a problem. I just don’t like a lot of pop music and I can’t get into K-pop. If you like it, awesome. It’s just not for me personally. Beyond that? I love literally any other kind of music. I have a veeeery varied eclectic listening preference but my all time favorite? 80′s glam / pop or country.
10) Have a favorite herb?
FIRST OF ALL.. GARLIC.. yeah, it’s not a herb buuuut... yeah.. Anyway, for actual herbs..Basil, Rosemary and Sage.. Oh and cilantro. Cilantro will save your ass in a pinch.
11) What kinds of cups/glasses/bottles do you prefer to drink out of?
My big tol cold cup. Or.. my stemless plastic wine glasses, of which I have apparently lost.
12) Preferred mode of communication: texts, phone calls, emails, letters?
Text or email. I’m not... fond of making calls, but I will if I have to. I prefer texts or email. Oh, I do enjoy writing letters now and then.
13) What is your favorite weather?
Not too hot, not too cold. Not too sunny but not overcast and gray either. A light breeze. NO POLLEN.
14) What kind of lighting do you like?
Softer lights, for the aesthetic.. Overhead lighting, so my blind ass can... yannow... see. If I had my way, I’d have candles and string lights every where though.
15) What is the best thing you cook?
Honestly, I feel like it’s my chili or my stew. Alternately, husband seems to ask for chicken / bacon / ranch pasta casserole a lot, so... Idk.. I guess pretty much anything (except fucking hamburger helper, i can NEVER get this shit right, despite directions, sacrifices to the culinary gods and pleas/promises of my first born. It always turns out icky so I never cook it.)
16) Do you have a favorite font to write in?
Handwriting or typewriter fonts for the most part. Roboto when I’m writing / editing my own fics and such.
17) What is something you’ve always wanted to write in a fic, but you’ve been too afraid to? Or, what is something that you were afraid to write, but then you did and it ended awesome?
Honestly, I’m scared to death to write smut. Which is why I’ve been trying to write more of it lately. I won’t say it’s going awesome ( I’m pretty sure some of you sit and read it when I post and are like what the fuck... this isn’t realistic and this is so bad.) but it’s going.
I’ve wanted to dip my toes into writing for more obscure fandoms too. Like ones that I personally enjoy. As far as something I’ve always wanted to write? Horror. But I’m scared to death I’d fuck it up.
18) If you were in your favorite fantasy world, what would your weapon of choice be?
A sword or a knife. Machete, maybe?
19) Is there a commonly used expression/saying that you can’t stand?
While I agree with the answers J and K put to this “It’s in God’s hands, etc” - sometimes things are GOD AWFUL. The last thing I want to hear is what the reason God had for doing it is. So don’t tell me.
Triggered is a useful term.. if it’s used right. And I’m starting to realize that 95 percent of people DO NOT know the proper use. They think that being triggered =‘s a reason to bitch and tear someone apart over some miniature thing they’ve done. So now, when I hear it being misused, it fucking annoys me.
20) What is something that you would like people to know about you?
I’m a grumpy ball of rage. I’m petty as fuck and saltier than all the oceans combined in the right circumstances. But.. I can be a nice person and I love getting to know people and helping people or talking to them. Even if it’s hard for me to start it off bc I’m fucking awkward as fuck also - hence the reason it takes a while for me to actually... attempt... conversing with new people both IRL and on here.
I’m gonna leave this open to anyone who wants to do it bc Idk who has or hasn’t already and I don’t want to annoy people.
This was a blast!
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July 12th, 2018 CTP Archive
The archive for the Comic Tea Party chat that occurred on July 12th, 2018, from 5PM - 7PM PDT. The chat focused on The Guide to a Healthy Relationship by Dani .
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✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
COMIC TEA PARTY START!
Good day everyone~! This week’s Comic Tea Party is now officially beginning~! Today we are discussing The Guide to a Healthy Relationship by Dani~! (https://tapas.io/series/TGtaHR) For those new or in need of a reminder, discussions about the comic are freeform, so please feel free to bring up whatever you wish. However, every 30 minutes I will be dropping in a discussion question to help those who would like a prompt. These questions are totally OPTIONAL to answer, and you can pay them no mind if you wish. If you miss out on any though, they’ll be pinned for the duration of the chat once they’re posted~! Remember, constructive criticism is allowed, but the primary focus here is to have fun and appreciate the amazing comics that the community makes~! As a bonus, each chat a top comment will be picked and featured in the archives and on an ad for CTP! All that being said, let’s get started and have a great discussion!
QUESTION 1. What is your favorite scene in the comic so far and why?
snuffysam
i don't know why, but the scene where apollo is asking around and trying to find julian really stuck with me. it's not the most artistically vivid scene (there are quite a few of those), but that one stood out.
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
anything particular that made it stand out to you? just asking out of curiosity cause honestly i barely remember that scene just because its not the most artisticially vivid(edited)
snuffysam
i'm not sure. i think apollo realizing he wasn't crazy in seeing julian the other night made me feel, like, emotions.
turnish
Really any scene with Julian that exhibits his psychosis are ones that I particularly like Like, I find it very relatable and the art just perfectly displays what that Actually Feels Like imo
Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
Hello!
snuffysam
the way the art reflects mental states in general is incredibly well done
Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
Just wanted to pop in and say hi.
turnish
I agree
snuffysam
hi justin
turnish
Hi!
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
hi justin
yeah i have to agree with turnish that my fave scenes are probably the ones showing julian's mental problems. although i think the one that sticks with me the most is the one where julian is talking to a younger version of himself and his younger version is calling him lazy. i feel like its a great blend of mental illness but kind of normal self esteem issues perhaps. in that he does seem kind of sick yet here his younger self is berating him. @snuffysam thats a fair point. i did feel emotions when it turned out apollo was indeed not crazy. XD
turnish
HH YEAH that was like a punch to the gut
Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
If I had to say anything about this comic, it's got a really nice traditional artstyle and all the detail in the characters populating the pages
And some great BG work too
DanitheCarutor
Hello everyone! I'm the creator of 'The Guide to a Healthy Relationship', I'll be helping my ma out with dinner so I won't be on much, but just wanted to pop in to say hi and answer any questions and such whenever possible.
Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
Hi Dani!
snuffysam
hi dani!
turnish
Hi!
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
thanks for coming dani~!
Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
Great to have ya here~
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
yes. i really like the day of time reflections. particularly i think the way night is portrayed is really spectacular. https://tapas.io/episode/804141 like that page. youve got the light glow effects going on, you have some excellent reflections on the door that really make it look like night. its just all really well done.
Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
Yes
it's all very well done
especially the glow from the sity
snuffysam
the colors and lighting are just incredible
in general
turnish
i reread it today entirely bc my brain is Crap and i don’t remember stuff well but man i agree
Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
lol
snuffysam
yeah i probably should have done that lol
turnish
The night is still young
Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
indeed
I wonder how you do sunsets cause I have a soft spot for epic sunsets
turnish
tbh big same
snuffysam
I like how the colors are shaded with completely different colors most of the time (e.g. a blue shirt has orange shading). that's super cool to me. something that very few artists do.
Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
Same
Colored shading alone is awesome when done right
turnish
color theory is so important
Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
and it also brings out the colors themselves
snuffysam
it also helps capture that feel of night time. which is when most of this story takes place.
turnish
yeah! agreed
Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
This is a cool looking comic all around
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
yeah there are really just great color choices all around. i especially like the contrasts. cause one of my biggest issues with traditionally colored comics is theres not usually enough contrasts. so everything kind of winds up looking muted and its hard to tell things apart from one another. but i feel this comic doesnt have that problem at all
Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
and all in traditional too!
and I second that
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
I made it. ^^ I'm inclined towards the Julian scenes too, though I actually liked the scene where he was doing his janitor stuff and tidying up, making things sparkling. In retrospect, it was nice to see him (seemingly) taking pride in something.
Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
Hey Math!
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
Also, I'm very impressed by going the traditional route with such a blend of colours.
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
QUESTION 2. Given he was supposed to be dead, Julian’s appearance in Apollo’s life opens up many questions. First off, do you believe this is indeed Julian, or do you have reason to doubt this claim? What do you think Julian meant by telling Apollo that, “his friend is dead?” Was it just a way to get Apollo to leave, or is there a deeper meaning? Where do you think Julian has been all this time? Throughout, we also see that Julian has both physical and implied mental health problems. Do you believe this has something to do with his appearance? Do you think Julian dealt with these problems all his life or are they a new development? Lastly, where do you think Julian came from considering Apollo relays they pretty much found him in a bag?
DanitheCarutor
Ah! Thank you all! Seeing the positive reactions to Julian's mentally ill scenes is really encouraging. I've been doing a lot of research on the subject since I've never experienced it myself, and it's tough to know when it's being done well. Also I feel so bad for having Julian ruin that emotional scene with Apollo, slamming the door in his face was kind of a mood killer. Lol. @Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨ A sunset scene is going to be coming up in a couple pages, so we'll all see how that turns out. xD I've never drawn a sunset before.
DanitheCarutor
Sorry! I type a lot, and I type slow.
Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
SUNSET SCENE CONFORMED
and that's alright!
snuffysam
I think Julian metaphorically died when... something happened to him. Don't know what.
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
I think there's a deeper meaning in that the person he was doesn't exist any more. Though honestly, I'm not sure they were as good of friends as Apollo thinks; Julian seemed to keep to himself even then.
snuffysam
Julian was a nice person to Apollo, but I'm not sure if he ever really liked him.
turnish
when reading “your friend is dead” I chose to interpret that as the Julian Apollo once knew no longer exists, and Julian considers himself a different person now. or he’s running away from his past
i think i made the same point as math whoops
snuffysam
in terms of where he came from, i'd imagine russia, because he only spoke russian
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
It may be worth saying that, as a 40 year old teacher, I don't think I'm the demographic for this comic. Every time I see Apollo I kind of want to get in his face and shout "shape up man!". If he was as oblivious now as he was in the past, I kind of get why Julian would want to move on from his old life.
snuffysam
yeah honestly i get why julian wouldn't be too psyched about seeing apollo again. he's kind of a difficult person to have in your life.
especially if you have your own mental health problems to deal with
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
i feel apollo is a bit self involved and just wouldnt notice julian's suffering. so while julian was there to care for apollo, apollo wouldnt notice when someone needed to care for julian persay
snuffysam
i second that
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
I think Julian saying something to the effect of "I don't have what you need" kind of emphasizes that.
That time Apollo jumped out of the bushes.
Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
Lol, Prince
I lost it when you brought up "shape up man!"
snuffysam
i wouldn't want to go back to that kind of one-sided relationship either tbh
DanitheCarutor
Aw man, those are really good questions, with some really good answers! I won't confirm much because I like things being left open for interpretation, but Apollo is 100% a moron. Also I don't mind throwing it out that he's a homeschool kid, so no social skills.
turnish
I love a moronic boy
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
tbf i could also see the hes dead mean something deeper. like maybe julian was in an accident and lost part of his memories. like all the good memories of apollo and just remembers the shitty times.
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
Also "Get off my lawn". (Your drunk ass is scaring the squirrels.)
snuffysam
that's awfully convenient re: losing all positive memories of someone
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
Interesting, so I guess Julian was homeschooled too? Since they grew up together?
(Also, for a moment I read that as "Apollo is 100% a mormon" and I did a double take.)
snuffysam
yeah that doesn't exactly fit with most of the stuff he's done lol
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
Rebel: Maybe? I kind of feel like Julian might have faked his death to get away from creditors and people who just generally were treating him lousy though. But maybe things didn't go as planned.
Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
Perhaps
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
What's kind of interesting is how Apollo has problems too, with his eyesight, so you'd think he'd be able to empathize a bit with Julian having his own issues. But it does seem like he doesn't have much experience with that.
snuffysam
empathy and sympathy both seem to be problems for apollo
DanitheCarutor
Math: Lmao! Oh no, not a mormon! But for the homeschool question, nah. Julian is a public school kid, they hung out almost 24/7 but they grew up in different environments with Julian staying in an orphanage and Apollo living in a fancy house.
snuffysam
especially when it comes to julian
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
Ahhh, interesting. I think I misunderstood and thought he'd been adopted like a brother. That adds an interesting element of class to things too.
Apollo is very much "live in the moment". I would not want him doing my tax returns.
snuffysam
the fancy homeschool tutors may have neglected to teach him, like, responsibility
going back to what rebel said - were there any positive memories of apollo julian had to begin with?
like, even apollo's recap at the beginning paints himself in a bad light
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
probably. homeschool can be pretty lax from what i hear. so apollo's education in general might have sucked.
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
Maybe they went sledding together.
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
and yeah its possible that julian doesnt have positive memories
albeit there must of been a reason julian chose to ahng out with apollo
snuffysam
though that may have something to do with apollo's mental state making himself out to be worse than he was
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
and why julian didnt make an effort to move farther away
cause if i didnt want someone to find me i would not be living in driving distance of them
snuffysam
maybe he couldn't move further. relocating is hard
especially if you don't have financial means
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
true but he has had something like 5 years to make arrangements. i think 5 years. its years at least. but it really all depends where he was. it could be that hes been in the hospital or something
or a mental hospital
DanitheCarutor
Misunderstandings is totally understandable, a lot of stuff in the comic is very vague right now, and some of it will only be shown in snippets. I can't say much, but Julian does have some positive memories, there's just not many and it's harder to focus on the good over the bad.
Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
Yea
DanitheCarutor
Also as a homeschool student myself, the education does suck. I pretty much cheated my way through middle school because my teacher was a Christian booklet.
Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
Oh really?
That's... interesting
DanitheCarutor
Oo! Since this isn't super important, Julian and Apollo actually grew up in Ohio in a town based of Newark. When Apollo "grew up" he moved to a city in California based of a mix of San Diego and LA.
snuffysam
is it possible julian faked his own death specifically to get rid of apollo for a while? like, he didn't have the capacity to take care of him anymore, so he just cut him out of his life.
lol "grew up" in quotes
so yeah, julian may not have known where apollo was, and didn't intend to be in the same city as him
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
man now thats got to be the shittiest coincidence
julian is like "im free from apollo oh shit wait theres apollo"
Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
No kidding
snuffysam
yeah, but looking at julian's reaction - he clearly did not intend to run into apollo any time soon
DanitheCarutor
"and Julian's evening was ruined" -ugly cry-
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
i wonder if apollo just didnt even know how julian "died." like one day whoever took care of julian was just like "nah man he dead" and apollo just made a goofy face and accepted it
QUESTION 3. Despite most definitely being adult, protagonist Apollo is a little bit immature. Why do you believe Apollo is so irresponsible? Is it just his personality, or are his habits a way to avoid certain aspects of his life? Do you think his ocular albinism plays a role in why he acts the way he does? Do you think it will be good for Apollo to reconnect with Julian, or will the events of the past send Apollo into a downward spiral? What do you think Daniel’s role will be in Apollo’s life? Lastly, what do you think it will take for Apollo to get his life together a bit more?
snuffysam
if his ocular albinism plays into his irresponsibility, it's only as an excuse. "well, i can't see normally. better get sloshed!"
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
(Sorry, sometimes I have to dash off if the little one is crying.) Oh, being away in a mental hospital would be an interesting development.
Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
^
snuffysam
i think apollo just has serious issues with self control. he started out with alcohol and drugs to get away from some aspects of his life, and then it just got worse from there.
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
Snuffy: I don't know about that. If he's sensitive to daylight, it makes sense that he'd be out and about at night, which is when the parties happen.
snuffysam
true, that may be a source of some temptation. but if he was healthier, that wouldn't be a problem.
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
But yeah, agree about the self control thing. Guy doesn't know when to say "no". Also doesn't seem to know a good thing when he has it.
Fair. I don't think he eats from the proper food groups.
snuffysam
i meant mentally but yes
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
Can't help you feel active.
Like, if you're always eating junk food I mean.
Ahh, gotcha.
snuffysam
he doesn't have much of a support channel to help him with his issues, and a lot of the people who do try and help him out don't like him very much because of the whole personality thing
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
i think the ocular albinism does play a role. cause as someone who is awake all night, there is nothing to do outside. like the options are go to dennys, go to waffle house, go to walmart, or go to a bar. so i think it more than increases the temptation for apollo. it hampers a lot of paths to recovery.
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
Is it cool to bring up Daniel? Because he's such an interesting counterpoint.
I cannot see Apollo as a greeter at Wal-Mart.
snuffysam
his boss puts up with so much from apollo, it's a wonder she hasn't fired him
DanitheCarutor
Math: Sure! He's going to be in the comic a lot more from this chapter on.
Apollo really does have control issues, it'll come up why later but he's never had an issue with getting whatever he wanted as a kid.
Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
Oh cool~
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
they dont have greeters at night. in fact i think the greeters all leave before 8pm at the latest
yeah apollo's boss deserves a boss of the year award
cause man
i wouldve fired apollo 10 billion years ago
turnish
Ahhh Apollo’s boss deserves the most
snuffysam
and his other coworkers too. who was the woman he asked for help and then called a slur? galia?
DanitheCarutor
Rebel: Yeah, being awake at night sucks. I used to be a night owl, waking up at noon and staying up till 4am. There isn't anything to do, at least anything that's a good idea.
Yup, that's her name! Poor Galia, she's only been in the comic a couple times so far and it sucked for her.
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
I'm hoping Daniel can get through to Apollo. Challenge him without going so far as putting him off.
turnish
Same here Math
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
i feel at the very least daniel will openly pull up his flaws in a way others dont. cause the others say it with anger and derision and lots of ppl just flat out tune out criticism at that point. where as i feel daniel would be the one whod be like "hey apollo maybe you should clean up your place some?"
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
Or maybe Apollo will just want to, so that his date doesn't get a bad impression.
Cuz the Apollo/Daniel ship is sailing.
turnish
heh
snuffysam
yeah, i think that's going to be one of the major themes coming up. trying to reconnect with julian isn't healthy - julian doesn't want anything to do with apollo, and he has his own physical and mental issues to deal with without taking care of apollo. meanwhile daniel will push apollo (either wittingly through calling him out, unwittingly through apollo wanting to get better for him, or both) to get healthier and turn his life around
whether apollo goes into a downward spiral or begins recovery depends on which path he chooses
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
It's a good point though, Rebel, about how to get across criticism.
I wonder if maybe Daniel starting to spiral down would help shock Apollo to his senses?
snuffysam
in that, apollo drags down everyone around him with his toxicity?
could happen, but i hope not. i like daniel.
DanitheCarutor
Oh man, I'm loving the Daniel discussion! He'll definitely be challenging Apollo in one way or another.
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
Maybe Daniel starting to date Julian will shock Apollo to his senses.
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
i believe in daniel to be self confident enough to fall down apollo's hole. but on the opposite turn i do think julian will be important for apollo cause i think only julian can point out some of apollo's flaws from the past and give apollo pause. tho im not quite sure how outside of giving apollo more clarity of the things julian is dealing with
snuffysam
daniel can even use the perfect pickup line that he's been saving for such an occasion
"i like my men like i like my alcohol - russian, and found in a bag"
Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
11/10
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
Okay, you win with that one.
snuffysam
julian can point out problems that apollo has had since childhood, but question is, will he want to?
or will he just want to keep apollo out of his life?
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
Back on the question of why Apollo is so irresponsible, I think it comes from his position of privilege. His parents probably made sure that he never suffered real consequences from his actions.
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
i feel julian wont succeed in keeping apollo out of his life because 1) apollo is apollo and 2) julian's young ghost self is telling him to not be lazy and i think julian will give in to that for a while
snuffysam
yeah it absolutely stems from that
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
A restraining order might be needed to keep Apollo out of his life. ^^
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
and yeah i agree with math, i think apollo has no real concept of consequences
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
Napples agrees too.
snuffysam
where are apollo's parents anyway? do they know what's happened to their son's life?
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
Do they care?
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
they might not care? or they might not know. cause apollo does not seem the type to call home frequently and i doubt their once in a blue moon phone calls consist of apollo saying "yeah i got wasted every night this week"
cause consequence conscious or not thats just not a thing i think any kid would talk to his parents about XD
QUESTION 4. The comic’s title, “The Guide to a Healthy Relationship,” seems rather revealing of the story at hand. What does the title mean to you exactly? How do you think the story will live up to that title? Furthermore, the three chapter titles (“Hypomania,” “Monophobia,” and “Psychosis”) all share a theme of mental issues. Does this change how you interpret the title at all or how you interpret the story itself (whether the entire story or a specific chapter’s content)? What role do you think these titles play in regards to the mental illnesses we’ve seen in the story so far? Finally, do you feel the story is about relationships with others, relationships with ourselves, both, or something else entirely?
snuffysam
yeah there's a reason i've been referring to things as healthy and unhealthy all night lol
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
for me personally i feel the title is both about relationships with others and with ourselves. tho i lean more towards the latter if i had to pick one. because of how apollo treats his own self.
snuffysam
yeah, having a healthy relationship with yourself seems like a big theme
i also think the unhealthy relationship apollo had with julian growing up will keep coming back
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
Wow, I hadn't even picked up on the chapter titles. Hmm, I guess at first my mind went to romantic relationships, but yeah it makes sense to be more friends and such.
Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
lol
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
"Guide to a Healthy Relationship - Don't act like Apollo."
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
thats the real lesson we should take away from this
dont be an apollo
be the best daniel you can be
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
I gotta wonder a bit about Apollo's circle of friends too. They seem like real enablers, I wonder if they have day jobs.
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
probably. despite their party habits more of them seem to have their crap together perhaps.
tbf tho i think apollo is equally an enabler. so i think its just a circle of friends who see nothing wrong, enable each other, and spiral down and down
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
There is that, yeah.
snuffysam
do they know how bad apollo's life is? or do they just think he's that wild guy who likes to drink on the weekends?
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
Speaking of spiralling down, that one panel with the pill on the tongue was cleverly done. Just wanted to get that out there.
I think they believe Apollo's got an amazing life. Bartender with access to free drinks, his own place without a roommate to bug him, the ability to afford random merchandise for thousands of dollars... what's not to like?
snuffysam
true
Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
thirded
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
If anything, the search for Julian might be helping to pull Apollo away from the bad influences.
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
math has a point
cant be out drinking when youre haunting a school at night
looking for ghost friends
maybe apollo will be like "wow so this is what being sober is like"
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
"I can walk without running into trees. My friends, however..."
snuffysam
though nothing stopping you from drinking before starting the search
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
maybe julian will say something
like "please dont come here reeking of alcohol"
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
Julian just needs to keep throwing water into Apollo's face. Like that first time.
Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
Yeah
Try it like eight more times
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
Though the fact that he did reach out there implies that at least part of him doesn't like seeing Apollo down on his luck, perhaps?
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
yeah i dont think julian hates apollo persay. i think hes just tired of dealing with apollo
cause ive dealt with ppl like that
where you dont hate them
but man do you have your own shit going on and theres only so many hours in the day
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
Truth.
"And now I have to mop the floor AGAIN, geeeez."
snuffysam
yeah, that's the thing, i think julian does care about apollo, but their relationship is so one-sided that it isn't worth it
DanitheCarutor
The answers about the tirle, and this discussion is soooo gooood! I didn't think anyone would pay that any mind. -sobs- I wish I could spill the beans, some of you guys had some really spot on theories.
turnish
Sorry I’m hella cleaning so I couldn’t participate as much as I wanted to,,rip
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
Apollo knows not of this "cleaning".
snuffysam
yeah didn't you learn from the story, turnish? you have to live your life like apollo! that's the moral!
turnish
Dang ur right I should become a slob
shixjdj
Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
kek
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
Don't lose your glasses though. That's a bad plan.
DanitheCarutor
Yeah, man. Just throw it all on the floor, the nanny will take care of it. Everyone's got one of those, right?
turnish
Man I Wish
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
yeah i store my nanny in my closet when not in use
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
Hm, this sequel to Mary Poppins took a NSFW turn...
DanitheCarutor
Ah, I'd suggest storing them in a jar. It's more cost effective.
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
Anyway, last remark from me, again impressed by the use of colours and drive to experiment with some different perspectives and the like at times.
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
COMIC TEA PARTY END!
Unfortunately, the scheduled Comic Tea Party time is now up~! Thank you everyone so much for reading and joining this week’s chat~! We want to give a special thank you to Dani, as well, for making The Guide to a Healthy Relationship and volunteering it for our reading queue. If you liked the comic, please be sure to support Dani’s efforts however you’re able to. All that being said, if you would like to continue discussing this week’s comic, we highly encourage you to do so~!
For next week, Comic Tea Party will focus on Wednesday7 by Viki Kuli. As always, please use the next several days to read as much of the comic as you would like. We hope to see you next Thursday on July 19th from 5PM to 7PM PDT for the chat~! Until then, happy reading~! Comic: https://tapas.io/series/Wednesday7%20
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I was tagged by @espbelle !!! thank you!!!
rules: answer these questions, and tag 20 followers that you would like to get to know better
name: Megan or Riot
nickname: beep beep (it’s a work thing, my rewards name at the store used to say my name really messed up where it said meganmegan *my last name* and every time I bought stuff which was literally every day my coworkers would just go “MEGANMEGANMEGANMEGANMEGAN” so I changed it to beep beep so they’d just say beep beep instead and it stuck and people genuinely will forget my real name for a moment bc they just always call me beep beep.)
zodiac sign: cancer
hogwarts house: honestly idk maybe I should figure that out bc harry potter is my friends fave thing ever
height: uhhh like 5'4 but I got these awesome platform boots that I lov!!!! they’re 4 inches high & have bat wings you can add to them!!! tbh I love all shoes with platforms and honestly this quote comes to mind: “why is the dog on the counter?” “he likes to be tall.”
sexual orientation: SENSITIVE MEDIA
ethnicity: caucasian
favourite fruit: hmmm probably blueberries (….KNEES FEELIN JUST FINE YEA)
favourite season: I like summer bc of all the fun stuff that happens like concerts & other cool events but I also like fall bc halloween & the weather is nice and honestly sitting around in a big comfy sweater on a fall day is awesome
favourite book series: I have no idea omg I haven’t read many of them….
favourite fictional character: Uhhh so I also haven’t seen many movies or shows but maybe Alice from resident evil?? that’s the only character I can think of… or maybe steven universe but I’m not caught up on that series at all.
favourite flower: roses or snapdragons idk much abt flowrs
favourite scents: uhh I tried to list some specifics but I can’t think of anything right now, probably lots of fruity scents & also minty stuff
favourite color: red, black, grey, white!!! I completely redid my room with all my stuff those colors! I’m thinking of doing my hair red again but also I’m thinking purple or yellow/pink or pink/orange or purple/red okay maybe I have no clue what I’m doing with it I gotta hold off until I know lmao
favorite animal: cats, sloths, alpacas!!!!
favorite artist/band: hippo campus!!!!!
coffee, tea or hot chocolate?: hot chocolate!!!
average # of hours of sleep: honestly I just do whatever pals
number of blankets: 1-3 currently but that’s only bc I don’t know where my other 4 blankets I used to use are
dream trip: honestly my idea of a vacation is like “hey I went out of town for the day!!!” so like literally anywhere I’m not sure of any specifics but I guess maybe it counts that I wanna see hippo campus at a hometown show??? (someone come pick me up and bring me……..please I’m 100% serious)
last thing i googled: I was looking up “public the band” bc I want to buy public’s new album and a bracelet on friday!!
blog created: back in late January or something but I didn’t start using it until the middle of February (after I saw hippo campus)
how many blogs do i follow: uhhhhhhhh I’m not Goin to look at the actual number but last I checked it was around 1,700???????? nobody judge me please lmao
(edited to include it's actually 2000ish blogs. you can judge me now)
number of followers: uhhhhhhhh this blog has like 530 now omg… ily all. I gotta do somethin for that!!! I’ll see if I can pick up another copy of landmark when I’m in duluth to give that away! (hey I’ve already got the halocline eps to give wooo!!!) Honestly I’ve wanted to do that for literally ages (since like 60 followers……….) so I gotta get Goin on that… Should be pretty soon now though.
what i usually post about: hippo campus!!! but also oops I keep forgetting/being too lazy to add stuff to my queue….. I gotta do that soon bc its empty
do i get asks regularly: hmmm occasionally I’ll get some!!
Uhhh idk who to tag omg..
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Rules: answer these questions and tag people you want to get to know better! Tagged by @raspberrylaundromat
Name: bailey
Nickname: lee, bagel
Zodiac sign: libra
Hogwarts house: slytherin
Height: 5'3
Orientation: bi
Ethnicity: white
Favorite fruit: apples but i’m eating watermelon rn
Favorite season: fall
Favorite book series: ahhh jeez maybe harry potter?
Favorite fictional characters: i rlly like both nursey and dex from @omgcheckplease (if u haven’t read it, go do it now! it’s a rlly cute webcomic)
Favorite flower: I like daffodils a lot and peonies
Favorite scents: i don’t rlly have a good sense of smell like sometimes it’s there sometimes it’s not. when it is there i like the smell of lavender
Favorite color: blue or yellow maybe
Favorite animal: dogs!!
Favorite artist/band: um maybe the front bottoms? or the indigo girls. or maybe the homeless gospel choir who i’m seeing in a couple days and i’m excited
Coffee, tea or hot cocoa?: kinda a cross between tea and coffee bc i drink iced chai lattes and i always add an extra shot
Average sleep: ummm maybe 6-7 during the school year and 9-11 during the summer because i’m a lazy sob
Number of blankets I sleep with: a l l o f t h e m
Dream trip: france
Last thing you googled: spring awakening 2016 tonys
How many blogs I follow: 602
Number of followers: dunno the exact number but almost 900
What I usually post about: aesthetic, dogs, abandoned places, and lyric edits
Do I get asks regularly: sometimes? if i ask for asks people usually send them
What is your aesthetic: fashion, girls, flowers, dogs, abandoned places, etc
if u see this, consider yourself tagged
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can i ask what really turned you off of throne of glass? bc i used to love it too but looking back on it im like Um Yikes but im always curious to know what did it for other people (for me it was nehemia's death & the aftermath of that plus book 3 was the nail in the coffin)
PSA: this is an anti-tog/shit post so if you don’t wanna hear what i have to say, please just scroll past this and move along with your day
honestly where do i even begin? because there is so much that i just look back on that makes me question how i even liked this series. if this ends up being a long post i’m sorry but i have a lot of feelings about this.
firstly, one of the biggest reasons why i no longer love this series is because of how problematic it is and sjm’s refusal to acknowledge the criticism of it and just own up to the fact that she fucked up. because almost every poc character she has in tog was killed off for the sake of white development (nehemia for aelin & sorscha for dorian) and lgbt+ characters are sidelined (emrys + malakai in hof), villainized (manon’s grandmother), the one canon bisexual character is called the “whore of adarlan” (aedion in eos), or paired off with broody “males” (malide should’ve happened) not to even mention how all of the guy characters are a caricature of the hyper aggresive sexy “male” who simply cannot control himself since it’s in his “nature.” because what’s human decency and respectful behavior towards your significant other?
secondly, i do not like the direction where she took this series in at all. nehemia didn’t need to die to get celaena/aelin in the emotional state she was in hof. you know what could’ve happened? celaena feeling lost and broken because she was in a foreign country by herself away from everyone she had learned to love in adarlan (nehemia, chaol, dorian) and facing the fact that she was the lost princess of terrasen. the series could’ve been about celaena accepting both parts of herself (assassin & queen) without becoming arrogant and dismissive of her troubled past? can you imagine how great it would’ve been to have nehemia and celaena ruling erilea as the best of friends? dorian and chaol being the cute cinnamon rolls they were? instead we got a very white series, very straight and cis characters (all of them), special snowflakes (aelin), shitty sex scenes (velvet-wrapped steel), anti-climatic deaths (arobynn & king of adarlan), sunken ships that should’ve sailed (chaolaena & doraelin & malide), buthered character development (tbh who wasn’t ooc?), and more sex this time with fire (so hot it will turn sand into glass) because what’s logic.
lastly, i cannot for the life of me stand her writing anymore. i feel like this partly due to the fact that she keeps writing huge ass books and they aren’t going through a long enough editing process and partly because its overdramatic and lazy in my opinion. everytime she uses “male” and “female” to describe a character every five seconds i want to through my book out the window. is it really necessary? (also very cis again) there has been multiple people pointing out how she’s plagarized lines (rattle the stars from treasure planet & to whatever end from lord of the rings) which may be unintentional but a quick google search could’ve prevented this from happening in the first place. also she uses the staple lines(she was the heir of ash and fire and she would bow to no one) that most series have way to often, so much that losses all of its weight? she is incapable of switching romantic relationships without buthering the previous love interests character (chaol in qos/dorian in eos). also empire of storms and a court of mist and fury basically have the same ending which is just super lazy?
i’m probably forgetting so much more that i hate but i’ve already spent way too much time writing this. while i may not like throne of glass anymore, i did like acomaf even though its not much better and still problematic (are we even surprised?). i actually like the characters and they haven’t gone to shit yet but we’ll see how i feel after acowar.
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tagged by @zombidropper to do a question thing!
rules: answer questions and tag blogs you wanna know better
-sign: scorpio ~
-height: 5′4″?? 5′5″?? 5′4.5″?? somewhere around there??
-last thing googled: whitecastle, probably my fifth time doing since i can never remember that its actually a fast food chain (is it? i can’t remember-ironic)
-favorite music artists: the ones i really like right now are dayshell, fire from the gods, cane hill, beartooth, and no resolve
-last tv show i watched: a series of unfortunate events if that counts as a tv show since its technically not on tv but on netflix. i don’t remember the last time i watched tv
-what im wearing rn: a set of white pajamas with the arm and leg sleeves rolled up (i like it that way even tho it’s cold). they have a colorful flower pattern on them
-what i post about: i don’t know. memes, games, music, shitposts, stuff. have a look at my blog
-do i have any other blogs: yeah i co-run a jespar dal’varek blog with @cthulhuzuzu (and just bc i’ve tagged you go do this zu). check it out c:
-do i get asks regularly: NO LMAO unless like one of the mutuals are on when i reblog the ask thingamajingys
-why did i choose my url: oh that’s a long story involving me picking my league username which i am too lazy to fucking type out rn (even tho i’ve been working on this for like five mins). but long story short i ended up with xile and added a 1 since somebody already fucking took xile ineritresotret and i hate putting numbers at the end of my usernames (i considered xi13 at some point tho but it’s not the same)
-pokemon team: valor
-favorite colors: red; probably a shade of crimson, yknow what i’m putting the rgb: (220, 20, 60) or (200, 8, 21). ooo (227, 11, 92) is nice too. red is a very nice color
-average hours of sleep: recently like 7/8, 9 on weekends, 5 if i procrastinated, it literally depends on how much hw i’ve procrastinated
-favorite characters: hrm, none come to mind
-favorite books: ahahhahahahhahahahah fucking a lot. honestly too many for me to bother looking them up rn and putting them in. most of them are around the kids/ya area. my fav book is probably the i hunt killers series.
-dream job: i’d love to work on film/film editing. i have a lot of scenes i’d want to make/do. cooking is up there
people i want to tag: @soarshinesmile , @nanovert , @snepai2113 , and everyone else i want to tag has been tagged or has done it. oh if you see this consider yourself tagged even if you’re a follower/mutual i didn’t tag. finding out stuff about ppl is fun
obviously you don’t have to do it if you want to/aren’t comfortable in doing it
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check-in tag
i was tagged by @wuxien ♥ thank you for thinking of me ^^ it was so nice to read yours and your love for wwx made me smile a lot~
1. Why did you choose your url?
ok so i have explained the origin of my url a couple of times but! let’s hear it again!
so while i was in high school, i was obsessed with j.r. ward’s black dagger brotherhood series and brother vishous was my favorite out of all the vampires of the brotherhood. the royalty theme also stuck with me and i liked “viscount” a lot. i made this nickname for one of my random nintendo ds games originally and then it followed me around lol (my original url on tumblr was in finnish. i have tried to leave that one behind haha)
2. Any side-blogs? If you have them, name them and why you have them.
nope. tho i sometimes consider making one? but i feel like that would put too much pressure on me so i just gather everything here like the trash collector i am
3. How long have you been on tumblr?
i made my account in 2013 so a while
4. Do you have a queue tag?
no. i just post stuff whenever i am around :’D i keep thinking about making one and actually using my queue but,,, i am lazy. also this blog is a mess
5. Why did you start your blog in the first place?
in 2013 i was living and breathing manga/anime. tumblr was a place for all the nice fanart and edits and i just went around looking at those. i can’t remember when i actually started posting anything for this blog bc for a while i just lurked here looking at things but it happened. then i slowly started expanding from there as i moved on from anime to different tv series and movies and kpop and now dramas
6. Why did you choose your icon/pfp?
current one (and the previous one too) is bc this man lives in my brain rent free. it’s closing in on one year since i started watching reboot and i still cannot move on from liu sang and how much i love his character and the whole world of dmbj. this fandom really is a pit and i am shoveling dirt to get deeper each day
7. Why did you choose your header?
this too applies to the previous one bc i associate liu sang with forests, especially foggy ones. i looooove the aesthetic of foggy hills and this feeling of mystery but also freedom it gives me. tho i’ve been thinking about making a new layout again bc the current green color reminds me of that foam we use for plastic flowers to stick them up in their pots lol
8. What’s your post with the most notes?
my wangxian edit with lines from richard siken’s poem you are jeff x
it currently has almost 1.5k notes and i still have zero idea why it’s this edit specifically. i think i’ve made better ones but i am fond and very thankful of the love
9. How many mutuals do you have?
so many these days ;; i am so happy with all of you! everybody is so amazing and sweet and loving ♥
10. How many followers do you have?
way past 800 now and that’s nuts
11. How many people do you follow?
i just unfollowed a bunch of inactive blogs and try to find new ones to follow instead (if you have any recs pls do tell?) :’D but currently it’s somewhere around 260 i think
12. Have you ever made a shitpost?
uuuhhhh what is considered a shit post exactly
13. How often do you use tumblr each day?
too often. i feel like am around all the time lol. i switch between tumblr and twt usually but tumblr has been my fave social media ever since i properly started using it. tho when i first got into kpop in 2017-2018 i was very inactive here and almost deleted my account but am happy i didn’t bc the untamed dragged me back here again :’D
14. Did you have a fight/argument with another blog once? Who won?
nope, i don’t do drama. also am just chilling around, idk who would bother to fight me hhhhh and for what even???
15. How do you feel about “you need to reblog this” posts?
if it’s for a cause then yeah, sure. tho am bad at reblogging anyway so,,, consider me just a moron
16. Do you like tag games?
yes i adore them ;; i remember being so jealous at times when i was just chilling alone on tumblr, rolling around in my own corner, when i saw ppl doing tag games and never had any mutuals to do those with. and now i have a ton! of amazing ppl!! tagging me into things!!! it’s so much fun ♥
17. Do you like ask games?
sometimes? i don’t think am someone who really receives any asks but there are some amazing ppl who humor me every time ♥ also me and @i-am-just-a-kiddo sometimes play these “ask games” by ourselves on google docs :’D we just copy the whole list of questions and answer those and talk about our answers. we’ve done some writer questions especially bc we like to talk about writing and our projects and difficulties.
18. Which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous?
there are a couple of ppl on our network especially who intimidate me a bit bc of this O.O also some of our dmbj crew haha (especially looking at you sierra @jockvillagersonly ♥)
19. Do I have a crush on a mutual?
hmm several. tho i easily develop all these friend crushes on ppl. odds are am in love with everybody at least a little bit! but what is friendship on tumblr dot com if you are not confessing your undying love to your mutual at least once a meme post
20. tags?
ah sure! am going to tag: @susuwatari-kompeito @jazthespazz @manhasetardis @jaecomments @humanlighthouse @cross-d-a @xiejie-liubo @foxofninetales @a-force-dyad-in-space @englishbunnyrocks and @justpostsyeet ♥ also the two ppl already mentioned among my answer can consider doing this if they want 👀 no pressure tho! have a nice day everyone ^^
#tag game#thank you so much!!#this was fun :')#also hello!!#i love your whole aesthetic#so much??#your theme is so inspiring#maybe i will be inspired by it haha#i hope you like reading this
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