putting all my concert thoughts in a poast before i forget. here we go mucho texto warning. also setlist talk is gonna be out of order probably
the drive to the venue took longer than anticipated, traffic was so backed because dfw is just Like That. dont come here. and ft worth especially oh my GODDDD but we made it in time for the maine. i missed the first opener again its fine
ive only listened to the maine casually over the years and i like them but THEY WERE SUPER FUN LIVE????? the energy was so high for such a short set and they honestly sound better live than album recordings. i may have to stan
also Bassist Hot whats his number
theyre all kinda hot really. from my distance at least. sorry
robby energy
the sound at dickies arena in general is just soooo much fucking better than an outdoor stadium the guitars and drums were up to 11, ppl werent wrong abt the sound quality in this venue. sux its in ft worth though ONE MASSIVE DOWNSIDE kfmjsdkglafk
amazing sound at the cost of my hearing because. i forgot to buy ear plugs again it hurt just a lil bit. especially the pyro. at least its only been 2 times so far I WILL LEARN MY LESSON NEXT TIME LOL
i accidently sat in the wrong section but the my actual tickets i bought were closer so WE TAKE THOSE!!! not close enough to see skin pores but still very much enough
jimmy sounded great!! didnt know most of the songs despite doing a bit of listening but i got bleed american and the middle at the end which both ruled so. worth it
kinda wanted the maine back but ITS OKAY NO SHADE
patrick message on the projector. which is funny for anyone at home but FOR ME THERE I WAS LIKE [DREAD] [DREAD] [DREAD] FUCK DFW WEATHER
imagining patrick doing vocal warmups in the car by himself did lighten my mood just a tad. i had no proof but a feeling he did that
and then the pete images. only got a glimpse thru shitty venue connection but that made me laugh
and my battery was already low so the waiting and stalling was painful đ
i was directly diagonal from the guy in the east wing lower bowl that started a monkey-see-monkey-do light show thru the whole stadium while waiting for fob and i just love the goodness of people at concerts its everything to me PEOPLE ARE GOOD
the woman next to him also danced like a beautiful drunk swan the entire show and idk if i wanted to be her or be her friend
also if u saw plain ol me clear glasses brunette hair tourdust shirt and bracelets HI YES WAS I
i didnt feel like going around to trade bracelets again as nervous anticipation set in but i DID pick out an american psycho bracelet from a person who came up to me so i completely unknowingly manifested there holy fuck. im cherishing it forever thank u to that person
WRECKING BALL. LMAO
also i sang along to Thats What You Get by Paramore playing in overspeakers because thats my fucking band but I HEARD MORE PPL IN THE CROWD SING ALONG TO OLD PANIC WHICH PERSONALLY OFFENDED ME JUST SAYIN
wdstf singalong was everything. again the energy at concerts <3333 my people
LIKE 30-40 MIN LATER FOB IS ON FINALLY. i did not cry this time to lftos i was just glad they were there the worry Dissolved
joe and andy were so visible from my seats i stared at them both nearly the entire show. patrick brain out the window they are SO MUCH MORE ATTRACTIVE IN PERSON IM TELLIN YALL 4K HIGH DEFINITION THRU MY EYEBALLS GOT MY BRAIN IN A. TORNADO!
photos and videos were not fantastic my phone is nawt the latest model so nothing worth posting here sadly. but for myself? everythang
IM KICKING MYSELF because i so clearly had andy in view for HIS DRUMSTICK THING DURING SUGAR but MY FINGER DIDNT PRESS RECORD BUTTON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCKETH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
please. please if ur close to andy, video that for me i need it for no reason other than its my favorite lil thing that nobody at tourdust shows. thank u so mch
NO CHICAGO FOR ME THIS TIME getting doa twice is kinda crazy ngl
patrick apology (no tears) for grand theft autumn was funny
andy and pete had cute smiley interactions around disloyal order during the set. or before that idk. i know a bubble hit andy's drum kit (or he swatted it away himself?) and they were smiling at that đđđ theyre litrly besties do u understand.........
of course p squared still did their signature scissoring techniques thank u for that old men
NO HEAVEN IOWA. THEY SKIPPED HEAVEN IOWAA FOR DOLDRUMS. i still went hard of course but CONSIDERING HOW GR8 THE SOUND WAS I WAS ONLY SLIGHTLY BUMMED
you dont even wanna know how estatic i was for hum hallelujah. i had to get myself proof of it for it to be real. tahnk u. ill never recover ever. peace and love in my brain
i dont rememebr certain songs where joe had this very specific swagger but he so very much did i saw him. with my own eyes. (in the voice of the luke skywalker tweet) dont worry joe i'll appreciate ur cuntiness
headfirst slide. in this venue.
oh my god bro
both p squared riffs <3 especially the one near the end where pete saw someone watching shit on their phone nd said it was basketball JEYDEUGHEKDLK patrick chiming in w something about dont make fun of his step-dad. gold.
saying smfs reminded him of texas #TEXANPRIDE #COWBOYS
PATRICK DURING RIFF SAYNG HIS GLASSES ARENT CURRENT PRESCRIPTION. THE REVEAL THAT HE STILL CANT SEE. WE LOST
medley was like. a relief to me because i expected it it was like a cool towel in the midst for what was about to come. cant blame the guy for getting literally zero practice beforehand fmdsjfdslg
the 8 ball.
i cried BIG PHAT BABY TEARS
i love them more than words can say. i didnt know i needed it but i did
im still emotional thinking abt it
saturday aftercare cured all (even though i was WOOPED from going so hard EVERY SONG. couldnt scream anymore my voice is still shot. i refuse to NOT go as hard as i do)
i think that is all the notable stuff i remember i wish i couldve written down stuff on the ride home BUT i will add more if i think of it. overall its hard to say which show i liked better they both meant the absolute world to me!!! FALL OUT BOY FOREVER
7 min 26 secs in : Why the fuck did they start the movie like that. Why didn't the explosion take place? Theo's mom's apartment? His anxiety? Also.. why do they keep cutting the scenes abruptly? They ain't tweets... No limit.. then??
8 min 2 sec in : Okay they went to the apartment. Audrey's sweater deserved more screen time. The lipstain on the mug in focus *chef's kiss* poetic cinema!
9 min 19 sec in : Do you see what I see? Tom Cable's face has a stark resemblance to Boris's face. Did Theo have a crush on him?
9 min 54 sec in : Mr Barbour's hand is shaking. I like that they put it in there. He was sick. Nice. (I'd imagined Audrey's apartment building entrance like they showed the Barbour's apartment building entrance. Wild.)
11 min 8 sec in : Don't shove it into his face that y'all are fancy okay? He's not used to that life style. He didn't have maids making his bed. ARE YOU GIVING HIM DRUGS, MRS BARBOUR? But you just glared at your husband for offering him the same sort of thing?? Oh God. Poor child. "it's perfectly understandable" my ass. You gave him meds just because your sleep was getting affected.
14 min 39 sec : Woah woah woah Theo wtf you're so smol how'd you do that? Also... Again. The frame of Theo and Tom standing close and Theo and Boris standing close when they kissed, Theo is wearing the same damn sweater.
16 min 58 sec in : Ayyyy Jeffery Wright!
20 min 33 sec in : "He drank a lot", Theo about his dad. Honey just wait up, you will too. (The grilled sandwich and the cute lil smile đ also this is the first time since the movie started that Oakes' voice isn't deep.)
23 min 54 sec in : Wizard of Oz poster, I see you!
24 min 19 sec in : I love how Oakes is expressing being caught off guard. Theo knows he did something bad and every time he's dealing with something he didn't expect to deal with, he's like OMG THEY KNOW ABOUT THE PAINTING AND IM FUCKED even if no one knows.
25 min 1 sec in : The glasses made a difference. He went from mature to cute. Angry bird to angry birb.
25 min 44 sec in : Another sweater? Or was this THE sweater of Audrey? (Off topic but Oakes is hella cute. I could murder anyone who hurts him.)
29 min 9 sec in : Pippa doesn't remember or doesn't wanna remember? There was something in her eyes that was hard to read. Also, why doesn't anyone say 'I'm sorry about your mom' to Theo? Do Americans not care? It's weird to see no response when he tells people that Audrey is dead.
31 min 17 sec in : "The Goldfinch, destroyed"? Then why is Theo upset. Good riddance. Oh yeah. I know why. It's Donna Tartt we're talking about.
32 min 39 sec in : Hobie just casually predicting the future. "It's only fake if you pass it on as an original". Theo's like, "noted, gonna do exactly that".
34 min 16 sec in : Why does Theo write like a five year old child? That's toddler handwriting! And omg all the Andy-prom-dress memes are making sense now. (Also did I mention that Mrs Barbour seems more selfish in the film than she does in the book. Like hey I'm putting up with this kid because he helps my kid. He's serving a purpose for me. What the hell.) (How old is Andy anyway? He looks younger than Theo. I think he's different. Didn't grow up like other kids. That was mentioned in the book right?)
35 min 20 sec in : Ayyy Hobie's earring!
35 min 49 sec in : He shopped for himself? Nice! Didn't know kids could shop without adult supervision in the West. (Because they can't in the East.)
35 min 50 sec in : Ayyyy Sarah Paulson! Damn she's hot. How can you dislike her? *heart eyes*
37 min 30 sec in : I can't bring myself to hate Luke Wilson since Skeleton Twins but SHUT THE FUCK UP LARRY! AUDREY DESERVED BETTER. Look at how Larry and Xandra are looking at the place like they're vultures.
39 min 34 sec : They got the airport scene right. STOP GIVING HIM DRUGS WTH IS WRONG WITH THE ADULTS IN THIS MOVIE!
41 min 12 sec in : Ayyy Popper!!!!!
43 min 27 sec in : It just dawned on Theo that he's alone. Oh god. My poor baby.
45 min 12 sec in : Let me take this moment to say that Ashleigh Cummings is pretty. And I finally get why y'all were pissed at the non linear storyline and the weird voiceovers. Guess I'd been prepared for that so it didn't really suck that much.
49 min 30 sec in : I'd imagined Boreo reunion like the Platt Theo reunion. In the day. Dang it. Also... Adult Platt Barbour was not supposed to be good looking? In the book?
55 min 34 sec in : Without context, none of it could make sense. Apologies to whoever didn't read the book beforehand. Crowley fucked this up.
58 min in : Ayyyy Finn Wolfhard! BORIS IS HERE AND IM SO EXCITED IDK WHY
1 hour in : It's such a Boris thing to leave the bag unzipped.
1 hour 3 min 20 sec in : Slumdog Millionaire's Jai Ho (2008) is playing in the background. The only song that I've recognized so far. Wow. Lets me know about the time setting. Nice.
1 hr 3 min in : Someone gif " That cost twenty dollars!" *Stare* "That would have cost twenty dollars!"
1 hr 8 min in : So Boris's room is exactly like I had imagined but Theo's room isn't. Boris just mentioned Kotku though.
1 hr 9 min 14 sec in : Isn't it hella hot in Vegas? Why are they wearing sweaters? Or does drug intake make you more vulnerable to the environment?
1 hr 10 min 15 sec in : Xandra Theo argument : gold. "Cocktail sausages that you like." I wanna laugh in Crowley's face. What was he thinking?? Omg I'm dying.
1 hr 11 min 17 sec in : The slap sound didn't work??
1 hr 13 min 53 sec in : I like serious Boris better.
1 hr 14 min in : The slum house Audrey dream thing was not in the book. That's an entirely new addition.
1 hr 18 min 26 sec in : The Welty Theo scene is awesome. The sound effects work. I feel suffocated. The ambulance noise fiasco is also nicely pulled off. (also Theo's Yellow bag was dirty af then how did it get all clean when he didn't even do anything to it?)
1 hr 20 min 57 sec in : Shhhh Potter.
1 hr 22 min in : Holy shit he got slapped twice!! Ouch! And Larry's audacity to tell Theo to stop with the crying?? Good thing he died. Asshole.
1 hr 25 min in : "You don't tell me a lot of things but that's okay". I see what you did there, Boris. Which was of course, I love you.
1 hr 26 min in : "Act normal" - Theo knows his way around drugs pretty well, doesn't he?
1 hr 30 min in : "No family No friends" line punched me in the face. (Also awww popchik's excuse was the last resort for Boris to make Theo stay.)
1 hr 31 min 17 sec in : That pause after "What do you have to tell me?". You can clearly see Boris struggling to hold something back. Which was of course, I love you.
1 hr 31 min 34 sec in : What the fuck is that music? Oh heyyyyyy they kissed!-- he fucking runs away?? Also what kind of a kangaroo runs like that? (Yes, the taxi driver watched. I don't have to wonder anymore.) (They didn't address why he took the bus instead of flying?)
1 hr 33 min in : I didn't imagine Welty's room like that at all. Also why doesn't Hobie seem happy to see Theo again?
1 hr 35 min in : Longer stretches of one storyline are kinda bearable. From drugs in storage unit to waking up beside Kitsey. We got Vegas and Young Theo. Nice. (Also, who the heck puts jewelry in shoes? Is Theo that dumb? And now I can't think of anything else than Boris piercing his ear for the emerald earring. Tumblr has fucked it up bad.)
1 hr 43 min in : They nailed the Kitsey Theo confrontation.
1 hr 44 min in : Ayyy Ozma of Oz!
1 hr 48 min in : I noticed it before but I wasn't sure... Now I am. Pippa has Welty's ring. On her finger. At all times. (also, is NYC always that noisy? Must suck to walk on the roads.)
1 hr 52 min 23 sec in : They nailed the Theo Pippa date. What's that song playing in the background? I want the name. It's almost like two hours and I still haven't seen Aneurin Barnard once. Why! (Jerome's mentioned in the movie btw.)
1 hr 52 min 51 sec in : Complained too soon. Boris is sat in the dark doing god knows what. My man Aneurin is here!
1 hr 53 min 37 sec in : BOREO REUNIONNNNNN - no don't look at me like that I only watched it thrice.
1 hr 56 min in : Boris saying "it's someone else" with a knowing look and Theo looking at him. The frickin yearning.
1 hr 57 min in : Boris is like you're unhappy, I'm here, we're both rich, let's f*ck. "We could"... What are you suggesting dude he's repressed!
1 hr 58 min in : "you unwrapped it and showed it to me." So many meanings. The heart, the love the soul... Wow. Good for you, screen play writers! ( It's kinda hilarious how Boris got mad at Theo for never quote unquote fucking opening it.)
2 hr 1 min in : I'm calling it. They're going to fuck up the Theo Hobie confrontation. They put it on the wrong time. And they also fucked up the text from the book.
2 hr 5 min 48 sec in : Even Platt is saving his sister's face. Also where did Todd go? Did he never grow up? I wish Mrs Barbour didn't use Theo like she did.
2 hr 7 min in : The frame where Boris is between Kitsey and Theo. Chef's kiss.
2 hr 10 min 54 sec in : *intense music playing* Boris put his leg up on the table and I burst into laughter THOSE ARE THE FAMOUS FUCK ME PUMPS.
2 hr 11 min in : AAAAA THE FOREHEAD TOUCH AAAAAAA (Theo just knows without looking that Boris is close enough to touch? Theo are you sure you don't feel feelings for him?)
2 hr 12 min in : Theo is so worried that I'm not sure if it's for Boris or for losing the painting again. Omg he just murdered a man. Oh god.
2 hr 14 min in : Theo is spiralling. In the movie they imply that Hobie played a part in him attempting suicide. So wrong. Poor Hobie. In the book that wasn't the case.
2 hr 15 min in : The transition of the Goldfinch into Audrey, wow. Also, is it the first time we're seeing her? The movie started so long ago that I've forgotten if I saw Theo and Audrey in the museum. Boris following right after Audrey? That's a subliminal message. Boris is here to rescue y'all.
2 hr 16 min in : No shit Boris is freaking out right now.
2 hr 17 min in : The diner scene. They're both crying. "Happy Christmas, Potter" - which was of course, I love you.
2 hr 18 min in : No don't you dare compare Audrey and Mrs Barbour. Audrey would never drug her child or use him for her benefit.
2 hr 20 min in : Poor kid bumps into his mom lol. I found it funny.
On the whole
The movie was nice if you'd read the book beforehand. The first hour was steak, The second hour was Korean BBQ and the rest of the twenty minutes were minced beef. If you get what I mean. Weird analogy. It could have been much better. But it was really very nice in some places. Most places I'd say.
I didn't like how the pop songs ruined the mood of certain moments. I didn't like how you couldn't hear the conversation over the music playing. For example in the engagement party when Platt and Theo talked. Or in the diner scene.
Both Borises killed the accent thing. They tried their best. Cut them some slack.
Oakes deserves an Oscar for holding up this movie on his smol shoulders. I was shook at how a kid could act that well.
Popchik deserved more screen time. I'm still pissed they didn't add the Popchik Boris reunion. But then they couldn't make it chronological, what were we supposed to expect anyway.
Ansel Elgort y'all. Theo sure improved his handwriting lol. Ansel's writing is nice. He was actually good in this movie. Better than he was in The Fault In Our Stars. The internet is just mean. The critics too. I will never understand the hate.
All in all, it could have been a better adaptation but it didn't suck as bad as everyone made it out to be. John Clownery should be punished nonetheless. Special shout-out to Roger Deakins for making it work.
okay artists: one dee, hayley kiyoko, halsey, wallows, olivia oâbrien (i went to high school with her), and king princess; albums: golden hour, fine line, folklore, and calm if u listen to 5sos (i cant rmbr fjcjcj); songs: the less i know the better by tame impala, heaven falls/fall on me by surfaces, pink + white by frank ocean, crzy by kehlani, and dang! by mac miller
This is literally gonna take me like 20 min but thank you darling!
One Direction
Favourite song: Top 3 are IICF, Home, and What A Feeling
Least favourite song: Gotta Be You, Na Na Na, Love You Goodbye, according to that sorting thing
Favourite album: MITAM or Four i cant decide
Least favourite album: Up All Night in terms of actually being good, but I think my actual least favourite is Midnight Memories cause UAN is full of bops
Song that got me into them: WMYB babey, ive been around from the start
Seen Live?: Yes Maâam, the Take Me Home tour in Auckland
Rate: 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10
Im gonna put everything else under the break cause this bitch is gonna be long
Hayley Kiyoko
Favourite song: Cliffs Edge currently, its so gooood
Least favourite song: honestly dont listen to alllll of her stuff so i dont have one
Favourite album: Expectations
Least Favourite album: I also havent listened to Im too sensitive for this shit yet, so thats on the to do list
Song that got me into them?: uhhhh I think it was girls like girls
Seen live?: Sadly no :((
Rate: 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10
Halsey (I like her stuff but i dont know much of it yet)
Favourite song: Finally // Beautiful Stranger or You Should Be Sad
Least favourite song: I dont really have one!
Favourite album: Maniac I think
Least favourite album: dont have one
Song that got me into them: New Americana or Colors
Seen Live?: Not yet!
Rate: 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10
WallowsÂ
Hadnt heard of them!
First song youtube took me to: OK
First impression: surprised that dude is in a band, long song intro, like their sound
Do I like it?: Yeah!
Would I listen to them more?: Definitely!!
Rate: 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10
Olivia OâBrianÂ
Hadnt heard of her either but shes hot
First song youtube took me to: Just A Boy
First impression: Hot, Dua Lipa vibes, into it
Do I like it?: very much so
Would I listen to them more? absolutely
Rate: 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10
King Princess (Would die for her)
Favourite song: has to be Talia, but also her Happy Together cover is so fucking good, and also Holy
Least favourite song: dont have oneeee
Favourite album: Cheap Queen
Least favourite album: dont have oneeee again
Song that got me into them: Pussy Is God, such a good song
Seen live?: No, but I deserve to
Rate: 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10
Golden Hour (I fuck hard with this album)
Opinion on cover design: Stunning, she looks amazing, couldve had more yellow, 9/10
Favourite song: Slow Burn or Space Cowboy
Least Favourite song: Lonely Weekend, I dont love how it starts which makes it hard for me to listen toÂ
Underrated track: Happy & Sad
Overrated track: I dont think there is one, theyre all such lovely songs
Rate: 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10
Fine Line (I think this might be my all time favourite album)
Opinion on cover design: Love, wish harry was a lil closer, and also I kinda wish it wasnt black around the outside, idk why 8/10
Favourite song: Fine Line, then She, then Golden
Least Favourite: TPWK, Cherry, and Falling, but I love all three of them, thats just how theyve been ranked
Underrated Track: Canyon Moon - hes so happy and it makes me cryyyyy
Overrated Track: I would say Falling, its still so good but the hets really got hold of itÂ
Rate: 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10
Folklore (wasnt planning on listening to it but I did for you)
ok first thots, i like the 1, I also like that shes swearing, thats fun. looks like this album is pretty gay, idk
Opinion on cover design: artsy, simple, into it, 8/10
Favourite song: i have only listened to two so far but im enjoying both of them
Least favourite song: cant say yet, i heard a bit of seven and didnt love it but ill let you know
Cant say for overrated and underrated yet
Rate: 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10 but this is based off of three songs
CALM (would also die for this album)
Opinion on cover design: Big fan, love the grungy vibes, they all look beautiful, 9/10
Favourite song: No Shame and Lover of Mine
Least favourite song: Best Years
Underrated Track: High
Overrated Track: I think they all deserve the hype
 Rate: 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10
The Less I Know The Better - Tame Impala
couldnât finish it | not my thing | itâs fine | could get into this | ooo i like | oh hell yeah | fuck this is some good shit | there arenât even words, this transcends words
Heaven Falls / Fall on Me - Surfaces (this was a good rec, thanks babe)
couldnât finish it | not my thing | itâs fine | could get into this | ooo i like | oh hell yeah | fuck this is some good shit | there arenât even words, this transcends words
Pink + White - Frank Ocean
couldnât finish it | not my thing | itâs fine | could get into this | ooo i like | oh hell yeah | fuck this is some good shit | there arenât even words, this transcends words this song is so fucking good oh mmy god
CRZY - Kehlani
couldnât finish it | not my thing | itâs fine | could get into this | ooo i like | oh hell yeah | fuck this is some good shit | there arenât even words, this transcends words
Dang! - Mac Miller
 couldnât finish it | not my thing | itâs fine | could get into this | ooo i like | oh hell yeah | fuck this is some good shit | there arenât even words, this transcends words
Erg so in very short itâs a musical mixed media story that have kind of a corny set up that is mostly an excuse to have fictional male characters of different background involve themselves into rap battles? Most of its content comes from songs and drama CD, even if there are a few manga adaptation covering a couple of the drama tracks (albeit all those covered are how the teams got together and all).
In a little more depth: Basically a group of 12 Seiyuu decided to band together into a principe of rap battle, that would also give a spotlight to multiple rap artists in Japan, as they do collaboration by writting/composing the songs. All of the Seiyuu play different characters divided in 4 divisions: Buster Bros!! for Ikebukuro, Mad Trigger Crew for Yokohama, Fling Posse for Shibuya, and Matenrou for Shinjuku. Each divisions/characters have distinct styles of music or text to differenciate them.
The idea is that, after World War 3 and a lot of the population dying, weapons causing harms had been outlawed, instead remplaced by what we call Hypnosis Microphone (or Hypmic), weapons that attack the brain via its sonic vibes, thus are more powerful depending on how savy you are with words and sounds and all of that. (like i said, itâs corny, itâs really just a pretext for the battles ahah)
The Government, that is kinda shady, took hold into Chuuouku, the center of the city, and the rest of the towns are left to fend for their own, indulging in territories battles. By the time the story start, 4 teams have taken a hand into 4 divisions where they try their best to low the crime rate and make life better, this sort of stuff. Recently however, the Government decided to keep a closer eye on the Rap Battle themselves, organizing huge Event in Chuuouku for the Divisions to fight each other, and the winner can therefore have major impact on what gets developped in the city and all.
Itâs also important to know that the 4 leaders of the divisions, Ichiro, Samatoki, Ramuda and Jakurai, used to be in a band together, The Dirty Dawg, and they were very close - Something ended up breaking up the band (it is unsure what it is exactly) and left them with sort of bittersweet relationship with each other as theyâre now in a position where they have to fight each other.
Again though most of it is mostly a pretext for songs and character driven plotlines for those 12 to fuck shit up:Â
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(here a link to the translation, and hereâs a link for the playlist of the songs they put on youtube - mostly previews except for the Ensemble songs - i can send the full songs/drama CDs but in private since itâs⌠illegal and all.Youâll find all the translations out on this website, and here youâll find the drama tracks. And there for the solo songs only but idk how long this website will keep them up.)
(btw hereâs the second ensemble song and hereâs the third one - i tend to prefer them to the first one so here they are)
So like i said, corny, but character driven and i love those morons, and the songs are bangers, and i ended up loving it ways too much.
Iâll enter more in depth on the Divisions under the cut bc i do think knowing a bit the characters give a better idea but yeah kdjfhd my latest obsession rip.
If youâre reading this iâm so sorry iâm going to geek out over my 12 stupid sons.
btw (MC: ___) is their scene names, basically.
And erg while i try to avoid spoilers from the latest season, thereâs a lot of âspoilersâ from backstory exposition or information spreads through the drama tracks and the songs, so either just scroll to see the name and all or read at your own risks?Â
Buster Bros!!! representing Ikebukuro Division - in red, Ichiro Yamada (19yo) the leader,in blue, Jiro Yamada (16yo), in yellow Saburo Yamada (14). (Previews of their solo songs, preview of their first group song Ikebukuro West Game Park, their second group song: Ohayo Ikebukuro!)
Ichiro, Jiro and Saburo are brothers - they are orphans (unknown why but since Ichiro rejects any fathr figure p strongly i think itâs linked to their father) and Ichiro, the eldest brother, had taken care of his two little brothers most of his life to the point of being a delicant before being recruited by the Dirty Dawg. Before the story started the boys werenât all that close, but by now, both little brothers want to prove their worth to their eldest brothers and when the Dirty Dawg broke up and Ichiro had to figure out which team to make for the Rap Battles, both brothers offered to help. Despite both being ways too young for this they still both ended up proving themselves. They also tend to fight for their big brotherâs attention a lot.
Ichiro (MC Big Brother) himself seems to be a rather warm and friendly person - he works odd jobs all around town, kind of like a mercenary but doing just⌠any sort of work being asked of him, just not in the illegal stuff when he can avoid it. Heâs rather hot headed. He used to be very close from the Dirty Dawg who took care of him when they met, especially Samatoki, but since the bandâs break up, it seems there is a particularly sour relationship with Samatoki neither of them are over with. Ichiro often disses Samatoki out of nowhere in his raps lmao. Aside from that heâs a complete geek and loves manga and anime and video game - all the stuff youâd expect.
Jiro, (MC Middle Brother) the second, tends to follow Ichiroâs path a lot, being a bit in delincance and stuff, creating himself a web of contacts. He tends to copy Ichiro in his passions in order to impress him. Heâs also very social and get friends very easily. Heâs constantly bickering with Saburo who seems to see their âbrotherhoodâ as a competition. They used to be very close when they were younger but now theyâre always at each otherâs throat.
Saburo (MC Little Brother), the third, doesnât really want to follow the path of his brothers but he wants to be useful in his own way. Incredibly clever, he is a very good hacker and can find information very quickly. He also has some of the sickest burn of the lot but iâm biased. Unlike Jiro, Saburo is really not social at all and has very few friends. His whole world is about being the best he can be for Ichiro.He likes things that can stimulate his brian, especially board games and the likes.Â
Mad Trigger Crew, representing Yokohama Divison- Center in white, Samatoki Aohitsugi(25) the Leader - with glasses, Juuto Iruma (29), in military uniform, Riou Busujima Manson (28).(Previews of their solo songs, preview of their first group song: Yokohama Walker, their second group song: Dead Pools)
If The BB are linked by the fact theyâre brothers, MTC is linked by beingâŚ.. Involved in armed illegal activities? Samatoki is the second in command of a Yakuza family, Juuto is a corrupted cop who is close to Samatoki because of⌠workâŚ. and Riou kinda ended up tagging along. Anyway theyâre in charge of Yokohama which seems to be a part of the city that suffered pretty badly from the war and have high crime rates.
In more details, Samatoki (MC Mr Hardcore) is involved in the mafia. He explains in his personal song that his mother killed his abusive father before killing herself, leaving him to take care of his little sister, Nemu, which is what led him to a life of crime. His Yakuza clan seems to have a honor code though so theyâre not involved in too much dirty stuff. Every sacrifice Samatoki did was for his sister. So obviously he saw a bit of himself in Ichiro when they originally met, and was one of the influencial force to keep Ichiro out of the crime life knowing pretty well where itâs headed. The Band breakup left a particularly sour taste in Samatokiâs mouth regarding Ichiro, feeling betrayed by whatever happened back then, and since then he tends to be. touchy. when itâs question of Ichiro. As in, almost caused a car crash while he wasnât driving just thinking about Ichiro. Heâs a mess. Heâs also very short tempered.Â
Juuto (MC 45 Rabbit) is a corrupted cop: while he works with the police and all the stuff, he has ties with Samatokiâs yakuza clan and will do shady stuff in order to maintain this alliance. Mostly blackmail, bailing Samatoki out of jail, all this sort of things. He seems to have a specific reason to accept it, a necessary evil to get rid of wickedness in the city. Juutoâs backstory was only developped in the latest drama tracks so it would count as spoilers but letâs say he has reasons to do so.Heâs generally more down to earth and more tongue in cheek. He knows how to pick up peopleâs weaknesses letâs say.
Riou (MC Crazy M) is an army man who isnât aware the war is over. He has been living in survival mode in the forest of Yokohama for the past few years, having also one of the prototype Hypnosis Mic, with more raw power. His hobbies is to cook from⌠unusual sources. Samatoki and Juuto are terrified by his cooking. There isnât much revealed yet about Riouâs backstory however. Juuto found out about him and put him in contact with Samatoki when it was question to develop MTC, and they have since then developped a companionship of sort.
Fling Posse, representing Shibuya Division (also theyâre my favs⤠which will be obvious in two mins bc i rambled much more about them holy fuck)- In the middle with pink hair, Ramuda Amemura (24), with brown hair, Gentaro Yumeno (24), with blue hair, Dice Arisugawa (20)(Previews of their solo songs, preview of their first group song, Shibuya Marble Texture, their second group song: Stella (aka my most listened hypmic song that made me unhealthily obsessed with the series) )
I donât even know where to start with them. Donât be fooled by how cute they look, theyâre the most shady group. Officially, theyâve all been recruited by Ramuda âonly for the thrill of itâ, âTo kill boredomâ, but it also happens that they are the three with the most ties to the government. But none of them tend to really talk about it. Not really. They are very âliving in the presentâ kind of people, even if it comes with risks. Ramuda gathered them for his own agenda. Neither Gentaro nor Dice knew each other before Ramuda put them together and neither know why Ramuda gathered them aside as âfor the thrillâ. Gentaro however has major doubts over the kind of person Ramuda is.Â
Ramuda (MC Easy R) is their leader. He is a fashion designer. He was the one who put the Dirty Dawg together back in the days, and seems to have⌠weird reasons to do anything heâs ever doing. Honestly i donât know how to even touch how shady he is, but heâs all shade of shady. He will however always sound super cute. The only person he seems to not bear the sight of is Jakurai, his ex-teammate from the Dirty Dawg. They used to be very close but now things are very tense in between them, mostly with Ramuda setting as much distances as possible he can and hardly managing to remain cheerful around him.Â
Gentaro (MC Phantom) is a writter and also a chronic liar. You litterally cannot trust a single thing coming out of his mouth, heâs always making something up. His personal song is supposed to talk about his past but thereâs like, a big lie in the begining of it (âI was born in winterâ yOUâRE BORN ON APRIL THE FIRST.). One thing that is certain about him however, is that he has a friend who is very sick and at the hospital and that it seems to be the motivation behind all of his lies, as he started to make up fictions to cheer up his friend and turned his own life into a fiction by extension. Thereâs more shady stuff about him and his past, i could discuss it for hours (heâs my fav kdhfd). But mostly, heâs just the kind to tease people a lot and to not really expect to have friends that stick arounds, considering himself a untrustworthy unredeemable trash. He has a weird dynamic with his own sense of self, always making up false selves. I legit could talk for hours about it kdjhfd. He tends to over-tease Dice because Dice falls for every single of his lies, and he tends to have a soft spot for him. Heâs also extremely observant since he writes story he makes up from people he observes, so he catches on stuff more easily. Gentaroâs lyrics are often more inclined toward poetry or well, work of fictions (he wrote Stella in verse and Stella is kindof a Posse!Au of how Gentaro sees the Posse. Stellaaaaaa)
Dice (MC Dead or Alive) is⌠a professional disaster? Joke aside, heâs a gambler who tends to push his luck a loooot. (thereâs a lot of implications about how he doesnât have a stable place to crash in because most of his rent money go into gambling). His outlook on life are really mostly that he wants to live a life that gives him legit thrills. He hates being bored. Itâs heavily implied that he comes from a rich, influencial family but threw it all away for his addiction. The only reason he agreed to join the Posse was for the thrill the rap battles would provide. He also kinda considers himself a lowrate trash due to the lifestyle heâs living.Heâs rather guilible, falling for every single of Gentaroâs lies despite how obvious they are, and gets teased a lot by both of his teammates. Heâs also fiercely protective and combative. He is also the king of bad decisions and of having to drag his posse in them. (well mostly Gentaro). Heâs also loves the Posse in itself and is the one whoâs the most likely to brag about how great his band is. He genuinely loves his teammates and it makes me so soft,,. Heâs also very perceptive, realizing very quickly when his teammates are changing their mood. And again he protecc,,
Matenrou - Representing Shinjuku DivisionCenter with purple hair: Jakurai Jinguji (35), the blond is Hifumi Izanami (29) and the gingerhead is Doppo Kannonzaka (29)(Previews of their solo songs, preview of their first group song, Shinjuku Style, their second group song: Papiyon that wasnât put on youtube yet but should in a couple of weeks)
Matenrou is the band with the darkest aesthetic, protecting the Shinjukuâs division that came to be known mostly for the health problems, if i understand well also because the only functioning hospital is located there. Jakurai is a doctor and Doppo is his patient, while Hifumi is Doppoâs childhood friend and roomate. They end up tangled together after Hifumi gets threats on his life pushing Doppo to reach out for Jakurai, who took an interest on them as possible teammates when everything unfolded.Â
Jakurai (MC ill-Doc) is⌠an interesting character i dare not to spoil the backstory of but letâs say he has some dark past. As a person however, he is fascinated by peopleâs psychee, how they work, what pushes them to do stuff, and is therefore attracted to âinteresting peopleâ, people that makes him want to explore humanâs psychee. Back in the Dirty Dawgâs day, it was what drove Jakurai to be very interested in RamudaâŚ. Until he considered Ramudaâs humanity too lost to be saved after the band broke up, which Jakurai blames partially on Ramuda. Ramuda remains the only person to have ever made Jakurai lose his patience. Otherwise, Jakurai is a rather collected and a very kind man, who tries to reach out and help others when he can. But again, dark past and stuff and some shady stuff went on with Ramuda. He found an interest in Doppo and Hifumi as he got to know them and now is rather protective of the two of them, often going fishing with Hifumi and doing anything to uplift Doppo.Heâs also a terrible drinker. Donât let him drink.He has one of my favorite solo song though and he has a sort of goth existantialism vibe to him i just love.Â
Hifumi (MC Gigolo) is Doppoâs childhood best friend and roomate. Now Hifumiâs story is a bit huh.. particular. When he was very young he had had a very traumatic experience with women that led him to be utterly terrified of being even nearby one. When he reached adulthood, he considered he couldnât keep going like that and forced himself into a woman dominated space by becoming a Host, to overcome his fear. It was so hard on him however that he ended up⌠coping by considering that when he was wearing the Suit of the Host, he was a complete different person. Not quite split personality, but autosuggestion mostly. He gets into all sort of troubles with the suit on however. The only person he relies completely on is Doppo, whom he knows from childhood and with whom he lives. Hifumi is a good cook, and is always trying to cheer up his friend. becauseâŚ
Doppo (MC Doppo) is an anxious disaster of a man. Heâs your typical overworked office worker, who is handling this life pretty badly. He feels like his whole life is something he should be apologizing for, which he does all the time. Heâs honestly unhealthily anxious and thatâs why he is Jakuraiâs patient. Heâs seriously a depressed, anxious disaster whoâs only light seems to mostly be that Hifumi cheers on him all the time⌠when Hifumi doesnât create a terrible situation Doppo feels like he has to apologize for. However Doppo is someone you can rely on, with a lot of frustration bottled inside him to the point of it becoming an amazing weapon once unleashed with the rap battles. Heâs very quick and ressourceful when put into extreme lifethreatening situation, which got Jakuraiâs attention a lot.Â
So this is the main divisions and characters. There are more developped via the drama CDs obviously, more plot and all, but thatâs the gist of it. Honestly again itâs just a pretext for characters and songs that fits their characters.Â
I personally never expected to care about it that much - i have friends who had been talking about it for over a year and i just knew it a bit in passing until i started to casually listen to the songs - and then i went down the rabbit hole when i ended up loving the songs too much to not care for the characters. (Stella was my breaking point though. The moment it came out I was lost. This was the moment i dedicated myself to it. I could go on a full ramble just on Stella alone.)
And yeah it kinda shows i have a major bias but my favs are truly the Posse - both as characters and as music style goes. Close second is Matenrou though i love their aesthetics.
the first battle season is over, itâs easy to know from their youtube how it unfolded ahah. The first round was BB VS MTC, the second FP VS MTR. Each rounds came with drama CD setting up the dynamics of the characters in and out of their bands, which was pretty cool.Â
After the First Battle Season ended we were blessed with a drama track and song from the Dirty Dawg era which is why i cannot stop shutting the fuck up about it dkjhfd it makes me so sad to look back to how close they were and how they threw all of this awayâŚ.Â
Now a new season is starting but this is where weâre missing translations so we just⌠wait.Â
There are a few manga that covers a few of the drama tracks but not all, and there will be a mobile game soon.Â
But yeah thatâs. thatâs basically the basis.Â
And it is far too entertaining to me kdjhfd
and i probably shouldnât have written all of that with a killer headache but i,, love they,,,
so yeah this is all there is to know. If youâve read it this far⌠i admire your patience. Thank u
I was tagged by @mikrokosyoongs thank u bbđĽşđ
1. What takes up too much of your time?
currently studying + final projectsđŞ but usually my time is spent trying to keep up w all my kpop boys (mostly bts) hfudsihfÂ
2. What makes your day better?
listening to music, playing my cello, talking to my friends, n rugby
3. Whatâs the best thing to happen to you today?
BLACK HAIRED TAE IS BACK (im still not over it bye) AND I GOT BTS TIX
4. What fictional place would you like to go to?
uhhhh idk? maybe the hp universe but ngl I havent watched/read much lately that takes place in a historical setting besides got and I know for sure I dont wanna b there hfdjhfÂ
5. Are you good at giving advice?
I like to think I am but idkÂ
6. Do you have any mental illness?
sadly yeahđŁ
7. Have you ever experienced sleep paralysis?
no, thank fuck. id fr die
8. What musician inspired you the most?
yoongi, min yoongi, suga, syub, the love of my life, and kim namjoon
9. Have you ever fallen in love?
wish I cld say no hahah but
10. Whatâs your dream date?
idk I dont rly have one hfudshf I like amusement parks a lot but also cuddling sounds like an AMAZING date idea
11. What do others notice about you?
ppl always comment on my hair (bc I always have it dyed) and my height first so I guess those fhiusdfhi, personality wise tho, that im v quiet
12. What is an annoying habit you have?
biting my nails. I try so hard every day to not but it ends up happening anyway
13. Do you still talk to your first love?
no, thankfully
14. How many exes do you have?
5 and all of them ended up sucking yeetđ
15. How many songs are in your playlist?
idk bc I have like 7483758 playlistsÂ
16. What instruments can you play?
cello! and a bit of ukulele but I havent picked it up in a while so im probably rusty
17. What do you have the most pictures of?
bts, but out of all of them probably jm or yoongi
18. Where would you like to go before you die?
everywhere, but mostly Europe Australia and AsiaÂ
19. What is your zodiac?
ima go deep bc why not so: leo sun cap moon aries rising. feel free to roast me in my asks abt that idk
20. Do you relate to it?
my zodiac? lmao my sun no but my moon for sure
21. What is happiness to you?
music.Â
22. Are you going through anything right now?
umm stress bc finals r in like a week but other than that no not particularly. I did just get out of a rly bad like month, almost 2 month long depressive episode tho so its been rough bouncing back from that bc I got behind on a LOT of work bc of it
23. Whatâs the worst decision you ever made?
not a specific decision but I trusted too easily in the past and it always hurt me
24. Whatâs your favorite store?
I dont rly shop that much in specific stores ngl, maybe line friends tho? it was a rly cute store when I visited last month :(
25. Whatâs your opinion on abortion?
your body, your decision. no one elses
26. Do you keep a bucket list?
nah, theres things I wanna do but idc enough to write them down or keep track or anything
27. Do you have a favorite album?
persona, lys tear, and dark and wild r so so superior dont @ me I won't change my mind
28. What do you want for your birthday?
hfidshfi not 2 b that bitch but I always only ask for money
29. What are most peopleâs first impression of you?
that Iâm really quiet and reserved. also that im fucking short
30. What age do you seem according to most people?
I got mistaken as 12 once when I was 18 but recently idk, maybe 17? probably not much younger now since I go to college
31. Where do you keep your phone while youâre sleeping?
next to me on my bed bc I always end up falling asleep while on it
32. What word do you say the most?
yoongi or some curse word probably
33. Whatâs the oldest age you would date?
22 or 23? idk I havent rly thought of it much. except id date hyung line for sure if they fucking asked, screw age preferences in that case.
34. Whatâs the youngest age you would date?
18 since im only 19 lmao
35. What job/career do most people say would suit you?
anything music relatedÂ
36. Whatâs your favorite music genre?
any varying kind of rock except most metal (alt, indie, classic, etc.), pop (and that included kpop), and hip hop
37. If you could live in any country in the world, where would it be?
um? tbh I like New York but uhh any country that itâs legal to be lgbtq+ in since my trans gay ass wldnt thrive anywhere that itâs illegal obvi
38. What is your current favorite song?
dionysus and home and also bonfire by childish gambino
39. How long have you had this blog for?
I dont know tbfh, maybe a year and a half? two years? bc it was a marvel blog before it was a bts blog so..
40. What are you excited for?
METLIFE DAY 2 LETS GOOOO
41. Are you a better talker or listener?
listener. talking takes a lot out of me mentally if im sober unless im w someone im rly comfy w
42. What is the last productive thing you did?
uhh this weekend I finished 3 whole assignments dsifhi that's abt it
43. What do you want for christmas?
idk? money? to get to spend time w my dad n step sisters? christmas is so far away man idk yet
44. What class do you get the best grades in?
music related courses and english/writing
45. On a scale of 1-10, how are you feeling right now?
6, wld be more if I wasnt stressed out of my mine but ukno
46. What can you see yourself doing in ten years?
mmm my hope is that ill b a relatively successful music producer/engineer by then but weâll see how that goes lmaoo
47. When did you get your first heartbreak?
threeee years ago I think? its been a hot second
48. What age do you want to get married?
bro im only 19 I dont wanna think abt marriage
49. What career did you want to have as a child?
a vet! and then I realized u had to put pets down sometimes so I said fuck that
50. What do you crave right now?
physical affection lmaoo
m not gonna tag anyone bc I kinda took an break from work that I shouldn't have to do this so fhidsh anyone can do this if u want idk
Hi lovers, im typing this from the death pits of my bed as I just woke up from the littest and bestest night of my life with Niall at the Flicker World Tour in Singapore. Iâll try to recall as much as I can about the whole experience from the soundcheck, M&G and the concert.
Soundcheck:
I was right smack in the middle and second row for soundcheck. We were all seated and anxiously waiting for Niall to come out so we were all just casually talking and all of a sudden with no warning whatsoever he just came out along with the band. It really took me by surprise (no pun intended lmao) like this bitch just came out of nowhere and made me tear up shshfdhfjfv. He then said his greetings to Singapore and then started playing On The Loose, You & Me and Fire Away which sounded really amazing everyone were singing and jamming/swaying to the songs. After the songs ended, everyone was screaming and he started covering his ears and had this freaked out look on his face lmao this boy is so dramatic I swear to god we werenât really that loud ajnjdsncjs. He then started to tell us to calm down and asked us if we watch High School Musical and started to lead the Sharpay breathing exercise lmao.
After everyone quieten down, he started talking about how good it was to be back in Singapore and how hot Singapore is (like literally itâs 31-32 degrees Celsius outside and really humid, the moment I step outside im drenched in sweat idk how I survived in this weather for the past 20 years itâs summer everyday). He even said he played golf at 8am earlier and he felt like heâs having a heatstroke and was drenched in sweat just by standing there and was like ânah I canât do this can Iâ HAHAHA. He went like âJesus how did you all survive in this weather but obviously all of you have climatized to itâ and pointed behind him where there were all sorts of drinks from plain water to sweet drinks and how he had to drinks gallons of water to keep himself hydrated. And THEN a fan in front of me told him she was thirsty and HE GAVE HIS BOTTLED WATER TO HER. I think she got freaked out and was just standing still with the bottle in hand and they had a staring contest and Niall said I just gave you me water bottle so you better drink it but she was still hesitant to drink it and then he added âthat better not be on E-Bay by 6pmâ. Everyone around me started chanting âchug chug chugâ and I joined in hahaha and then she started drinking from the bottle.
He then asked us if we were ready for Q&A and everyone lost the plot and screamed their heads off and he covered his ears again until a girl told everyone to shut up and then he pointed to her and said âthatâs my girl right thereâ and that girl just lost the plot and shaking and screaming and everyone started screaming again it was hilarious lmfao. One of his crew then came out with a few coloured post-it notes in hand where we wrote our questions for Niall. One of the questions was if heâd rather win the grammys or the masters tournament, which was a really good qn im honestly curious. He started talking bout how the theatre looks like itâs in the grammys and added âNot that I know how it feels to be thereâ. But really though, this man deserves a Grammy someone give it to him pls he deserves it so much. Cant even remember if he even answered the qn bc he was talking about nice the theatre is and how he would always research on the venues heâll be playing. Another qn was something about his guitars. He said that heâs got an old Gibson with him and that heâd play for us later and added that it needs careful attention bc on the road it will always need some sort of repairing and fixing. He then quipped that one of his crew whoâs a guitar technician has made guitars from scratch and everyone started applauding and cheering for him even though he was backstage. He started talking about Jake like how you can spend just 2 hours listening to him talking about guitars and 2 hours is not enough hahaha. Another qn was something like how heâs gonna spend his time after the tour. He said that heâll be chilling for a while and then focus on making his new album but not to expect it very soon as heâs trying to make the right sound for his new album. A fan then quipped that he can take his own time and this boy just cocked his hips out with his hands on his hips and said âoh yeah Iâll take my sweet ass timeâ jjsbjfidnsjcsdn. Another qn was something like if he remembers any faces during the concerts. He said that he generally remembers the ones in the first few rows and those that have attended a few of his shows. He then added how ridiculous for some fans to come to him and asked him if he remembers them from 2014 dcjdbcjd. Â He answered a few more qns which was a blur I cant remember sorry!!! It went by so fast though like 30-35 mins?? Honestly the soundcheck was a blast, heâs so cheeky and sarcastic and sassy and he engaged and interacted with everyone which was so captivating and charming about him im so heart eyes for him.
Meet & Greet:
Right after the soundcheck was m&g which got my heart beating so fast and anxious about. Thank god I was the last few people to go which gives me time to calm down and realign my train of thoughts. When it was my turn to go, I took a peek behind the board and he was right there but he was busy passing a letter to one of the crew a fan gave to him who went before me. I just went straight in and patiently waited beside him and gawking at him because he was just so beautiful and calming to look at fjvdjvjbjdn. Idk why but at that point of time I didnât feel nervous at all but not until he turned towards me and I had a fucking mental breakdown bc his eyes were so blue itâs so pretty and his face was so smooth and shaved. I was too busy looking into his eyes that I didnât realise that he smiled at me and pulled me into a hug and asked âhow are you you good?â I replied with âyeah Im really good how are youâ but I didnât hear his reply bc I was too busy burying my face into his shoulder and breathing deep into his shirt to smell him ahhhssdfjs. YALL HE SMELLS SO FRESH AND IT REMINDS ME OF A SCENTED CANDLE THAT JUST CALMS YOU DOWN AND MAKES YOUR BODY WARM UP (or was that just me lmfaoooo). The scent isnât strong at all like I literally had to take a good sniff from his shirt to be able to smell it!!!! While that his arms were around my waist and shoulder and his grip felt SO FIRM AROUND ME. He then pulled away and pulled me into a side hug and we took a picture and I realised that I didnât wrap my other arm across his front and I quickly did and THEN he fucking put his other arm that was free on my arm that I just wrapped across his front and without even realising I was brushing my hand across his hairy arms ANJCNSJDNC ITâS SO SOFT AND HAIRY YALL UGHHHH. The photographer then took another shot before we pulled away and I turned back to him and started reaching out for the bracelet I made for him and a letter I wrote for him and passed it to him. I told him that I made him this bracelet that was matching with mine that I had on my wrist which has some chakra beads and his initials on it (mine with my initials of course). He was like âaw thatâs really nice thank youâ and saw the front of my postcard letter (which I managed to squeeze a good 2 pages of what I wanted to say to him) which said âGreetings from the Worldâ and he read it out and thanked me again for the gift. I was about to leave when I asked him for another hug and we went straight for the hug and I started breathing into his shirt again lmao. When we pulled away, I told him he looks so different now that he shaved and I asked him why did he shave bc I love his beard and his sarcastic ass just scoffed and said âoh I shaved it by accidentâ. My dumbass of course shot him a confused look and said âwhat do you mean by accident???â Â before I left and said hi to mark and he smiled back and said hi :â) I just pray hard that my m&g photo will turn out nice!!!
Below is my gift to Niall!
Concert:
Well we all know the concert was lit I had a blast and I was so proud to be part of the paper houses fan project when he performed Paper Houses. The crowd was really beautiful even Niall was in awe and smiling the whole time and said âthatâs beautifulâ im sobbing. I cant emphasize the number of times Niall was talking about the warm weather in Singapore too hahaha. Cant help but to feel really touched when he said that he completely understands how expensive concert tickets can be and for picking his show to attend to out of the many tours going on even though heâs said it many times in previous shows. The only thing that he didnât do during the concert was introducing the band to us which I was really looking forward to but itâs okay it was the best concert experience I ever had!! We stan a legend and talented man :â)
Thanks for tuning in to Farahâs diary entry hahaha peace out!!!
Have you ever actually drank warm milk?
Sure. I never really drink milk because...well, I care about my stomach lmao, so I didnât know there were mostly negative feelings about warm milk. That said, Iâve had it both cold and warm and donât have a preference.
Have you used it to help you sleep? Did it work?
No, because Iâd be headed to the bathroom instead of my bed instead.
Do you prefer to have milk when you eat cakes/cookies?
I never have milk when having sweets. I prefer coffee.
What is your preferred brand of chocolate?
The only chocolate bar I'll really eat is Twix. < Oooooh yes, Twix is good. Does Reeseâs also count? Thatâs one of my favorites as well.
Do you like white chocolate?
I love it. Milk chocolate is too sweet for me and irritates my throat most days, so I prefer to have white chocolate instead.
Do you use coconut oil for anything? What?
No. It could be part of some products I use, but I wouldnât be aware of them.
Have you been wanting to start watching any shows?
Iâve been intrigued by the K-drama Nevertheless for quite some time, but I always find it impossible to start on TV series in general because most of them are toooooooo looonggggg, so idk if Iâll ever get on this. Iâve also been wanting to rewatch The Crown.
Are there any movies you want to see?
Not really.
Are there any movies/shows you've seen so many times you're sick of them?
50 First Dates. They kept showing it on one of the movie channels that we used to have for such a long time that I donât really feel the urge to watch it again anymore, even though I actually really liked the movie and found it cute.
What about songs you've heard so many times you hate them?
I wouldnât go so far as to say âhate,â but there are definitely a bunch of radio songs that are too overplayed. For instance, I like both Olivia Rodrigo and Billie Eilish but thereâs been more than one instance wherein Iâll hear a song of theirs while Iâm headed somewhere then hear the exact same song being played once Iâm back in my car.
If you could look like any celebrity, which one would it be?
I donât wish to look like any of them, but I find Olivia Rodrigo very pretty.
Do you have any distinctive birthmarks?
All of my birthmarks are on my backside so I canât say for sure if theyâre distinctive to other people lol.
When was the first time you tasted alcohol?
18. I do distinctly recall one instance in high school where we were attending mass and we had to dip the host into the goblet of wine, but I had been in my Iâm-never-taking-a-sip-of-alcohol phase so I just fake-dipped and consumed the host without the wine. I was around 16 or 17 then.
Do you wear socks under your slippers?
Socks...under the slippers? Iâm struggling to understand that lmao, but no I havenât done this.
What is the coldest weather you've experienced?
Japan was bitingly cold; second on the list would be Sagada â though Iâm sure both places were cold just from a Southeast Asian standard because I live in a very humid and warm climate hahaha.
Have you ever eaten snow?
Nope.
Are there any metals that turn your skin green?
I donât think so; at least this isnât something Iâve experienced before.
Do you ever put honey in your tea?
I donât drink tea.
Do you know anybody who gets feminism confused with misandry?
OMG this was my ex. This was Gabie AS FUCK. I hated talking about feminism and equality with her because the latter was just nonexistent to her and it was impossible to have a levelheaded, civilized conversation about this topic. She held some problematic opinions that I wish I went ahead and called out sooner.
Do you talk to your pets?
Yeah, all the time. Kimi canât hear well anymore but I talk to him just the same.
When you do, is your tone different from when you talk to humans?Â
Yes, my voice is definitely higher-pitched and my intonation also changes.
Who is a famous person you could see yourself reading an autobiography about?
Min Yoongi.
What is the best horror movie, in your opinion?
Ooh, kind of hard to decide on considering I havenât watched any horror movies in a hot minute...but Iâll go with a constant favorite of mine, The Shining.
Curtains or blinds?
Blinds. Has a better ~feel than curtains.
Describe yourself with 3 fictional characters.
According to that fictional character quiz, (of the characters I know), I'm most similar to Rachel from Crazy Rich Asians, Mary from Eternal Sunshine, and Maeve from Westworld. Not sure if I 100% agree with those but. < Oh wow itâs been ages since I took this exam so I got intrigued and retook it just now. Unsurprisingly Iâm still similar to Amy from B-99 and Monica from Friends, which I completely agree with lol. The #1 ranking I got though was Ann Perkins from Parks and Rec? which I havenât watched before but there ya go.
Are there any numbers you dislike for any reason?
Hmm, not really.
Do you own/wear any jumpsuits?
Sure.
Do you wear long johns under your clothes when it gets really cold?
No, âreally coldâ is nonexistent where I live.
Have you ever adopted a stray? (Cat or dog)?
No.
What's a movie you think more people should see?
Portrait of a Lady on Fire.
Do you like anything starring Robert Redford or Paul Newman?
I donât think so. I remember having a big crush on Paul Newman way way back but I havenât been able to watch a film of his.
Do you struggle with dry skin in the winter?
No winter.
Do you have any friends in a different timezone?
Not really, but relatives, yes.
Have you ever had to go without heat?
Not relevant.
Do you read about any mythology? (Greek, Roman, Norse, Egyptian, etc)
The subject is extremely boring to me, so no.
If you do, do you have any favorite gods/goddesses?
No.
Have you ever had to take medication to help you sleep?
No, I donât have problems falling asleep.
Have you ever had to take medication to keep you awake? (Like No-Doz)
No, just coffee.
Are you still in touch with the person you lost your virginity with?
Nope.
Have you ever had sex with a friend?
Technically yeah, but we were also already dating then.
Was it awkward afterward?
No, because they had been my partner too.
If not, do you think you could ever have a friend with benefits?
Eh, probably not. I donât really care for sex so the thought of FWBs isnât something Iâve actively looked for or even considering.
Do you know anybody with more than two nipples?
Not in real life.
Do you ever use bath bombs?
I only ever bought one once, and that was enough fun. Itâs definitely not a necessity.
Do you think it's prettier when the moon is full, or a crescent?
I like both, but I guess I like the full moon ever so slightly more.
Have you ever been to a planetarium?
Yeah, it was part of our field trip itinerary back in Grade 6, if Iâm not mistaken. If not Grade 6 it was Grade 7.
Have you grown to dislike your first email address?
Yeah cos what the fuck was that email address and what was I thinking.
What skill that you have do you make most use of?
I have to write literally everyday for work and even though it can get tiring, Iâm also glad that skill of mine isnât going to waste or isnât being hidden.
Do you agree that some people are just not meant to have children?
Yes, for sure. I would like to introduce you once again to the Philippines, where parents see their kids as a retirement fund. I am glad to see parental behavior has been gradually shifting with millennials, but Gen X-ers are definitely the worst at parenting.
Do you like wearing wool, or is it too itchy?
Idk, I donât think Iâve ever tried.
Have you ever gotten angry at an employee and complained to the manager?
Jesus no. Unless said employee is harassing me and is starting to make me feel unsafe (and I canât even imagine a world where that could happen), this is completely unnecessary behavior.
Have you ever sent your food back at a restaurant?
No lol I just eat it and tip the waiter. Obviously if thereâs a health risk, like if my chicken was raw or if I found a bug in my drink I would raise it, but I wouldnât make a scene and would reassure the crew that itâs no big deal.
Do you think people remember the 90s as better than they actually were?
I canât tell for sure lmao I wasnât born til â98.
What songs bring back happy memories for you?
Humble by Kendrick Lamar, No Problem by Chance the Rapper, Sicko Mode by Travis Scott, Mo Bamba by Sheck Wes...that whole genre/sound. Takes me back to the fuuuuuucking fun times I had in college.
Are there any smells that bring back happy memories?
Not really. I associate my memories more strongly with music and places instead.
Summary: You, Sam and Dean all go pumpkin picking. More cute stuff to come when the three of you bring home the perfect pumpkin!
Warnings: fluff? Idk just cute Halloweeny stuff
A/N: Itâs starting to become colder and leaves are beginning to turn orange and fall down, so I felt inspired to write this :)
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âPlease, please, please, can we all go pick a pumpkin? Come on. Weâve done nothing but research this stupid case for weeks now! Can we please have a break?â
You hadnât known until recently that there was a farm down the road from the bunker that had their very own pumpkin patch. They were allowing the public to go in and pumpkin pick only for a week and it was ending on Sunday.
âDean, today is Saturday and they wonât allow anymore pumpkin picking tomorrow,â you put on your best puppy dog eyes for Dean and he sighed, rolling his eyes.
âFine, hurry up and get ready and let Sam know.â
You jumped up and down and squealed like a little girl. You ran to Dean and hugged him hard. You hadnât picked a pumpkin since you were ten and you were so happy to pick a pumpkin with the two men you had grown close with for the past eight years.
You kissed Dean on the cheek and ran down the hallway to your room, passing by Samâs bedroom on the way.
âHey Sam! Weâre going pumpkin picking!â
You continued running to your room and shut your door. Out of happiness and excitement, you did a little silly dance, shaking your butt and singing a song.
Itâs beginning to look a lot likeâŚHalloween!
You sang the words along to the rhythm of Itâs Beginning to Look a Lot Like Christmas. You pulled on a knitted sweater and placed your hunting boots back on. It was chilly outside and your work boots were the only decent and warm shoes you had. You threw your hair up into a ponytail and powerwalked out of your room and back into the library where Sam and Dean were waiting for you.
âIâm ready. Letâs go hurry! Before they take all the good and big pumpkins!â
You sat in the back and admired the drive to the patch. You felt little again, and the joy in your heart was feeling nostalgic.
Dean parked his car on the street and the three of you got out of the car. You didnât wait for them to close their doors before you decided to walk into the patch.
âWait for us!â Dean yelled to you, but you were already so focused on which pumpkin would be best to carve and make pie out of.
You seen a large pumpkin on the ground and smiled as you eyed it. You walked over to it and bent over, stretching your hand out to make sure it was a good pumpkin.
Before touching it, a kid ran over to you and grabbed the pumpkin off the ground, leaving you frozen in place.
You got up quickly, staring down at the kid as he looked up at you and smiled, showing off his missing teeth.
âHey kid, thatâs my pumpkin,â you said, pointing directly to the large squash in his hands. It was clearly too big for him and his arms couldnât wrap around it.
âNo itâs not! I touched it first! Itâs mine!â The kid ran away, wobbling as he ran with the large pumpkin.
You slowly began to go after the kid. âHey! No thatâs minââ
A large hand grabbed your arm, stopping you from getting the perfect pumpkin that you picked out. You turned around and Dean was holding you back.
âDean! Let me go, he has our pumpkin!â You yelled, trying to jerk your arm out of his grasp.
âY/N, itâs a pumpkin. Thereâs millions of them left,â Dean said pointing at every single imperfect pumpkin surrounding you.
âNo! They arenât the same. That one was big and perfect enough for carving and pie!â
You felt ridiculous, arguing about a pumpkin. But if you were going to get one, you wanted it to be a perfect one. Now that canât happen because Missing Teeth Timmy stole it.
âWhat about this one?â Sam said bringing over an even larger pumpkin than the one you found.
Your frown was uplifted and your eyes widened at the perfect pumpkin right in front of you.
âSam, this one is perfect! I should bring you pumpkin picking with me more often,â you said, nudging him on his side.
Sam smiled at the praise that you gave him. The three of you walked over to the man who grew the pumpkins, and paid him for it.
You, Sam and Dean walked back to the Impala, Sam holding the pumpkin. His large hands made the pumpkin look tiny, until Sam gave it to you to hold in the backseat. It practically squashed your legs, but you didnât care.
Back at the bunker, you had several old newspaper pages placed on top of one of the library tables. The large pumpkin sat beautifully on top, looking like a party favor.
You ran to your room and back, retrieving the pumpkin carving tools that you bought a year before, when you thought you were going to buy a pumpkin.
âAlright, which strong man wants to carve a hole on the top?â You asked Sam and Dean. Dean didnât look very interested, but Sam looked happy to volunteer.
He grabbed one of the knives and carved a circle on the top and placed to large stem to the side.
âOkay, now itâs time for the guts. Help me take them out?â You asked Sam.
He nodded with a smile and stuck his large hand inside the hole. His hand barely fit, but you were happy when his hand came out covered in pumpkin goop but filled with pumpkin seeds. He placed them on top of the newspaper and let you have a turn at taking the seeds out.
You rolled up your sleeves and stuck your hand inside, having to stand on your toes for some extra height. Your nails scraped the pumpkin and you yanked at the pumpkin hair to release the seeds. You placed it next to Samâs pile, alternating turns.
After five minutes, all of the seeds were taken out and the pumpkin was completely clean on the inside.
âDo you care if I, uh,â Sam sounded hesitant to ask his question. He showed you one of the carving knives and you understood what he wanted.
âYou want to carve?â You asked him.
He nodded. âCan I?â
You smiled widely at him. âOf course! You take one side and Iâll take the other side of the pumpkin.â
The two of you sat across from each other, messing around and trying to peak at the others creation.
You tried your best at carving out a witch and you thought it came out pretty good.
âOkay Iâm done. On the count of three, Iâm going to turn the pumpkin around?â Sam said. He counted to three and rotated the pumpkin, exposing his carving to you.
It looked weird and you couldnât tell what he carved. It looked like a dog with really long ears and several eyes.
âYou did a bird on a hot dog?â Sam asked with a smirk and his eyebrows furrowed.
âYou did a dog with long ears and several eyes?â You retaliated. You knew he was making fun of your carving.
âItâs actually a spider, for your information,â he said shaking his head.
âWell mine is a witch riding her broom,â you told him.
You both got into a debate about whoâs was better, afterwards asking Dean for his opinion. He voted for yours and you rubbed it in Samâs face.
âIâm better than you,â you sang, pointing your finger in his face.
Sam rolled his eyes and placed the pumpkin to the side. He rolled up the seeds inside of the newspaper and threw it in the trash. Which is exactly where pumpkin seeds belong.
You grabbed the pumpkin and brought it with you into the kitchen. You took out a large and and sharp knife, cutting the inside of the pumpkin and taking it out.
After getting several pieces, you blended them up until it was liquid.
âWhatchyou doinâ?â Dean asked as he walked into the kitchen.
âMaking pumpkin pie. Want to help?â You offered.
He nodded rapidly and you gave him the flour, eggs, and butter to make the crust. He made it quickly, as if he had made pie before and he continued to roll the flour with the rolling pin.
Once you had the inside of the pie ready, you let him place the crust on top, handing him cutlery scissors to cut the excess crust.
He was doing such a great job, you gave him a thumbs up for his work.
âIâm a natural in the kitchen,â he smiled, placing little lines around the whole pie to hold the crust down.
You readied the oven and opened it for Dean when he was done. He placed it inside the oven and when he faced you, parts of his face were covered in flour.
You snorted accidently, receiving a glare from Dean after he put the pie in the oven.
âWhatâs so funny?â He asked. He crossed his arms over his chest and tried to give you his mad and serious face.
You couldnât help but laugh. âSo much for being a natural in the kitchen. Did you get any flour in the crust, or just all over your face?â
Deanâs angry expression subsided and he ran to the mirror that was placed in the kitchen. He rubbed his hand over his face, trying to clear it of any leftover flour.
âWhatever, the pie is still going to be great, only because I helped,â he said walking out of the kitchen and into the library with Sam.
âIâm sure it is,â you said to yourself.
The oven chimed, letting you know that the pie was ready. Dean was taking the pie out of the oven before you even walked into the kitchen, and he smelled it with a large smile.
âIt smells amazing, Y/N,â he said pushing the pie towards you.
You walked up to it and smelled the aroma with closed eyes. It did smell amazing and you didnât expect anything less.
âGo sit down at the table and Iâll bring it over with plates. Tell Sam the pie is done.â
Dean walked out of the room to let Sam know the pie was done. They looked like a children when they sat at the table, waiting for the pie with watering mouths.
You brought it over to the table and placed it in the middle of the three of you. You handed everyone a plate and allowed Dean to take the first piece since pie was his favorite anyway.
Everyone got a slice and when you bit into your first bite, it was the sweetest and warmest pumpkin pie. Eating pie with Sam and Dean was a new memory that you would add in your list of Halloween and Fall memories.
Dean smiled at you as he took his last and final bite of his slice of pie. He watched you with a smile the whole time you ate your pie.
âWhy do you keep staring at me?â You said with a now full stomach of warm pie.
Dean smiled incredibly huge. âRemind me next year to go pumpkin picking again.â
Quick  up date. Iâve been in colleges, for about a mouth, Iâm falling all of my classes. Mostly becuss I have no real motivation. Iâm no longer, really wanting, to go into computer science. So, itâs just like, eh. I still donât have a job. Honestly, I hate that fact. If I had been trying harder to get one Iâd have a job by now, but I really havenât been trying. I donât know if, I even what to continue trying to go to college. Really I donât know any more. Iâm so confused. I want to be able to make money painting minis. But I need to do other thing before I could even start that. Iâve been practicing my coding some, and I do still enjoy that enough. But that colleges stuff is too much. I havenât given up yet. But gods do I want to. I wanted a doctorate, but like I donât thing that will happen.
So, Iâve gotten a boyfriend. Which, honestly, feels odd as hell. I have dome drafts form when we first started dating. Witch Iâm going to clean up a tad and put here.
START- A text I sent to Queen when she asked about this shit:
True, all of that, true. But like 3 in the afternoon were chatting of discord. He asked how it was going and I was all like just woke up might got to nerd shop later if the car isn't fucked, then he was like, like itâs my day off, and I wouldn't be opposed to hanging with you at The nerd shop, and I was like that would be cool but I don't really have a way to get they do eh, then he was like, like I'd come pick you up but we're probably not at a point we're you trust me enough to tell me we're you live, and I was like honestly I've told people I didn't have jack shit but a name where I live so I probably would, then he was like I'm down if you're down, I'm like fuck it the tell him my address, then like a hour later, he picks me up we hang at little wars till like 7 something then we hang out in the parking lot for like hour, then we walked over to a pizza place and order, then like wonder around for like an hour just chatting, then we walked back over to pizza place get the pizza, then walk back over to nerd shop parking lot and chat for a nether hour and a half, before he drove me home, we have like a shitty car hug and I'm like. would you get out of the car for a real hug, he's like yah, then we hug, and hug and chat for like talking about how fucking weird this shit is, we probably said good bye like 20 times, then just kept chatting, then he said something about want to kiss me, so I just fucking kissed him, which devolved in to making out for while. It was generally extremely pleasant, not going to lie. We have plans to hang out again later today.--
So today was⌠I ended up making out with a guy, I didnât know extended Friday. This has been the most, idk, day. LikeâŚlike⌠I legitimately didnât know, how I this happened. Iâve never like, really kissed someone. But. Like just. Heâs so awesome. Like weâre both like, this is weird. It was--
So like⌠Witch-Boi & I have been really fucking touchy, like, I like it, but I didnât even know he existed last week. And heâs had his hand all over me, I have a bunch of hickeys, and like heâs so fucking sweet, Iâm fucking petrified, Iâm going to hurt him. Gods Witch-boi is so good with his hands. I just canât handle how nice his body feel pressed against mine. And I love the way he kisses. Just fuck me. Weâve known each other 4 days.--
Everyone is all like the fuck you doin, which is like how even my brain is going.
I mean Witch-Boi is just so adorable. I donât know what the fuck my brain is doing to me. Being around him isnât even awkward. This has just been so easy; like, it feels good on more than a physical level. It just feels so natural, like, nothing feels like it wrong, or forced. I just want him to be happy. Like, I feel safe with him. Itâs just so... Gods I want to touch him, I want to be near him. He sounds so genuine, when he talks to me. He says such sweet things. Iâm so scared for him to see me, the me behind the smile and the happy go lucky personally. He seems so kind, like a genuinely good person. I donât want him to know how angry I am, how cruel I can be, how deeply fucked up & broken I am. From what heâs said, and how he is, I know heâs got damage. I donât want to add more. I want him to be safe, from me, & and the hell scape that is my head. Iâm not just trying to focus on his-- Â
STOP--
100% honest, on this whole relationship with witch boi, has been weird. It when form 0 to 100 really fast. I donât know if I really like him, or if I was so lonely Iâd take anything. Like heâs good. He hasnât done anything wrong; heâs never tried to make me do anything I didnât want too. Heâs caring, sweet, & loving. It doesnât help that on our third date, I said something that he took as a profession of love. So what happened was we stopped to get him something to eat, and he was being all in insecure about the fact that heâs balding, and said like youâre the only one who can see me without my hat, and I replied reflexivity with, âI love you with or without your hat.â Literally as the words were coming out of my mouth, I was in my head like, fuck I donât mean it like that fuckkk, fuck, fuck. Then he was like Ahh! You love me, I love you too! Iâm so glad youâre not weird about saying I love you, cuss romantic love isnât that different to plutonic love. That was our third time hanging out, ie the 4th day of knowing he exited. On our second date we ended up cuddling in his car, were he sead something like, at this point if you wanted me you could pretty much just have me. After knowing him a week, I ended up spending the night with him at one of his friends homes, in which we ended up borderline fucking in that guys mothers bed, we would have fucked if ither of had condoms. The next day we did end up fucking in the front seat of his car, it was the first time I had ever had sex with a guy, like heâs just the right size, I almost came, it was really good. Like, we work well in that area. And the fact he plays magic is really hot. but Itâs been a month, Iâm still over here not sure if Iâm just into him for the sexual activate or, if his positive trait out way his negative traits. I donât really know how I feel, or if Iâll ever know how I feel about him. I certainly like him, & I trust him, and care about him but Iâm not 100% on if I love him. Like I say it, but I donât know if Iâm lying.
So, Wednesday, the 11th, After some stupid shit with witch boiâs car, where I got to see how he is when heâs in stressful situation, that pulled all my insecurities about the relationship to the forefront of my mind. I got a ride from the Nerd Shop with eyebrows, in which I had to give directions to my residents, showing off how awful I am at knowing where I am. And when we got to my place I gave eyebrows a shit side car hug cus, hugs man. Then he joked about at least not kissing me. seid some shit and wish him luck in his girkl drema. The he was like sit done and letâs talk for a min, then we like shot the shit for like an hour, he told me about the drama going on with Presh, some old traumas as well. Like, I never knew how broken he was, itâs really like fucked. We talked about all kinds of shit. I talked abit about my relationship with witch boi, and how Iâm so unsure about it. We talked about sex. And how he knew I had a crush on him, like no shit. He said, I had a nice ass, low key that was funny as hell not going to lie. At one point eye brows asked if I had masturbated to him, which I wasnât going to admit to initially, but I was coursed into admitting to it. He then told me he had masturbated to me before. So like that was a weird fucking night. Â Â Â
Friday 13th, hung around the nerd shop, got to see some of my favorite people, did some minis painting for the first time in forever, and by forever I mean a mouth. When Witch Boi and I were fucking around in his car, he made me cum for the first time; I donât think he believed me when I told him. Like it wasnât a top shelf, what the fuck just happen orgasm, but it was defiantly and orgasm, nonetheless. His insecurity pisses me off, like I really hate it. Heâs just wonderful, he shouldnât feel discourse towards himself. Like heâs really good at what he does.
Like, how he swirls his tongue around mine. The way he shacks when, Iâm licking his ears, itâs just so. Feeling his cock twitch throw his paints its, when I lick his ear in just the right way, or whisper so softly that heâs mine. Gods, hearing him beg for me to touch him, the vulnerability & the desperation in his voice, the honeyed words that flow of his lips, from soft whispers to house shouts. The way his claws dig in to my thighs. Feeling him bite into my neck. Â His head in between my legs, licking and sucking at me, just because he wants to pleasure me. The way his hand feel gliding against my woman hood, before he pushes a finger inside of me. Feeling any of him inside of me is enough it make me, willing to say anything.
Iâm sure thereâs plenty of other shit left to cover form the past mouth, but Iâm done for right now. iâm going to try and pick this up again, though,
Signing OffâŚÂ                                                   Â
Favorite song today: Humans by The Faim                             Mood: dead lows, sky highs, tad of alright, and a good bit of numb
Took all day, but she answered mine so Iâll answer herâs â¤ď¸
200: My crushâs name is: Shawn Mendes ofcâ¨
199: I was born in: Wisconsin, USA. Date: Aug 26
â¨198: I am really: Passionate about music, caring, and shy until I get to know youâ¨
197: My cellphone company is: Sprint
â¨196: My eye color is: Brown (sometimes hazel or green, but usually brown)â¨
195: My shoe size is: Depends on the shoe. I range from 6 to 8.5â¨
194: My ring size is: 6
â¨193: My height is: 5'1" (yeah ik Iâm short but I like my height lol)
â¨192: I am allergic to: idk, but I have seasonal allergies
â¨191: My 1st car was: Havenât gotten it yet
â¨190: My 1st job was: babysit I guess (if that counts)â¨
189: Last book you read: Sherlock Holmes
â¨188: My bed is: a futon at my dadâs and a normal bed (? lol) at my momâs. Theyâre both comfyâ¨
187: My pet(s): 1 dog, his name is Kobyâ¨
186: My best friend: Is amazing and I love her so much. Sheâs helped me through a lot. â¨
185: My favorite shampoo is: Head and Shouldersâ¨
184: Xbox or ps3: Xboxâ¨183: Piggy banks are: Cool. I still have one and I just emptied it for the Shawn Mendes concert lolâ¨
182: In my pockets: donât have pockets on my pants rn
â¨181: On my calendar: School events, vacations, college stuff, and weddings.â¨
180: Marriage is: beautiful when you see two people absolutely in love with each otherâ¨
179: Spongebob can: give me a crabby patty. Seriously. Iâve been waiting since I was 5â¨Â
178: My mom: Annoys me sometimes, we donât agree on certain things, but I still love her.Â
â¨177: The last three songs I bought were: Havana by Camila Cabello, Kiwi by Harry Styles, and Itâs a Vibe by 2 Chainzâ¨
176: Last YouTube video watched: makeup videos lolâ¨
175: How many cousins do you have?: 9â¨
174: Do you have any siblings?: 2 younger brothersâ¨
173: Are your parents divorced?: yes.
â¨172: Are you taller than your mom?: Weâre the same height by she argues that sheâs tallerâ¨
171: Do you play an instrument?: Clarinet, violin, piano, ukulele, and guitarÂ
â¨170: What did you do yesterday?: spent all day with my schoolâs marching band and ended up looking like neopolitan ice cream because i got so burnt
â¨[ I Believe In ]Â
169: Love at first sight: idkâ¨
168: Luck: yesâ¨
167: Fate: yesâ¨
166: Yourself: YES OFCâ¨
165: Aliens: yesâ¨
164: Heaven: yes more or lessâ¨
163: Hell: yes more or lessâ¨
162: God: yes more or lessâ¨
161: Horoscopes: idk, I occasionally read mineâ¨
160: Soul mates: idkâ¨
159: Ghosts: yesâ¨
158: Gay Marriage: YES đłď¸âđ
â¨157: War: fuck noâ¨
156: Orbs: maybe? Idk what they areâ¨
155: Magic: idk
â¨[ This or That ]
154: Hugs or Kisses: depends. Hugs i guessâ¨
153: Drunk or High: neither. You can have fun without alcohol or drugsâ¨
152: Phone or Online: bothâ¨
151: Redheads or Black haired: both
â¨150: Blondes or Brunettes: both. Honestly hair color doesnât matterâ¨
149: Hot or cold: both
â¨148: Summer or winter: summer but like winter is beautiful too (i just donât like shoveling)â¨
147: Autumn or Spring: bothâ¨
146: Chocolate or vanilla: chocolateâ¨
145: Night or Day: both lol
 â¨144: Oranges or Apples: apples wellllll oranges no both (IM SORRY FOR BEING INDECISIVE)â¨
143: Curly or Straight hair: curlyâ¨
142: McDonalds or Burger King: McDonalds
â¨141: White Chocolate or Milk Chocolate:bothâ¨
140: Mac or PC: Macâ¨
139: Flip flops or high heels: Flip flops for everyday wear and heels for eventsâ¨
138: Ugly and rich OR sweet and poor: sweet and poorâ¨
137: Coke or Pepsi: Cokeâ¨
136: Hillary or Obama: OBAMA!!!â¨
135: Buried or cremated: idk
â¨134: Singing or Dancing: both
â¨133: Coach or Chanel: Coachâ¨
132: Kat McPhee or Taylor Hicks: idkâ¨
131: Small town or Big city: Bothâ¨
130: Wal-Mart or Target: i like both but I shop at walmart moreâ¨
129: Ben Stiller or Adam Sandler: Adam Sandlerâ¨
128: Manicure or Pedicure: Manicureâ¨
127: East Coast or West Coast: hard choice
â¨126: Your Birthday or Christmas: hmmâ¨
125: Chocolate or Flowers: which ever
â¨124: Disney or Six Flags: Disney only because Iâve never been to six flagsâ¨
123: Yankees or Red Sox: Red sox
â¨[ Hereâs What I Think About ]
122: War: I think it is dumb. Fighting over cultural difference shouldnât happen instead it differences should be embraced. Who knows how many different wars there will be in my future let alone my future childrenâs.
â¨121: George Bush: I honestly donât have one
â¨120: Gay Marriage: Everyone should be able to marry whomever they love. Why does it have to be voted on whether they can get married or not? Just let them live, be loved, and be happy.â¨
119: The presidential election: It amazes me how he was elected. I am team Hillary. I have my opinions and you have yours. I respect that, but Iâd rather not share mine.â¨
118: Abortion: It is 2017, almost 2018, and women still donât have control of their own bodies. Iâm pro-choice. Abortion should be given as a choice to women. My mom had an abortion before she had me because she was really ill.â¨
117: MySpace: haha never used it so donât have an opinion about itâ¨
116: Reality TV: yeah it can be fun to watch but honestly whatâs the point? Everyoneâs own lives are hectic tooâ¨
115: Parents: Some are great, some are bad. Some are controlling, some donât care enough.â¨
114: Back stabbers: Iâve dealt with many of you, but itâs your fault that you lost out on a great friend. Hated you guys for a while because I thought we were good friends, but Iâm thankful toxic people like you are out of my life.â¨
113: Ebay: is the shit. I got a crap ton of barbie clothes for my dolls when I was younger from there. Havenât gone on there for a while thoâ¨
112: Facebook: the go-to app for when parents are around. Thatâs the only most censored app I have that I go on when theyâre aroundâ¨
111: Work: wish I had one because all of my friends are making money, but once I get one Iâll wish I didnât have a job so I can have more free time. Itâs not like my parents will let me get a job anyways.
â¨110: My Neighbors: Never really talk to any of my neighbors at my dads or my moms. Pretty sure they get annoyed with how loud I play my musicâ¨
109: Gas Prices: i remember when it costed $5 or $6 a gallon. Please stay at $2.35 â¨
108: Designer Clothes: hella cool but also hella expensive. Thankful for cute cheap stores because Iâm about to be a broke college studentâ¨
107: College: thankful for the opportunity to get a higher education, but itâs always super expensive. If more jobs require a degree, why canât we just make it more efficient to get a degree with less money? But thatâs also too much to ask forâ¨
106: Sports: I like watching it and playing it is also fun.Â
â¨105: My family: My parents divorced had me go through shit mentally and physically. (no they didnât abuse me, their divorce was just difficult) I hope one day you two will stop acting like children and not beat down the other parent when we spend the night at your house. But I know it wonât ever end. Iâm thankful my younger brothers wonât remember your divorce and theyâre what keeps me going.
104: The future: I canât wait to see what you hold. I canât wait to go to college. I canât wait to go into my career choice. I canât wait to meet that special person. I canât wait to start a family. Iâm just excited for youâ¨[ Last time I ]
103: Hugged someone: An hour ago when I put my brothers to sleep
102: Last time you ate: idk 2-3 hours ago
â¨101: Saw someone I havenât seen in a while: a year agoâ¨
100: Cried in front of someone: yesterday
â¨99: Went to a movie theater: 2 years ago
â¨98: Took a vacation: idk if you count it, but my school trip this past springÂ
â¨97: Swam in a pool: 2 years ago
â¨96: Changed a diaper: 4 years ago
â¨95: Got my nails done: I think I was 7? Idk I do my nail myself now
â¨94: Went to a wedding: 12 years ago
â¨93: Broke a bone: never broke a bone
â¨92: Got a piercing: I got my ears pierced before I turned 1 and I got my nose pierced on my birthday last yearâ¨
91: Broke the law: idkâ¨90: Texted: like 5 min ago
â¨[ MISC ]
89: Who makes you laugh the most: my brothers or my best friend Kateâ¨
88: Something I will really miss when I leave home is: Brothers or my doggo
â¨87: The last movie I saw: Boss baby
â¨86: The thing that Iâm looking forward to the most: going to college, interning, and getting a job in my career (Ik itâs 3 things but Iâm excited lol)â¨
85: The thing iâm not looking forward to: Moving away from loved ones
â¨84: People call me: Miaâ¨
83: The most difficult thing to do is: Forgive someone who hurt you badly. Like truly forgive themÂ
â¨82: I have gotten a speeding ticket: never gotten a speeding ticket
â¨81: My zodiac sign is: Virgoâ¨
80: The first person i talked to today was: My dad
â¨79: First time you had a crush: 5 or 6 and it was on Zac Efronâ¨
78: The one person who i canât hide things from: idk, maybee my best friendâ¨
77: Last time someone said something you were thinking: YesterdayÂ
â¨76: Right now I am talking to: my internet besties â¤ď¸â¨
75: What are you going to do when you grow up: something in the music industryâ¨
74: I have/will get a job: whenever my parents let meâ¨
73: Tomorrow: I will get up early, ride on a bus for 3 hours, and march in a paradeâ¨
72: Today: I cut my hair short AND I FUCKING LOVE ITâ¨
71: Next Summer: I will try to spend as much time with my bestfriend before we leave for different colleges
â¨70: Next Weekend: I get to spend with my best friendâ¨
69: I have these pets: Beagle- Eskimo cross
â¨68: The worst sound in the world: whining when they donât get what they want or smacking gumâ¨
67: The person that makes me cry the most is: honestly whoever cries in front of me I will cry with themâ¨
66: People that make you happy: Family, my dog, and my friends
â¨65: Last time I cried: yesterday
â¨64: My friends are: honest and caringâ¨
63: My computer is: an old macbook pro but it still works and I love it
â¨62: My School: is full of fake people and drama
â¨61: My Car: Donât have oneâ¨
60: I lose all respect for people who: lie, cheat, and treat people like they are less than themâ¨
59: The movie I cried at was: I canât remember but I think TFIOS
â¨58: Your hair color is: brownâ¨
57: TV shows you watch: Shadowhunters, Ravenâs Home, Jane the virgin, Riverdale, and others I canât remember
â¨56: Favorite web site: Tumblr or twitterâ¨
55: Your dream vacation: big city in new york with my best friend or toronto with my grand parents/auntsâ¨
54: The worst pain I was ever in was: during my parents divorce â¨
53: How do you like your steak cooked: medium rareâ¨
52: My room is: boring, cozy, and a little bit messy
â¨51: My favorite celebrity is: Shawn Mendes, duhâ¨
50: Where would you like to be: Somewhere where I can say âI finally made it"â¨
49: Do you want children: Yes!! I canât wait to have kidsâ¨
48: Ever been in love: I donât think soâ¨
47: Whoâs your best friend: Some beautiful, crazy, weird girl named Kate i guess (letâs see if she reads this later)â¨
46: More guy friends or girl friends: I have more girl friends than I do guys, but I wish I had more guy friendsâ¨
45: One thing that makes you feel great is: music
â¨44: One person that you wish you could see right now: My grandpaâ¨
43: Do you have a 5 year plan: I guess yeah, but itâs very loosely plannedâ¨
42: Have you made a list of things to do before you die: noâ¨
41: Have you pre-named your children: thought of names, but not planned them lol
â¨40: Last person I got mad at: idkâ¨
39: I would like to move to: Cali, New york, by my grand parent in canada, and where I am now
â¨38: I wish I was a professional: something in music
â¨[ My Favorites ]
37: Candy: Sour gummy worms or cinnamon bears
â¨36: Vehicle: Jeep⨠or Range Rover
35: President: OBAMA
â¨34: State visited: Illinois or Florida
â¨33: Cell Phone provider: Sprintâ¨
32: Athlete: Jose Bautista â¨
31: Actor: Rupert Grint
â¨30: Actress: Zendaya, Lucy Hale, or Emma Watson
29: Singer: Shawn Mendes or Selena Gomezâ¨
28: Band: R5 or 5SOSâ¨
27: Clothing store: Ross or American Eagle â¨
26: Grocery store: Walmartâ¨
25: TV show: Shadowhunters â¨
24: Movie: HARRY POTTER SERIESâ¨
23: Website: Again, tumblr or twitterâ¨
22: Animal: doggies or dolphins
â¨21: Theme park: no clueâ¨
20: Holiday: christmasâ¨
19: Sport to watch: Baseballâ¨
18: Sport to play: Baseball or volleyball â¨
17: Magazine: Vogueâ¨
16: Book: The Mortal Instruments Seriesâ¨
15: Day of the week: Fridayâ¨
14: Beach: Clear water in FLâ¨
13: Concert attended: Illuminate tour (on Aug 6th, 2017)â¨
12: Thing to cook: Pasta anythingâ¨
11: Food: chicken alfredo or pasta anything or anything really Iâm not pickyâ¨Â
10: Restaurant: Chinese restaurants â¨Â
9: Radio station: idkâ¨Â
8: Yankee candle scent: idk lol that pumpkin one??â¨Â
7: Perfume: Signature by Shawn Mendes or Bombshell by VSâ¨Â
6: Flower: Pink hibiscus â¨Â
5: Color: aquaâ¨Â
4: Talk show host: Ellen Degeneresâ¨Â
3: Comedian: Jo Koy, Kevin Hart, or Gabriel Iglesiasâ¨Â
2: Dog breed: honestly any breedâ¨Â
1: Did you answer all these truthfully?: of course đ
settling for less than i deserve or for something i donât want just because happiness seems too hard or would hurt someone, the ocean, scorpions
4: 3 things I love
making people laugh, holding hands w my girlfriend and walking past another gay couple or someone in a LGBTQ+ related shirt n smilin at each other, when dogs have the lil tiny stump tails and they wag em so fast, when candles smell like christmas
5: 4 turns on
freckles, ambition/drive/passion for something, humility, uhhh also eye contact during sex can also be super hot
6: 4 turns off
apathy, moodiness, arrogance, people who are extremely loud all the time
7: My best friend
i have two and theyâre great!! one leaves for japan in two days though and sheâll be gone for a month so that highkey sucks for me but sheâs gonna have a blast. n my other best friend is so good to me she always takes care of me n listens to me and the other day she bought me alcohol so that was nice
8: Sexual orientation
bisexual but maybe just gay? idk i would date a boy but prolly wouldnât fuck a boy ya know but iâd do both with a girl so who knows
9: My best date
this question originally said âmy best first dateâ but most of em have been goin to movies and so i changed it bc my best date just in general was probably when my gf and i went and ate at our favorite place to eat n then we banged in her car in a department store parking lot and then afterwards she was like âwait nobodyâs at my house iâm sneakin u overâ bc her mom can be a lil weird about me going to her house so i never really do and i had never seen her room so she snuck me over to her house n we cuddled on her bed n she showed me this shoebox she has in her room with every tiny lil gift iâd ever given her in it and it made me cry a little. another nice date was when it was flooding at our university and so they canceled classes and we went to walgreens and bought shirts bc ours were soaked from the rain and i bought socks bc my socks got Wet bc i stepped in a puddle and we just stayed in my car and ate candy in our comfy clothes waitin for the rain to let up and yeah TMI ahead but basically she ended up eating me out for the first time so that was nice lol
10: How tall am I
5â˛7
11: What do I miss
i dunno i already miss my best friend Kate even tho she doesnât leave for Japan until Wednesday morning. also i kinda miss how things were before this year bc my life was less chaotic and stressful and sad last year and now iâm in a rut a lil bit
12: What time was I born
uhh 11:30 somethin AM
13: Favorite color
i like cerulean which is sorta like a teal blue and then yellow and then brown and then dark green
14: Do I have a crush
ya i have a gf
15: Favorite quote
âif you have good thoughts they will shine out of your face like sunbeams and you will always look lovelyâ
16: Favorite place
i like to be in my bedroom a lot but thereâs also this roof i go to with friends a lot thatâs really nice at night and i have so many memories there. itâs a really happy place for me
17: Favorite food
i like japanese food but not the seafood kind
18: Do I use sarcasm
no never
19: What am I listening to right now
praying // kesha
20: First thing I notice in new person
i guess just their general vibe
22: Eye color
very green but they were blue for a good half of my life which is kinda weird bc theyâre so green now lmao
23: Hair color
red lmao
24: Favorite style of clothing
idk i go through a million styles in a week but my fave is just a cute oversized shirt n leggings bc itâs comfy and effortless
25: Ever done a prank call?
oh yeah i used to do a ton, i even used to have a character that iâd prank call people with actually. her name was Sonya and she sold breast enhancement cream
27: Meaning behind my URL
thatâs actually a secret lmao
28: Favorite movie
the secret life of walter mitty
29: Favorite song
uhh idk but lately iâve loved do re mi by blackbearÂ
30: Favorite band
twenty one pilots (can i make it any more obvious that i hate myself), two door cinema club, of monsters and men, the 1975, the wonder years
31: How I feel right now
generally okay?? today was a nice day but iâve felt sorta sick all day and i havenât been sleeping enough so thatâs making me a big ol emotional baby so i feel like i could have a breakdown at any given minute but for the most part i am good tonight
32: Someone I love
my girlfriend
33: My current relationship status
taken
34: My relationship with my parents
oh i love em to death but sometimes theyâre difficult n the two of em werenât meant to be together honestly so i think theyâd be better off n a lot less stressful to be around if they divorced but itâs okay maybe they will work it out
35: Favorite holiday
christmas eve. itâs so much better than christmas day!!!!Â
36:Tattoos and piercing i have
i have a sun and moon tattoo on each wrist and the word âlovelyâ on my left bicep and iâm gonna get more but thatâs all for now. n i have three piercings, one on one ear and two on the other. i was supposed to have two on both ears but one got infected and i didnât know what to do so i took the piercing out and it fucked it up and it closed up so i gotta go get it repierced someday but thatâs annoying so i just havenât bothered yet
37: Tattoos and piercing i want
donât want anymore piercings after i get that one redone tbh. but i want a pine tree tattoo i think on my ankle and a equals sign tattoo but idk where yet and lil mountains on my shoulders, also a sunflower maybe ??? iâm still tryna figure our which one i wanna get next and where. i also have been thinkin about maaaaaaybe getting the female symbol on my middle finger but idk if i want a hand tattoo ya know
38: The reason I joined Tumblr
i really liked this youtuber charlieissocoollike and he did a video about tumblr so i was like ok cool and made one but then i didnât understand it and never used it and then caitlin one day was talking about tumblr with our friends oliver and jennica and i was like dang i wanna be cool like them so i started using it again and i found their blogs and stalked em for a whileÂ
39: Do I and my last ex hate each other?
not hate but iâd never speak to him again. doubt he hates me tho
40: Do I ever get âgood morningâ or âgood night â texts?
yeah from my gf
41: Have I ever kissed the last person you texted?
yes
42: When did I last hold hands?
today
43:How long does it take me to get ready in the morning?
if iâm trying to look nice 45 mins-1 hour and if iâm not trying to look nice like 20-30 mins
44:Have You shaved your legs in the past three days?
no but i need to lmao they a lil prickly
45: Where am I right now?
my bed and i am so happy to be hereÂ
46: If I were drunk & canât stand, whoâs taking care of me?
my gf would be there 100%, if not her then iâd say my friend Stein but sheâd prolly be more fucked up honestly. my friend Kate would be there too
47: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level?
louuuuuud unless iâm in a weird sad mood then i like it real soft
48: Do I live with my Mom and Dad?
yeah but hopefully iâll get my fucking act together and move out within a year but iâm still kinda figuring everything out for the time being
49: Am I excited for anything?
idk honestly i have nothing to look forward to coming up anytime soon so that sucks a lot. probably my best friendâs 21st which i think is in a few weeks?? and this music fest a good friend and i are going to at the end of this month
50: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to?
yeah my good pal Joe and also my brother and my friend Brendon too but him and i havenât talked in a while so :/
51: How often do I wear a fake smile?
this is emo as shit
52: When was the last time I hugged someone?
today i hugged like four people!!!
53:What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me?
iâd be so upset and iâd break up with her and be miserable for a long while after that
54: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not?
yeah thereâs one
55: What is something I disliked about today?
uhh probably that i was feelin sick and on edge just generally all day. bc it was really puttin a damper on my mood
56: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?
iâd really love to meet Ellen Degeneres
57: What do I think about most?
prolly about how i am a useless dum dum and not to sound edgggyy but i question like....... my purpose too often latelyÂ
58: Whatâs my strangest talent?
talent? i donât know her
59: Do I have any strange phobias?
iâm terrified of being vomited on. not vomit in general necessarily but it getting on me is one of the most disgusting things to me lol
60: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?
lil bit of both but iâm better at the behind the camera stuff
61: What was the last lie I told?
told my grandma i was single bc i donât wanna tell her i am gay n have a girlfriend even though sheâd forget in like two minutes lol
62: Do I prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online?
video chatting but iâm not a big fan of either
63: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens?
yes and yes!!!!!!!!!
64: Do I believe in magic?
no
65: Do I believe in luck?
sure
66: Whatâs the weather like right now?
2 hot
67: What was the last book Iâve read?
milk and honey by rupi kaur
68: Do I like the smell of gasoline?
tbh i love it
69: Do I have any nicknames?
elly, gaylord, dad, that one ginger
70: What was the worst injury Iâve ever had?
probably the one time i fell off my razor scooter while goin speedy down a hill and tryna show off and got scars all over my body
71: Do I spend money or save it?
been tryna save but put me in an h&m or a forever 21 or a thrift shop and itâs all gone. i love clothes that are inexpensiveÂ
72: Can I touch my nose with a tongue?
no
73: Is there anything pink in 10 feet from me?
yeah i have an empty victoriaâs secret bag on my desk
74: Favorite animal?
i like bunnies and grizzly bears
75: What was I doing last night at 12 AM?
talking to my gf and crying probably lol it was a rough night
76: What do I think is Satanâs last name is?
oooooo i could make a petty joke here but i wonât
77: Whatâs a song that always makes me happy when I hear it?
greek tragedy // the wombats
78: How can you win my heart?
make time for me and show me iâm important to you
79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone?
âu know she deadâ
80: What is my favorite word?
serendipity
82: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say?
iâd probably just start crying and everyone would stop listening
83: Do I have any relatives in jail?
yeah one of my cousins murdered someone lol i am pretty sure heâs in jail but i donât know anything about him or if heâs even still alive honestly
85: What would be a question Iâd be afraid to tell the truth on?
idk iâm pretty open
86: What is my current desktop picture?
some mountains lol itâs one of the Apple preset ones
87: Had sex?
yeah
88: Bought condoms?
yeahÂ
89: Gotten pregnant?
no
90: Failed a class?
nearly but no
91:Kissed a boy?
nah iâve never wanted to reallyÂ
92: Kissed a girl?
yeah
93: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain?
yeah
94: Had job?
yep i work at a froyo shop
95: Left the house without my wallet?
yeah
96: Bullied someone on the internet?
probably at some point when i was young but not anytime recently
97: Had sex in public?
yeah lol
98: Played on a sports team?
i was on a soccer team for a while as a kid and i hated it
99: Smoked weed?
not yet but iâd like to try it at least one time someday
100: Did drugs?
no and i am not interested in trying any other drugs besides weed
101: Smoked cigarettes?
no
102: Drank alcohol?
yes
103: Am I a vegetarian/vegan?
nah
104: Been overweight?
no
105:Been underweight?
for most of my life i have been lol and i finally got to a healthy weight and now iâm back to being underweight
106: Been to a wedding?
yeah a few
107: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight?
yeah
108: Watched TV for 5 hours straight?
yeah but not any time recently bc i donât have the motivation/attention span to sit through a movie or TV show anymore
109: Been outside my home country?
no but iâd really like toÂ
110: Gotten my heart broken?
yeah
111: Been to a professional sports game?
no and i was invited to one recently but i had work :(
112: Broken a bone?
no
113: Cut myself?
yeah
114: Been to prom?
yeah
115: Been in airplane?
yeah
116: Fly by helicopter?
no but iâd really like to
117: What concerts have I been to?
soooo many. iâll try and name em. trans siberian orchestra, panic! at the disco, imagine dragons, twenty one pilots, two door cinema club, the weeknd, melanie martinez, catfish and the bottlemen, halsey, of monsters and men, walk the moon, eric clapton, paul mccartney, glass animals, a$ap rocky, drake, the chainsmokers, foo fighters, vance joy, the strumbellas, the front bottoms, kendrick lamar, the wombats, AWOLNATION, ben rector, we the kings, the ready set, the summer set ??? i think thereâs some iâm forgetting but thatâs most of em. i go to so many. i am also seeing saint motel, cage the elephant, weezer, passion pit, mac miller and MGMT this summer!!
118: Had a crush on someone of the same sex?
yaaaaa most of my crushes have been n iâm datin a girl so
119: Learned another language?
i took four years of spanish and iâm taking another spanish class in the fall!! i was always real good at it
120: Wore make up?
yeah
121: Lost my virginity before I was 18?
no i lost it when i was 19
122: Had oral sex?
yeah
123: Dyed my hair?
nah itâs naturally red and pretty and i donât really wanna ever dye it. iâm probably gonna dye my eyebrows tho theyâre too light and iâm tired of always fillin them in
124: Voted in a presidential election?
yes this last one which was exciting until hilary lost
125: Rode in a police car?
yes
126: Had a surgery?
no
127: Met someone famous?
yes
128: Stalked someone on a social network?
not like legitimately but yeah iâve gone through someoneâs page out of curiosity before
129: Peed outside?
yeah
130: Been fishing?
yeah itâs sorta boring imo though
131: Helped with charity?
yeah i helped my mom with this organization she was a part of where homeless people could come and paint and make art and i helped her at a few of their shows. it is one of my favorite organizations and i met some really beautiful people there
132: Been rejected by a crush?
yeah he liked me too but he was figuring things out and later that year came out to me as gay and then like two years later i realized iâm kinda super gay too so it all worked out in the end
When I said I would block you,,,, Thereâs a lot more than one way to get blocked. Anyway, Iâm putting this under a read more bc I hate you and itâs long. If you want to know more about me than strictly necessary then click read more, rip in pieces to those on mobile.
Also: I W I N
200: My crushâs name is:No one,,, or is it (lol itâs no one)199: I was born in: Ireland, 1998198: I am really: Annoying, probably197: My cellphone company is: 3 mobile196: My eye color is: Blue195: My shoe size is: 5194: My ring size is: IDK?? I have my Cladddagh ring but I donât remember193: My height is: 5â˛â2192: I am allergic to: nothing191: My 1st car was: I canât drive190: My 1st job was: babysitter189: Last book you read: Foster (itâs shit)188: My bed is: A double bed?? really comfy?? I have no parameters here187: My pet: I donât have one186: My best friend: Emma, a certified Dork185: My favorite shampoo is: Elvive, it has glitter184: Xbox or ps3: Xbox183: Piggy banks are: Cool??182: In my pockets: Iâm in pajamas181: On my calendar: nothing all week save Graduation on Thursday180: Marriage is: Coolio 179: Spongebob can: be happy, levae him be178: My mom: is coolio177: The last three songs I bought were? Decpacito, Issues, and Horns176: Last YouTube video watched: Vine compilations, sue me175: How many cousins do you have? Too Many, family reunions are wild174: Do you have any siblings? 4 bothers and one sister173: Are your parents divorced? Yes172: Are you taller than your mom? Yes171: Do you play an instrument? *Flashbacks to recorder practice* Itâs required in Ireland so yeah170: What did you do yesterday? Went shopping and bought my graduation outfit[ I Believe In ]169: Love at first sight: yes (Iâm a mushy person donât drag me)168: Luck: yes, Luck of The Irish, Iâve never had it, but itâs there167: Fate: Yes, itâs fate Iâm gonna kick ur ass166: Yourself: N O165: Aliens: yes, I wanna fuck superman, I have to believe164: Heaven: ??163: Hell:???162: God:?????161: Horoscopes: yeah Iâm a Leo (August 19th, mark your calender)160: Soul mates: Yes 159: Ghosts: Fuck yeah, my firends house is haunted158: Gay Marriage: Iâm a bisexual,,,, so Y E S157: War: No (?)156: Orbs: *flashbacks to fanfics* ⌠donâtâŚ155: Magic: Y E S[ This or That ] (Iâm bisexual,,,,, why u asking me to choose) 154: Hugs or Kisses: Kisses!153: Drunk or High: Drunk152: Phone or Online: Online151: Red heads or Black haired: Black hair 150: Blondes or Brunettes: blondes149: Hot or cold: Cold148: Summer or winter: Winter147: Autumn or Spring: Autumn146: Chocolate or vanilla: Chocolate145: Night or Day: Night144: Oranges or Apples: Apples143: Curly or Straight hair: Straight142: McDonaldâs or Burger King: McDonaldâs141: White Chocolate or Milk Chocolate: Milk Chocolate140: Mac or PC: PC139: Flip flops or high heels: High Heels138: Ugly and rich OR sweet and poor: Sweet and poor137: Coke or Pepsi: Coke136: Hillary or Obama: Obama135: Burried or cremated: Buried, Iâm taking part in the skeleton war134: Singing or Dancing: Singing133: Coach or Chanel: Coach132: Kat McPhee or Taylor Hicks: Who (???)131: Small town or Big city: big city130: Wal-Mart or Target: Iâm Irish129: Ben Stiller or Adam Sandler: Ben Stiller128: Manicure or Pedicure: Manicure127: East Coast or West Coast:Iâm Irish126: Your Birthday or Christmas: Christmas125: Chocolate or Flowers: Cocolate124: Disney or Six Flags: Disney (tf is six flags??)123: Yankees or Red Sox: Iâm Irish[ Hereâs What I Think About ]122: War: My brothers are all in the army, this is v Yikes121: George Bush: Did 9/11120: Gay Marriage: Let us marry!!119: The presidential election: Stupid118: Abortion: Let them have it, itâs not my decision117: MySpace: Oldie but goodie116: Reality TV: Stupid, but entertaining115: Parents: Love my step dad, Iâm a daddyâs girl lmao114: Back stabbers: [eye emojis]113: Ebay: Donât use it much112: Facebook: Good, I guess111: Work: Iâm a lazy binch110: My Neighbors: Nosy!! They look in our windows when weâre out109: Gas Prices: I donât drive108: Designer Clothes: Look fancy107: College: I plan on going to one106: Sports: Quidditch I love, not so sure on everything else105: My family: OK, a little nasty sometimes, v petty, esp my brothers104: The future: The what???[ Last time I ]103: Hugged someone: Like this morning?102: Last time you ate: Iâm eating an apple rn101: Saw someone I havenât seen in awhile: Last week I saw my aunt100: Cried in front of someone: Last Thursday 99: Went to a movie theater: Lke a week ago98: Took a vacation: way too long ago97: Swam in a pool: Years96: Changed a diaper: Not long enough ago95: Got my nails done: Ages ago94: Went to a wedding: Last year93: Broke a bone: 5 years ago (my school shaded me, another story for another time)92: Got a peircing: 3 years ago91: Broke the law: I downloaded music illegally yesterday90: Texted: yesterday[ MISC ]89: Who makes you laugh the most: My friend Molly88: Something I will really miss when I leave home is: My Coffee machine87: The last movie I saw: Gaurdians Of The Galaxy Vol. 2 (I was forced)86: The thing that Iâm looking forward to the most: The end of my exams85: The thing im not looking forward to: My exams84: People call me: Abbey, Abbs, Dabbey Hufflepuff (100% real)83: The most difficult thing to do is: Study82: I have gotten a speeding ticket: I donât drive81: My zodiac sign is: Leo80: The first person i talked to today was: My mum79: First time you had a crush: I was like 8, he was my brothers best friend, he gave me a valentines card and I told him to go away bc I couldnât handle it78: The one person who i canât hide things from: My mum77: Last time someone said something you were thinking: Idk??76: Right now I am talking to: The GC75: What are you going to do when you grow up: something stupid, probably74: I have/will get a job: IDK??73: Tomorrow: School72: Today: Study71: Next Summer: Exams, then England for a while70: Next Weekend: Dying slowly, from a hangover69: I have these pets: None68: The worst sound in the world: âmoistâ67: The person that makes me cry the most is: Myself binch66: People that make you happy:my mutuals (yes even u you shitstain)65: Last time I cried: last Thursday64: My friends are: a little mean, v condescending63: My computer is: HP62: My School: Is becoming a gaelscoil and I canât deal lmao61: My Car: I donât have one60: I lose all respect for people who: Shout at me/fake ask ppl out59: The movie I cried at was: Lion King, Marley and Me58: Your hair color is: Brown with some blonde57: TV shows you watch: Shadowhunters, Avatar, Legend of Korra + many more56: Favorite web site: This blue hell, or youtube55: Your dream vacation: America54: The worst pain I was ever in was: When I broke my arm, that shit hurt53: How do you like your steak cooked: Well Done52: My room is: Messy, kind of51: My favorite celebrity is: I canât choose donât do me dirt like this50: Where would you like to be: America!49: Do you want children: IDK48: Ever been in love: Hah nooooo47: Whoâs your best friend: Emma46: More guy friends or girl friends: Girl friends45: One thing that makes you feel great is: Sleeping44: One person that you wish you could see right now: My niece, Ella43: Do you have a 5 year plan: No, I donât even know what Iâm doing in 5 mins42: Have you made a list of things to do before you die: No41: Have you pre-named your children: No40: Last person I got mad at: Myself, my friend Mia 39: I would like to move to: America38: I wish I was a professional: Sleeper[ My Favorites ]37: Candy: Chocolate36: Vehicle: IDK35: President: Mary, she was good34: State visited: iâM iRISH33: Cellphone provider: 332: Athlete: N O31: Actor: NO30: Actress:also no29: Singer: again no28: Band: I HAVE NO TALENTS OKAY27: Clothing store: Penneys26: Grocery store: Tesco25: TV show: Shadowhunters24: Movie: I donât have a fave, donât do me dirt23: Website: This blue hell, or youtube22: Animal: A Sugar Glider21: Theme park: ???20: Holiday: Iâd like to go to America19: Sport to watch: Quidditch18: Sport to play: none lol17: Magazine: none16: Book: Harry Potter15: Day of the week: Saturday14: Beach: Loch Luch13: Concert attended: none12: Thing to cook: Pasta Bake11: Food: Curry10: Restaurant: Blue Ocean9: Radio station: Today FM8: Yankee candle scent: Lavender7: Perfume: Princess- Vera Wang6: Flower: Violet5: Color: Purple4: Talk show host:Ryan Tubridy3: Comedian: Darragh OâBrien2: Dog breed: A Newfie!! We used to breed Newfoundlands!!1: Did you answer all these truthfully?  Yes (kind of)