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theshadowrealmitself · 2 years

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So! I have this weird thing that I’ve been thinking about lately, cause more and more people have been pointing it out to me, where I don’t feel heat correctly

Like, I can feel hot water, and food fresh out of microwaves and ovens, and sun beams if I stand directly under them feel hot to me, I can feel those

But if it’s a hot day, I don’t actually feel it, I’ll get sweaty and I’ll get nauseous after a bit, but I won’t feel the heat, I don’t feel cold, it just feels like an absence of warmth, so I can wear a huge bulky sweater and then take it off, and taking it off will get me less sweaty, but temperature wise it feels the same

However, I feel cold easily, very very easily, I have zero problem with feeling it, and I’ll feel cold even when you think no one should be cold

Anyways, since I like to project and Danny has an ice core, I think that’s how it should be for him, gets cold easily and hot days feel more like an absence of heat for him

#it’s not anemia #I used to be super anemic as a kid but for unrelated reasons not involving this I’ve gotten it checked since being a kid #always had this use but wasn’t anemic for many of those years #so yeah #maybe I should bring it up to a doctor #I just tell people I have a regulation problem and they drop it #but yeah everyone’s always commenting on my sweaters #danny phantom #dp #danny fenton #ice core

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quietwingsinthesky · 4 months

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i do love canon amy & rory but god, does some part of me wish they really had gone with the idea of the doctor picking up a child as a companion (and then later, that child’s best friend with a huge crush on her.) with the rest of the season really not changing at all, except now it’s amelia pond with an angel in her head killing her and lost alone in the woods. it’s little rory who dies and is forgotten and becomes a toy soldier. if this is going to be a fairy tale, then let it be one. children have never been safe in fairy tales.

#it wouldn’t have to change any of the actual plot of the season. except MAYBE amy’s choice but even then i think amy’s choice would be the #one episode where they should be adults. if only for the half where they live in a village in that dream.#because that’s the kind of future that children would dream up. they live in a little cottage and nothing ever goes wrong and their best #friend visits them all the time even though they’ve grown up.#they aren’t actually adults there just children with an idea of what they should be as adults and acting accordingly #and it would still end the same way.#but idk its just. rory’s 2000 years waiting for amy inside the pandorica is already tragic. yes.#now imagine its a kid. a kid in a little roman soldier helmet who will never grow up. who will not leave his best friend.#he loves her and she’s more important than the whole universe and that sort of love is supposed to MEAN something in a fairy tale!#its supposed to melt the ice out of hearts and transform people from stone.#and what that love means here. is that he will have to wait 2000 years. a child and a box.#little rory and the amelia who followed the doctor’s letters to the pandorica. and she doesn’t recognize him again.#and amelia in the pandorica… 2000 years a child trapped in a small box waiting to be rescued.#s5 is already fucked for them but it could be worse. it could be so much worse.#and it would make the doctor choosing to take her place in the pandorica to save the universe later even better.#because who else but the doctor would put the fate of the universe on the shoulders of two children and realize much too late what a #monstrous thing he’d done. and still have to hope. have to hope. that amelia would remember him fondly enough to bring him back to reality.#the logistics of all of this would have been a pain lmao. child labor laws in acting and all that.#BUT. hypothetically. it would have slapped.#doctor who #amy pond #rory williams #<- also this entire time ive been referring to him in my head as rory pond so much that i fuckin. forgot his actual last name.#and then like if you want them to be adults in s6 or whatever you can just timeskip to them getting married and still have amelia remember #the doctor there. it would work. it would.#amelia pond au

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wayward-wren · 15 days

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Throwback to the time I was 16 and watched Classic Who for the first time and was so upset over Mike's betrayal in Invasion of the Dinosaurs that I created a character called Captain Yates in the story I was writing and had him be working for the badguys but ended up having a redemption arc

#wren rambles #classic doctor who #mike yates #i cant remember what first name i gave him #but he was a fun character #he ended up basically adopting a kid and also the kid's nanny #like that story had ISSUES #but im still quite attached to that characters arc i think i had some fun things in there #he was fully on board with the badguys until he started meeting the baby sister of one of the main badguys #(who was tucked away in one corner of the base and basically ignored)#and he got attached to her and her caretaker #and ended up getting them out when the city was destoryed #they were his Kids #so he kinda became his own thing #but he was absolutely and 100% a result of me being sad about mike yates in doctor who #maybe i should try bring him back for a different story 🤔#if jamie can inspire a well known character why cant yates! i believe i can make it happen #when i learn how to WRITE AGAIN

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merkerlerspeaks · 1 month

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Think I had a breakthrough with something tonight. No I will not elaborate.

#Buuuut I wanna mention it just because it's a good thing #Just something a bit personal however I wanna celebrate that breakthrough somehow #I was going to go in to class today but my hair is a matted mess from not brushing it for a week (Brushing my hair is tiring lately.)#So I may deal with that and make myself some brownies in the morning #Then email my teacher and let him know why I'm not there when I said I'd try to be there #I need to be there at LEAST once this week. At LEAST. Preferably twice.#We're starting our drone flying and I wanna do the water drone #Merkerler speaks #(I should also mention the hair thing is not a depression thing. It just LOOKS like depression.#It's other things masking as that. But I don't even slightly suspect that I'm depressed.#I bring up no red flags on any clinical screenings I've taken at the doctor.#I'm just chronically sick and something flaring up and that + my ADHD means #Little motivation + doing things hurts or is tiring #which could cause depression. But it isn't Ive been depressed before & I know depression and it isn't that. Promise.#and I'm explaining that cuz I've gotten more comments about it lately and I want to be clear about it #bc I don't want anyone worrying about that #Maybe pray over the sickness that's actually there lol)

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chaos-has-theories · 2 months

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ayo was I reading that personal post right that you found out you're allergic to garlic???? Because if so bud hi I'm allergic to garlic too, I developed it when I was 17/18, and it sucks but it's kinda nice to not be the only weird vampire freak around anymore lmao anyway I hope you feel better and good luck bud ☺️

sad vampire fistbump 🧛😞🤜

I haven't technically gotten it tested or diagnosed or anything, and I think it might be more of an intolerance than an allergy? I don't really know where the line is. But well, a year or two ago I realized that maybe not everyone feels like shit after eating sour cream and onion chips (bc it's technically all allium I think - garlic and onion, and it's WORSE when it's powder. Ugh)

And then last year I had some anyway and spent the night with my nose fully clogged up and my lips stinging. I tried to blame the dust in the room that time until I managed to actually engage my brain. I didn't realize this time until I remembered that that was the exact same feeling, wow, I propbably should have seen this coming.

Anyway, salut to being weird vampires together and I thank you for the well-wishes <3

#broughttoyoubytheletterfive #chaos rambles #I have decided to indulge in feeling sorry for myself so I am retiring to bed and drinking tea #being an adult means that I'm ALLOWED. it also means I can take ibuprofen for the headache #is it related? do I just feel bad bc it's the sunniest day in the year yet?#either way I should maybe bring it up with my doctor next time I go

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barnbridges · 4 months

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every person who says self diagnosis is bad has never actually dealt with a doctor enough times.

#im not saying it works for everyone and im not saying you should go around with most things saying your self-dx-es #but you should actually um #bring it up with your doctor that um you suspect x and y are linked :)#maybe not use the names of the illnesses themselves #but certainly manipulate them into reaching this conclusion through how you portray your symptoms #im sorry #thats the ONLY way i got diagnosed with an ulcer vs gastritis #if you think self-diagnosis is ENTIRELY wrong be grateful you're privileged enough

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sisterdivinium · 10 months

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I know I've already spoken a lot after @fulcrum-art-fox 's post (and by going on a tangent, too, I'm still sorry for that), but my mind remains stuck on Jillian (oops!) so here goes a bit more chaotic blabbering to go with what came earlier.

See, yes, there's a parallel between Jillian and the Holy Mother (and I had already touched upon it here and here as well), but what made me stop and think a little more was a passage I read recently in the Jansons' The picture history of painting:

"The Byzantine artist did not think of the Madonna as being at all like an ordinary, human mother. To him she was the Queen of Heaven, far removed from everyday life and beautiful beyond any man's imagination. And he has painted her the way he felt about her: not as a woman of flesh and blood but an ideal figure bathed in the golden light of heaven."

What stands out to me here is less the actual piece being examined (this, if you're curious) but the idea of being removed from everyday life, of being distant from the common people, being an ideal figure who isn't made of flesh and blood.

That's exactly what Jillian more or less sets out to do in s1 through the image she presents to the world.

But, contrary to the Madonna being painted by an artist following what the latter might feel about her, Jillian, the budding demiurge, creates this image for herself. The whites, the blue, the theatre of it all wouldn't be lost on a woman as intelligent as she is; her pregnancy was "a medical marvel", now she opens up the "world's first quantum portal"... Ava says doctor Salvius creates superpowers on the daily, but these feats could be seen as miracles... No wonder cardinal Duretti is invited to witness Jillian's triumph.

As this miracle-maker, this special specimen above the rest of humanity, there must be a (fabricated) distance in her dealings with people. She singles herself out when presenting her creation or revealing the footage of Beatrice destroying her security, she stands out from the crowd more as a pale, fearsome marble statue than as a normal human woman.

And, so distanced from others, she barely ever touches anyone else (barring Michael, of course) apart from a very light, almost reluctant tap to a subordinate's shoulder or a grip on Ava that is less about Ava herself and more about what advantages connecting her to the ark might ultimately present. Her touching Lilith for her temperature is likewise less about Lilith's well-being and more about Jillian's own plans for her, a touch with underlying, secret intent.

It's almost as if touch is repulsive to her regarding these other persons, a risk to her carefully curated image, whereas her contact with Michael is affectionate and genuine, unrestrained by the "sainthood" of the genius given how it happens far from the public eye, from anyone she might want/need to impress, amaze or enthrall.

I had talked about the femininity of s1 Jillian as it helps her pull on a show, but there's something about her specific brand of it that is icy, that pushes people away. All that white, that immaculate appearance as if to dare others to try soiling it; where the Virgin Mary is a loving mother to be adored, Jillian Salvius concocts the persona of a terrifying creature not to be provoked, bathed not "in the golden light of heaven" but in the blue light of relentless scientific ambition.

We already know this facade comes crumbling down by s2, but what's interesting is that, as @fulcrum-art-fox's post points out, the consequences of this comparison to the Holy Mother persist. Jillian is no longer bedecked in blue and white, but she pays the price paid by Mary, unable to take action in order to protect her son from what befalls him.

Suddenly, this woman who constructed her own intangibility, her own sort of "divinity" by not being available to be touched by others, finds herself in isolation in a way she had not predicted -- set apart even when she might not want to be, kept away from her own son and from those others which at first she had so carefully kept at bay.

Which again might inspire us to wonder whether any of this is punishment for her presumption. Did she want to create miracles, stand above the lot of common mortals? Well, here are the consequences: you do not play at being the holy mother without the suffering that comes with it.

Maybe it's the blasphemy of it -- or maybe it's just the result of a very human arrogance which she has every opportunity to regret.

I had mentioned before how all of these ties between Jillian and the Virgin actually enforce themes of Michael standing for a redeemer -- the story of Mary is pretty much the story of Jesus. However, the story of Jillian can hardly be expected to be the story of Michael alone in a show that is so thoughtful regarding its female characters, so the future of WN must have something intriguing in store for her. If her role as Michael's mother has ended, her newfound connection to the OCS surely points at a new path for doctor Salvius.

Her relationship to touch alone is already different; if season one saw her wary of it, even protected from it, season two has her actually be touched by someone else, breaking through her "godly" defences. Lilith threatens her, Kristian appeals to her in what is a repulsive action, asking her to overlook what was done to herself and to her son in favour of Adriel's so-called revelations. Whatever walls she had built around herself are revealed as the illusions they truly are as they no longer shield her from others.

But there are two other instances of touch we can't ignore, moments that draw her into something different; not aggression, not cynical beseeching, but something else: we are given a desperation on Jillian's part and a rare, perhaps much-needed support on Mother Superion's. These are new, authentic moments of connection that also shatter the barriers her previous persona had erected and they hint at the possibility of novel dynamics. Jillian is no longer isolated as per her own design, but approaching someone else, being welcomed in turn, yanked painfully down from her self-created pedestal to walk the Earth as a mortal woman and no longer as a white, unblemished icon.

With Michael gone (if so he remains), Jillian might be freed of the ties to the Virgin -- built through her own efforts -- to be her own woman, surrounded by these others who propose another mode of existing, almost like Ava understood the notion of helping others through the OCS as well. Her role in the story isn't over, cannot be over: who is she when she is not just a mother or just the embodiment of her company? Who is she when participating in community instead of elevated to an artificial position above the rest that endangered her own sense of humanity? Who is she without the myth of her own design?

We eagerly await for how these new developments concerning her unfold...

#jillian salvius #warrior nun #analysis and similar #exercises in observation #between you and me i am a sucker for how the blue lights work so well with thekla's blue eyes but that's just me bring thirsty i guess #i'm actually obsessed with how these characters in general Touch #the choices made by the performers in what relates to it drive me crazy #but of course thekla and sylvia stand out to me lol i apologise for nothing #maybe one day i'll write something up on mother superion and touch too. idk. no promises. i should be writing fic.#also i promise i did not intend to make a doctor superion manifesto out of this #it's not my fault those significant touches are exchanged with suzanne!!! take it up with mr barry if you have a problem!!!

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the-patrex · 6 months

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Tbh, i should have clarified Classic/EU Who underappreciated thoschei/ best enemies, because I've seen your 10/Missy art and should have known that was going to be your obvious answer

ALRIGHT reading me for filth I see ok I'd go for 8/War Master then! Jacobi is such a fun and delicious over the top evil Master!! I also heard really good stuff about Macqueen but I never heard any audios with him!

#I dont think id call any of the classic doctor/master pairings underappreciated tbh #maybe 4/crispy #IS there any fanfic/ fanwork w crispy? I dont think I ever looked up #shut up patrex #honestly they should bring back Jacobi!Master in the show that man plays the Master in SUCH a fun way #and to be clear: yea ok classic who thoschei gets way less fandom stuff abt them when compared to new who thoschei #but i think comparatively with ppl that are familiar w them they get a good amount of love #like ALRIGHT I might not be a good parameter but I see a good amount of thoschei stuff coming from the classic who fandom given the amount #of screen time they had vs all the other stuff on classic #did i make sense???

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anartificialsatellite · 7 months

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One of those things about me is that I will do things like take my afternoon Adderall dose an hour late, get home from work an hour or so later, sit down on the couch, let the dog climb into my lap, and then suddenly wake up an hour later because of a loud noise outside, pissed off at the mysteriously wasted hour despite the aforementioned stimulant medication.

#sometimes i think maybe i should be concerned about how tired i am all the time #but every time i bring it up to my doctor they take blood and call me a few days later to say I'm fine #its been this way for a long ass time now and so naturally I've grown attached to the ritual

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katya-goncharov · 8 months

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anyway i think the least the doctor could have done is given some of the people who got zapped back by the weeping angels a lift back to the present. i don't care what convoluted reason steven moffat made up for why he couldn't

#i mean if he's able to bring martha home then why not that guy from the police station who is literally THERE with them in the same scene!#but no for some reason he's just like bye bye you can grow old and die and stay stuck in the 60s. we're both going home though but you #can't come with us because steven moffat wants to be Clever #(maybe it gets explained at the end of the episode and i just forgot but i got annoyed and stopped my rewatch to post this instead)#also why is the doctor so gutted when amy and rory get sent back in time years later. even if he can't take them back to the present surely #he can visit them with his tardis occasionally or meet up with them if he's visiting a time when they're alive anyway and they can all hang #out. and if that's not allowed then what happens if he travels back to a time when they're alive and they just happen to be in the same #place by coincidence? does the world implode and the dragons from the episode where rose tried to stop her dad from dying show up or what?#maybe i should actually rewatch the episodes instead of just wandering but it doesnae make sense in my head!!!!

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thetreethatspeaks · 11 months

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my bones have been very pop-y recently, like stuff that didn’t used to pop now pops and my knuckles are refreshed like every 45 mins instead of few hours. i’m becoming rice krispies

#like is it the weather??#should i be concerned?#i guess maybe? but like how do i bring that up to a doctor #i’m too scared to make my own damn appointment #what is happening

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fregget-frou · 1 year

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Minor vent today was just really bad :p

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Ok I don’t know if this is dumb to ask but is it embarrassing to need to go home because of period cramps?? I think I made a big deal but I mean I did pass out but also I’ve heard people do deal with it??? I’m pissing off my parents because I’ve been sick so often and having to make them leave work because of it. It hurt alot but like. Idk.! I’m not even sure if I should’ve even gone home????? I just oh my god I feel really dumb and weak for some reason but also I get it because I passed out from the pain and this just does not happen but also I was told to ask my doctor which I know he’ll just say it’s my weight but. I don’t fucking know. I feel like I’m gaslighting myself and having a meltdown over a scratch but it’s not a scratch to me but aLSO I know that even if it wasn’t I should react and cause problems I’m being a burden. I mean they said it themselves I’m disrupting their work more often and I don’t want to do that but the last time I tried to tough it out I had to go to the ER which made an even bigger disruption and I just don’t wanna do that again.

#kinda wish the school nurse had pain killers but we don’t have them #I did yknow throw up but but #I could be overreacting #I know that’s what my doctor will say!! fucking hate that because I know he only has 2 responses to me it’s either because I’m fat or it’s #it’s just normal #I am AWARE that I’m fat #you don’t have to say everything is wrong about me and that I should suffer through things because of it man #I think he thinks I don’t know #which is incredibly annoying because hey man!! you’ve been telling me I’m fat since I was SIXXX #YOU DONT NEED TO FUCKING REPEAT IT AND BRING IY UPP #I KNKW #I KNOW #I FUCKING KNOW #MAYBE #JUST MAYBE IM GOING TO YOU FOR ACTUAL MEDICAL HELP #THAT IS RELATED TO MY #ILLNESS THAT HAS BEEN CONTINUOUSLY ATTACKING ME #I DONT KNOW WHATS WRONG WITH ME #BUT I SURE AS HELL KNOW ITS NOT JUST BECAUSE IM FAT #it’s so hard to not relapse right now #ohhh the ed that’s just asking to come back and kill me is waiting for this #I can feel my mental health deteriorating every day!!!#I AM FULLY CONSCIOUS MY MIND AND BODY ROTTING AROUND ME #I AM IN HELL.

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avymiir · 1 year

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now that ash has time and space powers he should go multiverse hopping

i mean he’s a huge nerd and the multiverse says that every universe must exist somewhere, so personally i think after the years he’s had he deserves a nice vacation. i think he should start off with going to the doctor who universe and meeting the doctor, and then move on to comic book universes

he can drag parvati along and she can get increasingly more exasperated with each ridiculous place he drags her to

#look i am obsessed with ash now having time and space powers and i think he should abuse them #it’s what he deserves #and the thought of ash dragging parvati along on his fangirl vacation spree bring me great joy #also i really really want him to meet the doctor it’s what he deserves #maybe he could find a dnd universe too lol #to make it more Serious he can very real and emotional conversations with all the heroes he looked up to as a kid #giving him advice on how to handle the weight he now struggles with going forward #the ash mistry chronicles #avymiir reads ash mistry #ash mistry #sarwat chadda

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babylonbirdmeat · 2 years

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Expanding on the ice cream cough thing apparently that means we might have mild asthma

We were allegedly supposed to get tested for it a long time ago but the "test" they offered was running around the block.... In the height of humid hot Wisconsin summer and we just refused to do that because yeah that'd kill us

#Maksim Howls #Maybe I should bring that up next time we see the doctor

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beelas-bees · 19 days

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"haha eating sucks so hard" "not fun at all" "wish it could go straight to my stomach" "I'm not anorexic? I like my body" "I'm just so tired of eating" "why am I so weird?" "how do you find eating fun?" "yuck, I'll skip this meal." BEELA BEELA WAKE UP YOURE GONNA DIE FR THIS ISNT NORMAL BEELAAAAA

#sitting and looking back at my life completely gobsmacked #do you realize how many times ive made the 'i wish food could teleport to your stomach' comment........#which doctor do i even bring up this concern with #maybe i should make a ramble tag..

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winter-jay-official · 4 months

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I need. Doctor.

#seriously going to go to my doctor and be like hey sorry ive lied the last 5 years actually im passivly suicidal and maybe should take #an adhd and or autism test #also i keep bringing up my chronic pain and nothings happened. so. can we do smth ???#anyways im so normal #nightjay blogging

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