Are you excited for the next season of Bridgerton?

Beyond excited 🥰

accidentally found an amazing frame lately and i knew what i had to do

when a fellow artist appreciates what you have to say about their art but their art is in a museum and your art is on the fridge with a little smiley face sticker on it

I'm 99.9% sure that my teacher doesn't read emails before responding... I'm getting sass for shit I didn't even say or forget to do 😭

I fucking hate weed 🙌

ok loser i just bought a half

me giggling and kicking my feet whenever i see the "(THIS IS A VERY LONG ASK)" message right before the read more 😍

AAAAAAAA!! PLEASE!!! literally I!!! was giggling and kickin my feet when I!!! got This ask message!!!! you are so sugar sweet, my darling!

( also, i really needed this today; the other guy who does my job is out today [ smh ] so it's only 9am where i am but i'm on my Second Cup of coffee because i have to cover a BAJILLION classes today...cryin )

no, this is seriously made me soooooo happy!!! bc i get worried that the messages are too overwhelming & i'm throwing way too much at you at once, so its very validating to know you like them so much!!! c:

i literally LOVE LOVE LOVE writing them -- i'm sure u can feel the passion which tbh is more like criminal insanity oof -- i think they're so fun and its nice to share something i love with people i love!!!

AKA all of you :)))) <3333

rlly the reason they're so long is bc i have mental problems, ofc, we already kno this, but also i feel like its important that, if you guys take the time to ask me stuff, that you get all the information i can give ya!

because you deserve it and i don't want you to feel confused ever. xx

( my storylore gets rlly complex/weird...so it can def be Perplexin rip )

i actually only like answering questions when i feel Strongly abt the answers ( which is why i held off on answering all the tkak/tsot questions until right now which...thank god bc theyre Girls now, lol!!! )

i also put a lot of love and my heart into those answers, honestly, its kind of a vulnerable thing to put urself out there like that: so it makes me feel really seen and treasured when you guys send me excited anons about receiving all my insane feelings and thots abt my fics!

which needless to say my angel, and all my angels, thank you for being fans of my fictions, interested in my crazy lore, waiting for my stuff and cherishing my cracked out ask answers. everything i do, i do for you my loves! and i am glad that my answers aren't Too Much.

-uncle nina, who again, really did need this today <3

Aahhh

Depression

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hugss 🫂<33

how are youuu? :)

hi!!!! do you have any advice era taemin styling thoughts to share!!!!!

oh of course!!!! who would i be if i didn't? i talked about the advice styling in more general terms in my taemin and masks post a million years ago and a little bit here in this post where someone asked me my fave taemin stylings, but there are a couple of places where i wanted to go into more detail!

advice is very interesting, styling wise, because on first glance it's all over the map. but there's very conscious effort at play to conceptualize and visualize the idea of combined dualities. ngda was taemin's magnum opus, an interrogation of binaries and strict moralities with the conclusion of creating a new self outside those systems. and, very importantly: the new self is built from those systems. as exemplified with ending shot of him being doused in white paint, the new is informed, synthesized from the old. which you can see in how none of the clothing is in true monochrome. it's always as a purposeful duality: skin/covered, black/white, white/red, red/blue. even his hair is dual toned. and it also is ingrained in the fabric of most of the garments themselves. the split black and white suit, the thorned jacket, the tartan suit set. i know the tartan might not seem like it follows the trend, but tartan patterning is made from using multiple colour warp (vertical) and weft (horizontal) lines while weaving, which creates an entirely new pattern just from alternating colours.

the other point i want to note in particular is the king imagery. with the minting of a new self in a new system outside of the old, one has the choice whether or not to take a position of power, and taemin 100% does that. the most obvious king imagery is in one of the rounds of concept photos:

and there's also the extremely obvious:

as well as the thorned jacket, which is undoubtedly a jesus reference but importantly it is a marker of carrying the thing that hurt you as a mark of pride and strength. taemin has taken a lot of public scrutiny over the course of his career and there are some motifs throughout advice that are emblematic of that scrutiny:

the extensions: the last time taemin had notable extensions was for sherlock when he was nineteen, almost a decade ago. he had a lot of unwarranted criticism levelled at him for being 'feminine' and that public response had a very dramatic impact on his persona and the trajectory of his work

the instagram 'baddie' look: again, he's taken a lot of shit for being 'feminine' and he took that to the most extreme he's ever done

the mascara tear tracks: taemin has spoken several times about how he doesn't like to/finds it uncomfortable to cry in public

the boyishness of the point styling: because he debuted so insanely young, there's always been a perception of youth and immaturity around him and with this tartan suit he embraced it instead of trying to shy away from it. that outfit also bears striking similarity to gainsborough's blue boy portrait (c. 1770):

which, although it would be incorrect to say that this particular portrait is indicative of 'short pants as indicating boyhood' ('teenager'/youth clothing doesn't exist in this period but that's a costume history lesson for another day), it is true that short pants in the last two centuries have become inextricably linked with school-aged youth. that, combined with the previously cited image from the inkigayo stage of him in this outfit sitting on a throne, paint a very clear picture of a boy king who has rightfully and confidently taken his place at the head and as the inspiration of an industry.

and a parting thought: i know it's a likely coincidence but i'm not going to look down on the fact that this suit combo is from the loverboy ss21 collection, titled 'the healing'

what's your Hogwarts house?

can i help you

Someone in the Carlando fandom sent me into a milex vortex, are you to blame?

ME!?!?! *brings hand to her chest* HOW DARE YOU SAY SO!?

.................😏

OMG! ANON! I JUST ASDGFHGJHJL! well, I'd say I'm sorry but this message's just made my day!

Also..I mean..have you seen them!? No one could resist! The Milex vortex just awaits every person who ever comes in contact with The Last Shadow Puppets, it's inevitable! And it never leaves you! You think you're over it and then BAM! Someone on your dashboard reblogs an old post with Alex and Miles singing in the same microphone and almost kissing and you find yourself going back to the old posts from 2016 and losing your mind; then you open YouTube, find your old Milex playlist and discover that it has now been seen by more than 10k people(it's true and I'm still amazed by that) and pass the next days re-watching old clips and interviews, dreaming of a third album and a new tour so that you can finally witness them irl. They're just too perfect and talented and handsome and charming and obviously idiots in love duh..you can't escape them!

So, yeah, I'm the one to blame and, as you can see, I love talking about them tbh so feel free to message me about them whenever you want!

Thank you for the message and here, have some Milex just because Anon 👀👀👀👀👀👀👀❤️

renfield being smart moments . from my rewrite . he figures since he can't say whats going on directly he'll do a little riddles

OH THATS AWESOME OMG

liz. please. can we have one tiny tiny tiny crumb of information about the undisclosed project. i really hope it works out for you and i can't help it, i wanna know! <3

bestie 🥺🥺🥺 ty for asking but this whole thing is SUCH a complex issue and

i can't help it, i wanna know! <3

AAAAAGH this is why i tried not to talk about it bc then i'm torturing people or making them excited because they think i am secretly working on a Really Good Fic and it is not like that. i'm sorry mea culpa mea culpa :( i am begging you all to blacklist it!!!

let me try to explain a little better i am putting it under a cut to hide my shame:

so, the thing i am working on is (i finally admitted it awhile back) a fanfic (NOT original work!!! sorry) BUT it's not a fanfic i am planning to post. ever. this is for a few reasons:

the fic is an act of self-indulgence. i am doing whatever the hell i want without thinking about what it will look like when i post it because i am not posting it. and if you are thinking something very kind like "but liz i trust your taste and i would love to read you writing whatever the hell you want" there are still sooo many problems such as:

if i decide to post it, i will become self-conscious about my decisions and spoil the entire thing. i'm ALREADY a little self-conscious about it even though i am only letting a VERY select group of close and trusted friends read it. so if i decide to post it, or even tell anyone online what it is, it will cease to exist. this is maybe the biggest reason. i can't have people getting all excited about it and asking for details about it and then me spiraling into self-doubt because then it will never be finished and i have tried to write it MANY times in the past two decades and i NEED it to be finished

the second biggest reason is that because i am doing whatever the hell i want, the decisions i'm making are objectively bad. i am not fishing for compliments here, i know these decisions are bad and i know they would be deeply unpopular in the fandom in question (unfortunately if i told you what fandom it was you would know immediately what it is, so i'm not going to do that, but it's not s*pernatural if that makes anyone feel better) and I KNOW i would justifiably get stoned to death by onlookers when they read it. you may think "but liz has written good fics in which the decisions made were ones i liked" (this is also very kind) but that just proves my point. i know what a good decision is and i am making bad ones anyway, on purpose, because i want to.

this presents a a huge problem because this story is extremely, extremely close to my heart, probably closer to my heart than any other story i have ever or will ever work on! and if anyone said even one single mean word about it i would simply pass away on the spot. i simply cannot allow that kind of vulnerability to exist on cas-thee-tiel's internet. to give any passing stranger the power to annihilate me? no way bro

but EVEN IF!!! i got over my baggage we have the final problem: the massive fucking size of this thing.

i'm currently averaging about 9k-10k a chapter (though i do have one 11k chapter, yikes, but also one 8k one - my spreadsheet informs me the actual average is 9761 words), and i know without a doubt that the fic is going to be 36 chapters long. this means the end wordcount could be anywhere from 350k to 400k. that is ENORMOUS. that is GARGANTUAN. this fic is a titan among titans!!! even if people who were NOT a very select group of close and trusted friends actually WANTED to read it, how the fuck would i POST it? as one 350-400k chunk? i would find that deeply unrewarding. i'd post it, and then it would take people weeks to get through, at BEST, and i'd be lucky if there was even a handful who'd make it to the end at all. i'm not normally a person who NEEDS comments to function, but the radio silence i'd get on posting an objectively bad fanfiction which could be up to 400k long would be devastating on a personal level.

so then, what, weekly chapter updates? i find that much more satisfying but HOW? each update would be asking people to read and keep up with ten THOUSAND words a week! nobody has that kind of time! AND it has 36 chapters. if i posted one every week that would be a posting cycle of NINE. MONTHS. almost a YEAR. reading 10k per week for nine months is a BREAKNECK pace. i could alter it a little - post one chapter biweekly or two chapters weekly - but then i am either asking people to keep up with the same fic for a year and a half OR i am asking them to read 20k a week for a still-pretty-long 4.5 months when they can't even keep up with dracula daily. like?????

so yeah, there are absolutely people who follow me & my fic who would LOVE to gush at me about this thing (and there might even be people who have listened to me talk enough to have figured out what it is by now, though i really hope not lol) and i am BEYOND humbled and grateful that i even have that kind of audience when i am just out here writing fake shit about other people's ocs, but i am just Totally Stumped as to how to even like. do anything at all with that.

to partially answer your question, though, yes, it is in fact working out for me! like, the ONLY reason i even make posts about it on tumblr (which is normally partially a publicity stunt because i do still LIKE comments) is because i am simply So Excited I Can't Not Talk About It. every minute i spend working on it is a hit of pure undiluted dopamine and According To My Spreadsheets at this rate i'll be writing until at least autumn of next year. it makes me unreasonably happy to sit down and chip away at this thing (i currently have just finished chapter 6 out of 36) and i look forward to being able to do so with a passion and desire heretofore unknown to human kind. it's the first thing i think of when i wake up in the morning and the last thing i think about when i go to sleep at night. it makes me want to be alive. better still it makes me want to get out of BED. i have woken up 2 and 3 hours before my alarm goes off of my own volition MULTIPLE times for the sole purpose of working on this fanfiction. so there is that!

i do wish i knew how to share it with you guys in a way that was feasible!!! cuz i know it must really suck to listen to an author you like talk about a fic you aren't allowed to read. it is not even remotely an ideal situation and i do my best to make it sound as boring as possible when i bring it up because to most people it REALLY would be. but this is where i'm at. perhaps next year when i'm all done with it and don't have to worry about it vanishing into the ether of my own insecurities anymore things will change, but i can't consider that possibility because then it will vanish into the ether of my own insecurities. i hope you can understand :( but thank you for being interested anyway, it really is so sweet that anyone would want to know <3

hey uhhh what gift cards do u take for commision payment

Steam, Fangamer.com, and Nintendo eshop giftcards are what I'm looking for atm !! I can also take barnes & noble but thats low priority

i am literally SO SICK of people saying “they’re trying to be good” when they mean they are trying to eat healthy or lose weight.

YOU ARE NOT BAD WHEN YOU DON’T EAT 100% HEALTHY FOODS. YOU ARE NOT BAD IF YOU ARE FAT

C! As a fellow huihui how are you holding up after the comeback show hot performance (and the m*sh shirt)

JUNHUI HAd NO RIGHT BEING THAT HOT (pun not intended lmao) THE SUNGLASSES TOOK ME OUT BUT HIM WEARING THAT MESH SHIRT ?????????? I ALMOST CHOKED ON MY WATER ! NAH BC THERE WAS A SHIFT IN THE AIR STARS REALIGNED THE WORLD TILTED WHEN JUNHUI FIRST POSTED THE GYM SELFIE THEN THE BACKWARDS CAP THE ATTITUDE !!!!! MANS DID A FULL ONE HUNDRED AND EIGHTY WITH THAT CONFIDENCE HE WAS CONFIDENT BEFORE HE WAS SEXY COOL BEFORE BUT NOW !!!! N O W ! HES SEXY SEXY HES TRYING TO MURDER US MURDER ME MY LIL JUNPI WEARING THIS MESH SHIRT !!! 🥹🥹🥹🥹 EVERYTHING IS A OKAY I AM FINE !