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cassiefromhell · 7 months

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Stars

JJK man of choice x Curse!Reader

Choices that won't work for this piece: any non-human character (maybe choso?) and assholes (toji. just toji)

wc: 700

warnings: kinda sad ngl. but none other than that

a/n: i had an idea. and then i didnt know which character to write it for. so you pick. (kinda nanami/geto/other chill character coded im ngl) this is all over the place but i needed it out of my system. anyways have fun

The stars have fascinated you for as long as you can remember.

You find yourself staring at them tonight, sitting on the roof of the building you’ve lived in for the past three years. Your knees are tucked to your chest, shingles digging into the soles of your bare feet.

But you just can’t help it. You wanted to watch the stars. So you are.

Your thumbs rub over your knees, feeling the velvet skin underneath. It doesn’t matter how long you’ve been in this body, or that you can’t even recall what it was like when you were a mindless curse, your skin never feels like your own. You’re not human — you couldn’t even pretend that, given that most people can’t even see you. But you look like one, to those that can see you. Sometimes you feel like one.

So this body is yours, in the end.

Why, then, does it often feel so strange?

“You nearly gave me a heart attack.”

You wouldn’t have even been able to sense his presence if it hadn’t been for the cursed energy radiating off of him. It’s rare to see him like this, out of his normal gear.

“Sorry,” you say, not sounding very apologetic. “Needed air.”

“You’re a curse. You don’t need oxygen.”

“I feel like I do.”

He sighs, and sits next to you, leaning back on his hands. “Why are you up?”

You shrug, gesturing up towards the sky. “The sky is pretty. It’d be a waste to not look at it.”

He’s silent. Like he knows you’re lying.

“Have you ever had a fascination with the sky?”

“No.”

You open and close your mouth once, then twice— and then frown. “Maybe that’s not a human thing. You have such trivial fascinations, sometimes.”

“Like what?”

“Money. Fame. Being better than everyone else.”

“And the sky isn’t trivial?”

“The sky stays,” you stand up, starting to walk up and down the center of the roof. “It remains above you, always.”

There’s a long pause. It’s not exactly uncomfortable. You’ve lived with this man long enough, had him close enough to understand his silence at times.

“Is it alright if I ask you something?” he inquires, tilting his head forward. A piece of hair falls over his forehead.

“Fire away.”

“Do you ever wonder what it would be like to be human?”

Your breath catches in your throat, and you cough a little. “Sometimes.”

“Go on.”

You sigh, sinking back down into your position next to him, laying back on the roof and staring up at the stars once more. “December 7th, 1989, I open my eyes for the very first time in this body. I would later discover that I was something else before then, some sort of a mindless curse, made out of the broken hearts of humans,” your eyelids flutter shut. “But at that moment, I knew that I was… other. I understood what a human was, but had no understanding of what they think or why they do what they do. I’ve come to learn that humans have a much broader sense of life than I do. And I wish I had that. That thrill of a first love, the heart-pounding nervousness of a virgin about to have sex with the one they believe is their future, the satisfying smile a couple gives each other on their deathbeds knowing that they have done everything together, lived their lives through and through. All I know is the fear of love. The cry your heart gives when you hold out your hand and they step away, the shattering of hope when they reject you, when they die and leave you behind. It’s built into me. And I wish I could see the other side.”

His hand reaches out, his finger brushing your cheek. “You’re closer to humans than any other curse. Hell, that’s why you’re here. I was assigned to take you under my wing, make sure you weren’t a psychopath like most conscious curses. But you aren’t. I once watched you sit outside and watch a bee for twenty minutes. And I think that’s the most human thing — you admire the beauty of life, of humanity.”

And for the very first time, a tear slips down your cheek. He wipes it away.

“See?” he holds up his damp thumb. “Human.”

“…Human,” you nod, chewing your lip.

His hand slips around to cradle the side of your face, tilting your head up to meet his, noses brushing. An unfamiliar heat creeps up your spine as you admire those perfect eyes of his.

“Let me show you the other side.”

And you let him.

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ardeidae-e · 4 months

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me gustas tú

"i like the sea, i like you"

anyways lyrics are from "Me Gustas Tu" by Manu Chao

#i cringed while doing this #it's so cheesy #jesus christ help #anyways it's out of the brain now #i can rest #istg if i have another song revelation drawing because of skk #im gonna lose it #bsd #bungou stray dogs #bungo stray dogs #bsd dazai #bsd chuuya #chuuya nakahara #dazai osamu #soukoku #skk #my art

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hashbrowniss · 2 years

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I've come back from the dead

Uh yeah the other animatronic is my DA oc (tiff) if anyones confused lol

These are a bunch of costume suggestions i got from instagram and were really fun to draw

Happy halloween :]

#sundrop #moondrop #fnaf daycare attendant #fnaf security breach #my art #security breach fanart #fnaf oc #moon fnaf #sun fnaf #fnaf sb #istg if tumblr doesnt post this again because of my bad internet im gonna lose it

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cynicallyneutral · 2 years

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kokomi, watching me pull on her banner the 77th time, with 0 intention of coming home

#genshin impact #genshin fanart #kokomi #sangonomiya kokomi #i swear shes doing it on purpose #I HAVE TWO OF HER FUCKIN DONUTS MAN #LIKE WTF DO I DO W THEM??#i dont even like barbara #should i force heizou to be a healer lmao #this is so annoying #my art #istg if fucking keqing comes home #ill be so mad bc like???? why fucking wait till hard pity #if im gonna lose holy shit the audacity #if its qiqi ill be less mad but still frustrated #how u gonna make me lose at hard pity wtf

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strickpage · 8 months

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"Kenny Omega and Kota Ibushi are closer than brothers"

The "brothers" in question:

CALL THEM WHAT THEY ARE. LOVERS. IT'S NOT THAT HARD.

#kenny omega #kota ibushi #golden lovers #istg if i hear this type of bs again im gonna lose it #like why do one day we get the “living breathing heart of kenny omega” and then the next “oh they're just really close friends” STOP IT 😭

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lunarbroadcast · 3 months

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hhhhhhhhhhhhh- insert static like hissing here(im going insane)

yan vox save me yandere vox save me

save me yandere vox

yandere vox please

I NEED MORE YANDERE VOX FANART THAT DOESNT HAVE ALASTOR OR ANY R-DIOSTATIC CONTENT IN ITTTT

I NEED ME A FUCKED UP VOX STALKING PEOPLE THROUGH TECH EUUUUUUUUU

THIS MAN FITS THE YANDERE CATEGORY SO WELL BUT NOTHINGGG

NADA

NADA DAMN THING-

i swear im gonna teach myself how to draw just to have my hands on something like that eiufdfjkslfo-

#💠|| Lyra rambles #📺|| lunarbroadcast #istg once i get my own money im gonna commision so much yan!vox art yall have no idea #I JUST NEEEED BLOODIED UP VOX BEING FUCKED UP LIKE ALWAYSSSS SOUUEYSGHBF-#my fucking mind cant take it im going to implode im going to lose it #proship please interact #yandere f/o #proship selfship #selfship proship #self ship #selfproship #antis dni #proship #self shipper #vox hazbin hotel

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nosleep83 · 8 months

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I’m not ok actually

#JUST #JUST LOOK AT THEIR EXPRESSIONS #MY BABIES ARE ABT TO CRY/CRYING IM GONNA SOB #RAPH AND MIKEY’S EXPRESSIONS ARE WHAT GET ME THE MOST #THEYRE JUST SO FUCKING SAD AND WIEHSISIWISISKS #THIS MOVIE ANIMATES CRYING SO WELL IM ACTUALLY LOSING MY MIND #ABT TO ANALYZE EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEIR EXPRESSIONS/BODY LANGUAGE HERE ISTG #tmnt #mutant mayhem

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xttxxvxxqxfz · 2 months

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Dzień 32🖤

idzie mi coraz gorzej kurwa...

zjedzone: ?

#diet coke #chce byc idealna #chce schudnac #i wanna looks tasty #i wanna lose weight #istg im gonna cry #smooke #i wanna be tiny #reduction #i wanna be perfect

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becauseplot · 8 months

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Oh my fucking christ the drop in my stomach when Cellbit said, "I am so sorry... but you were found." Oh shit. Ohhh shitttt.

#opq #istg if either lucie or emi dies im gonna lose it sobs #opqliveblogging

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helloimamistake · 25 days

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Honestly i will never understand the hate for GojoHime.. Like i don't really ship but them but i still don't understand the hate for them to be honest

#jjk #jujutsu kaisen #jujutsu kaisen gojo #jujutsu kaisen utahime #jjk gojohime #gojohime #jjk gojo #jjk utahime #like i get it people ship satosugu but no need to spread hate to gojohime it's not like it's EXTREMELY toxic or anything #istg if i see people say that utahime gets it in the way of satosugu im gonna lose my mind #their both ok ships in my opinion tbh #probably gonna flop but idrc

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eidolons-stuff · 1 year

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Tiktok: "enid did the eye triangle thing"

Me: "no no no. I will NOT be given this hope. Don't do this to me. Not now. UNSOLICITED HOPE"

#how could you do this to me #dont give me hope #i dont want it #dont make me happy #this is too much #i cant #wenclair #wenclair cult #wednesday #wednesday addams #enid #enid sinclair #istg if these two dont get together #im gonna lose my shit

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bloogers-boogers · 10 months

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what are ur thoughts on cartmark :D? (sincerely, rarepair girlie who fell in love with them after reading 2 of the 9 fics about them)

I had wrote the whole thing and it fucking erased I never felt this upset 😭😭😭

Okay im gonna try writing the whole thing again my god ! 💔 I was already in my feels with what I had written and poof gone to the gutter 💀

Cartmark is great! They we’re a rare pair of mine too alongside gary x cartman (i’m still trying to figure out why I shipped those two)

*I can’t believe it I’m literally crying rn wtf pls feel my pain rn fuck fuck fuckity fuck fuck fuck😭*

I can see the ship with the mixture of Kyman in it (just cause im a hoe for the ship and somehow have to get those two involved in some way jsjsjs).

I see those two pairing up against/ destroying a relationship; that relationship being Kyle’s and Rebecca.

Cartman wanted to get Kyle to break up with Rebecca while Mark joined in cause he didn’t see Kyle as the man he wanted his sister to be with.

So they plotted together, and as such they got closer. Cartman was feeling all these new things about Mark as time went on; he began wondering why his heart pounded rapidly when they began to share things unrelated to whatever they we’re plotting, every time he leaned next to him Cartman could smell the laundry detergent he’d use for his clothes.

And with Mark, I always seen him as the type of guy who’d think he’s straight as a ruler and before he knows it he’s there noticing the most smallest changes Cartman did to his appearance.

“… You cut your hair slightly from the side huh?”

And Cartman yelps in surprise, “Huh?” Cause he would never imagine someone could be capable of noticing something so small.

After more time they’ve realized they haven’t done much when if came to breaking up the pair, just having gotten to know each other better joking around, sharing certain hobbies, qualities and stuff like that. So they laugh it off awkwardly once they pointed it out.

Now actually making a plan and having it done, following it was the next step. However Rebecca barged in Mark’s room crying madly saying how Kyle had broken up with her and began cursing him out like a bitter ex already while Cartman was still in the room listening.

You’d think he’d be happy as he had got what he wanted without doing absolutely anything. However, he felt the opposite; upset cause that meant there was no reason to hang out with Mark anymore.

They both went silent, knowing this was finally the “end” as they walked outside because it was getting late and Cartman needed to get back home.

Mark stopped him grabbing his hand gently, Cartman flinched in surprised by the gesture, stunned by Mark’s brown big beautiful eyes aswell. His cheeks bloom a tint of red and that’s where Mark realized how stunning Eric looked under the dark starry sky. He was left in almost in awe before snapping back to reality.

He straightened his posture and cleared his throat, “this was quite a splendid machination we got done.”

Eric smiled somewhat relieved and cocky, shaking his head in disbelief, “stop your blabbing smart guy.” He let go, and Mark was already missing the warmth of Eric’s hand.

This is were things began turning interesting!

After a long night, Cartman did his usual and went to the bus stop the next morning and waited for the rest of his friends to arrive.

Surprisingly he had got there first, and 35 minutes in he was starting to wonder why any of his friends hadn’t arrived yet that’s when he heard a familiar voice behind him.

“There’s no school today, fatass, I’m surprised to see you here.”

Cartman turned around and looked at Kyle, breathing heavily as he was taken by surprise, not that he was scared of course!

“Though I’m not surprised either,” Kyle crossed his arms looking at him with boredom.

Cartman arched a brow confused, gripping on to his backpack, “what’s that supposed to mean?”

Kyle shrugged before letting his shoulders loose, and his arms to the side, “I don’t know, you been spending a lot of time with Cotswolds lately you probably missed our message saying there was no school today.”

Cartman stared at Kyle silently, “is that’s why you’re here..?”

Kyle frowned before kicking some snow, “no, I’m just here cause I was passing by, im gonna go see Ike in like two hours he has a baseball game today so- I figured I’ll just get something from the store and… shit-” he grunted by the nonsense he was spitting, rubbing his face with frustration, “that’s none of your business fatass!”

Cartman frowned, “I didn’t tell you to blabber all your life to me, jew!” Then his eyes widen when he realized what Kyle said, “wait… how did you know I was hanging out with Mark?”

Kyle cheeks reddened, he scoffed, “it’s not like you we’re being secretive about it.”

Cartman’s cheeks redden with embarrassment as if was exposed and caught in some naughty act. Cartman immediately changed the subject and pinned the attention on Kyle, “heard you broke up with Rebecca.”

Kyle was about to speak, Cartman notice he was, but Kyle close his mouth tightly shut before storming off.

Cartman was left a little confused but headed home.

Mark on the other sides was gutted, he laid in his room floor thinking endlessly of Eric and the new found feelings he was experiencing. And somehow grief knowing it was all onesided as he knew Eric was in love with the ginger boy across his street.

He cursed internally cause he now found another reason to dislike that boy, but couldn’t even pin entirely the blame either.

He sighed wanting desperately to be open about his feelings but he couldn’t even do that cause his father would never approve of it.

So in school he conformed himself with watching Eric from the sidelines oblivious to Cartman’s side glances.

Cartman was feeling sick to his stomach every time he felt Mark’s gaze on him, the boy thought he was being slick with it but Eric notice right away when he first started staring at him, and even that was cute and dorky.

And in a blink of an eye he was found kissing Kyle in the janitor’s closet however the burning feelings he had for him weren’t as passionate as they we’re before and he didn’t know why it felt different. It wasn’t as he imagined it being, he thought he’d be the most happiest boy alive having his long time crush making out with, initiating it too! He should be rabid of excitement!

But he’s not… and his mind wondered to Mark, and the time they spent together doing absolutely nothing but fooling around and sharing shit they thought funny.

He sighed pushing Kyle away slightly, the redhead stared at him; his eyes saddened in realization, “you like him don’t you..”

:33333 and that’s all I got for now bby🫵

#crying vomiting shaking i still can’t believe i had to rewrite this by memory 😭💔#asks♡#guys if ur gonna look something in google makes sure to save it in draft fist istg 😭😤💀#*first #I’m laughing like a maniac losing the last sense of my sanity #im being so dramtic about oml #actually this is good cause i have another ask that I’m gonna answer were i can pore all my insanity out jsjsjs #cause it’s related to- 🫢#honestly I’m happy how it turned out <3

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andiebeary · 8 months

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