Welp.

Due to my hours getting cut so egregiously at work, and I dropped two entire paychecks on vet bills, I am struggling to pay bills. I just paid rent and I have $5 to my name right now, and $100 of bills to pay on Friday.

SO, I will be doing a $20 sketch stream tomorrow at 5pm EST to try and make the money. If you'd like to watch or even commission me, you'll find me there tomorrow!

I also have my patreon if you'd like to check it out! I also have a ko-fi if you'd like to buy me a coffee! I genuinely appreciate the generosity everyone has showed me, and I hate asking this every time. I'm hoping in the coming days I won't have this problem anymore, but life's just generally full of misfortune for me lol

The way grrm keeps torturing Targaryen women that display strong personalities and actively seek power will never cease to enrage me.

Alyssa Velaryon is a capable and beloved Queen Regent up to the point when she marries Rogar, after which she suddenly becomes no more than a submissive wife to a brute and has a horrendous, humiliating death. Mind you, the son she fought so hard for did absolutely nothing to save her life, relegating her once again to being Rogar's wife and therefore letting him decide her fate. She dies by being butchered in a bed that stank of urine.

Rhaena the Queen in the West and East loses everything, gets into a forced marriage and is raped by Maegor, loses one daughter to a horrible death and has the other scold her at her regret of not being a better mother: "I have had the best mother any child could wish for, the Mother Above, and you are to thank for her.”. Her true love betrays her by stealing dragon eggs and leaving her, and when she dies she does so alone, without any of her loved ones.

The death of Aerea, Maegor's declared heir, the leader of the pack of girls who "terrorized" the Red Keep, who claimed Balerion the Black Dread... Need I say more? No, but I will let Barth do it: there was no mercy and no justice in what befell our poor princess. How could the gods be so blind or so uncaring as to permit such horror?

Viserra, who does not want to be married to a man older than her, a fossil who had been widowed four times, Viserra who has the ambition to become queen to escape that marriage and attempts to seduce Baelon to achieve that, dies at 15 by breaking her neck.

Rhaenyra, the only Queen Regnant, has sexual rumours and allusions spread about her starting from her childhood, she has every single aspect of her life picked apart by mysoginistic people, gets married against her will by force (yet this fandom loves to ignore it and pretends she and Laenor lived in a fairytale union), gets slut shamed and is named whore as often as she breathes. Four (five as far as Rhaenyra knows when she dies) of her children pre-decease her, we have no clear course of her reign because George doesn't bother to offer one apart from thousands different versions to a single event. She is murdered violently by her brother, not before of having her breast being cut with a dagger in a last poignant symbol against her sex, however.

All I want for Christmas is nothing but my favorite carols in church

one day they will all (and i mean all of them including blue) remember why the fuck they're playing this game in the first place (their children) and that is the day i know peace and will go back to following purgatory, bc my god. my god.

Season 3

Season 5

Oooook

the urge to join a group to get inspired again vs the dislike and anxiety you have with groups 💀

Hnnn when i was training my puppy and people around us wouldn't reinforce her training like i asked i would get soooo annoyed lmao

God yeah! Surprisingly, everyone around me has listened to my suggestions, but everyone who's met her so far also saw how I was when training Lobo so they've seen the result of good training. I tend to make people watch a couple episodes of It's Me or the Dog to show them just how bad Blue could be if we don't all put in effort for training and that's worked well.

Tbh I'm at the point now where if people won't listen to me or correct her bad behaviors and reinforce her good ones, then they just aren't allowed to interact with my dogs.

Pass!!!

#1 fear that blocks my writing flow: the feeling that my vocabulary is actively slipping from me 🙃

Yo, your analysis video was so good! I can't believe you were able to cover that much of the show. It must have been crazy to edit. Amazing work.

Thanks! It has consumed an insane amount of my life. But it's good to get it out. It really helps to hear the positive feedback! My biggest worry is that there's only gonna be like 12 people who watch the bulk of it 😅 like idk if anyone actually wants to listen to me for that long.

I wanna make more long form content like this, and this has been my first real big gamble.

i don't usually come on here and complain, but i need to.

companies are so, so aggravating in america. i couldn't get my medication AGAIN because production of it got halted, because they felt like they weren't making enough money. they were making millions, if not billions. this is the third time i had to switch medications. it was already overpriced as it is. it's mind-boggling. truly.

my favorite aspect of the dynamic between rory and jess is how much faith they have in each other like they way they encourage one another is just beautiful. like rory gave jess a chance when no one else was willing to and she saw his potential right away. and he just knew she was going to do great things ("you'll do it. you will, i promise") and that's why he was so shaken when he realized she was veering off this path she was meant for. when people question how literati can be an impactful ship with such little screentime i feel like it's because they don't take the time to focus on these little things, because with jess especially soooo much is subtext and if you go into the show and ignore anything that is not spelled out for you, you're not going to get their relationship or their characters

for the love of god just pay attention to what people say

Oh my lord! Do I hate cross tagging on AO3 It's so fucking annoying, I just wanna read elumx fics or elmax fics or something like that, but no. I have to read a steddie or byler fic to get even a tiny slice of what I want to read.

PLEASE DO NOT DO IT. FOR MY SAKE, PLEASE!

I WANT TO READ SO MANY THINGS

I HAVE A LIST OF THINGS TO WATCH

I WANT TO PLAY SO MANY GAMES SO SO SO MUCH

SO MUCH MUSIC TO LISTEN TO

I FEEL PARALYZED, WHY CAN'T I JUST START AAAAAAAAH