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it's been said before and i'm sure said better than i can phrase it. but really, really - if you like making "i'm going to kill myself" jokes, please try switching to being ironically conceited instead.
anytime something goes wrong, say things like "ah well at least i'm beautiful and charming and everyone loves me." when you forget something, try "my big huge brain is so smart and thinking about too many other very big wizardly thoughts you wouldn't even understand." when you're frustrated by one of your symptoms, start talking like you're in My Immortal. "Life has come for me but my eyes are beautiful pools of gorgeous fire and my hair is amazing. I stuck my middle finger up at life and told it to fuck off and it did."
just... try it for a month or two. try saying the most absurdly self-congratulatory shit you can think of.
i know it's tempting to make suicide or self-harm jokes. and for me at least, a decade ago (!) when someone suggested i stop making those kinds of jokes, i was kind of at a loss for what to replace them with. i wanted to make light of these moments, but genuinely (at the time) my first thought really was suicidal ideation. there was a part of me that even felt like ... i was kind of "making light" of that voice. that if i could say i want to die lol, it would help take the sting out of that genuine (albeit passive) desire. like i could turn my illness into a joke.
when i started complimenting myself instead, it felt awkward and stupid. it felt really, really ironic. what i was actually saying was nobody would ever think this stuff about me, that's what makes it so fucking funny.
but. the effect was immediate. first thing i noticed was the people around me. when i dropped a glass and said ah my skin is too beautiful and sleek the glass has swooned and broken for me, other people were suddenly overjoyed to jump in with the joke. rather than making an awkward moment, we'd both start cracking up. ah princess sleek hands, i've heard of you.
i was 19. i hadn't noticed i'd been making others tense when i said i want it all to end. i know now that it's incredibly hard to know how to walk that moment - do you talk to them about your concern? do you potentially make them uncomfortable by asking if they're okay? do you ignore the situation? do you help them pick up the glass, or do they need to do it by themselves? are they genuinely made suicidal over this small moment? and most importantly, how do you - without professional training or supplies - actually help?
most people want to help you pick up the glass in your life, they just have no fucking idea how to do it. they don't want to make anything worse. they don't want to make assumptions about you. they love you, they're scared for you - and being scared makes people kind of freeze up. it's not because they don't love you. it's because they do.
now when something bad happens, my first thought is how can i make a stupid joke about this. it isn't my brain saying you're a dumb fucking bitch. i spend more time laughing. i spend more time being gentle with myself. i spend more time feeling good.
and the thing is - what's kind of funny - is that you'd be surprised by how many people agree with you. the first time i said i'm too pretty to understand that, someone else said to be fair you're the prettiest person in this room. i promise - you really don't know how kindly your friends see you. but they love you for a reason. they sort of reverse-velveteen-rabbit you. your weird and ugly spots fade away and you just become... the love they want to give you.
go love yourself ironically. the worst thing that happens is that you end up tricking your reflection into actually loving you.
#something something toxic relationships notwithstanding#(re: the friends stuff)#most people love you. automatically. for being alive. like people are just MADE that way.#and the reason kms jokes don't always land is bc people fucking love you and are like - ahhh how do i help#let them help you!!!!!!
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you have to pretend to be a wizard sometimes, for your health. the obvious method is d&d, but you can also open the dishwasher on cold mornings and raise your arms dramatically as you're enveloped in the steam, or you can find a really good stick to walk around in the woods with, or you can run a bizarrely dedicated rp blog on tumblr. but it's an important component of human well being to occasionally pretend to be a wizard.
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Oh dear… (cw: needle and syringe)
(Fan Art!)
I think Eddie is afraid of needles and dreads doing his T-shot each week. It’s not that he doesn’t want the T, but he’d prefer it didn’t come from a nasty poke every Monday. Thank the stars Frank always remembers. Now that I’m thinking about it, Eddie would genuinely forget sometimes if he’d done it. Poor sap.
If it’s not obvious, this is based purely on my experience with T-shots 😅 it might be silly, but it’s a comforting thought to me that Eddie might share my struggle haha. I’m very blessed to have people in my life willing to help me 🩷
#welcome home fanwork#tw needle#tw syringe#transmasc experience#eddie dear#frank frankly#not my character#I hope clown is okay with drawings like this#I know Eddie is confirmed gay but there’s nothing saying he’s trans#doesn’t mean he’s automatically cis but I want to respect the canon#definitely over thinking it#eddie dear x frank frankly#eddie x frank#Eddie dear trans#frank frankly non binary#tw dysphoria#tw fear of needles#attempt at background#welcome home
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fish for a commission
#my art#pixel#LOL when i was writing the caption i automatically pressed#comma at the end like its a tab#i love drawing fish its very soothing#i love how all fish look shocked O^O faces
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robotnik family bonding
#im. so tired#throw him like footbal and whatnot. ok goodnite#fern's sketchbook#sth#shadow the hedgehog#baby shadow#maria robotnik#gerald robotnik#tumblr automatically fills in my gerald tag with gerald robotnik big naturals btw
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I would just like to say how hard it hits me in the chest to see Charlie masking every time she's onscreen the day before the fight (including what we see on Vox's spy screens of course), except when no one is with her but Vaggie. Even during her emotional speech she tries so damn hard to keep that confidence up and smile on. But we do see her stop masking twice, when the only person watching her is Vaggie.
First:
No one's really paying attention to her, and she's not smiling; she's worried. When Vaggie approaches her, she doesn't put on a happy face. She talks about her mom with the same smile as in the first episode (during a very emotionally vulnerable moment with Vaggie, might I add). It's not happy or confident. It's nostalgic, wistful, and sad, because her mom's absence is something very personal and painful for her. When Vaggie asks if they're ready, Charlie doesn't instantly start to smile or answer with confidence even though she usually would (even within that short beat of time), because her mask is off. She's not confident or optimistic. She's scared. She's not ready.
Then Pentious comes out and she's all smiles again! The mask comes back on when someone other than Vaggie is there.
Second:
Of course, one of our favorite scenes. Charlie's alone when she breaks down, but when Vaggie shows up, she keeps the mask off. She admits how scared she is. When she does smile, it's not the big smile she's been throwing on throughout the day, and it's not strained either. It's soft, gentle, and real. She's not masking. Vaggie is genuinely making her feel better when she's finally letting herself fall apart, just by being there and reminding her that no matter what happens, she's already accomplished so much, and she's so loved.
Charlie is under a lot of stress and pressure. She's scared. She's not as optimistic as she's making herself out to be. She's giving everything she's got out there being a strong, confident, inspirational leader and friend in front of everyone, and it's only with Vaggie that she lets it go. She doesn't have to try to be strong. She doesn't pretend. She lets down her guard, because for her, Vaggie is that one infinitely special person who gets to see every part of her; the one person she can always be her honest self with.
There were plenty of times in other episodes when Charlie didn't mask her negative emotions around people, but that was when she didn't have anyone looking to her as a leader. She's running on adrenaline and the weight of people's expectations as Extermination Day gets closer, and she can't let the mask she's put on slip in public. She has to seem like she's totally ready for what's coming. But Vaggie is different.
The amount of trust and love Charlie has for her is staggering. She's under an insane amount of stress and pressure, and having Vaggie by her side is probably the only thing keeping her from completely falling to pieces. Seeing a relationship so full of deep trust and love is absolutely beautiful. <3
#hazbin hotel#chaggie#charlie morningstar#vaggie#no i am not saying her usual attitude is always a mask#just that when you're known to be a certain kind of person it becomes an automatic mask sometimes#and from these two moments and the situation as a whole it looks like that's what was happening here#she's probably spent the last month trying increasingly hard to keep up a face of confidence and fearlessness#except with the one person who's by her side and not following her#they are PARTNERS and that word means so much
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ok this was super cute
#sonic prime#sonic prime spoilers#sonic the hedgehog#shadow the hedgehog#carto speaks#this was so annoying to clip because netflix just automatically stopped any kind of screen recorder i used#also if u seen me upload this like 3 times no u didnt <3#hall of fame
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It was the cutest dream I’ve ever had.
Wally, except baby size, and he hung out with me all day
andthentheworldsortastartedfallingapartbutthatsok
#welcome home art#wally darling#welcome home wally#wally#welcome home home#welcome home au#creepy#he was just adorable#He felt like holding a small child#And I’d pick him up under the arms#And he’d get comfortable on my shoulder and tell me about how he misses his neighborhood#He was so sad#that’s the only part of the dream I’d change#He talked just like he does.. except he was like.. younger sounding?#And I wasn’t aware in the beginning that he was alive#But throughout the day he like.. got more and more active#And I was a little bit nervous so I left him on the counter#And then he yelled (yelled being slightly louder then normal) and I just automatically walked back and cradled him#Dream me felt the same as real me fr#Best dream everrrr
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as a woman who grew up with an emotionally abusive mother constantly telling me I needed to wear more makeup/more revealing clothing/date (boys) more/go out to "normal" parties more, I despise "she should be at the club"
god forbid some people- especially young women, who already have to deal with a thousand different behavioral standards from a thousand different directions -not have the same dreams and desires for their lives as you do for yours
fucking hell. the correct response to "women should stay at home and have kids and be submissive wives" prescriptivism was not MORE PRESCRIPTIVISM
(I also just saw a poll asking if people partied as teenagers, and OP responded that the answers were "killing them" because No was winning. like? why is everyone so personally invested in other people having a very specific kind of fun?)
#memes#s t o p telling women what to do#being the partying type does not automatically equal being a Free Independent Woman and vice versa#guess what? I'm a 30-year-old lesbian with no kids (yet) and a career and I have NEVER liked clubbing.#I didn't like it when I was 19 or 21 or 25 and I still don't like it now#(I do love my mother; we have a complicated relationship. but the fact is that she did some things fitting the definition of emotional abus
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young justice has taken over my brain and theyre all i can draw lately <3 also i highly recommend clicking to view the middle 2 bc tumblr cropped then bad in the format </3
#young justice#young just us#core four#cassie sandsmark#conner kent#kon el#bart allen#tim drake#cissie king jones#do i tag their vigilante names too idk. i am going with no <3#dc#soop art#bc of the bit in yj book 2 where conner and cassie take cissie to the mall for a ‘normal girl environment’#i have decided conner is one of the girls#like they decide to take a girls day and hes always automatically invited#also bart is doing the fuckboy thing bc of conner. he picks up mannerisms too easily is what ive decided#its just a habit now <3 drawing of all of yj doing it for a photo as a joke to come
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once again i am crawling out of my den to tell you all that if someone says “women” on a post, and your thoughts automatically jump to “they must be excluding trans women” you do not think trans women are women.
like just saying, your default of women clearly does not include trans women. otherwise you wouldn’t get so tilted if someone says ‘women’ and not ‘women and trans women’. you are acting like trans women are a subset of actual women and it’s disgusting.
and if you wanna cry terf psy-op or whatever, let me be very frank when i say that you need to grow up. its not people’s responsibility to have a huge disclaimer on every post to pander to your lack of critical thought.
#transphobia#trans women are women#like there are psy-ops on this site#but the word women is not the dogwhistle you think it is#the same goes for the word men#if you read men in a post and automatically assume they mean trans women#you aren’t the ally you think you are#you are perpetuating transphobia
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critter yuri strikes again, I like to think they're both a little stupid
#catfeine and dogpressed created by eggritos!#dogpressed falling first but automatically assuming nobody-especially not catfeine- would ever like her back so she doesn't act on it#catfeine genuinely doesn't register what the feeling really is for a while 💀#she'll have her italicized “oh” moment later give her a second shes buffering#they get it worked out eventually it just takes them a painfully long time#there is no girlboss in this relationship only girlfail#smiling critters au#poppy playtime chapter 3#poppy playtime#smiling critters#smiling critters fanart#poppy playtime fanart#catfeine#dogpressed
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people on tiktok: *arguing over whether or not a kid was disrespectful to their parent in a video*
me: *wondering why the fuck the parent recorded this and uploaded it to the internet in the first place*
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AU where the first time Zuko fights Aang on the ship when the Avatar's escaping, Aang accidentally energy bends Zuko.
Zuko is no longer a Fire Bender.
Zuko is now an Air Bender.
Zuko is also Freaking The Fuck Out, and so is Aang.
"Change it back, change it back!"
"I don't know how! I don't know what I did!"
"Then learn! Fix this!"
Meanwhile, Iroh is internally screaming because yeah, this is a death sentence for his nephew.
Sokka and Katara are just. Hanging out. Staring at each other and then the crew.
Everyone's confused. The crew just...slowly edging away to get back to steering the ship and laze around and stuff.
Katara knows it's a weird Avatar thing Aang did.
Sokka has now formulated a conspiracy theory that Zuko was only pretending to bend Fire the entire time.
#ATLA#ATLA AU#story prompt#zuko#aang#katara#sokka#uncle iroh#poor iroh man what the fuck#ur brother attacked ur nephew and ur just trying to keep the kid alive#and some rando air bender avatar grants him the kind of bending thats an automatic death sentence#zuko hears what sokka's conspiracy theory is#and is like ya know what#that's actually a pretty good idea hold on im gonna learn how to do that
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EVERYONE VOTE SONIC FOR ME ON THIS MONTHS SONIC CHANNEL ART POLL PLEASEEEE FOR THE LOVE OF GODDDD
#ROUGE AND INFINITE ALREADY APPEARED IN SONIC CHANNEL ART THIS YEAR#AND SONIC IS MY FAVORITE LITTLE GUY AND I WANNA SEE HIM IN A CUTE OUTFIT#PLUS KNUCKLES IS THE ALREADY CHOSEN CHARACTER AND I WANNA SEE THEM TOGETHER#PLEASE#hes winning right now at the time im typing this. thank god#hes only 5 percent ahead of rouge but considering its a 3 way poll this time. the votes are divided more#so a 5 percent difference isnt as scary. since a vote against sonic isnt automatically a vote for rouge#and infinite is way further behind#thankfully for most of the polls involving characters who have already appeared in sonic channel art this year#people have been good about choosing the one that hasnt gotten to be in any art yet. like omega beat shadow which was kinda shocking#so sonic definitely has a chance
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Fun fact for the day, that u may or may not already know,
#who i am kidding everyone who tries to imitate lucius sounds unwell automatically#like deuce in class#if u guys may not already know too; it was deuce practicing animal linguistic sentence; it is explain in another video from this account to#twst#twisted wonderland#trey clover#jade leech#twst lucius#fanart#Youtube#but maybe trey-san is just that bad at meowing in general
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