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#misgendering me the other night too while Also all 'hey I'm trying to talk to the customer service. why are You going up & talking first'
unproduciblesmackdown · 2 months
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truly something that, amidst facing / going through a dramatic Life Change ft. unavoidable emotional effects of that, there are instances where i can't conceal any & all degrees of being distressed / upset, & repeatedly getting "it's hard for me too" as a Direct Response to that: really something & a half how the asserted theoretical Sympathy of [i feel similarly!] is invoked so as to, oh you know, preclude sympathetic Treatment. such as that what would be More sympathetic in these instances would be to say Nothing, "if there's nothing but dismissal / making it first & foremost about someone else's feelings to say, don't say it at all" style
#reading also that original Lovelessness essay ''love is meant to make me human / love is also the mechanism by which my humanity#has been denied'' always preferring to have [sorry! couldn't fully bottle up this Emotiona externally manifesting at all!] Ignored rather#than ''nicely'' interacted with so as to Invalidate; Dismiss; someone's annoyed at you for having it; etc#for bonus context like we are not in the same boat with it.#not a case of ''the same situation; mine is worse though'' like no; fundamentally different situations here lmao. mine is worse#If You Feel So Bad. Or At All. then at least now do me the favor of Not Saying That; Repeatedly#their feelings put on me too in other ways. stewing resentment into lashing out; tossing out ''but i'm justified'' like ok! Your business!!#the ol like. If You're Going To Do Something Anyways then how you justify it to yourself is Your business / b/w you & your god as they say#& the last thing to do is be making it the problem of ppl Most Affected by what you're gonna do anyways & Also ask their Absolution.....#like if you need more moral support abt What You're Doing Anyways: turn to Anyone Else. even No One if you have to.#bit going tf through it when it's spilling over into Posting but such is life!! we all have that [the horrors. girl help] blogger on dash#again the tl;dr like oh you don't say. the [umm but have you considered? My Feelings! (they're so sympathetic at all. yor welcome)] is#the mechanism through which Really basic sympathy is being denied & replaced with [Saying Nothing would've been less hurtful]#misgendering me the other night too while Also all 'hey I'm trying to talk to the customer service. why are You going up & talking first'#(that was me experiencing the latter. i didn't say it but i was like cmon. my glasses are fogging up w/surgical mask (don't have access to#more effective masks so doing what Nonzero i can there) i'm a bit carsick i'm weathering a crisis. can i have anything here lol)#just Oh You Know. The Horrors....#balancing ofc trying to endure trying to self soothe etc etc. with ''it's the horrors. it's gonna be horrific & you're gonna be affected''#ah the [being kind to oneself] like also means knowing how reasonable it is to Not solo contain & endure & Cope Through everything....#crushing a paper cup in my hands genuinely i would like to generously thank my virtual allies out here today. mic feedback#irl In Real Life? life is Real asf here & nobody Realer than them
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newwwwusername · 11 months
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Heartbreak High (Netflix Reboot) - Quinni & Quinni's Dads, Dusty & Dusty's Dad, Harper & Amerie, Sasha & Everyone, Darren & Darren's Parents, Spider & Spider's Parents, Ant/Spider, Jai & Malakai, Harper & Harper's Dad, Ca$h and Nan - Pride Month Prompt 6 : Coming Out
Warnings : References to underage sex, implied homophobia-centered child abuse, mentions of misgendering, I don't think it was SA but the threesome between Dusty/Malakai/Harper is talked about and I know some people read that as SA so might as well put that warning here as well Prompt : Write a fic in which an LGBT+ character (you get to pick the sexuality, romantic orientation, and/or gender identity) comes out to a friend. Whether or not the friend is also LGBT+ is up to you! Background relationships : Sasha/Quinni (but way before they actually dated and it's not super focused on, don't worry), Ant/Darren (past hookup), Harper/Dusty/Malakai (past hookup), Harper/Amerie (possibly one-sided), Ca$h/Darren Headcanons : Demigirl!Sasha (that was on her Wiki page but idk if it's confirmed or not, so I'm gonna put it here as a headcanon just in case), Bisexual!Amerie, Bisexual!Spider, Bisexual!Harper, Autistic!Ca$h (if you squint) Author's note : They're sort of in order of when I think they would've come out, not character importance. Also, no I did not forget Missy, I just didn't get a solid enough idea of her character to accurately write how that would go so I just didn't. She's great, I just don't know how to write her really
Quinni was rather young when she realized she was a lesbian.
Maybe it was because she was unapologetically Autistic and therefore didn't have as much care for social norms. Maybe it was because she had two dads who were sure to try and keep their daughter informed. Maybe it was just because girls were really hot and she couldn't ignore that.
Regardless, one day she came home from school and excitedly told her dads about this pretty girl who had just moved to her school named Sasha and how she was so cool and smart even though they were all in 4th grade.
Her dads just exchanged a knowing smile before asking for all the details about their kid's first crush.
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Dustin was in 6th grade when he fully had the thought of oh, I am NOT straight.
He figured it was puberty making his attraction to others harder to ignore because, in hindsight, he'd always found boys and girls equally as attractive.
"Hey, dad" he said one day after he came home from school.
"Hey, kid" his father replied. He seemed a little distracted, but Dustin didn't care. He was too excited about his realization to care. "How was school?"
"I like boys"
"Oh" his dad said. A tense moment passed and then he smiled. "Thanks for letting me know"
"Girls too" Dustin amended. "But yeah. I like boys"
"That's nice... How was school?"
"Boring"
"Right..."
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The first person Amerie came out to was Harper.
They were in 7th grade. It wasn't a situation where Amerie just suddenly realized then that she was bi- She'd always known she found boys and girls attractive- But that was when she first spoke it into existence.
"I'm bi" she said bluntly one night while Harper was staying over because her house was 'haunted' again. The platinum blonde looked over and smiled at her.
"That's sort of random"
"I just realized I hadn't told anyone that yet" Amerie shrugged. "Like, out loud. So why not tell you first?"
"I'm honored"
"Okay, smart ass" Amerie playfully shoved her and the two broke down into a fit of giggles.
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After Amerie became more open about being bi in 7th grade, that gave Sasha the confidence to start being loud and proud about who she was.
She put "she/they" in the bios of all her social media accounts, much to her family's confusion. They sent their family a few articles about what nonbinary was and they weren't the most receptive but she didn't care. She was gonna be herself whether everyone accepted it or not.
They also became the school lesbian- Sure, Quinni had been out for a while but Quinni was weird and didn't have any friends aside from Darren and her dads. Sasha, on the other hand, was sort of popular.
She quickly went all the way into environmental and queer rights activism, much to some of the boys' amusement.
They were out, and they would never try to hide it again.
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Darren had to come out to their parents twice.
The first time was rather uneventful. After Quinni had come out to her parents in 4th grade, Darren was inspired to tell their parents that they were gay.
Both of their parents took it... Fine. They weren't over the moon by any means but they weren't surprised, and they still loved them at the end of the day.
It was the summer before 11th grade, the year where the Incest Map would be discovered and change everything, when they decided to tell their parents that they were nonbinary.
This... Didn't go quite as well.
They figured it could've gone worse, for sure. They could've been kicked out or beaten or blatantly told that they just weren't, but they weren't given a pool of acceptance either.
Their mom was just annoyed because it was just another thing that would make her kid ostracized. "Wouldn't it be easier if you just kept being a gay boy?" she asked. Darren rolled their eyes. "I mean aren't gay boys respected now"
"But I'm not a boy, mom" they insisted.
Their dad's reaction was slightly better, but they could tell he didn't fully get it either. Neither of their parents got it, and tensions only rised from there, especially since their parents kept misgendering them and didn't seem super invested in trying, especially their mom.
Whatever, they thought. At least I have Quinni
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Anthony wasn't given a choice when it came to coming out because the Incest Map was found and suddenly everyone knew that Darren- Who most people still just read as an effeminate boy- Had given him a handjob.
When his family got the call from the school, it was so bad that he wound up sneaking out of his window after the noise stopped and booked it to Spencer's.
Spencer's own parents didn't really care when they found out their kid wasn't straight- Then again, it probably sounded better since it came from him in response to the Incest Map rather than the map itself. There were no boys or Darrens linked to him on the Incest Map.
His parents were pretty absent in his life, so it literally didn't affect them, which he supposed was better than what happened to Anthony, who showed up at his doorstep at one in the morning, sobbing.
"Come in" Spencer said earnestly. "My parents went out for some sort of trip, so you won't have to worry about them" he continued. He barely had time to even tell his parents Hey, you probably heard about the sex map. Just so you know, it's not on the map, but I've definitely fucked around with boys before. Yes, including Ant. Please don't stop him from coming around we've never done it in this house, I promise before they left.
"My parents are really upset"
"About the Map?"
"About me getting a wristy from... Darren"
"Ah" Spencer nodded. Anthony's family had always been super religious. He should've seen this coming. "Do you want to talk about it?"
"Not really"
"Okay" Spencer replied. He'd never been great at comforting people but he always found himself caring a little more when it came to Anthony. "Anything else I can do to help?"
"...Cuddles?"
"Alright, mate"
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It was while Malakai was out camping with Jai that he opened up about what had happened with Harper and Dustin.
"After the thing with the cop, Dusty and Harper found me and we went back to... I think Dusty's house" he explained. "And we were all high and we ended up... Having a threesome"
"Alright" Jai nodded. "How do you feel about that?"
"A little gross" he admitted. "I mean, I'm not really into either of them and I think if I were sober or even just less upset I wouldn't have done it" he continued. "I don't blame either of them for that- Again, we were all sort of fucked up- But I didn't love it after the fact"
"Well, that's unfortunate"
"It's also made me... Question some things"
"What do you mean?"
"I mean, I've never paid much attention to guys before, but it didn't feel completely wrong, doing all that with Dusty" he admitted, adamantly avoiding looking at the older man. "And now I keep thinking of the other boys in my grade in this different light... I don't know" he sighed. "I think I'm confused"
"It's okay to be confused" Jai assured him. "Thanks for trusting me with this"
"Yeah, of course, man"
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Harper's dad was stable and medicated for the first time in her life and she finally knew she would be safe enough to open up to him about the little crush she'd been developing over the years.
"I think I have a crush on Amerie" she said halfheartedly from the other side of the living room, focusing her line of sight on her lighter, which she flicked on and off repeatedly. Justin chuckled.
"That makes sense"
"What?"
"I mean, you've never shut up about how cool she is" he teased. She went slightly red. "I'd have been surprised if there weren't some other feelings there" he continued. "She's a nice girl"
"I don't know if she likes me back the same way" Harper told him. "I mean, I don't know either way, but I think our friendship is more important, y'know?" she asked, looking over at him. He nodded. "Just thought I'd tell you"
"I'm glad you can talk to me about this stuff now, ducky"
"Yeah" Harper smiled slightly. "Me too"
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It was a week or so after Ca$h got out of jail when he came out to his Nan.
He'd done some research as soon as he was out, determined to find a label to fit what was wrong with him, and he did find one. Asexual.
He was asexual and there were a lot of asexual people and he wasn't alone.
"Hey, Nan" he said as he exited his room. "Can I talk to you about something?"
"Of course, dear" she smiled up at him, glad he was opening up for once. He was always so tense. "What is it?"
"Well, I found a label that... Fits my sexuality" he explained. "I mean, you know I like Darren and Darren isn't a girl, right?" he asked. She nodded. "But, um, I've never wanted... Sex, with them or with anyone else, um..." he cleared his throat. "I was looking it up to try and figure out why that was and apparently it's called asexual. So, I guess I'm... Asexual"
"Okay" Nan smiled. "Well, I'm glad you've figured that out. It was sort of excruciating to sit by and watch you struggle"
"Also, me and Darren are dating now"
"I would expect nothing less" she chuckled. "You're a catch, Dougie"
"No, they're the catch"
"Same difference"
Do not repost on other sites! If you want to participate in this month's challenge, there are 30 LGBT-centered prompts that you can find here
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I really hope this is okay to ask for but it's totally fine if not. Could I get Makoto, Hajime, Chiaki, Nagito, Ibuki, Kaede, Rantaro, and Kokichi with a trans masc s/o who's feeling really down and insecure about his voice/softer features? Like, maybe was feeling pretty good about passing but the got called ma'am a lot throughout the day so he starts withdrawing and getting quieter or something like that. Thanks either way, I'm loving all that you've been writing so far!
Wow, I'm so honored to hear that you've enjoyed my writing. I'm not great at accepting compliments but hearing that really made my day. I hope this will maybe make your day as well anon and if anything isn't to your liking feel free to tell me!
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Makoto
This is a literal sunshine boy. If you're feeling down about anything he won't give up until you feel better.
He loves everything about you but can understand how your softer features can be upsetting.
However, like you, he thinks you're passing just fine. He knows it actually and he'll do whatever he can to make you realize it too.
So what you may have some softer features? There are men that are born men that he's completely mistaken for a woman so you must be on the right track since he's never done that with you.
You might get a weird lecture on how you're perfectly passable despite what anyone else says but it's just him trying to make you feel better.
If he can't convince you though, he'll do his best to cheer you up another way he can.
It might be getting you your favorite foods and putting a movie on at home while he gives you words of comfort, or if you're way too down for his liking he might drag you outside to do something fun like mini-golf or laser tag.
Either way like I said he isn't stopping until he cheers you up! He isn't the greatest at understanding what troubles you but he always does his best to learn more to help where he can.
Hajime
He's a lot calmer than Makoto, as in he'll simply sit you down to ask you to elaborate on what's troubling you and letting you cry if you need to on him.
He wouldn't be as clueless as Hajime since he normally learns a lot through helping others but he's calm enough to ask you to explain if he can't understand any part of your issue.
Once he's sure he understands what your issue is he feels awful for you. He just doesn't understand why people can't see you as you are and will do his best to comfort.
He won't force you to cheer up or be like Makoto but he will hold you and give you words of assurance as he holds you to his chest.
He isn't against doing something casual like videogames to cheer you up or putting on a favorite of yours but that won't happen until he's sure you're good.
Then he's trying to do everything he can to take your mind off of what's ailing you all while telling you time to time how he thinks you pass just fine.
Chiaki
She's normally too sleepy to deal with a lot but seeing you upset will immediately wake her up.
She'll want to know what's up and won't fully get it at first.
It's not that she doesn't understand your gender orientation or anything about being trans, she just really doesn't get how anyone would make such an obvious mistake as to call you mam.
She won't do much but like Hajime, she'll give you lots of words of comfort and hold you to her.
If you don't feel better after all that she'll simply pull out a ton of fun games together and let you choose whatever one you want.
She'll even let you be player 1 or use her favorite controller, whatever makes you happy.
In the end, you'll know she cares and thinks you pass just fine. It won't seem like she's just trying to cheer you up either. She believes in you being you and knows you'd do the same for her if she had similar issues.
Nagito
Someone upset you and he's upset as well.
How could anyone do that to his hope? His obviously male hope nonetheless!
He might be a bit rude towards whoever made the mistake if anything happens when he's with you but he means well.
He's just him. He's him and he respects your gender and wants others to see you as what you are.
He'd immediately understand from reading up on the subject as soon as you two started dating and is furious that someone would make you doubt if you were passing.
He thought you were beautiful as you were, even if you had some more gentle features. He by no means looks manly himself so if anyone should be getting called mam he thinks it should be him and not you.
Regardless though he'll remove yourselves if possible and drag you out to buy you whatever you want.
He wants to cheer you up and will do whatever, like Makoto to help.
If that doesn't help though he'll go into a more serious mode where he acts more like Hajime and Chiaki, holding you and letting you cry.
He'll spoil you rotten afterwards even more. He'll get whatever you want for food. you can sleep with him tonight, you can have whatever you want. You could even hit him and he'd let you not that you would.
He just wants to make you feel better at any cost so he'll be more extreme than Makoto but don't worry, he won't force you to be. He wants to genuinely make you smile by the end of the day at least.
Ibuki
Aw yeah! Ibuki in the house!
This girl is a little ditzy at times so she might not notice at first if you are upset so things could go two ways.
You could tell her or wait until she does realize.
Regardless, once she does realize she is all over you.
She's being her usual hyper self, playing music for you and talking your ear off to distract you.
She is the least educated on this topic though so she'll be a little clueless with how to approach the situation otherwise.
She'll make sure you know you're loved just as you are more than really tell you how you're super manly or something to her but she does think you are.
She just probably won't think to say it until she ends up getting hit with the thought of, 'Hey I should tell S/o he's super manly and cool!'
The only issue is, this most likely occurs at sometime at 3 AM when you're not together and then she'll immediately call you like it's an emergency to tell you just that.
She'll ramble on after about some unrelated things once she's done telling you how manly and amazing you are but she's trying.
Before that she'll just perform all day for you and even ask you to tell her more so she can write an extra special song just for you!
If you're still down by the next day she'll have that song ready and waiting.
She'll probably even make an mp3 of it just for you to listen to it whenever you do feel self-conscious about any of your more gentle features.
Kaede
Another great but clueless girl. She's not uneducated on purpose but she just isn't as knowledgable as someone like Hajime.
Regardless she'll try her hardest to help soothe you with your own personal concert.
It's the usual stuff she plays but it's filled with enough emotion that her love for you somehow is felt in each note.
She would want you to feel calmed and at ease so that she can question you about your problem more before fully approaching it.
Once she's sure she understands though she'll be a lot like Makoto as in she'll drag you out of the house to do all sorts of fun things.
She may even keep insisting to take pictures a lot to do something like uploading a bunch of posts about how great of a boyfriend you are.
She wants you to see how you two look together and how you pass as a male to her and all her friends.
She'd hope it helps you appreciate every trait of yours but if it didn't she'd turn to smothering you with affection.
She'd even stay the night with you if it'd help you and tell you the entire time how amazing she thinks you truly are.
Like Ibuki and Nagito, nothing sounds forced or as though they're just trying to cheer you up so there are no doubts but there really isn't with any of these teens.
Rantaro
One of the calmer out of the bunch. Rantaro would simply pull you aside as soon as he realizes something is wrong.
He'd notice so quickly that you wouldn't even have to explain that something is troubling. All you'd need to do is tell him what's going on and he'd be the most understanding.
He knows he's pretty feminine himself so he gets what it's like to feel misgendered and would want to make you feel better more than anything.
His methods would mostly be letting you cry it out while holding you and petting your hair.
But expect to go shopping afterward!
Rantaro is going to, like Nagito, spoil you to no end.
Want that great ensemble in the window of that expensive store? Done. Want a new videogame? You get it.
It doesn't matter what it is he'll buy it as long as it'll cheer you up.
He'll also insist that you stay with him so that he can stay by your side as you get a chance to enjoy your spoils.
He's more of a fashion person but if you got anything like food, a movie, or a game, he'd be open to trying it out with you without any hesitation at all.
He'll do anything for you and tell you as often as possible how amazing you are to him.
Kokichi
As usual, Kokichi isn't great at expressing himself to others due to his own secretive nature. However, that doesn't mean your issue goes unnoticed.
Kokichi isn't manly by any means but he's not as hurt if anyone ever somehow mistakes him for the other gender so it may seem as though he wouldn't be able to understand.
However, he somehow knows before you even say anything what's troubling you.
He's great at reading people so he probably knew of this problem for a while before really addressing it.
Now that you're so down though he'll want to cheer you up. It'll be in his own annoying ways and he won't sing your praises as much but you can tell he means well.
He'll try to make you laugh more than anything by telling a bunch of dumb jokes and memes to you or even by messing with people on the streets just for funsies.
Despite his questionable methods, he's great at what he does and will probably succeed at making you laugh a lot that day.
Once you two are behind closed doors he'll be a bit more serious but don't count on much.
He may start out snuggling you and telling you that he really thinks you're manly and that it's not a lie but soon after he'll go back to his previous antics.
He'll just be goofy and childish until it rubs off on you too.
Somehow though it all he makes you understand that you are perfect the way you are without even explicitly stating it.
What a powerful boy. Good thing he's on your side.
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