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Crossy fingers chapter tonight mayhaps? Mayhaps.
#spazzcat barks#delete later#biiiiig crossy fingers#its very rough right now#if it posts itll post late#think 1-3am EST#but its at the stage where if i really sat and focused i could do it#so we'll see
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having a very rough night so raph doodles needed to be made
when in need, mash two interests together
#i love him so muhc ghghgh#and uh please stop sending me asks straight up demanding me to draw more /nm#if u've sent me an ask just regarding art before pls dont feel anxious this is about people actually DEMANDING like im some sort of machine#im absent due to my work/mental health situation going up and down#tmnt will ofc always be special interest but right now its in the back row#theres little time for anything but work and meetings and thinking about work and.. well.. monster hunter escapism egsfkhjhh..#but yeah i promise im still here#and i want to draw him when i can#but stress is high right now and drawing takes too much wrist stamina to do often now#i hope u understand#sorry if i worded myself badly im very tired and stresed n its ... oh its 5am great. wellp. goodnight skafklgsjdklfnshh#my art#rise of the tmnt#rottmnt#nordidia art#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#rottmnt raph#id in alt text#also one would think my art style is easy on my wrist but#i gorilla grip my pen and when i learned to write as a child i held the pencil jank#and it stuck like that#so its really rough on my hands#sadly
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and the storm he was driving/washed it away/in the eye there was a silence
#pokemon#swsh#champion leon#rival hop#and!#professor hop#finally. finally the titus was born set can be done and out of my brain#one more item off the list! the very. very long list of things I wanna draw for these lads#its so. the moment I got into swsh I was like okay so titus was born is a leon song right#before you ask no I don't watch netflix shows. I just listen to young the giant like. casually#this set pushed my drawing water brain to the brink... my effect brain too#not as much as last year's october piece also for these two but still! pretty rough!#also Stuff Happened right before I could finish this lmao. we live in a society#but I got it done and it turned out so much nicer than I anticipated lmao I was NOT feeling hop's side until I darkened the bg#gods. I have never stopped being insane abt leon and hop. holds leon tenderly you have been set up to be such a dick#man who lies to himself everyday vs man who trusts until it ruins his whole world#I!! care them!!!! gods!!!! when will I be normal. when will I not spend two weeks drawing One (1) thing for them#a sad awooga for my kids everyone.#okay. I will lay down now. I have much to do tomorrow#have a good night lads! no reason to not shield urself from the rain remember!
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ok heres this. how i interpreted his fears at least
#rnm spoilers#most of them r said pretty plainly but whatever LOL i love lists#interesting how u can see mortys Main fear of relying on rick right from the start#not sure abt the ‘rick putting them in danger one’#its in tbat little loop of Rick Fears#which im not quite sure what to make of. so thats the closest i can get#its definitely smth hes doen a lot. so theres that#SCARY IMPLICATIONS of morty having overcome his reliance on rick. or at least his fear of it#like in conquering the hole alone hes realised he doesnt really Need rick.#like maybe one day therell be a time he gets in trouble and rick Wont bail him out. or cant. but hes ok w that now?#hmmmm. intersting. very curious to see where that goes#themost painful one for me is being responsible for ricks sadness#liek thsts so fucking rough.#GETTING PERSONAL…. like i know how it feels to be a kid and feel responsible for the emotions of adults. it sucks balls#itd be interesting to see if All of these fesrs have been conquered or just the reliance one
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hi again i ranked every parent i could think of in rezero based on parenting skills + how much they give a shit
#i forgot to add the dude thats now married to garf's mom but he would go in 'seems alright'!!#ALSO LIKE GARFS MOM... THE POOR WOMAN.... SHES LIVED SUCH A ROUGH LIFE LAJSLDFJ I HOPE SHE'LL BE OKAY... but also yeah um. rip fred and gar#bc their mom dipped. like to find garfs dad yeah but like. girl :((( but also the implications of How she had fred is. :((( honestly. maybe#for the best that that woman lost her memories.#fribal (theresias uncle) is only ranked that high bc he at least shows REGRET for his actions.... he apologizes to theresia as he dies..#the juukuliuses all seem like they were alright. rip daisy and klein though they died in that flood when julius was a kid ;-;;;#alviero is only present for like one scene in a side story but like. he seems alright. he def cares given he and his wife took in julius#after julius's parents died. and also alviero and maria have been taking care of joshua and julius... so they DO care but i dont think#alviero was perfect just judging off of. you know. how julius and joshua have turned out lajdslfjs. alviero is so gaslight gatekeep girlbos#and like overly concerned with how he comes off to others that you can see where joshua and julius got that shit from HAH.#heinkel is only up that high on the list bc felix's parents and roswaal exist. like its very hard to beat that LMAO T^T#and yeah rem and rams parents did not give a shit about either of them ngl.#rezero#WAIT I FORGOT TO COUNT RYUZU. SHOULD I HAVE COUNTED RYUZU?? PROBABLY RIGHT???
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I want to post all the photos I scanned of Assumpta and make edits of them but I have to fix them in Photoshop (damage and discoloration for 30+ years of sitting in storage) hhnnnnnnnnghhhh i wanna post NOW.
Also Assumpta gave me her IMDB login...and now I can upload all those photos to her page and also her films that she was in....it's a strange sort of feeling to know you have some of the only surviving photos of productions decades past...
#;ooc#(also i forgot to transfer my new icons to my laptop so i have to use my old ones dsfsdgd)#(also very heavily considering leaving early from my cousins to go back to madrid cuz its ROUGH here)#(as of right now i have 500+ photos scanned which is barely a dent in what was there but the scanner is soooo slow)#(that was two weeks worth of work)#(she also gave me her imdb so we can get the info on people from past productions for the archival project for the spanish gov)#(adelaide was lost in a fire which is DEVASTATING but at least we have one low quality version but STILL. im heartbroken)#(assumpta: oh yeah let me call up the director)#(me: ????????? from 30 years ago?? damn...you really do keep in contact with everyone)#(she really keeps everything. even receipts LOL)
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( Bendy and the others have now changed to warmer clothes. )
#bendy#batim#batim bendy#doodle#mun#noncanon au#(( <- new tag im adding so ppl dont think this is a canon bendy#i dont have a name for my au yet. but its a casual one so idk if it really needs a name#for now i'll tag it as noncanon au bc its not canon#casual as in right now bendy can do whatever he wants but he has a very rough backstory ))#(( yayyy hes back to wearing a hoodie#the others have different outfits too#and bendy looks happy because he's had a wonderful halloween night :) ))#(( he is drinking coffee ))
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Vermundr's Pack: With Your Tail Between Your Legs
someone asked:
Hello! How are you? I have a question, how would the pack react if reader left to walk a little and came back really hurt?
it depends on how they got hurt. if it was an accident, getting scraped up in the woods, they'd be fussed over for a while and might have a chaperone for a bit. misadventure is part of life, they've all been there and won't stop you from exploring. but if their human gets attacked...
vermundr's pack/reader (mostly featuring vermundr and ormkell). contains gore, hurt/comfort, pack dynamics, mild feral behavior.
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Dusk casts heavy shadows as it drapes across the sky. The trees are silhouettes, black birdcage bars against the molten spill of the setting sun. The pack has lived and hunted here for years, engraving their favored paths into the dirt, but these familiar trails vanish as night creeps in. Places where the grass is thin and parted are hidden beneath the latticed shadow of the swaying canopy. It doesn’t matter. You know the way home.
Home, you think, bemused. When did you start calling it that? You lean against gnarled bark and rest for a moment, catching your breath. You can hear it—a steady trickle, like the last, stubborn drops of rain at the storm’s end. There’s a red blotch on the shoulder of your tunic, a blooming stain spreading slowly across your back. It throbs and oozes. You feel for the wound and hiss, squeezing your eyes shut. It’s raw and deep and feels like fire. If you looked, would you see bone? It’s awful. You feel nauseous and dizzy. Home. You need to get home.
At dusk, they light lanterns of pine wood and rawhide. The light is faint and ghostly, a curling glow like will-o’-the-wisps. It’s not for them. Wolves see just fine in the dark. But every night, without fail, the lanterns are placed throughout the clearing where the den waits. It’s these faint, warm lights that call to you through the trees, that guide you when your vision swims and your knees start to buckle.
You hear the wolves before you see them. There are guests tonight, another pack from further west. A few of them roughhouse in the clearing, yipping and biting playfully at one another as they slip easily from human to wolf, wolf to human. Styrmir’s boisterous laughter echoes as he plays dice with a large, intoxicated group and Ragni has a group of pups enraptured with stories of the pack’s last raid.
It’s Vermundr who scents you on the wind first. He wears little in the warmer months, the sprawling ink of his tattoos on full display across his chest. He stiffens at the mouth of the den and you think he says something in their language, a rumbling sound that brings the festivities to a halt. You limp through thick foliage and brambles, your breathing shallow. Vermundr has already crossed the clearing when you emerge, his arms open, catching you just as your legs give out. Together, you sink to the ground.
“Rabbit?” he says. His voice is low and calm, but you can feel the pounding of his heart as he cradles your head to his chest.
“Humans,” you manage to tell him, squeezing the word through gritted teeth. Your word choice has him bristling. The wolves don’t think of the raiders as humans. They are allies, hunting kin, furless siblings. They have many names for them, but never “human.” What hurt you was something you thought you’d never see again.
“Ragni,” Vermundr says.
The other wolf is at his side in an instant, kneeling, peeling off your tunic. It’s ripped and sticky by your shoulder and you whine at the sting when it peels loose. Ragni hushes you, kisses your forehead and whispers soft reassurances. “I know. I know it hurts, rabbit. I’m so sorry.” There’s movement around you, murmurs and growls.
Wolves, some you know and some you don’t, gather at a distance. You hurt too much to be shy about your exposed chest. Vermundr keeps you steady and grounded, his hands on your hips and his gaze never leaving yours. You wince and whimper as Ragni examines your shoulder. Vermundr presses his forehead to yours as though trying to take your pain onto himself.
There’s a flurry of movement nearby, a rush of footsteps. A whimper, and then someone else is beside you, squeezing in opposite Ragni. “No,” you hear, a hoarse, miserable whisper. You know your mate’s voice anywhere. Ormkell is fidgeting, restless, wanting to touch but not wanting to hurt you or get in Ragni’s way. He rakes his claws through the dirt out of desperation, needing to touch something, to hurt something for how you’ve been hurt.
“Deep and uneven,” Ragni murmurs. “Hatchet wound.”
Vermundr’s next breath is nearly a snarl. He says something in a tone reserved for orders and the other pack scatters, a stampede of half-shifted wolves streaming into the woods. Slowly, as though you’re made of glass, he gathers you up and hands you to Ormkell. Your mate trembles. He stands, cradling you against his chest. He scents you desperately, nuzzles against your face and your neck. “What do I do?” he says, his voice quivering. He’s asking the alpha. He wants orders. He wants something, anything to anchor him and help him focus.
Vermundr looks at your blood on his hands. “There are several things that need to be done, Ormkell,” he says. “I will tell you these things, and you will do them.” Ormkell nods eagerly. You cling to him, smearing blood across his chest, and it only makes him hold you tighter. Styrmir claps a hand on his shoulder and squeezes. He brushes your bangs away from your sweat-soaked forehead and then he’s gone. You hear his gait change as he shifts, sprinting after the others. “Your mate needs healing. Ragni will remain here and help you administer the proper herbs and salves. Then they must eat and rest. We will all go to the baths together once the hunt ends. You must guard them, and the den, in my absence. Do you understand? Will you do these things?”
“Yes,” Ormkell says, breathing again. “Yes, alpha. Thank you.”
Hjalti passes him at the doors of the den, half-shifted, claws long and hooked. “If I find one with a hatchet,” he says, “I’ll bring him back for you.” They touch briefly, a quick, nuzzling motion. Ormkell makes a sound of gratitude and brings you inside.
You stiffen when Ormkell reaches the nest and begins to lower you. “Blood,” you say, weak and tired. “My blood…I don’t…” You don’t want to ruin this special place.
Your mate’s expression softens with understanding. He lays down with you, curled up at your side. “I don’t care if you stain the pelts, rabbit,” he murmurs, stroking your cheek. “We have many. We can always get more. There’s only one of you.” The kiss is chaste, too quick for your liking. Ormkell lingers only a breath away, studying you, holding you close. “I’ll be back,” he promises. “With something to ease the pain. I’ll take care of you, I promise. I won’t leave your side.” He fumbles with the furs wrapped around his waist, untangling one from the rest. He leaves it draped over you, a small blanket still warm with his body heat. It’s with great reluctance that he pulls away, and you hear him and Ragni speaking in hushed tones just outside.
You hold the fur against your face. It smells like him. You smile, even through the pain.
You made it home. You’re going to be okay.
#rotpeach writes#rotpeach answers#ulfhednar#you guys have such fun ideas for these werewolves lol and theyre fun to work on between longer pieces#heres a rough estimate of stuff in progress#eirian piece is probably half done#theres a secondary character getting introduced in his who demanded more of the spotlight than i planned so its taking a bit#avici finale is in progress but honestly not sure how much of it is done lol its also probably going to be long#tpof fics are on the backburner due to whatever is possessing me right now but mason fic is about halfway done#and i have very early drafts of something for jack and another for the announcer#theres also an original nasty sci piece that im Very Excited about but its becoming a much more ambitious project#so it'll be a bit before thats ready
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would strangers on the internet be able to assure you that you’re real? i believe you’re real. i know i’m real. you’ve talked about your life as though you’ve lived in it
this is some sort of poetry to me. can i print this out and staple it to the back of my hand so that i never forget it
#things im gonna think about for the rest of my life when it gets too quiet in my head#thank you stranger on the internet#its been very rough the whole life thing#but i really want it to get better because i love people..#we are just in the waiting room right now.. i have to try#ask#anon
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am finally back home and can say without a doubt that i am just fundamentally not built for long distance travel however the train was much nicer than planes
#that being said. pressurized cabins drive me insane a little bit#and also it gives you pretty intense sea legs for a While#like. the ones from the first trip hadnt gone away by the return one. so. might be stuck with that for a few days#we shall see#also ajr live fucks severely#the albums were already incredible but that was a goddamn religious experience#like. idk the way i think abt it is theyre more djs than a regular band esp w their performance showing the making of way less sad#like their music is very electronic‚ theyre making mixes of their own sound effects more than singing in one go#so like. the vocals were a teeensy bit rough at times#notably times it has taken me Literally Hundreds Of Hours Practice to be able to consistently sing along with#and times ive found its literally physically impossible to like. no matter what#idc how big your lungs are‚ there is no human on earth who can do that final run of karma in one breath#much less to An Entire Stadium After An Hour Of Jumping And Dancing And Singing Loud As Fuck#so like i dont blame them for that‚ you dont go to live shows expecting it to be 100% perfect anyways jwbdjsbfksb#the trumpet however. well she was certainly playing sometimes. and was very enthusiastic about her flares.#however. in most of their songs they use midi trumpets to my ear at least#meaning she was likely an addition specifically for live performances and in my personal band kid opinion#prooobably was not in any of the like. higher tier bands? idk just. a lot of the mistakes she was making were hitting as stuff that got#taught out of us the instant we joined any band beyond regular concert#so i would guess she was probably just like. a friend who happened to play trumpet in high school or maybe even just middle school#and they knew that the trumpet parts in their pieces were big and distinct enough that like they /had/ to get a live player#and just kinda. didnt anticipate the audition -> performance gap#like. her tone was really fried the whole time like she was playing as hard as possible#which. she was mic'd. have the sound guy turn her up.#the way they did it made it sound like she was using a mute but not. like she only got the bad parts of a mute from it yknow#her tempo and timing were. bad. theres no nice way to put that one it just Was Bad‚ like the trumpet runs in ajr songs arent. complicated#like. quite literally if you handed me the sheet music right now i would have it down perfect in a week at absolute most#and better than that player on sightread. like. we did so many sightreading drills.#like ill share my band kid creds if anyone cares but i need to emphasize this isnt me being braggy like. they genuinely just arent hard#fuck im out of tags. w/e i think only like one of yall also listens to them anyways so i can leave it there
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Ew, essays :[
I miss the old days of kindergarten when we attempted to color butterflies and ate erasers and glue
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I hated kindergarten
Essays may suck but at least now I'm not the weird kid in the corner wishing I had friends
However yes I absolutely despise essays with all my being... in fact!
Achievement unlocked: you somehow found a topic moshie hates enough and on a bad day to start them ranting in the tags...
Warning there are curse words, poor spelling, and caps locks
Sorry in advance
#asks#off topic#seriously tho i hate essays so much#one of them is already 5 pages and thats just the rough draft#i better get a fucking high pass on that shit or i will scream#shes actually making us focus on out writing process and OH HO.HO BOY IS MINE A MESS#I SWEAR ITS LIKE TRYING TO MAKE A SKETCH BUT YOU KEEP PAINTING CERTAIN PARTS BECAUSE IT HAS TO LOOK NICE#ONLY TO RELIZE OH WAIT MAYBE THAT DOESN'T GO THERE AND I SHOULD ACTUALLY SHIFT IT AROUND#OR MAYBE I COULD SWAP THIS TOO BE THAT LOOKS AWFUL AND IT JUST KEEPS GETTING WORSE AND WORSE TILL ITS A RIVER OF BLOOD AND PAINT#AND SHE WANTS TO SEE MY ROUGH DRAFT??? HONNEY YOU WOULD HAVE A BETTER CHANCE AT READING THE MARIO SUNSHINE SPEEDRUN CATEGORY BACKWARDS THEN#UNDERSTANDING WHAT THE FUCK IM TRYING TO WRITE ITS WHY I HAVE TO WRITE IT ALL IN ONE GO OTHERWISE I HAVE TO LOOK BACK AND UNDERSTAND WHAT#WAS GOING THROUGH MY HEAD WHILE LOOKING THROUGH THIS MESS!!! OOOHH WHAT? YOU WANT ME TO ORGANIZE THIS WELL SHIT THATS GOING TO TAKE EVEN#LONGER YOU ALREADY GOT ME WRITING WHY DO YOU HAVE TO MAKE ME STOP MUCH LESS MAKE ME SWITCH SUBJECTS TO ANOTHER ESSAY HALF WAY THROUGH OH BU#AND GUESS WHAT!???? ONE PAGE! DOUBLE SPACE! AND IM NOT GOING TO GIVEN GIVE YOU A DIRECTION TO WRITE IN JUST ANYTHING ABOUT WHAT WE LEARNED#IN THESE LAST TWO WEEKS! TWO WEEKS FUCKING HELL DO YOU KNOW HOW INDECISIVE AND FORGETFUL I AM??? MUCH LESS THE FACT KTS ABOUT ETHNICS#I DIDNT EVEN EANT TO TAKE AN ETHNICS CLASS I WANTED ETHICS I FUCKING HATE EVERY SO MUCH RIGHT NOW#LIKE YEA SURE I KNOW THEY'RE IMPORTANT BUT I STILL HATE ESSAYS and j know my teachers are trying their best...#but jeese ethnics is such a difficult topic because on one had yea i relate to what these people are going through im part of the LGBT#are statistics are very similar but im also bery much a white person and not openly trans/non binary i dont want to look like some stuck up#white person going oooo look at the poor minorities i can TotAlLy relate and now im going to talk about me#because im genuinely scared of coming out idk whos accepting and whos not at least online im safe and can block people...#jeese im sorry for the rant i shouldn't have gone on that much less my art blog#this is supposed to be a positive blog but i just need to put this somewhere or i feel im going to cry out of frustration im sorry#rant post#system#oops moshie got emotional
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hi! birthday. which means it's finally time t
yo what the itch store is fixed up now
damn what? I don't know where this came from. look all the comics I put on g*mr**d a year ago are back here again with all the formatting and typesetting by @fireflysummers as well as the exclusive bonus art wtf who did this. my werewolf comic on here too what the hells!! that one also got re-toned for printing if u want to AND an exclusive cover spread !!! what the fuck!!!!! come see for urself I can't make this shit up
#bakuspecial#comic#itch.io#bakugoods#<- made up a tag for when I sell things that aren't commissions just now#for folks who still remember me talking abt a physical run of these comics: I'm so sorry this year and the last have been brutal#and I live in a well and suffer a curse of international mails never going well. so the logistics became Very complicated#I still think abt it tho! I've prepped up all the assets just bc I thought abt it so much... we picked out a gift print for the orders#And a bonus print for the pack#but I couldn't gather my brain enough to make it happen. yet#it takes a bit of overhead so I gotta build that up. which is. right now talk for after the shit that just happened to me got smoothed out#but I do want it to happen. I've been sitting on this exclusive custom print for like two years now#I really love that drawing its so cute. I still hold that project close to my heart#anyways uhh itch store! happy birthday to me!#last year this time was so rough I didn't even Want to think about my birthday lol#strangely enough with this small little fragmentation grenade we just got I became more motivated to fuck around on my bday lmao#probably out of spite. hammer philosophy#my parents love making a whole thing out of me and the brother's bdays lol so dinner's gonna be something#but for now I can still chill. and prep up stuff. and do my thang#if u look thru the itch store and get something from there thank u so much! I hope the comics treat u well#and now. I make hot drink. have a good day lads! do a little jig for us let's go
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If you talk to Thaffe after the events of Mount Gulg, he says, "Thancred told us what happened. Are you all right?" and I just........
#twine boys#thaffe#listen. listen. he's so sweet#like yes thancred absolutely gives magnus and the boys a very simplified version of events#leaving out that the wol is being corrupted by the lightwardens' aether#but what they do know is the wol fought vauthry. collapsed. the sky changed back.#the exharch has been abducted. the warrior of darkness is in rough shape.#and thaffe's first concern isn't 'hey can you tell us more about what happened'#which would be fair! this has to be scary! the sky's changed back!#no. his first concern is 'are you okay?'#magnus also gets me right in the heart; he's like 'should you even be up right now???'#(jeryk is jeryk about it; just 'oh i was hoping we could show you the lanterns on the tracks are working. :c maybe later.'#which is sweet in its own way! he told the wod about hoping the lanterns could be useful if the night ever returned to amh araeng.#i love them all so much.#i should be sleeping right now but i'm having emotions instead
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Hey! It's the mod here. I know it's been a while, so I wanted to make an update post regarding the unannounced hiatus I've been on.
As you may have guessed, based on the (aside from reblogging my ask for help from my main), I got a bit of burnout with this blog. I've been wanting to start it back up again for a while, and I've been plotting out a bit of plot for a while so I'm not just making this all up as I go along and can keep track of things lol. Now, while this is fun and all, there are some things I want to address.
Firstly, as some of you may know, this blog started because Levi's mod and I were going back and forth with a prince donnie idea, initially to help him sleep, in fact. As you can tell, it spun up into this blog and an entire universe of its own. Unfortunately, Levi's mod and I had a falling out. For those of you that do follow my main, back in August, there was a debacle from me freaking out over something and some confusion over who I was upset with, leading to a chain of hate mail that has continued to the point that I'm even less sure of my identity and self-worth than before. Levi's mod contacted me via DMs to talk about the situation, but never responded after I did. To my knowledge, at least as far as Tumblr is showing me when I look at old asks on this blog, their blog has since deactivated. I'm unsure if they have received harassment or anything on my behalf from this entire situation, but if that occurred, I do not condone it and I am ashamed of those of you that partook in that. In light of these developments, unless I am contacted by Levi's mod either directly or through a mutual contact, I will be leaving their contributions to this au and the origins intact out of respect. If he wishes to no longer be included in this au, he knows where to contact me, and I will overhaul as necessary and restart the blog to do so.
Secondly, as things have been somewhat bogged down as of late, for the sake of plot, I may timeskip to when everyone has been safely returned home to their universe. Before doing this, I will consult with the lovely mod that was assisting with the pizzaplex crossover arc before doing so to see what course of action I should take. If I do timeskip, I will answer the ask that Pride's mod has sent me to tie up a little bit of Michaelangelo and Ali's adventure into the canon Rise universe, and then proceed with the timeskip.
As of right now, anon will be remaining off to avoid further hate mail, insults, and threats to my life and safety, along with attempts at doxxing me in my own inbox. If there are questions, comments, or concerns, feel free to send in an ask, and I will respond as soon as possible. Thank you for your patience with this long wait, and I'm excited to continue the story of this blog, as I have a lot in store!
#ooc#sorry about the long wait it's been a rough time for me#between the constant hate messages from the misunderstanding#the beration for having traumatized my own oc in my fic and asking for people to read it and tell me what they think#my stepfather dying just over a week before my birthday#along with a lot of latent abandonment issues confusion and autism kicking me in the teeth#on top of the financial issues#it's just been hard.#i do hope this explains it well enough and im sorry if it doesn't im not very good at explaining things#i have been crying almost every day for the past two weeks and the stress has caused some breathing issues in that time#and i was driven out of one of my own blogs because it simply no longer feels safe there-#-considering it was found through reblogs and harassed extremely heavily due to the entire thing#but i am feeling well enough today despite crying that i can kick myself enough to get this out#anon is on on both my main and the blog i publish the fic on from the 14th through the 22nd to allow for anonymous comments regarding it#and i may turn anon back on on this blog when it's up and running again as i have cleared the hate mail from its inbox#but right now i just wanted to explain why it's been royally dead#i will provide further updates depending on what happens#but for right now im going to focus on being excited to get it back up and running#and i hope you are too
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Sorry to the everyone I have not spoken or replied to today. I am so not normal
#Sparing everyone from me being snippy and also changing some typing pattern to try 2 be normal#its a very. rough time right now aka irritation and frustration and being hungover and understimulated and hyper fixation being neg
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Have you read the fanfic ruby red yet
HAH anon are you asking me this bc this blog is partly an astrea blog..................................................... anyway yes i have!! :D im subscribed to the author of the fic (petalil) on ao3 iirc?? bc i really do love a lot of their stuff and ive read most of it!! ive been following ruby red since chapter one and i try to read every new update pfft. and ok if anyone else is seeing this and wondering what ruby red is - ruby red is basically an au where subaru isekais into heinkels body HAH... its really good!! i like how it explores like. plot changes because of how differently heinkel is perceived.. how subaru has to adjust to everything... and also all the details put in regarding the astreas and their relationships with each other and other people!! very interesting stuff :o
#ask#i am curious if itll be like touched on more with the fact that. heinkel and subarus identities are kinda blending together... theyre stuck#like this. u know?? not that heinkel is 100% there right now but HAH no yeah its rough for both of them in that subaru is living some other#guys life and said guy got his life stolen fr and subarus lost his own life in. this sense yes. bc their memories/thoughts/etc are meshing#together a bit!!! very interesting. i am a big nerd about psychology HAH i want to study that under a microscope for sure.#but anyway!! yes very great fic excited to see what else petalil has in store <3
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