Holy shit I'm turning 18 this year.

tiny yoichi (unwillingly) lures out soldiers by being his helplessness little self so his brother can strike

kadoc vs kariya fight

gojo, babe, stop being dramatic. just bc i leave for a couple of days doesn't mean you can pretend to be dead for my attention :/

(ROTMHS NOVEL SPOILERSSSSS).........head in my hands every time i think about how early chung jin was introduced in the webcomic.. i rmbr reading the manhwa for the first time and seeing chung jin and thinking '?ok.. who is this rando...' but then saw the spoilers afterwards and realized chung myung truly believed chung jin might have actually survived and escaped the war and imagined a fabricated scenario to further back up this belief that chung jin had a full life lived out in peace..... breh actually ykw he probably didnt even believe his made up scenario himself, hes always known chung jin was weak, chung myung probably convinced himself it was true to a certain degree as a form of denial, making his reaction to the later chung jin reveal chapters even more heartbreaking

....i took the wrong fucking train

…

*starts violently sobbing*

my durge tav had a fling with both astarion and lae’zel at the same time. when i played through it originally, astarion’s hug scene triggered before lae’zel’s ‘i have feelings for you and i need to fight you about it’ scene, and so that meant that my tav’s relationship with astarion deepened and it was ultimately lae’zel that prompted the ‘choose one of us’ dialogue.

i recently went back to an old save shortly before the astarion hug scene because i wanted to check how that scene had triggered (iirc it triggered organically, so without talking to araj or killing yurgir first). i was at last light inn, spammed like two or three long rests, and instead of having the hug scene trigger (which i now believe only triggers after raph gives you the quest to kill yurgir), lae’zel’s scene triggered instead.

this was nice because i got to see it + hear the subsequent ‘choose’ dialogue from astarion rather than lae’zel, but oh my god i cant stop thinking about the implications. lae’zel was SO close (literally only 2-3 nights!!!!) to admit her feelings to herself and confess to my tav!! had i played slightly differently, gone somewhere else, picked a fight in a different spot, the defining moment of who my tav ended up picking (and thus falling in love with) might have gone differently. and like. imagine being lae’zel. imagine kicking yourself repeatedly over and over again over the fact that you’re… feeling things for this fucking random tadpoled dumbass you met just recently. imagine growing up in a society where love and romance is scoffed at, and the second you’re removed from that environment, you find someone who stirs those embarrassing feelings in you! imagine slowly working up the courage to even just Begin to accept your feelings, to be working towards being able to acknowledge them out loud, to be literally One Night Away from taking this huge, scary personal leap… and then someone else beats you to it. you were one night away from doing one of the scariest things you’ve ever done, and then someone else fucking destroys that opportunity for you. and it’s just over. you end it with the person you were so close to falling in love with, because they’ve fallen in love with someone else and you hesitated.

i just. lae’zel my wittle baby im so fucking sorry. i love you. i didn’t know. bapey girl my heart breaks for her!! she deserves the world and if you don’t like her im literally killing you with my mind

Oh fuck me fuckme fuck me

should I get a ticket to a book signing on thursday.

reading my old hc posts like

☃️

might switch to a bio major. what if I kill myself

i don't make resolutions, but if i did

it would be to finish this fic

(and to be kind to myself for however long it takes to actually do so)

Me engaging with any media: Remember, we don't have to assign agere dynamics to any of the characters this time! Regression doesn't apply to every character in existence, because that would be silly, wouldn't it? Yes, I can be so normal about this new thing and not act like the silly creature that I am.

Me 0.3 seconds after being introduced to the characters: And I will be taking care of you my precious little darling, forever and always,,,

oh god oh shit oh fuck everyone hates me why do i talk at all guys just tell me to never talk again (< - said something stupid like 2 hours ago and now feels nauseous and cant sleep)