EVERYTHING we love about bella is stripped away by Edward and vampirism. Her clumsiness, her blush, her brown eyes. The way she loves the sun and Arizona. She loved to cook and now she will never eat again. She hated the cold and now she is cold stone. Edward discards her truck and replaces it with a brand new Mercedes’ she didn’t even like. Which always felt like symbolism to me. Some may see it as an upgrade, as a nice gift… but Bella never wanted it. Think of how EXCITED she was to get that truck and how uncomfortable she was then with the Mercedes. If Bella wanted an upgrade, SHE SHOULDVE PICKED THE CAR. But no.. Edward literally just DISCARDED IT. Bella never liked flashy things or parties but now she’s subjected to that forever.

I think it’s fucking insane that people will say theyre Team Edward cause they’re not “anti-choice.” What did y’all read bc….. what. Just because Bella chooses to be a vampire? To die? She was OBSESSED with the easy way out. She was obsessed with Edward cause they were trauma bonded and she had such horrific self esteem. Just cause Bella chose to be a vampire doesn’t make it a good thing. It is a tragedy and always will be to me. Unless you never gave a fuck about her as a human I suppose. 😗✌️ Bella is an unreliable narrator and was under vampire thrall. Bella was severely traumatized by Edward and felt worthless as a human. Bella had a chance to grow with Jacob and she WOULD HAVE. But she would have PTSD that she could work through. You may be like “she would’ve never gotten over edward.” Yeah she would’ve and she would’ve realized that him haunting her was all Stockholm syndrome.

I’m not “anti choice” for acknowledging Bella’s choice was the wrong one. ExB’s relationship ruined lives, killed people, put the wolfpack through literal HELL and eventually enslaved the wolfpack to them. All for “love” LMAO! It wasn’t love, it was obsession, bloodlust, trauma bonding, low self worth, co dependency.

Anyway. I started a Breaking Dawn rewrite fic where Bella realizes all this shit and heals.

me in my room giving a speech about how they purposely removed important key traits about jacob from the new moon movie that made him a better person in the book like how he told bella he would be her friend if that’s what she wanted but he would wait forever to be a romantic partner for her if she ever decided that but he wasn’t trying to push her to be in a relationship and how in the book bella doesn’t have to tell him that she doesn’t like music anymore he just figured that out on his own and in the book he doesn’t bring up edward to her randomly like that scene where he talks about “that cullen guy” and her smile fades that doesn’t happen in the book he literally avoids mentioning edward because he can tell that would make her really upset and he knows her so well and he’s a great friend to her and even if you don’t ship bella and jacob together you end up loving his character while you read new moon and-

“It's just that, I know how you're unhappy a lot. And, maybe it doesn't help anything, but I wanted you to know that I'm always here. I won't ever let you down– I promise that you can always count on me. Wow, that does sound corny. But you know that, right? That I would never, ever hurt you?” 

Isabella Swan & Jacob Black in The Twilight Saga (2008-2012)

I hate twilight’s writing and it has way too many problematic things to count but let’s be clear for a second:

Jacob was objectively the best choice for Bella. Period.

He was a genuinely kind boy, he and Bella had a good, believable friendship, Bella fell in love with him because of HIM and not some magical predator quirks that lured her in (like with Edward), Jacob never controlled Bella, never stalked Bella, never fantasised about killing her and draining her of blood, etc.

“B-b-but when he imprinted on her daughter—🤓“ that was character assassination. The author took the best thing that happened to this franchise and murdered it right in front of our eyes. S.M couldn’t keep her own character’s consistent but it‘s not Jacob’s fault.

TWILIGHT: NEW MOON

✨the bedroom scene ✨

Stephenie was on some wild shit when she said "warmth and sunlight and being yourself effortlessly and caring about what makes you comfortable and homemade gifts that you love" cannot win against "cold and stone and feeling inadequate and having your wishes and boundaries ignored and condescension and expensive gifts that make you uncomfortable."

I think in the universe where the Cullens aren't in Forks, Bella Swan takes a while to come out of her shell, but when she does, she's witty and passionate and smart as a whip, even if she's still quiet and reserved. She sits with Jessica Stanley, who demands the best of everyone, and tells her friends about her boyfriend down on the rez, who is sweet and caring and funny and good with his hands, who works for everything he's ever had.

After class, during a sleepover, Bella whispers to tell Angie and Jess about the night after prom, even though her father, loving and careless, worries about her only a normal amount and loves Jacob Black like his own. When she gets into Dartmouth--all by herself, through study sessions in garages and with Jessica and in Angela's house--she chooses to go to Stanford instead. She misses the heat and light on her skin, even after falling in love with the rain. Jessica comes with her; Angela and Eric go to U of Washington in Seattle instead, for education and journalism respectively.

Bella makes sure to call every week and then one day she drives down to Seattle and her boyfriend, warm like the sun she loves and at least twice as reliable, becomes her fiancé. The ring isn't especially big or ornate or pricey, but the way she smiles could trick anyone into thinking that it was. All of her friends, new and old, are waiting at the small party afterwards, and Bella laughs the entire time. The engagement cake--chocolate, her favourite--is sweet and moist against her tongue.

She moves back to Forks once she gets her masters in information sciences and becomes the town's librarian. She gets married a month before the move, barefoot in the surf and her old prom dress, both her parents weeping with joy and Billy Black beaming damn near as bright as his son, Sue Clearwater holding his hand.

She raises her kids --both beautiful children, blessed with Jake's thick, long hair--with Angela and Eric's and takes them down to Los Angeles to visit their auntie Jess and her husband Quil, who lavishes them with gifts from her career as a top surgeon. She jokes about having to support Quil's career as an environmental lawyer and displays each and every one of his wins alongside her diplomas. When William Black II decides he wants to be a doctor too, she writes him a shining letter of recommendation to her alma mater. Sarah, who has always been the spitting image of her father, joins and eventually takes over Jacob's mechanic shop.

On occasion, Bella fights with Jacob, even though he's the love of her life. Despite this, she is never afraid of him, and he never stops her from doing what she wants. Instead, he goes out and works on his cars and comes back in an hour later with slightly greasy hands and a bouquet of flowers from Emily Young's little garden, planted to celebrate her cousin Leah Uley's wedding. Bella makes him muffins, recipe courtesy of Sue and missing bites courtesy of Seth, Colin, Sarah, Will, and Claire, with raspberries, not blueberries, just how Jake likes them. They make up, and they make changes, and they go on.

Eventually, both slower and quicker than she realizes, Bella gets old. She lives in fear of losing herself, of losing her husband and her children, like her grandmother had. But she remembers her grandkids to the very end, even gets to meet her first great-grandchild a week before it happens. Her heart gives out before her brain does, too weak and too slow.

It was too full of love, the letter from Jacob says. Sarah reads it. Her father passed a day after his wife--simply too heartbroken to live without her. Much of the town of Forks and hordes of family attend their funeral, remembering a life well lived.

It is an unremarkable life, in the grand scheme of things. She does not live to be a thousand; she is no great beast, with speed like the wind and strength; she does not discover her powers or lead a great defiance. Bella Black, happy and human and surrounded by love, could never imagine wanting anything else.

hivemind bella casting is lily collins, thus, my blue bella moodboard

this speaks for itself and is literally so fucking sad to me.

had this thought and needed to make it immediately

365 relationships; bella swan and jacob black

but you know that, right? that i would never, ever hurt you?

yall wanna act like bella never wanted jacob why are they literally dating in new moon then? “bella, honey” “i won’t lose you. not over this” “are you breaking up with me?” “our werewolves” “my jacob” “what we had was much more than a schoolyard romance” “he shouldn’t have brought his girlfriend into this” “my sun” “i had never meant to love him” “there was nothing left in my life at this point that was more important than jacob black” “i can’t imagine how i could not like being with you” “you know i [like you]” this is literally a Romantic Couple

i think a lot of people that haven't read the books don't realize how close Bella and Jacob were in New Moon. You get a little bit of it in the movie, but most of the book is consumed by it. They are with each other constantly, they are making inside jokes, confiding in each other about things they can't talk about with anyone else, and taking care of each other all the time. Bella describes how being with him is bringing her back to life. That doesn't really translate fully in the movie and that's why I feel like a lot of fans that only watch the movies are quick to choose Team Edward.

Stephenie Meyer, “Eclipse” // Emily Bronte, “Wuthering Heights” // Unknown, r/UnsentLetters // a.r. asher // Pavana // N. R. Hart // Unknown // James Cameron, “Titanic”

come ON GUYS. you gonna watch bella run into the arms of jacob after the wedding and tell me shes NOT IN LOVE W HIM????? like that SMILE!!!! THE HUGE EMBRACE HE WRAPS HER IN?????? that’s love. that’s soulmate shit. fuck out of here with the edward love story line. i ONLY know jacob and bella