Is anything in the works right now?

actually yes, just nothing done yet. had a really emotionally difficult end of last year/start of this one and i’ve only recently started crawling out of some intense writer's block. on one hand i don’t want anyone to get too excited since i’m still writing super slowly, but on the other maybe that’ll help me stay motivated lol current active drafts:

-luxuria triplicate one shot side story

-the drift one shot side story featuring an aspiring father figure

-meanwolves stuff (sawyer's up next)

-two different original alien stories (a very long one shot and a probably multichapter fic)

-two different jjk fics, one of which is gojo love triangle miseryporn 

with the state of the economy and job market right now, if a wolf wanted to whisk me away and make me a pack human i honestly wouldn't protest

god same

How do the wolves feel about different religions/ world views (Abrahamic religions, Hinduism, Paganism)?

they have no strong opinions. a lot of hoarfrost falls traces their ancestry back to the ulfhednar and consequently to their traditions and faith but there are other werewolf belief systems, so it’s not controversial to them that humans might have their own faiths too. pack humans can continue practicing whatever they’d like, although it’s easier to get accommodations in a larger pack like hoarfrost falls than in a smaller one like shelter mountain.

ask response

someone asked:

Hello, I'd like to ask for permission to print your series "every nuance of misfortune" in one copy for myself, can i do that?

sure thing, go ahead! as long as it's just for fun/not for profit, i don't mind at all.

i got an ask recently that may or may not have been from the same person about whether their ask was deleted. if this was you, that does seem to be what happened. i have an email notification but the ask is not in my inbox, and wasn't the time before either this either, which is why i'm answering this in such a strange way. apologies for not getting back to you sooner, i'm not sure how or why that's happening but i caught it this time.

I just finished Avici and I had to come over here to express how amazing it was. I'm usually not into romance fics but Sukuna/Reader stories usually get at least a second look from me because his canon character is just very hard to write a 'normal' romance for so any story seriously tackling that is worth trying imo, and I'm so glad I did!

The characterisation of Gojo and Sukuna are wonderful, you really delved deep into the darker side of these monstrously powerful sorcerers in the frankly grim world of jujutsu. I've seen a lot of fics make these two softer (especially Gojo) so your portrayal is like a splash of cold water on a hot day lol. I don't even particularly like Gojo honestly but stories that show his darker side kind of make me see his appeal, a little.

I gotta say normally I'm ambivalent towards smut and don't actively search for it, but it's such a core part of Avici that I feel it wouldn't really work as well without it. The flashbacks and slow reveal of what exactly the reader is and the twisted bond they have with Sukuna and later Gojo really add a sense of tension and like, dread? To the whole thing, which was lovely. I also read your director's cut bc I was so enthralled, I'm blown away by how much went into it!

If you're willing to weigh in, what do you personally imagine happens to the reader during the canon timeline?

answer is long and contains jjk manga spoilers. 

aaaaaaaaaa that makes me so happy!!! i started out with very little interest in gojo but sort of wrote myself into liking him lol working on avici made me realize how easy it is to draw comparisons between him and sukuna. the things i've come to like about him are mostly things that lend themselves well to angsty scenarios, characters who are messy like that are like catnip to me. as for how things would go for the reader, it’s mostly just more misery.

by the end of the shibuya arc, the reader is in the custody of kenjaku and uraume. as a result of the failed noh exorcism, they have a strong connection to gojo so they would’ve felt it when he was sealed. it would resemble what sukuna’s dormancy feels like, and i think it would leave them with some complicated feelings. maybe that would be enough for them to leave and start wandering in search of some other way to pass the time, or maybe they’d stay there waiting. either way, uraume finds and retrieves them. this would probably involve a fight. the reader by the end of avici isn’t the docile creature uraume remembers. sukuna probably had the foresight to warn them, since this is an outcome he anticipated and even wanted, but that wouldn’t make the reader any easier to deal with. they are, by design, the kind of curse that only someone like sukuna or gojo can safely handle. maybe kenjaku can help with the apprehension lol

for the most part, i don’t think the reader would be very active. they would stick with uraume and kenjaku because they know that’s where they need to be. they would be there to spectate the culling game, they would be there when sukuna reappears in a new host, and they would be there when gojo dies. that might be the thing that finally sets them off, since they were counting on gojo to win that fight. if we’re going into fully indulgent territory lol then the reader would be involved in the final battle against sukuna, however that turns out. that’s the natural conclusion of their arc and it would be poetic for him to die at not only the hands of the thing he created, but the collective remnants of the people he used and tortured in the past. and it would be fitting for the reader to follow him, as promised, into whatever kind of oblivion comes next for curses. 

i guess that’s a little bleak lol but that’s more or less how it was always going to be. there’s no end to this for the reader, they’re stuck with him for eternity because he made them that way. but maybe there’s some closure there at least.

Omg I love that so much... does Corbin legit brag to the other humans (or even the wolves?) that he's got two mates? Why exactly is that such a point of pride for him?

It's also adorable, in kind of a perverted way. I love Corbin so much lmfao

constantly. even the “fully integrated” pack humans get sick of hearing about it sometimes. as for why he thinks it’s so great, the last ask i posted clarifies what mating means. it’s a big deal, and it’s an even bigger deal (to him) that two wolves who were already mated both wanted him.

What exactly does it mean to be mated in your meanwolves universe. (Apologies if you've already answered this)

being mated is roughly equivalent to marriage. i think ive used the word confusingly in the past since i hadn’t settled on all the terms yet, but i’ve decided on this: claiming is what werewolves do to humans they want, usually very quickly after a new pack human arrives. it’s not very equal and can be entirely one-sided, and a claimed human will probably still be involved with other werewolves whether they like it or not. mating can occur between werewolves, or between werewolves and humans. it’s a lot more equal, it can be months or years before the subject comes up, and it requires consent from all involved parties (whatever “consent” means at that point, considering how long the human has been there).

Do you have any plans of continuing Viewfinder? I read some of your other work as well and I really loved it by the way! Your writing is wonderful.

unfortunately i don't, i haven't been into bnha for a while so i'm not very drawn to that project anymore.

coming back to this one last time since i'm more familiar with what happened now. i'm not going to answer further asks about it.

a while back, gato posted a statement on her tumblr about the tpof discord being shut down and i'll be honest, i took it completely at face value. i thought "oh something happened but she seemed to handle it the best she could," and i say "something" because the post was a little vague. then other people were coming forward with some really concerning screenshots from the discord about things that were never even mentioned in gato's post (i've not been able to find these on tumblr, only twitter). this was a mess and gato handled it very poorly. it feels a little like beating a dead horse/talking into the void to even get into this any further but i did say last time that it's best to use these moments to teach people something. so here are a couple things to take away from this.

-it is completely possible to hurt someone, perpetuate racist stereotypes or make racially insensitive comments "without meaning to" or without realizing that's what you're doing. this came up in the screenshots and i've seen/heard people say it in a lot of situations. i'm not going to assume motive or intent here, but even being as generous as possible, yes, this is still something that would warrant an apology.

-please remember that anytime something like this happens, the people who come forward to talk about what happened and how they were hurt are probably already dealing with a ton of harassment. the parasocial fallout from this has been really bad. people were saying absolutely horrid things to each other on posts about this. some of this is standard for fandoms, but i think it’s worse than normal here where a creator was much “closer” to the audience. one thing that gato did mention (i think, at least, because that post isn’t up anymore) is that the dynamic in the server, between her and her fans, was unhealthy, and the behavior i’ve seen makes me inclined to say that’s accurate.

i think many people in the btd fandom would consider themselves outsiders in one way or another (and i say this as someone who was part of it), so there might be a feeling that an attack on your favorite creator is an attack on your interests or a place you thought was safe, but these are not the same thing. more importantly, there are people who are/were part of this community who were made into outsiders and denied the safety or escape that others enjoy. it’s okay to feel confused, upset or frustrated. it’s okay to not know how to feel about this at all. it’s not okay to harass someone for feeling differently about this than you do.

do you know what's going on with gatobob?

i want to mention first (and this isn’t aimed at this anon) that people often assume i have “insider information” when it comes to gato. i don’t. i helped beta test btd2 and wrote a couple portions of tddup under less than favorable conditions (the latter of which had nothing to do with gato, but part of why people make the assumption). we talked now and then on tumblr but we weren’t super close. i’m not on twitter/the discord/patreon, i was aware that something happened on the discord because she made a post about it, but i didn’t know anything was else "going on" until i saw this in my inbox a minute ago. i’m saying all this because i’ve already gotten a bunch of messages about this and i don’t have what you’re looking for. i don’t know her offline.

to actually answer, if you haven’t found out by now, she deleted all of her social media. people are talking about it all over the gatobob tag if you want details. here’s a post from someone who’s more up to date. by the time i finish typing this there will probably be more new posts about it, it's an ongoing situation.

please do not harass anyone about this. it's turning into an absolutely nuclear "fandom drama" situation with a lot of general hostility getting thrown around. i still don't have all the information but as far as i can tell, there is a legitimate grievance here and someone who was hurt and had their concerns brushed off. the point should be to reduce harm, listen to people, and use it as a teaching opportunity when possible. it's not on the person who was harmed to do that, they and whoever else want to disengage have every right to. but i think it's also safe to say this turned into an internet dogpile pretty fast. i hope the person who was mistreated in the discord will be alright, i hope gato will be alright, and i hope everyone who is still around can be civil with each other. don’t harass anyone, and don’t tell people how they should feel or what they can or can’t be hurt by.

Was the town of nelton and the religion/cult there at all inspired by the midnight mass tv show? it seemed to have a lot of similar themes, what with spreading the holiness by consuming parts of the key religious figure, the aggressive evangelizing, small town vibes, and heavy Christian (esp. catholic) influences

it wasn’t a deliberate inspiration but i have seen (and really liked!) midnight mass, so it definitely could’ve been on my mind. “town with a flesh cult” was the very first location concept i thought of while creating the drift and the specifics came as i wrote.

I’ve just finished binging your entire ao3 and your writing is just soooooo good. I was especially captivated by Luxuria Triplicate, are you planning on doing more with it? I’m as invested in the world’s lore as I am the porn LMAO

I hope things are going well for you and that you’re having a good 2024 thus far! Thank you for sharing your works with us!

thank you so much! luxuria triplicate is all planned out and will be continued, it's just a matter of getting through writer's block and having a minute. i've been low on time/stuck a lot lately.

Hi there,

I want to rant about fetishes. I know I'm into the more violent stuff, and I'm pretty sure I know why (lifetime of self-hatred and trauma to boot), but recently I've been dabbling in the guro side of things and I feel ... guilty? Ashamed? Also idk how to filter guro so I only see the things that work for *me* (drowning, bruises, beatings) and not the other stuff (dec*pitation, graphic torture). At the same time I cant help but feel like I'm what's wrong with the world. Do you have any advice for me?

pretty heavy talk ahead. i’ll start with the advice and end with a personal anecdote if that’s useful.

i want to start by saying you’re not “what’s with the world.” there are a lot of reasons people seek out gore and graphic content. for some, it’s morbid curiosity and for others there is a fetish component. if you’ve been through something traumatic, i think there’s a draw to view violence from a “safe” distance as a form of catharsis. none of that makes you a bad person. but i also think it can cross very easily into a form of self-harm and become dangerous.

i don’t know you well enough to make assumptions beyond what you mentioned here. if you’re experiencing a lot of distress or discomfort, or feeling more negative about yourself, then you should stop seeking it out completely. it might be something that you view to “punish” yourself, or use to distract from other upsetting thoughts or feelings, especially if it’s something you’re looking for compulsively or extremely frequently. 

i also recommend cutting back on real gore, especially videos, if that’s what you’re looking at. those will desensitize you the more you watch them, and you shouldn’t be desensitized to real human suffering. those people in “infamous gore videos” don’t exist in a vacuum, they’re real people with childhoods and families who went through horrible things, and now it’s on the internet forever. if you’re worried that you’ve already hit that point of extreme numbness and don’t feel what you should or don’t feel anything, you’ll be okay if you stay away from gore for a while. those feelings you thought you lost will come back. when they do, i’d maintain that distance. stick to simulated gore in fictional horror media like movies or games instead.

in the past, when people have approached me about having guilt or shame about their interests, i generally told them not to worry. there’s nothing wrong with having noncon fantasies, or enjoying horror-themed erotica. as long as you’re able to distinguish fantasy from reality and don’t impose those fantasies on people who don’t consent to being involved in them, you’re fine. i stand by all of that. but this is about gore specifically which i feel is a little different. morbid curiosity or interest isn’t unusual but you have to keep it healthy and responsible. even if it’s purely fictional gore that’s giving you this reaction, you should still stop viewing it. it’s not “silly” or “weak” to acknowledge the emotional response you’re getting from something.

now the personal anecdote. i started writing explicit guro in 2016 (shades of it had been in my work before then). i had just graduated, i was feeling really lost, adrift and desperate for community, and i was extremely online. i followed a few people who reblogged real gore and went looking for it outside of tumblr a lot too. i was obsessed. i think i told myself it was “reference” for my work but it had the catharsis and fetish element for me too. these horrible things happened to other people instead of me, i could revel in it safely from a distance. but it wasn’t “safe,” it was harmful. it was so far beyond “curiosity,” it was a fixation and a crutch. i looked at it so much that it stopped feeling real and i forgot that the people in those videos were people at all. it was just a blur of gruesome, awful shit all the time. 

there wasn’t any single thing that made me stop. i think eventually it just wore on me too much. i wasn’t doing any of this stuff in moderation, i was online constantly, i was posting constantly, i was writing intense guro constantly. and there’s nothing wrong with making a lot of dark art, but i wasn’t engaging with any of my other interests or living my life much outside of it. i have boundaries i stick to for myself now. medical resources, roadkill, pictures people share consensually of their own injuries, things i might come across over the course of my normal life are fine. i don’t go looking for anything more extreme than that anymore, and i don’t even go looking for “acceptable things” all that often anymore. that kneejerk “god that’s awful” response that i’d lost is back. some people have a higher tolerance for this stuff than others, but i’m not “some people.” i know myself and i know what kinds of things i can become unhealthily reliant on and why, so now i’m much more careful. you know yourself best and you have to decide that for yourself, too.

do you know what's going on with gatobob?

i want to mention first (and this isn’t aimed at this anon) that people often assume i have “insider information” when it comes to gato. i don’t. i helped beta test btd2 and wrote a couple portions of tddup under less than favorable conditions (the latter of which had nothing to do with gato, but part of why people make the assumption). we talked now and then on tumblr but we weren’t super close. i’m not on twitter/the discord/patreon, i was aware that something happened on the discord because she made a post about it, but i didn’t know anything was else "going on" until i saw this in my inbox a minute ago. i’m saying all this because i’ve already gotten a bunch of messages about this and i don’t have what you’re looking for. i don’t know her offline.

to actually answer, if you haven’t found out by now, she deleted all of her social media. people are talking about it all over the gatobob tag if you want details. here’s a post from someone who’s more up to date. by the time i finish typing this there will probably be more new posts about it, it's an ongoing situation.

please do not harass anyone about this. it's turning into an absolutely nuclear "fandom drama" situation with a lot of general hostility getting thrown around. i still don't have all the information but as far as i can tell, there is a legitimate grievance here and someone who was hurt and had their concerns brushed off. the point should be to reduce harm, listen to people, and use it as a teaching opportunity when possible. it's not on the person who was harmed to do that, they and whoever else want to disengage have every right to. but i think it's also safe to say this turned into an internet dogpile pretty fast. i hope the person who was mistreated in the discord will be alright, i hope gato will be alright, and i hope everyone who is still around can be civil with each other. don’t harass anyone, and don’t tell people how they should feel or what they can or can’t be hurt by.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA THIS IS SO COOL AND EERIE, I LOVE IT!!!!!

He’s here.

You run. The cold is biting. Snow blows into your face, cold flakes clinging to your lashes. Your footsteps become slower, more laborious, your desperate sprint becoming a miserable, uphill trudge. 

You hear him. Twigs snapping. Snow crunching. A step out of sync with yours. Quiet, breathy, anticipating laughter, muffled through winter gear. No one will be there if you look back but you know you’ll die if you stop moving. Howling wind tears at your face. Your ears are burning. Your fingers and toes are numb. Pinpricks of freezing pain skitter up and down your legs.

The Road Ripper, from @rotworld 's 2023 Goretober universe: The Drift. please read it, here is the first entry

Tis it has been three weeks and requires a check up.

*opens the basment and goes to the suspicious hole in the middle, leaning over before shouting down.*

Ey you author person, you still alive down there?

*there is a faint hisss from the darkness*

Oh ya no, their good.

im still alive down here, i promise lol just busy/worn out!

what exactly was Jamie threatening to do in Going In Circles?

just a little impromptu worm-assisted brain surgery, nothing major.

"corbin has specifically requested for a joining ritual with his mates" 👀 mates? does corbin have more than one?

corbin was claimed by a pair of mated wolves. he's very, very proud of this, to the extent that it's a little insufferable.