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kit-writes-fanfic-blog · 5 years

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Its okay to cry

So its a bit of a short one and its a bit angsty but ends well! I’m currently working on something else too so dont worry! Forever tag list! (if you want to be added shoot me a line and i’ll add you in!) @bitchesbecrazy89 @rockinthebeastmode @mirandasmadeofstone @i-dream-of-emus @pink-royaute @soy-la-verrrga @so-stupid @becauseim-kayla @protectfinnnelson @tinakegg @raexrobron23 @mmfdfanfic The corners of his mouth turned down when Rae didn’t reply. He crept forward, with the kind of trepidation he didn’t like sitting in his stomach.

“Rae?” Finn’s voice called out into the dark room, the orange luminescence of a streetlamp bleeding in from the window where the curtains blew gently in the autumn breeze. With his hand frozen on the door handle he peered over at the bed he’d grown accustomed to sharing, care bear covers and all. The corners of his mouth turned down when Rae didn’t reply. He crept forward, with the kind of trepidation he didn’t like sitting in his stomach. Linda had told Finn that it wasn't a good Rae day when he’d arrived at the house. He’d waited for her with the gang at the pub for what felt like an age before coming to look for her. “What’s wrong Rae?” He took in her form. Her face was blank as she stared at the ceiling, her face was red from crying, but not recently. The dark violet circles beneath her eyes were a stark juxtaposition against her pale complexion. He felt his heart clench with a stab of guilt. Here he was sitting in the pub all afternoon while his girl was like this.

“Nothing Finn. I’m fine, really i am” Raes voice was quiet and raspy from non-use. This wasn’t his Rae, his sharp and sarcastic Rae, his terrifyingly intelligent Rae. Right now she was quiet and dampened. Seeing her like this broke Finn’s heart. “You don’t look fine, Rae.” He sat down gingerly on the edge of her bed, he moved his face into her line of sight but she didn’t make eye contact with him. He reached a hand out tentatively and let it hang in the air for a millisecond before resting it on her wrist where it lay limply against the sheets of her bed. “Then stop looking.” She snapped at him and rolled over so her back was to him, Finn’s hand slipping from her skin. He frowned and his eyebrows drew together as if they were seeking solace in one another. The thought of leaving entered his mind for a split second but pushed it away quickly, he knew Rae wasn’t trying to hurt him or be nasty. This was scared Rae, the Rae that was pushing people away to prove to herself that no one really cared about her. She was wrong though, if she thought that Finn would leave her. So very wrong. Finn leant down and unlaced his boots with practiced ease and toed them off before shrugging his jacket down his shoulders, laying them on the floor just under her bed. He twisted on the bed making a space for himself before laying down and wrapping his arm around her midriff. Safe. He pulled her back into his chest and pressed a kiss to the back of her neck. “Rae…” He breathed against the baby hairs at the bottom of her hair line, it wasn’t a question, just a soft coaxing of conversation. “I...” Her voice was thick with unshed tears and she turned in his arms to face him. She stared up at him, her eyes wide and shining, biting her bottom lip as if that would hold back the flood of emotion about to come. Finn just pulled her face forward into his chest and tangled his fingers in the back of her hair. The sobs left her body in wheeses, tremors rocking her entire body. Her chest heaved with the effort of trying to breathe and her body seemed to crumple into itself, knees trying to pull up to her chest only to be met with Finns own legs. Fingers curled into Finn’s shirt, pulling it tight across his shoulders, creating creases that she’d apologize for and smooth out later. Finn gazed down at her, fingers caressing the long dark strands away from her face. Careful digits felt across the now overheated red speckling of her cheeks, drying up a rogue tear that sat in the hollow of her eye socket. Rae seemed to still slowly, and Finn thought it was unnerving. Even though the crying had broke his heart and he wished for her never to have to cry, it was still motion. Whereas now she was deathly still and quiet, only sign she was still there was the warmth beneath his own touch and the gradual rise and fall of her chest. He wouldn’t push her into speaking when she was like this, sometimes words weren’t needed to communicate. Finn pressed closer to her in an attempt to make sure she really knew he was there. Rae had confessed once that sometimes, in the dead of night, she had to reach out to touch him to make sure she hadn’t dreamt him and their whole relationship up. At first he’d been hurt and had asked himself how could she think that? But as their relationship and Finns understanding grew, he knew that she couldn’t help thinking what she did. She just did, and that was just how it was sometimes. “I’m here, Girl.” Rae nodded her head at his words and her jaw moved like she was trying to say something, but no sound followed. Finn pulled back a fraction just so he could look into her eyes, red ringed and puffy but still that familiar shade of Rae. “I’m sorry, got your shirt all wet…” She chuckled now and scrubbed at her left eye trying to dispel the evidence of her emotions. “It’s okay to cry, Rae.” Finns voice was gentle but his words were absolute. The crinkles by her eyes softened out and she nodded again, slower this time. Accepting. “I’m sorry for snapping at you Finn, you don’t deserve it.” It was Finn’s turn to soften now, a genuine and soft smile gracing his face. “Don’t be daft woman, I know you didn’t mean it” He cupped her cheek and leant in to press a tender kiss against her lips. It wasn’t heated, yet it conveyed everything they both wanted to say.

I’m sorry. You’re okay. I’m here for you. I love you.

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c-rankin93 · 7 years

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She’s No You - Ch 18 part 1

One again this won’t let me post in full, so breaking into parts is what I have to do to post. This is the last chapter!!! Only the epilogue is next which will be set 5 years in the future...

If you need to refresh yourself with Finn’s family (especially his sister Mika) please re-read the introduction chapter, because she will be in the chapter.

Like everything I usually post on tumblr, this is unedited. I hope you like it! :)

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Rae POV:

"Finn?"

"Give me your hand, I promise I won't let you fall" he spoke softly.

The blindfold restricted my view but I followed the melody of his voice until my hand grabbed his. My grip tightened as we shuffled forward, slowly but surely we made it to what seemed like an elevator. Since the blindfold was placed over my eyes the moment we got into the car, I still had no idea where we were, and what building we were in - but by the sound of it we were still in the city.

Finn's hand stayed firmly in mine, but his other hand wondered over my shoulder, up my neck, until finally he was cupping my cheek. I couldn't help the smile that appeared on my face, unknown as to if his smile was just a pronounced as mine.

"I have loved you from the moment I met you. Your laugh, your... smile-" Finn moved his finger over my bottom lip making my smile grow even wider, "-You are everything to me. And I've tried living without you once, but everyday I constantly had to battle with myself not to go around there and beg you to take me back."

"Finn-"

"No, no. Please just let me say something first" he interrupted. We were still on our journey up in the elevator, my stomach was in knots but I was unsure if it was caused by the elevator or Finn.

"Without you, I wouldn't have my children. Without you, I would never of known what true love was. Without you, my life would of been a whole lot different."

"Shit" I whispered, but in all honestly it sounded more like a choked sob. Using my free hand, I ducked my fingers under the blindfold and wiping away the build up of tears.

Finn laughed, "I'm not me without you..." the bell tinged and the doors opened. A gust of wind hit my body suddenly and I shivered, in that moment I was glad that I still had my coat on.

We walked together slowly in a straight line, until coming to a holt some seconds later. Much to my dismay Finn let go of my hand.

"Take your blindfold off babe" he whispered in my ear causing a small fright.

I pulled it over my head and opened my eyes to a beautiful sight. Thousands of fairy lights scattered the roof top, twinkling against the Manhattan night life. Finn stood in front of me a smile dazzled his face as he took in my reaction.

"This is amazing" I breathed, wiping away another fallen tear.

"I would do anything to make you happy again."

Finn fell to one knee and looked up to me. My heart started to beat incredibly fast, my palms started to sweat. I didn't think he would do this so soon in our relationship.

"I told myself if i was going to do this again, I was going to do this right" he grabbed my left hand, "I know you better then you know yourself. I know that you feel hesitant about rushing our relationship, and you may feel that this step in our relationship is coming towards you too fast. But, in a perfect world we would still be married. I know I hurt you with stupid words, but I promise you I'll spent the rest of our lives together making it up to you. I promise that I will do everything in my power to make you happy. I love you Rachel, I love you so much that I will never give up trying until you say yes to me. So, with that all said and done. Will you Rachel Earl please do me the honour of being my wife, again?"

My heart ached with my decision, everything now fell on my shoulders. Do I void every doubt I have about saying yes and just do it, just jump head first and never look back. Or do I turn down the man I love because of my insecurities and the independence I've only just gotten a hold of?

I loved Finn with all my heart; I always have, even over the two years we spent apart. Right now looking a Finn waiting for my answer I knew I didn't have long to figure it out. I just hoped I was making the right decision.

"I like waffles most Sundays, unless I'm on a one day diet. My washing done on Wednesday, and my towels folded a particular way. I never want us to go to bed mad at each other, or without a kiss goodnight. I expect a foot rub at least once a month, plus I like the idea of you learning to pain my toenails." I rambled on whilst stroking his face with my free hand.

"I want us to do something at least once a week as a family, no matter what our work schedules are like. And I need to make a promise to you..."

I had realised it didn't matter what kind of routine I had orchestrated for myself Finn would always have a place; as the kids dad, and the love of my life.

I now understood the pain I put Finn through when I left him without talking to him first. It looked like I never trusted him, even though I truely did and I think that's why it hurt so much. I would never of believed that Finn was cheating on me without proof, they just obviously knew my weakness and took advantage of a situation. Finn was never at fault, and I punished him for two years. No wonder why he was so bitter towards me. His attacks where out of sheer anger, hurt and frustration. I wish I could turn back time, to the day this all started.

But here he was, down on one knee begging me to remarry him - the one who ripped his heart to threads. I could see the honesty in his eyes when he promised to make me happy til the day I die, I knew he would succeed. How could I possibly turn down his proposal because we are doing this faster then the average person?

"... I promise that I will come to you before jumping to conclusions no matter what... I promise I will never leave you again like that again. I want to make you happy as well Finn, and if me becoming your wife again will do that, then I think you should hurry up and slide that pretty rock on my finger."

"What?"

"You heard me.. Yes! Yes I'll marry you!"

His hand reached into his jacket pocket, and out he pulls a red velvet run box, but still he doesn't open it quite yet.

"Are you sure Rae?"

"Of course I'm sure. Why wouldn't I be?" I scoffed playfully.

"To be honest I thought you would of been a harder nut to crack" he jokes back, "I thought I'd have to ask you at least a few times first before you would finally give in to my charms".

He flicked the box open and pulled out a stunning oval cut diamond ring, the band itself was also a halo of diamonds. Grabbing my hand again he slid the ring onto my finger and stood to kiss me.

His lips were soft against mine, which where no doubt wet by the amount of tears I had been shedding. I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled him closer without breaking the moment.

We stayed there for another fifteen minutes until the cold wind got the better of us. Once we were in the elevator again I realised we were on the roof of Finn's office building. A place I remember always begging Finn to take me when he wasn't busy, but we never got the chance - until now.

We went down to Finn's floor and towards his overly lavish office. I couldn't help but notice the vacant desk where Olivia use to be seated. Finn must of noticed my curiosity because he pulled us to a stop.

"I'm never going to let that happen I promise".

I smiled, "I know but your going to need another personal assistant someday. Archie has told me about the mess you've been through since she was fired".

"Yes I know. But don't worry about that now, we have some celebrating to do" I laughed as he pulled me into his office and slammed the door.

The furniture looked new, which surprised me because the desk he use to have belonged to his grandfather. I never thought in a million years he would ever get rid of it.

I ran my fingers across his brand new plush chair before testing out the comfort, whilst Finn rummaged through the cabinet again the wall.

"I've got enough scotch to sink a battle ship".

I sighed dramatically, "oh well that will just have to do won't it Mr. Nelson".

"Hey! There's nothing wrong with a good top shelf scotch!" Finn pouted grabbing two glasses and proceeded to pour us a drink.

"To the future" Finn toasted.

"To an incredible future..." We clinked our glasses together, then downed the auburn liquid.

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peterjakes · 2 years

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My Mad Fat Diary Fanfic - Chapter 9

Chapter 9: Jonjo’s Washing Machine

Another party! After the last, Archie isn't sure how to act around Barney. And yet, he can't stay away. This can only mean one thing, right?

Thank you and enjoy! x

Also posted on ao3;

https://archiveofourown.org/works/20154688/chapters/89500660

Somehow Chop had managed to persuade everyone to go to another party, this included Jonjo, whose parents semi-detached had been infiltrated by a bunch of wasted, Stamford teenagers who didn’t and outright couldn’t go home.

Archie wasn’t particularly looking forward to another party where he could make a fool of himself, the last time had been quite enough for him, but Chloe had managed to badger long enough, using the excuse that they needed to look after each other as the only single ones in the gang. Archie supposed she was right, even though Chloe seemed to enjoy being single for once. Or at least that’s how Archie saw it, and after the chat they had after the party at Chop’s, Archie felt closer to Chloe and that they understood each other. But there was no way he was babysitting her or any of the gang.

It wasn’t a massive party, could have only been around 20 people there which made sense as all of the rooms were so small and there seemed to be no room to breathe. To be completely honest, it wasn’t really a party at all. Jonjo had refused to buy more than 2 crates of beer, which had mostly been consumed by himself before anyone even arrived. At some point during the night, Archie lost sight of most of the gang but found company with Lizard and Little Al in one of the bedrooms who showered him with drunk compliments. His plan to avoid Barney didn’t work out either, no sooner had the rest of the gang come out of hiding, had Barney stumbled into the unoccupied space next to Archie. Archie’s undesired awkwardness seemed to creep in as soon as Barney crashed down next to him, bumping his shoulder. He didn’t know what to say. He didn’t want to talk to Barney. He’d just say something stupid. He always did. The two spent the next half an hour not speaking, just listening to one of Chop’s exaggerated stories until it was clear neither of them could stand the awkwardness between them.

“Look at us, fourth time we’ve been in ‘ta same room? Makes me think ‘ya actually wanna spend time with me!” Barney chuckled, trying to ease the tension. This was becoming a regular occurrence whenever he spoke to Archie, which was something he didn’t particularly enjoy. He never thought Archie to be much a nervous guy, and it was becoming increasingly clear something was wrong.

“Chop’s a pretty good persuader. That’s all I’ll say, alright?”

“Yeah, yeah. Likely story, Arch.”

“It’s like he wants us to die of alcohol poisoning. I don’t get how he can get through it all!”

“Mate, ‘e’s a trooper – you’re just weak!”

The two were sitting almost arm to arm at this point, their skin brushing against each other. Archie could feel the slight bicep of Barney’s arm and had to move his right hand over his crotch. Barney played some football with the lads and when Archie worked at the leisure center he often saw Barney coming out of the swimming pool changing rooms. Not that he was looking or anything. He didn’t do that anymore. Barney didn’t notice though, he was still laughing at something Chop had just said and reached over to Archie, whispering delicately into his ear. The warmth of Barney’s breath on Archie was almost too much for him, he gave Barney a small smile indicating that yes, he was listening and not thinking about how lovely his face was and how nice his breath felt on his skin and what a lovely tone of voice he had.

“Mate, do ‘ya wanna head outside? Bit cramped in ‘ere, init?” Before Archie could resist, Barney pulled him out of the room and headed to the front door. Archie glanced back at the rest of the gang, to see Rae giving him a little smirk and nudging Finn.

Once the two had reached outside, Barney offered Archie a cigarette to which Archie shook his head. He only really took cigarettes from Finn and even that was a rarity.

“Ah, forgot ‘ya didn’t smoke. Shame. Need a new smoking buddy. Little Al’s giving up, apparently. Says his missus don’t like it. How he managed to get a bird, and a nice one at that, is a complete mystery.” Barney took his first drag and puffed the smoke into the air, watching it float away. As he did this, Archie leaned his back onto the brick wall, carefully studying the other boy’s movements and enjoying it.

“Guy like you, I’m surprised Anna hasn’t pounced yet.” This was true but came out more harshly than Archie expected. Barney was a good-looking guy, even people who didn’t have a massive crush and were becoming increasingly obsessed with him and his face could see that. Anna was only mentioned to create a buffer, she was a nice girl.

“Oh, look at you – didn’t know you could be such a judgey git!”

“Not judging, just saying. You know, she tried to kiss me last year.” This was also true. Quite a few girls wanted to kiss Archie, and quite a few girls were disappointed at his recent announcement. Archie could always get the girls, but he never could put up with them for more than a week. This was something that quite a few of the lads had become aware of, Barney included. Though no one ever said anything, it was like an unspoken agreement, one that Chop wasn’t included in for being completely clueless in that regard.

“Ha, bet ‘ya loved that!” Barney immediately regretted that comment, unsure on whether it was too forward again. “Sorry, Arch. Didn’t mean-“

“It’s fine.” Archie shrugged it off, not really knowing why Barney was apologising, and took Barney’s cigarette from his lips, placing it on his own – quite daring for Archie. He took a small drag, trying to resist a coughing fit, and handed back the cigarette, trying to look as sexy as possible but ultimately failing. Archie had never been sexy, no matter what Rae said. Barney was smirking as Archie did this, this boy never failed to surprise him. Super cool one minute, the next like a scared little mouse. Barney still couldn’t quite work him out, like a puzzle he wanted to solve. Something he had to crack. He wanted to crack it. Him. Crack him.

Once again, the two 18-year-olds were sitting in proximity, a little too close for Archie’s liking. Well, it wasn’t that he didn’t like it but how he didn’t want to react too obviously. Barney shifted closer to Archie, stubbing out the cigarette next to him, making sure his arms crossed over his legs. Archie, trying not to be the most awkward he had ever been in his life, pulled off his glasses and wiped them with his t-shirt, ridding of the invisible mark.

“You should wear your glasses less, suits ‘ya,” Archie raised his eyebrows at this – was this Barney’s attempt at a compliment? Why couldn’t he just say what he meant? Why was everything so complicated? “Not that the glasses don’t…‘ya, know? But... it’s a good look, I suppose.”

“Cheers, I’ll keep that in mind.” The sarcasm in Archie’s voice was clear and he placed his glasses back onto the rim of his nose, slightly wonky, not intentionally. As if routine, Barney positioned the glasses in the right position, his fingers brushing against Archie’s cheeks as he did this. This time it was Barney’s time to blush, it was obvious in the dim light coming from inside. Archie couldn’t help but try to suppress the smile forming, but this didn’t work.

“You know, not surprised Anna tried to kiss ‘ya. It ‘appens a lot with you, ‘asn’t it? Can’t keep ‘em all away.”

“Something like that.”

Archie tried to meet Barney’s gaze, his eyes flickering between his pink lips and back to those lovely, blue eyes. He was a sucker for bright, blue eyes. He was also a sucker for most of Barney’s features. Barney was smiling, obviously noticing Archie’s predicament. To look or not to look? Archie knew that the moment was going to slip away. Soon enough someone, most likely Chop looking for Izzy, would burst out and ruin it. Archie would have to grow some balls and just do it. Third time lucky, eh? Yes, third time lucky. Archie tries to position himself, without making it too obvious to the brown-haired boy beside him. Barney eyes focused on his feet, conscious that Archie was staring at him. Archie tried to get his attention, coughing slightly but that wasn’t enough, Barney’s eyes were fixated on his shoelaces.

“Barney?” Just as Barney clocked his head up, level with Archie, their lips met. This is the one, that kiss that matters. Barney’s soft lips felt like heaven on Archie’s, it’s as if they are supposed to touch, supposed to connect. It only lasted a few seconds, but Archie could feel the warmth and pleasure growing inside him. Archie felt the happiest he’s been in a long time, that was until he realised that Barney has stopped kissing him back and quickly pulled away. Archie knew it was a mistake as soon as their lips parted. Barney face said it all, he wasn’t very good at hiding his emotions but like most boys his age, he was extremely good at not saying anything about how he was feeling. Archie waited a few seconds before scrambling away from those baby blue eyes as quickly as he could. This was Archie’s problem. He always liked the ones he couldn’t have. Those guys that always seemed so friendly, so hands-on but as soon as Archie gave anything back, he’d realise that’s not what they wanted. Of course Barney didn’t like Archie. Of course he liked girls. That first time, it was only a game, and it wasn’t a proper kiss. The second time, they were wasted. The third time … well Archie had been quite pushy he supposed. Barney was only friendly and yes, he was a very flirty person. He flirted with everyone. Archie wasn’t special, he was just stupid. He’d gone and ruined a great friendship. Archie seemed to ruin everything.

“Arch… listen, mate. I think-“ Barney started but Archie couldn’t bear to hear anymore. The embarrassment. The stupidity. The shame.

“Look, Barney-“ Archie couldn’t take it, making sure to avoid Barney’s eyes. He could feel his cheeks slowly heating up and even in the dim light he was sure Barney would notice. Barney wouldn’t stop looking directly at Archie, trying to catch his eye and assess the situation. How to play it? Not harshly, no, never harshly with Archie. It’s not that he’s delicate, well, a little, no, he just needs you to be kind. Kindness is what Archie needs. But Barney doesn’t know if he can give him that.

“You’re a great mate Archie, but like … ya can’t do that, alright? Can’t just …” What can’t Archie do? Kiss Barney so tenderly, so warmly? Give Barney one of those looks that makes him feel… different? No, Archie can’t just force this all on Barney when he doesn’t even know what he wants. When he doesn’t want to think about it.

“Yep. Yes. You’re right. Just … misread … Rae needs me, so…”

“Arch!” Archie had half expected Barney to come rushing after him. But for what? An explanation? To confess his undying love? To laugh at him? But Barney seemed to stay put or at least he didn’t try to come and find Archie. Actually, Archie didn’t see him for the rest of the night but that might have something to do with him trying to avoid anyone who wasn’t the gang. Archie stayed wedged in-between Finn and Rae for the rest of the party, much annoyance to Finn who had planned to actually spend some quality time alone with his girlfriend but got lumbered with Archie getting drunker and more dependable throughout the night until he finally fell asleep next to Jonjo’s washing machine.

The next time Archie and Barney saw each other, it was just as uncomfortable as Archie had imagined. Back at college, he had managed to avoid most people. ‘Stay under the radar’. That was what he’d told Rae during her first week of college last year and now he was taking his own advice. For once. Unfortunately, this plan only stretched so far, and Archie had to force himself to go into the common room to get Amy Whittle’s spare copy of ‘The Great Conquerors’. He almost managed to escape when Barney cornered him next to the radio, looking extremely flustered. “Archie, can we, urm, chat, quick?”

“I’ve gotta get to History, Mr Pen…” Archie tried to manoeuvre out of Barney’s reach, but the taller lad strategically placed his arm across the wall, blocking Archie’s way. “Look, mate. You’re great, super, yeah so great. I just… I’m not like you. ‘lright? I mean kissing a few times, it don’t mean nothing, right?” He said this in a harsh whisper, something Archie hadn’t experienced until now. Of course, most guys wouldn’t appreciate their newly-openly gay friend kissing them and going around moping about it. And Archie hadn’t expected Barney to run into his arms. But what had he expected, really? Of course there was going to be not-so-happy feelings coming from Barney.

“Yeah, sorry. I..I’ve just been a bit.. you know?” Archie didn’t even know what he’d been. Lonely, yes. But it wasn’t just that. It was a bunch of things. Everything was suddenly becoming too much. “Yeah, I know, mate. But still… gotta be careful. Some guys couldn’t take it as well as me. I’m pretty chill.”

“Yeah, well, just a kiss.” And Archie becoming increasingly obsessed with this boy.

“Yeah, exactly. Or two, eh? I’m glad we cleared that up, mate.” Barney’s hard slap on Archie’s shoulder made him jump and he could have sworn Barney held quite a firm grip onto Archie longer than needed. As if he was lingering. Waiting for something.

“Or three. Three.” Archie watched Barney walk away, he kept his eyes on him until he walked out of the common room and the bell rang.

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pastriesattiffanys · 6 years

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Fan Fic recommendations

Hi guys if the mmfd fandom is still alive can you send me some fic recommendations. I’ve been away for sometime but had the urge to come visit. I’m in a bit of angsty place at the moment so I actually want the Angsty fics. All of them!

Muchly appreciated.

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pretty-boys-book-club · 3 years

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— about me.

Welcome to my page, I have always loved to write during my free time, so I just thought I might share my writing with the rest of the internet. I currently work as a PR account executive, but I write on my spare time and blog during my breaks :)

This blog is dedicated to all things Criminal Minds, I'm currently writing a series about Spencer Reid, but please do feel free to send in requests for other characters too, as my inbox is wide open!

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tv shows: so many! Criminal Minds, True Blood, Twin Peaks, Teen Wolf, The X-Files, Westworld, Supernatural, Sherlock, Doctor Who, Good Omens, The Crown, Killing Eve, Mindhunter, The Americans, Fresh Off the Boat, Fleabag, Crazy Ex-Girlfriend, My Mad Fat Diary, Community, The Office, Parks and Rec, Mad Men, House, Sense8, The Mandalorian & many more.

music: I'm probably the BIGGEST fan of the band Bastille you'll ever meet, but some artists I really like are Hozier, Florence + The Machine, Dodie, The Lumineers, Fall Out Boy & more. I'm also a big fan of musical theater!

hobbies: writing, drawing (digital art), journaling, podcasting, going to the movies, reading, and cooking

food and snacks: I'm a real foodie, but I specially love tea and all kinds of ice cream. I'm also really into sushi and lamen.

alcohol: apple martini, the classic gin & tonic, rosé and basic white girl stuff (nothing too strong!)

other interests: I have an unnecessarily large collection of candles, I identify as natural witch, know how to read the tarot (love to talk about this!) and, of course, I love all things Halloween.

And that's pretty much all there is to learn about me. Feel free to ask me questions if you are interested in anything else!

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theoriginalcarnivorousmuffin · 3 years

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Hi! I’m a big fan of your work!! I am looking for more but unfortunately I feel like I have read all yhe good Harry Potter docs on Ao3. Do you have any recs?

Sorry for the delay, I just know that whenever I make rec list it usually ends up taking a while.

With that, Harry Potter fics are a big genre. Just saying Harry Potter in general really isn’t that specific to me so this is across genres/character focuses/you name it.

Also, as usual, I’ve been on fanfiction longer and have amassed more favorites there. Some of these are cross posted to Ao3. Similarly, a lot are unfinished, this personally doesn’t bother me but if it bothers you take heed.

Also, you’ll see my embarrassing obsession with Tom Riddle. So, heads up for that.

Stepbrother (Tom Riddle/Hermione Granger, period piece, in which the two remind me a lot of Nabokov)

Cat Among the Pigeons (Tom Riddle/Lily Evans, Psycho-Pass Detective AU, in which I am a beta actually so my promoting this goes without saying)

Til Death Do Us Part (Tom Riddle/Harry Potter, Voldemort wins AU, which for me does very well with the concept of immortality and what exactly Tom is supposed to do after he wins)

This Tangle of Thorns (Tom Riddle/Hermione Granger, modern AH AU, a full on Nabokov inspired fic which I enjoy because Lolita)

Delusional (Tom Riddle/Harry Potter, sort of. Harry wins the war, goes crazy, checks into a mental hospital. Or he’s not crazy and Voldemort is as unkillable as Palpatine.)

Harry Potter and the Natural 20 (OC insert, D&D inspired, shameless crack. I mostly enjoy the beginning of this but it makes me laugh enough to recommend.)

A Hairy Business (AU, Harry is a deer, he is literally a deer, that’s it. It’s funny.)

Animus, Anima (Tom Riddle/Harry Potter, Harry travels back in time, gets stuck in Tom Riddle’s brain, and it turns out Harry’s responsible for every terrible thing that ever happened. This one was squicky even for me, very well done, but strap in.)

Addendum, He is Also a Liar (Tom Riddle/Hermione Granger, Tom has an inexplicable ability to travel to the future, but only to this random little girl Hermione Granger)

Framed & Fractured (Tom Riddle/Harry Potter, Harry gets stuck in an evil painting back in time. Tom is creepy as usual.)

Trying for Eden (Tom Riddle/Harry Potter, Harry travels back in time to lecture Tom into morality. It doesn’t work.)

Magical Mirrors (Luna Lovegood and Severus Snape, Luna and Snape stumble on the Mirror of Erised at the same time and strike up a conversation)

Aphelion (Hermione Granger/Loki, MCU crossover, Hermione and Loki strike up the world’s weirdest toxic friendship when Hermione’s young and attending Hogwarts, this leads terrible places as Loki slides into madness and despair)

Wandering Souls (Luna Lovegood and The Undertaker, Black Butler crossover, Luna meets and strikes up a conversation with the Undertaker)

Of Lies Most Beautiful (Tom Riddle, Hunger Games crossover, Tom wins the Hunger Games becaues that’s what he does bitch)

In Wonderland (Tom Riddle/Harry Potter, Harry ends up back in the past and decides to raise Tom Riddle. This goes so poorly that the pair almost get eaten by eldritch gods multiple times.)

Rumpelstiltskin, Guess My Name (Tom Riddle/Harry Potter, Female Harry travels back in time and offers to save Merope’s life/get her Tom Riddle Sr. the non rapey way in return for her firstborn son. Merope thought Harry was joking. She wasn’t joking. In the sequel, also linked, Harry kills Morfin.)

The Eyes (Harry Potter, AU, turns out “the power he knows not” is the power humanity knows not, Harry’s ability to see eldritch abominations and cosmic gods and thus bring them far enough into our reality that they eat everything. And I mean everything.)

Mirror Mirror (Harry Potter, MCU crossover, Harry makes a huge mistake and stops Hulk in the middle of a rampage. This gets him abducted by octopus nazis.)

I See the Moon (Harry Potter and Bruce Banner, MCU crossover, Harry got brain damage from the war and wanders around the middle of nowhere. He runs into Bruce. He’s now Bruce’s only friend.)

You Will Be the Death of Me (Harry Potter and Tom Riddle, Despicable Me inspired, through a series of convoluted events Tom as the world’s worst father figure ends up raising Harry the sad adorable orphan.)

In Death, Standby (Tom Riddle/Harry Potter (sort of, the authro claims), Tom raises Harry, the only Tom raises Harry that I’ve seen done well because Tom is the world’s worst father. Harry thinks he’s a deformed snake until the age of three.)

Little Harry’s Mirkwood Adventure (Harry Potter and Dudley Dursley, Hobbit Crossover, one of the most Tolkien style crossovers I’ve actually seen and is very good)

A (Self-Imposed) Trap for a Fool (Ginny Weasley, turns out Harry Potter never existed, as in he’s a collective hallucination made up by the entire wizarding world)

McLaggen and From McLaggen with Love (McLaggen, a detective AU then a James Bond style adventure starring McLaggen, the greatest wizard who ever wizarded)

Tom Riddle’s Diary: on keeping devils in the summer (Tom Riddle, Tom Riddle’s antichrist orphan adventures involving exorcism and burning people alive)

and the fates sing (hold on, son) (Harry Potter, MCU crossover, Harry is the son of Loki and like all children of Loki he is a wretched and cursed thing)

A Faulty Master (Harry Potter and Itachi Uchiha, Naruto crossover, Itachi after the massacre of his family has a run in with a master of death Harry, who is a creepy creepy man)

Eye of Reason (Harry Potter/Jack Frost, Rise of the Guardians crossover, due to the mythos surrounding his life Harry ceases to be a man and becomes akin to a god)

Flowers for a Ghost (Luna Lovegood and Itachi Uchiha, Naruto Crossover, Luna befriends a blind ghost)

Third Time’s the Charm (Harry Potter, MCU crossover, Bruce Banner keeps trying to kill himself and MoD Harry is there to have himself a real good day)

Blind Faith (Bellatrix LeStrange/Tom Riddle, canon compliant, an in depth look at Bellatrix from the escape of Azkaban onward)

Cocktail Time (Rita Skeeter and Gilderoy Lockhart, Rita does an expose and autobiography detailing the descent of Gilderoy Lockhart and how he became what he became)

Fantastic Elves and Where to Find Them (Harry Potter, canon divergent AU, Harry thinks he’s an elf. That’s it.)

The Twine Bracelet (Colin Creevy, a look at Colin’s death)

Legal Alien (Harry Potter, MCU crossover, Harry visits New York and an alien invasion breaks out. Culminates with the best, dumb, joke.)

The Root of Desire (Tom Riddle/Hermione Granger, Hermione travels back in time and tries to influence Tom. All this does is inspire his sexual awakening.)

Deadheads (Harry Potter/Godric Gryffindor, a romantic comedy of a kind, culminating in the best dumbest joke)

Give and Take (Tom Riddle/Hermione Granger, Hermione tries to outwit Tom, it ends in despair)

The Road to Somewhere (Harry Potter, Spirited Away crossover, Harry as MoD is in the realm of the spirits)

Absolute (Harry Potter, Harry picks up a death note, he kills everyone)

Fortunate Son (Dudley Dursleys, years afterwards Dudley looks back and writes a memoir and expose about the abuse inflicted on his cousin)

Elective Affinities (Severus Snape/Harry Potter, Harry travels back in time to discover his parents are assholes and things are more complicated than he imagined)

Juxtaposed (Bod, Graveyard Book crossover, Bod attends Hogwarts)

The Fire Omens (Tom Riddle and a look at WWII)

Broken Toys (Tom Riddle and his useless broken toys)

The Fine Art of Poisoning (Madame Zabini)

A Marriage of Convenience (Pansy and Theo get married)

Reparabilis (Tom Riddle/Harry Potter, Tom becomes a professor, he still destroys Harry Potter)

The Unforgivable Curses (Draco Malfoy, a look at the 4th year unforgivable lecture with Moody and the Slytherins)

Ugly (Harry Potter/Draco Malfoy one sided Dudley/Harry Potter, Dudley’s fat, ugly, and creeps on his cousin)

Three Can Keep a Secret (Harry Potter, on secrets and secret keeping)

Caveat Incimici (Hermione Granger, on Hermione and her terrifying wrath)

Babylon (Harry Potter and Tom Riddle, Harry never gets rid of Tom)

Wonderful Tragic Mysterious (Luna Lovegood and Albus Dumbledore, Luna Lovegood time travels and becomes a young Albus’ neighbor)

In the Clockface, Weighted and Weary (Harry Potter/Ariana Dumbledore, Harry after DH ends up back in time in Dumbledore’s childhood and witnesses the beautiful Dumbledore family dysfunction)

Eternal Return (Harry Potter and Tom Riddle, Harry is reincarnated as Tom Riddle and as a result becomes Voldemort so that a Voldemort exists)

Like Pale Fire (Harry Potter/Godric Gryffindor, the Founders are resurrected and it turns out Harry had travelled to the past and become Salazar Slytherin, turns out the Founders were more complicated than people expected.)

12 Moves Sideways (Harry Potter and Light Yagami, Death Note crossover, Light becomes the Defense Professor, for once Harry does not figure out the mystery.)

A Very Young Girl’s Record of Her Own Impressions (Ariana Dumbledore’s diary)

Night Comes Early (Moody on war)

Little Witches (The Black family women and how it all falls apart)

Paved with Good Intentions (Petunia on finding a baby on her doorstep)

Emerald Serpent for Vanity (Draco and Nagini introspective)

Blue (Tom Riddle/Bellatrix LeStrange, Voldemort wins dystopia, Tom visits Bellatrix’s grave and is very crazy)

Eighteen (Hermione Granger, on Hermione’s betrayal of her parents)

Ouroboros (Tom Riddle/Harry Potter, on what they’ve made of each other)

Not so Different (Scout, To Kill a Mockingbird Crossover, Scout reflects on the wizarding world’s raicsm)

Traitor (Hermione Granger, Hermione is captured by the Death Eaters and commits unspeakable acts to free herself)

Smashing Mirrors (Tom Riddle, introspective)

Twelve Dark Moons (Luna Lovegood/Tom Riddle, Luna becomes a captive of the dark lord)

Full Circle (Harry Potter, Harry wins and is miserable)

The Web of a Thousand Spiders (Luna Lovegood on the diary)

The Metronome (The fall of Lucius’ entire generation)

Understand (Hermione Granger and her betrayal of her parents)

Tea with the Headmaster (Severus Snape and Albus Dumbledore, the pair have tea)

This Grief Feeling (Hermione Granger and Severus Snape after the end)

After Innocence (The trio after the end)

Of Great Turmoil and Excess Stupidity (Sesshomaru and Hagrid, Inuyasha crossover, Hagrid decides to capture a demon for class)

What’s Left of Hope (Severus Snape and Albus Dumbledore, on preserving hope)

In His Keep (Severus Snape and Luna Lovegood, Snape informs Luna her father has died)

Wednesday (Petunia Evans, introspective)

In the Presence of Angels (Moody in WWII)

What He Grows to Be (Tom Riddle/Harry Potter, Harry Potter raises Tom Riddle in the past and it goes horribly wrong)

Being Cassandra (Tom Riddle/Harry Potter, Harry Potter, Tom, and their strange AU friendship)

The Girl (Tom Riddle/Harry Potter, a fem Harry Potter keeps accidentally appearing in Tom’s childhood)

Corruption (Tom Riddle/Harry Potter, Tom wins AU and female Harry slowly becomes corrupted)

One Night Stand (Tom Riddle/Lily Evans, a wonderful look on the first war, Tom Riddle, Lily Evans, the Order of the Phoenix, and terrorism)

The Voldemort Principle (Severus Snape, turns out Snape was Voldemort the whole time and Harry is a lying liar who lies)

Harry Potter and the mountain of pure diamond (Tom Riddle/Harry Potter, Harry has become an ageless god who travels worlds and decides to raise Tom Riddle. He’s disturbed when he realizes Tom is more of a person than he is)

A Road Less Travelled By (Harry Potter/Lucius Malfoy, Harry’s a veela, just read it, it’s amazing, I know I sound crazy but it is)

Transformation (Harry Potter/Draco Malfoy, Draco gets eaten by the Forbidden Forest and then Harry gets eaten too)

Rock Bottom (Tom Riddle/Harry Potter, Tom gets trapped being defense professor and has a miserable time)

#ask #anon #harry potter #recommendations

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lilaviolet · 3 years

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I was tagged by @peachmango-kombucha a long time ago, oops here we go

Favorite color: Purple

Three favorite foods: Shrimp Mozambique, steak and I don't even know lol

Song stuck in my head: #1 Crush - Garbage (Nellee Hooper Mix) it has to be this version

Last song I listened to: Bizarre Love Triangle - New Order

Last thing I googled: My mom's village in the old country lol

Dream trip: At this point I'd be happy to just make it to New York lol

Time: 6:40

Last movie I watched: No idea

Tea or coffee: I could live off iced coffee I already do

Last show I watched: Smackdown and I'm salty I wasted my time, no Sami, at least Kevin was on commentary even though they didn't let him finish a thought I was interested in.

Currently reading: Nothing want to re-read some novel length My Mad Fat Diary fan fics.

Currently watching: AEW blogs that aren't BTE lol

Sweet, spicy, or savory: spicy and savory?

tagging anybody who'd like to do it :)

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vangoghs-moved · 4 years

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rules: it’s time to love yourself.choose your 5 favourite works you created in the past year (fics, art, edits, etc.) and link them below to reflect on the amazing things you’ve brought into the world. tag as many writers/artist/etc. you want (fan or original) so we can spread the love and link each other to awesome works!

I was tagged by sanshine uwu @calumsthood (bold of you to assume i wanna love myself) i giffed a loooot of crap this year (i think i made like two gifsets in 2019?) so this was lowkey hard but here goes:

villaneve throughout the seasons (this was a loooooot of work i think the entire thing took me like six hours so it deserves to be number one)

little mix react to killing eve

villaneve & “san francisco”

friends & killing eve

deckerstar & “the words”

honorable mentions: killing eve / sex education / my mad fat diary (i was proud of the coloring when i made them lmao)

tagging: @coulter , @gabriellabolton , @hugallurfriends, @lilysjames, @littlemixlove, @r-skywalker, @jackmanhugh & @simonbaker

#ana.txt #i actually counted them all and i made 67 gifsets this year alone which is a lot for me trust me

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awomanindeniall · 5 years

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Plagiarism... again

I'm newish to the 1D fandom - been here about a year. But I've been in the tiny but loyal 'My Mad Fat Diary' fandom for over 5yrs - since the show aired - and I've probably read 99% of the MMFD fic out there!

That's why it was infuriating to find out, in July, that a 1D writer - @latelatenarry (who I was a big fan of!) - had stolen one-shot fics from a highly-regarded MMFD author, replaced the names and published them to the 1D fandom as her own work. (Please note that I am @busstop in the linked post - my full Niall obsession had yet to kick in!)

At the time, I thought that @latelatenarry had written *most* of her works - especially the chaptered fics - and just stolen a few shorter fics, so she had more to publish and get love for, but it turns out I was being naive, giving her the benefit of the doubt! Most of them are stolen.

The following fics were published by @latelatenarry using her own titles, but are almost exact copies of Twilight fics, from as early as 2012:

I Owe You One is a copy of: https://m.fanfiction.net/s/9011528/1/How-Bella-Got-Her-Groove-Back

Axiom is a copy of: https://m.fanfiction.net/s/7829578/1/Head-over-Feet

These Violent Delights is a copy of: https://m.fanfiction.net/s/7949385/1/Hold-Me-Down

The Greatest Gift is a copy of: https://m.fanfiction.net/s/10873196/1/Walking-Under-Stars

The Guitar is a copy of: https://m.fanfiction.net/s/7948246/1/The-Guitar

and

A Series of Firsts - First Kiss has a big chunk lifted from a Downton Abbey fic: https://m.fanfiction.net/s/10078078/1/Trust-and-Providence

I haven't challenged @latelatenarry about her plagiarism directly this time, because I can't - she blocked me as a precaution when she started her new blog in the summer, so that she could post stolen MMFD fics without me seeing (I mention MMFD in my busstop bio and often reblog MMFD gifs) - but she didn't reckon on there being other MMFD fans following her, who also recognised that these were originally MMFD fics. They messaged her to protest, and were ignored and blocked (but the stolen MMFD fics were quietly removed).

I have contacted the relevant Twilight and DA authors to let them know that their work has been reposted on Tumblr.

Thank you for reading. Plagiarism really pisses me off, because there are so many talented writers across all fandoms who are working their socks off to give us amazing fic to read, free of charge!

Please don't vote for these fics in any 1D fic awards - @latelatenarry did not write them. Give your vote to an author who deserves it!

The least we can do for our writers is not waste our admiration and praise on someone who is happy to deceive us - even after being caught out once before.

Dear Writers of 1D, MMFD and yes, Twilight fics... we love you! 💕 THANK YOU for all your genuine hard work, & for being so generous with your time & talents!!! 💕

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ghostcat3000 · 5 years

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Hello. This is a fanfic question I've been meaning to ask for ages, but it's not from the list. I was wondering if you ever posted the MMFD piece you were writing? Sunday Six I think it was called. Please and thank you. Madfatty xo

Hey! I have not posted that My Mad Fat Diary fic--called I Choose the Words--because a) it’s not done, b) I hit a mega wall with regards to NHS stuff and c) I want to find a collaborator for something specific to it and I’m shy about asking.

I’ve written a LOT of it. @mysilverylining and @cheshirecatstrut can confirm. It’s real! I was rereading some of it the other day and I really love that story, it’s lighthearted and funny and definitely not abandoned.

Sunday Six is not a story, it’s a writing meme thing I do every Sunday: post six sentences from something I’m currently working on. It reminds me to keep writing.

I remember I posted six sentences from I Choose the Words once and some My Mad Fat Diary fans started reblogging it with their additions to what they thought was a mini-fic and it was just one big slo-motion NOOOOOOOOO STOOOOOOOOOP scream.

Thank you for asking! When I finish ICTW, I will post to AO3 alongside my other stuff.

#meme time #Ghostcat answers #fanfiction questions meme #otherlil

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kit-writes-fanfic-blog · 5 years

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So im getting ready to post a new fic! Im just gonna tag everyone who asked/liked my post about the forever tag list, if you want to be added please REPLY so i can add you before the new fic goes out! Who i have so far: @bitchesbecrazy89 @rockinthebeastmode @mirandasmadeofstone @i-dream-of-emus @pink-royaute @soy-la-verrrga @so-stupid @becauseim-kayla @protectfinnnelson

#mmfd fanfic #mmfd #my mad fat diary #my mad fat diary fan fic

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c-rankin93 · 7 years

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She’s No You - Ch 18 part 2

@luly310 @lily-pop-2 @mallyallyandra @hey1tskat1e @tinakegg @eveerez @mmfdfanfic @lurkernolonger @l88cym @arathewallflower @i-dream-of-emus @milymargot @milllott

Part two...

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Ruby and Joshua were the first to find out about our engagement with my mom a close second. I mean I didn't know she was was ears dropping from the other side of the bedroom door, well not until she burst through the door screaming in excitement.

It was a bit awkward when josh asked about Olivia and Gregory, but Finn did a great job at explaining they were no longer in the picture when he saw me awkwardly gawking at them. Ruby was happy that she no longer had to deal with Olivia anymore, and so was I.

Mom didn't give me a chance to tell Karim, Roberto, Mark and Julian. She was on the phone the minute she found out, but they all called us to say congratulations.

We were currently on our way to Finn's parents house where all his siblings were now gathered to welcome home his sister Mika from Oxford, and apparently Finn was in for the shock of his life according to Archie.

We still hadn't told them about our engagement but Finn told me that he informed them a few weeks ago that we were together again. He also said it was a struggled to keep his mom away but after explaining to her that I was still recovering she understood. This would be the first time seeing them in over 2 years, I was more then nervous.

"Babe, don't stress they are excited to see you" Finn spoke next to me. I was currently looking out the window, whilst Finn drove and the kids watched a movie in the back seat.

Sighing I turned to face him, "But after everything that has happened..."

"Rae, I've already told them what happened. They don't blame you, nobody blames you for leaving me. You reacted like any normal would. If anyone was at fault, it would be me. I should of realised what was going on, and what she was doing."

"Don't even go there Finn" I berated just as we pulled up to his parents house. "You did nothing wro-"

"LOOK MUMMY! UNCLE ARCHIE!" Ruby interrupted pointing frantically at Archie as he walked towards the car.

Finn leaned over a kissed my lips softly, "we'll talk about it later babe."

I got ruby out of her car seat whilst Finn grabbed Joshua. Archie came over and kissed my cheek, it was good to see him more. I never realised how much I actually missed him until I had him back in my life. That reminds me, I really need to get Chloe and Izzy around for a coffee and a catch up soon.

"Why do you look like someone kicked your cat?"

"I do not!" Archie quipped.

"Oh really? So why the long face?" Finn replied.

"Because I'm afraid of blood."

"Who's bleeding!" I frantically started checking the kids faces. Luckily both were clean.

"Nobody... Yet" Archie grimmest.

"What the bloody hell are you talking about then!"

"In about one minute a very excited Mika is going to run out here to greet her big brother. Thats when your going to discover a very big, very round-"

"FIIIIIIIIIIIN! OH MY GOD! FIINN!"

The moment Mika made her way towards us I knew what Archie was talking about. My eyes couldn't help but look to Finn, who stood stiffly at my side. His skin was a little flush, but the moment I saw the glare Finn was giving his sister I knew he was not happy.

I admired the women's confidence, she didn't even bat an eyelid at Finn's borderline hostile behaviour. She just elegantly pranced towards him with her arms wide open, showing off her very large, round-

"Oh Finn! I'm so excite to see you! It's been really two years, oh my freaking god! And Rae, oh my god I'm so happy to see you again, you look radiating!" Mika kissed my cheek then returned to hugging her big brother again.

Did I meant they were close? No? Well the Mika I knew idolised her brother, he was her knight in shining armour. He loved her just as much, being his youngest sister. She had been a sister to me as well, I lost count at the number of Disney marathons we had. Even into my late 20's.

"What the hell do you call that?" Finn said grabbing her shoulders.

"What do you mean?"

There's one thing you should know about Finn. He had always been very overprotective of his little sister, to the point of breaking her ex-boyfriends nose for trying to hug Mika after a date. Mind you, Finn and I were also on a date as well and had to leave the restaurant early just to make sure she was returned before curfew.

"I mean what the fuck do you call that!"

Finn pointed towards the very round, and very large rock nestled on her ring finger. He snatched up her left hand and inspected the diamond mega-stone, it looked like it cost more then my yearly salary.

"Well you see Finn" she tried pulling her hand out of Finn's grip, "I met a man in England. A lovely, kind man. Who I love dearly! He's a surgeon! Oh and did I tell you he's related to the Queen! Please Finn I was going to tell you sooner but I didn't know how! Please don't hurt him! I love him!"

Mika looked stressed out of her mind, like she had totally forgot about how Finn would react when he saw it. She had been away from her big brother too long.

"Darling?"

A tall man spoke as he joined Mika's side. He was quite handsome. Blonde hair, defined jawline, and immaculately dressed may I add. He oozed confidence, much like his fiancé. He didn't even look fazed by Finn who still had a face like thunder.

"Harrison!" Mika squeaked. She looked surprised to see him standing next to her all of a sudden. "I'm just saying hello to my brother. Finn this is Harrison, Harrison this is my eldest brother Finn." I could see her trying her best to calm her nerves during the introduction. I smiled at her recovery.

"Nice to meet you Finn" Harrison greeted sticking his hand out for Finn to shake.

Reluctantly Finn shook the mans hand. "You Too Harrison."

Mika managed to drag Harrison away after a short, very awkward conversation that Archie dominated. I walked up to Finn wrapping my arms around his neck, taking a moment to admire my own engagement ring. Archie had taken the kids inside knowing that Finn needed a moment.

"I can't believe she's getting married." Was all he said before burying his head into the crook of my neck.

"She was bound to one day."

"But why did it have to be now! This was our moment!" Finn sounded like a wounded child and i couldn't help but laugh.

"We've already had that moment Finn when we got engaged the first time. We're still going to tell them tonight, we have to. They will see the ring on my finger. You can see how much she adores Harrison. She'll be alright."

"He's such a pretty boy though!"

"Come on Finn, we need to go inside. I'm pretty sure your mom is watching us from her bedroom window" I chuckled.

"My whole family is crazy. Come on before she comes out here and drags us in."

"I think it's already to late." I said when once again the front door flew open. I think was going to need to be put on heart medication before the visit is over.

The end...

#mmfloveforfinn #mmfdfanfic #mmfd fic #mmfd fanfic #my mad fat diary fan fic #mymadfatdiaryfanfic #my mad fat diary fan fiction #my mad fat diary

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peterjakes · 2 years

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My Mad Fat Diary Fanfic - Chapter 8

Chapter 8: The Aftermath

it's the aftermath of the party - Archie had the best night but now he's questioning himself. and that's never a good sign.

I actually quite like this chapter! Enjoy x

Also posted on ao3; https://archiveofourown.org/works/20154688/chapters/88625431

Barney took hold of Archie’s head with his hands, just as he did during spin the bottle. He started to slowly drag his fingers through Archie’s hair, until he reached the top of his neck, caressing it slowly with his thumb… pushed his oval, pink lips onto Archie’s…

Archie played that moment in his head from the minute he and Barney drifted asleep next to each other in the bath until Izzy shook him to help clean up the flat. When Archie finally released himself from his slumber in Chop’s bath, he noticed that the space where Barney sat was empty. Once he walked into the landing, where the gang minus Chop who was still star fished along with Mark on his bedroom floor and Chloe who was refusing to help because she thought she was dying, were trying to sort the complete destruction that had happened last night, he realised he’s gone. Left him. Alone. In the bath. Just as he thought he would.

Archie dragged his legs and body over towards Rae, who was clearly in a huff for some reason or other. The most likely culprit was Finn, although Archie was still confused about why. He hadn’t managed to get anything out of Finn, most likely because he didn’t know himself. And he hadn’t spoken to Rae much last night.

“Where’s Finn?” Archie asked as he started picking up some ping pong balls covered in snakebite. He tried his best not to get covered in the old drink but failed.

“Don’t know. Don’t care, ‘lright? ‘es been fuckin’ pissing meh off, ‘specially last night.” Rae grabbed the two balls Archie had so far collected and threw them in her dustbin bag.

“Something happen?” Rae shook her head but had a sad look in her eye. Archie knew this look only too well. Of course something had happened, between Finn and Rae at least. But Archie couldn’t tell whose fault it was.

“Rae…” Archie moved towards Rae, placing his hand on her wrist, trying to give some comfort to her. She yanked it away, hard but gave him a sympathetic smile to apologise. She knew Archie was only trying to help, he never wanted to pry but Rae just didn’t want to get into that now.

“What about you, eh? Where’d ‘ya get off ‘ta last night? Hm?” Rae was extremely skilled at changing the subject, especially with Archie. But why wouldn’t she be curious? Archie and Barney disappeared together, and Rae didn’t see them again until this morning. This wasn’t the first time either. And Archie seemed pretty happy with himself this morning, he was the only one apart from Izzy, who was always that happy, looking like he’d won the lottery. “I’m waiting, Arch.”

“You know Rae, I honesty can’t remember. Think I fell asleep in the bath.” Archie tried to avoid Rae’s suspecting eyes, pulling his glasses off to clean them with his t-shirt. Both of them knew something special had happened. But Archie hoped only he knew exactly. It must have been obvious to everyone that Archie didn’t come back into the party for the rest of the night after he disappeared. It also must have been obvious that Barney never reappeared like Martin and Alice did.

“And Barne’?”

“Might have been there. But he left. I think. I swear Martin and Alice were there at some point too.”

“He’s outside, having a smoke.” Rae motioned towards the door, a small smirk appearing on her face. She didn’t look at Archie, not wanting to embarrass him too much. But she knew what was going on, of course she did. She wasn’t an idiot. She could tell.

“Martin?” Archie asked innocently, although he was sure Rae wouldn’t fall for it.

“Barne’!”

“Oh, right… I might just go see how he is. Was pretty rough last night.”

“Hm. You go do that, Arch!”

Almost sprinting down the stairs, Archie could see the shape of Barney through the gap of the front door which had been left open. Barney was perched against a lamppost and was smoking. He looked knackered, but that didn’t stop Archie from thinking he had never seen a man more beautiful than Barney in that moment. The sunlight caught her dark hair in just the right way, and he looked almost poetic the way the cigarette was being held. God, Archie fancied him. Preparing himself, Archie moved his glasses back into the right position and brushed down his t-shirt, ridding of any crumbs from last night.

“You alright mate?” Archie gave Barney a little wave as he walked closer. He made sure to not walk tpp quickly, not wanting to show how eager he was. Budging up next to Barney, leaving a little gap between the two, Archie made sure to make eye contact with the boy beside him.

“Not gonna lie to ‘ya Arch, I feel like utter shit. I might be dying. I dunno what ‘appened, if I’m ‘onest.” Barney placed the cigarette down on the garden wall, only for a second, and rubbed his face with his hands. Barney did feel awful, and he couldn’t remember much either. This wasn’t anything different, Barney spent most nights drinking these days. And when did drink, he drank hard. There was rarely a time that Barney remembered much when he drank. But that morning something was off. Had something happened? Barney felt this strange twinge when he spoke to Archie. There was something but he couldn’t quite figure it out.

Trying to pluck up the courage to talk about what had happened, Archie could only muster a simple question. “Do you remember anything? At all?”

“Nah, just … I think Martin gave me his pants,” He started to rummage in his back pocket and pulled out a red pair of boxers, cheekily waving them in Archie’s face to which Archie smacked him away. “But the whole night’s a blur, what about you?”

“Same. I’m the same. I remember a bit, but … yeah. Was good though. Gonna go clean. Need to clean up.”

“I’m hiding from Izzy, she can be right scary when she wants to be, ‘ya know.”

“Not gonna help?”

“Tiding’s not really my thing, mate. I’ll leave ‘ya too it. Say bye to Chop for me.” And with that Barney had stubbed his cigarette and scarpered, leaving Archie alone outside with Martin’s dirty red pants.

Well, that went well. Annoyed with himself for not even trying to mention anything that happened last night, Archie slowly dragged himself back up the stairs to Chop’s landing. Rae was still huffing about, picking up random cider and beer cans, ignoring everyone else in the room. Archie could just about see Finn hiding out in the kitchen, smoking probably not his first cigarette of the day. Chop had now joined him, lighting his own cigarette and looking almost dead. They were deep in conversation, clearly not wanting to be disturbed. Archie imagined Rae was topic of the conversation, but Archie had never seen Chop quite like this. He was clearly very hungover, but he almost looked upset. Archie had never seen Chop get this upset over Rae. Only one person had gotten him like this before. But weren’t Izzy and Chop OK now? Maybe not.

Archie thought best not to disturb them and made his way over to Chloe, who was perched on the arm of Chop’s ratty sofa. She had her eyes closed, and was swaying slightly, maybe trying to make herself not feel the worst she’s ever felt. Archie wasn’t sure the swaying was going to help though. Chloe forced herself to open her eyes before Archie was standing right in front of her, clearly, she could hear his footsteps. She took a deep breath before focusing up at the boy in front of her and tried to give him a smile, but it didn’t seem to appear.

“You don’t have a ciggie do ‘ya, Archie? I’m desperate for something that’ll make me feel like I’m actually human.” Chloe sighed, slipping down onto the chair dramatically.

Archie shook his head and joined her, not being able to get comfortable. Archie was there when Chop had bought this sofa. He’d decided to buy it off this dodgy guy he’d met in the pub one time. It absolutely stank when he and Finn helped Chop bring it to his flat. None of the girls had offered, but, honestly, Archie couldn’t blame them. It was quite possibly the most disgusting piece of furniture Archie had ever lain eyes on. It was proper rank, but Chop was happy so who were they to judge? Chop had that certain quality about him. He was easily pleased.

“Sorry, Chlo. I actually look after me body.” Archie wasn’t the biggest smoking, that was true, he never actually bought cigarettes himself. He didn’t particularly like smoking, he just did it for some reason. He could never really pull it off, not like Finn.

“Oh, piss off.” Chloe laughed, playfully bumping Archie’s shoulder slightly. “Did ‘ya have a good night though? Look kinda down.” Archie didn’t think it was that obvious, really. Okay, maybe it was obvious. It wasn’t that he hadn’t enjoyed it, because of course he had. It was the best night he’d had in ages. The happiest he felt in months. He’d woken up actually positive. Things were looking up. Going his way. And within not even a minute with Barney, had Archie realized that it wasn’t what he thought. It was a mistake. Something Barney hadn’t acknowledged, something he didn’t even remember. It may not have been a bad night, but Archie felt pretty bad right now.

“Yeah, yeah. Was great. Yeah.” Avoiding Chloe’s gaze and finding a small spot at the back of his neck to scratch, Archie knew he hadn’t sounded very convincing. What else could he say? He wasn’t even sure how he felt now. Yesterday, last night, it was still confusing but a good kind. But now? It seemed all fucked. What if Barney had remembered but didn’t want to mention it? What if he was too embarrassed? Too scared?

“Me neither. Jonjo tried it on with meh. Prick.” Chloe fell back against the sofa as she whispered the word ‘prick’, scrunching her nose up a little. Archie wasn’t surprised Chloe was fed up with some of the lads' bullshit. They could be cruel. They could also be dickheads.

“Somehow I’m not surprised.” Jonjo wasn’t an arsehole, but he was a horny 18-year-old lad who never seemed to get anywhere with girls. Archie wasn’t surprised about that.

“He’s not a prick, actually. He’s alright. But … I’m…” Chloe gave Archie a shrug, and he immediately knew what she meant and was trying to say. Sometimes people needed time, more than you would think. But that was OK. Rome wasn’t built in a day.

“I get it. I respect it too.”

“It’s not even that I’m not ready and I want to. I don’t. I like everything how it is. Being single isn’t that bad, ‘ya know.” In that moment it sounded like Chloe was trying to convince herself that more than anything, but maybe that was a good thing. It took time to believe in something. It didn’t just happen, people needed time to change.

“I never thought I’d hear you say that.” Archie blurted that out, he hadn’t meant for it to come across like that. It sounded almost…hurtful. He quickly turned to face Chloe, to see what the damage was. But she just shrugged her shoulders. She wasn’t hurt, or at least she was just very good at not showing it.

“Well, there ‘ya go. Some Chloe Gemmell rare advice for you Arch. It’s alright being on your own sometimes.”

“But if you’re lonely?”

“We can be lonely together. Everything’s better with two. Are you lonely Archie?”

“N-no, nah. I’m fine. Know how it is sometimes.” Archie gave Chloe a small smile and bumped her elbow ever so slightly with his. Archie did know what it was like. Sometimes it felt like he was the only person in the world or at least the only person who knew how it felt. It was hard, sometimes.

“Yeah. I do.” Chloe nodded, clearly in her own thoughts now. She quickly snapped out of it and turned around, searching the room. Her eyes locked onto her best friend, who was currently becoming more aggravated with the pile of rubbish circling her. “I better go help Rae, you comin’?”

Archie nodded but let Chloe leave him for a minute. Maybe Archie was lonely. Maybe he was very lonely. But he wasn’t alone, if that made any sense. He had people, friends, his family. They were all there for him and would support him no matter what. But that didn’t change anything; it didn’t change how he felt. Sometimes Archie wished it would, he wished it would just go away. He sometimes didn’t understand why he felt like this. His life wasn’t that hard, was it? Compared to others, Archie’s life was a dream. But that didn’t stop him feeling how he did. Feeling so lonely.

Archie didn’t want to wallow in any more self-pity. He moved his eyes around to room, watching his friends tidy up the mess they’d made last night. He eyes kept going until they found Izzy. She was alone at the back of the room, clearly wanting to avoid anyone. Something wasn’t quite right. Archie couldn’t think of a time when Izzy wasn’t wearing that cute, little smile, trying to make everyone happy. The first time they’d met Izzy, Archie was the one who warmed to her first. It was that infectious smile. She was clearly quite nervous, some of the lads could be quite intimidating. But after being introduced to Archie, it didn’t seem to faze her anyone.

Archie started to walk over to Izzy, not wanting to disturb her but to check up on her. She was in her own world, focusing on the stains in the carpet, scrubbing them relentlessly. She was scrubbing so much that she didn’t hear Archie’s steps and didn’t notice him until his dirty converse were right in front of her.

“Sorry Iz, I was just-“Izzy looked up at Archie, a sombre look on her face. Her eyes were almost tearful, had she been crying?

“You alright, Archie? Has something happened?” That was short. Izzy rarely spoke to anyone like that. She never seemed to be in a mood or have the hump. Something definitely happened last night.

“No, I’m fine. Do I honestly look that upset?”

“Only a little. But I get it. It wasn’t the best night, was it?”

“No, it wasn’t.” Izzy stopped scrubbing and sat up against the wall. She clearly wasn’t happy. Archie motioned to sit next to her, taking to sponge from her hand and laying it between the two. “Rae and Finn argued for most of the night. Even more, after you disappeared. Chloe was sick about 6 times. And I can’t even talk to Chop right now. I thought this party was supposed to get everyone back together. How has it made it worse?” She sighed, shaking her head.

“I don’t know. I don’t know.” Archie shook his head. He hadn’t released everyone has had such a shit night. It made him feel slightly better about the Barney situation. At least he wasn’t the only one.

“Sorry, I’m being a right melt. You sure, you’re okay?” Izzy pulled a concerned face and reached out for Archie’s arm, squeezing it slightly. Izzy was very good at reading people; she could always tell when something was wrong. That’s one of the things Archie loved about her. But right now, that quality was more of a curse than a blessing.

“I am now I’m with you. You always cheer me up.”

“I don’t feel much like cheering anyone up, but I’ll make an exception for you.” “I’m honoured.” Archie smirked and with that, Izzy picked up the sponge and moved to the kitchen. Archie wondered if she and Chop would have a talk. He hoped so. Archie thought back to that night. He thought about everything that had happened up until he saw Barney in the bathroom.

Barney took hold of Archie’s head with his hands, just as he did during that spin-the-bottle game. He started to slowly drag his fingers through Archie’s hair, until he reached the top of his neck, caressing it slowly with his thumb… pushed his oval, pink lips onto Archie’s…

Barney didn’t remember any of it. One of the best moments Archie’s had for a long time. And it’s like it never happened.

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