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i feel so lame and failure core for not being able to handle my 9 hr shift 5x a week full time job but then i think of how shitty admin was and the whole structure of the center was it was so unsustainable and unsupportive for the staff and horrible and im super mentally unwell so no wonder i went crazy there lol 👍
#now im just chilling lmfao#im stressed cuz idk what my job situation is gna be in tbe near future#im lucky enough to not have to rush immediately to find a new job and#possibly just work part time for a little#it all just depedns on what kind of program i enroll in and the hours of that#some of these outpatient programs r very intensive like 9hrs a week 3 days etc so idkk#im just prioritizing that rn#im gna call them today like in the next hr i keep putting it off#and its a huge source of anxiety for me icwish i was normal Lol#I also rly rly need to fix the meds im on
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aaron had every reason to hate neil btw
#be fr#if ur twin started prioritizing a stranger over u u would be mad too#yes technically aaron and andrew aren't all that close to each other but#they still knew e/o longer than they knew neil yk#and it's gonna sting if this newbie with daddy issues just. takes up all of your brother's attention#when no matter what you do you just can't develop a positive relationship with your brother#ugh im too sleep deprived to go into depth rn#aaron minyard#aftg#neil josten#all for the game#the foxhole court#the raven king#the king's men#all for the gay
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HELTER-SPIDER
#ensemble stars#kohaku oukawa#flosart#/#//#eye strain cw#something happened i saw him and i just started drawing i was being haunted#its so funny cause i was jokingly complaining about no kohaku even i cursed us all#i might edit this later w more stuff but i need to go do something rn#BTW I PRIORITIZED THIS OVER HOMEWORK IM FUCKED TOMORROW !#update: thank ye for 100 note.s.......! and for the compliments too aheheh (shy)
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Hi, im researching for a fic im writing, and i want to ask if you know whats up with Jai's messed up connection to the speedforce? and also how the fuck do they use the speedforce to get super strength? how does going fast translate into being strong? Do you know what issues to read to learn more about this? like why do Jai (& Jesse?) have super strength, how did they do this? Why did they do this?
So Jesse's strength is a very quick and easy answer so I'll address that first before jumping into Jai's whole thing.
Jesse's mom is Liberty Belle, a hero with super strength. Jesse inherited her father's speed and her mother's super strength. She's just... I don't want to say that she's better at being a speedster but high key she is. Jesse only figured out her super strength recently and it's still pretty touch and go. She used to only have the speed and then that fizzled out and she only had the strength for a bit and then it switched back to just speed again. She seems to have both powers now though and she seems to know how to use them both so fingers crossed 🤞
Jai is a whole different ballgame.
So Irey and Jai were born as fraternal twins. There were two things wrong when they were born.
A) Only Irey was born with a speedforce connection. Jai technically wasn't born with powers at all. Irey had wrapped her speedforce connection around Jai to share her powers but it was significantly damaging to both of them.
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B) Their shared speedforce connection was tainted with Black Flash energy. (Negative Speedforce)
So let's talk about the Negative Speedforce energy. This is the stuff that turns speedsters into Black Flashes. This is what permanently killed Johnny Quick. One touch of this stuff will obliterate a speedster entirely. It's one of the only ways to permanently kill a speedster because it corrupts their speedforce energy in a way that cannot be undone. So there isn't anything left to bring back.
And this stuff was creeping through the twin's shared connection like a virus. That's what caused their fatal aging disease. Their speedforce connection was so out of wack and their bodies didn't know how to fight off this energy and their metabolisms went into overdrive. Aged them both to 100 within six months. Thankfully Wally figured it out and was able to absorb the Negative Speedforce energy. This cured the twins and deaging them down to five ish (but caused some serious problems for Wally).
Okay so back to point A. Their shared speedforce connection. Irey was sharing her powers with Jai subconsciously and that's why she couldn't run. She didn't have enough energy to. She could only vibrate through stuff. Jai also didn't have enough energy to run but he had other serious issues because he wasn't a speedster like Irey. His body wasn't built to handle that much energy.
As a result Jai had some weird stuff going on. Jai's main power was to hyper accelerate the growth of his muscles. This would give him temporary super strength. I say 'super strength' but realistically Jai on par with extreme weight lifters. He wasn't Superman levels of strong. But, again, Jai's body couldn't handle this so everytime he used his power he had about five minutes until he passed out. Then someone would have to feed him or he'd go into shock.
He also had some other strange things. Like his DNA mutating and devolving when he got stressed. Basically his DNA went 'back in time' and Jai shape shifted a bit. This wasn't something he could control and it was very very very bad.
Irey eventually took her half of the speedforce connection back, which cemented her connection and stopped them both from having seizures. Jai was not happy about no longer having powers. Even less happy about Irey being a child prodigy speedster. Although Irey shared her powers with Jai in emergencies (which gave them both superspeed because Irey had a stronger connection and more skill as she grew older), they couldn't do this without Jai being in extreme pain. Also his seizures coming back.
Now we need to talk about the speedforce surge. The speedforce surge is this insane amount of wild speedforce energy that has to go somewhere or it'll explode the world. It's an overload of energy. To explain the scale of this thing, it caused the mass extinction event that wiped out the dinosaurs.
Wally tracked this dangerous surge down before it destroyed reality and he absorbed it until he could figure out what to do with it.
And...
Well he gave it to Jai.
Jai's speedforce connection is the surge. Jai operates on this untamable wild speedforce energy. So Jai now has A LOT of energy to work with but it doesn't really work the same way typical speedforce energy does. That's why he can't run. (yet at least. can't run yet)
Instead, the surge energy ramps up Jai's friction barrier, healing factor and his metabolism. That doesn't sound like much but hoLY FUCK it's op.
Every speedster has a friction barrier that they generate when they run. It stops their skin from melting off when they reach top speeds, the wind from tearing their bodies apart, bugs from hitting them with the force of bullets, their bones from shattering every time they take a step, ect, ect. Their friction barriers can only do so much (they act as a cushion, they don't make them invulnerable. They won't stop a bullet for example) and they only really work when the speedster is actively running.
Jai put all of his goddamn energy into his friction barrier. The child is literally invulnerable. I'm not even joking. And it's constant too, it doesn't switch off.
Jai's metabolism and his healing factor are why he has super strength. Simply put, Jai has a lot of energy. A LOT. And what doesn't go to his friction barrier, goes to his cells. His healing factor is also amped up and would take care of any muscle tears, fatigue, lactic acid build up, dead cells, ect almost instantaneously. What I'm saying here is that Jai's body is in perfect condition always and he has an unlimited amount of energy for his muscles to use.
Jai has super strength because he doesn't have limits. Jai turned Minecraft from Survival Mode to Creative Mode. He can extend any amount of force without any negative consequences on his body. He uses his strength to do his Thunder clap move which is canonically, at 8 years old, stronger than a Kryptonian's Thunder clap. It's confirmed that Jai is still figuring out how to channel the surge energy correctly, so he's not there yet, but one day he will be stronger than the Kryptonians.
Which is insane.
Honestly Wally is the embodiment of 'I will do anything for my children' because Jai was sad about not having powers so Wally gave him a dangerously unstable energy source (that's killed millions of people) that has the equivalent energy of two stars colliding. AT EIGHT. Wally gave a CHILD this unlimited unchecked power!!
Anyway, father of the goddamn year. I love that man. He would truly do anything for his children and now I'm pretty sure his son can't die so 10/10 decision.
#i mean if he did die he would come back like every other speedster but i genuinely don't think Jai can die like at all#with his healing factor and invulnerability? itd be tough to take him down#dc#dc comics#the flash#kid flash#wally west#impulse#irey west#thunderheart#jai west#surge#jai can't run rn tho at all. no speed at all really. he doesn't have the energy for it! literally all of his energy goes to his body#or his barrier#there is ZERO energy left for speed of any kind#i don't know WHY his speedforce connection prioritizes his health over speed but im guessing it has to do with him not being a speedster#Jai is literally not built for this. my headcanon is that he STILL isn't built for this. so the surge over compensates#EVERYTHING goes into his healing factor barrier and body. to keep him healthy and safe#its overcompensating massively#anyway that part is just a theory#could also be psychological on Jai's part. like he remembers not being built for speed. he remembers his body breaking down#and his friction barrier being almost non existent and the heat and wind ripping into him everytime he ran#it could be that Jai puts everything into his barrier and body to keep himself safe because he remembers what its like on the other side
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hi!! i can’t answer all the messages in my inbox, so i just want to let everyone know (who’s been asking): i dont think i can update anything rn sorry!! :< i appreciate everyone who’s let me know that my cc is broken, and that i would consider updating them but just dont have the time at the moment!
i did see other creators post fixed versions so i recommend that you use those!! and thank you to them!! :’)
here are some i’ve seen so far: 01, 02, 03
#i am currently not up to date with any sims news apart from the fact that there was a patch and a new pack ;-;#im sorry!!#still in uni!!#i may have spare time here and there but i just cant prioritize anything sims rn i hope u understand T-T#and im doing ok hehe#chitchat
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spending my whole life trying and trying and trying and trying to be good enough for people who don't give a fuck about me
#im so tired living seems pointless why am i doing this what is the reason#the firm i work at is going thru a merger so it's releasing all the interns except 2#i went into her office and said that id like to stay here bc my dad said so bc i got in cause he was friends with the head#and she said ill think about it based on performance ive not decided yet#and this other guy he went in to tell her that cool he'll leave and she told him that she was hoping that he'd stay#he literally does nothing but play games on his phone he doesn't work at all#i have no idea what he has that i don't#but just. im stuck like this forever right never ever good enough for people i like or care about#not for parents they have a diff fav child not for ex gf not for bestie who has a boyfriend much better at loving her than me#not for that one guy who rejected me in interview bc i don't read the newspaper and didn't know the date of the finance act#im so fucking sick of this i never even wanted to this fuckinh course and obviously even my best isn't enough and ofc im not good enough#for anyone in this field and ill just struggle and struggle and struggle all my life just to earn some fucking money so i can live away#from my sociopathic parents#and the worst part is that i can't stop feeling like maybe it IS me yk maybe i am the problem maybe im not trying hard enough#but how else am i supposed to handle this i prioritize my studies and lose all my friends i prioritise my friends and fail in d#exams#and the trauma keeps on coming every fucking day bc sociopathic parents but i jsut push it down and say not rn i will cry at night anx then#never cry#i wish someone would just tell me that idk you're wrong you're not made for this you really do have some mental illness and you're really#trying your best and do something that's easy and that you love doing#oh god this is now a ventpost#mes
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I understand the instinct to hear news about something happening and go "ok, now how will this impact me", but folks. With the WGA strike. Please don't make it about your favorite show. I'm sorry something that's important to you has been negatively affected! But the wellbeing of writers should absolutely take priority over that. You can be sad about the impact of a strike and still be glad they're fighting for improved conditions.
#wolfy speaks#wga strike#writers guild of america#current events#its just kind of frustrating to go into the wga tag and seeing ppl talk exclusively about their shows being hurt by it#im sorry! i know its sad! but the human writers are more important rn!#that said it is absolutely an instinct to find out how a news thing inpacts you. i do it too. my first question when i learn something is#'how will this affect my day to day life?'#but then i move past that#some of yall are still in the 'prioritizing me' stage and you have to go to 'prioiritizng others' stage#that said if youre a fandom blog and explaining how the strike will likely affect whatever youre talking about you get a bit of leeway#wanting to understand what the impact of the strike will be is not the same as not caring about why theyre striking#sorry i know im rambling in the tags here... i feel like theyre room for nuance here and i dont want to come across otherwise#just. end of story. you should be more concerned with the wellbeing of the writers who are striking#than the wellbeing of your shows#human lives take priority#but you can be concerned for both
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will they free themselves of their father’s cruelty, or will they die without ever knowing love?
#my art#mgs#liquid snake#eli mgsv#tretij rebenok#psycho mantis#liquidmantis#not really but ok whatever#im actually not thinking about them as much as often im more of in a Kaz mood rn#this is a sketch btw i was lining this but didn’t like it so whatever. just put some layer modes on this#haven’t actually drawn digitally in what feels like weeks. been prioritizing traditional for schoolwork#you don’t understand how satisfying it is to actually hear a pencil/pen slide across paper. good lord#also the sound of the Apple Pencil touching the screen is so annoying to me idk#sorry it capitalized idk why#I’ve been trying so long to put a caption to this bc it literally is just 2 people standing so sorry if it sounds kinda cringe and awkward#first October drawing also. i hope i can post more this month. i miss doing that
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They haven't slept properly in a week and someone seems a bit irritated as consequence. Don't mind the murmurs and repetitive sighs, it will soon pass ( if they, of course, get enough sleep tonight ). For now, they can at least lie down and bury their face in Tama's fluffy fur.
#︾╼╼ █ █ ║˚ ▹ DASH FIGHTS.▕🗲#finals started this week babs. i won't be around much - u know the drill#will b very selective with dms rn. but will try to prioritize plotting#i repeat.. . .//TRY// cause it depends if i get time and if my dumb mind doesn't forget im sorry !!#i just want to snore mimir :")) )
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Shoutout to tumblr for crashing every time I started typing up this ask but- Just wanted to hop on the recommendation train and mention Paranormasight! It's a visual novel set in 1980's Japan with lots of murder, mystery, and supernatural elements! Warning that it does have some horror aspects to it as well, so if you get scared easily like I do probably keep that in mind.
its on my list! again just need to finish Umineko before i start any other games to avoid abandoning it so im here for the long haul
heres the list just for other's reference btw this is just the games ive been recommended to play by friends/asks in no particular order
#lizard inbox#recs#this is just more vn/adv/rpg games cuz for others i have to check out the gameplay beforehand#i am going to be prioritizing games more accessible on PC for me rn just cuz i hate emulating ds games on PC#im looking into modding my 3DS to fix that though
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i just. wanna talk to my best friend.
#but she’s been busy with college and diwali parties and friends and we live in diff countries and timezones#and she can’t just drop stuff#so i get it#but im feeling very unfair rn so i want her to unfairly prioritize me lmfao#arshia talks
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i was thinking earlier & something i didn't even realize until it was too late was theres kind of been a death of places to be bad at hobbies. dont get me wrong i think people should do whatever they want & its okay to be bad at it BUT even with that sentiment it's different now. when i was growing up people were trying whatever new thing interested them so there were so many beginner level circles of animation & illustration & writing & music etc that were easy to find & get into and have peers at ur level. but now everything has to be perfect for the algorithms so only the best art ever reaches anyone, illustration animation video editing music writing i mean all art, only certain quality gets pushed to an audience and the rest is just. covered up if not lost to time. its harder to find unless u know exactly what ur looking for so its harder to find community at ur own skill level & then when ur constantly faced with things that are professional quality or at least framed as such its so much easier to think u cant do something & that u'll never reach that stage & it seems like other people can just instantly effortlessly do something. idk theres something sad about it to me
#thinking about all the amateur level flipnotes & how easy it was to join a group of equal level people#& now like. where do u even find something like that. any site that would host that would prioritize higher quality stuff#does this make sesne im so tired rn#the content still exists im aware its just. Different Now
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having this many really good artists follow me is a little concerning. you guys know i'm really annoying in real life right
#red rambles#im pruning my follower list because i hit the limit again. also if i unfollowed you it was not personal and i did not want to. im#prioritizing literally just artists rn
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What would you say your farm goals are rn? And do you still have eventual dog breeding goals?
Rn, getting the downsized herd settled and figuring out splitting the daily workload with my mom and such. We have no breeding plans this season, will probably look into a fainter cross buck next season for hardiness but I doubt I'll keep back many kids. There's a couple we are raising up rn from last season that i might sell to a friend who wants to start her own hobby herd this year.
My long term goals are still hearty and hardy animals who don't need too much medical intervention too often and who can kid easily, have good mothering skills, etc. Next generation I want better parasite resistance. But right now we are just figuring out how daily upkeep husbandry and maintenance is going to work going forward!
For dogs I don't have immediate plans bc all my dogs are spayed. I still co-own Mari, Dandelion, Pixie and Bao, so if any of them are bred I will have some input there. And if Mari is bred I will hopefully be able to spend some time with and help out with puppy raising!!! But, for now, no immediate plans myself :) getting things settled around the house and yard and in my own life/with my health before I think about dipping my toes back into dog breeding as a concept.
I am PROBABLY getting a goldador service prospect next year or the year after, out of a Lab I really like who is a working SD and a sweet golden who his handler thinks is a good match. And if that dog turns out nicely and passes health checks I might breed it. But that's so far in the future it doesn't make sense to make any actual plans around!
#a couple does may kid this winter and we will milk those for sure#i think Poe and Bae may be bred. but Hawthorne and Lovelace are getting a break this season#getting to re-know everyone now that we have less stock and can consolidate them in one big pasture.#a couple sheep are still here because mom essentially wants them as pets#and didnt want them to get sold for meat#so we are also working out a shearing schedule and such but not gojng to breed sheep anymore for now#if i get a better handle on my illness in the years to come i might try again#but rn? cant keep up with husbandry if we have that many. esp with shearing.#its so important to prioritize that imo SO YEAH#also mom and I are thinking about rearranging/overseeding some pastures#anyway!#the lab i want a pup from is Ace who some of you may remember sired the chinook outcross litter#his puppies have all matured really nicely and are similarly bombproof#so im optimistic a pup out of him would have that environmental stability that noodle struggles with :)#pixie is the only dog i co own who is an adult and her testing is almost finished so if she is bred next year Ill let yall know 😊#she just needs eye exam and some -- god what else... shes got basic genetic and hips and elbows done. i think she needs#a couple more collie specific genetic tests for stuff embark doesnt do
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i’m so tired and thought i knew what to do but now i don’t. these past two weeks have just been some of the hardest i’ve ever gone through and there’s no right answer with solving any of this. idk
#i’m being told to prioritize myself on one side and on the other im told i’m being overdramatic and too extreme. i don’t know. i don’t know#i’m just exhausted#had to lug around everything i own rn all day had to do like four separate meetings#i just want this month to be over#i want all of this to be over#mine#personal
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my professors are gonna make me ugly cry
#they all decided to jus give me an incomplete grade instea of dropping me#one of them said he WONT sign my dropping form and i should talk to the other professors#and turns out they didnt wanna sign either and now they decided to give me one year to complete my grade#so that i dont need to repeat their subjects anymore#IM GONNA LEGIT CRY WHY ARE THEY BEING SO NICE????#AND UNDERSTANDING????#THEY BEATED THE MENTAL HEALTH STIGMA JUST LOKE THAT WOW#my taxation prof basically said ‘ SEE i told u the first time i dint wanna sign im okay with an incomplete status’ and to just#message him to know how to complete it in ONE YEAR MAN#FUCK IMMA CRY SO HARD THEY TOLD ME I HAD GOOD PERFORMANCE AND THAT I SHOULD PRIORITIZE REST FOR NOW#CRYING SO HARD MAN SO DAMN HARD KILL ME IM FEELING TOO MANY EMOTIONS RN
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