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moodysullie · 1 year

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When I say I want something "for science" this is exactly how I'd like it to be.

#they just have some drinks and discuss academically #so why did this scene live in my head and my mind rent free until now #laszlo kreizler #karen stratton #daniel brühl #lara pulver #the alienist #angel of darkness #laszlo kreizler gif #daniel brühl gif #danielbrühledit #thealienistedit #my gifs

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vervainariadne · 1 year

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They say you become someone whom your younger self would feel safe and accepted.

Karen is a lot like Laszlo, and I guess Laszlo's inner child felt safe around her.

It was so comforting for me to watch them. Felt professional and mentally engaging but at the same time it felt like home and natural for me.

#daniel bruhl #laszlo kreizler #daniel brühl #daniel bruhl x reader #the alienist #laszlo kreizler x reader #karen stratton #lara pulver #laszlo x karen #dr laszlo kreizler

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19thcenturylover · 6 days

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MORE RAREPAIRS RARH🗣‼️

Hello, guess who is watching The Alienist again and is suffering like never before? Yes, it's me and it's because the first season is going great AND THEN THE SECOND SEASON EXIST—

Anywayss, One of the few things that I rescue from AoD it's Karen Stratton, she's great and super cute and intriguing anddd I love her... SO I MADE A SHIP WITH SARA BECAUSE I WANT TO FORGET ABOUT ALL THE FUCKING DRAMA WITH JOHN AND THE VIENA THING AND EVERYTHING OKAY?! OKAY

I don't remember if they have interactions and I'm not going to watch the season to find out... so haha :3

And this, I'm going to be honest and say that I didn't see anything from the season in depth until after I made this drawing and I swore that Karen had dark eyes... and no, she has blue eyes apparently🕴

Soo yeah, I also continue with my fixation with TFATWS but idk, I went back to the alienist out nowhere and I love having done it :P

#digitalart #fanart #the alienist #the alienist: angel of darkness #sara howard #Karen Stratton #rarepair #wlw #doodles #let me be with this the second season really feels like a shot in the foot #yeah idk #silly thing :3 #sapphic

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leslie057 · 2 months

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nancy wheeler’s wedding dress

this is a topic i have thought about in depth. so i went shopping for her on one of my favorite vintage fashion blogs and found some STRONG contenders. i thought i would share those with you guys and share the dress i think she would pick……should she so choose to get married

even though she doesn’t strike me as someone who would have a traditional wedding, i feel like she would be all about a fancy white wedding dress. i mean, look at her closet. very frilly very feminine

disclaimer: these dresses are from the 80s and 90s, but i feel like if she got married it would be well into the 90s. second disclaimer: the hypothetical groom in question here is jonathan byers, because i have major jancy bias. hopefully it didn’t distort my research

option 1: modern bride 1988 dress, worn by leslie stratton

one of the first dresses she tries on (dress search takes place across multiple trips) and she would wear short white gloves with it. she likes the drop waist because it’s comfy but ultimately the puff sleeves are too puffy for her

option 2: demetrios 1994 dress, worn by frances nori

this is one of the more “avant garde” ones she tries, and she likes it but she hates the lone flower. she yanks that off (it was just pinned on the dress) and makes the bridal shop employee cry because it’s his first day. she passes this one up because she can’t move much in it

FALSE OPTION: modern bride 1992 dress, worn by julie pewitt

this is NOT A REAL OPTION but karen forces her to try it on because she’s obsessed with it. nancy knows that this dress is batshit crazy, so she refuses to even try on the veil with it

option 3: modern bride 1985 dress, worn on left by valorie keegan

mike wheeler is present for this one and he roasts it to hell and back. “you do realize that looks stupid right” “what specifically do you hate so much about it” “it looks stupid” so she puts it back on the rack and is sad because she loved how the florals continued to the sleeves

option 4: bridal guide 1997 dress, model unknown

this one, obviously, for the heart detail. it’s very nancy and holly loves it. unfortunately, nancy finds that the dress just looks much better in bridal guide than it does in real life

option 5: alfred angelo 1992 dress, worn by joko zohrer

next up we have one of nancy’s favorites. she almost buys this one, she loves how sophisticated it is and the skirt reminds her of a ballet costume. sadly both her mom and holly are super indifferent to the dress, and so she falls out of love with it

option 6: modern bride 1997 dress, worn by christianna

this is her dress. this is literally her dress, she loves it, and you can’t change my mind. she would have that train, but she wouldn’t wear her hair like that and she’d have a veil. she tried this one on early at an out-of-state shop and drove all the way back because she was losing sleep over passing it up. the shape is so simple but the textures are so fancy and so nancy. once he’s seen it, this dress lives rent free in jonathan byers’ head

#thank you for coming to my ted talk #stranger things #nancy wheeler #jonathan byers #jancy #jonathan x nancy #wedding #fashion #wedding dress #bridal

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mrsmaxwelllord · 9 months

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INFATURATION - The Reunion

Pairing: Laszlo Kreizler x Fem!Reader

Summary: After years of solitude, protected by the wall of a house you were forced to call your own, you open the doors to welcome your stepdaughter. Only to see her bring in the man who cause all your misfortune.

A/N: There isn't any warnings bc this chapter only introduces the plot and briefly narrates the reunion of Laszlo and his former lover.

But this is a Persuasion-inspired fic — meaning it is a second-change romance.

I think this is all, for now.

Enjoy!

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It is unthinkable.

The grimace on your face was caught by your company when the stranger’s silhouette took shape. But that was no stranger at all, you could tell, even in the distance when his face was yet to be revealed.

The brown hair, the bright eyes, the cane...

This must be a dream, a terrible nightmare — was your first thought when you recognized the figure.

You gasped for air, tightening your hold on Edwinas arm. You could hear her calling your name, but it was as low as a whisper. Barely there, mixed with the loud waves.

The silhouette doubled, forming a second figure, one that you couldn’t quite place. It was of no consequence, you were transfixed by the approaching man.

Step by ungainly step on the sand he shortened the space between the two of you. In no time his features became visible, demanding attention. The bright brown eyes above anything else, but the matching hair still had its charm even now, curling behind his ears.

When his eyes finally meet yours it is in wonder, but it feels like being punched in the stomach. Hard and painful. There was a knot in your throat and you couldn't breathe properly.

His lips opened to whisper your name.

It was only with a scream you broke out of the devil’s spell.

Daniel, the reason for your oh so tard visit to the beach, was the one to scream and so snape you back to reality. Demanding your attention to the funny shell he found by the Ocean.

You turn around to face him, baffled still.

“Ma’am, are you well?” questioned the governess at the same time Danny screamed “Mama” at the top of his lungs. Your ears were buzzing and, truth be told, you were definitely not in full control of your mental abilities yet.

You did not know to whom you should answer first, the maid or the bubbling infant, but the dripping clothes of the child way too close to the Ocean's waves gave you the directions you needed.

“That is enough, young man” you said, calling your son closer to you.

“Yes, mister,” Edwina agreed upon seeing the deed. “That isn’t proper behaviour.”

He laughs and doesn't shake at your objection, but runs to you and shows the shell holding out his tiny hands.

“M’Sorry” he murmurs “I wanted you to see this. It’s a present, you see?”

You take the shell and thanks for the gift, another addition to your collection.

“Ma’am, how are you feeling?”

You face Edwina, still much aware of the strangers, and force a smile.

“I’m much better. Thank you.”

“You looked so sick just now,” she says.

“No need to worry about it, Edwina.” You look at the couple from the corner of your eye, noticing that they have their arms lined.

She hums and Danny rounds circles around you.

“Oh, what a delightful surprise” Professor Stratton greets you.

You turn around abruptly.

In your terror, you did not recognize the figure beside Doctor Laszlo Kreizler, but now you could tell who it was. Miss Stratton was correct, what a surprise! — you just couldn’t agree with the delightfulness. Miss Stratton was to arrive the very first thing tomorrow morning, but you guessed the ship did not care for men's assumptions.

“Karen” you smile, “you arrived early!”

Her smile was just as bright and contagious as you remember it, and she looked very satisfied. Karen took your hands between hers gently, squeezing it, and, when Daniel very carefully not to be heard whispered a question to Edwina, she gasped.

“Oh, that can’t be!” she turned to him, then asked. “Is this the tiny baby I held in my arms not five years ago? Is this Danny?”

Despite being very excited and anxious about the arrival of his half-sister and not being able to stop talking about her to anyone listening in the previous weeks, Daniel fell silent with her attention. Suddenly very shy.

“Go ahead, Danny” you encouraged him, stretching out your hand so he could hold it and come closer. “Say hello to Karen, she was very excited to see you again.”

“Were you?” he asked, timid.

Dr Keizler stood in silence, flabbergasted, watching the scene before him evolve. Both because nobody introduced or talked to him and he simply could not believe his eyes.

He looked at you and the boy with gushing curiosity, a feeling he couldn't quite describe, but relish. Yearn. He wished you would look him in the eyes, but you were focused on the chatting.

Professor Stratton chatted to the kid she called Danny for a good pair of minutes before turning back to him.

“How can I be so rude?” She faced Laszlo. “Mrs. Stratton, Mrs. Smith, Danny, this is the friend I talked about. Dr Laszlo Kreizler.”

“It is a pleasure, sir,” said Edwina.

Danny promptly, and exaggeratedly, bowed in greeting. Giggling like only a kid could.

You weren’t sure what to do. You already knew Dr Kreizler so the introduction wasn’t necessary, but you also did not know if you wanted everybody to be aware of it.

Before you could do or say anything about it, Karen recalled:

“She originally is from New York, Laszlo. Perhaps you've even seen each other around the city.”

“Indeed. We already met” Laszlo answered, without taking his eyes off of you.

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So, this is it. The first chapter of the fic I talked about months ago. I haven't finished it as I hoped I'd by now, but I really wanted to post this. The Daniel Brühl's fandom is so quiet lately, I miss the old days.

Oh, yes, I did name the kid Daniel!!!! couldn't help it.

I hope you liked it!!

xoxo

#Lazlo Kreizler #laszlo kreizler x reader #laszlo kreizler x you #laszlo kreizler fanfiction #the alienist fanfiction #fanfiction

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leonardcohenofficial · 1 year

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i watched 120 new-to-me films this year; here are the posters from a few of my favorites in no particular order!!

faults (riley stearns, 2014) out of the blue (dennis hopper, 1980) wake in fright (ted kotcheff, 1971) entergalactic (fletcher moules, 2022) histoires d'amérique: food, family and philosophy (chantal akerman, 1989) the woman king (gina prince-bythewood, 2022) waking life (richard linklater, 2001) on the count of three (jerrod carmichael, 2021) thank you and good night (jan oxenberg, 1991)

i’ll tag @lesbiancolumbo / @draftdodgerag / @localpubliclibrary / @calicoskiesacoustic / @jerrylandis / @columbosunday / @harrierdoobie / @sightofsea and anyone else who’d like to do this!! 🌟

entire watchlist from 2022 is below the cut:

the world to come (mona fastvold, 2020)

nancy (christina choe, 2018)

la bouche de jean-pierre (lucile hadžihalilović, 1996)

run (aneesh chaganty, 2020)

the mosquito coast (peter weir, 1986)

mass (fran kanz, 2021)

a field in england (ben wheatley, 2014)

angels wear white (vivian qu, 2017)

a cape cod christmas (john stimpson, 2021)

shook (jennifer harrington, 2021)

outing riley (pete jones, 2004)

love & mercy (bill pohlad, 2014)

small engine repair (john pollono, 2021)

the fallout (megan park, 2021)

clemency (chinonye chukwu, 2019)

red elvis (thomas latter, 2022)

calendar girls (nigel cole, 2003)

the little hours (jeff baena, 2017)

out of the blue (dennis hopper, 1980)

aya of yop city (marguerite abouet and clement oubrerie, 2013)

fresh (mimi cave, 2022)

jesus camp (rachel grady, 2006)

bamboozled (spike lee, 2000)

master (mariama diallo, 2022)

the world of us (yoon ga-eun, 2016)

jezebel (numa perrier, 2019)

the cat, the reverend and the slave (alain della negra and kaori kinoshita, 2009)

cohabitation (lauren barker, 2022)

the queen of versailles (lauren greenfield, 2012)

secret ceremony (joseph losey, 1968)

the northman (robert eggers, 2022)

the silent partner (daryl duke, 1978)

in secret (charlie stratton, 2013)

the ground beneath my feet (marie kreutzer, 2019)

the man who haunted himself (basil dearden, 1970)

woodlands dark and days bewitched: a history of folk horror (kier-la janisse, 2021)

the miseducation of cameron post (desiree akhavan, 2018)

roadrunner: a film about anthony bourdain (morgan neville, 2021)

karen dalton: in my own time (richard peete and robert yapkowitz, 2020)

fire music (tom surgal, 2018)

histoires d'amérique: food, family and philosophy (chantal akerman, 1989)

fruit of paradise (věra chytilová, 1969)

a different image (alile sharon larkin, 1982)

preparations to be together for an unknown period of time (lili horvát, 2020)

candyman (nia dacosta, 2021)

fan girl (antoinette jadaone, 2020)

chicago 10 (brett morgen, 2007)

pray away (kristine stolakis, 2021)

mavis! (jessica edwards, 2015)

M (yolande zauberman, 2018)

wake in fright (ted kotcheff, 1971)

thomasine & bushrod (gordon parks, 1974)

desire me (released uncredited; jack conway, george cukor, mervyn le roy, and victor saville, 1947)

faults (riley stearns, 2014)

premature (rashaad ernesto green, 2019)

mother joan of the angels (jerzy kawalerowicz, 1961)

the loft (erik van looy, 2014)

the black phone (scott derrickson, 2022)

no exit (damien power, 2022)

nope (jordan peele, 2022)

paprika (satoshi kon, 2006)

our eternal summer (émilie aussel, 2021)

playground (laura wandel, 2021)

not okay (quinn shephard, 2022)

everything everywhere all at once (daniel kwan and daniel scheinert, 2022)

pressure point (hubert cornfield, 1962)

sharp stick (lena dunham, 2022)

on the count of three (jerrod carmichael, 2021)

martha marcy may marlene (sean durkin, 2011)

waking life (richard linklater, 2001)

sicaro (denis villeneuve, 2015)

arrival (denis villeneuve, 2016)

this magnificent cake! (emma de swaef and marc james roels, 2018)

chevalier (athina rachel tsangari, 2015)

young and wild (marialy rivas, 2012)

alice (krystin ver linden, 2022)

shame (steve mcqueen, 2011)

good madam (jenna cato bass, 2022)

black bear (lawrence michael levine, 2020)

speak no evil (christian tafdrup, 2022)

wet sand (elene naveriani, 2021)

the catholic school (stefano mordini, 2021)

poly styrene: i am a cliché (celeste bell and paul sng, 2021)

the violators (helen walsh, 2015)

the woman king (gina prince-bythewood, 2022)

the killing kind (curtis harrington, 1973)

oleanna (david mamet, 1994)

entergalactic (fletcher moules, 2022)

the more the merrier (george stevens, 1943)

primrose path (gregory la cava, 1940)

watcher (chloe okuno, 2022)

enemy (dennis villenueve, 2013)

darlin' (pollyanna mcintosh, 2019)

sissy (kane senes and hannah barlow, 2022)

till (chinonye chukwu, 2022)

black panther: wakanda forever (ryan coogler, 2022)

the hunt (thomas vinterberg, 2012)

the other side of the underneath (jane arden, 1972)

barbarian (zach cregger, 2022)

the intervention (clea duvall, 2016)

sorry to bother you (boots riley, 2018)

the silent twins (agnieszka smoczyńska, 2022)

tahara (olivia peace, 2020)

arranged (diane crespo and stefan schaefer, 2007)

swimming (luzie loose, 2018)

#like (sarah pirozek, 2019)

babysitter (monia chokri, 2022)

chico and rita (tono errando, fernando trueba, and javier mariscal, 2010)

pleasure (ninja thyberg, 2021)

john the violent (tonia marketaki, 1967)

fat girl (catherine breillat, 2001)

lemon (janicza bravo, 2017)

thank you and good night (jan oxenberg, 1991)

what about me (rachel amodeo, 1993)

the KKK boutique ain’t just rednecks (camille billops and james hatch, 1994)

sun don’t shine (amy seimetz, 2012)

zero fucks given (emmanuel marre and julie lecoustre, 2021)

piggy (carlota pereda, 2022)

ladyworld (amanda kramer, 2018)

wolf's hole (věra chytilová, 1987)

#we'll see if i can do 150 films next year lmao

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famefckrmoved · 8 months

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click the heart for a spooky season muse starter!

spooky season muses include: marnie piper, lia abbot, laurie stratton, all fear street muses, aggie cromwell, beth meyers, juliet van heusen, logan bennett, stevie bell, addison wells, kirby reed, quinn bailey, annika kayoko, tara carpenter, wes hicks, grace wynn, lia nolan, mila ramos, zoey mccausland, karen riley, sally shine, anna petterson,

bold + italics are highest muse, italics are moderate muse.

#╰ ––––––– ✧ ic : starter call ❨ click the heart ❩

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eddieredmayneargentinablog · 1 year

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#new/old photos

I found this on Facebook!

Little Eddie in the production of "Oliver!", directed by Sam Mendes, in 1994 !! 😍

"Oliver! at the London Palladium. Sam Mendes directing, Matthew Bourne choreographing. Jonathan Pryce as Fagin and Eddie Redmayne as a workhouse boy".

Photos Credit: Karen Stratton, published in the Public Facebook Group "Red Plush and Grease Paint" .

#eddie redmayne #eddieredmayne #redmayne #oliver #london theatre #1994 #sam mendes #london palladium

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madmonksandmaenads · 4 months

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Hi y'all! Today is my birthday. Here's an offer for anyone who wants, below is a list of books I'd like to read and the price I can find them for. If you send me the cost of a book to my paypal @ddbergsman and put the title of the book in the notes on the payment, then I will read and write a review of the book for publication on this blog. I've got a wide range of interests so I'm sure most of my followers will find something interesting below. Now without further ado, the reading list:

Liber Null and Psychonauts: The Practice of Chaos Magic by Peter J. Carrol: $16.45 The Book of Urizen by William Blake: $7.89 Modern Greek folklore and ancient Greek religion: A study in survivals: $15.19

Goetic Liturgy by Jake Stratton-Kent: $16.20

Liber Pennae Praenumbra: The Book of the Pre-Shadowing of the Feather by Soror Nema: $18.70

LIONESS: THE SONG OF INANNA by Samuel David: $65 Of Cosmogonic Eros by Ludwig Klages: $80 Bandits and Bureaucrats: The Market of Kinshasa by Karen Barkey: $8.99

Pandemonium: A Discordant Concordance of Diverse Spirit Catalogues by Jake Stratton-Kent: $22.05

House of Leaves by Mark Z. Danielewski: $23.51

Dionysos Exciter to Frenzy: A study of the God Dionysos: history, myth and lore by Vikki Bramshaw: $24.99

Iamblichus on the Mysteries of the Egyptians, Chaldeans, and Assyrians: $10 Serpent Ikons by Helena van El & Shandi AzK/Bouscatier: $10

Witchcraft and Magic in Europe, Volume 2: Ancient Greece and Rome by Richard Gordon: $48.70

Divine Mania: Alteration of Consciousness in Ancient Greece by Yulia Ustinova: $69.29

Hekate Soteira: A Study of Hekate's Roles in the Chaldean Oracles and Related Literature by Sarah Iles Johnston: $48.99

The Litanies of Thoth by Zemaemidjehuty: $55

Foucault's Pendulum by Umberto Eco: $7

#reading list

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linus-wickworth · 11 months

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Books I Read in May

5 stars:

Never Rest by Marshall Thornton

December Park by Ronald Malfi

Heartstopper 1-4 by Alice Oseman (Reread)

All That's Left in the World by Erik J. Brown (Reread)

What I Was by Meg Rosoff

The Girl in the Box by Ouida Sebestyen

The Picture of Dorian Gray by Oscar Wilde

I Know This Much Is True by Wally Lamb

4.5 stars:

House of Stairs by William Sleator

Mosquitoland by David Arnold

Lose You to Find Me by Erik J. Brown

Spud: Exit, Pursued By A Bear by John van de Ruit

Miss Peregrine's Home for Peculiar Children by Ransom Riggs

In the Forest by Edna O'Brien

Tales of the Peculiar by Ransom Riggs

They Both Die at the End by Adam Silvera (Reread)

4 stars:

The Spuddy by Lillian Beckwith

Fever 1793 by Laurie Halse Anderson

Goodbye Days by Jeff Zentner

Hollow City by Ransom Riggs

Tales of King Arthur by James Riordan

Ethan by Ryan Loveless

Hit and Run by R. L. Stine

Street Child by Berlie Doherty

A Little Princess by Frances Hodgson Burnett

The Reckless Afterlife of Harriet Stoker by Lauren James

The Dogs by Allan Stratton

On My Honor by Marion Dane Bauer

Dr. Bird's Advice for Sad Poets by Evan Roskos

This Might Hurt a Bit by Doogie Horner

3.5 stars:

A Doll's House by Henrik Ibsen

A Lite Too Bright by Samuel Miller

Library of Souls by Ransom Riggs

Hostage by Karen Tayleur

Game As Ned by Tim Pegler

3 stars:

Prove Yourself a Hero by K.M. Peyton

Me, The Missing, and the Dead by Jenny Valentine

Five Have a Wonderful Time by Enid Blyton

Five Go Down to the Sea by Enid Blyton

2.5 stars:

The Unspoken by Thomas Fahy

The Boy with the Snowgrass Hair by Elsie Locke

Stranded on Terror Island by Lee Roddy

Compulsion by Tania Kelly Roxborogh

The Siege of Trapp's Mill by Annabel Farjeon

Saving Grace by Darlene Ryan

2 stars:

The First Fifteen Lives of Harry August by Claire North

If I Love You, Am I Trapped Forever? by M. E. Kerr

Stony Heart Country by David Metzenthen

1.5 stars:

Avi Cantor Has Six Months to Live by Sacha Lamb

#reading update #bookblr #booklr #may books #this was my best reading month so far #books

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ao3feed-irenelock · 2 years

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Червопис 2022

Warning: Some M/M works might show up here because the Sherlock/Irene tag is used in ref to S/I as a side pairing, past pairing, etc. Currently there is no way to filter and exclude feeds on Ao3 to get only S/I F/M works.Solution. Read at your own risk.

by Mrs_Blackwell

Збірник моїх робіт з червопису (український тренд в твіттері)

Words: 2758, Chapters: 4/30, Language: Українська

Fandoms: The Alienist (TV), Дом в котором - Мариам Петросян | The Gray House - Mariam Petrosyan, Шерлок Холмс | Sherlock Holmes (TV 2013), Sherlock (TV)

Rating: General Audiences

Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings, No Archive Warnings Apply

Categories: Multi

Characters: Sphinx (Dom v Kotorom), Blind (Dom v Kotorom), Irene Adler (Sherlock Holmes), Sherlock Holmes

Relationships: Laszlo Kreizler/Karen Stratton, Irene Adler/Sherlock Holmes

Additional Tags: Drabble Collection

read it on the AO3 at https://archiveofourown.org/works/40004925 via AO3 works tagged 'Irene Adler/Sherlock Holmes' https://archiveofourown.org/works/40004925 Remember to check out http://adler-holmes.livejournal.com

Need an Ao3 invite? Don't want to wait? Get one via LiveJournal or Dreamwidth

#irenelock #adlock #sherene #shirene #sherlock holmes #irene adler #ao3feed

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0ghostwriter0 · 3 years

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Nothing More | Laszlo Kreizler

MASTERLIST

Pairings: Dr Laszlo Kreizler x Reader

Summary: Dr Kreizler has made a choice but was it the wrong time. (no Mary in this Au)

Words: Too many to count

Warnings: Karen Stratton? Is that a warning in itself?

The distance seemed stupid to miss. While Dr Kreizler was only at sat at the table, the empty space between you suffocated the warmth that once joined you together. After the retrieval of the Vanderbilt baby, Laszlo was different it was like a switch had been flipped. Despite the whispers, you pushed away the idea that Laszlo had given up on you. His meetings with Prof. Stratton felt like a kick in the teeth but in your mind it was simply a meeting between colleagues.

As you stood from your position on the floor, you were leaving the corner of safety- supported by the knowledge of the bookshelves- to venture into the unknown. He knew by your inability to focus on one spot in the room that he was about to lose everything. you dropped your feet in front of Laszlo without a moment's thought and everything changed. The tears that threaten to flood the room broke past the gates.

"Y/N" he whispered not wanting to look at the fresh tears that began to stain your face.

"I don't want to listen to them. the rumours that you are leaving this all behind to follow h- but I need you to tell me if it's true." your words rushed from your mouth before you mind could reel them back.

"Y/N I have de-" you cut through his words with one sharp snap.

"No. your giving this up- your institute? Or is this because of m- You told me you would wait for me" you reached out to hold his right hand. He jolted away from you and stood abruptly from his seat. You almost fell apart at the sight of his recall from you but perhaps the density of the air around you sung songs of hurt.

"and when would you be ready? Because I have been a patient man and anyone in my position would move on; I'm tired of waiting; its all I ever do at present." His words cut like a knife, slicing off a piece of your heart. But there it was, his admission that despite the reassurance he had found someone else to consume his thoughts like you did. However, you were not surprised but his reaction. The alienist was often impatient and direct but never with you. Over the years of, some would call, companionship, you'd seen Las snap at the slow work of John or the tedious wait for his next appointment with parents who were most definitely later than arranged.

"I wish Professor Stratton and yourself all the best for whatever the future may hold" As you spoke, you knew that you shouldn't fight for a man who's heart lies elsewhere. So your plan b became your only option. Reaching into the confines of your skirt pocket, you withdrew a detailed letter addressed to the head of The Kreizler Institute.

"Y/N/N" his words sent chills down your spine but your abrupt movement to place the letter in front of Laszlo removed the warmth that only radiated between you both.

"From this moment forth, I believe it is appropriate to use formalities rather than niceties. Once you read that there parchment, you'll have no use for my service within the institute so I'll remove myself before that moment." Las' face dropped as he understood this would be the final time you would be in his life in such a permeant manner. You were resigning - leaving him. But he left you first.

You feet dragged you from the very air he breathed as you left this life behind. Once the close colleague and friend, who aided the progression of children, you became the stranger who muttered educated conundrums to the council once again. Jobless and heartbroken, you would now admit that you were lost in New York.

However, Kreizler sat in shock from the events that unfolded before him. Yes it were his actions which had caused your departure but now nothing stood of your relationship, not in a professional manner as colleague and certainly not your mutual romantic interest. He was a man of many things but he was not one who took well to speaking of his feelings.

Five months prior,

After three years of dancing around a friendship to avoid confrontation, Laszlo had been rather blunt with his address of the progression of your involvement together. He'd opened that can of worms when he requested that you resigned in order to pursue a romantic interest in your life. However, his request was met with refusal as you said and quote

"If you'd never asked to lend a hand here in order to keep me close rather than requested to start a friendship, then right now I would jump at the prospects of courting but I cannot abandon my position here at the drop of a hat. I waited for years for you to admit something before I became to deeply involved with this institute. If a courtship is something you desire, then I must beg that you will allow me the time to wrap my head around the subject."

A nod from the doctor was the end of that conversation and since the topic had not been breached. You had feared it was a spur of the moment conversation in suspicion that a woman was to be hung the following day. Perhaps it was a conversation which had eaten at Laszlo's mind as much as your own. Then Professor Stratton offered a spark of interest to dispose you from his mind. One which any intellectual would take as a sign of development and a future. The Kreizler doctor had never been like everyone else which made this moment sting more than one would be inclined to expect.

So now, you walk alone to a rented room in an apartment which you'd be sure to leave as soon as you found a new place to start again. No matter how much you prayed, you knew deep down that Dr. Kreizler was not the man who would run after you. But regardless of what happened today, you were always going to resign whether it was to finally accept his proposal of courtship or to leave with a broken heart. Nothing more would come of your time together.

or so you thought ...

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