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last night i was wondering why i was so sore and exhausted and my temp read 99.2 and i didnt think anything of it and. my throat hurt to swallow and still does and my nose tickles and im sniffly but in a dry way
i think im definitely sick. (and a little stupid) i didnt realize all these things added up until now LOL. um who wants to take care of me
#AHHH#text#this is kind of ironic#fuck you mean i find out im allergic to something#then get a cold#huh. huh!!!#and i never get sick. like seriously i havent been in years. huh!!!#karma. im being karma-ed#AHHHHHHH!!!!!#i feel cute but i would feel cuter if someone is fawning and taking care of me#sorry for all the livetweeting rn i have no idea???? whats going on????
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idrk how to request— BUT WHAT ABT READER AS HIS SPARRING PARTNER ?? above average strength but obv he would win though he ended up hurting u, what do u think would he do? LIKE DOES HE DISREGARD THE FACT THAT THEY'RE IN PHYSICAL ED AND JUST CARRY HER AND THEN WHOO—
Summary: Karma × Reader getting hurt while sparring// fluff 🎀// I luv him pls sorry this took so long it deleted 😭😭
❝ sect. 01 pre fight ❞
— There weren’t many reasons you got paired up with Karma in to begin with,
One: you begged Karasuma- (he said no)
Two: Korosensei pulled strings for you, only because you're his favorite couple. (You’re literally the only official couple in class so he doesn’t have many options to choose from but still.)
You were so sick of Karma going easy on you. You're just as capable as anyone else in class, sure you came into eclass with zero fighting experience but you've been progressing over time. Even then, he didn’t budge on his stance on not wanting to throw hits the times you were paired up.
Karma wasn't one to underestimate people, anyone who wanted a good fight could get one- he'll even offer them a head start but you're a different story.
He wouldn’t lay a finger on you even for class, wouldn't that make him a shitty boyfriend?
Anytime you spare he guides your hand, takes your hits and high-fives you if you do it right, he does anything but retaliate.
So much so Karasuma refuses to pair you up together because the most Karma will do is dodge.
Luckily today Korosensei managed to convince him.
You spend half the class time begging Karma to just throw a jab swearing up and down you could take it.
"You nearly broke Nagisas nose but you can't hit me once? I'm asking you it's fine!"
"That's different, that's Nagisa, you're you."
he dodges as you swing your anti-koro knife
"So what?! Are you saying Nagisa can take it but I can't?"
"[Name] you know that's not what I'm saying. I just mean I can cope with giving Nagisa a nose bleed, I don't want to hurt you."
you swing again, this time getting the side of his torso
Karma grabs your fist and yanks you towards himself
“Got you.” He sticks his tongue out
"Im not saying you have to go ballistic— I'm just saying you can put up more of a fight."
"Alright fine, but if you feel like I’m being too rough tell me to stop.”
“Deal!”
❝ sect. 02 aftermath❞
— You should've kept your end of the deal but you didn't say anything cause he’d feel bad. The pain all over your leg and thigh was killing you.
He hadn’t even hit you — he kept tripping you over and over again, in his mind it was pretty harmless but enough of a jab to keep you happy except it wasn’t harmless you kept biting your tongue every time you fell on a rock and it burned even harder than the last time.
He didn't notice until you struggled to stand up and he saw blood trickling down your leg, he crouched down to where you were at in an instant.
"[Name]..! Why didn’t you say anything— , are you okay?"
"I didn't want you to regret sparring me! It's fine it's not bad just a little blood, plus I got you a few times too.”
"I’m so stupid. Sorry [Name], can you stand?”
Your leg was fine it was more of a big scrape that worsened each time you fell on something sharp and didn’t tell him, disinfecting it and wrapping it up would fix it.
He pulls you up from your hand, "I'm pretty sure Korosensei has the shed packed with medical supplies let's go there."
Karma’s willing to carry you on his back if you want him to.
❝ sect. 03 at the shed❞
— He has you sit on a stool inside the shed while he looks for bandages, "Towels... paper... Korosensei's weird stash of Magazines... where the hell are the bandage wraps?!"
You point behind him "Karma isn't that a first aid kit?"
"Oh yeah- good job [name]! Wait let me take a picture of his stash to blackmail him with first"
(He has his priorities straight)
He quickly takes a picture of Korosensei's pile of Magazines and returns to the issue at hand. He gently cleans your wounds and wraps them, something he's done plenty of times for himself, not much of a difference.
You swing your other leg, "this is kinda weird… I'm usually the one doing this for you."
He smiles for a moment "I thought the same thing!"
Once you’re leg is all wrapped up he asks you to stand up to see how everything felt.
“Thought of how I can make it up to you yet?”
"It’s not a big thing! Plus this is the first time I've gotten injured in a fight so I feel pretty cool.."
"Pffft yeah?, you look cool too— imagine the crazy stories you can make up when people ask how you got that."
"Im gonna tell people I survived a lion attack."
"Sounds good, I'll tell people I saw it go down so it's more credible."
With one hand still on your bandages he kisses you and for a moment you forget where you’re supposed to be, he pulls back and laughs for a second.
“Ditching class to kiss a guy [name]? Wouldn’t expect that from you.”
“We’re not ditching- and you initiated it, let’s go before Korosensei finds us and lectures us again.” You shivered at the thought.
When you come back to class Korosensei was frantically looking for you.
“Karasuma told me he looked away for a second and you too were gone! I looked everywhere- where were you?!"
Funnily enough Korosensei looked everywhere except the shed he was so worried he forgot to check the area yet flew internationally 10 times.
"We went to look in the shed for medical supplies."
"The shed of course! Why didn't I think of that... anyway I'm glad you're alright, what happened to your leg [Name]?"
"A lion... it's alright I took care of it."
"A lion..?"
"Yeah- you should've seen her teach, she won a fist-fight with a huge lion, all by herself."
Korosensei’s face flashes green “full points!”
He didn’t actually believe that but from the look on his face he got the hint Karma was the one who took care of your injury and that’s all that mattered to him.
a/n sorry if this is bad😭, tell me if there’s any spelling mistakes pls !! And sorry for the late post :)
#ansatsu kyoushitsu#karma x reader#assassination classroom x reader#karma akabane x reader#akabane karma x reader#assassination classroom#karma akabane#reader x karma
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IM BACK.
Rhonda is put to a stop. The movement causes everyone to trip and wobble. Take a look at John Dory and his reaction; seems un-phased at first, right? And then when he trips a bit, he looks around like he’s hoping nobody saw that and stands up again with a serious look on his face.
It’s like he wants to appear strong and unmoving for his brothers, and not show weakness. Especially since an argument is going on right now too. He’s the oldest, and I agree with the fanfics I’ve read that, because of that, he has this mentality to be perfect and not have any weaknesses.
I really like this scene because the two oldest brothers look at each other in a guilty way. Like “crap. We f-ed up.” Yeah, ya did (Mostly you, JOHNNY). Now they worried for their lil bro. Ahem as they should be.
JD thinks that they wrote a song without him. You can interpret this however you want, but jeez.. DO YOU SEE THE BETRAYAL ON HIS FACE WHEN HE LOOKS AT THEM? It’s kind of sad. I believe he thought when Branch was talking about working on the music with others, he meant their brothers, and man that would hurt.
Being left out sucks, especially with your own family. John Dory got a lot of backlash in this movie, and I feel bad, but honestly I can’t help but say it was some karma for him leaving his brothers when he was stressed tf out.
ALRIGHT. I have more, but my boredom is taking me elsewhere, Imma go watch Fusion or maybe rewatch Band Together again.. WELL WE’LL SEE. BYYYYYYYYYEEE
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Hey did you guys know that the bsd s5 opening and ending are from akutagawa and atsushis persoectives
Kiseki [ED]
I’ve realized, since I met you
That I’m this afraid of losing you
When I stop, you know, I can still hear
The reason why I am who I am
I’m not confident enough to be proud of it, but…
If you believe in me, I can believe in me too
Sparkling and flashing, the world keeps on turning
In the midst of it, in this place, what can we do?
The world we live in, we’ll protect it
With our little hands
So much so that I feel like I’ve been dreaming
The things you gave me
They’re all connected, overlapping and overflowing
Everything is a trail we’ve walked
Your warmth over somebody else’s voice
As far as my voice can reach, this is my world
I just want to tell you this
Thank you for finding me
Sparkling and flashing, the world keeps on turning
In the midst of it, in this place, what can we do?
The world we live in, we’ll protect it
With our little hands
The wind swayed the flowers
That bloomed in our city
They called my name
That’s my sign
The wind swayed the flowers
That bloomed in our city
They called my name
That’s my sign||
Tetsu no Ori [OP]
If you knew I loved you, you’d swoon
Killing me, there’s no end to it
Human body temperature and sensitivity
I’m optimistic about where I’m going
There’s no end to the night
Then I’ll ask you where we’re going
Private talk, in writing, when will it be done?
Here we go now
Melting and blending karma
I want to keep it private
I want to stay messy
Gains and Losses
Kiss in the moonlight
Bedrock beat it!
It was a travesty
Mundane passion took care of it
Uncertain gaze winked
A lonely premonition
While binding the destination of hesitation
There are places that can only be seen by stopping
There is a place where you can’t go
The Eden that aged headlong
Shattered as a matter of course
The boundary between yin and yang
No need for discovery to shake it open
Bug in the iron cage
Unable to ignore
Avant discarded
The momentary flame that fades away
Scattering sorrow
As if swallowing it up
Only to burn away
The loss of ecstasy
That we can only be slaves to something
Knowing that you will lose
You’ve already taken flight
You’ve become a butterfly
If I could fly now
Outside the iron cage
A common passion took care of you
An uncertain gaze winked at me
A lonely premonition
Even if the destination of hesitation is bound together
The momentary flame that fades away
Scattering sorrow
As if swallowing it up
Only to burn away
The loss of ecstasy
There are places that can only be seen by stopping
Places you can’t go
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im going so insane abt the s5 intro and ending because gay but also its so wonderful it so perfectly captures their sides of the story with akutagawas side being so aggressive and alone while atsushis ending side has a chorus at the end that reflects the scene where akutagawa yells at atsushi because he doesn’t understand how he doesn’t find worth in himself when atsushi has: a wonderful ability (“I’m not confident enough to be proud of it but…If you believe in me, I can believe in me too” with “it” most likely being atsushis ability), the admiration of dazai (“I just want to tell you this. Thank you for finding me.”) and friends (The chorus of multiple voices), all of which are things akutagawa doesnt believe he has. And even if this ending somehow isnt about Atsushis feelings toward Akutagawa, it still shows very clearly how Akutagawa feels he’s alone on his own path of sucess he’ll never achieve
#bsd#bungou stray dogs#bungo stray dogs#bsd s5#shin soukoku#bungo stray dogs akutagawa#bsd atsushi#bungou stray dogs atsushi#bsd akutagawa#akutagawa ryuunosuke#atsushi nakajima
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July 19, 2023
TW! ed, sa, addiction, basically dead dove don’t eat
After years of an ed, I finally find myself on Tumblr; the HOLY GRAIL of disordered people. You’d think after 3 years of therapy, several hospital trips, and multiple attempts i’d learn my lesson. At this point I think I just like wallowing in my mental illnesses. Once quarantine started, I just went spiraling down a path in the wrong direction. But this year has been the most wild point of my life. It’s funny, a couple weeks ago my step-dad asked me if I had hit rock bottom. His question didn’t sprout from just a few of my life’s mishaps though. My biological dad who lives across the United States sent my and in-depth suicide note through his Gmail; causing me to stress over him for weeks. A few months earlier I had been raped by a man in his 20’s, but he got shot 2 weeks after. Karma’s a bitch when it needs to be. And finally, the cherry on top, my parents and relatives found out my therapist was grooming me. I knew that his sexual advances towards me weren’t necessarily normal, but he has told me countless times I was “one of a kind” and he “thought about me often.” The worst part of him grooming me was people finding out. I could handle that my middle aged therapist (who was actually very cute!) found me attractive and had other plans than me just being a client to him. I didn’t mind it. Being victimized and the stress of taking legal action was a completely different topic. Thank God, my parents decided to stray away from the police. I’ve already had enough encounters with them anyway. Back to my step-dad saying I hit rock bottom, I already knew I hadn’t. Not even a week after he asked, I overdosed on my bedroom floor with Euphoria playing in the background. No fucking joke. This was also not on purpose (surprisingly) and I had been using for a long time before this. My blue leds were on too. My mom found me in my bed; grey-faced, convulsing, while my friend held back tears as she watched death almost swallow me whole. My mom dragged me to the floor, called 911, and started CPR. Mind you I was in a thong and bra during all of this. EMTS eventually arrived at my house and I woke up to lights flashing in my eyes and realizing everyone there has seen me half naked. I cried in the ambulance and apologized to the officer beside me countless times. To be honest, he was probably getting pissed and how much i was whining and the amount of “I’m so sorrys” i was throwing out there. If anyone out there has experienced addiction and thought, “oh! there’s no way that’ll happen to me! i know what i’m doing.” There is always a way. ALWAYS. Especially with hard shit. I’ve been sober since then and hope to continue, but i still haven’t processed it fully. Instead of realizing it was a very serious situation, I just giggle at the thought of it and move on. Anyways, all this crazy shit has sprouted into my life after my first heartbreak. I had been cheated on after I poured everything into a relationship. At the same time, what did I expect out of a teenage boy? I won’t go too in depth about that, it’s always the same story for everyone. Now Im about 2000 miles from home, with my childhood best friends. It’s a nice and quiet break from everything. I just kind of relive the same day and don’t have to worry about being around my triggers. These 3 weeks have been the easiest weeks to get clean. I just hope i stay clean, i honestly never know. Without a therapist, I’m just going to have to figure shit out on my own and hope I’m doing life right. This year I’ll be going into my sophomore year of high school, and I kind of can’t wait for summer to be over. But first I need to be skinny!! I want to be sickly. That’s just kind of what I’m relying on to cope right now. If anyone needs to rant in my dms they are always welcome, I am here for this community! I get it. This is my first update here, I’m not sure if anyone will read it but hi if u do! Thank you for listening!
xoxo
farryn
#tw ana diary#i want to be sick#tw ed rant#b0dy check#tw ana fast#th1n$pø#4norexi4#th1n$po#thinspø#low cal restriction
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What you see & hear- or even if you can. Just a cover.
Open it? There’s no tellin’ the worm. But you bought the ticket. It’s your Day 1.
They’re gonna try to break you.
Yk every Day I wake up. And I’m scared of it. Don’t want to. And not b/c im warm in my bed snuggling w/ my feather duvet and rain, with the weight of a horse on my legs play pretending he’s a 3 lb Show shhnowzaa but b/c I’ve already, already lived it. And having been in a constant State of fight or flight, normal or abnormal, sometimes u can’t tell —I still feel bad. W/e differentiation you had to separate the two both ended up at the North Pole but you’ve at least got Santa.
So this means I’m confused all Day but I still want some of Michael’s Secret Stuff Gatorade (haterade) from “welcome to the space jam—alright.” 🎵. To get me through. A safe energy drink. And your body doesn’t ☊ anymore so the more you talk to yourself the saner. It’s just I’ve never had to fake I’m physically okay to be present so much. Physical sickness affects ur mind Health and if you already struggle w/ that my condolences b/c your leg hurts too.
It’s a nightmare never 1-upping to a dream of being without. Then some days it’s will hear a song or remember a Good time or just Start crying-faucet not included. No acute-reason onset. (We gotta find another word for trigger no joke). I only subconsciously wonder will today be better…Will I get better? And I don’t know why I continue to continue being somewhere inbtw positive and negative. All the sudden my mind is taxed and so are your paychecks and I’ve been up for 15 minutes not even thinking I was thinking b/c Truth is, when something becomes your reality for such a Long time, everything just runs together. You’re afraid to feel anything yet know if you don’t it’s not just your body ready to atrophy. Not Good. And it’s a sneaky lil’ mf.
I can’t Imagine the omnipresent (best word for constant I got) Pain people feel having been with Illness their whole lives. How differently their world is shaped. Pain, prolonged cynicism, Illness prolonged, disability prolonged, w/e u used to think about things is gone unless you’re born one of these ways. Now to be clear I was born this Way but not THIS Way don’t get it twisted. Some days I wonder what it would be like to swap around. W/e it is—This presence does not belong to God— but maybe its mere existence really does b/c we won’t have anyone to thank if things get better? And there’s no joy in the things we’ve hoped for and overcome? And everything always has an End result of some kind…Right? If that’s my endgame I can only look at some things very matter of fact-ly. But. Here we are. Pending. Loading. Accept All Cookies. Your Health for potential healing is At the mercy of literally a button click away from quality or lifesaving or changing Medicine or therapy. CAN YOU AFFORD TO STAY ALIVE? Be fired? Bankrupt-ed? Evicted? No college, no trade School, but you work ur butt off to provide but you’re still paid $7.25/hr as I was as head intramural supervisor at Georgetown College. 15 years ago. Not just that, exist, like eating, clothes to wear, some sort of roof. So you’re choosing between crappy and crappier. Literally no difference. How in the is someone even going to try to stay healthy?!
Thankfully I don’t have to worry as much about the material, which, its Stress alone induces more trauma and Anxiety, but I’d bet how we feel physically isn’t too different. All the sudden again in the subconscious where I am all the time I’m figuring and not truly present you really think existentially like how in not God’s name clearly did I get here? I fixed everything. But Life isn’t played by a claw that has never won anybody a teddy bear. I wouldn’t pin karma to me in itself but it sure makes you think.
None of this is about to make sense but it’s where my mind took me.
Think about what was happening in your Life before things changed. Before literally waking up one Morning and knowing that very second things had to change or I was headed toward death a lot faster than I thought until that God moment. I don’t have many of them that are that dramatic but nothing was clearer to me in that moment. And then that Damn bat and conspiracy crap of government population control. If anthrax was sprinkled in Amazon boxes we’d be extinct. But Pretty sure we know how to get rid of people without breaking a beaker or test tube and then turning on a fan just gifting particles. And Unraveling ALL of the many ways of healing I’d finally lived into. I was so close. To every Fk up id invited. And so asking why anymore seems vacant. Echoing. And my ears hurt. ATP I’m More so saying well, I’m not sure that strategy is going to work anymore. Where’s the ღ in Health. It’s lost it. How much are you worth? No, like write down a monetary number on a piece of paper, fold it and slide it across the desk. Insurance companies be like: I see your offer and I’ll raise your offer: have you tried dying yet? B/c you could save a lot of money that way. The money it will take to bury you might even be more deadly.
So The most defeating part is beginning the Day as it ends. When I think about that it’s just like how did I get here? I’m still stubborn about it but maybe regardless of w/e someone accomplishes there’s the reality you’re still living in an imperfect world where you can only control so many things. Even if u gain that control back all those traps R still available. So you can Imagine my surprise when there’s not enough OCD to Go around to control THIS. regardless of what we can have control over, do that, b/c the smaller victories become magnified and walking to the kitchen to take your Meds that may or may not be helping is like an 8-ball w/ only 8 options. Eenie meenie miney. Mo.
I don’t set out to cry or tear up in the videos I share. I’ve always been a cryer. I’ve been told I feel things more intensely so it hits different, does different. The direct quote will remain anonymous but the sentimental pack rat in me wrote it down ASAP. Like, a handwritten letter. You took TIME for me. The quote—It was several years ago and I almost can’t stand it b/c it’s me in whatever kind of Shell is available at the time.
[“people perceive me as an individual who has the kindest of all hearts, but who struggles with the realities of life given that kindness…Like how the tenderhearted feel the pains of the earth more intensely.”]
It’s so true. But if I can’t be real what Good’s that gonna do? For me it further affirms what I already am living. In Edgar’s scary A** pit or with the company of not one canary in the coal mine.
C’ya in the AM. 🫡
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Hi :) So I'm coming to your ask box to yell about more spooky songs by Sebastian Krämer that would possibly also make good dw episodes/horror movies.
Firstly, my absolute favourite, the first song of his I listened to which immediately made me fall in love with his music: Zackebuh. There is actually a youtube video for this one so you might want to watch that if only to admire the artwork that is his tie (btw also dw related, because the Doctor would totally wear that).
Zackebuh is something like karma incarnated. They live inside your wardrobe and if you've hurt other people they might come out at night. Giggling they will come to your bed, take your hand, lead you through the wall and then you're just gone.
There is no real description of their appearance, but 'buh' is the German way of writing 'boo' and a 'Zacke' is a spike. And I showed the singer different fanarts I had made of the character and they said it most likely looked like the one that was a raggedy version of my sister's sheep plushie. So...
Secondly, there is Alpo, the forest ghost. Which is very mysterious. Apparently they can shapeshift and time travel? And look human? But sometimes animals or humans will just KNOW who they are. So, basically the Doctor.
I interpret the song a little as if Alpo is just curious, travelling the world by jumping from body to body but eventually getting stuck and being unable to move on. Possibly even forgetting who they are themselves. Because there is a scene at the end where they go to therapy after being depressed for years and the therapist is unable to tell that they are Alpo the forest ghost. So, basically they are chameleon arch-ed. No really, this song is about the Doctor, how did I never notice that before?
Also, please listen to Krämer trying and failing to animate the audience to applaud for several minutes at the end of the video, it is hilarious.
Thirdly, there is 'Der Güterzug' (=The freightliner). Which does not exist on youtube or spotify. It describes a situation where someone drives over one railroad trail and there is a second one in front of them, which is closed. The first one closes, too and both of them are passed by a freightliner that does not end. For hours. They can't move because there is no other way than the road that is closed off by the rail road tracks.
And then they start blinking and looking at the wagons. And the wagons are showing a flipbook movie of a freightliner and a man standing next to it. Then the man in the movie jumps into the train and dies and the movie starts anew. But the person waiting for the train to pass notices that between the runs of the movie there is a little gap in the freightliner, a tiny possibility to pass.
Having been there for an eternity already, they decide to try their luck and run through the train in that instance. Here the song ends.
I mean it is quite clear what is happening but I love the unreality feeling of a freightliner that seems to go around you in circles and you can't escape.
Fourthly, there is 'Idiots from Uranus' (only a spotify link unfortunately) which is not creepy, actually. It is just a description of aliens that have come for a visit in Berlin. They do a bunch of weird seeming stuff, like throwing their trunks around on the street or storing their tails in the fridge and buying way too many Berlin city souvenirs. While the singer is just repeating again and again: 'I'm not xenophobic but those idiots from Uranus are annoying'. Idk this one just gives me cute minisode vibes.
There is also Hell Express (spotify), a song about a supernatural roller coaster that changes you when you ride it because it is so fast. With the line of
Dass uns heut Antennen am Hinterkopf sprießen
Und dass unsere Schläfen nachts fluoreszieren
Kommt sicher nicht davon das kann bei all diesen
Hormonen im Trinkwasser schonmal passiern
That we have antennas at the back of our heads today
And that at night our temples fluoresce
Is definitely not [the rollercoaster's] fault
It just happens with all those hormones in the drinking water
and 'Manchmal höre ich die Stimme noch'(spotify) (Sometimes I am still hearing the voice) a song about a weirdly specific voice inside the singer's head that sounds a lot like a Be more Chill situation.
And lastly, there is 'Die Ballade vom Busfahrer Bodo' (The ballad of Bodo the bus driver). This one describes a bus driver being alone in the bus at night. And suddenly he is notified someone pushed the 'stop' button and he hears a voice asking to get out. He opens the door but then realises that he is alone. So he just laughs, closes the door and continues driving. But again, the stop button is pressed and the voice complains about being stuck in the door. So he stops, opens the door and runs out the bus to shout at the voice to get lost. But then the bus door closes, barring Bodo outside and he hears the voice say that he should hurry and get back in or the voice would run him over like he did to them years ago.
This one is especially cool because of how he makes the voice sound. Also I don't want that to happen to him -obviously- but we do have a bus driver companion with a history with ghosts. Just saying.
...Yeah, I am a little obsessed with Krämer. Not sure you could tell :)
Anyway, I hope this was a little interesting for you as well. If you'd like to know more or have any other lyrics translated I would 100% be up for that. But also I feel like I am already infodumping way too much on you, so there's that.
Have a nice day!
Thank you for yelling about this stuff! It's so cool and i would never just encounter it in the wild so it's super interesting.
First of all, this man's tie is glorious and should be the next fashion trend everywhere (although now that i think about it, making it mainstream would take away much of its charm so i retract my original statement). Second of all, i haven't realized from your first mention of this singer that he does comedic performances (yes, unfortunately i couldn't check it out on spotify, it's currently not available where i live), i expected his art to turn out all dark and edgy and serious, but now that i've seen it i can't imagine it any other way, the twisted darkish humour of it all really adds a lot to the performance, brings it all together. And i think this campiness is a part of what ties it so closely to dw.
These plots are fun! I especially like Alpo der Waldgeist, so much space for imagination and yeah, i can totally see the fobwatch parallel, but also i think it can be interpreted as regeneration: the spirit has been so many people that it doesn't know who it is anymore, and even others don't recognize it as they used to.
Der Güterzug concept is really a gutpunch when you look at it as it was intended (or at least what i think it was intended), but in a literal interpretation absolutely seems like something that would be used to trap a bad guy in, say, audiodramas, i feel like this a bit tacky and heavy-handed timeloop kind of thing would fit right in with all the dw concepts (*cough* Ten trapping the Daughter of Blood in mirrors *cough*).
Hell express sounds a bit like a torchwood discarded-episode-turned-novel lmao
Honestly, i feel there's a lot more to say, but the songs speak too well for themselves, it's just a lot of fun to marinate them in my head and maybe they'll spark some more interesting thoughts later on
Thank you for this infodump, as a wikipedia addict i don't mind it one bit! Krämer's vibes are a huge inspiration, and he also is a great performer (and thank you for the links and descriptions as well, it was really interesting to be able to understand some of the lines because i knew what a song was about)
Does that mean i get to pop into your ask box to ramble about music with dw vibes from my culture?👀
#doctor who#thank you for the ask!#i feel like I'm acquiring quite a collection of those from you so i'll make a tag#capybara in an ask box#so you can find them more easily in the future if you want :-)
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hello i finished new vegas
wall of text thoughts. under read more bc sooooo many.
was kind of wishing by the end i'd known how much the game rewards rly picking and choosing what to make your stats... i didn't really appreciate this until i went from like 45 in energy weapons like this feels fine to 75 and was like I AM A PLASMA GOD!!!! so noted for next run (i did end with 100 in science and energy weapons I GOTTA be nosy and hack every terminal i see. or my courier will die.)
rly thought this about hour 5 but i wasn't expecting the legion to be so cartoonishly evil actually i knew they were bad but like. lol. CMON GUYS PUT SOMETHING BACK ON THE SHELF FOR OTHER BAD GUY FACTIONS... instead of the vipers/jackals/powder gangers/fiends just kind of being. free karma estate. (in retrospect i don't rly understand the point of karma as a system because after like level 5 i never even dipped to neutral karma. my courier was an angel. an angel who stole every cap, stimpak, box of ammo, and piece of scrap metal she could find from everyone and anyone in the greater mojave area. and killed. SO MANY PEOPLE.)
was kind of expecting the hoover dam battle to be like... bigger???? like just having more guys around. more chaotic. actually have a reason to go down into the hoover dam sublevels that they. built and modeled but i had no plot reason to go into and did wander into the first time i was there (mostly i was like "how much does this look like the real hoover dam" and then realized i don't really remember enough about the particulars of the interior to judge that kdjhdkdhdkj).
also maybe im just too much of a bioware kid but i also think it was kinda weird to not have all the little guys you recruited there but shrug. (also i wanted to see the superfortress. WHERE IS IT) anyway i did independent ending bc OBVIOUSLY the ncr has problems and OBVIOUSLY my courier could do better. i mean she has already almost single handedly solved every personnel and supply chain issue the NCR was having. she will definitely TOTALLYYYY set up some sort of council of local factions as soon as she's done having some portion of the securitrons clean up all the fucking rubble laying around in freeside bc it's bothering me. WHY HASN'T ANYONE EVER SO MUCH AS SWEPT MCCARRAN AIRPORT TERMINAL. i bet everyone would be slightly less miserable if you could walk down the street without the threat of tripping on rubble and impaling yourself on rebar. sorry what. you want local governance. citizen. pick up that can. then we'll talk.
anyway idk handwaving not storming through the legate's camp to the main part of the fort to get caesar with the securitrons was kind of weird. i wanna kill. which means i also apparently i missed my chance in life to kill vulpes. SAD. but i got to order yes man to throw a guy off the hoover dam. AND HE DID. so that ruled. (the duality of courier: last week she saved your president from assassination. this week she went hmm. i see. and tossed your top general off a dam.) also im sure yes man installing some updates to become more assertive will definitely not cause any issues. it's fiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiine!!
ANYWAY despite all that i had a good time as evidenced by finishing it in the time i did oops. i had a good time. i actually didn't realize this game had a companion system i just thought it had a collection of pathetic men. which it does. but also i love having companions (although did get kind of tripped up on only being allowed to have one humanoid companion and one ed-e/rex. it was always ed-e btw bc rex was like continually under my feet im sorry boy.) i also travelled with boone for like 20 hours so it took me a while to realize like any other companion talks a lot more since im pretty sure stringing more than 3-5 words together causes him physical pain. i love that there's a scene for if you do give veronica a dress!!! i am still thinking about how hard arcade dissed me the first time i asked if he wanted to travel with my courier!!!!! i also asked if it could wait when i got his quest and he was like no actually im gonna keep talking and like. lmao. STILL DON'T KNOW WHAT THE ENCLAVE DOES I FEEL LIKE THE ANSWER IS JUST "GO PLAY FALLOUT 3"??? kind of like how visiting jacobstown was just "go play fallout 1 & or 2"
misc briefer thoughts ig:
WHY IS THERE A SNOWGLOBE IN SARAH'S VAULT 21 ROOM. HASN'T SHE LOST ENOUGH TO MR. HOUSE. i did not sell this snowglobe. please clap bc $$$.
loved exploring the vaults in that i hated exploring the vaults man. i think vault 11 wins for most fucked up and vault 34 wins for most times i thought "i fucking hate this" while i was there (but that's a personal problem bc feral ghouls. ueueuueueueueueue cries in a corner while arcade and ed-e shoot everything. nice moral dilemma at the end though. i saved the groundwater but oof. oughf.)
why do the options with dealing with the great khans suck so much lmaooo.... shoving ncr soldiers up against the wall for being like HA we showed theM CHASED THEM RIGHT OUT!! like girl no i told them to leave bc UR COMMANDING OFFICER SAID SHE'D USE THEM FOR CANON FODDER IF THEY ALLIED WITH THE NCR
also honestly same for all the dialogue about neslon bc sorry WHOOOOO kicked the legion out. bc it wasn't you guys it was boone and i doing a sidequest and then just going fuck it kill them all actually -
ok but speaking of NCR guys sorry to the misfits bc i did not have enough explosives to teach u how to explosives and then u all deserted and were hung. skill issue but sorry but skill issue -
because i had done all the vaults i. did finish most of the brotherhood quests ig and honestly was probably going to leave them alone except then i triggered veronica's quest and they wiped out that followers station so. hot take maybe you guys shouldn't have had like three terminals of kill everyone dead. also maybe don't preface yay we can leave again with thoughts on going at it with the ncr again imMEDIATELY what is wrong with you guys.
i feel like some other run im gonna go all in on punching and sneaking that sounds fun. or lead pipe run. i hope primm appreciated me liberating their big hotel in town and didn't think too hard about the piles of guys beat to death with a lead pipe.
the powder gangers and guys in vault 19 rly didn't do anything to me but if it will get me better epilogue slides. well i did get this gauss rifle too late in the game to really use it (ENERGY WEAPON SNIPER RIFLE. IDEAL WEAPON!!!)
i can't believe i have to pay $5 to experience mormons. actually is it even specifically mormon bible thumping or am i just assuming bc it's utah. anyway im gonna do it. but. lmao. (i was also surprised how much man on fire stuff was mentioned in the game proper since it is apparently dlc.)
is the ideal dlc order release order btw
#otter plays new vegas#accepting questions on how where guys factions whatever ended up#my courier will be like 'i know a place' and take you to floating tin can in the repconn hq#also once i fixed all the crashing i only rly experienced like floating bugs (thrice)#also also once found a 'corpse' in gomorrah but the lady was. definitely walking around. upright. vertical. very funny.#i think she'll make it doc#anyway#getting back in line for the roller coaster#let's go again let's go again
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chapter 2 so they think im cringe. i will never be able to see my friends bc i will be able to leve canada onlt after 4 years bc of this stupid and random biometrics shit and i had only chance of meeting them this summer but now its all pointless bc of a random canada government decision. i want to pee so bad and this stupid american bitch is washing her ass for 2348493 hours with stupid pop childish music in the background gosh. i lost 700 dollars recently idk where or how i genuanly dont know its prob my roommate but im not sure so basically yeah and im reallt sensitive about losing money so yesterday was a fun day to me. my stupid mind is doing some crazy shit and tries to convince me to believe in karma or god idk basically its if i will think that everything will be bad then everything will be good but i should genuanly believe it all will be bad and i just go back n forth with this idea always going on on my minds. i have a couple of different templates of how this world from my mind' perspective works but im too tired to think ab it. ig every time i think that its just what it is its just how wolrd is and nobody is giving me a happy time after all of this is over as my mind always tries to constantly tell me i guess its just too painful for me. i want to believe that i will be happy in a short time. i want too. but every day i wake up and some awful shit happens to me. its awful to be extraverted and i dont have friends here. i hate this fucking bitch PLEASE leve i want to use toilet wtf is wrong with u. pleeeeaseee im all sweaty npw bc of how i want to pee. i noticed that they wash themselves so rarely here. idk why my roommate smells just awful and she is 22 and she never washes herself so at night when i have troubles sleeping i also need to smell her beatiful aromas and im gonna be silent ab her mouth like she never washes her teeth how can u have so many man and smell so awful and be so nasty. anyways i dont reallt know what to do? i lost my motivation to even live( but not to eatt i will never lose it i have ed) i just dont want to do anything to see anything to feel anything i just want to die and be reborn. i dont believe in reincarnation but being able to not feel anything is better than living how i live now. i never cry but i cry here really often. like a couple of times per weak? i never cry literally never. that bc my coping mechanism is trying to find a decision and i will fucking find this decision even if im gonna die but rn there is no decision there is nothing there is just finnish studying than good luck to being lucky for finding a place to live and a job and if u wont find a placce to stay u will have to sleep on a bed with a roommate who washes herself once per weak and stole ur only money. and even now my mind is trying to say to me that i will be fine and the situation will be better! but fuck u it wont be better and i know it because there is no fucking hope left here there is literallt nothing left no fucking move will make it better NOTHING will make it better. im a fucking psychology major wtf is wrong with me. i just cant believe how cruel the life is and how awful it is and how i just couldnt ever think it could get that bad. its just all of my failures they are so random and its not even my fault in any of those! and as i told u my mind again tries justify everything that is happening to me like no just think ab it!! no way it can be this awful right? no way this all could happen to u just like this and without a happy ending! yes it can and yes it happened and im tired of expecting something good to happen to me i just want to die pls why do i have parennts it would be so much easier. i would love to leave this hell and so study to europe but we already spent SO much money on only this first semester so i cant even imagine how can i justify going back home in my head, in front of my relatives. i hate myself
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three ; unanimous
itto x y/n
carmendeez: kiss.img
y/nandittoabouttokissagain.img
look at them!
katy perry: so scandalous!
WAIT
LEMME SEND THE VIDEO I TOOK
y/nxitto.vid
scary mouse: why the fuck is it so blurry
cant you take a damn video
katy perry: why do you care so much!
carmendeez: miya
maybe, just maybe
he wants to join the y/nxitto fanclub!
katy perry: REALLY?????
scara, would you really
scary mouse: ...
katy perry: i need to know if youre serious!
will you do anything for the success of y/n and itto
scary mouse: ...
carmendeez: maybe he doesn't like our ship name!
y/n x itto does sound weird
we could do better miya!
katy perry: yes, sir!
hm...
hmmmmm
yeah i've got nothing :(
albedo.: how about y/itto
weed watcher: or itto/n!
carmendeez: i like boyh!
what do u think miya?
⤷ i like boyh!
weed watcher: yeah we know venti
carmendeez: SHUIT UOP TOMO
ARENST YOU GAY DOR KAZUHASA???
weed watcher: well-
carmendeez: SHUT UP
weed!: tomo
you love me?
scary mouse: the fact that you understood that is terrifying
weed watcher: ah
uh
no
i mean
yeah
i do
katy perry: @everyone uhh gay people????
sherlock headass: please
if you wanted to just ping the gays, you couldve just @ed venti
carmendeez: IM SXIK OF YOY
⤷ i do
weed!: what a coincidence, i love you as well
barney coochie: what the fuck.
what the fuck??
who changed my fucking name.
oni dick: PFFFF
HAHAHHAHAH
WAIT
WHAT
NO
CHANGE IT BACK
NOW
barney coochie: karma, bitch.
oni dick: oni dick is better than barney coochie.
aegue w the wall
barney coochie: be serious.
⤷ oni dick is bet...
carmendeez: HOLDY AHIT
thomas the tank engine: kazu and tomo are making out in komore rn
send help
kazutomo.img
oni dick: do i get free cake?
thomas the tank engine: sure
oni dick: on my way!
⤷ kazutomo.img
albedo.: interesting
i might have to research this
barney coochie: what are you researching, exactly
albedo.: the human attraction to one another, and the psychological effects it has on health and society.
carmendeez: okay
nobody cares
albedo.: i recall having xiao's number saved...
carmendeez: AMBEO
ALBDEO
ALBEDO PLEASE
DONT
IM SO CLOSE TO GETTING HIM
PLEASE
ALBEOS
sherlock headass: "so close to getting him"
bro. he doesn't even know you
carmendeez: UHHH
YES HE SOES
i literally bumped into him in the halls and dripped all my papers!
we made eye contact and...
dog.: and...???
carmendeez: he continued walking.
katy perry: BWAHAHAHAHHA
sherlock headass: see.
i told you
my intuition never fails me
carmendeez: FUCK YOUR INTUITUON
- - -
a ghost of a smile presented itself on your face as your eyes scanned the group chat. calling out for thoma once you reached komore, you sat in one of the barstool chairs, listening in on conversations for fun
"i can't believe he did that!"
"what?! the rumors are true?"
"yes! he confirmed it with me just a couple minutes ago!"
"so he actually sm-"
"HEY Y/N!!"
"WHAT THE FUCK?!" you whipped your head to see the owner of the voice only to sigh out of exhaustion. "oh. it's you. hello." being dry on purpose, you hoped that he would leave, but alas you forgot. he's persistent. "you should come over to our table! i'll introduce you to my friends!" he subconsciously sat down in the seat next to you, rambling on and on about how his friends would love you. "no, thank you." silently wondering when thoma will be here, you fiddled with the fork.
"whaaat?! is it because of what happened earlier today? im really really sorry! you're partially to blame though-" itto apologized putting his hands into a prayer motion, making his voice go near silent at the end. "anyways! wanna hear about a new onikabuto i caught recently? it's super big, i just know it's tremendously strong! im naming it 'Crimson Crusher The Third' pretty cool name, huh? hey hey! did ya know i spent five whole days and nights to catch this bad boy!"
"thoma!" you stood up, chair moving behind your figure. "yeah?" peeking his head out, thoma smiled. "when the cake is done, bring it to itto's table. and for my sake, just tell her already!"
grabbing itto by the collar, you made him stand up and take you to his table. as you introduced yourself- well more of itto introduced you- to his friends, a unanimous ping came from five phones
cheeky trans masc. call that a he/he/he
weed watcher added 4 members.
albedo: i thought you were joking when you said that, tomo
carmendeez: ARE THIS THEM
barney coochie: is this them
grammar.
be like albedo, venti
carmendeez: BARNEY COOCHIE
barney coochie: whats your persona again?
a bard? whos also a god?
barbtoes?
babroetoes?
barbiwtoes?
carmendeez: BARBATOs
unknown number: get me out of here
unknown number (3): i don't think that's possible, diluc
unknown number (4): hello!
barney coochie: fucking ew
not one but two gingers were added
this chat has been tainted
sherlock headass: venti is here
it has always been tainted
carmendeez: HEIZOY
WHY ADW YOU SO DISREXTECTDUL
unknown number (2): whoa!
tomo-bro??
weed watcher: itto homie!
oni dick: okay
yall introduce yourselves so ven can change names
unknown number (4): but we're with you?
unknown number: diluc. diluc ragnvindr.
katy perry: 'bond. james bond.' headass
carmendeez: d-d-diluc?!
haamehs bonde: hello venti.
unknown number (4): im tartaglia! but you can call be childe
eleventh of the eleven fatui harbingers!
weed!: doesn't that mean you're the worst one
last place
eleventh out of eleven
⤷ but we're with you?
barney coochie: y/n.
listen to me carefully.
oni dick: listening
barney coochie: fucking. get. out. of. there.
unknown number (2): barney coochie bro!
wrre not gonna hurt her or anthibg
just havsing fun at komsre with thoma bro!
y/nussy: see
y/neatingstrawberrycake.img
oni dick: arataki itto.
you are on thin fucking ice
y/nussy: lets break it together baby
why are you looking at me like that?
sto-
oni dick went offline.
y/nussy went offline.
unknown number (3): they r definitely fucking
tatatringara: were across from them kaeya
oH
SHES STRANGLING HIM
katy perry: VIDEO VIDEO
rat: fight.vid
tatatringara: THSY WRESTILING
rat: in bed
carmendeez: WANNA HERE SOEMTHIBG I WEOTE
YEAH?
yes onmg venti ur so cool!
OKAY!!!!
ahem
when one drives by a certain tranquil neighborhood, the pleasant sound of a violin will be heard. the strings and the bow compliment each other as the wind carries the notes to places far, far away...
albedo.: how would you feel if i added xiao?
carmendeez: IT WASNT EVEN BAD
oni dick: stop writing about my playing venti
and thise winds are from your pet dragon
tatatringara: venti has a pet dragon?
carmendeez: no-
tatatringara: thats cool!
back in sneznhaya i
barney coochie: had no family
yeah we know
⤷ and thise winds...
carmendeez: HES A CANARY
oni dick: whats his name again
storm?
stormy?
no it starts with a d
dballin?
dfallen?
carmendeez: DVALIN
y/nussy: a pet dragon has nothing on my onikabuto
RIGHT Y/N
oni dick: oh god...
finishing the last bite of your cake, you stood up and moved itto out of your way, signaling that you wanted to leave. "oh! lemme walk ya home!" picking up your umbrella, you ignored his request. near the door, the air got cold, and brisk water droplets filled the streets. rain. opening the door and putting your hand out, you thought thank god i didn't water them this morning. undoing your umbrella and stepping out, you wasted no time beginning the journey to your house. it was about a ten-minute walk away, seven if you're lucky.
"y/n! wait up!" your breath hitched as your eyes focused on one thing: that stupid soaked white shirt. itto ran his fingers through his wet hair, moving a couple of strands from out of his face in the process. with no proper coverage, itto willingly let himself get soaked. surely the feel of rain beating on his skin would make him uncomfortable? and especially that shirt. that damned shirt.
why he came out of his home sporting a tight white shirt knowing damn well it was going to rain, only the archons know. and the way his abs clung to his shirt for dear life. the sleeves stuck to his skin. everything about this was so ho-
"y/n! you were really gonna leave me like that?" sighing, you ripped your eyes away from the sight. "get under the umbrella." making a tsk sound, he moved closer to you. "here, i'll hold it." clasping his hands around yours, itto pried your fingers from the handle, a soft giggle escaping his mouth.
the walk was silent. well almost. itto often asked you questions to only be hit with basic one-word answers.
"hey... since you aren't holding the 'brella anymore, you must need something to hold. what about my hand! it'll do. cmon! let's hold hands!"
"do you think that rainwater will soothe the effect of pepper spray or will it just make it worse?"
"i've become immune to it since someone keeps spraying me!"
"it was one time! today! during lunch!"
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WHY CANT I RIGHT/CENTER ALIGHN TJHINGS TUMBLR?!?!?!?! PSA: you are oni dick ,, that is you in the gc okay!!!
#bonnie & clyde#kaeyadrip#rieamena#three ; unanimous#arataki itto#genshin itto#genshin impact#female reader#yoimiya#itto#thoma#itto imagines#modern au#venti#gorou#kokomi#ayaka#chongyun#xingqiu#xiangling#kaeya#lumine#aether#tomo#kazuha#ganyu#keqing#scaramouche#ningguang#heizou
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On the 'Hotter Than Hot' MLQC event
my internal monologue: val don't do it don't do it don't-- nO IM GONNA DO IT
I'm sure most of the MLQC side of Tumblr has seen the recent CN server karmas for the newest event, 'Hotter Than Hot', and we all had a similar reaction: the art is breathtakingly gorgeous. But personally, one of my first thoughts on seeing the karma images was also: umm Papergames what's up with the cultural appropriation!?!
If you haven't seen the karmas, MC and the suitors are dressed up in clothing reminiscent of Aladdin or 1001 Nights: a Frankenstein-ed approximation of Southeast Asian/Middle Eastern cultural clothing that is extremely revealing, both for MC and for the suitors.
And I could go on for. Quite a while. About why cultural appropriation, generally speaking, is wrong, but for this case in particular, I'm going to just briefly touch on a couple of points.
Firstly, cultural appropriation, in this context, is an outsider (Papergames) taking symbols, art, and images from a culture, in this case, specifically attire and imagery from Middle Eastern culture ('Middle Eastern culture' already being a vast overgeneralization).
Secondly, the way Papergames has chosen to portray Middle Eastern culture plays into many stereotypes about the culture: full of “Arabian nights,” “sheiks and sultans,” and "veils, harem girls, and belly dancers."
The problem with this, specifically in the last stereotype, is regarding how MC and the suitors are dressed in revealing "exotic" clothing meant to symbolize Middle Eastern culture or capture the aesthetic of it. This, coupled with the event's name 'Hotter Than Hot,' feels like Papergames is just contributing to the sexualization of Middle Eastern culture by playing into tropes/incorrect beliefs/assumptions we have about the culture: making it about the sex appeal, the magic and jewels, and how foreign and different it is from our normal setting. In this way, no longer is the Middle East just another place for the MLQC story to land in, but a thrilling new world, full of romance, adventure, and sexual fantasy.
What this does to the culture itself is that it, by telling a single narrative about the culture, minimizes the lived experience of people who are a part of this culture. If all we know about the Middle East is 1001 Nights or Aladdin or Bluebeard, we might look at a Muslim girl wearing a hijab and think of her as part of a 'backwards' culture (barbarous, misogynistic, and in every way, Other) rather than stopping and taking the time to listen to her, to first hear her story from her mouth, not born from our assumptions formed through stereotypes in the media we consume.
The point I'm trying to make here, in this long and roundabout way, though, is that Papergames didn't care about Middle Eastern culture when they decided to make this event, no matter how culturally nuanced the dates end up being (if at all). They knew what they were doing when they used the Exotic Middle Eastern Aesthetic to create the karma art for this event: since MLQC is a dating sim, they know the easiest way to make a profit is through people paying for karmas, especially karmas with MC and the suitors in revealing clothing and/or in suggestive positions!
And Papergames has been pushing the limits with how suggestive they can be with the game's rating, only they had to censor MC's legs and cleavage in their recent Valentine's Day karmas. So, honestly, what it feels like to me here is that they just turned around to use the Middle Eastern Aesthetic to continue to profit off of putting MC and the suitors in revealing outfits (and possibly suggestive scenarios, but since the dates aren't translated yet, so this one's a maybe).
This is just a corporation choosing to borrow from a culture purely for the purpose of selling it in this sexualized fashion, which just reinforces harmful stereotypes about the culture, as well as ignoring the nuances of the culture itself and the hardships individuals might go through because of their culture, whether from within, or because of these stereotypes and the prejudices that stem from them.
anyways here's a few good reads + a video on cultural appropriation,
orientalism, and stereotypes about muslim/middle eastern culture <3 someone pls translate them and send them papergames' way:
http://reappropriate.co/2014/04/what-is-orientalism-and-how-is-it-also-racism/
https://yallaletstalk.com/on-appropriation-vs-appreciation-of-arabic-culture/
http://arabstereotypes.org/why-stereotypes/what-orientalism/veils-harems-belly-dancers
https://muslimgirl.com/the-problem-with-being-told-wow-you-look-so-exotic/
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ddCJPtcxEwo
#mlqc#mlqc cn#i am. tired. this does not make a ton of sense.#and idk if anyone gives a shit but!! i feel like it has to be said.#there is more i want to say. drawing from criticisms of the new aladdin#bUT YEAH.#just putting this out here#not trying to start anything i just .felt. like someone had to say smth!!#like. u can like the karmas u can li#like the dates and their plots. just. lets be critical of pg and what they're doing here.#bc they're just using these gross stereotypes. for profit.
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cut me through my skin
hello im posting a fic yaaay surprise!!!
read on ao3
words: 1,030
TW: blood, vomitting, vomitting blood (its a vampire/werewolf universe okayyy)
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“Are you crazy?! You can’t feed on Stan!”
A hungry, black-eyed Eddie is pulled away from the staircase that Stan is unconsciously leaning against. Richie struggles to hold him back.
“Let go-! I just need a little bit more-”
“When does it stop? What, huh?! You’re gonna kill him. You’re gonna kill him. This is what happens when you start drinking Live blood, and Stan is trying to help Bill!”
Eddie looks over to where Bill is lying at the bottom of the staircase, currently trapped in a dream world. He slumps down on their flipped living room couch. “I-I know, I’m sorry- I just.. Richie, try to understand. I’m a goddamn vampire.. I need- I need blood to survive! And I thought that I could be different, be better, but I just can’t, okay? I’m not cut out for this, okay? Bill has us trapped in our house all because he can’t get his fucking ghostly powers or whatever under control.. And that’s not even the worst part! I’m starving, you’ll be turning tonight, and Stan is a human.”
Richie apologetically looks away, and then sighs heavily, beginning to take his watch off. Eddie looks at him curiously.
“What are you doing?”
“I’m being brave.. For all of us..” Richie holds out his arm to Eddie, and makes a fist. “Go ahead,” he tries to encourage, but he sees Eddie hesitate. “Come on, Eds.”
“Wh-? No, I can’t.”
“Well, you don’t really have any other option.”
“Vampires don’t drink from werewolves,” Eddie says.
“Why? Do we smell or something?”
“Yeah, actually! We’ve always taken the smell as a warning.”
Richie rolls his eyes. “That- That’s a thing? Like a legit thing? Eddie for fucks sake, if this is some type of weird vampire-”
“What? No, it’s just something we don’t fucking do. We have never done that.” Eddie shoves Richie’s arm away, but Richie pushes back.
“I have blood, you need blood, and you can’t drink from Stan- at least without permission.. Listen..” Richie crouches down in front of Eddie, holding his face. “I’m strong, alright? I can handle it. You need blood to survive, those are your own words.” He holds out his arm once more, “just do it.. And before I change my mind.”
Eddie takes in a deep breath and nods slowly, hand clasping over Richie’s fist. He’s ready to sink his fangs into Richie’s flesh but immediately pulls back.
“N-n-no-”
“Oh, come on-”
“It’s the smell!”
“I’m gonna fucking change my mind-”
“Alright, alright, give me a se- give me a second!” Eddie shakes his shoulders out once more and then lunges forward to begin feeding.
Richie is shocked at how it actually doesn’t hurt that bad, but before he can start his thought process of how he feels about all of this, Eddie stops, giving a very specific look, and wipes a stray blood droplet from his mouth, “It.. it tastes different.”
“D-Different? Different how?.. Do you think it’s because of the movie theater popcorn from-” Richie doesn’t finish his sentence before Eddie is diving back in for more. He hisses in pain- or pleasure? No, he doesn’t really know, it’s somewhere in between. A mix. All he knows is Eddie is getting what he needs from this, and Richie is.. getting.. Hard? Oh. Oh fuck.
Eddie pulls back for the last time, “Oh, god,” he gets up to pace around the living room, “I need to walk away.”
“Was it bad?” Richie asks. “It was bad.”
“No! It was good.. Too good..” Eddie bounces on his feet as if he’s experiencing an adrenaline rush. “I’m tingling. Like all over. Oh, man, I’ve never felt more alive despite not actually being alive.”
“Okay, so we’re- so we’re glad we drank me?”
“It’s just- I barely even touched you!”
“Well, I’m assuming that’s a good thing-” as if Karma had second thoughts, Eddie is buckling over, beginning to gag. “Eds, you okay?”
Eddie answers by throwing up the blood he had just drank from Richie.
After a couple minutes of Eddie puking blood and bleeding from his eyes, Richie is holding a warm wet towel on his forehead. “What.. What the fuck was that? Was that like, an allergic reaction or something?”
“What? No, Rich. That’s because I fucking drank werewolf blood. I told you we don’t do that- and it seems like that’s why.. Maybe I can go ask Pennywise if he’s ever-”
“-You said you would never go back to him, Eddie.” Ouch. The whole name.
“I’m not going back to him. But he is my maker and if he can give me an answer about why your blood caused me to react like that.. Then I’d really appreciate it. Because just seconds ago I thought I was going to die.”
Richie grins sheepishly, “But you didn’t.”
Eddie laughs. “No, no I didn’t.”
“Do you regret it then? Are you still hungry?”
“No and no. I don’t regret it and my appetite hasn’t changed. I still feel full, surprisingly. Just don’t know if that’s a good thing or not.” Eddie leans back onto the wall, legs spread, and lets out a sigh. “It just seems like anytime we make progress of.. Of being normal, we’re thrown three steps back.” He locks eyes with Richie, they’re screaming “HELP!” And they both know it. Eddie chuckles dryly. “We’ll never be normal, though, will we? We’re always going to be stuck.. We’re always going to be monsters, aren’t we? I just.. I just can’t slip again.”
“Hey.. hey.. Don’t talk like that, okay? You’re a monster with morals. You didn’t choose this life.. But you’re trying to make the best of it, right? We’re all trying. You’ve got me.. Me and Bill by your side. And maybe even Stan, if he doesn’t completely hate you for drinking him nonconsensually..” Richie looks over to Stan. He’s worried about him and Bill, but there’s nothing he can do about their situation. “We’ll..” He trails off, slowly moving his hand towards Eddie’s, “We’ll figure it out, yeah?”
Eddie’s eyes follow the motion, and copies it, linking their fingers together. “Yeah.. we will,” he says. It’ll just take some time.
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heyo! i'm new to your blog but i've found your writings amazing! may i reguest the soulmate au "The voice inside your head is your soulmate's" with the sfw prompt "Look, I don't know you very well, but I'm still worried about you. No one deserves to be alone" for Itona Horibe? Thank you so much in advance 💝!
AHHH IM SO HAPPY TO GET A SOULMATE ASK
Ahh itona ✋😺 I love that man lemme just say that rn. (AND LISTEN IK I HAVE A FIC TO WORK ON BUT IM LAZY)
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Pairing: Itona Horibe x reader
Prompts: Soulmate au where the voice inside your head is your soulmate's, "Look, I don't know you very well, but I'm still worried about you. No one deserves to be alone."
Warnings: Slight mentions of parental abuse
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This week seemed like a very chaotic week. But then again, when were they not? You managed to gain a new classmate, and not only did he have a really fucked up life, he was hot. But did that really mean anything?
You thought of your mother and father. They already reprimanded you enough as it was for being in the E class. Not only that, but if you were ever late, you would get a long lecture. They weren't ever going to allow you to even have a boyfriend.
You were woken up by Terasaka. "Hey dumbass, wake up. Class is over." He deadpanned. You let out a harsh groan.
Next class was phys ed, and although you were good, it had never been your favorite. Especially when you're extremely tired.
You had also come to hate the fact that the voice in your head wasn't even your own. You always hated the idea of soulmates, but ignored it anyways.
"God damnit I hate this voice it's so annoying" you told Terasaka. It wasn't unusual for you to complain about it, and Terasaka was used to it.
He just rolled his eyes. "Come on, we gotta go." He said. You groaned again, but still reluctantly stood up.
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When you got to phys ed, it was normal. But, Mr. Karasuma had decided to put you all in pairs. You got paired with Itona, the extremely hot and.. interesting one.
"Hey" you said.
"hi" he replied. Your eyes went wide. His voice. His is the ever so annoying one playing on loop inside of your head.
You had heard him talk before, but why are you just now noticing it? You didn't pay it much attention, and immediately just started going in for the attack as if it would make the class go by faster.
Unfortunately for you, Itona was incredibly fast. He dodged your attack with ease, not even flinching. He then grabbed your arm and had you pinned.
You huffed. "Fuck", you spoke, "how are you so fast?" You heaved out. You might've known had you been out the other night, but your parents had alarms on every window and door in the house.
He didn't even answer you, and let you go as Mr. Karasuma said that class was over. But, you were just glad to get a break.
After mulling it over, you decided to skip. Luckily for you, you had already picked out a place that is pretty much flat.
So, you walked away and climbed up the tree, and played down on one of it's unnaturally flat branches.
As you lay asleep, you realized that Itona had never, not even slightly, acknowledged the voices you two shared. After a while, you heard everyone leaving to go home. Had you really managed to miss 3 different class periods over a nap?
When you got home, you immediately felt your mother's gaze move to you. She seems livid. "Why are you home late?" Your mom spoke through her teeth. That cause you to look at the time. 3:07. Two minutes late.
"I- I'm sorry", you muttered and bowed, "I did not intend to be late home today." You stated, trying to lace sincerity into your voice.
Your mother crouched down in front of you, smilingly a sickly sweet kind of smile. "It's ok pumpkin, we are never going to do that again, right?" She said, almost too sweet.
"right." You answered. You knew there was no right answer to this. You held your breath.
"You're wrong.", she stated, angry and gripping your shoulder, "You have never once changed this behavior. I will not believe you until things change." She said, borderline yelling. Her grip tightened on your shoulder, causing her to hit a pressure point and you passed out.
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When you woke up the next day, you immediately left for school. You brought your uniform but were still in your pajamas. You climbed up the mountain, entered the building and made your way towards the bathroom. Hazama looked at you weird.
"don't ask." You stated at her. She then threw her hands up and went into the classroom.
Once you got changed you looked into the mirror. You looked like shit. The bags under your eyes were more noticable than ever, and your eyelids felt so heavy like they could collapse any minute.
You eventually moved your pajamas into your bag and went to class.
As soon as you walked in, everyone took notice for your crappy state. "Y/n, are you doing ok?" Karma asked you. You were honestly surprised, it wasn't like him to ask anyone if they're alright.
But, you let it slide and smiled. "Yeah! I'm doing great, don't worry about me." You laughed as you scratched the back of your neck.
Class went by like a blur, and you didn't even notice. You honestly were zoned out the entire time and didn't even remember anything Koro-Sensei said.
You got up and walked out, but decided to go to your tree. You were definitely going to regret it when you got home, but that's a story for another day.
And Itona's voice? You didn't even know how to start going about that.
As you lay down, you started falling asleep. How long? You really didn't know. "Hey, Ritsu?"
"Yes?" She responded.
"Can you wake me up at 4:30?" You asked her.
"Yes I can!" She said sweetly. It was so kind, not a sickly or bitter kind of sweet like your mom. And there was no anger like your dad.
You were passed out. It was crazy how easily you slept on that tree. You, unfortunately, were startled awake.
You almost fell out of the tree, but someone grabbed onto you. "I'm sorry, I just heard your phone playing some sort of alarm sound, so I came to check it out." It was Itona.
You put up your casual and shy facade, "Oh! Thank you, I'm sorry." You laughed out.
He made a face of disbelief and concern. "Are you ok?" He questioned.
You smiled, "why wouldn't I be?"
He frowned at that, "Y/n, you came into school today in pajamas." He deadpanned. Your smile faded.
"Oh! That, yeah I was in a bit of a rush because I woke up late." You then became panicked. "Oh no. Oh no." You repeated. You chanted it like a prayer.
"I have to go. It was nice talking to you, Itona." You tried leaving, but he grabbed your arm. When you looked back at him, he had an expression of extreme seriousness.
"Look, I don't know you very well, but I'm still worried about you. No one deserves to be alone." He stated.
"I- Itona, thank you so much. And I get that we're soulmates and all, but I really need to get back home." And then you froze. You just told him you were soulmates. Yeah, he probably knew, but he hasn't said anything about it.
He also froze. "I- I'm sorry? We're what now?" He questioned.
You rolled your eyes. "Have you not noticed? Have you not realized that the voice in your head is mine?" You stated.
His eyes then widened. "Yeah. I seriously have to go now. Thanks for your concern." You told him. However, his grip on your arm didn't falter. " Itona, let me go."
"No. I'm not letting you go until you tell me what's going on." He told you. And although his face was unreadable, his voice was filled with worry.
You sighed. "If I tell you, will you please let go of me?"
He nodded. You decided to be as vague as you possibly could. "My home life isn't all that great, and I'm also super stressed out about the whole soulmates thing." That seemed pretty vague, right? "Now will you please let me go."
His grip loosened, and you moved away from him. "Um.. since we're soulmates and all. Do you.. maybe want to give this- us- a try?" You hesitated though. Your parents would be furious, but who are they to decide if you get to date your own soulmate?
You nodded. "Yeah.. let's give us a try." You jumped down the tree and then sprinted back home while trying to prepare yourself for what was to come.
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A/n: Alright! Not my favorite thing I've ever done, and I'm sorry that this took me a while. But uhh yeah! I did my best 😅 I really hope you like it.
#ass class writer#assasination classroom#assassination classroom writer#ass class#ass class x reader#assassination classroom x reader#itona horibe#Itona x reader#itona horibe x reader
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Lyrics That Attacked Me 2021
{ ok so this is actually something ive been meaning to do for a while, purely for my own enjoyment. originally this was going to be a 2 parter - one for lyrics and one for specific music/instrumental moments, but there are notably... a lot more instrumental moments i could think of than particular lyrics so this lyric post was just easiest to put out on its own. enjoy me getting a little exposed and vulnerable with some of my favorite lines. of course there's only 4 artists here bc... im me sksk. oh well i guess that means you just have to stay tuned for the Big One }
and if you'd like, here's the playlist. have fun
"And my fingers used to dance on every key / Now they're just pieces of meat" - Get Used To It by Ricky Montgomery
"It's alright to die / Cause death's the only thing you haven't tried" - Even My Dad Does Sometimes by Ed Sheeran
"Skeletons, skeletons, what do we have here / Hiding from the mirror?" - Snow by Ricky Montgomery
"I'll always be that short little gloat / Always clearing his throat like he ever had something to say" - Snow by Ricky Montgomery
"Take my mind, take my body / Take my father's conscience from me" - Snow by Ricky Montgomery
"I chased the picture perfect life, I think they painted it wrong" - Eraser by Ed Sheeran
"Days pass by and my eyes stay dry and I think that I'm okay / 'Til I find myself in conversation, fading away" - Wrecked by Imagine Dragons
“Only in my darkest moments can I see the light / I think I’m prone to being blinded when it’s bright” - This December by Ricky Montgomery
“I’m alright if you’re alright / And I’m okay if you’re okay / It’s this state, in this state I’m living in” - This December by Ricky Montgomery
"Tell you the truth I hate what / Didn't kill me, it never made me stronger at all" - Drunk by Ed Sheeran
“Maybe if I fall asleep I won’t breathe right / Can nobody hear me? / I’ve got a lot that’s on my mind” - Hear Me by Imagine Dragons
“I thought you’d care to notice / I just want you to notice me / Mama, maybe it’s today / Maybe today” - Last Night by Ricky Montgomery
"Another tear / Another cry / Another place for us to die / It's not complicated" - Autumn Leaves by Ed Sheeran
“I’m a hold my cards close / I’m a wreck what I love most / I’m a first class let down / I’m a shut up sit down” - Polaroid by Imagine Dragons
“Oh, I’m cramping up, I’m cramping up / But you’re cracking up, you’re cracking up” - Mr. Loverman by Ricky Montgomery
“You know I’ve never been afraid of death / But now I want to see the things that haven’t happened yet” - Tides by Ed Sheeran
"I have the same dream every night / A bullet through my brain the moment that I close my eyes" - Tides by Ed Sheeran
"What? Am I normal or not? Am I crazier than other patients?" - Karma by AJR
"Oh, I am just a girl, but with a little motivation, I'll go far / I want the world to know that I'm not just a piece of trash" - California by Ricky Montgomery
"I been dyin' since I learned it / Art is dead and artists killed it" - California by Ricky Montgomery
#surprise! she's back with her music nonsense#fair warning:#most of these lyrics are not happy so brace yourself#im not a big lyrics person but sometimes lyrics just smack me like a brick wall#i made this unnecessarily complicated for myself too bc the lyrics had to stand on their own#lots of songs resonate with me but for a variety of reasons and not just the lyrics#and the lyrics i chose had to stand on their own. not just the entire song but particular lines had to resonate with me#which actually chopped off a lot of imagine dragons songs? bc most of the lines all just attack me equally sksks#interestingly a different experience than with Ricky Montgomery where the whole song hits but a handful of lyrics in particular stick out#Spotify#music#my ramblings#musical beans
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miles proves a theory, please 💕
Okay, so this one is a cracky chat fic inspired by that one Modern Family episode where they’re trying to figure out which kid used the laptop to watch porn. Phoenix thinks it was Larry because he borrowed the family laptop recently. Miles thinks it’s their daughter and that they need to have a frank talk about porn.
Eventually it comes out that Phoenix refuses to believe it was Trucy because he skipped sex-ed in high school and doesn’t believe women watch porn.
Miles makes a group chat with all of the adult female attorneys and prosecutors (emphasizing they don’t have to answer, if it makes them uncomfortable of course) to prove that Phoenix is wrong.
Snippet of it here:
miles_edgeworth: Phoenix Wright does not believe that women watch porn or masturbate
Maya Fey: ahdjfjfkkfkgogkfjrkdkjdnff
Maya Fey: NICK YOU ABSOLUTE NUMBNUTS
Maya Fey: fuckin buffoon
Maya Fey: dumbass
Maya Fey: I cannot believe you
Franziska: Maya is currently laughing too hard to keep typing and has asked me to transcribe for her. She says (embellishments mine): I can’t believe you’re this dumb Nick, I fucking ruined the first laptop you gave me from all the porn I watched on it and you didn’t even know?
I thought you were just being nice and not saying anything because I was too dumb to realize porn gave you viruses and so it was obvious what I’d been doing even if I did know how to delete the browser history, but apparently you just fucking believed me when I said I didn’t know how it happened???
My life is a nightmare.
Everything is so fucking dumb.
You married this himbo, Miles?
You co-parent with him?
You let this man have sex with you when he doesn’t even know that girls watch porn?
Franziska: Frankly, I think Maya is being much too kind about it. What is wrong with you, you pathetic fool? Even a moron who barely passed health class in high school should understand this.
Phoenix Wright: i kind of skipped that class - all of them.
miles_edgeworth: why in God’s name?
Phoenix Wright: the girl I was seeing at the time asked me to. The class coincided with her lit class and she wanted me to be there with her, so I managed to skip. It was pass/fail and the teacher didn’t care.
Franziska von Karma: I weep for the state of American education. My niece is at a better school than that I should hope?
miles_edgeworth: Of course she is, what do you take me for?
Franziska: A fool, naturally.
Maya Fey: Okay, Im done wheezing for now.
To answer the question: Nicholas, my dear, sweet, idiot brother, of course girls watch porn just like guys. we just dont talk about it.
Franziska: Some of us don’t.
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Maya changed her name to Mia:
Mia: Phoenix Wright is this one of those “I eated glass” naive Phoenix moments or an “I’m being purposely obtuse” crafty Beanix moment. Because I swear on the Holy Mother if this is an ‘I eated glass moment’...
Phoenix: it is. Sorry.
Mia: Franziska von Karma I give you permission to make Phoenix Wright suffer.
Franziska: I am in your debt, Mia Fey
Mia: Yeah whatever, just keep my sister satisfied and I won’t haunt you
Franziska: Duly noted, Ms. Fey.
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My body will not allow me to sleep and at this point i think im gonna go on a walk and see the sunrise. Also lol not to just randomly unpack my life on the dahs at 5 o clock on the dot but i broke up w my cheater bf (shocker i slept with him again after the breakup bc im a dumb bitch) and i cant tell if im not letting myself hurt or if it genuinely doesnt hurt. Also my life is falling apart while falling together, ive lost two family friends (they were older ie my friends grandma and my “great aunt”) in the past couple weeks, ive been smacked with so much bullshit and honestly i think ive realized that i spend too much time trying to earn good karma in life that i literally stop prioritizing myself bc i prioritize othwrs so im back in the “bitch get to know you, you do you” stage of shit rn. My psychiatrist and my therapist both think id benefit from meds but they can suck my ass becuase i hate them both, i only see them specifically bc my insurance doesnt cover the ppl i wanna see and bc its hard enough getting help w my family-if i broke the news that i stopped seeing these cunts id probably get disowned which isnt the issue but id bw homeless which would then cause issues. So ykno gotta take one for the team-the team being myself here. Thats apart of adulthood. Being an adult fuckin blows guys its really shit and anyone still in highschool reading this-bro (gender neutral bro-you get what i mean) take your time with life and dont rush through shit bc after highschool life gets 10x more complicated and obnoxious. Also take college courses instead of AP courses-AP courses look good on transcripts but are a literal waste of time and a total gamble to see if theyd be worth college credit in the end. Also theyre way harder than half the gen eds you actually take in college, plus AP teachers are usually dicks and your classmates have superiority complexes when in reality hslf of them already peaked. Oh and fucking floss, dental bills are expensive. Like literally bitch you might be depressed or going through it rn but lemme tell you-take care of your teeth even if its the only thing you do today because i just paid a fucking $800 dental bill that ive been putting off for months bc i needed a shitty root canal-not to mention the deep clean and fucking other bullshit. Being an adult is an expensive load of bullshit and quite frankly im tired of it. Ok bye besties
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