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idontwanttospoiltheparty · 7 months

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John Lennon Tribute Songs – Musings and Impressions

I decided this morning to look into what John Lennon tribute songs (+songs about John's death) are out there and found the results quite mixed but interesting. So here's some of my thoughts on them.

Includes songs by: Bob Dylan, The Cranberries, David Gilmour, Elton John, George Harrison, Yoko Ono, Paul McCartney, Paul Simon, Queen.

All Those Years Ago – George Harrison (1981)

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Roll On John – Bob Dylan (2012)

Probably the most classic tribute song on this list, which is why I'm mentioning it first. I think it's somewhat misunderstood, because in my opinion it is far more personal than it's sometimes given credit for, even though it does fall into some clichés with how it references John's songs. It's overall positive, focusing on the good aspects of John and George's relationship as well as of John's legacy as a whole, with a few problematizing nuggets peppered in ("Living with good and bad"; "You had control of our smiles and our tears"). I see how the religious edge might be off-putting to some, but it feels incredibly earnest to me. The rock n' roll guitar riff is a lovely tribute to John's unabashed love for that genre.

(Also, I wrote a bit more in depth about the song and how I think it relates to George's view of John here.)

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This is not a song I can justify the existence of. If it had been released shortly after John's murder maybe, but I don't see what it brought to the table 30+ years after the fact. It feels extremely gimmicky, dropping simplistic lyrical references and Wikipedia-page facts, and otherwise doesn't seem like it has anything substantial to say. I don't think these types of songs have to be written by someone who had a deep personal connection with the subject, but none of this feels natural, earned, or remotely insightful and the emotions are rather vapid.

Murder – David Gilmour (1984)

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This song is musically interesting and the lyrics are quite compelling, but the centering of MDC's point of view is somewhat uncomfortable, given the actual context of his motivations. I feel this song works better as a reflection on murder as a concept, rather than a specific murder.

I Just Shot John Lennon – The Cranberries (1996)

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The title of this one worried me but actually it sounds like it could be on Some Time in New York City if you threw a few saxes onto it; John wrote about tragedies in a very similar way (like the Troubles, which The Cranberries – of course – also wrote about). Despite the directness, this works and feels poignant rather than edgy.

Empty Garden (Hey Hey Johnny) – Elton John (1982)

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I like the way this song opens with the metaphor of a gardener, giving the song a degree of universality, not just in the sense that John "belonged to the world" but also that it could be related to any loss. This is contrasted with the bridge ("And I've been knockin', but no one answers…"), where John is finally name-dropped, which adds such a personal touch to the song. It's masterful and heartbreaking, especially given the fact that Elton was having trouble getting through to John during his lifetime as well. A wonderful, heartfelt tribute.

The Late Great Johnny Ace – Paul Simon (1983)

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This feels less like a tribute and more like a reflection on history. John's death in 1980 is contrasted with Johnny Ace's death in 1954, as well as John F. Kennedy's in 1963. The music is harrowing and intriguing, which really underlines the senselessness of all these deaths. I enjoy the observed parallelisms and the way Paul manages to make the song personal despite not having a close rapport with John. In that way it kind of reminds me of A Day In The Life.

I Don't Know Why – Yoko Ono (1981)

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Life Is Real (Song for Lennon) – Queen (1982)

Like Here Today mentioned below, this is more of an anti-tribute song in my view. Ultimately it seems that to Yoko, the search for meaning in John's death is fruitless. Musically, the song is a bit long and repetitive, but as she sings: "You left me, you left me, you left me without words."

Also, the story the album cover tells is poignant, possibly more so than any song on it: a glass, which could be half empty or half full; the fog like an uncertain future, clouding the New York skyline; a pair of glasses, the ghost of a lost loved one; and vision itself, forever obstructed by the murder Yoko was forced to witness.

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Musically, I find this one to be quite wonderful and I think I can see how it was influenced by John's sound to an extent. But it also appears to be so personal to Freddie Mercury as well as rather cryptic that it feels odd as a tribute, per se. That's not really a problem in my opinion, but it's notable that without the name-drop it wouldn't even be obvious this song was about someone – let alone John Lennon – having died. This makes the "(Song For Lennon)" part of the title feel a tad performative.

Here Today – Paul McCartney (1982)

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It was thinking about this song this morning that prompted me to go listen to the other entries. While "All Those Years Ago" is a song in which George seems to proclaim that he understands John better than most people, on "Here Today", Paul discredits himself as a source on John basically immediately; within the first few lines of the song, he asserts that John would laugh in response to Paul claiming he really knew John. He's in a sense shooting down the idea of writing a straightforward tribute like George's because he does not appear to trust himself to make absolute statements on who John was. Instead, he shifts the focus to his own experience of their relationship, declaring that he loves John and is thankful, despite their possible lack of mutual understanding.

The song is fiercely personal and does not leave space for someone to relate to it as an uninvolved fan of John's, or even as one of John's loved ones who is not Paul, like Empty Garden and All Those Years Ago do. And yet Paul plays this song every night in concert as a tribute. It fascinates me deeply, not to mention it is lyrically one of his standout pieces as well as immensely moving musically.

#fiona.docx #paul #john #yoko #george #music talk #meta #my analysis

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some-pers0n · 3 months

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Watching the last four episodes of the demon show against my better judgement. Gonna be an annoying live-blog post full of rambling.

Okay so maybe a quarter/halfway through the fifth episode (when they introduce Lucifer) and so far? Eh. I think it's an interesting direction to take Lucifer's character. I'm not against making Lucifer a sympathetic role, especially since the story is taking a more "Lucifer was cast out of heaven for not complying with heaven's rules and morals" path, but it feels a little...odd. I look at this guy and don't think of him as any different than the overlords. It reminds me of Bee in a way, where it feels like they should be more, well, grand? I need a moment to think more about him though.

I also think it's kinda really awkward to introduce the concept of Alastor being a father-figure to Charlie considering they have had maybe three conversations and none of them were even remotely close to lukewarm in attitude. It feels forced and unnatural. The show barely shows any of them really interact and form bonds and connections. The only ones who I feel have any sort of bond are Vaggie and Charlie, and Angel Dust and Husk. Alastor is just kinda this character who doesn't really do anything.

Again, the show feels like fanfic. It feels like the show expects us to already be familiar with these characters, their dynamic, and general role in the story. To an outsider, this beat of Alastor feeling like a father-figure to Charlie is extremely out of left field. Hell, for most people who are fans of the show it feels odd. The show is pretty much only made for people who are already familiarized with these characters. It doesn't spend time setting up relationships, since it assumes we already know how they interact.

Anyways, enough rambling. Lemme unpause it so they can finish their little song.

Okay I unpaused it for all of like three seconds but I need to complain a little again. I'm not a character designer or artist, nor do I really think that the character designs are they fun to talk about (other than them being extremely animator unfriendly), but Lucifer's wings should be a little more...detailed? They feel blank and boring. I think they should have more gold or something. Anyways back to show.

If I may, I also do think that the show generally introduces wayyyyy too many characters for its own good. I think it should've stuck with a smaller cast. Way smaller. Most of these overlords and new characters could've been cut and nothing would really change. It feels really bloated and, again, feels like fanfic. The show expects us to already know these characters and doesn't really introduce them or give proper time to, well, be characters.

Oh yay Alastor exposition.

I do with Alastor was actually allowed to be batshit crazy and blow up things. I think it would be better if we were shown why we should fear Alastor. Why Alastor is this big scary guy. See him kill people. See him slaughter and completely level buildings without breaking a sweat. So far? I don't really feel anything about him. He's not scary. He's nothing, really.

Oh I've seen this scene of Husk and Alastor before.

God I wish there were more scenes of this happening. Literally just more of this place. Even more scary though. More of this. Please and thank you. Actually makes him interesting to watch.

Okay the joke about "loan sharks" is actually cute and fun. I like that.

Oh my god is Alastor going to do something????

FUCKING FINALLY LETS GO!!!

NO FUCK OFF DADDY ISSUES PLOT LET ME SEE ALASTOR KILL

NOOOOOOOOO PLEASE I WANT TO SEE MORE

Mimzy bothering Alastor about him caring about the hotel makes me think of that one theory that Lilith is forcing Alastor to do this. There's clearly some higher power that is forcing Alastor to comply and help with this, as said with Husk just a couple minutes ago. Lilith has been missing for a couple years and now recently Alastor is back. They've gotta be linked in some way.

Okay Lucifer sing your song about how heaven is evil and how you love your daughter.

I've mentioned it before, but I think the reveal of heaven being evil was shown way too early for its own good. I think they should've withheld it for a while. Revealing that, no, heaven is corrupt and bad in the very first episode kills any sort of tension or concern. We already know that heaven is corrupt and bad. That they don't believe in redeeming sinners and they'll just kill them all cause it's a) fun and b) to control them. Perhaps in a later episode it should've been revealed in its entirety.

Okay considering how Lilith took away Charlie from Lucifer, which is framed as being a sad thing, I'm certain Lilith is now going to be a villainous character. At least antagonistic. This is a Vivziepop show we're talking about here. So what does that exactly mean?

That was a pretty cute song not gonna lie.

Heaven time!!

I was already spoiled about Vaggie being a fallen angel, but I do think that it's a pretty decent reveal. I think it'd be better if the show had more time to-- OH THIS IS THE EPISODE WITH CHERRI BOMB??

God Cherri is such an animator unfriendly design it hurts. Why does she have so many edges and dots.

Don't tell me this is when the Sir Pentious SA joke happens. Please.

God I still can't believe they made Saint Peter into a blue-eyed blonde hair white guy. Viv only knows how to design one type of male character.

Heaven looks pretty neat so far. Interesting to see it finally.

I wonder if they'll ever bring up how Molly is in heaven. Or Angel Dust's other family in general.

I'mma be real: I think the exterminator designs should've been kept as what they look like. They look cool as hell with their masks on.

Anyways, reveal time.

I wonder if Vaggie is the angel who that one girl a couple episodes ago said she killed. Or if she just took credit. Or if it's another angel.

Court time.

HELP THE DICTIONARY JOKE-- okay that one's pretty funny.

Again, I think heaven should be more pretentious and weary about swearing and generally acting "like a sinner". I get that Adam was the first sinner and his whole thing is that he's an old bigoted white dude, but I feel like heaven should at least react to him swearing. Be all like: "!! you can't say that!!" or just generally be really uptight about it. I dunno. I think it'd be cute and fun.

Aw Sir Pentious :] He's so sweet

But oohhh noo Angel :(

WHY DOES EVERYONE REACT TO CHARLIE SWEARING BUT NOT ADAM??? WHUH??? Okay, okay, playing devil's advocate here, but maybe Charlie is more judged because she's from hell and it's commentary on how angels and sinners aren't that different and yet the sinners are judged more...but like...c'mon man...

NIFTY HELP DHUAWHDI--

Sir Pentious sweetheart no..

Don't tell me this is where the Sir Pentious SA joke happens now. I love you Sir Pentious please.

FUCK NONONONONONONONONONO NO GET HIM OUT OF THERE NO FUCK NO LITERALLY WHY IS THERE A JOKE ABOUT THIS RIGHT AFTER THE WHOLE VAL STUFF-- HE'S LITERALLY RIGHT HERE AND THEY'RE TALKING ABOUT ANGEL'S TRAUMA RIGHT AFTER A SA JOKE?????

Jesus that slap drew blood

?? Whuh? They don't even know what constitutes a sinner and a angel? ...okay devil's advocate again, but maybe it's still with the commentary about the church and whatnot.

I do like the idea of heaven not being aware of the exterminations though. Again, theme of the church hurting those who they deem to be sinners (aka addicts, queer people, or just generally anybody who isn't a straight, white guy with zero mental illness).

Okay final two episodes time.

Aw Sir Pentious :]

Alright Alastor go get your queer-platonic partner and go and sort this all out

Okay honestly? If this whole scene came before the dad Alastor thingy, I could believe it. A one-on-one conversation with Charlie and Alastor with him looking out for her.

Okay so it's been cleared up, Carmilla did kill an angel. Probably with her blessed weapons considering how angel weapons seem to hurt each other (as shown with Vaggie)

Sir Pentious and his goons are the only characters I care about

Ayyy Alastor's queer-platonic-partner

Aw that's a cute ace reference. Ace in the hole. Adorable

I do like Rosie. She's kinda neat

I do wonder what the logistics are behind Vaggie being latina if she's seemingly heavenborn. Maybe she's not and human souls can become exterminators. Though, Adam did say he named her, which sounds like she's heavenborn.

The cannibal town is funny. I like Susan. Ol' prick

Die girlies are fighting

Yep angelic weapons kill angels

Ooh I like this song

Oh this is cute, Carmilla is teaching Vaggie how to be a better fighter. I always like this cute. Adorable actually

C'mon Charlie tell the old queer about your relationship problems.

Rosie is so sweet and fun I love her

Hey okay why is this conversation actually not that bad? I like this interaction quite a bit. Rosie is really sweet and charming and lovely and she does tell Charlie to love and trust Vaggie in a way that's not really forced. I like it.

God dammnit I like a friendship in the demon show (Rosie and Alastor)

I like the idea that all of these cannibals dress like they're from the prohibition era.

I also like the idea that this one cannibal town is capable of taking down the exterminators.

Aww the girlies :)

I actually like this episode quite a bit. There's no glaring flaws or anything. It's a fun and cute episode that sets up the climax. Probably my favourite episode of the series thus far

Final episode lets go

Alright Vox what do you want now?

SIR PENTIOUS THE SILLY!!

Angel sobering up a bit is pretty nice though. The show does get a bit better. Those first couple of episodes are pretty rough.

God finally they kissed

Hi angels

Aw I like all of their battle attire

Alastor please be cool and do something menacing and fun

I do like this final battel thus far. Seems pretty earned. This later half is a lot better paced than the first half. Feels nicer.

vox what

You can definitely see the inspiration from that one villain from The Princess and the Frog here in this fight between them.

I THOUGHT HE CALLED HER "FAGATHA" HELPPPPP

?? Does Angel's arms just grow out of him at will?

I'm personally not really vibing with Cherri/Pentious, but eh it's fine it's meh

Fake-out death calling it now

Oh FINALLY Charlie is turning into a demon mode

???? HELP THAT SCREECH WAS SUCH LOW QUALITY IT WAS PEAKING THE MIC HELDWHAUIDHWUIAHUI--

Final confrontation between Vaggie and Lute lets go

Was that a snout on Charlie I saw?

I saw people complaining about their blood being "piss coloured" on Twitter, but honestly golden blood goes so hard. I love ichor so much. It's always so cool

Okay sparing somebody so they have to live with knowing that you gave them mercy goes hard

Oh hey, deus-ex-lucifer

I think Adam still would've been cooler if that WAS his face and not just a mask. Also if Adam wasn't a generic white guy. He needs curly hair

OH SHUT UP-- okay, fine, mercy. Mercy is fine. Mercy is the entire show's point. Redemption and not killing a person. I think it should've been better paced though.

Don't tell me Nifty killed him-- oh for fuck's sake. I hate this trope of the comedic relief character killing the bad guy. It's not funny and it feels underserved

Boo hoo song about how Sir Pentious is totally dead. He's not. He's still alive, I know it

So the V's are obviously going to be the main villains next season

Hey Alastor

I still don't think Sir Pentious is dead. You can't convince me show. He's alive

I KNEW IT!! HE'S REDEEMED TOO??? WAS THAT THE FAMILY GUY DEAD POSE??

Oh is this Lilith?

Yeah it's Lilith.

Alright, thoughts:

I think it's a decent show all around. Would I casually recommend it to people? Absolutely not. I still believe the biggest flaw is how the show is based around you already knowing these characters and the context around everything. It makes it extremely unappealing towards casual viewers and only really makes it watchable to people who've already seen the pilot, Helluva Boss, and know a bit about Vivziepop lore.

The writing is hit-or-miss. Pacing and mood whiplash is certainly an issue. I think the show has a general lack of focus in the first couple of episodes especially, though it does pick itself up a lot by episode six once it focuses on the heaven VS hell plot.

I find most of the characters to be stale and iffy. Alastor I think suffers the most since he's obviously this character you're supposed to like and find just as cool as Viv does, but he isn't really doing it for me. He feels forced and unnatural.

Despite Viv claiming it to be a female-lead show, I still feel like it spends infinitely more time giving more depth and character to the male cast than it does with the female ones. The male cast gets more complicated stories than Charlie and Vaggie, which kinda sucks.

Overall? Not bad. I wish the season had twelve episodes instead so it could be better paced, but ah well.

#sp-rambles

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mangodestroyer · 2 months

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I think something that's always bothered me about society is just how cold it can be.

I mean, any time I've been distressed in some way, well, you'd think the natural reaction would be, "Oh, you're distressed. Will you be okay?" Nope! It either becomes an interrogation about WHY I feel that way, and people either not getting it and overcomplicating it (especially if it's related to existential dread or some horrible personal problem that can sometimes be related to abuse) or dismissing it as stupid, or not even asking and maybe just taking note of the fact that I am obviously someone who was born with a uterus, and so it must be those crazy girl hormones or whatever (misogyny is a beast that will just not die!)

If you get distressed a LOT, it's never seen as an indication of a pressing problem. You're just dramatic and like attention. Some people may even call you manipulative (usually a sign that they are a manipulative POS themselves when they project that onto you).

It might even be considered inappropriate in your close friendship to suddenly come forward about something that's a bit heavy. I've almost lost a friend admitting to something a bit heavy (they made it a point to act EXTREMELY disappointed in me), so I've since refrained from doing so.

So I haven't really found comfort from friends or family. What about romantic partners? They're supposed to be your number one supporter, right? Well, I've only had one. And I wouldn't exactly say that there was the deep, wholesome connection I thought there'd be, like there is in the books. In all fairness, I don't think they were serious about me and I have zero clue why they even wanted to date me because I just remember them being cold and distant the whole time, and not wanting to do ANYTHING that couples do. They showed zero enthusiasm upon seeing me, so obviously, they weren't very emotionally supportive either (they were the type to assume that crying=manipulation). Just, for whatever reason, wanted me to move in with them right away and get those adult responsibilities going (like having kids and all that), without actually forming a real connection. I mean, it was like this: they wanted marriage, even right when we started dating, but admitted at some point that we probably won't have a wedding. So in other words, nothing fun. No actual bonding experiences. No sign that they actually wanted to put effort into their relationship with me (while I was about ready to move with them to places I really didn't want to live, as well as do many things there way because they were allergic to doing anything my way). And now I'm afraid that this is just how relationships are. It doesn't sound REMOTELY appealing and I still haven't put myself out there again.

So in conclusion, human society seems kind of cold. Like, we just work to justify our existence, do random things to satiate our boredom, but only those of us who are lucky can actually form emotionally fulfilling relationships. Some of us just don't find that and are told to just deal with it. Like, we're not even allowed to be sad about it because it's "toxic" or whatever. Or we're told that we don't deserve it because we don't bring enough to the table, or that we aren't good enough, or that we must be terrible if people are emotionally distant with us.

Meanwhile, my dogs are always RIGHT THERE if I feel even remotely sad. They don't overcomplicate it or try to turn it into some elaborate thing. Just go, "Human sad, I'll make feel better!" and start getting affectionate. And funnily enough, it just works.

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rebootchill · 3 months

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People who are non-South Park fans act surprised to learn that the fandom is extremely openly female online and IRL like there's just something wrong with those girls and maybe they're overly into the little boys characters in a creepy way (that's there but only in extreme tiny circles like every fandom unfortunately). I still think it's also a product of the "thing enjoyed by women = must be bad" mentality we all can perpetuate cause fem hatred comes so easily.

For me, South Park came at a time when I was having a harder time relating to my gender identity and how I was perceived by boys and even other girls. I was made to feel like I was "too girlie" for the boys but "too masculine" for the girls but I honestly cannot tell you wtf I was doing that gave these impressions. It definitely led me into nihilism, and through that, I watched many hyper-masculine or dark humor edgy stuff because I was an insecure cis-girl pushed out by other insecure cis girls. But from all that content, South Park was the one show that grounded and led me to some healthier perspectives about my sex and gender.

So I want to list why the show is feminist or at least try to explain it's pro-fem stances.

- extremely honest about the over-sexualization and grooming of young girls that society puts upon us even as minors.

-Wendy started as the girl of the group that Stan was desperate to keep in his life but never truly loved and she herself had an unhealthy obsession with toxic males around her.

To now a feminist that sets her own boundaries and prevents Stan from taking advantage of her love whenever he feels like he's emotionally empty.

-A female pedo is treated like a rapist and dies and no one feels sorry for her sake

-Misogyny in the show is exhibited only by the worst characters possible.

-Matt and Trey, I don't like to overthink about real people's personal sexualities but they definitely read as men who don't care about how people see them poking fun at their own masculinity. That takes a great level of self-confidence and some level of respect for the "opposite sex" that most cis men are unable to do.

-Wendy beats the living shit out of Cartman deservedly for mocking breast cancer and the writers take her side 100%

-Showing the complex dangers of mutual abuse between partners (something I have experienced and now thanks to the show, I have a frame of reference to understand my trauma.)

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It's actually one of the few "immature" comedy shows that actually hold better lessons for young girls than most supposedly mature "women-oriented" media.

When young women see any level of display of strong female agency that actually connects with their experiences, they're going to gravitate to it. That is why the fandom is overwhelmingly female.

Now it ain't all perfect. I'm not going to justify the transphobia remotely, it's still written by cisgender men with unchecked TERFism and other outdated neo-liberal politics. These videos bring that all to light, and this youtuber Lily Simpson (and Kitty Monk) will do a better job than me explaining it.

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But I also will add:

-In the games feminine gender expression is highly encouraged even if it's in the context of a joke. One of the best armor to use is any of the effeminate armors so most players end up with the best stats by making their (assumed male protagonist) fight, play, and finish the game in complete drag.

-Second game lets you literally give yourself magical sex changes at no cost. It has a very shockingly diverse list of gender identities and it treats this more matter of fact than "lol alphabet people". You can change your sex and gender infinite times throughout the whole game. And the only penalty is the bigot enemies ai's change their language when they fight you.

The point is, that all women go through their own messy self-affirming journeys to understand their place in the world, and if some found old-school feminism through a crude little show about high-pitched rude little boys navigating the hypocrisies of the adult world and finding words to their feelings. Then I believe it's a good enough start that will lead young people into better places mentally.

#this been sitting in the q for a while #princess's video definitely activated something strong #south park #media analysis #feminism #Youtube

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orionsangel86 · 4 years

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I watched the trailer, and I have to admit that it made me correct my stance on the prayer. I don't think it's gonna be connected to Cas in any way. It's probably gonna be Dean explaining that he's struggling, things always going downhill. And I have to say I don't trust the writers one bit. Cas is not involved in any of Chuck's AU-worlds, and I'm willing to bet money on it that they'd rather show AU-win*est than making DeanCas canon. Would you keep watching if they showed win*est in an AU?

I really wish you would think through asks like this before you send them to me.

There is a difference between being wary about getting your hopes up, feeling slightly bitter about the canon we’ve had so far, and being so deluded by bitterness that you think W*ncest has any remote chance of seriously being in the show outside of an utter joke where the brothers are extremely revolted.

See here’s the thing. W*ncest has already been in the show. Twice. In season 4 Sam and Dean discovered W*ncest fanfiction and were utterly revolted and disgusted by it. Rightly so. In season 10 W*ncest was VERY LOOSELY implied in a “why are they standing so close together?” moment in which Dean is AGAIN revolted and tries to separate the actresses. (Please note that Dean does no such thing with Destiel and “Destiel” itself is actually named in the show and discussed in a later scene with Sam AND given its own freaking romantic LOVE SONG so there is a bit of a difference).

If they DID include a W*ncest AU for LOL’s it would AGAIN be portrayed as revolting, gross, and something that makes Dean and Sam both feel physically ill. I guarantee this, and I would watch with utter glee and joy.

Now, to your other points. The prayer. Both Jensen and Misha have confirmed that the prayer is a confession from Dean to Cas that resolves their relationship issues. I doubt both Jensen and Misha would lie or downplay something they know is a big deal to the fans. I am not going to repeat myself though so please read this post that I wrote back in November about all the info we have on the prayer so far.

Also, just the other day I wrote this imagined attempt at Dean’s prayer where I managed to fit the exert from the promo into the prayer in a way that made sense and still kept the whole prayer about Dean and Cas. So give that a read and see how you feel after.

Finally, Cas not being in the visions: Is a thing we have all been gleefully speculating and meta’ing because YES he is mysteriously absent from all the AUs isn’t he? Isn’t THAT interesting. Isn’t THAT a big neon sign confirming that Chuck isn’t paying attention to him right when all hope seems lost?!?

Go read this thing. It’s a meta discussion post between me, @wigglebox and @fallenandthefaithless which has various threads all very exciting and interesting about Cas’s upcoming role in the fight against Chuck.

Look there is a reason why I have a “Chuck is a bibro” tag. Don’t you think it’s kind of hilarious that the writers have made the shows FINAL VILLAIN a bibro obsessed with the brothers, wants them to die by killing each other, and is ignoring all the other vital players, specifically Castiel?!?! I mean, Chuck has made enough comments by now that can be read as subtle digs against the bronly crowd. There are plenty of reasons why I am LOVING season 15 so far and that is one of them.

If after all this you still feel bitter and crappy about the whole thing. Go take a break, eat something, drink some water, maybe sleep on it, and stop reading negative crap on social media. If you really can’t shake the bitterness then stop watching the show and go watch a Disney movie instead because there are only so many times I am going to answer bitter negative asks like this one before I eventually crack and start blocking your IP addresses.

#destiel #spn speculation #spn meta #15x09 #season 15 #castiel is the catalyst #chuck is a bibro #fandom negativity #negativity for ts #sigh #asks #anon #Anonymous

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yaz-the-spaz · 4 years

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Hey,I am new to Tumblr so I don't know how it really works but since I started using it your blog is literally the best like the ziam content I get from your blog keeps me living,I'm always checking for when you have a new post,I just wanna show my appreciation .Quick question tho are you still ot5 Stan,and do u still believe in Larry? ignore me if you don't want to answer any of this question and sorry for any grammatical errors English isn't my native language,once again I loveee your blog ❤️

2,I'm the one who sent you an ask if you're a larrie and ot5. another question I don't know y but I have seen many ziammies and most of them don't like younger fans why is that?I don't know maybe I am generalising it but I am 15 and I have learnt a lot about how pr r/ships work and how the entertainment industry can be disgusting because I have seen how 4 boys are closeted so if I can see through the bs why do most ziam believers assume that we are just little girls waiting to marry the boys?

3, sorry for writing 3 times but if I bothered or offended you in any way it wasn't my intention really,I am so sorry if I have done that I really love your blog. It's just that I am curious

hey nonnie! welcome to tumblr! and thank you for such a sweet message, i’m so glad my blog has been an enjoyable and uplifting place for you :) :) :) And in answer to your initial questions yes, i am still a larry and an ot5 stan (trust me, if i ever completely lose faith in larry or the connection of ot5 i will remove it from my bio, and the same goes for ziam or any of the other people/things listed in my bio - if for any reason i ever stop stanning someone or something that is listed there it will be removed, i have done it before and i will do it again lol).

on the hating on younger fans thing, i can’t really speak to that much as i personally haven’t seen much of that, but just taking guesses it’s possible it may stem from either older fans trying to distance themselves from younger fans based on 1) the type of content they post (i.e. maybe they’re posting more adult/18+ content they don’t want underage fans to see), 2) not wanting to leave any kind of space for fostering inappropriate relationships b/t themselves and minors/underage fans, or 3) oftentimes younger fans, particularly in this fandom (but other fandoms as well i’m sure) engage in very problematic stereotyping of queerness and of same-sex/queer relationships just purely based on the fact that they haven’t learned and/or experienced enough to realize why certain views or statements they’re expressing or implying are problematic and offensive. obviously i don’t know what you’ve seen specifically, so if there are people out there who are literally saying outright they don’t like younger fans, they may just be weirdly hateful and it may not be any of these reasons i’ve listed here (or if they are saying that outright it could just be reason #3 and b/c they’ve seen too much of that going on with younger fans and are sick of it and wanna cut themselves off from that). but i’m guessing that most of what you’re seeing isn’t people just saying anything outright like that (though again correct me if i’m wrong!), but maybe just them criticizing younger fans for certain problematic views and/or behavior, or saying they would rather not interact with younger fans b/c of those things or b/c of any of the other reasons listed above. anyway i hope that wasn’t too confusing of an explanation nonnie lol, but as i’m also sure you’ve realized by now from being on my blog, i am not the best at explaining things coherently or concisely lol. please do let me know if you need me to clarify anything i’ve stated here though

to your point of ziams assuming younger fans are just gullible little girls wanting to marry the boys though, i can only assume that when you mention that, you are referring to people in the ziam fandom making statements like ‘only 15 y.o. girls believe this/fall for this het nonsense’ and things like that, of which i must admit i have also said similar things (sorry!), and which i completely get you being offended by as a teenage girl yourself. but i wanna make it totally clear that when most ziams (myself included) say that, we’re not talking about young ziam believers like you who can see through the bs! we’re talking about young het fans who literally do fantasize about marrying the boys and do things like write creepy imagines about themselves having sex with the boys, despite the extreme ick-factor of these young het fans being 1) underage and therefore basically writing self-insert kiddie porn, 2) being disgustingly invasive in trying to insert themselves in the boys’ lives and/or pry their friends and families for private info, and 3) pretty much never having a chance of anything happening that remotely involves them and the boys being romantically or sexually involved, considering most of the boys are clearly in long-term committed relationships with each other lmao. anyway all that said, when you see any of us in the ziam (or larry) fandom ragging on teenage girls it’s not meant to be directed at fans like you who do believe in larry/ziam, it’s meant to be directed solely at problematic underage het fans engaging in these kinds of inappropriate and invasive behaviors

(p.s. your english is perfectly fine and you didn’t offend me at all with your questions!)

#asks #anons #ziam fandom

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chocolate-failure · 2 years

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Despite believing this experience couldn't get any worse I have discovered new depths to this pervasive emptiness. I have a extremely vivid memory of when I was a child, maybe 6 or 7 because I distinctively remember being in my parents' room while we lived in the house. I remember the metal parts that protruded from their bed frame that would fuck up your shins if an errant limb happened to close too their edges. I remember laying on the carpeted floor with those metal reinforcements in view so vividly I can almost smell it. Something was burgundy, maybe the blanket or a pillow case. I almost can't believe that the room that would later become my room ever looked like that. I remember sneaking to their bathroom when I was 14 or 15 to throw up in the sink because my parents' bathroom had a door you could lock and was sequestered far enough away from the rest of the house that I wouldn't be heard. But that also meant I wouldn't be able to hear. One time I used their shower and found that the grate that covered the floor drain had no screws so I started throwing up down there too. So many of my thoughts in that house have been stained by disease, but I still remember as warped as my mind has become.

I found a lot of comfort in the floor. I'd sleep there, I'd dream there... before it fell out from beneath me, I saw it as one of the few truly comforting and unbiased fixtures in my life.

So there I lie facing the right most post of the bed frame looking out into the hallway. I recall this being a time when I first realized I was annoying. Being a child it was unavoidable but still remains a dismaying discovery. I had been speaking to my mother for the past I don't know how long, all time becomes elastic with time and as a child it seems to extend into perpetuity. I can't recall what all I spoke to her about or any of her responses but I remember saying "I think I can't think". Looking back on it I'm certain she probably pointed out that that even in saying that I was forming a thought thus rendering my observation patently untrue.

I find it profound.

I was, even then, so attuned to my experience that I was able to communicate that I couldn't concentrate. And though I was met with dismissal the fact that I had the insight to understand and articulate that at such a young age is astounding.

I find myself today similarly confounded as I was so many years ago. Struggling to concentrate on my inability to concentrate. Because despite being broken my mind has always known there is something wrong.

There are so many things that could've been helped.

I've always been rather adept at articulating my experience in written speech despite the words not working when they come from my mouth. They've always been difficult that way. But now, I seem to be at a loss for words. Something about what has gripped me has robbed me of my words. And not so much the words because I'm speaking perfectly fine now. But the access I once had to my current state, the ever wavering connection I had to processing and expressing my thoughts has wisped out of existence. I could learn all the words in humanity's collective lexicon and I wouldn't know if any of them even remotely described how I'm feeling because I have no fucking idea what it is I'm feeling.

It's horrible.

I'm wandering blind in the void that is my experience and it doesn't feel dark. Quite the contrary it feels white hot. At least before there was some consolation in the hurting things. The thoughts with teeth. The percievable can be perceived. This. This isn't tangible, knowable, describable. I can't see or hear anything yet everything hurts in ways I can't understand.

If ignorance is bliss why does everything hurt?

#journal #drival

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aviewfromtheclouds25 · 7 years

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Haha I admire your comittment to the theory, I stuck with it for a long time but I've been really down the last few days. I've been here from the beginning and I've never before been this worried that Robron would get over something, I mean I'm sure they will but will it be in a way that still makes me see them as the Robron I know and love. I'm praying for any theory right now tbh haha. -Puts in gif of Castiel praying for ages-.

Hi, anon. Haha thanks! I will happily admit I may just be in complete denial, but there is still logic there so until the time it becomes completely illogical, I’ll keep clinging on. I’m sorry to hear this storyline’s making you feel down, though. I know a lot of people are feeling this way, and I have to admit I was feeling pretty down after Tuesday’s episode myself. Although I haven’t been on tumblr that long, I’ve been with Robron from the beginning too (lifelong ED viewer and Robron are my favourite characters individually) and, as you say, it’s not the worry of whether Robron will make it through - because we know they will - but how. And how it will feel to us, because it has come to mean so much to all of us. I feel like my own positivity has been revived after tonight’s episode, though, so I hope at some point the same can happen for you.

The main reason I’m clinging onto hope of The Theory (or some variation of) is because I refuse to believe ED has suddenly become this uncharacteristically predictable, clichéd and messy. As I say, I’ve watched ED for a long time and this just doesn’t feel like them. There’s a lot of holes in the plot, as so many people have pointed out, but more than that it just feels like it’s lacking the depth and substance that we’re used to. It’s almost like the whole storylining and writing team couldn’t agree on the direction of the plot so they went on strike, and were hastily replaced with people who are now having to get to grips with that and the characters. Because that’s how inconsistent it feels right now, as much as it pains me to admit that. It doesn’t make any sense, and that’s why I just can’t accept it. Not yet, anyway. But I completely acknowledge that it may just be my long-term loyalty to, and love for ED in general that means I have too much faith in them, maybe. (I hope not, because I find that prospect more disappointing than the actual storyline, really.) But that still doesn’t change the fact that there is something missing, and just really random things - clues, even - that must surely be connected..?

There’s the silence. The silence is odd.If the storyline was really going the way the narrative is leading us to believe, and the fandom was falling into disrepair with many choosing to stop watching the show altogether, surely there would be some message to placate the fans? They were more than happy to put a placating tweet out when the fandom was stressing over the spoilers, so why not now the storyline has actually become fact? Unless it isn’t fact… Unless there is something more… Unless there is a twist… And the fact that we haven’t had any quotes from Emily or Ryan, or even Danny, is extremely odd. All right, maybe there will be quotes from Danny and Ryan with the reveal - but that would imply the reveal is the big part of this storyline, not the pregnancy. I honestly think it is this silence which is making us all find this situation so perturbing. We’ve grown used to ED interacting with the fandom. And maybe it had become too intense and the lines had become somewhat blurred, but to go from continuous - almost non-stop - interaction with the fans to nothing? That’s a major factor in why we’re all finding this storyline so unsettling. And I can’t really understand the two extremes - unless something big is underway?

The pacing is just ridiculous - are we honestly supposed to expect a storyline this fast-paced to go on for months? I can’t see it, myself. Then there’s the actual narrative itself. We could discuss The Theory and what even may or may not have happened on the night of The Incident until we’re blue in the face. The fact is, things still don’t add up there. And probably won’t until the final pieces of the puzzle slot into place - if they do. But even beyond that, there’s holes. Rebecca’s adamant it’s Robert’s, fine. I’m not even going to bother discussing that. But we’re slowly getting to see more of what’s going on in her head, but vitally, we have never once been shown any of the action from her perspective. There’s a complete difference between seeing her emotions and seeing her point of view, and I’m wondering if this is intentional? We’ve found out about what she’s been through in the past; it’s now abundantly clear that there’s more than one reason she can’t just let go of Robert. Crucially, aside from Rebecca’s scenes with Ross and Vic, we’re seeing the whole of this storyline from Robert’s point of view. And that gives me hope - that potentially this is leading to the breakdown that so many of us want to see because it’s what he needs for his emotional development as a character. And that fills me with even more hope about what I believe is the whole point of this storyline. Because the one thing that has been indisputably clear throughout this storyline while the rest of the plot has become hazy, is the reaffirmation of Aaron and Robert’s overwhelming dependency on each other. Their entire happiness and wellbeing depends solely on each other. We’ve seen it in so many ways, even the counselling session where Aaron couldn’t stop looking at Robert. He needed him, he takes his strength from him, and the suggestion of doing something he enjoys or which makes him happy simply made him think of Robert. Because his happiness is entirely dependent on that man. And while I know many are unhappy with the inconsistent writing of Robert and feel like his wondrous character development is in jeopardy, I have to disagree with some of the thoughts on this. Yes, I have some concerns at times because I love this Robert, I love Aaron’s Robert. But to me, what we’re seeing with his behaviour now is his dependency on Aaron. The idea that Robert might lose Aaron? The one person he’s ever needed himself? The one person who enables him to be himself and like himself? It’s unthinkable to him, and he’ll do “whatever it takes” to stop that from happening. Because nothing has ever mattered more to him than Aaron. And he does keep trying to change, to be better, because he wants to be the man that Aaron makes him feel capable of being, truly the best version of himself. And fundamentally, I believe this is the point. We’ve seen the boys can’t cope without each other, at all. We’ve seen that they’re both literally only half a man without the other. I believe the point of this whole thing is to break them down and establish who they are on their own so they can then work out who they are together. They’re both incredibly complex, multi-faceted, three-dimensional characters, but I believe the difference is the audience (general, of course) is able to understand Aaron better. They’re able to sympathise and empathise with him. With Robert, it’s not that easy. Aside from his own idiosyncrasies of bottling up his emotions and never allowing his true intent beneath all the layers to match what we see on the surface, Robert’s characterisation has been inconsistent since his return in 2014. He was, essentially, brought back in as a two-dimensional villain. The show has gradually - and authentically, I feel - fleshed him out as a three-dimensional character. However, a certain level of inconsistency remains in that we’ve primarily only ever been allowed to see one side of Robert at a time. So I genuinely believe - whatever direction this goes in - the aim is to break Robert (and probably Aaron) down and rebuild him, showing us that all of his complexities co-exist, just like Aaron’s. To make them equal as individuals, characters and within their relationship. And then to rebuild that relationship on stronger (and healthier) foundations than those built during an affair, marking the beginning of a whole new era of Robron 2.0.

I don’t know how the Rebecca thing will go, whether there will be a baby or not. We can argue a case either way - because there are still options (yes, multiple) for twists. Like I said, we haven’t seen anything from her perspective. We didn’t see her take the test - could she have faked it? We didn’t see her inside the clinic, but we saw her outside so why not show us that scene?? Unless there’s something else going on… The month comment was weird, I don’t know how it works but having seen this situation portrayed in ED before I’m pretty sure that wasn’t the case with Kerry or any other female character… Maybe she isn’t pregnant. Maybe she’s further along than she thought. Ross made a comment to Pete “You’ve never been good with maths” while looking at Rebecca’s name on his phone - maybe this was a sign? And then there’s the Adam theory if anyone’s still into that… Out of the three young couples, the only person who wasn’t there for the reveal, who doesn’t know, who happened to find the test and think it was his wife’s, whose said wife hasn’t yet told him that the test wasn’t hers and is actually Rebecca’s, who we’ve seen apologising to his wife etc etc., is Adam. Who knows, there might be something in that yet. Particularly now Ross is out of the equation, so it would actually be a triangle…

There’s so much more I haven’t even mentioned, but I realise this has got ridiculously long and I don’t even know if my ramblings are remotely helpful to you?? So sorry haha! All I would say in regards to the future of Robron is that while my faith may waver occasionally over ED and the plotty storylines, I 100% believe in the magic that Danny and Ryan create. And I wrote a post to this effect after The Incident, but while Danny and Ryan are still doing what they do best, I don’t believe that magic is going to go anywhere. And I do believe Robron will get through this, stronger than ever. Ultimately though, we all have to do what’s best for ourselves - whether it’s taking a step back from the fandom or the show in general, surrounding ourselves with like-minded blogs on here, draining ourselves by trying to work out what on Earth this plot is, or just plain old living in denial and theories. And if this ramble hasn’t been too much, you’re more than welcome to message me again. Even if you just want to discuss daft theories because laughing about the mess makes us all feel better. I’ve recently ventured into sci-fi parallel universes and time travel to try to make sense of this plot, so pretty much anything goes really. :)

#Robron speculation #The Theory speculation #honestly I'm so sorry this became so long #and I've no idea if it even makes sense or is any help haha #Robron

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How about all the questions except 100? ( ◠‿◠ ) See, I'm nice.

ASK ME THINGS

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1. You woke up naked next to the last person you texted, what would you say? Nothing, because they would still be snoring away happily next to me. My favorite thing to hear in the early morning.

2. What’s going on between you and the last person you kissed?☼♥ ☾

3. If your boyfriend or girlfriend was into drugs, would you care?I think that’s the stupidest question someone could have come up with. Shouldn’t you care about every little thing concerning them? Ranging from when they experience minor headaches, to drug abuse, to their well being in general?

4. Is your last name longer than six letters?Ozaki = 5

5. Was your last kiss drunk or sober?Sober, maybe a little drunk on sleep.

6. Have you ever wanted to have someone but you messed it up?Yes. But we’ll always go our way.

7. What does your last received text say?I don’t remember right now.

8. How many times have you kissed the last person you kissed?∞

9. Where was your last kiss at?The hospital.

10. When is the last time you saw your sister?I don’t have a sisiter but two older brothers.

11. What do you drink in the morning?Decaffeinated tea.

12. Where did you sleep last night?At the hospital.

13. Do you think relationships are hard?They are if you invest everything you’ve got. If they’re not, you’re probably just wasting away your days ignoring each and every occuring problem.

14. If you could go back and change something in the past 5 months, would you?No. Although not everything went the most perfect way possible, I wouldn’t change anything. Life isn’t a video game you can restart if you made any mistakes that influence the progress of it. You have to live with your mistakes and the bad phases that come and go. Coping with the consequences makes you grow, cheating doesn’t help you improve but to eventually make the same mistakes again without learning through them. Everything happens for a reason and everything that has occurred to me within the past five months has gotten me to where I am right now. I like it, I’m happy. I’m enjoying my life and the connection I have to the people in it.

15. You’re locked in a room with the last person you kissed, any problems?None.

16. Would you rather it be sunny or rainy?Summer rain.

17. Do you know anyone with the same middle name as you?I don’t have a middle name.

18. Are you wearing jeans,sweatpants,or pajama pants?Leggings.

19. Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 years from now?It doesn‘t matter if it’s a relationship or just “us”. I think it will still be “us” three years from now.

20. Does anyone like you?Yes.

21. Have you ever kissed someone with a name that starts with an S?Technically.

22. Is the last person you kissed gay?No.

23. Is there a person you CANNOT stand?Yes. Are you human?

24. Have you ever considered getting a tattoo?I appreciate art in every shape and form it comes in. I have considered it a couple of times. I love this kind of unforgiving commitment to whatever you choose to carry underneath your skin with you for the rest of your life.

25. In the past week have you cried?Yes. Never hold it in.

26. What breed was the last dog you saw?It was a cute Pomeranian. I can see why this question is important. It honestly made my day to see this white ball of fluff bouncing around and wrapping his leash around his owner’s legs in the process. They were all annoyed but it was an adorable sight to witness for me.

27. Do you dry off in the shower or out of the shower?Drying off in the shower is such a pet peeve of mine.

28. Have you ever kissed a football player?No.

29. Do you think you’re old?I have an old soul but a young heart.

30. Do you like text messaging?It’s not that I like it to an extent where I can say that I enjoy it, but it has become ultimately vital for the people of our generation. Especially in my business it’s a great way to stay in touch with important contacts but also a comfortable possibility to talk to the people close to you when you find yourself being constricted by a busy schedule but don’t want to miss out on anything in their lives. I still prefer face to face conversations but I’m grateful we’re given these endless possibilities nowadays.

31. What type of day are you having?My day has been an odd mix so far; a little bit busy, a little bit boring, amazingly challenging.

32. Have you ever thought about getting your nose pierced?Actually, yes. I’ve done a shooting with Brooklyn All Day a while back where they put a fake septum on me and I actually thought this look was pretty cool and refreshing, enough to briefly wonder if it would be something I could enjoy on the long run, but I came to the conclusion that it’s not too convenient in this kind of profession. When I was younger, I always admired people with belly button piercings, too.

33. Do you prefer warm or cold weather?I like both extremes. I like them, but I also find myself moaning as soon as I’m forced to cope with extreme cold or extreme warmth. Yet I enjoy being surrounded by snow or going to the beach on beautiful summer days. I don’t have a preference as it seems but I’m grateful for every season and its perks.

34. Is there a person of the opposite sex who means a lot to you?Always. My best friend.

35. Would you prefer a relationship or a fling?I’d prefer no labels. They only do harm depending on the type of person you are. My answer will be neither, but I strongly believe that certain things don’t need to be named. Strong emotions don’t need such limiting cages. You will only find yourself clutching these golden bars, wishing to escape so the two of you can be free. But most importantly together. Why limit yourself when those feelings go far beyond human vocabulary.

36. Are you a simple or complicated person?I am as simple as I am complicated.

37. What song are you listening to?Bon Jovi - Living on a Prayer

38. When you say you’re sorry do you mean it?It depends on who you are to me. But usually, yes. Especially when you’re close to me. The tighter the bond, the more I’ll have to swallow my pride to apologize. When I do, I do mean it.39. Is there a girl that knows everything or almost everything about you?My friend Akane.40. What made you start liking the person you like now?This is the toughest question so far. Mainly because I don’t want to write a bible for an answer, so I will try to keep it short. What made me like them, the very first thing that did, was realizing that for some reason our minds worked strangely alike. He spoke out things I couldn’t put into words, but he also took entire sentences off my tongue I wanted to write down and yet he was faster, just like he knew what I put my mind to that very moment. It was like speaking to my reflection in the mirror. And I hadn’t even seen him in person back then. This conversation got under my skin. Ever since I’m tied. Since day one.41. When did you last receive a text message?Yesterday.42. What is wrong with you right now?I think I’m frightened of the unknown and of the familiar, both at once.43. How well do you know the last female you texted?Barely.44. Does anyone disgust you?Remotely.45. Would you date someone right now if they asked?Yes and no.46. Are you in a good mood right now?As good as your mood can be when all you can think about is sleep.47. Who was the last person you talked to in person?Sono.48. What color shirt are you wearing?Grey.49. Has someone recently told you something you didn’t want to hear?Yes. I don’t think either of us liked it but it was necessary. I’m glad we had this conversation.50. Anyone you’re giving up on?The slow and mechanic form of life I have been the past couple of months. Goodbye.51. Do you hate the person you fell hardest for?Sometimes. But it’s never without affection.

52. Have you ever thought about giving up on someone but couldn’t?Who didn’t?53. Do you like rain?I love rain. 54. Do you care if your boyfriend/girlfriend drinks?I think I will simply refer to the question concerning drug abuse here. Though it also depends on how severe the consume of alcohol is.55. Have you ever liked somebody and never told them?Yes. Although I’ve learned not to waste emotions as I grew older. 56. Do you like to cuddle?Actually, yes.57. Are you shy?It depends. But a huge part of me is. 58. Do you get along with girls?I do. But I have a tendency of getting along with boys much better.59. Have you dated the person you texted last?Yes. 60. What do you carry with you at all times?My phone. 61. If you were paid 1 million dollars to spend the night in a supposed haunted house, would you?Yes, but I’d probably chicken out as soon as I hear as much as a creaking door. 62. Do you think you can last in a relationship for five months?Yes. 63. Think back to October, were you in a relationship?Yes. 64. The person you like kisses you on the forehead, do you find this cute?I think it makes for a sensation of warmth and comfort, feeling utterly cared about.65. Did anything “cute” happen in the last week?Yes. My son produced his absolute worst diaper. So… cute…

66. How old are the last three people you kissed?Well, one of them was very very old, almost ancient. Rumor has it he’s almost fourty. The other is currently 4 months old and last but not least, I’m not going to give away my mom’s age.

67. Would you rather pay to get your nails done or do them yourself?I have phases where I feel artistic and want to do a cool design on my own nails, but let’s be real, it’s better and easier to just get them done by a professional. 68. Which do you like better- Zebra print or leopard print?Leo.69. Do you have any stickers on your car?No.70. Would you rather listen to Luke Bryan or Lil Wayne?Lil Wayne.71. Blackberry, Anroid, or iPhone?iPhone. 72. When’s the last time you had pizza from Pizza Hut?I only recall having pizza from Domino’s. 73. Do you like diet soda?No. Go hard or go home.74. What color are the walls in your room?White. I can’t have my walls painted in extreme and distracting colors. It makes me feel uncomfortable because they’re too loud. White is very soothing.75. Are you 16 or older?I’m 10 in spirit. 76. Do you watch Pretty Little Liars?No. 77. Do you have a job?Professional food enthusiast. 78. What are your initials?S. O.79. Did you ever have braces?No. 80. Are you from the south?Damn right. From the best city ever! I also think Northerners are cavemen.

81. What does your last status on facebook say?I don’t really use this site.82. Do you still talk to the first person you ever kissed?Not really, no. 83. Are you closer to your mom or your dad?I’m close to both of them. They give me more support than I could ever dream of. I’m close to either of them in different ways, I believe. I talk a lot about my concerns and problems to my mom. She gives the best advice. My dad is my rolemodel. He teaches me lessons about life whenever we interact. And he was the one making me attached to the sea ever since I was a little girl. I’m grateful they raised me the way they did.84. Have you ever done cheerleading or gymnastics?Gymnastics. 85. What’s the last movie you saw in theaters?Resident Evil. 86. Do you smoke?I used to smoke. I can’t say that I don’t miss it these days. 87. Would you rather wear heels or flip flops?I love any kind of shoe. It depends on the occasion or the setting. 88. Is your phone touch screen?Is the sun hot? 89. Do you normally wear your hair straight or curly?I like to wear it curly if I am in the mood to do anything with it. Otherwise I prefer to have straight hair since it doesn’t require any work while I get ready. 90. Have you ever snuck out of your house?When I lived back home with my parents I used to sneak out of the house or back inside often. Those were my wilder teenage years. Rebel phase, Kurt Cobain lover, living the gyaru lifestyle.91. Would you rather swim in a river, lake, or pool?A lake. 92. Have you ever made out in a car?Yes. 93. …Had sex in a car?Yes. 94. Are you single or in a relationship?Maybe something so precious, no label in the world could ever express its beauty. 95. What were you doing last night at midnight?Driving to the hospital. 96. When’s the last time you saw fireworks?New Years. 97. Do you like the camera on your phone?It’s okay but since photography is a hobby, I prefer my Canon. 98. Have you ever had a friend with benefits?Yes. It’s common in Japan though. 99. Have you ever passed out from drinking?More often than I’d like to admit.101. Have you ever had a pregnancy scare?Yes. 102. Name your favorite Kesha song: Blah Blah Blah 103. Do you have any tan lines right now?None. 104. Would you ever wear cowboy boots with shorts?I used to when it was a thing for gals.

#about.

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