There is truly no greater love than taking your most adored fictional character and throwing them into the emotionally-devastating angst fueled trash compactor and pressing every single button on the machine just to see what will happen

I get jealous really easily but not like an angry vengeful jealous more like a really sad lonely jealous because everybody likes everybody more than they like me and I really really don't blame them.

I will give Buddy Daddies a pass on being called “found family” because even though Miri is NOT (adoption isn’t “found” family it is regular family) Kazuki and Rei pretty much are.

though they were work partners and probably technically friends, it seems clear to me that at the start of the show they were only living together because Kazuki was Going Through It and needed a pet project to keep himself sane. Taking care of Rei was good enough but it didn’t motivate him to improve or do anything about his other more unhealthy coping mechanisms.

and Rei probably liked Kazuki (as much as he’s capable of liking anyone through the many many layers of trauma stunting his emotions) and appreciated the hot meals and clean laundry, but he also disliked Kazuki disrupting HIS unhealthy coping mechanisms. Why CAN’T he eat junk food and play video games and chain smoke until he passes out?

then Miri came along, and suddenly being bachelor roommates isn’t good enough. They have to step up. They have to work together. They have to BE a family.

Something that stood out to me during my probably 20th rewatch of the show is that at the end of episode 1, Louis who tells about his dramatic turning into a vampire is emotional and fairly so. Since it was the beginning of his new life as a vampire it makes sense for him to shed a single bloody tear.

But here is the thing the next time we see Louis in episode 2 he comes to the dinner table and apologizes to Daniel, saying sorry for his outburst earlier. So your telling me that Louis considered that an outburst? A completely understandable single tear is an outburst?

And this goes back to the differences in Loumand's and Loustat's relationships.

All throughout the first season in Dubai we see Armand not letting Louis feel his emotions and is always there to stop him from showing too much of any negative emotion. And this also connected to the first scene we got from season 2 where Armand tells Louis how he likes that Louis is withholding.

Armand likes the part of Louis that is docile and calm while Lestat likes the vicious and more challenging part of Louis personality.

Both of them cannot accept and love Louis for who he fully is and I am excited to see how there relationships are able to develop in the show. I think it will be super cool to see the progression of this aspect of the show and how the journey that these characters go on will lead them to accepting and loving each other for who they truly are.

List 5 things that make you happy, then put this in the askbox for the last 10 people who reblogged something from you! get to know your mutuals and followers!!! (/nf ofc)

Ooo, ok!

1: My story/multiverse

2: undertale

3: FNAF

4: I like angst

5: Animating

And I don’t feel like going to peoples askbox so-

@dustsansm1 @absurdumsid @mellybabbles @killersansofficial

Do you ever think about the fact that people own this comic? That people are out there… who read this when it came out? Do you ever see it and think about the ethics of trauma healing presented in this comic? That there are good reasons for John to hide but also for Tim to set John’s soul free in his own way? That nobody is right or wrong here? Tim and John‘s relationship is so underrated. Not just because Tim‘s whole story point is presenting horrors of growing up trying to choose to be better, even tho everyone tells he’s not going to be better but also because John is living proof that you‘ll have to try your whole life. Both of them are cursed, magically and as normal people. The one who is supposed to destroy the universe and the other who killed the saviour of the world doomed as laughing magician to mess with high forces both with the struggles of the working class. Both with an abusive father. Both choosing a different way to heal their trauma and respond to the others trauma accordingly. They are my Roman Empire. For Tim mentioning John the whole time but also Tim accidentally saving a part of John. He might never know. They could never be father and son. For they love another too much.

I hope with all the stuff coming out about James Somerton that people come to recognize the actual researchers and queer people who worked to expand their field of knowledge.

Writing a research paper is NOT an easy task (i would know from experience), so the idea of someone plagiarizing all that hard work and getting the credit for it gets on my nerves!! Especially since it usually takes people YEARS to do research that Somerton stole in a few minutes.

It's midnight and I'm tired, so I'll direct yall to this post I saw with a list of people that Somerton stole research from, please check it out and read their work! I'm sure that these people would really appreciate it :)

allison or three nightmares from which i awoke well rested

finn came over after work last night and we drank two cans of the beast unleashed, ate a five cheese and marmalade pizza, and talked about all kind of nonsense. unaware of the risk of this particular combination of sensations, i inadvertently fed the one who sits just outside the fire light

the fulton county sheriffs department banging on my door in the middle of the night, arresting me, and taking me down to the rice street jail

off the shelf images of body horror. i will spare you the details. maybe it wasn't a nightmare or wasn't intended for me, because i felt oddly comforted after

a dream whose theme and visual aspect i am sure i have never experienced before. trespassing in an empty house full of sepia toned photographs of children with high foreheads and brilliantined hair, i suddenly remember being raised, for a period of years as a very young child, by a long forgotten older brother, after we were abandoned by our parents

A vent post about the fact that I hate that my brain shuts off every time I see a vent post

Every time I see a vent post, whether it be on wattpad or on here, it just urks me to see it. Not because the subject matter makes my hope for humanity die a little with each word, and no not because it makes me uncomfortable, but I just don't know what to do when I see one. I'm not very good at comforting people, when I look at a bad situation, I pick out all the facts of the matter and concentrate on the good things about it to cope. Like oh, my grade in math is going down, but at least I had a good day today with my friends, that kind of thing. Well when trying to comfort another person, that just doesn't work and I don't know what else to do. What am I supposed to say to the venting person? "You'll be okay"? With how fucked their life seems right know it just feels like I'm lying. I don't want the venter to be told lies I want the venter to be told the truth of the matter, that their life, in fact, can be salvaged. But honestly these vent posts are starting to have worse and worse things in them and I can't for the life of me find a single good thing about their life that can comfort them. What am I supposed to do??? Lie??? I don't wanna lie and say life will get better even if I know for a damn fact it'll probably only go down hill from there. So then I go to other facts, maybe things that could improve the venter's life and make their horrible shit at least livable, but seeing as how I'm so damn lucky that I'm never in any of these situations, I can't even help on a first person account and I don't trust the internet to give me valid information to help them. So at the end of the day, all I can fucking do is say "sorry" or say nothing. Am I just a bad person??? Do I just lack empathy or something??? I always have to scroll pass a vent post like it's a bad dream because I'm just powerless to make the person feel better. I want the people who make vent posts to feel better about their lives, I want people to see that the shit they put up with doesn't have to hurt (???), but I just can't for the life of me comfort them, I just can't do it, I'm not sure why but I just can't. People's lives are so sunny side fucked that not even I can see anything good, and saying "oh at least you have a roof over your head" is a shitty and unhelpful as fuck answer, along with any other "comfort" of that nature.

I just don't know what to do. I know that this is something I have to work on for myself, but god I wish it went by faster. My brain can't for the life of it switch from being factual to being empathetic. I don't want this to hurt my relationships, I don't just wanna say "mhm" or "okay" every time my partner vents or is having a crappy day. But I just don't know what else to do, all I can do is stay silent and I don't know how to fix it.

I'm typing this shit at 12am right now and I gotta wake up at 4 for something else so I'm probably gonna regret saying any of this at all. But look, if anyone out there knows what I'm talking about then please tell me if you fixed it because I don't wanna be doing this skipping vent posts thing anymore. I just can't find it in me to me sentimental, just angry and it's not. It's just not I can't even say this without thinking I'm a douchebag

Was talking about some Hollow Knight Mermay concepts on discord and I'm losing it at this one images crop

Discord why

i only like a specific flavor of flirty man and that is the one who’s flirty with only the person they love. i go nuts every time i see shisui being characterized as flirty (i fucking love it it’s hot) but then i imagine him being flirty like that with everybody else and us just being one more pretty treat and it makes me feel bad!!! i’m too hyper fixated on him to think clearly i’m going INSANE. though honestly i think he would be super loyal and wouldn’t sleep/pine/flirt with just anybody. i mean, have you seen how loyal this guy is? is literally his entire character.

i’ve been going to bed early these last couple of days and i find it more rewarding not for the fact that i’m slowly repaying my sleep debt, but because i have more time to draw in the morning

I have had the wonder thought where tritons are all really tall so Gillion is short by triton standards but tall for the humans omg, love this for me

Thanks for coming to my TEDtalk 

Guys I don’t think you understand-

Summoning all fanartists + pookies:

@determinedfanartist @dustsansm1 @theforgottencrow and others cause I ont know yall :3

Where to go from here?

OH HEY ITS BEEN A REAL HOT MINUTE SINCE I TALKED ON HERE. And oh boy do I have... thoughts. :T Mostly regarding my blog, Ask October Fox. There is a lot to read here..

Wow ok so.. this is a post that I have been putting off pretty much all year long. It was one of those “I will cross that bridge when I get there” and oh boy, wouldnt you know it.. there’s the bridge. I had wanted to make this sooner but for some reason my brain just wouldnt let me. Im posting this here first since I think about 90% of people who follow October, follow me here too, so this seems like where I might reach the most people but I will also reblog this on her blog as well. I have just been trying to gather my thoughts, but it feels like every time I do, I just end up with a scattered mess trying to explain myself. Id like to keep this short but.. well thats not going to happen, i’ll try tho So... to be upfront with a somewhat TLDR, I dont know how much more I will be running my ask blog. This doesnt mean October herself is going anywhere, she’ll still be around, I just dont know if it will be here. Its a bit of a complicated matter, and one that I have been struggling with since the beginning of the year. My main problem is that I dont know if I can physically keep doing it. I know I had mentioned last year about the amount of pain I was in with my old tablet and how hard it was getting to draw. But on the plus side, since getting a monitor tablet, a new desk and set up, those problems have gotten significantly better. Every so often they might flare up, but with regular breaks, slightly more structured schedule, and daily exercising, its few and far between. So on that front im good! I still dont want to risk getting hurt again, which is why im just unsure if I can put that kind of strain on myself again.. and it doesnt help that I feel like im drawing slower than I used to, tho that could just be me. Secondly, is.. is there anyone here anymore? I used to check Tumblr every day, multiple times a day, and then I just... left for like 3 months bc it felt like hardly anyone was here anymore (another reason why I didnt make this post sooner. I have avoidance issues.). I feel like I might have joined Tumblr around its peak, just before The Ban™️ came down and most people- rightfully- left. October’s story is finally starting to come to light and while it was something I have been planning for a while now, the big story isnt something that I want to do to an empty audience, if that makes any sense. And thats on me, really. I waited too long. Thirdly, there were/are certain things that needed to happen before I could tell that story- and sadly I feel as tho I am missing a big key factor that is needed to link the story to the next part. But without that key factor...I feel like Id to have to retcon the entire story. Not that that in itself is a terrible thing, the story has been ever changing for a while now, but this had been one of the main things I had planned for a long time now. Not to mention I still want to tell stories of some of the other characters. There are a few more personal reasons, but these are just the main ones. Im just.. not sure what to do anymore. I would still like October to continue to interact with people, that is something that I have greatly enjoyed in the past couple of years with the quick replies, and thats what she was meant to be all about for the most part. Im planning on having October doing stuff outside of this blog this year- lots of ideas planned, like streaming art and maybe some games- but as far as the nightly comics.. eehh... So I guess my question is this.. would people rather I just tell them the rest of the story, or would people rather I still try and draw it out, tho more like a graphic novel style and not in a full comic form? Tho again going back to the the third section, I still have to figure out how that would play out anyway. I hate to say how much this has been stressing me out, and how much I am upset with myself over how things have played out. Many things I probably should have done differently but now im just going to have to roll with it. As mentioned the story, October, and the characters arent going anywhere. There are still stories and characters to be talked about, I just dont know how or where that will be.  There is a lot more than I could go on about but for now I think its best to end this rambling here. Once I get some input or answers then I will move onto the next step. I apologize for the massive wall of text here, and for anyone who read all of it, I cant thank you enough for that. For now I will continue to work on the planned projects, as I still have a little time to finish those things up, but wow.. September is sure moving a lot faster than I would like :T

people have been speculating that this idol splatfest might impact side order or some future event, and i wonder what kind of impact it will have

for the callie vs marie splatfest, the sisters mainly split apart due to rising fame and separate work and then callie got mind controlled by dj octavio

for the chaos vs order splatfest (which i suppose counts as a pearl vs marina splatfest) chaos won which led to the rise of the splatlands

so i wonder if maybe future events might try and test shiver's leadership? maybe something threatens to tear apart deep cut, and as the official leader, shiver is forced to take action

idk, i can't be the only one who feels like this sounds slightly ominous and maybe more muted in tone than frye's usual lines?? usually she's very hyped up, but considering the tone of daybreaker anthem, maybe she's just being more sincere and calm this time

like, look at all of them together watching the sun rise :D it would be a shame if something happened to split them apart...