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pilots of the original evangelion series sexuality headcanons
ah rei. the only characters i confidently see as straight. (i love asurei tho :'))
not gonna explain this it just makes sense
This one is actually hard because it depends on what version u watch. But all together id say bi makes most sense
he's my fav. id ship him with kensuke if i didnt see him as aroace, and i love toji and hikari together :'))
yeah, no surprises here
#i havent seen the rebuilds#so anyone i missed * cough cough#mari * isnt my fault#in the end the sexuality of **most** of these characters isnt relevant#but its still fun to think about lolol#asuka is a lesbian FIGHT ME#evangelion#neon genisis evangelion#headcannons#rei ayanami#asuka langley soryu#asuka#shinji ikari#shinji#toji suzuhara#kaworu nagisa#kaworu#nge#neon genesis
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baka no gimpatsu
#p4#gsa sl au#tohru adachi#marie persona#arttag#boot.tingting#// wrote a wip about this and technically added onto another comic i made way back when#// sorry for watching the golden anime and doing this instead wasnt my fault it had both of them in it#// might even reuse the caption . also means 'gray haired idiot'#// au lore is?¿ mim isnt trying to kill her this time just trying to make her go snork mimimi while they burn themself alive in the meantim
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Sometimes i like to think about Mari and then i remember how she probably blames herself and that’s why she so easily forgave Sunny. Cause like, she was a perfectionist and even though it wasnt her fault and it was the circumstances that created the incident, she probably still falls into that downwards spiral.
She probably thinks stuff like, “Sunny is hurting because im dead. Its not his fault its mine. I died cause i fell. I fell because blocked his way, and he pushed me. He pushed me because he was scared and stressed because i yelled at him. I yelled at him becaude he broke the violin. He broke the violin because i wanted it to be perfect. I pushed him too hard. He pushed me but it was because i pushed him harder. Its my fault i’m dead and its my fault he’s stuck in denial and sadness. Its my fault”
Which of course it isnt true, or at least not that she meant to cause this, she meant no harm, but with the little we know about Mari that’s probably how she sees it. She thinks its all her fault. And i think thats really sad. in fanart we always see her comforting Sunny, but they need to comfort each other not just one of the two. Cause both feel like it’s their fault.
#this is sort of rambly im sorry#i really like mari i have a lot of thoughts about her#omori spoilers#mari omori#sunny omori#omori truth#omori
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Misa amane isnt funny. A sense of humor depends on each person thats why it's the hardest when aurhors write comedy. Look at the guy getting punched by will smith. Not all the jokes will have buyers. Misa is secondly the most favorite character of the author (aka mary sue). Thats why she never dies onscreen, despite she halved her lifespan twice. She gets away w/ her murders in the tv show, in the musicals, etc etc. Shes over sexualized by the anime studio - on demand of tsugumi, because he created her jus' in order for fanservice. She acts childish all the time and its dangerous when you think about the crimes against children. Shes a poser, shes from kyoto but she uses the tokyo accent - that partly is a fault of aya hirano. Ayas voice is really terrible, i prefer the eng dub or the manga itself lol. She can't speak there - you have the mute option always anyways. The manga is much more beautiful - when compared. I hate misa because shes an annoying chick, not that i prefer lxlight. I think L should get misa so my light could be free . i ship him with kiyomi and mikami and yuri altogether. So what? Don't "misas backstory" me. Not everyone has to agree with her just because she saw her parents getting murdered. You know what? Not all the people go thru traumas and go be an idol. Grow up people. This chick is the epitome of mary sue and misogyny. This has nothing to do with lawlight.
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none of my friends listen to me when i talk about malevolent, which is the true tragedy. anyways episode 31 was a thing that happened.
arthur why do you make noises when you wake up.
omg kellin throwback. why the FUCK IS HE HERE.
WHERE IS MY BOY
was the sister always called samantha
we love john in the background trying to wake arthur up
what did we expect from an episode called ‘the nightmare’
ooo are we going to see the butcher again ??? thatd be cool
arthur wdym did you kill your wife. do we get bella lore.
“i cant SEE anything”
oh dear. i could write a full essay on faroe and her role in the development of arthur’s character
graveyards are Not Fun when your wife, your best friend and your child are all dead and 2/3 you had a direct hand in.
mr scratch?? damn okay.
even in dreams, john disapproves of arthurs choices
are we going through all of the trauma this man has. if so, im surprised this episode isnt three times the length.
for antagonists this season we have the butcher, whatever the fuck marie has in her house, larson indirectly and now mr scratch. how fun
i know its still harlan, but harlan-as-john and harlan-as-kellin are so different
we love arthur and all of his self denying internal monologues
the entire episdoe is just arthur’s guilty conscience.
anna stanzyck again? ooooo
AHA FUCK. WE GET BELLA LORE BUT AT WHAT COST. shit. that makes faroes death even worse tbh.
will i relisten to this entire podcast to find more connections?? yes.
i fucking knew that baby would be important.
what do you mean you knew what he looked like. you are blind.
is this some weird form of catharsis?
fucking GOD. literally everyone in this guys life is dead. his parents?? fucking hell.
arthur lester do not make me cry on the 8:47 bus.
:((( dont make me feel sad about kellin again.
AHA ITS THE FUNKY MERCENARY GUY AND HIS LITTLE ACCENT
awwwh they care about each other <3333 they are friends!
if arthur and john get separated again i am going to riot.
there was a poll about this and why arthur and bella were married. ig this is canon
AHA. aromantic headcanon more confirmed by the day.
I CANR LIVE FOR SOMEONE ELSE BUT WHAT ARE YOU DOING RIGHT NOW??? LIVING FOR JOHN???
do we actually know james or did i just forget him
so this is why he feels guilty over bella’s death.
shit shit shit shit shit
god FUCKING damnit harlan why must you hurt us so.
parallels between arthur not knowing about faroe at first when she was born, and then not knowing where she was when she died. i may make a post on this.
okay i want to see how scratch ties into marie.
i hate larsons srupid fucking accent
do i have to make fanart of arthur and faroe at the park now. it feels obligatory.
those were the happiest days of your life and then she died and it was your fault and after that you wanted to kill yourself and oh my god im sobbing
yeah fuck you, scratch.
its so disconcerting that scratch sounds like john
the eldritch figure will in fact, stab you.
i think jts funny that the voices in arthurs head always narrate when arthur gets stabbed. like. i think he may realise that he has been stabbed.
WAIT SHIT I SWEAR IF THIS RELATES TO THE GUY ARTHUR KILLED AND ATE IN THE PITS
aha this is Not Good. Not Good At All.
she is free?? who is she??? wha
OMG BOY!!! :DDD
AHA SHIT FUCK GODDAMN IT THIS CANNOT BE GOOD.
FUCKING HELL. WHAT THE FUCK.
shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit
FUCKING HELL
this is very very bad.
yeah well. mans can never get a break. ever. what did we expect.
is this the song kellin was singing. maybe.
#malevolent spoilers#malevolent#liveblog#if i were less tired i would write an analysis on this episode because it was really fucking cool#arthur lester
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Hero headcanons please!
HERO
{ FARAWAY }
Note: I tried my best, but sorry if it isnt what you expected/wanted. I'm trying to improve for the future!
As always, these are headcanons, meaning they aren't canon and just a small custom detail. If these are proven canon in the future, it wasn't intended. Now please, enjoy.
• HERO's father taught him how to cook when he was 10 - the first thing he had ever made (without assistance) were scrambled eggs.
• The majority of HERO's family have either passed in military action, or is still in the military.
• ^ His father is actually a retired Marine. He stopped working in the army when KEL, his younger brother, was born.
|•| After the 'incident' |•|
• Following the 'canon' response he had, he went into a severe depression, lacking motivation and confidence - he was basically just physically and mentally drained. Similar to what SUNNY resorted to, he would sleep in his bedroom for weeks, only coming out to eat small amounts of food and/or use the bathroom or take a shower. After snapping at KEL, then comforting him and slowly coming back to his regular self, he had left for college, only focussing on studying rather then just staying in his room all day sleeping.
|•| The confession |•| (BONUS)
• When the confession was now being told infront of HERO by SUNNY, he really didn't know what to think. Maybe he's joking? but why would he joke about that? he's just messing around, he's still a kid. but that's his sister. . his mind went completely blank, and he didn't know what to say or do anymore. It was as if time stopped that he realized; SUNNY killed MARI, his girlfriend. SUNNY killed MARI, and the group was torn apart. SUNNY killed MARI, and he was blaming himself. SUNNY killed MARI, and it wasn't his fault. SUNNY killed MARI, but it wasn't intended. . right?
#omori#omori headcanons#omori hero#hero#idk why i just hate the fact that heros real name is henry like
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lowkey trauma dumping so tw for csa / cosca / child exploitation / religion
saw a video on instagram where a girl discussed how she falls into watching porn, feels gross, but is comforted knowing God loves her anyway and will always be there for her even when she falls. All of the comments are conflating her faith with her shame- which is not totally unfounded given that is the experience many people have, but its not the experience everyone has and it isnt fair to put that on them.
My shame regarding porn consumption existed before I considered God in any way. I was exposed to porn at around 3-5 years old, assaulted by another child, and coerced into starring in C/P when I was a little bit older. I was essentially groomed into sex work and continued to do sex work until I was in my 20’s, and had secret revenge porn made of me without my consent. I was sexually abused by a partner.
For me , all of my shame came from the guilt of not being stronger, not knowing better, not saying no more, not fighting back. All of this isnt my fault of course but the guilt existed none the less. I struggled with porn addiction my entire life. I felt inherently impure, internally filthy , disgusting in a way I couldn’t undo.
But my experience with faith so far is that , even as someone who has experienced these things and been “tainted”, someone who has struggled with Lust, someone still loves me no matter what (that someone being God). To me it is reassuring. I dont feel additional shame , I just feel better knowing that someone has my back.
I am also LGBT , and tbh I don’t agree with the teachings of churches that are anti-lgbt; my relationship with Mary and God is more direct. I dont believe that we are inherently bad for the way we Love or for the abuse we have suffered or for the pleasure in our life that we have consented to.
Im not sure entirely where im going with this but i wanted to share my thoughts. Seeing those comments made me feel a bit alone but the world is vast and I know Im not.
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What kind of relationship do you think Ayano and Kano have? Especially considering this shitshow going on with them and Shintaro
answer is here but... >:3
both are very messed up and filled with guilt/feelings of failure over their whole thing from back then. kano is so ashamed he ended up doing the things he did even if under the threat of saeru and ayano is ashamed she even dragged him into it in the first place, only to end up leaving him & seto and kido alone... she feels like such a failure :((
i think ayano would rly try to talk about it, but disregards all of kano's own remorse and just like kido and seto she's like yeah u shouldve said something but its ok we're family and ayano is even more like this bc she feels so RESPONSIBLE for kano's mistakes she's like oh my GOOOOD especially for shit like having to pretend to be her corpse, ayano rly feels like she's singlehandedly put kano through hell. so she's all over him like a worried mom lol
and he IS all messed up but he's like id rather get stabbed again than be honest abt all these feelings of dread bc what am i supposed to say?? that i feel empty and clueless and lost and sad and undeserving even though everything is ok and my sister is back?? in what world do i have the right to feel the way i do after all the mistakes ive made. like who cares i feel undeserving, its not about me. if anything its about kido&seto getting ayano back. its about ayano getting her life back!!
but ayano keeps acting so apologetic and remorseful and it makes kano so sick. bc how can she feel so responsible, it wasn't her. it was clearing eyes. kano is so angry that ayano and also even shintaro&mary keep blaming themselves for things that weren't their fucking fault it was CLEARING and kano's like IM the only one who knew for so long and didnt say anything. if anyone's a fucking asshole its me!!!!
so... i think both kano and ayano are going to each other like i know ur hurting talk to me💖 no im fine. YOURE doing badly. talk to me. NO YOU NO YOU NO YOU and its stupid
and for the whole shintaro stuff. well kano IS SO MAD at him because 1. hes dating his sister and is overprotective over her 2. he is FUCKING UP with his sister making it WORSE 3. HE LIKES HIM *HOLDS HEAD* DESPITE IT ALL HE LIKES HIM SO MUCH💔💔💔
erm. after ayano's breakthrough/kano starting to see shintaro etc etc i think... both kano and shintaro are so terrified of their relationship so ofc they wouldnt tell anyone. which is why itd be 10000 times funnier if theyre caught. idk how that would go but i just know itd be funny. i havent given it much thought yet but i just want it to be a sitcom moment i love secret relationships and characters finding out one by one
erm abt how ayano would react i think shed be surprisingly chill about it?? like she's not mad or not even weirded out she's probably just like hehe THERE IS something to like isnt there shuuya :3 and kano wants to die. maybe she'd be iffy if its very fresh after breakup with shintaro she's like girl ur not ready for a relationship LEAVE MY BROTHER ALONE‼️‼️‼️ but it all depends in what mental context she is at. also if she was like this, kano and shintaro freak out like RELATIONSHIP⁉️ WHO SAID ANYTHING ABT A RELATIONSHIP WERE NOT IN A RELATIONSHIP and its so ridiculous and insane. lol.
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Okay so I wanted to make a blog for an Undertale and omori au so I’ll explain the changes and everything here.
So to start things off instead of Mari being pushed down the stairs and dying she cases sunny up mount ebbot and falls into the underground, she survives the fall but neither sunny or any of his friends know, basil sees everything happen like in cannon and promises to sunny that he won’t say anything.
the main story takes place after the omori fight where sunny loses, instead of jumping off the hospital he decides to go back to mount ebbot, kel, confused and concerned for sunny follows him and confronts him, however sunny falls down the mountain.
Kel, terrified calls Hero, and Aubrey, and explains what had happened, after discussing it they decide to go down to mountain to try and rescue him,
Down in the underground while the three others discuss this sunny wakes up, encounters flowey and is saved by his older sister, Mari had been living in the ruins with toriel for the four years since the incident, she initially woke up chara, who has grown fond of Mari.
Sunny is still dealing with everything that had just happened, his mental health is in shambles, him meeting Mari again has helped him but throughout the story he begins to crumble more and more,
The other three explore the underground after sunny and Mari, through word of mouth they learn that Sunny is alive, and later they even find that Mari is alive too,
Kel isnt in a good mental state right now, he just watched his friend try to die in front of him, in his eyes he not only failed to save him, he could be responsible for it in the first place, having taken him out of his home, he tries to hide these feelings from his friends, he feels like they probably shouldn’t have to deal with him right now,
Aubrey isn’t feeling great either, she’s angrier but rarely at her friends, she doesn’t want to hurt them anymore because she feels like it’s her fault sunny did what he did.
Hero is more held together than the other two, if they’re going to have any chance of helping sunny he has to keep everyone together, he’s still hurt that sunny chose to jump down the mountain, but he really can’t think about that right now
If this gets any traction then I’ll make more, otherwise I’ll just keep this idea in my head from now till the end of forever
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Apollo, what have you done
“I DIDNT DO THIS!- THIS ISNT MY FAULT, I JUST DID WHAT I DID WHEN I FOUND MARY!”
“*you messed up agaaaiinnnn*”
“SHUT UP!-“
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Pspsps talk about kunikidazai vs skk 👁👁🤲 /nf
SUDDENLY I AM BLUESCREENING IN THE GOOD WAY
ok so. kunikidazai is my ship of all time duh we've all known this BUT CAN I JUST SAY. IT IS FAR HEALTHIER THAN SOUKOKU
this is no disrespect to skk shippers at all (i am hiding amongst all of you) but if you take into consideration how Bad the mafia is and how kunikida basically fixed dazai without knowing it this makes sense
kunikida is honest. hes loyal, hes hard working but most of all he has a steel set of morals that he will do anything to uphold and he is very hyperempathetic. ironically dazai is the exact opposite of all these things
chuuya on the other hand has loads of unpacked trauma, hes also loyal but he has a hard time processing his emotions healthily and he also had the worst upbringing out of anyone from the series. hes a great guy, but dazai isnt the Best guy for him, but they make it work!
with kunikidazai, dazai benefits and so does kunikida. for one, dazai learned that theres more to life than suicide and kunikida pushed him to become a better person. also kuni is hot as fuck. dazai loosened up kunikidas ideals (generally speaking he just taught him to be easy on himself when things get rough) and that not everything is his fault. kunikida cant save everyone and dazai is not a monster. it works!
with soukoku chuuya gets mildly irritated by dazai but he loves him for it. theres a special bond theyve formed through being in the mafia together and by being partners and more importantly: struggling with the feeling of humanity. they both know it well which is why they can understand each other so easily. thats one flaw knkdz doesnt have, kunikida has never experienced the feelings dazai has but since hes hyperempathetic he will do absolutely anything to understand how he feels. its a good quality in my eyes
another thing to add since im mentally ill about the song; the like "your beauty never ever scared me" from mary on a cross is EXACTLY both ships but in different ways. it works interchangeably for kunikidazai, dazai never finding kunikidas faults and bloody past frightening and kunikida never thinking any less of dazai for being an ex pm executive. really it just works for soukoku as dazai to chuuya, since arahabaki plays a big part in their bond as partners
overall im a sucker for kunikidazai. their dynamic is insane and i cannot think of anything more perfect than them /lh
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Who do you want to pop off about? Like, the obvious answer is Hanma, but that’s too easy no…. How about… don’t get me started on…. Stein!
(Yeah, i want you to go off about him)
okay okaayokayokaoykayokkay STEIN
it's been a while, i'm long overdue for a rewatch and i'm sad to say i didn't get through the whole manga bc i had commitment issues as a kid but STEIN And just a reminder that you asked for a disaster idiot named virtue to ramble aimlessly about a beloved character
god we LOVE a chaotic, eccentric teacher type and stein gets fuckking EXTRA CREDIT for the (sparkles) dark impulses (sparkles) as the trendy kids say these days.
He's like,,,equal parts sadistic and caring even though it may or may not come naturally to him and i love that. like consciously trying t make up for a core fault is,,,pretty hot,,,But even hotter is,,,not having that instinct but understanding people so well that he can cooperate with like anyone. god i ,,, love that ,,,, i want to be half as cool as him ,,, we have a few similar failings but but he turns out so delightfully goofy, badass, and yummy over all. and speaking of understanding and contROLL stein is so fucking GOOD at controlling soul wavelengths that he can just fuckin use them as weapons like,,,is that not sexy? like oh in this like very partner oriented world, I need no one,,,aomvorinab OKAY SIR (sir guy? id call him sir oah my goD)
My literal only issues is that stein and medusa could have been the seXIEST POWER COUPLE??? liek ye i know,,, shes a cunt who did terrible things to crona but WHO AM I TO ACT LIKE THERE ISNT OBVIOUS TENSION WHEN THEY'RE IN THE SAME FRAME WAY MORE THAN THERE EEVER WAS WITH MARIE OKAY also marie is a boring character
um i also wanna see him succumb to madness and be the terrifying sadistic dirty fighter he was the way spirit acknowledges him to have been once oairj;oaernb hot powerful ppl and their lack of practice bc no one can compete,,,the sexiest tragedy,,,WAIT WAIT ALSO WHAT HE DID TO BLACKSTAR IN THE EXAM EXPISODE AHAHHAAH
okayoayokay also tho all of THAT aside thIS MOTHERFUCKER IS SO CUTE AND GOOFY AND CLUMSY LIKE OKAY KING FALL O F F THAT CHAIR, MAKE THE SILLIEST FACES
okay im not good at organization but like
STEIN IN GLASSES
STEIN NOT IN GLASSES
STEIN'S VOICE
STEIN IN FORMAL WEAR
STEIN IN REGULAR CLOTHES
STEIN WITH MEDUSA
STEIN WITH A SMOKE
STEIN GOING MAD
STEIN WITH HIS DUMB LITTLE :3 FACE
STEIN
S T E I N
"I WANT YOU TO PROMISE NOT TO DIE"
i c o n i c sums him up real well
so tl;dr
stein is a sadistic hulking oaf who can end my life in 5 minutes and i'd apologize for wasting his time and strength
thanks for coming to my ted talk; no one saw this,,,its not that deep just me screaming about some of the shit i love abt him
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characters for the ask game you say 👀- soren, gerry, kevin and marisol if you wish?
YESSSSSS
SOREN BALTIMORE
how i feel about him: I LOVE HIM SOOOO MUCH HES LIKE . hes my second fav chara but hes THIS close to being tied with jedidiah and if u cant tell from like . everything about my acc thats HIGH praise
all the people i ship w him: sydney and marie-ann altho i usually see the latter as being sort of unlabeled and fluctuating between platonic and romantic (: i can be enticed into romantic sonnel from time to time but i usually prefer them to be queerplatonic which leads us to .....
fav platonic dynamic: QUEERPLATONIC SONNEL SOLOS UR FAV
my unpopular opinion: idk if i haaave one . this isnt like DISCOURSEY but its that i think sydsoren is good and cute and more people should like it
one thing i wish had happened: MAKE HIM INTERACT MORE WITH MARIE-ANN NOW. NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! also rowan too bc i think that would be an interesting parallel
GERRY KEAY
how i feel about him: surprisingly for a transmasc in the tma fandom ..... ive never been a huge gerry girlie . hes cool and all but he confused me at the start bc i kept mixing Gerard up with Jared bc my audio processing issues and americanness combined to destroy me so i think that made it tricky for me to get into him . hes cool tho
all the people i ship w him: nobody strongly . if i see cute ship fanart im like aw! thats nice and then i move on
fav platonic dynamic: queerplatonic jongerry solos ur fav
unpopular opinion: honestly just that i dont care about him that much ..... sorry gerry fans . hes cool and i like his design but im just like . hes there
one thing i wish had happened: YO I JUST HAD A REALIZATION . GERRY KEAY AND OLIVER BANKS WOULD BE A COOL DYNAMIC . idk if theyve ever interacted in the show but if they havent they should
KEVIN DESERT BLUFFS
how i feel about him: OH YOU ALREADY FUCKING KNOW IM INSANE CRAZY ABOUT HIM OH MY GOD . hes one of my favorite characters of all time honestly ive been obsessed with him since 2019 wtnvs been my special interest for years and hes a HUGE focal point of it . i love him so much <3333 evil little skrunkly
all the people i ship him with: carlos mainly but charlevin is cute too . im a kevlos girlie at heart but if charlevin is written well i can get into it too especially if its radioscientology . i made this silly little oc that dated him in 2019 and im sure he was very badly written but i have a soft spot for them so ill include them . maybe ill rewrite them with the gf someday
fav platonic dynamic; i LOOOOOOVE his dynamic with vanessa and i love his dynamic with lauren too . gay/lesbian solidarity vs gay/lesbian antagonism
unpopular opinion: OH I HAVE SO MANY . a: kevlos is good actually and i like it more than charlevin i dont Dislike charlevin but im just more interested in kevlos as a dynamic. b: i have literally no interest in arcs that make kevin all sweet and non-bloody and shy its so boring let him be fucked up AND heal from his trauma. c: he didnt abuse or gaslight carlos in taking off he was a shitty friend but theres far FAR more evidence to suggest that it was simply the fault of him not being very good at social interaction and having severely unhealthy behaviors due to his trauma that he needs to work on before him and carlos can be in a healthy relationship than there is for him actually trying to manipulate carlos in some way
one thing i wish happened: i wish we saw more of kevin and carlos's relationship before they left . the shit in uhhhhh the buying of lot 37 drove me INSANE . in the goddamn MEMBRANE . and i wouldve loved to see some in the show ): ..... but i doubt it
MARISOL YUCHENGCO
how i feel about her: I LOVE HER SO MUCH .... shes so cute <3 underrated honestly make more marisol content now!!! NOW!!!!!!!!!! she gives me nice fuzzy feelings
all the people i ship with her: OMG IVE GOTTA CHECK MY FUCKING . i made a ship chart for chnt which is embarrassing but useful bc i have so many goddamn ships in htat fucking camp. i like her with salem OBVI but im also fond of her with yvonne and rowan and fennel on occasion (:
fav platonic dynamic: again probably sydney (: i also think her and joshua would be an interesting dynamic oddly ?? idk what that interaction would Be but i think itd be interesting to play out
unpopular opinion: she would be liked way better by the fanbase at large if her and salem were both guys and nobody really seems to want to admit that
one thing that i wish happened: just more of her honestly (: and more of her relationship with salem . theyre CUTE i want more of my girlies .....
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The Three Wives of Alistaire the 64th
From left to right are the 3 Empress consorts of Alistaire the 64th, Empress Celia, Empress Mary Louisa Elizabeth, and Empress Otehime. Each of these paintings were to commemorate their coronations.
…Out of the three wives of the Emperor there isnt one that you can say lived a life of fulfillment or a successful marriage, a fault that lies undeniable fully in the Emperor. As you know my dear princess, I served both your mother and step mother and was an intimate friends of both in their short tenures. Your mother, the Empress Celia was not particularly kind, but she was beautiful and intelligent. I never knew a woman like her, and I know I will never meet someone as dignified as she. On a particular New Years, the year that you were born, the Empress decided to hand deliver gifts to the children from the town where she grew up in. She spent all day standing and thanking the people of the town for being kind to her and the Emperor. It was uncharacteristic on her part I must admit however, it was kind hearted. Anyone could attest that the poor woman didn’t even sit down, she stood outside in 10 degree weather giving the children warm clothes and toys.
A few years later came your step mother. She was so beautiful and warm. I much enjoyed her tender embrace and her soft kisses. There was not a woman as innocent as she but for all she knew she loved your father. On his part he loved her money and the prestige that came from her family. She’d cry about missing him and how he wouldn’t visit her. Any man or woman throughout the isles would be in love with a beauty as she but your father never did. She followed every instruction given to her with care, the poor girl didn’t even have a brain of her own. When Helena was born the Empress May Loubeth begged your father to come, to see his daughter, but he wouldn’t. When she died he put on the worse show of grief, proclaiming Helena as his darling child.
In the following years women came and went, none wanting to be courted by him. Every woman in high society knew that if they were to allow him a fraction of their heart he’d squeeze them dry. In the end it became the responsibility of Otehime to pick up the pieces. Not to incriminate your step mother, but it is obvious her heart lies with another. Since her coronation the only thing she has willing done is present him and his family honors. There are whispers of what happens between the two but I say nothing. Your father is obsessive in his love for her, and she is not even faintly attracted to him. On their wedding day what you do not know is that she cried and screamed and hid from him sobbing with her pillow in her chemise. Eventually due to a letter from her brother she gave in. With the birth of your brother it hasn’t gotten any better. He spoils her and in turn she spoils her lover.
For a man who was given permission thrice to pick a wife you would think that he’d pick someone who he loved and who loved him but unfortunately a functioning marriage isn’t something he cares for. Not a single one of his wives are treated with the dignity and respect they deserved…
-An excerpt from a letter from Lady Therese Raphaelle, former lady in waiting to Empress Celia and Empress Marie Louisa Elizabeth and current Lady in Waiting to Princess Cordelia Mercedes, to said princess about the 3 wives of Alistaire the 65th
#Celia Aillenette#Mary Louisa Elizabeth Aillenette#Otehime Aillenette-Iitoyo#Empress consort of Idealps#Queen Consort of Idealps#idealpian royal family#art#idealps
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Madre Hobuna
Being a 2000s kid that had a semi decent grasp on english and a deep need to view all things non suitable for my age demographic. I found myself sinking quickly inside all things horror or supernatural.
From small, passion driven blogspots to shock sites, my internet journey landed me in places that still carry some of my major inspirations and influences for my art.
Who doesn’t remember horribly photoshop cryptids and aliens from ye olden days? I certainly do and I strive my humanoid contraptions to resemble that uncanny, almost random aesthetic of early internets photoshop.
One of those inspirations was the legend behind the 9MOTHER9HORSE9EYES9 reddit creepypasta series.
At the beginning I thought of it as a homage to the Silent Hill series, like an extreme AU of the first games from its heavy womb symbolism. The interfaces scream that is a womb-mimic like the pods avatars were stored in the J.Camerons franchise. And the titular creature, the Mother with the Horse eyes only strengthens my personal interpretation of the symbolism of this series.
A deity like being that interferes with the on goings of the world and ripping and sewing the storyline together. You can argue is a successful version of The God of Furies , a being of true neutral values and ideals who strungs the pendulum of the world on its own rythm, without being itself involved in the happenings it orchestrates.
But heres the conundrum: Horses arent ussualy a motherly symbolism. In ancient Greece and Rome horses were a symbol of power and glory: values that are ussualy given musculine character. In medieval times horses were seen as a symbol of strength and noble origins: a healthy horse was expensive both to aquire and keep.
Furthermore horses arent that good as mothers in the animal kingdom go, although thats also a human fault (this is a half assed idea but from some minor research they seem to have a semi better relationship than bovines do to their calfs).
Given these thoughts, the idea of a horse to be given the title of Madre(mother in spanish) is an oxymoron, but it also makes a lot of sense. In my view, Madre Hobuna isnt a stereotypical mother deity. She isnt a Madonna nor a Maria (orthodox name of Holy Mary). She is more of a guide than a voice of reason or comfort.
And thats why i depict her as such. I dont view her as a freudian interpretation of the mother i wished to see nor as a stand in for a feminine deity.
She is her own person and she marches alone like a abandoned war horse in the sea storm that we call life, and thats why she is in my mind so many years (her creation is roughly at 2020? )
#new artblr#artwork#art essay#oc#please bear with me#i am not an expert#just googled stuff#art interpretation
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#my art#naruto#comics#yamato#yamato tenzo#maito gai#might guy#kakashi#anko mitarashi#genma shiranui#image desc in alt text#iruka umino kurenai yūhi and asuma sarutobi are all here also but. i dont wanna clutter their character tags#bc theyre only in the bg of a shot#i look at the image of yamato with the flowers and the color pallet reminds me embarassingly of all the like. mother mary sacred heart#iconography that one might find in CCD. visually theres nothing similar like mary doesnt radiate flowers or wear a NINJA MILITARY UNIFORM#but the corner of my eye catches me off guard#anyway#this isnt intended as romantic but it is certainly intimate and i shant fault a soul for ship-tagging it#besides. coupled with my platonic intimacy intentions...this is an undeniably queerly-oriented comic bc of the way it addresses skin hunger#speaking to a lack of experience in touching and handling others with gentle and affectionate hands how soothing it is to just#have a friend lie on you or let u play w/ their hair...#now in the real world w/ non cis or not het folks a lot of this touch starvation is because we internalize ideas about our mere presence#being something poisonous or toxic in some way—a danger or a rudeness that we have to keep people from interacting with#but in this Naruto Situation i suppose it must be less that Yamato was told his being is bad. and more that his being simply isnt#meant for human things like touch and moments of gentleness which serve no utility except for friendship and love...#tho at his age and lifestage in this comic he knows thats untrue. hes still cautious on allowing himself to indulge in it#the only part of my highschool life that made it survivable was this small group of other trans friends (tho not all of us knew we were)#and wed hang out in the corners of hallways on breaks and curl up and lay on each other and play with each others hands and hair and doodle#and share food and laugh and it was just. very simple and small and incredibly important to me#anyway. i wanted to give yamato some of that. so i am giving yamato some of that. mwah mwah
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