i love that in the first book, bella’s free time from school & dealing w moody vampires is just. cooking dinner & reading the same book 5 times in a row.
it may seem like a lack of character development- but i too spend most of my time trying to remember the basic necessities i need to not die & hyperfocusing on a single piece of media for 8 months.
i’m no longer diagnosing my clients with depressive disorders or ptsd their clinical diagnosis is now officially described as “in their bella swan new moon era”
I was always back and forth on many things about Twilight, and one of them being the fact that Bella was so adamant about being a vampire, it seemed as though she was willing to give up everything for Edward. She was willing to let go of Renee, Charlie, Jacob, the pack, and her friends, but then I thought about it.
Bella spent the majority of her life taking care of her mother, she had to give up a lot of her childhood for Renee, She never had any friends, and her mother chose her new husband over Bella.
And living with her mother, being so far away from Charlie, when she finally comes to Forks, we immediately see that her and Charlie's are not close, and it is heavily implied that they barely know anything about each other.
She moves to a new town of people who are already obsessed with her even though she barely remembers them, a lot of people who do not understand boundaries. When she finally gets to school she is greeted with a rude "joke," with the same guy that kisses her without her consent, many of her guy friends are constantly trying to date her, touching her etc. and Jessica is very rude.
She’s overloaded with people in this town who really do not seem to actually care about her, and what she wants.
Bella didn't really have anybody until she met Edward and his family. Edward at first, is the only person at school who isn't obsessing over her, to her face. I mean yes, he is very rude, but he is constantly asking her about things that she likes, her dislikes, things going on in her life, he seems to actually care.
And then he saves her, and when he finally lets her into his life she sees how extraordinary him and his family are, she finally gets some excitement in her life, she finally gets a life. She becomes close with almost all of them, when she learns more about them, how they turned, why they turned, etc. She learns that after they were all turned, when they found each other, they obtained love, parents, kids, family, a family that helps each other, do anything for each other and that are there for each other. As well as seeing them as beautiful, and fast and strong, and we also see that with the packs as well. And I think that is why Bella gravitated more to the supernatural side, because with that she will get, and become what she’s always wanted.
all i’m saying, is that if I were alice in breaking dawn.. i would HIGHLY suspect that the kid was jacobs.
over a century & the only thing that blocks her vision is the werewolves… and now this fetus. u know there’s some tension between bella & jacob... half her headache was probably trying to mentally prepare for that possibility.