Inspiration Saturday!!

Tagged by @wikiangela who is writing some adorable bucktommy fluff y'all should show some love!! 💚🩷

The photos we're getting for the next episodes have inspired a new WIP! (And my sister gave me a brilliant whump idea for the story too 😁). It also qualifies for the BTHB prompt: Severed Artery! I have the actual whump written, but I decided to share some of Buck's conversation with Helena, cause I don't know how I feel about the scene yet. Fair warning, Tommy is not portrayed in the very best light, so if you don't want to be tagged for this fic, I understand and I'll alter the taglist if need be 🥰:

“Where is Christopher?” Ramon asks before Helena could speak again. “He's at school,” Buck says. “I was planning on bringing him here as soon as he's out.” “We will get Christopher,” Helena declares. “As soon as we call the school, they'll understand.” “They already know the situation,” he assures her. “I um… called yesterday.” “You?” Helena frowns. Buck hums an affirmative. Trying to keep from falling apart while on the phone to Miss Townshend wasn’t an experience he ever wanted to go through again. “I would’ve thought Pepa would take charge,” Helena says to Ramon. “Evidently, she’s letting Buck lend a hand,” Ramon says. “Uh, actually, Eddie is letting me help,” Buck says, “has been for years.” “First I'm hearing of it,” Helena says with a challenging raise of her eyebrows. Eddie once described his mother like Katherine Hepburn's character in The Philadelphia Story. Cary Grant described her disapproving scowl as “the withering glance of the goddess.” The resemblance was uncanny. “Well, you haven't really been around,” Buck says with a wince, fighting the urge to hunch his shoulders around his ears. Tommy places a reassuring hand on his back, then squeezes the nape of his neck. “How would you know?” Helena asks. “I'm his best friend,” Buck says with a nervous chuckle. “And that gives you the right to take over while my son is incapacitated?” Buck takes a deep breath. “It does, actually.” “I beg your pardon?” She folds her arms, that withering glance never faltering. “It was Eddie's choice,” Buck says. “A few years ago, he chose me to act as Christopher's guardian should something like this happen.” "It doesn't stop us helping out," Helena persists. "I understand that," Buck says. "And I thank you for wanting to, but we have it handled." "Evan, he's their grandkid," Tommy points out.

"And he's my kid," Buck bites back with a disbelieving frown before whirling around to face the Diazes again. "I'm sorry, but Christopher stays with me."

(tags under the cut. As always, please let me know if you want to be added/ removed)

Absolutely no pressure tagging:

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@smallandalmosthonest @thegeekcompanion @emilybahu @lemotmo @awolfnamed-nyx

due to the amount of blogs i follow, the length of time i have had tumblr and the amount of fandoms i have been in, i really see a range of opinions on this over my dash so its time for a poll:

* please be nice to each other in the notes, this poll is purely for my own curiosity because i see such a varied range of opinions of her on this site and not because i want to cause drama!

** im well aware this poll will probably be biased because in my experience, once the swiftie side of tumblr gets a hold of a poll, thats when it gets the most reblogs, so if youre not a swiftie seeing this, please reblog to help get a bigger sample size (thats not to say swifties cant reblog this though, please do!!)

*** i wanted to add more categories cos i get that peoples opinions are more nuanced but im limited by the tumblr poll format lol, so if none of these fit, select the closest option and explain in the tags!

god i’m such a slut for characters who think what they’ve done is unforgivable who are just gobsmacked when they open themselves up to someone who forgives them as easily as breathing

how did Shadow and Omega (mainly Shadow) deal with Rouge's death? Was it Maria Robotnik all over again?

(cw: i talk about grief and death a lot in this one)

nah i don't think it would be like maria, i imagine rouge would be able to live a full life so her death wouldn't be sudden and tragic like maria's. but it would still hurt - personally i think it takes a while for shadow to come to terms with the fact that he's immortal and has to continuously watch the people he cares about die. he doesn't really allow himself much time to process his traumas so once he comes face to face with his lack of mortality it's a sorta "ah. right. everything i care about is temporary. ok cool that fucking sucks i'm gonna go sit in a cave for five years" sorta deal to me. i imagine he would be pretty reclusive after rouge's death, at least long enough for him to come to terms with it. which is probably a very long time

personally i think it would take a while for shadow to choose to live with the memories of an old friend instead of being burdened by them, but omega gets it the moment rouge is gone. omega lives by very clear rules and directives, so he simply chooses to keep living since rouge can't anymore. omega is fueled by spite and anger, but i think he's able to live 200 more years because he has a lot of love in him as well. but he probably mistakes it as rage because homeboy was only programmed with one emotion lol

but yeah i don't think rouge's death would be anything like maria's, mostly because i don't think rouge would want to leave shadow and omega with some sort of burden. i don't think she would ask them to carry on a legacy or make one final promise to her, she just wants them to continue living their lives however they want. and so when shadow and omega continue to carry her old trinkets and their memories of her, it's not because she asked them to do that - it's their own decision, simply because they love her and choose to remember. man i love team dark what the fuck

halOPE

i love my small and ever-growing collection of Star Trek memorabilia! in no particular order we have:

A t-shirt with McCoy's face on it and the text 'Are You Out of Your Vulcan Mind?!' written underneath it. a favourite of mine, i wear it way too often

My Star Trek mug with Spock and Kirk on it that has the quote of 'It's life, but not as we know it' written below them. thank god they got the proper quote (idk if i wrote the proper quote but its on there!)

a Voyager VHS tape that was upcycled into a light. legit the coolest thing i have ever owned and well worth the 8 quid i spent on it

a limited edition Deep Space 9 VHS tape which has Emissary and a behind the scenes hosted by Terry Farrell on it. has a cool little booklet inside of it with Sisko's face on it that has some funky information on the show and the characters/actors. very neat, and it only cost me like 3 quid

my 3 Star Trek books (i currently own Grounded, Dreams of the Raven and The Price of the Phoenix). only read DotR so far but can't wait to read the other two when i get the time

poll for my dimension 20 fans okay. obviously i cant include every season as an option so pls use tags for other answers and details BUT....

Hi! Long time no yap but I've been really bothered by this thing and I know you're just the person I can go to with this (even if we don't always end up agreeing at times).

I got into a tiff with someone in a comments section of a post that was about Amy (Which character do you think deserved to become a villain? or something similar). They brought up Amy's abuse of her boyfriend. I may have tried to defend Amy (key word is tried. I am officially rubbish at debating) but then I may have said something? Because they said that I (and apparently a lot of other fans) was excusing Amy's abuse because of her trauma. It got me stumped because isn't young Amy's treatment of Rory rooted in her trauma? Did I miss the memo where we separate trauma and abuse? Am I missing something?

That statement bothered me a lot because if there's one thing I never want to do it's defend an abuser. So here I am, humbly asking and hoping to clear the muddy waters.

Your really confused and disturbed moot, Tia 💌

TIA!!!!! Thanks for the ask 💌 , and I send you all the hugs.

Discussion of abuse, trauma, ableism, infidelity, and unhealthy relationship dynamics beneath the cut.

(First off… while I really appreciate your faith in my explaining skills <3 <3 <3 my passion for traumatized characters and mentally ill+neurodivergent rights doesn't make me especially qualified to fully clear muddy waters especially not knowing the full context, but I feel you, and what follows is my informed perspective!)

Speaking generally first, harm done in media is best examined by the impact on the audience, with a different lens than harm done to real people. While relatable experiences in media can be useful and validating and incredibly important, you can’t be “defending an abuser” when the abuse is fictional. It's actually normal for traumatized/ND/mentally ill people to project onto mentally ill villains, when villains are the only significant representation for those stigmatized symptoms in a media landscape that excludes and demonizes us simply for existing. RTD can't stop people who hallucinate from reclaiming the Master's Drums and projecting onto the Master, for example — 90% of the best Doctor Who psychosis fic by psychotic authors is about the Master, whether RTD likes it or not. It's not true crime.

(This is speaking generally. Amy Pond is very much not the Master.)

Abuse is a behavior, and there can be many reasons for it, but reasons based in trauma don’t make it not abuse (some forms of generational trauma can propagate abusive parenting styles, when the parent thinks abusive parenting is normal, or lives entirely vicariously through their child). This absolutely should not be taken to mean trauma correlates with abusive behavior; rather that abusive behaviors from traumatized people are more likely to present in specific ways.

Abuse is also a targeted behavior, based in control — not consistently displayed C-PTSD symptoms as seen in Season 5 Amy Pond through many aspects of her life. Mental health symptoms don't become abuse just because they hinder one partner from meeting the other partner's needs. Any life event can do that.

Without knowing the context of the arguments, this is the aspect of their relationship I've seen you talk about before (which I also feel strongly about), and what I assume is what you were debating? So, here I will talk specifically in regard to Season 5.

We all know Amy — she's never attached to Leadworth because she never wanted to leave Scotland, no steady therapist because none of them stick up for her, can't stick with one job yet her first choice is a job that simulates intimacy because her avoidant behavior (a known trauma response) isn't sustainable to her wellbeing. Rory knows her fears of commitment stem from her repeated abandonments, it’s why he’ll always wait for her, and it's why he blames the Doctor “You make it so they don't want to let you down.”, who apart from having caused a lot of her trauma, has actively taken advantage of her being the “Scottish girl in the English village” who's “still got that accent,” because he wants to feel important, so yeah, I think interpreting Amy's issues (and how Amy and Rory transverse them) as Amy abusing Rory indicates a fundamental misunderstanding of their relationship, as well as a misunderstanding of the (raggedy) Doctor’s role in Amy’s formative self-image (which of course she works through in Season 6, but I am sticking to Season 5).

Abuse is always based in control. That just doesn’t fit here. While Amy's detachment from her real life includes things like calling Rory her “kind of boyfriend” (which she is upfront about to his face; differing commitment levels isn't abuse, though it can be a relationship red flag for both parties IRL) — her Season 5 disregard of Rory’s feelings occurs only in response to the fairytale embodiment of her trauma. It's never a response to Rory; it's a response to the Doctor, who stole her childhood and led her by the hand to her death. She cheats on Rory with the Doctor in her bedroom full of Doctor toys, drawings, models, she made from childhood to early adulthood.

(And yes, like many repeatedly-traumatized people, Amy is prone to being sensitive and reactive. Take her “Well, shut up then!” line in The Big Bang; but given Rory responds to this by hugging her, clearly he doesn’t take it as her actually dismissing him. He knows her better than that.)

And by no means do I meant to imply this is fair to young Rory, poor Rory, who's left struggling with the feeling that his role in her life is in competition with the role of her trauma (aka the Doctor). But not every unhealthy relationship dynamic is unhealthy because of abuse. Labelling Amy's treatment of Rory in Season 5 more accurately isn't the same as excusing her harmful choices — but making mistakes is part of being human, Amy's mistakes are certainly understandable, and she works through them out of love for Rory.

If there's one thing to say about Moffat women, it's that Moffat allows his female characters the same grace that the male characters *coughTENcough* have always had, to hurt and struggle and make realistic mistakes and overcome those mistakes and to heal without being demonized.

Amy isn't perfect, but she is a fully realized character, and her story gives us a resonant depiction of childhood trauma.

so this is happening......

navigating lesbian spaces as a lesbian man on testosterone is NOT fun lmaooo help… ‘men dni, only lesbians interact 🥰’ girl i got bad news for you. some of us are both. did you forget about nonbinary people orrrrr are we just too complicated for y’all to cope with lmao. ‘i love weird queer freaks 🥰’ no u don’t y’all can’t even handle nonbinary people with sexualities that don’t fit into your normative tiny little boxes. go away with your performative nonsense.

i made a frev picrew after three sleepless nights!! i hope yall like it :) and if theres anything you want me to add or if something's happening that shouldn't be happening please please please let me know :D

and here's me in all my unyassified glory :')

feel free to add yours below!!

okay so the post got enough attention im comfy posting this!!!

Send me your Animal Jam avatar for free art!!!

THIS IS CLOSED, PLEASE DO NOT SEND YOUR AVATARS, IM SO FUCKING TIRED

A few caveats, though!

They will be drawn as a human, if you don't want this, don't send

If you send an avatar give me at minimum a race and general aesthetic vibe so I can extrapolate a human outfit (or add an image of one!)

No headdresses/head fathers, this actually extends to any of the clothing items that are... Questionable at best but there's a lot more than I think any of us are comfortable with and those are the two big ones

It'll be a normal PNG (or if you want it, PSD) not an AJ Masterpiece, and it'll be in my usual, silly, kinda lazy style. If you get a bust/half body/full body is literally just dependent on what I'm feeling like doing

Wanna see my art before you dive in? Check under the cut!

so glad i got my 300 hours worth of autism out of my system when bg3 first released so that i dont have to witness the travesty of them slowly but surely butchering their characters for weird fanservice ao3 content. im never playing that game again LMAO

i just made this blog to post these and reblog source ok byeeeee

got visually spoiled on the literally last thing i was still actively missing and working towards in totk but i dont think im gonna like it anyway ...

if it is what i think it is, and what it looks like to be, its just yet another nail in the coffin (or however you say that) as to why the lore sucks in this game even tho it had such good setup and so much potential

*nodding sagely* mhm. Yeah. I need to be put down right now.