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randomhuman45 · 2 years
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I'm watching Hell's Kitchen and all I can think is, how has there not been just a full season of people with degradation kinks. Like, if I really enjoyed being degraded that is where I'd wanna go. I mean you get amazing insults, be on tv, and a chance of getting a good job. Sounds like a good deal.
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wonder-worker · 7 months
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"The newly widowed Elizabeth (Woodville) was exceptionally vulnerable. Several of the trustees responsible for her jointure refused to hand over the manors that were meant to sustain her in her widowhood. Moreover, her brother-in-law, Edward Grey, had seized estates that her son Thomas should have inherited from his paternal grandfather, while her mother-in-law’s new young husband, Sir John Bourchier, had prevailed on Lady Ferrers to settle her principal properties on them jointly for life, ensuring that Thomas would have to wait far longer for this inheritance too. Rivers and Scales were pardoned in July 1461 and swiftly moved into the Yorkist establishment, which perhaps explains the success of the chancery suits Elizabeth launched to regain her jointure. Her son’s inheritance proved harder to recover. By 1463, Rivers was often in (Edward IV's) company and on his council, but Elizabeth needed someone with much stronger influence over the King. She turned to a distant kinsman, William, Lord Hastings, the King’s chamberlain. Hastings drove a very hard bargain for his aid but it was probably amid these negotiations that the King’s desire for Elizabeth was kindled."
-J.L. Laynesmith, "Elizabeth Woodville: the Knight's Widow", "Later Plantagenet and Wars of the Roses Consorts: Power, Influence, and Dynasty"
#historicwomendaily#elizabeth woodville#Elizabeth really had terrible in-laws#And these people weren't even the worst of them - that particular award goes to Richard of Gloucester#As complicated as her first widowhood sounds it was a breeze compared to the literal nightmare she went through during her second.#Honestly though: part me wonders what Elizabeth's first marriage was like because we know absolutely nothing about it.#The marriage itself is a blank slate but the fact that her husband's parents & siblings were so indifferent and uncooperative#to her - and their own kid-grandchildren?? - after he died indicates that his family may have been rather dysfunctional imo?#Certainly they (or most of them) don't seem to have cared about the wellbeing or dignity of his young and newly widowed wife which#doesn't exactly suggest closeness or support during the marriage itself from their end.#Elizabeth doesn't mention John Gray in her deathbed will either though she mentions Edward IV. She may have thought it was#'inappropriate' to mention her first husband beside her significantly higher-ranked second husband...but she DOES mention her son by#her first marriage - which would have drawn attention to it anyway - alongside her royal daughter so that's unlikely to have been a reason.#Maybe it was simply the passage of time? She and John had been married for very few years and she lived such a different life after that#So it's possible that her first marriage simply seemed very distant and faraway to her.#Alternatively it may have simply been undivided affection for Edward IV (her husband of 19 years who she married for love)#which fits well into the relatively personal nature of her will.#Of course we don't actually know anything about any of this and this is all pure wild speculation on my end...but I'm curious.#It's really a shame how little we actually know about Elizabeth's life - made worse by the very limited primary records of Edward IV's#reign and the fact that his chamber records don't survive. And it's even more frustrating that this is so rarely actually acknowledged#by historians. I'd argue we know far more about the life & interests of most other 'prominent' women of the Wars of the Roses#(sans the Neville sisters) than we do about Elizabeth Woodville.
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daddy-long-legssss · 8 months
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The transition from ‘This House Is a Circus’ into ‘If You Were There, Beware’ is so good.
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captainkirkk · 1 year
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I always liked that Artemis was 12 because I think peak girlhood was 12-14. Like those were the years before I knew what being a girl meant and instead I lived as a girl without a thought you know. At 12 if Artemis came and asked if I wanted to be a girl under the moon forever I would have grabbed her hand and said yes. Only downside is that those were also my Braces Years
I can't stop thinking about this. Being immortal would be awesome, but being forever 12/13 when you're in that awkward preteen phase? No, Thank You.
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Sandman: It’s just so hard not getting to see my little girl
Otto, who stole some of Spidey’s DNA to combine with his to make a kid to use against him, lex luthor style, but Spidey just kidnapped the kid immediately when he found out and got Matt to cover him legally: I know exactly how you feel, Spiderman won’t even let me have visitations with my kid :(
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Sandman: That is not the same thing, our situations are not comparable at all, it’s important to me that you know that
#I like thinking of Otto for situations like that for several reasons#cause I usually think of him with red hair so with him and spidey combining dna you could get a kid with red hair#making may-day even in universes where he doesn’t get with MJ#and it’s a funny situation for me to think of him telling other spideys#‘oh me and MJ? that didn’t end up happening’#‘why do I have this red haired daughter? well funny story actually-‘#also I like to think that as the kid gets older they have to deal with Otto trying to persuade them to become evil#gifting them mechanical spider legs#which is a cool look#also Otto is my favorite villain to imagine as being the only one who knows Peter’s identity#especially in universes where they used to work together#so rather than sounding like an evil villain like he’s trying to be#he’s trying so hard to sound and be Spidey’s worst nightmare#he just ends up sounding like a bitter ex who misses his lab partner and whenever he explains his ‘evil plan’#instead of sounding like an actual supervillain using the hero’s fears of forever being alone after their last relative dies#by dangling blood relative in front of them and threatening it#he just accidentally makes it sound like the kid’s his last shot at getting the ex back#kind of a ‘you can’t leave me for another villain I’m pregnant and it’s yours’ type of thing#idk I just prefer Otto for this#otto octavius#flint marko#doc ock#sandman#Spiderman#spider man#spider-man#peter parker#made up dialogue by yours truly
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mumblesplash · 4 months
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I will write the non dialogue if you'll do the dialogue
Dialogue is my nemesis- I learned how specifically because I like writing and to write you need some modicum of communication
haha man it's always fascinating to encounter people on the opposite end of the spectrum there like how does your brain even do that
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luxlightly · 5 months
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They need to invent an hrt that turns me into Gabriel Ultrakill
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aquilathefighter · 5 days
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this is such an awful fucking thing in my brain and im fully aware it's a me problem but every time someone either makes a fankid for a pairing or makes one or both into a kid i think why would you do that to them
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turbo-virgins · 6 months
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what is it with corporate event planners and thinking they need to stick all their employees in escape rooms? I barely know these people. I definitely don’t know them well enough to be locked in a puzzle room with them
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daddy-long-legssss · 6 months
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trulymadlysydney · 1 year
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Also update because I haven’t told you guys about my life in a minute dhsjd I’ve been talking to a guy from hinge for a few weeks and uhhhh on the topic of Saturn return it’s made me realize a whole lot about myself because I was deadass ALL in for this guy and then I had one(1) dream about my horrible ex and woke up and realized oh shit this guy kind of resembles him and oh shit I am terrified of intimacy and vulnerability and clearly there’s something wrong with me if I can’t imagine ever having sex with this guy and I have so many things I need to work through so! Considering making this the year I finally go to ✨therapy✨ because I’ve realized I have a Fearful Avoidant attachment style and all I want to do is run away and ghost him but I’m too far in now so! Yeehaw! That’s what you missed on Glee!!!
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katyspersonal · 9 months
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Had a weird short nightmare in which someone (don't remember who exactly he was) directed me into my room at my old house, that was supposed to represent my heart, or part of it. It was very messy, dirty and dark, but I was sent there because I was threatened by a "pest" that would drain/destroy my soul if not caught...? According to the "voice" the stakes were high, anyways. Along all the shards, dirt and broken furniture there was also a paper sheet in which it was written who I am. I remember some traits that were written... And that paper sheet already had a lot of bite marks. It actually seemed to be HALF-eaten already.
The pest was really small and fast, I could not see it, but I could "feel" it, and when I caught it, turned out that it was a specific type of caterpillar that the "I can't live without you *changes his mind 1 week later*" guy associated himself with. Strangely enough, despite it being a caterpillar, it was flying. I was feeling so bad about squashing it in my hand, but I did it.. I suppose I stopped some sort of destructive process. Not expecting to instantly be "okay again" after this, but it just feels like it meant something.
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theygender · 2 years
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I'm doing it. I'm gonna get a fucking hysterectomy
#its something ive talked about half jokingly for years bc the idea of ever being pregnant or giving birth makes me INCREDIBLY dysphoric#so it seems completely fucking pointless to have to go through so much pain and sickness every month for absolutely no reason#this past month where i couldnt get my medication already had me seriously thinking about it tho#bc even if im managing my endometriosis okay with BC i dont want to have to worry about going through hell if i cant fill my prescription#i was looking into the side effects and etc bc i was thinking about asking my doctor about it next time i went in#and the only thing that had me concerned was that a full hysterectomy or oophorectomy sends you into menopause which seems like itd suck#(but smaller surgeries like tube ligations dont actually stop you from having periods)#BUT i was complaining about this at work and one of my coworkers told me she had a hysterectomy for endometriosis#and her doctor gave her a partial hysterectomy so it stops periods and prevents pregnancy but doesnt send you into menopause#and that sounds fucking GREAT honestly so i wanted to ask my doctor about it even more#but now that roe v wade has been overturned? the deal is sealed im getting this hell machine out of me one way or another#im hoping that my doctor will be understanding as a woman herself but if not my coworker said she'll give me her doctors info#and if THAT doesnt work. i just checked out r/childfree and theyve got a list of doctors in my area who are willing to help#i dont want to keep suffering through chronic illness symptoms every month for absolutely no reason#i dont want to run the risk of getting pregnant and having to live through my worst nightmare as someone with dysphoria#AND like my gf just pointed out to me. ive got other health issues that im trying to get sorted out#im chronically underweight and i either have pots or some kind of hypertension. plus a low immune system and etc etc etc#being forced to carry a pregnancy could fucking kill me for all i know. AND i would have to go off of a lot of my meds??#all this thing does is cause me chronic pain and put my already precarious physical and mental health at risk#im GETTING it fucking taken out#rambling#ive got an appointment with my therapist on tuesday and i think im gonna ask about getting an official diagnosis of gender dysphoria#and im already in the process of getting tested for pots with my primary care doctor#so hopefully those diagnoses combined with my endometriosis will help speed it along... 🙏
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mars-ipan · 1 year
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lmk if this is fucked up (hear me out) but i’ve been wanting an excuse to psychologically torment someone for years (HEAR ME OUT)
#OBVIOUSLY i don’t do it because i’m not fucking evil#but ohhh my god if someone ever did something horribke enough to warrant it???#i would be sooooo fucking manipulative. like genuinely i have the power for it.#i’m very good at analyzing people and i’m very good at subtly suggesting things#i need to make this clear I DO NOT DO THIS. i simply fantasize about doing it to bad people#i’m not talking like making people hate themselves type of manipulation btw#i’m talking like making people go fucking insane type of stuff. psychological warfare#i would never do this irl. i’ve never met anyone who’s deserved something like that#but ohhhhh my god i want to BAD to haunt someone’s dreams. i want to be someone’s worst fucking nightmare#i know i sound like an edgy 13yo rn but like i’m being 100% genuine#i fully believe that i’m good enough at manipulation and reading people that i would be able to find and push all the right buttons#in someone’s head to make them fully lose their minds#and like i said i would NEVER actually do it. because it’s like evil to do that to people#but oh my goddddd part of me wants to soooo fucking bad#not sure how much of this desire is intrusive. obvi i don’t want to hurt people#but i do want to bring horrible people endless psychological distress#it’s just that there’s never a situation where doing that is even remotely okay#at least that i’ve been in#and i like don’t hold grudges so even if someone completely fucked me over i probably’d just get over it#but oooooouh. the primal desire to make someone completely question their reality. it is like visceral#‘mars i cannot see you willingly manipulating anyone’ and that’s why i’m fucking good at it.#i don’t do it bc i prefer being trusted to being an asshole. and also it’s an awful thing to do#but oh my GODDD it would be so cathartic.#idk if i’ve conveyed this thought exactly right. but know that i love fantasizing about striking dread into the hearts of cruel people#the amt of daydreams i’ve had where i psychologically torment billionaires is well into the double digits
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ilostyou · 1 year
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anyway i think this news of a harry collab is a) fake and b) a diversion. hope this helps xo
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zarya-zaryanitsa · 1 year
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They say if you would survive but would you even be able to return?
I see you enjoy torturing me 👀
Also I don’t think you’d get to see a lot of interesting stuff in either place? They both seem a bit… hard to perceive…
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