Posting art on the wrong blog again...

But this is fanart for the amazing fanfic Lonely Eyes by @sourweather-fics

Undercut is flat colors and the @ to my art blog & random info about the piece

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The drawing is based on the most recent chapter called " I'll Send All My Lovin' to You" and his outfit is semi inspired by Canon including that really silly red sweater he wears

hate hate hate when people aks your advice & then ignore it

Hello, followers.

In front of you is a masterpost made by my husband, it was weeks of work and organising alongside a huge effort and determination to assist Argentinian artists.

You have one button to press, if you choose to press it you can stay but if you refrain i will slowly start filling the room with gas blocking you all.

You understand that i do not need to let you stay here as this was never a space for you.

I am so proud of him and the efforts he has put in and it takes only a moment for you to spread that, this is not only for him but an entire group of artists and creatives who deserve recognition and visibility. I know you see the post, i get notes as you scroll through liking posts meant to be shared with my husband.

You have 48 hours or until i get annoyed enough.

midterms are scrambling my brain and turning it to mush

hello! ive been reading a lot of ur works, and i love all of them so much! this is my first time requesting, so i was wondering if i can request for bf ness headcanons?

i love to think that hes always very touchy with his s/o, like placing his hand on their waist when they walk, his head buried on their neck and hugging them from behind while his s/o is doing smth, placing his hand on his s/o’s shoulder. and also the dates!! i feel like he’s the type to take his s/o to aquarium dates or amusement park dates. im just really deprived of some ness fics and its quite sad to see some few fics of him here :((

thats all, i hope you have a great day! <33

Thank you! Regarding Ness and physical affection, I already wrote a very short drabble in the love languages thing, but I expanded on that a little here :]

Requests open! - masterlist

Tags: gn!reader x Alexis Ness, established relationship, fluff

In the beginning of your relationship, Ness was pretty shy about showing physical affection. He's always loved and craved it, but it took him a few months until he managed to initiate touching you in any way. And even now, Ness still gets slightly flustered every time he reaches out to hold your hand. And he gets even more flustered whenever he asks for cuddles. Speaking of cuddling, Ness loves being the little spoon. He doesn't mind being the big spoon if you ask him to, but when the decision is up to him he always chooses to be the little spoon. Nothing makes him feel more at peace than being kept safely in your arms. Bonus if you're giving him forehead kisses every now and then and running your fingers through his hair. He can feel his heart melting every single time you do that. Even though he still gets so easily flustered, Ness has gotten a lot more touchy than he used to be in the first months of the relationship. He looks for your touch whenever he can. Something always feels off when you're sitting next to each other and he doesn't have his arm wrapped around your waist.

Ness loves to take you out on dates in his hometown. Everywhere you go together he tells you stories from his childhood and you can see his inner child sparkling whenever you pass one of his favourite places. And no matter how often you go there, Ness always has new stories to tell. He still lives there, but something about showing you around and telling you stories from his childhood makes everything so much more special. Sometimes Ness just goes on and on over something that may seem so minor to others, but you can see how much joy it brings him to tell you about it. It may be a little memory from years ago, but it's a piece of him he wants to share with you.

But for special occasions like anniversaries, Ness always plans a special date. His favourite is going to the petting zoo! Seeing you surrounded by all kinds of animals makes his heart melt in a matter of seconds.

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tip for everyone frustrated with only getting "boring" attacks (no interactions, head shots, not doing anything, yk what i mean)

draw the thing youd like to get more attacks of

i have one oc that has several interaction pieces with his bf up and every single attack ive gotten of him so far was an interaction piece

another character of mine i draw a lot sitting on roofs/with backgrounds, and boom. tons of attacks with backgrounds

my partner has the same experience with interaction pieces and ocs doing hobbies and stuff, it works really well lmao

people dont read the wishlist/description of your oc, but they do look at the drawings you have up

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my bf and i are currently watching good omens 2 and (for obviously spoilery reasons) i haven’t yet gotten around to scouring ao3 for some ineffable husbands content SO when we are done i will be doing so. however if anyone sees this post and has any good recommendations PLEASE leave them for me!! i will read them!! those 2 are all ive been thinking about for the past 4 days LMAO

replying to all the 10tihay rbs here because i dont want to spam reblog it LMFAO

@jlheon LITERALLY THANJ YYOU SO MUCH FOR READING FIRST OF ALL. im glad he is so bf!! i tried my best :(( but we both single girl 🤞🤞 you’ll find someone! i actually thought about making yn hit sooyun but i felt like it wouldnt have made much sense for the story or for the character (but honestly i wanted her to) thank you so much for reading!

@luvyizhuo again, thank you for reading! im glad you liked the progression (also complimenting small details like that is so helpful so thank you!!) im glad you enjoyed <3

@minnies-duo thank you for reading! i’m glad you enjoyed hehe ^_^ but the drunk scene is my favorite considering its kind of like a turning point for our y/n !! im glad you caught that the guys were over because i wanted to make it seem like he would drop anything for y/n (even if she hated him at the time) thank you for reading love!

@star-sim hi my vanya, thank you for reading!! ALSO SAAYING ITS LIKR A 90’S ROMCOM?? biggestt compliment ive ever gotten oh lord thats so sweet. thank you for noticing the soft spoken part! i wanted to make heeseung like a total opposite to y/n but he still loves her anyway and would do anything for her. ex : yn being a b word and heeseung still thinking shes like a god almighty that is privileged to be in her presence (hence the nickname angel ^_^) anyways sorry for ranting, i’m glad you enjoyed!

@hanniluvi has anyone told you youre the sweetest person ever. UGH THANK YOU FOR READING. also heeseung is an unbothered king! ignorance is bliss right ^_^ but yes without sooyun heeyn would be nothing but DUST like i hate u but… also im glad you understood everything! i tried my best (because sometimes i read stuff and im like what tf does that mean half the time) so i’m glad you enjoyed! ><

@faerinini hello!! i am infact reading this, and i want to thank YOU for reading my works!! ugh things like this motivate writes so much! so thank you so much for being so sweet and enjoying my silly little fics !! ^_^

@hysgf hellooo thank you so much for reading!! SOOYUN HATER CLUB FOR LIFEEE >< but omg guys it is actually like a 2000 romcom.. i think i blushed T^T anyways thank you so much for enjoying it!! youre comments are very appreciated ^_^

more will be added on <3

idk lil personal ramble under the cut. im sentimental.

i fucking love niche hobbies. i love reconnecting w my old interests with a new unbiased light.

i used to be made fun of for how into little things i got. my passion abt bugs specifically got me bullied pretty heavily as a young autistic kid. i believed in every individual bugs’ life. so kids would torture and kill any bugs they found in front of me. its actually fucked up thinking back on it. theyd make cicadas scream and tear off their wings and legs before squashing them just so i would cry.

so i stopped openly caring and grew afraid of bugs as a result.

then i developed vermiphobia in high school and i was made fun of very openly by who i thought was my best friend at the time. she tormented me that day.

its been 6 years since ive ever exchanged a word with her. its been even more years since ive had anyone pick on me maliciously, many years since i had a “friend” pick on me for what i am and am not interested in or scared of.

in 2021 i re-realised my love for entomology. i started reading and studying, feeling that spark of passion again was invigorating!

its 2023 now.

my bf has a riff with a student of his where they exchange spider facts, he asks me for some to give her every wednesday.

last night, we stopped to fill up fuel, i stopped him from walking so he didn’t step on a beetle. he didn’t make fun of me or anything, hell, he was worried that maybe he did step on it and felt bad for it! the beetle was okay, i tossed him to the grass after my bf and i admired it. that would’ve gotten me bullied as a kid. not now.

i have friends both in person and online who think of me when they see an unidentified insect or spider. members of my family and lots of my friends and even co-workers pick up interesting bugs that died on their windowsills or that they found in abandoned webs or dusty corners!!

ive made people keep their eye out for the beauty of insects, even those who admit that theyre scared of them see them in a slightly different light due to my passion for it. like “wow i think this is scary, but charles would probably think this is so cool wouldnt he?”

im doing reading to find out spider facts to exchange with my bfs student as i thought about all this. its just… nice. its rly rly nice. genuinely.

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god i miss being in love. i miss being a little obsessive about it. i don’t think i miss that one ex anymore but i do miss how i felt about her. and i don’t know whether i need to stop comparing my current situationship to her and just let myself be content with this Good Enough relationship bc im young and i have time to find another love of my life later after ive gotten my shit together etc. or if i should spare both of our feelings and end things now in search of something better. i don’t want to end things w them but like. we’re past the point where i can casually see other ppl too i think so i have to be happy with what i have rn rather than daydream about something that could be? and i can put in effort to make this something better assuming they’re wanting slash able to do that too. idk. their summer schedule is weird

it’s my romance books that make me feel this way lol and make me want to curl up with someone and cry with someone and that’s something about That One ex, i didn’t enjoy crying w her but i think sam would be more sturdy and comforting if i cried w them. lol. i also had an orgasm that wasn’t particularly remarkable, just solid, but afterwards i was so overwhelmed with longing it was like i desperately needed aftercare but i was alone and that happens sometimes so yeah and i guess i wish i was able to text them ‘i miss you’ when i accidentally make myself feel like that and they could send me a little smiley face emoticon and maybe it turns into sexting or maybe they send me a pic of their cat and i say thank you and go read some soft sc fic. idk. what i want From A Relafionship and what i want From Them Specifically conflicts sometimes or maybe it doesn’t and i am just still learning how and where those concepts intersect. i know i do want to take things to the next level with them emotionally. i want to take them to the bug room at a museum and ask them to be my bf and they pack us pbjs that we can eat while grinning. and then ideally i drive us home and we fuck like rabbits and then maybe take a bath together bc they have a fucking bath in their apartment which is crazy. idk. i’m ready to get there. i’ve been ready for at least a week or two i think. i hope it will not overwhelm them i hope it doesn’t cross the line to obsessive beyond the way that ive decided is inevitable for me when i experience desire

however also consider: maybe i just need more friends?????????(fjsoxhskxhakvdkchcjsgsbdichusbsudhcdu

hello mickey !!! i've been a frequent viewer and reader of your blog and i genuinely cant wait to read more especially since ive just gotten minor surgery and cant really do much while recovering besides rest and go on my phone 😭 im fine though !! however.. bcs of this ... my bf!toji and bf!gojo brainrot is stronger than ever.. they would be such doting and honestly kind of overbearing boyfriends but they just care !!! i love them so much :( i need copies of them here RIGHT NOW 😫

NONNIIEEEE I AM SENDING YOU ALL OF THE STRENGTH AND WARMTH IN THE WORLD!!!!!!!!! i hope the recovery goes super smoothly and very fast!!!!! and i hope i can keep you entertained as you rest🫡🫡🫡🫡!!!! i am feeling soft too so i'll try to get some more boyfie stuff out soon!!!!! ALSOOOO THANK YOU SM FOR YOU SUPPORT MY LOVEE THANK YOU FOR BEING HERE AND READING MY STUFF I LOVE YOU<33333333

My 70s past life a little bit more in depth (trigger warning)

my story is a bit hard to explain, i guess ill have to ask someone to believe in reincarnation in order to read this story, but i guess it wont be too confusing, i don't believe ive changed that much. so i guess ill have to go back, before i was a child in the garden or even before i could speak, back before i could walk, back before my mother even thought of my existence, back before i was born, back to that dark forest in 1974, laying on that cold hard ground ,my arms, my body becoming numb, someone takes my last breath away and the full moon illuminates his desire , a dark desire to possess, as if i was a flower he had picked out in a garden ,but i was a human and so was he, his cold arms trace down my body, my last breath gets trapped in his mouth, the whispers around me grow closer,tiny whispers calling me to leave this body, it is time to leave, it is time to leave a body that's no longer mine, to find a new vessel for all my hopes and dreams and pain, no that body laying there on the damp forest floor ,under the man i once met on an evening stroll down my campus , that body he tears apart with his bare hands is now his vessel for his dark desires and my hopes and dreams need to find a new home now.

'you are so stupid , stupid , stupid, why would you get in to his car? why would you follow him?' i berated myself for a long time after remembering that life. i dont remember how i moved on, there was no door and the only light in the forest was the sunrise above the trees , did i really spend the whole night with him? my killer did not leave me with a neat little guidebook on what do after you get murdered but he did leave me with a name , Ted. now looking back at it saying 'i got in to a VW bug with a man named ted' sounds like the stupidest thing to say, maybe it is. but back then i didn't know of the other girls he took to that ride before me, i didn't know about the other girls who could write an identical story to me.

i was only a 20 something girl that felt incredibly lost in life. even back then i was dreaming of more than life could offer me, i just felt tired of people always asking me 'what you want to do with your life' i don't know, i don't know, my boyfriend at the time seemed to have everything figured out, marriage, work , smoking weed , but how can i marry someone when i don't even know what i want, my parents and i had i suppose just the regular relationship a middle class family in america would have, fights here and there but overall i remember a lot of love,i regret not telling them more often that i loved them, i regret the fights. and i was in love with my bf because he was funny and he had the warmest hugs, he always wanted to know everything inside my brain ,i should have told him that i wanted something else, i never had the heart to breakup with him , he was my friend since highschool. my father always wanted the best to me , for me to marry someone successful so he could provide for me or i could go to a job that would actually bring me money haha in this life i always missed having a father and in that life i always worried about my father,he was always cheerful and in times stern, i wish i had gotten along better with my mother too,she always saw the world differently.

my house had wooden walls that i always found comforting and warm ,they were so inviting, the bricks in my state university were red and depressing to me back then, they were too boring, too dull, the library in the uni was not my favorite place but it was silent enough to let me think and i often would use the phone there.

one night in early 1974 i felt too suffocated being in my dorm room, the open window didn't help at all, my mood started to fall in to a bit of a depressive spiral, i looked out of the window in to the dark street below and decided taking a walk is just what my tired brain needs, the walk from my dorm didn't seem long and i took my time. its strange looking back at something and realizing that that strange feeling of looking behind your shoulder as you walk is just your intuition screaming, i carefully looked behind me as i walked but there was no one there, what was i so afraid of that night, what footsteps did i feel behind me. by the time i reached my destination it was already so late at night, i sat down on the bench sulking in my own thoughts ,i was so preoccupied with them that i didnt notice a man sitting next to me, he was tall, clean shaven, light brown hair, watch on his right wrist. he introduced himself politely, said his name was ted, i wasnt really in the mood to make new friends that night si i politely answered him back and said i have to go back in to my dorm now, since it started to be really late at night.but ted didnt take this as a sign to say goodbye, he followed me down to the dark street, my new ''friend'' kept chatting with me as we turned down the ally way, up to the parking lot , his car , an old vw was standing in the darkness of the parking lot, i should go now i told him as i turned around to head back to the campus, he kept insisting on me staying but i kept saying goodbye, at some point i guess his patience ran out, i turn away from him , i suddenly feel a hand grabbing my wrist, before i could even understand whats going on, my head slams against his car with a force that leaves my vision blurry and my body disoriented, i try to grab in to something, anything , his hands pin me down to the car, the pain in my head just gets sharper and sharper. i wake up again, i am in the seat besides him, my body feels numb, i look at him, his face is blank and he stares in to the road, no emotion, nothing , he doesnt hear or care about me begging him to let me go, i start crying for him to let me go thats where he grabs my hair, pulls me to himself and tells me ''shut up or ill make it worse for you'' thats the moment i realized that i shouldnt mess with him, that he is dangerous, i was too scared to even dare to make a sound or breath too loudly. he keeps driving and then he stops in the forest,near some kind of shed, he forces me inside . and thats probably where i should end that story.

thanks for reading!

ive read chapter 9 (happy 100k words, here’s to another 100k more if the word count keeps growing at this rate) and every single new chapter i am questioning how much of a ‘friendship’ do both logan and oscar still have now that they’ve had now had sex with each other… they still are both delusional thinking they’re still friends. i wonder how tired kyle and callum are just waiting for them to actually get together happy that oscar has finally gotten a boyfriend, but not exactly liking logan’s new girlfriend bc of the entire jersey thing… maybe that’s because im aussie and we dont exactly do things like that (or maybe that’s just me not liking her compared to his ex, who imo seemed nicer) also i feel like both oscar’s bf and logan’s gf are jealous of how oscar acts with logan bc there is no way they are happy with logan calling his “friend” oscar ‘baby’

hehe. thank you. and Yeah probably i am just refusing to acknowledge it in the interest of not exploding my own head off my neck. but we move

their friendship is on thin ice. not in the way that they're fighting the cold water underneath is called being boyfriends and they are both really good at keeping dry. perhaps this is a tragedy who knows... friendship sex. except it's very not casual at all and nothing is friendly about it HOWEVER THEY ARE DENSE. we will get there eventuallyyy

and i will admit i made mia kinda dramatic about it for the. well. the drama. it's more fun that way... maybe i'm just meddling. i am here to fuck around and find out. the finding out thing we're still out about. ALSO YEAH ben actually probably doesn't gaf but someone else will and does and Does later. i have a future scene. somewhere. Hey man

i wont lie my dude, i was a HUGE st*rek shipper when i was young. like i think i started watching teen wolf when i was 14 and s2 was airing and i was probably 16 or 17 when i jumped ship mid season 4. and i used to think st*rek was the best ship w the most potential ever, and i glossed over things like their 6 year age gap and shit bc i didnt think it was a big deal. like stiles was a little bit older than me and who wouldnt LOVE a older bf??? and over the years as ive gotten older and when i turned 22 and thought about wtf there is no way in hell i'd date anyone under the age of 20 lmao. i did a teen wolf rewatch and was shocked and appalled bc there is no way st*rek would have worked or happened in the show there are just too many red flags and its icky!!! stiles is a child!!! it made me understand why so many of the fics i would read back then had either aged up stiles or aged down derek lmao. i even went back to my old ao3 and unbookmarked a shit ton of old fics. thank god for growing up :')

Completely understand this!! Some things just don’t yet click for children/teens, so for plenty of viewers the age gap wouldn’t seem like a “big deal.” Then as we grow and mature and our brain matures with us, it becomes much easier to assess things we consume and think more critically about them, and I think a lot of people in fandom do! It feels unfair to judge anyone that enjoyed that sort of thing when they were younger, because honestly, there’s no roadmap on how to consume media. It’s a relatively new thing, and it’s not like many teens are sharing with their parents what they ship or what they read on ao3, so it’s easy for young people to become misguided in a sense, because they have to figure it out themselves. As with a lot of things, our ability to analyze media grows with us, and shoutout to that!!!

But then sadly, and for some reason I CANNOT explain, there’s so many st*rek shippers that ARE full on adults and haven’t grown out of it yet and I just. Pray to god they go outside and look at a really old tree or something. Call up their parents maybe. Read more books O|￣|_ Put things in perspective idk LMAO.

bf got me into dragon ball via tfs's abridged on youtube and ive about 50 episodes into super AND I've got some thoughts

what actually pisses me off is that these immortal characters use 'human' as interchangeable w 'mortal' bc they are absolutely not the same thing :|

like zamasu's all pissy about humans like he's EVER ACTUALLY INTERACTED W ONE. SURE u fought goku but goku ISNT HUMAN! THATS THE WHOLE POINT OF THE SHOW! ur taken out some mistaken anger u got for him onto every other ACTUAL human being.

also. another thing is that goku black was very obviously connected w zamasu from the beginning. u go to the supreme kais planet to see him and u leave being like "nah it ain't him no connection at all" like pls pay a LITTLE more attention u missed so many things

1. u go to this universe to check on this time ring but goku black is FROM THE FUTURE. why on earth would it be missing IN UR TIME

2. his energy not feeling the same - OF COURSE NOT HES USING FUCKIN GOKUS BODY ITS NOT GONNA FEEL THE SAME

3. zamasu's fucking human hatred. did u not even take that into consideration bro. this goku black from the future wants to KILL ALL HUMANS. if u suspect this man why would u not even acknowledge that

4. the 'no connection' point. like he doesn't exactly fit ur bill but like u exclude him based on the moot point that his energy isn't the same and that he couldn't be connected to black cause of that. like even if it's not fucking him that could still be working together??? there's literally nowhere else this man would have gotten a time ring AND a fuckin potara earring like PLEASE get it together

okok thank u for reading my current brain worm it's taken a lot of restraint to not post more about it until now haha

its really disheartening my therapist kind of dismissed me bringing up bpd idk. i know myself before than she does and its hard to talk about the reality of everything and maybe im not explaining it well. the only way maybe shed believe me is if i end up going to the hospital eventually when my bf calls someone on me when im threatening mylife! who knows. i do split and it is really common for ppl w this disorder bc i have read so much abt it and read ppls stories on the subreddit and their experiences to split only on their partners or very close personal friend or family member aka their fp. and the only reason i dont have unstable friendships is bc i literally do not have a single friend in my real life idk. and i dont talk to my family thst much. and idk she said bpd shows thru time but in a lot of things ive read it always says it tends to show up in early adulthood etc plus ive barely ever talked abt my childhood w my therapist or any thing abt my relationship to my parents or family and i dont have much of a relationship w family rn where id be splitting on them bc we dont talk to each other like that or argue its a more distant relationship that doesnt involve personal life if that makes sense. and a lot of ppl diagnosed bpd say they feel like they dont even have it or doubt themselves when theyre not in a relationship bc their symptoms are less severe or show up less bc a lot of bpd has to do w symptoms that show up in interpersonal dynamics. IDK. like i dont think i explain it well so she prob thinks im just fucking bullshitting when i say like yeah i relate to xyz symptom fear of abandonment etc emptiness and she doesnt even rly understand or talk much when i mention splitting but i definitely experience it and like 8 out of the 9 criteria i relate to, most pretty severely. idk i feel like no one takes me seriously lol idk its whatever and im not gonna take her word as like the highest authority bc its true she doesnt know me that well bc im very bad at giving the whole picture like yeah im not gonna tell u i literally get so unwell and paranoid i think someones going to kill me sometimes and that i have uncontrollable mental breakdowns where i honestly should have been hospitalized bc this is not fucking normal idk and the uncontrollable rage and intense emotions and i feel like i cant explain my pain well to anyone and no one takes it seriously anyway if i tried idk? maybe i should start writing down every thing that happens and be really honest when i do that and maybe itd be easier to talk abt if i write it down first idk. like the only reason she dismissed it is bc i dont have close relationships w any other person basically and ive never been in a long term relationship before my current or had a long term friendship irl it feels and its really hard to really know whats going on anymore. my sister doesnt rly understand it and her belief that i dont have bpd is bc "ive always been like this" and she thinks how i act is just like anxiety or depression but she doesnt rly understand bpd it feels cuz most ppl w bpd have depression? so saying like "xyz symptom is just depression" doesnt rly make sense. idk. its hard cuz idk whats real anymore and ok if i dont have bpd i justhave really bad anger issues and experience nearly every symptom and i understand its difficult to diagnose and comorbid w many other conditions but am i seriously supposed to just pretend im normal idk. not begging for a label but also want to know what the fuck is wrong w everything ive been going thru for nearly two yrs and a lot of things ive experienced before my relationship too but i dont think its crazy that a lot of symptoms got heightened when i got into a relationship bc a lot of ppl diagnosed w bpd also experience that yk and feel more stability when single etc. Idk idk. like i dont wanna pathologize everything but also its gotten so bad i feel like ive been dying for a year. thanks