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#ill shut up now ive said my piece
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I wish the Merlin 6: kingdom come people would be more upfront about their script being fanfic and not official because I am sick and tired of seeing people bitch about the bbc "scrapping" the supposed sixth season. There was no sixth season. Merlin did not get cancelled, it just ended. Afaik the kingdom come peeps have no affiliation whatsoever with the original merlin team, other than their contacting some of them to be like "hey would you want to make our script?" and the representative being like "appreciate the offer but no thanks". The script is no more canon than any fanfic you or I might write, it just so happens that they did it in script form which seems to have confused a lot of people, and no-one seems to have corrected the massive misunderstanding for some reason
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cimicherrychanga · 7 months
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btw u guys have to promise to not be mad at me for becoming ur turtle mutual. please
#shut up dave#IM LIKE. NOT NORMAL ABOUT THEM. AND THIS MEANS A LOT TO ME#i nEED a special interest to consume my every waking thought in order to thrive#and after i grew out of homestuck its like i lost my spark its EXCRUCIATING.#what do you MEAN i cant draw 3 comics and 2 full piecesn write 50 page essay in one day every day if im not insane abt some piece of fictio#outrageous!!!!!#and as much as i wish i could. i cant Choose or induce this thats not how it weorks we all know this#i TRIED to make miraculous my next big thing after hs it did not work!!! im still insane abt it! but its the#watching trrailers frame by frame making longass analyses and tracking down the exact car in one scene type of insane.#sure ive made art n comics its still one of the things i was and am more invested in than about 60-something of my other media interests#but GOD then rottmnt hit me full speed. i am FEELING this one. i made art AND the characters i was scared would be impossible to draw#turned out to be. so easy? like i did a great splinter first try and thats HUGE for me usually my first attempts suck#until i develop a personal touch for their design#the style of the show is just sososo good for me. theyre my best friends now. and i INTEND to make that clear to EVERYONE#bc im still feelin lonely!!! despite everything!! and i dont want to!!!!!!!!! and im making it everyone elses problem!!!!#anyways like as i said. ur not allowed to be mad at me. please please. ive always been annoying this is just a new arc#and u have to put up wirh it. or ill cry. thanks.
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the-record · 3 months
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☀️ i see the light ☀️
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summary: ellie is just trying to hide from the guards when she stumbles apon a tower and a girl with really long hair.
pairing: flynn ryder!ellie williams x rapunzel!reader
warnings: non me things
a/n: i want to thank the oh so lovely @meowmeowtimw for sending me their gorgeous art, and also everyone who anticipated this fic. thank you so much for the love. also, first time doing a taglist, but let me know if you’d like to be added!
this is going to be done in parts bc my tumblr glitches and i dont want to lose any writing and delay this anymore! i have changed it up a bit from the movie to attempt to fit ellie as a character and not feel like im writing out the script but all the iconic moments will be included
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you’re not quite sure how she ended up here. knocked out and stuffed in your wardrobe.
earlier, it had just been you and pascal. your mother out fetching ingredients for dinner, your birthday dinner.
she’d shut down your hopes and dreams of seeing the lights you saw every year for your birthday. she called them stars, made you feel fragile and weak. left with a half hearted goodbye.
thats when the girl showed up.
short auburn hair, climbing the tower with arrows. before you knew it, she was passed out on the floor, a frying pan in your hands.
in her bag though, that was the interesting piece. something gold and shiny, crystals decorating the circle. too big to be a bracelet, too beautiful to be a magnifying glass.
you and pascal jumped as your mother called up the tower, a surprise apparently. when you tried bringing up the lights once more, she’d simply laughed, brushing it off. you tried again, but gave up when she yelled, asking for paints.
she left, leaving you alone again. until you weren’t.
a girl, in your window.
now in your chair, tied up with pascal on her shoulder. he licked her ear, once, twice, three times before she jolted awake with a yell.
“what the hell?”
you took a deep breath, still hiding in a shadow.
“struggling… struggling is pointless.”
she looked around, taking in what was holding her down. was it, hair?
“i know why you’re here, and im not afraid of you.” slowly, you stepped into her view. “who are you, and how did you find me?”
“am i wrapped in hair?” the girl gawked at you, struggling under the wraps. “who am i? who are you? this is insane. this is kidnapping, just so you know.”
your face dropped. “you broke in first.”
“and you knocked me out and tied me up! with hair! who even has this much hair?” she groaned as she struggled.
“so you dont know who i am?” you whispered as you stepped closer.
she looked at you incredulously, “are you joking? of course not. can you let me out now?” you nodded as you stopped in front of her.
only now did you really notice her. short auburn hair, tied up at the back. green eyes that matched yours. freckles lining her nose and cheeks. lips slightly cracked and parted.
“ill let you out, if you promise me one thing.” she rolled her eyes but nodded. “every year, on my birthday, there are these lights. my mother told me they were stars, but ive tracked the stars for years.” you turned away and pulled back the curtain to your most recent painting. “they’re floating lights, and you are going to take me to them.” she hesitated but you quickly jumped in. “and if you don’t, say goodbye to your satchel.”
she sighed and relaxed into the chair. “alright, fine.” she smiled as your eyes lit up and you ran to her. “ill take you. but, we’re going my way.” you nodded excitedly as you untangled her from your hair. “and, im ellie by the way.”
“rapunzel.”
she shook out her limbs before standing. “rapunzel? pretty.”
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“so you’ve really never been outside the tower before?”
ellie walked slightly ahead with her hands in her pockets, a small smile on her face. she said she knew a place to stop on your way to the kingdom.
you nodded as you took in everything. “she said it was too dangerous for me out here. that id get eaten alive.”
ellie frowned a bit as you spoke. you were definitely a bit ditzy, but smart. you weren’t naive but you noticed the good in everything you’d seen.
“so,” you pulled up beside ellie, nearly bumping her. “how did you find me?”
“i didn’t actually intend to.” she said, looking at you. “i was running, from… some very bad people, and i stumbled apon a pass in the woods. totally by accident. and when i went through it, there it was. the tower.” she watched as you nodded. “i figured id just, go up. i wasnt really thinking someone might be there.”
“obviously.” you teased.
she rolled her eyes, “alright whatever. i just needed somewhere to wait everyone out. and then you came out of nowhere and tried to maim me.”
you gasped, hitting her arm as she laughed. “i thought you were gonna hurt me! what was i supposed to do?”
“okay, fair enough.” you walked in silence for awhile, side by side, hands grazing.
ellie couldn’t help but feel a pull to you. you were kind, and funny. she hadn’t known you very long, but she knew she wanted to know more. and she couldn’t deny your beauty.
she was knocked out of her thoughts as you pointed to a sign in the distance.
snuggly duckling.
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taglist: @urcherrr @onlinelesbo @diddiqueen @pedropascalsbbg @dinaismyfavmilf @madislayyy @ellieswilliamsgf @williamellieslilho @iove-bbb @swxxtbnny
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natsmagi · 1 month
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tbh you should just sexualize your fem Tsumugi more. I'm talking full on fetish hentai style. Put her in the open boob sweater. Have her accidentally flash while leaning fowards. Have her slip and show pantsu. Full kink with no breaks. Please shut these anons up. People trying to police your creativity like it has some sort of reflection on your morals or beliefs. I also wish you would stop answering them? or at least tagging it as anon hate because it's so sad to keep seeing people be so mean to you over and over when most of us just want to enjoy your big brain takes and drawings. Maybe I'm getting parasocial bc I get so sad seeing people hate on your Tsumugi I love her she's just like me fr!!! All that matters is that you enjoy how you draw her and I hope you don't feel pressured to change your headcanons.
HWEISUHRUHKDHG I SHOULDDDDDDDDD I SHOULD UR RIGHT ive been too prudish as of late. need to be insane again. Tbh ive made some art that was made purely bc i am a freak and insane but i feel like its never the art people would expect it to be. And thats really funny to me. like my more explicit stuff is just drawn for fun But if uve ever looked at a drawing of mine and gone "this seems kind of freakish conceptually even though the execution isnt super weird" Well thats probably bc it actually is freakish. sorry. My suggestive art is usually just for the vibes tho i DID also like. yesterday?? discover a twt acc that will sometimes post various lingerie fits SO!! MAYBE ILL DRAW SOME SOON 💪💪
AND AUGHHH I KNOWWWW in the beginning i thought itd be worth replying to people bc i was like "well this is all kind of niche. im sure they have good intentions so we might aswell talk it out" But as things progress its been made clear thats doing me or anyone else no favors. i love having discussions, so i reply to most of my asks! but i do hope that ive made myself clear enough and that we can all just continue doing our own things im sorry to hear its made you sad though!!!!! rest assured its not something that demotivates me, nor is it something that makes me feel i need to change how i draw. i do what i do because i enjoy it! and i know others enjoy it too! i will never be able to appeal to everyone, and that has never been my goal. i like having fun with others though, which is why i enjoy hearing why others might think differently than me!
but yes! i already feel ive said my piece on the whole discourse thing by now and i hate walking in circles, so even if i get negative asks about it i likely wont answer unless i feel its warranted. but! if that does happen, ill be sure to tag it! you can mute "#discourse tag" ahead of time incase i ever end up using it
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quodekash · 9 months
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guys jokezo just made out and now they have to share a bed together. just chew on that for a bit.
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NO, DON'T GIVE ME THEM SITTING ON A BUS
GIVE ME WHAT HAPPENED WHEN THEY HAD TO SLEEP IN THE SAME FREAKING BED IMMEDIATELY AFTER THEY MADE OUT
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👀
(they made out last night btw)
(just in case anyone forgot)
(and then they had to share a bed)
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ass x7
also zo is fully just not doing anything lmao
everyone's pushing with all their might and zo is just 🧍‍♂️
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FUIWEBSDGIOUVEWJBOGD
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oh the desperate thigh grab
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yeah, im with him on this, they need to talk about it. especially about how they had to slEEP IN THE SAME FREAKING BED AFTER THAT
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welp. I guess joke's day was just ruined in a slap to the face disguised as a few words
AND THE WAY HE TAKES HIS HAND OFF ZO'S THIGH AFTER THAT????? OUCHHHH
I must say tho, this is really giving episode-6-of-bad-buddy
its very patpran-post-rooftop-kiss-core
the vibes be gay and yearning and very very sad
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OKAY, THE MOTHER, FINALLY
a few things to say about her
1. she's gorgeous
2. DAMN she is SHORT
3. I was rewatching the first four episodes yesterday and today because I could, and I noticed in the first episode, zo asked his friends to not tag him in photos they took at the bar, because "I don't want my mum to see"
but my question is... why? he's just out drinking with friends, he's an adult, he's not being irresponsible or anything, so why doesn't he want her to see the photos?
is it something to do with what his mum thinks of him? is she overbearing? does she have high expectations of him? does she kinda suck?
she's probably lovely though, and ill end up adding her to my list-of-fictional-parents-to-get-adopted-by (it's a very long list)
I guess we shall find out today as the episode progresses
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oh, honey, you're so queer
the amount of times ive done exactly this
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she's so short its hilarious omg
also: ive decided I love his mum
she's so sweet
and neither of them know how to use a stove and I think that's so hilarious and endearing
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HSDHSHFSHDHHS
(also: this scene is making me think of akkayan at aye's house having a meal with his mum and rhbgdhjgb)
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he's putting two and two together
the few braincells he has that aren't dedicated to debating are whirring in his mind
I can practically hear his thoughts
"he kissed me back... he wants to talk about the kiss... we went on two dates together at his suggestion... he showed up at my house and charmed my mother... he says I have secret admirers..." cmon sweetie youre so close
"WAIT, DOES HE LIKE ME?" omg honeybun you did it!
or maybe he didn't do it
maybe he was still shuffling the pieces in his brain but hadn't put them together and then his mum said something and distracted him
either way: that was hilarious and I want to high five dunk for his acting there
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HIGH EXPECTATIONS, I KNEW IT
still love her tho
high expectations suck but she seems wonderful so far (obviously my opinion will change if the circumstances do (like if it turns out she completely sucks) but for now she's made it to the adoption list)
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brb, gonna go cry real quick
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well now their thumbs are making out
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you see, I understand the things he's saying. and I honestly agree with him. if I were ever somehow put in his position, id probably say the same things.
HOWEVER, I just want my bl boys to kiss again and be happy and together and I appreciate the realism over the usual fantasy kinda situation we go for in bls, but I just want them to kissssss
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this is very good advice
I hope that jokezo kiss again this episode
also AAAGBRDHFKBG JENGPOK CRUMBS
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YOU'LL NEVER GUESS WHO'S LOSING THEIR MIND OVER JENGPOK AGAIN
BERIUFDJKGBEORPVFD
I LOVE THEM SO MUCH
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SHUT UP
SHUT UP SHUT UP
IM NOT CRYING YOU'RE CRYING
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FHEWSDGFVESDV
THIS IS TOO FUNNY
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im gonna start crying soon
its so funny
help me
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girl is worried
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I know this is what jeng told you to do but is during debate club really the right moment
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im so certain that she ships it
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awwhhhhh
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HE SAID IT
HE SAID THE THING
AAAAAAAAA
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hell yeah
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GOUERJLHDGOBIERVLDNF
AAAAAAAAAAA
IM SCREAMING
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THATS IT??
THAT'S THE END OF THE EPISODE??
THEY DIDNT EVEN KISS
OR ADDRESS THE FACT THAT - and I can't stress this enough - THEY SLEPT IN THE SAME FREAKING BED AFTER FULL-ASS MAKING OUT
omg next episode is gonna be amazing
I can't wait
gekjrdsbfd I love them so much
im like 70% certain they're gonna kiss next episode so fingers crossed
ALSO NITA DEFINITELY SHIPS IT
anyway. that was good. I should go to sleep now
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planesgobrrrrrrrrr · 2 years
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Come Back Down (B.r.B)
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Bradley ‘rooster’ Bradshaw x fem!medic!reader (medic! breifly mentioned) 
summary: reader just needs one thing after finding out rooster will be flying the mission. 
warnings: mildly suggestive bits?, angst, crying (not just my tears, theirs too) fluff fluff fluff
Part 1 
Part 2 
Part 3 (comin soon)
You knew something was wrong the second you'd gotten in his truck, just like everyday he would swing by the med bay, greeting your coworkers with crooked smiles and  “Evenin’ ma'am” as he made his way over to you. 
But today was different, his posture wasn't as straight, tight-lipped smile rather than crooked, the fingers laced between yours was more grasping than holding. 
It made your stomach twist, you knew
“Bradley” you said quietly, into the static air of the truck cab 
He kept his eyes glued on the road, hand still trapping yours with a grip nearly as tight as the white knuckles that wrapped around the steering wheel. 
“Roo” you said more firmly, twisting in your seat to face him. 
“Roo, look at me”
He faltered, eyes flicking to meet yours before going back to the road. 
“What happen-”
“I got picked” 
The air got sucked from the cab, Bradley's jaw clenched so hard it's like it had been welded shut. 
Your throat tightened, breath stuttering in your chest 
“Okay…” you breathed out, pulling his hand impossibly closer as a few hot tears stained your cheeks. 
“Honey, im sorry” he croaks, tears straining his throat “im so so sorry” he shuddered, throwing the truck in park in your driveway. 
He released your hand, and for a second of blinding sadness you thought he was marching inside to wallow away alone, but then the passenger door was opening and he was there. 
“C’mere” 
Rooster is gentle but hasty as he reaches to unhook your seatbelt, pulling you to the edge of your seat and gathering you into his arms
“Sweetheart, I'm sorry”  You can feel the shudder of his shoulders when you drape your arms around them. He's slotted between your legs, one strong arm loops around your back while the other cradles your head with such gentle touch that you could be a piece of glass. 
You press into him, face in his shoulder as his undershirt became wet with your tears 
“Ive got you honey” he whispers in your ear, tucking and smoothing down your hair. He pulls back, gently holding your chin and pressing his lips to yours.
 “Lets go inside, yeah?” 
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Now situated in the center of your large bed, roosters too big shirt replacing the clothes that had been long forgotten and hastily strewn across the room. 
You watched as rooster moved anxiously around the room, never would you imagine a grown man, your rooster, stress cleaning.
“Roo” you called gently, his trance broken by your voice, he looked at you and all the thoughts that had been tensely pulling his features, softened.
 “Hold me?”  a fresh set of tears glazed over both of your eyes
He crosses the room in an instant and drops onto the bed, hoisting you over to curl up between his legs “I'm here, you’ve got me” he whispers firmly, sliding a rough hand under the hem of his shirt to run soothingly over your spine. 
You sniffle and drop you head to his shoulder “when do you leave” 
“That's not important honey” 
“Bradley, I can't know anything else, I just want to be awake to say goodbye, please” 
“Before sunrise honey, ships out at 9, and ill wake you up.” he says, squeezing you tighter 
“Promise?” you feel so small, as if a promise could do anything to prevent the potential of what could unfold tomorrow. 
“Always” 
You settle against him, and sit in silence as a nagging question rises in your throat 
“Can you promise to come back to me?” you whisper
“I wish I could baby, I really do” 
Tears begin burning your cheeks again and you nod in acceptance
You push off of him and move to sit criss cross between his legs, reaching forward to cup his face in your hands. “I love you” you hum, thumbs brushing gently against his wet eyelashes. 
His hands drop to your hips, slowly kneading them “I love you more”
You laugh lightly and shake your head “Bradley Bradshaw, that is not possible” 
“Oh it definitely is.” he settles, you beam as he traps you in his arms, peppering kisses from your face down to your shoulder that his too-big shirt had slipped off of.
This is your rooster, pulling smiles and giggles; that wouldn't seem out of place in a coming of age movie, from you in the most somber of moments.
It was sobering, the silence that weighed on every limb of your body yet you savored every moment. The feeling of his chest rising and falling against yours, his nose pressed into your pulsepoint and the light scratch of his mustache just below it. 
Your arms were wound around his shoulders, in the lowlight of your bedroom a glint caught your eye, the silver band on your thumb. 
Your father had given it to you, you think it was his at some point but you never questioned it. 
Nerves fluttered in your stomach as you slipped it from your finger and drew back just enough to look rooster in the eye. 
“Bradley” 
He stared lovingly right back at you, noses brushing. 
“Yes honey?”
“Can you promise me one thing?”
“Honey you know-”
“Please” 
His eyes sparkled as he nodded, holding you tighter. 
“Marry me.”
Tears were already shining in your eyes as you went on, smiling as he stared at you completely dumbfounded 
“I don't want a piece of paper or big fancy church to prove how fucking much I love you”
He smiled and opened his mouth to speak, you shushed him with a quick peck before continuing “but I want you to go up in the air tomorrow and come back down my husband.” you sniffed and he brushed away your tears, and his own, urging you to continue. 
“So…, Bradley Nicholas Bradshaw, will you marry me?” 
 you laughed, and it sounded a bit more like a sob as he nodded, looking down between you to see a silver band already grasped between your fingers. 
“God I love you so much” he rasped 
 Both of you steadied your shaking hands just long enough to slip the ring on before Bradley was locking your lips together, he mumbled something against your skin that sounded a bit like  “Mrs bradshaw” and you knew that you had made the right decision. 
It struck midnight and your clothes had been forgotten once more, you were drifting in and out of sleep, Bradley your husband's heartbeat under your ear was the perfect lullaby. 
With the thick comforter now wrapped around both of you, rooster planted a kiss to your head before finding his way down to your lips 
“I love you, get some sleep honey” 
“I love you more” you mumble, already slipping away once more. 
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In the stillness of the morning, Bradley was ready to hang up his wings right then and there if it meant not having to wake you to say goodbye, of all things.
You began stirring when he flipped on the lamp and his heart broke even more as tears filled your hooded eyes. 
“I know honey” he lifted you into his arms, the navy could wait 5 goddamn minutes while he held his wife. You pressed kisses against his neck, taking every ounce of will to loosen your grip on him as he set you down on the mattress once more. 
“Come back down to me roo” you breathed out quietly, forehead pressed to his.
The warm metal of his ring against your cheek made everything feel right, even if you should have felt the complete opposite as he kissed you goodbye and slipped out the front door.
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okay so maybe im already writing the wedding, thats not the point.
i loves comments and thoughts from yall, hope you liked it! -izzy <3
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irisxstardust · 1 year
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1 | Shut Up
SUMMARY: You and Ellie used to be friends until one day when she decided she was done. You hadn't spoken to her since and now, five years later, you are given the unfortunate task of going on patrol with the girl. A little argument and one stalker later, you're playing her hero. But is it enough to repair the damage made to your relationship all those years ago?
A/N: wowzers. ive spent like two weeks going back and forth on this piece bc UGH i want to get into the cutie stuff but i like want that angst and slow burn yk. and i also want it to be good like this is my first real tumblr post and yall are such good writers ive got a lotta standards to meet. ugh pls tell me its not boring i dont want it to be boring since its not fluff. anyway there will be more but im not sure how fast ill be able to write it. i like really dk how many more parts i could make of this ngl like i just wanna make a happy amazing pt 2 where reader and ellie just like live happily ever after. also this is my first time writing in second person so pls give me grace if its bad lmfao. love you🫶🏻
CW: cursing, angst?/slow burn, fem!reader (she/her), CAT (🤮🤧😵‍💫)
WC: 3,688
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You didn’t hate Ellie Williams, not in the slightest.
In fact, when you first met the girl you were impressed by her nonchalant attitude and how quickly she adjusted to life in Jackson. You admired the bond she shared with her companion, Joel - the closeness they shared, the softness of his voice when he spoke to her, the glint in her eyes when she looked at him. That didn’t mean you missed the way she stared off distantly in her free time, or the way she would talk to others with a certain tiredness in her voice; but it wasn’t like you could talk to her about it.
You weren’t friends with her. Well, not anymore.
Ellie and you were friends when she first arrived, you made sure of it. You were always bringing her things to make the adjustment easier: blankets, sweaters, new socks, ammunition, and a new hairbrush, among other things. She was grateful for it at first, always thanking you, hunting you down for movie nights, and inviting you over for dinner with Joel. But at some point you messed up - you did something wrong.
She slowly began to ignore you, she started returning your home-baked goods and stopped inviting you to her house to watch movies. She started to talk to you just as cold as she talked to the others. She didn’t like you anymore.
Eventually, probably tired of your haphazard attempts to fix your friendship, she snapped. You left her house in tears that day with your head down, shoulders hunched and wobbly, trying to cover the tear streaks with your hair.
Ever since you’d tried to ignore her, her words, and the wounds they made. It was hard when she consumed your every waking thought. You thought about Ellie all the time - what you did wrong, the way her hair bounced as she walked, what you said to make her hate you, that one time at dinner she accidentally choked on water and spit it out her nose, the look in her eyes as she yelled in your face, all of the science stuff she had hidden away in every crevice of her room.
Every thought you had about Ellie contradicted the other and it was all so confusing that every time you thought too hard about it your head spun.
So you quickly found yourself doing simple, menial tasks to keep your thoughts at bay. You were picking up every patrol you were allowed, volunteering at the daycare to help your mom care for the kiddos, spending any and all free time at your friends houses instead of yours. You always finished your house chores early in the morning, always walked your neighbors dog once before noon and once after, always doing whatever you could to stay out of your own mind.
So you forgot about Ellie - as best as you could, at least.
It almost worked, too. Five years you got away with it, hiding from your mind and from Ellie. Until today, the one day you had been dreading for years. The day you knew was coming.
You were partnered with Ellie for patrol.
At first, you'd spent the first three hours complaining to your friends - Jesse mostly ignored you, only cracking jokes here or there, and Dina just didn't understand why you hated Ellie so bad. Eventually you just gave in and stopped complaining, finding some solace under the heavy duvet on your bed.
Before Dina left your home she gave you a warm smile and said, "You're gonna do great." And then left you to your own devices, not realizing she was leaving you to rot in your own brain.
When the time came to get up and get ready, you found yourself picking through your clothes, trying to find the cleanest shirt to wear and the pants that fit you the best. You wanted to look nice, most people would, but you weren't sure if it was for you or for her.
You walked nervously towards the stables, taking firm, heavy breaths as you shoved your hands into your jacket pockets.
"It'll be okay... It'll be okay," you chanted the words under your breath as you neared the stables, clenching and unclenching your sweaty fists.
When you arrived, Ellie was already leading Shimmer along to the exit, hardly glancing at you.
"You're late." She said, sucking on her teeth.
You nodded slowly, inhaling sharply, "I am aware..." speaking slowly and cautiously, trying not to poke the bear. "I kind of have my own stuff, though," the pitch of your voice raised slightly, as if you were unsure of your own words, "so I got here as fast as I could."
She scoffed, her head shaking slightly which sends her short strands of hair bouncing around her ears. "Just get the fucking horse."
You walked off hastily, unfurling Japan's reigns - when Dina didn't take him out, you did, because you both liked to make sure he had enough exercise everyday. You walked him down to meet Ellie at the gate.
Ellie was standing on one foot, shifting her weight every now and then and rubbing her palms down the length of her thighs; almost as if she was rubbing something off of them. She rubbed her thumbs on Shimmer's reigns nervously, head darting back and forth to see if you were close or not.
When you came into her line of sight, she hardened up and stood taller. Her face sharpened and her eyes filled with the same distance that kept you up at night, though today they also harbored another emotion, one you were no longer privy with.
It filled you with a sense of confusion and dread, causing you to mumble incoherently under your breath.
"Fucking Williams... cold as shit... pain in my ass..." you muttered as you mounted your horse.
Giving you one last weary look, Ellie also mounted her horse. She pulled her fingers through her hair, tucking it back behind her ear as the two of you left Jackson.
The horses trotted slowly, easily stepping over the tree roots in the ground as if they had the whole route memorized.
For you, this was one of the few routes you hardly visited. It wasn't too far from Jackson, but it was just far enough that you knew it'd take up the rest of your day.
As your eyes danced between the trail ahead of you and Ellie beside you, you didn't know what to think.
Sure, you'd thought of all the ways you would yell at her and all the things you'd say if you ever got the chance again; but you'd also thought of all the ways you'd make it up to her, all the things you wanted to say to let her know you weren't the same person you used to be.
What did it matter, anyway?
You were stuck here, letting your old wounds sit and fester in the bitterness of it all. You were stuck here, next to her but unable to fill the empty silence with words. You were stuck here, on patrol with the one person who hates your guts and you couldn't do anything about it.
"It's not polite to stare, you know."
Her voice echoed through the dense trees, bouncing off branches and leaves only to worm its way back into your brain.
"I'm sorry?" you hummed, caught off guard by the sound.
Her head slightly turned in your direction and Shimmer slowed down to a light trot, matching Japan's speed. "It's not polite to stare."
Her words were much sharper the second time around, with much more emphasis placed upon them.
She's angry. Amazing. You scoffed to yourself, trying to keep hold of your composure.
"I wasn't staring..." you paused. You almost said her name, but the word caught in your throat. "At you. I wasn't staring at you."
She glanced at you sideways before she continued, "you were."
"Was not!"
"Were too."
"I wasn't staring-!"
There it was again. You'd almost said her name, but it got caught in the back of your throat, which left you to haphazardly cut off your sentence and leave her hanging, waiting for it.
She scoffed. "Yes, you were."
You closed your mouth and pressed your lips into a line, "I wasn't fucking staring at you, Williams."
"So you stare at me, deny it when I tell you it's impolite, and then can't even use my name?" She stopped her horse, leaning back in the saddle as she spoke.
And the words get caught in your throat. Your mouth dried as you slowed your own horse.
"I used your name," you whispered, blinking away the wetness in your eyes.
She laughed sourly, pulled on Shimmer's reigns and began to trot ahead of you again.
You sighed at the bitterness brewing in the pit of your stomach. You certainly fucked that up - but was it entirely your fault? Surely some of that had to go to Ellie too - I mean she's the one who broke off your friendship... she's the one who yelled at you for "staring." You weren't staring in the first place... right?
You began to question yourself, yet again, as Ellie spoke up once more.
"You're still staring."
And suddenly it's almost as if you could hear the smirk she had on her face.
"Could you fucking not? Please? I'm just trying to get to the tower and go home alive. I don't want to deal with this bullshit too."
"Stop fucking staring then," she whipped around to face you. "I definitely didn't ask for this either, so stop being a baby and get over it."
You clenched your fists and brought one to your face, rubbing your eyes with your palm.
"I'm not staring at you, El-"
You stopped talking after you finally looked directly into her eyes, catching sight movement behind her.
She began to scoff but suddenly stopped as your face changed.
"What?"
"Shut up."
You tilted your head to the side, narrowing your eyes as you focused on a shadowy figure hidden in the trees.
The figure stilled under a long branch, the leaves creating long shadows which warped around the curves of the figure.
Slowly, you reached for the pistol strapped to your thigh. Ellie's face scrunched in a mix of confusion and worry.
"Don't," you breathed, "move."
At the sound of your sharp exhale the figure screeched and aimed for Ellie, its dark eyes fixated on her.
You brought the gun up, aiming and pulling the trigger as fast as you could, but the stalker was hardly affected by the single bullet.
Ellie whipped around, yelping once before the stalker jumped on her and yanked her off of Shimmer. The stalker pinned her to the ground, its teeth already bared and ready to bite.
You pulled the trigger again. And again. And again. Until eventually the stalker slumped down above Ellie.
She pushed it off and brought herself to her feet, head whipping around to look for others.
"Do you see any more?" you asked as you scanned the area.
She shook her head, "I don't think so... holy shit."
You both sat quietly for a moment as you tried to process what just happened.
"Thanks- thanks for uh, for that," she panted, mounting Shimmer again and looking around, "that was close."
For a moment you were rendered speechless, trying to piece the puzzle back together in your brain before responding. "Yeah... of course," you paused, adding lightly, "s'what friends do." It came out a little mumbled but you knew she heard it.
You didn't keep your eyes on hers long enough to gauge her reaction, but you figured it was one full of something negative. You looked up one last time and caught her eyes, the strangest look on her face, before turning back down and looking away.
"The tower's just up that way," you hesitated, waiting for her to say - or do - something. To do anything. But she didn't, so you continued, "there shouldn't be any more in the area, they just cleared it last week."
You shifted on the saddle, cringing slightly, urging Japan to move forward again.
The rest of your route went okay - you didn't encounter anymore infected and the area is mostly barren anyway so you didn't find anything worthwhile. The tower was cleared already, too, so you and Ellie mostly found solace in your own thoughts for the rest of the route.
She didn't mention the staring thing again, opting to keep quiet instead, but you could feel her eyes meeting the side of your head every now and then.
You didn't say anything to her as you re-entered Jackson, walking side by side to the stables to put the horses back.
Ellie was brushing out Shimmer's mane as she opened her mouth to speak, "hey, thanks for earlier. Seriously. It means a lot."
You nodded, "no worries," and you paused, unsure of what to say next. Before you could, Ellie spoke up again.
"And sorry, by the way," she said, eyes darting around the stables, "for being mean."
At that, you found yourself completely dumbfounded, eyes wide, staring across the stables at her. And before you had the chance to recover from the shock she was flying out of the stables, probably heading back to Joel's house.
Within the next four minutes you'd rushed to Dina's, tripping and stumbling over your own feet, heart pounding and mind racing.
"She apologized?" Dina asked incredulously, eyebrows raised and lips turned downward, "for real?"
You shrugged, "I guess. I can't believe it either."
"Yeah, dude, she hated you for years but you play hero once and now she likes you again?" Jesse laughed, shaking his head, "bullshit."
"I never said she liked me again, Jesse. I was just telling you what happened. She apologized. That's what happened."
"Maybe she realized you aren't that bad," Dina smiled.
"Oh thanks, Dee, I'm honored."
Dina chuckled, leaning towards you and smacking your shoulder playfully, "and it's about time."
You paused, chewing on your lip as you thought of the day's events over and over and over again.
"I hope this is a new beginning for you guys, you deserve it."
You stopped your thinking, pulling yourself out of your thoughts to respond with a smile, "thanks, Dee."
"So, now that that's out of the way," Dina smiled suggestively, narrowing her eyes and raising her eyebrows, "you want to come to the bar with us later? Everyone's gonna be there."
You couldn't miss the suggestive tone in her voice, the way it dropped a pitch and she gained a mischievous glint in her eyes.
You hummed, "are they? Good for them."
Dina sighed exhaustedly, "c'mon! You never come with us! It'll be so much fun, I promise!"
"I don't know, Dina. You know I'm not one for parties."
"Well, you are tonight," she tapped the palm of her hand against the table, "because you are coming with me and we are going to dance all night and have so much fun. So much so, in fact, that you're going to completely forget how much you hate parties!"
"Oh, is that right?" You smiled as you began to chuckle.
She hummed, a particularly big grin splattered on her face.
"Yeah, your new best friend might be there too," Jesse added, which earned a nasty look from you and a disapproving look from Dina.
"Shut up!" Dina shouted, turning her attention to Jesse - which only threw you right back into your own head.
After Dina snapped you out of it, and after a lot more begging and pleading on her part, you agreed. It couldn't be that bad - right?
The party was nothing short of what you'd expected.
It was loud, crammed, kind of smelly, and definitely not the place you wanted to be spending your time.
But every time you caught Dina's eyes or you looked over in her direction, the smile on her face was enough to make you feel so deeply guilty that you stayed put. You stayed with her if she brought you out to dance and you stayed with her if she brought you to the bar to get a new drink.
It wasn't a surprise when you noticed Ellie at the bar, nursing a cold cup, staring at you with a conflicting expression. It also wasn't a surprise when Dina grabbed your hand and started dragging you in her direction, giving you one last reassuring smile.
It was a surprise, however, when Ellie greeted Dina with a hug and you with a smile.
She smiled at you.
Completely unable to quickly recover, you let Dina do the talking, trying to calm your racing heart.
"Hey, El! How're you doing?" she had to shout over the music but you knew Ellie could hear her - everyone could hear Dina.
"Pretty good! You okay?"
They began to exchange pleasantries and all the usual small talk, so you spaced out for a moment, waiting for the moment Dina would pull you away again. That moment didn't come, however, because Dina ran off without you.
"Wait - where's she going?" you yelled, eyes finally meeting Ellie's.
"Said she was gonna grab Jesse," Ellie began, eyes scanning over your outfit. "You want a drink?"
You hesitated, thinking over what happened during patrol. You lost yourself, again, and began mulling over what you could say and how she would possibly respond.
But then you began speaking, your mind not caught up yet.
"Sure!"
Ellie's face relaxed a little, and she waved you over towards a quieter area of the bar. The flannel tucked up to her elbows showcased the way her muscles flexed as she signaled Seth over to your side of the bar.
"You doing okay?" You asked as Seth walked away. "It just... looked like that stalker shook you up a bit."
She nodded, "Yeah, yeah. It was a little," she shrugged and let out a mangled noise, "nerve wracking." You both laughed.
Seth dropped your drink in front of you, giving you a sideways glance before returning to the packed end of the bar.
"You know how it goes, though," she finished. "I'm good."
"Well, that is certainly a plus."
Her lips tugged into a small grin, making you mirror the expression.
"Thanks again, by the way."
"Hey, we were partners. It was my job to have your back."
You both laughed again.
And you fell back into it. Into that easy-going, comfortable rhythm you had with her so many years ago. It was like no time had passed at all; like you were fourteen again.
And even when Dina came back she didn't hide it. You were finally able to openly talk to your two friends together again. It was like a dream.
"Hey, Ellie!" No. "I haven't seen you in forever!" No. "You look so good!" No.
"Oh! Hey, Cat!"
No.
You could almost taste the tension that had suddenly built up around the three of you; the sudden change in the air sending your head reeling and heart pounding.
Ellie and Cat exchanged pleasantries (not like you were interested or anything) as you suddenly honed in on a weirdly shaped ice cube in your drink. Poking at it with your straw, you waited for Cat to leave, holding your breath.
And in less than five minutes, you fell out of it.
You fell out of your rhythm, Ellie already ten beats ahead of you while you seemed to have changed rhythms completely.
When Cat did (finally) leave you let out a shaky breath, watching as even Ellie noticed the shift in you.
"Sorry," she said sheepishly, mostly directing the apology to Dina. She turned to face Dina straight on now, no longer moving her eyes between the two of you.
"You're fine," Dina brushed it off quickly, seemingly unaware of the sudden awkwardness.
"I should uh... go anyway. Joel's waiting for me, so... you know."
"Oh, yeah, sure. We should go soon too," Dina draped an arm around your shoulders, "I have kept someone here for way too long. She's getting a little antsy." She gave you a pointed smile, a teasing tone lacing her voice.
Ellie gave Dina a half-hearted chuckle before standing and hugging her. She gave you a very awkward, sideways, one armed hug before turning around and almost running out of the building.
"You want to go now or wait a little-"
"Can we go, Dina?" you rushed, clenching your eyes shut as you rubbed the balls of your palms into your eyes. "I'm just... really tired."
Dina stared at your face, her eyes scanning yours, for an extra beat before nodding, "Yeah, of course."
At home you spent the rest of your night hiding under your duvet, pulling at large chunks of your hair with your fists, digging your heels into your bed; all the way until you finished the night tiredly blinking away tears and chewing at your lips.
It was all so confusing. One minute you're dreading even looking at her and the next you're talking and laughing with her like you're best friends - and then? Then you're sitting there like the two of you never started talking again at all, all because Ellie said hi to an old friend.
One minute she's talking to you, then the next she's talking to you through Dina.
You woke in the morning with blood dried on your lips and dark bags under your eyes. You found it hard to keep your eyes open as you brushed your teeth, and one look in the mirror showed that you were in no state to leave your home anytime soon.
Your parents left quickly for work, not giving you a second glance even as you asked them to clear your schedule for the day.
Around noon you received a familiar knock at the door, and when you opened it you saw a face that hadn't graced your porch in a few years.
"Hey, Ellie," you paused, panicking internally. "What's up?"
"Do you want to talk?"
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bri-to-the-future · 1 year
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hello im here to request 40s doc for the song post 👀
Hehe i figured youd be the one to ask for him. Okay here they are:
Rat by Penolope Scott- About someone losing faith in a scientist- gives the vibes of doc losing faith in oppenheimer. “When I said take me to the moon i never meant take me alone/i thought if mankind toured the sky it meant that all of us could go/but i dont wanna see the stars if theyre just one more piece of land/for us to colonise for us to turn to sand” in particular makes me think of him
Laplaces Angel (Hurt People? Hurt people!) by Will Wood- “have you ever died in a nightmare?/woke up surprised you hadnt earned your fate?” And “so if you wash your hands of where youve been/until you flood the second floor/neatly fold your skeletons/but stull cant shut the closet door” give me such 40s doc vibes its insane
Oblivion by Halfy and Winks- look. I know its a dream smp fan song. But they make good music! And this absolutely murders me with the 40s doc vibes. The entire first verse fits him so well. “Pride in myself was something i swore would never die/gaining respect means giving up a past life/the illusion crafted by my arrogance/had protected me from the wrong that i couldnt admit” PLEASE. The song is about guilt and regret and its so perfect for him
Dr. Sunshine is Dead by Will Wood- another will wood song! This one gives me the vibes of someone who’s afraid of themself, which fits 40s doc beautifully. Particularly the last line. “And if dreams can come true, what does that say about nightmares?/ill stay awake tonight”
Run Boy Run by Woodkid- this one makes me think of someone trying to run from themself “run boy run/they’re dying to stop you/run boy run/this race is a prophecy/run boy run/break out from society” it sort of gives me the vibes of how hectic it mustve been while they were working on the bomb
21 Guns by Green Day- this one almost feels obvious to me? It’s about wanting peace in a time of war. “When you’re at the end of the road/and you lost all sense of control/and your thoughts have taken control/when your mind breaks the spirit of your soul” reminds me of him. Also at the start of the chorus when he says “one, twenty-one guns” its like 1.21 which is fun
Wires by The Neighbourhood- this one (i think?) is about someone not being in control of themself due to obligation. “I see the wires pulling while you’re breathing/you knew you had a reason/it killed you like diseases” reminds me of how i think 40s doc probably feels about his actions. It ended the war, but at what cost?
What Ive Done by Linkin Park- this whole song fits him really well so its hard to pick a lyric to highlight. “Put to rest/what you thought of me/while ive cleaned this slate/with the hands/of uncertainty” makes me think of how doc would react to marty finding out (assuming he knew him from the 30s)
Killer by The Hoosiers- well it’s just right off the gate with this one. “I hate my work/but im in control/im fearless now/but it cost my soul” c’mon thats so good for him! Theres also a later line, “i conduct fear like electricity/a manmade monstrosity” and i think thats his feelings about the project and his part in it exactly
Radioactive by Imagine Dragons- this one gives me the sense of doc a bit further past the bombs being dropped, reluctantly accepting the new norm. “All systems go/the sun hasnt died/deep in my bones/straight from inside” particularly makes me think of him
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TT: I just can’t believe you’ve never experienced the pleasures of fast food.
TT: Like, not figuratively. I literally cannot believe you have never once in your entire life sat down and shoved a big mac into that bucktoothed mouth of yours.
GT: Well a mans got to keep himself in tip top shape if he wants anything to do with the ladies!
TT: I eat fast food. You still fuckin’ drool over me like a goddamn dog.
GT: Pshhhh.
GT: No i dont!
TT: …
GT: And even if i did you yourself arent a LADY! Lovely as that would be : )
TT: Oh, I bet.
GT: If you really are so insistent though i haven’t had dinner yet…
TT: Well my shift’s almost over, so if you’re serious you better get here fast.
GT: Oh right on! You dont need to worry my good bro! Im getting in the car as we speak!
TT: Don’t text and drive man.
GT: Ive got my trusty skulltop!
GT: And anyway with that logic you shouldnt be texting on the job! Im sure you’ve got other things to tend to.
TT: Not really. That’s why I’m heading out early.
GT: Oh! I guess i should have put that together haha.
GT: How early exactly?
TT: Like right about now.
GT: Well golly Dirk you could wait for me at the very least : (
TT: You’re right, I could.
TT: But I could also go home and play video games.
GT: : (
GT: Half the reason i decided to come over anyway was to see my good bro!
TT: Well it’s too late, I’m already in the car.
GT: But that means ill be missing out on seeing the real you!
TT: How about I call you. Then we can talk usin’ our voices and shit. Maybe that’ll help up the realism factor.
GT: Well i GUESS that would be close enough…
TT: Sweet.
So that’s how Dirk Strider ended up on the phone with his good buddy pal Jake English while he ordered his first ever fast food meal.
“So you’re gonna want to try the chicken nuggets, first off, because our chicken nuggets are the absolute shit,” Dirk explained, pulling into his driveway. “And I’d also order the fuckin… uhhh…. the double stack burger, since you like lettuce, and that shit has a lotta lettuce. Oh, and get one of the large fountain drinks, too, I just cleaned the machine today so there shouldn’t be any fuckin’ maggots infesting that shit or whatever.”
“Eww, Dirk, that’s gross! I’m going to lose my appetite before I even get there at this rate!” Jake replied, and Dirk could practically hear him wrinkle his nose. He chuckled lightly.
“Don’t worry bro I’m joking,” he assured him. “Mostly.”
Jake sighed deeply. “Well, I’m next in line, so anything else that’d get you off?”
Dirk blushed a bit. Jake was joking, obviously, but that didn’t mean it wasn’t true. Dirk shut the car door and started walking inside as he replied, “If you REALLY wanna get me off, double that shit.”
“Heheh, alright bro, as you wish!” Jake replied, giggling a bit. Dirk smiled to himself at that. Obviously Jake wouldn’t be doing that, but it was still a thought he enjoyed. There was a silence for a moment as he reflected on this mental image, storing it away for later as he flopped down on his bed, when a voice interrupted his thoughts.
“Alright, Dirk, now how do I order? I ask the metal robot box for food, right?”
Dirk came back to himself, and then remembered how much of a self sheltered dumbass his crush was.
“Yeah, roll down your window and when they say some shit like, ‘hello, welcome to [fast food place], I’ll take your order whenever you’re ready!’, you gotta say what you want.” He put on an admittedly obnoxious high pitched tone as he imitated his coworkers - he wasn’t really a big fan of some of them.
“Alright! Then that I will do! One moment!”
And so Dirk sat back and listened while Jake ordered, nodding approvingly as he did so. Jake ordered a double decker bacon burger, a six piece of chicken nuggets with honey barbeque sauce (just weird enough to be a totally Jake English thing), and a coke. All totally good, some of the best stuff on the menu.
And then he said “Oh, and double that order! I’d like two of everything, if you would!”
And Dirk practically melted into his bed.
He stayed quiet as Jake exchanged money with the cashier (Dirk’s manager), Jake joking about how “it only got busy when I got here”, which was honestly probably true. People DID seem to gravitate towards Jake English.
Eventually, he got to pull forward. As he was handed the bags, he gave an honest thank you, before a sound of confusion came from the speakers in Dirk’s earbuds.
“What’s wrong, bro?” Dirk asked.
“Oh! Well, I guess now that I think about it, I should have figured this would happen, but ordering two of everything seemed to include two drinks as well..?”
“Well yeah man, unless you specify that you only want one drink, they’re gonna think ‘double everything’ includes that shit.”
Maybe he was coming off as rude, and maybe his speech was becoming sloppy, but he was currently more focused on taking down the small tent in his pants than he was on explaining the proper way to order food.
“Well yes, I guess so, but… golly, what should I do with the second one? I already can’t drink an entire bottle on it’s own normally, and I was planning on saving the one I ordered for later-“
“I dare you to chug it,” Dirk replied, only realizing he wasn’t just thinking that after the words escaped his mouth.
Luckily, Jake stayed oblivious as always as he replied, “we’ll see if I have enough room left later,” laughing a bit. God he didn’t know how much that turned Dirk on.
“Right. Well, sweet. You got your food, you got your drinks, now what? Should I hang up or something? I can hang up if you want me to.”
“Oh no no no, dickens no! Dirk, I rarely if ever get to call you, I want to hear more of your voice!” Jake replied quickly.
“Wow, so you are absolutely desperate to listen to my voice, aren’t you? Not drooling over me my ASS.”
Jake chuckled a bit. “It’s normal to want to talk to your best bro for at least a little bit each day! And besides, I don’t know if there’s some proper form or whatnot to eating this food. Need I remind you, there’s a first time for everything!”
“Yeah, there is. But what really could be so different about fast food? You just kind of… eat it.”
“Well, maybe there is some proper order or such I need to follow. I don’t know, man!”
“Nah, it’s pretty simple. Take a bit of the burger, then wash it down with that coca cola shit, then follow it by dunkin’ your nugs in that soda like it’s some kinda sauce, really get it all sopping wet so you can eat it all good and soggy.”
A moment of silence followed, before Jake said, “no offense my good pal, but that shit sounds absolutely foul.”
Dirk chuckled a bit. “Nah, nah man, you have to try it. That’s the only true way to eat chicken nuggets. Everyone knows that.”
“Well, thank you for your advice, but I am afraid I won’t be doing that,” Jake replied, laughing along with him.
The two boys proceeded to make dumb suggestions and jokes the rest of the way to Jake’s home, until eventually Jake exclaimed, “Home at last!”
“Cool. Can’t wait for you to go inside and start shoving that shit in your mouth. Make sure to put on a show for me, alright?”
“Heheh, right-o!”
Dirk heard a door shut, then heard Jake yell, “Anybody home? No? Alrighty then!” and then heard another door shut.
“Jade’s not there tonight?” Dirk asked.
“It doesn’t appear so! Probably out gardening or volunteering or something.”
“Huh. Well that’s cool,” Dirk said, trying to tone down his excitement. “Maybe you can like, I dunno. Let loose now or some shit.”
Man was he good at hiding what he was thinking.
“Sure can! I can do almost anything I want tonight, and you’re going to bear prime witness to it all!”
Dirk smiled. “No, I’m not WITNESSING shit, man. I can only hear you, remember?”
“Well sure, that is true, but that’s all a matter of semantics. Who knows, we really should hang out soon anyways!”
“With or without food?” Dirk asked, rolling over in his bed.
“It depends on if this is really all you cracked it up to be! And there is really only one way to find out!”
Dirk could hear the familiar crinkle of fast food bags being opened and unwrapped, then the sound of chewing, then the sound of a hearty swallow, and then,
“ZOUNDS, Dirk! You were absolutely, positively right about this! Dear lord, this is amazing!”
Dirk could only imagine the face Jake was making. It sounded like he was making that face he made when he was super excited about something, the one where his eyes shot wide open, sparkled, but still somehow crinkled at the edges with his smile. Dirk buried his face into a pillow to muffle the sounds threatening to escape him.
Luckily, without needing any further comment from him, Jake continued eating, and the way his mic was set up was right against his throat, so Dirk got to hear every little noise that came from him. And god damn if they weren’t good sounds.
Jake surely wasn’t aware of this, and he’d most definitely move it if Dirk said something, so instead Dirk chose to maintain a comfortable silence on his end as he listened to Jake English absolutely devour a burger. Usually the sounds of eating made him slightly uncomfortable, but picturing JAKE making those noises? That was another story entirely. And those moans of satisfaction? Pure aphrodisiac. After only a few moments though Jake had already finished.
“Mm, gah, I need something to drink!” Jake exclaimed. “That was good, but absolutely parching, heh!”
“You got soda, don’t you?”
“Well yes,” Jake said, “that is true! I’ll go grab it!”
“From where man?” Dirk asked, admittedly somewhat disappointed that the display was already on pause.
“Oh, I set it down on my bedside table,” Jake explained, his voice surrounded by the sounds of a microphone that’s set a little bit too sensitive. “My hands were full.”
“Ah.” So Dirk waited in anticipation till he heard Jake plop back down in his spinny desk chair.
“Alright, here goes! Cheers!” Jake exclaimed. When Dirk didn’t reply, though, he repeated himself, albeit a bit less enthusiastically. “Um, cheers, bro? You have to say it back,” he chuckled.
“Nobody says weird shit like that but you.”
“Well then, I’ll instead say: bottoms up!”
“You do you.” Dirk then quickly tensed again as he heard the almost annoyingly close sound of a bubbling liquid making it’s way down Jake’s throat, and man was he swallowing fast. Eventually though the noises slowed, and Dirk heard a short breath out, followed by a short gurgly burp that seemed to surprise Jake just as much as it did Dirk.
“Hah, excuse me, Dirk! Wasn’t - wasn’t expecting THAT, heh,” Jake said, his voice rising a bit.
“No, it’s cool, man. I really don’t care.” And what a lie that was.
“Al-right, if you say so, bro,” Jake chuckled. “What next, though..?”
“You should try the chicken nuggets. That shit is fuckin’ bomb,” Dirk told him.
“Well then, guess I will! If they’re anything like those patty sandwiches, I’m sure they’re positively delightful!”
“Yeah. Whatever the fuck a patty sandwich is.”
Jake either didn’t hear or didn’t care to respond to that, instead digging around his bag for the small packets of honey barbeque sauce. When he found it, he made a sort of triumphant sound. And as he began eating these, Dirk’s thoughts were only getting hotter and hotter.
Every sound of delight, every smacking of the lips, every pause for a drink just left Dirk hungrier and hungrier, but he had to keep his cool. Even if the mental image of your best bro/biggest crush eating fast food was the exact opposite of “cool”. Jacking off while on the phone certainly wasn’t cool either, and so instead he just clenched his jaw and squeezed his poor pillow harder. Jake would occasionally make comments of course, unable to bask in his own sound as Dirk was, but Dirk would simply give his usual noncommittal reply of “yeah” or “huh”. It was easier that way for him really.
After what felt like quite a bit too short, though, Jake finally gave a somewhat disheartening “aw”, and now Dirk was the one sparking conversation.
“What’s wrong, man?”
“Oh, nothing really! Just finished the box quite a bit quickly, aha!”
“Oh yeah.”
“…”
“Well, you still got a whole other bag of this stuff, too, y’know,” Dirk pointed out. “Not like you’re out of food for a while.”
“Oh I guess that is true..! Here, let me grab the other-“
But it was now or never, and Dirk knew his hormonal high wouldn’t be lasting too much longer if he didn’t do something about it, so he did.
“Hold on a second, you promised me a show, remember? We’re not gonna look back and laugh at your first time eating fast food otherwise. We need some excitement and shit to really add stakes.”
“What do you mean? What would you want me to do to… make a show of things?”
“Uhh.” Dirk paused a moment, hoping it’d make it seem like a spur of the moment recollection and not a nightly fantasy. “Remember when you said you’d chug that soda? Do that shit I dunno.”
Jake went quiet a moment, seemingly thinking, before eventually replying, “Well I can’t seem to think of a reason not to!”
“Hell yeah. Chug chug motherfucker!”
“Heheh, alright!” Jake replied, unscrewing the cap of the second one. And Dirk most definitely noticed that this was a new bottle, the slight click of the seal being broken telling him just that. And he also most definitely was not upset by this. He heard a sharp fizzing noise, then a somewhat shaky breath on the other end, and then the sound of Jake English gulping down a bottle of soda.
Dirk wanted to say something, ANYTHING to distract from how absolutely amazing an experience this was for him, but he just couldn’t bring himself to speak. The sound of swallowing liquid was just so mesmerizing to him, he couldn’t turn his attention to anything else.
Soon though, Jake’s lips parted from the bottle, and as they did so a low, breathy belch came out of him. This time, though, he did not excuse himself, rather just exclaimed, “Hn - gosh, Dirk, all that and it’s still not done!”
Dirk inhaled sharply.
“W-well then, keep going man,” he replied, his own voice shaking with a hideous combination of arousal and nerves. “I’ve chugged lots of drinks, I’m sure you can too, heh.”
“Well of course I CAN, Dirk,” Jake said, making it sound like the concept was obvious, “but it’s a matter of how FAST I can. You yourself never even have any - ahem - eructations, which is honestly something I envy! Especially seeing how quickly you can down a whole bottle-“
“Yeah but this isn’t about me, man. I can do that any old time. I dared YOU to, remember? So uh- hurry up, man!“
Dirk was becoming antsy, the bulge in his pants becoming hotter, more painful by the moment. He knew he had to go soon, he had to do something about THIS. But he couldn’t bring himself to leave just yet, he had to experience just a bit more.
“Well, alrighty then! I can’t leave a good dare hanging!” And so he continued gulping down the drink, this time each swallow seeming much more forceful, more liquid going into his throat than was going all the way down. And, as the bottle began crinkling, a sign it was finally empty, Jake threw it down on the table triumphantly.
“Ya-hoo! I did it, Dirk! Did you hear that? Drank an entire bottle on my own-!” a gurgling noise made itself known in Jake’s throat. “Oh, one moment.”
Dirk heard a thumping sound, like Jake was banging on his chest, and he could just imagine so perfectly Jake holding one finger up as he did so, in an “i’ll get back to you” sort of way. And then the gurgling noise got higher and higher, and then the noises ceased for one split second of silence-
And an explosive belch came from the speakers in Dirk’s earbuds.
The mic clipped as the eructation was happening, and Dirk’s heart was going faster than it ever had. He had to bite his cheek hard to keep himself from moaning, tensing his body with all of his might. And when it was over, Jake’s chair creaked as he leaned back and sighed.
“Oh, MAN, Dirk, that felt - that felt good,” he said.
Dirk had to agree.
Rather than saying that, though, he instead ended up stuttering out, “I- uh, I have to mute myself real quick, you can - keep doin’ your thing, though. Uh, yeah.” He then quickly muted himself and began unzipping his jeans.
“Oh, alright Dirk! Will you be back soon?” Jake asked, sounding almost disappointed.
Dirk grimaced as he reached back up to unmute himself. “Unh, yeah. Yeah, man.”
“Oh, good! I’ll be waiting!”
Dirk nodded as though Jake could see him and muted himself again before struggling to pull his pants off and throw them to the floor. Finally clad in just his boxers and tee though, he reached under his waistband and inhaled sharply, involuntarily gripping his dick as he heard Jake unwrapping the other burger.
Shit, he’d forgotten about that.
When Jake continued eating, now that he seemed to think Dirk was gone, he ate much less tactfully. He moaned a bit more at the new flavors, took longer drinks, allowed himself to let out short burps between bites…
It was better than any shitty prno Dirk had ever watched, and he couldn’t even see this guy. He could only imagine though, the look of ecstasy on his face as he took large bites, tearing his meal to shreds. It gave Dirk more than enough push as he got himself off, the sounds of Jake’s ecstasy mixing with Dirk’s pleasure to create a beautiful, horrible noise.
After only a few short moments (though they seemed very long to Dirk) he had his own cum smeared across the head of his boxers, and he was left gasping for air, body limp as Jake simply continued on, completely oblivious to what his friend was doing on the other line.
As Dirk’s mind was fogged over, he began feeling disgusted with himself for the way he had acted, and he wanted to get mad, punch himself square in the face. But he also felt a deep sense of relief and ecstasy, the kind one can only get from having his fantasies played out in front of him.
Finally, Jake leaned back and let out a belch that he muffled with his fist. Dirk could her the sound of him slapping something like a beach ball, but he knew from experience that it was actually the sound of an overstuffed stomach, and it almost made him want a round two. He sighed and shook his head, though. That could wait for later, at least until he was off the line.
So he reached back up and unmuted himself, and the short “bing!” sound alerted Jake to his presence.
“Oh, Dirk! You’re back! Is everything alright?”
Dirk breathed deeply before answering.
“Yeah, Dave needed some help. With uh, his computer. Dude can’t understand computers for shit, always needs help with some update or whatever. And I didn’t want to - embarrass him, so I muted so you couldn’t hear his cries of fuckin’ agony as he realized all he had to do was turn the thing off and on again. Heh.”
Dirk grinned at how well he was able to bullshit that response.
“Oh, alright! That would make a lot more sense than what I was- no, never mind that. Um, I ended up finishing everything without you, sorry! I know you missed the ‘show’ and whatnot, I just couldn’t help myself!”
Dirk’s heart jumped a bit at that.
“Nah, it’s alright. Totally cool. I’m glad you enjoyed it,” he said simply. Such an understatement.
“Yes, I absolutely did enjoy it! Y’know, I really should have come on over as soon as you started working there. I missed out on some premium meals!”
“Yeah you did. But there’s always a spot in the to-go line for you. Or, hell, even in the regular line. I’d get to see more of you that way,” he smiled. Was he flirting? He honestly didn’t know.
“Oh, yes, I’d love that! I quite enjoy seeing your face, too, you know!” Jake smiled back at him. And he was definitely flirting. “In fact, before you go, could you please turn on your camera? I never did get to see you.”
Dirk blushed a bit, though it was hardly noticeable against his post-cum flush.
“Only if you do too, man,” he said, if only to buy himself time as he got up to walk half naked to his bathroom to grab a washcloth. Or a towel, if you’re a one of those fans.
“Ah, fine, if you insist,” he heard Jake chuckle as Dirk was wetting the rag. “Let me open the call on my husktop quickly… let’s see here…”
In the amount of time it took for Jake to boot up his computer and connect the call to it, Dirk had cooled himself down enough to look presentable. He quickly walked back to his bedroom and put his glasses back on before he turned on his phone camera, angling it upwards a bit to a) make himself look cooler and b) hide the fact that he wasn’t wearing pants.
“Oh, Dirk! Looking gorgeous as ever, I see!” Jake said when he finally noticed.
“Yeah man, looking and feeling like fifty bucks.” He couldn’t hide the small grin on his face.
“Well here, one moment… and- there we go! Camera is on- oh!”
Jake must’ve only then realized how much his stomach was pushing out.
It was quite a sight, really, his face and shirt coated in crumbs and grease as his shirt rode up on his stomach, unable to hide the massive excess he had indulged in.
Dirk’s eyebrows raised and he quickly took a screenshot before Jake could fix this.
“You’re looking good too, man,” Dirk said, hoping it came off as another joke, thoigh he couldn’t hide how impressed he was. “Reeaall good.”
Jake pushed his computer screen up so the camera wasn’t on his stomach anymore, only really capturing his upper chest, face and ceiling now. He then made an attempt to pull his shirt back over his stomach.
“Oh stop, haha,” he said, blushing a bit. “Sorry you had to see that!”
“No no, it’s cool,” Dirk smiled. “I do gotta get goin’ though, much as I love staring at you,” he chuckled.
“Aw alright, so soon? I guess I’ll see you tomorrow then?” Jake asked, looking hopeful.
“Yeah man. I’m not missing school if you’re there.”
Jake grinned. “Sweet! Fistbump for good luck!”
Dirk chuckled and raised a fist to the screen and the two fistbumped, Jake then pulling back and imitating an explosion.
“See ya, man,” Dirk smiled.
“Goodbyeee!!” Jake replied, and the screen went dark as he hung up.
Dirk quickly swiped up to his photo gallery, pulling up the screenshot he had just taken.
Now he had jack-off material for at least two months.
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sweetrabbit · 2 years
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flowers
pairing: student council! Yang Jungwon x writer! gn reader
genre: established relationship, domestic fluff, high school au, schoolmates to lovers
synopsis: flowers had its own language, its many different meanings and it all only meant more poems of the both of you
warnings: non
inspired by “THE LANGUAGE OF FLOWERS” by @soobnny
a/n: ive been meaning to write for enha for a while, not sure if ill actually write more for them though ^^*
he was so whipped for your little literary pieces that were always written about the two of you.
everyone in school who’d see you two would gush about how cute you both were, how adorable it was when Jungwon would give you flowers and you’d use the meaning of each one to write another poem.
“written by: Sedum” it signed at the bottom, everyone would find it romantic knowing Sedum was you, sedum was another set of flowers Jungwon had given you and you’d found them utterly beautiful, and partly that’s why you nicknamed yourself that — but it was the deep meaning of the flower.
Sedum is a symbol of peace and tranquillity. Succulents as a whole symbolise a timeless, enduring love, because of their tendency to store water in leaves and stems for hard times ahead. Combined, this offers a beautiful message of the Sedum flower as an offering of everlasting calm, peace, and perseverance.
In awe, the meaning captured you. It described perfectly how Jungwon made you feel, how your relationship with Jungwon was like.
“What's this?” curiosity filling your eyes when the boy in front of you handed you a bouquet of flowers that labelled unknown to you. 
“Calla lilies, I picked them from my garden the other day and wanted to give them to you..” a pink dusted Jungwons cheeks and a sheepish smile. “thank you, Jungwon, they’re very beautiful.” a proud cheer could be heard from his hyung’s when you accepted the flowers.
since then Jungwon would surprise you with more flowers, growing curious you’d research the meanings of each and every one of them.
warmth fluttering throughout your body and a smile gracing your features.
and then one day Jungwon would appear with not only gardenias but also hydrangeas, wrapped around the bouquet was a ribbon in your favourite colour and a love letter. 
“please go out with me.” he said in a whispered tone as he bowed, you smiled and pecked his cheek before accepting the flowers, you were sure to preserve these as long as you could.
and you’d roll your eyes when you passed yet another love poem to Kim Seungmin “there’s no point in being anonymous anymore, everyone knows you’re ‘Sedum’.”
you would’ve kept your witty comeback if Hwang Hyunjin and Han Jisung weren’t nosily asking what Jungwon did this time for you to submit two poems this week, well if it weren’t for Hyunjin’s sister Yeji smacking both their arms you would’ve told them to shut up.
too flustered to speak anyway, everyone knew you were the anonymous Sedum, even Jungwon; sometimes you’d even catch him smiling brightly walking into the student council’s office for another meeting.
but even if your upperclassmen often teased you, it was only the same for Jungwon.
“god he’s all grown up now, remember when he’d have a terrible stutter when Yn was around?” Heeseung swooned like an excited aunt. 
“yah, who knew it only took a member of the literature club for valedictorian, Yang Jungwon to have a hard time formulating a sentence!” Sunghoon yelped when a harsh smack made a presence on his back. “Just shut up already!” Jungwon resembled an angry kitten, but the flush on his dimpled cheeks made him seem less threatening.
after all the teasing and whooping, you and Jungwon would always sit comfortably in his grandma’s flower shop, basking each others presence and appreciate the fragrance around store — he watched your hand wrap around the pen as you thought hard about your next poem, his fingers busy playing with the petals of the flowers on the vase.
he’d encourage you to start writing a novel seeing you’d been so engrossed at the paper when you were writing a short story for fun, little did he know you had already started one, and it was about the two of you, the two flower petals that would gorgeously sway through the wind together.
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taglist: @i2abella @hwaranghae
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voidselfshipp · 2 years
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Car Problems
Cw: possible inacuracys on cars breaking down and repairing them.
Only mutuals allowed to reblog.
Summary: Billy gets help when his car breaks down,but turns out his savior is very good looking.
Taglist: @tex-treasures @malewifehenrycooldown @80sboyfriends @mercuryships
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--Are you kidding me?!-- Billy shouted getting up from under his car, sighing.
--No luck?-- asked Max.
--No. No fucking luck...-- He replied.
Of all the times his car could break down it had to be now. Just as he returned from picking up Max.
--This cant be happening!-- Billy kicked one of the car's tires gripping his hair.
Luckily a car was Driving by at the time, and the driver stopped besides his car.
--Need help?-- a woman, no more older than Billy was, approached him.
--Yeah, my car wont start..-- Billy replied looking up from the ground after kicking the tire.
His breath stiffles, Brown hair in a bun, messy baby hairs and green eyes, soft porcelain skin, wait..where has he seen her before.
--Oh thank god youre here!-- Max said-- Jerico knows a lot about cars
Oh. Right! Shes from the senior year of Max's school, hes seen her before whenever he goes to pick his sister up.
--Oh good, ive been trying to figure it out...-- Billy admited sheepishly.
--lemme get my tool box and ill check-- she quickly opened the trunk of her car, a black Chevrolet impala, and took the tool box out.
Then made her way to the Mans car and ask --So, any information?
--Yeah, the car just stopped midway..., I heard a scraping sound.., hey Max! Turn on the car Will you?
Max nodded and started the car, inmediatly she heard a creaking sound, and saw the engine rattling a bit.
--Let me just...-- she opened the engine's lid (the cylinder head cover)-- yep..the crankshaft needs more oil...
Billy sighed audibly-- I dont have oil at hand...
Jeri Turned to him with a soft smile-- Hey, how about this, I can add some more oil I have some in my car's trunk, and I can accompany you guys in case the car breaks down again...!
--i uh...-- he clears his throat-- I sure...thank you
She nodded and went to her trunk and Grab that oil, after adding it, she closed the cylinder cover, and the car's hood.
--Okay, all good-- Jer added.
--Good, good..., uh shall we?-- He asked.
--Yeah!
Both got into their respective cars and drove down the street, he could hear Bon Jovi's "living on a prayer" Billy had this stupid smile on his face.
Max raised a brow-- You seem Real happy for a guy who just got helped with his car by a girl
--Look, that girl knows her stuff, besides nobody saw...-- The Man said non-chalantly.
--Uh-huh, her names jerico by the way. Shes really cool..
--Yeah I recall seeing her when I pick you up..
Once in their home, jerico hands Billy a piece of paper-- if you Keep having problems with that car of yours, just call me yeah? My dad is a mechanic and is very cheap
--Wow, subtle plug...-- Billy teased.
She giggled making his heart skip a beat-- Im serious, just call my house if you need help with your car,and uh...take this...in case you wanna hang out...-- She handed him a piece of paper with her number and the words "call me".
He smiled, genuienly-- after this I just might-- he winked-- hey. What are you doing after school tomorrow? Maybe I can go pick you up and take you somewhere? To thank you for helping me out there
Jeri nodded-- Sure, but in that ricketty broken car of yours?
--haha,fuck you too, its not ricketty or broken-- he leaned in on the door frame.
--Cause we are not here in the first place because it broke down..-- she leaned in.
--Well, if it is broken at least I got you to help me out...
She chuckles and presses a soft short kiss on his lips-- Ill see you tomorrow, Billy, say goodbye to Max for me
His cheeks turn red as she walks to her car-- Nice car by the way! -- she says-- goodbye!
And she drives back home.
He gets in his house shaking his head and chuckling under his breath.
--You totally have a crush on her-- Max said.
--Shut up...
Once jerico was home, she Parked the car in the garage shutting its door and walking into her home.
--You look happy-- River, her mom, said.
--I helped a pretty boy with his car and got dad a New costumer...of course im happy-- Jeri said-- hes picking me up after school to take me out, hes going to thank me for helping him...
River laughed-- Im sure he Will, does this pretty boy have a name?
--yeah...Billy, Billy hargrove
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rainjazzvibe · 2 months
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ma, your child's been doing a bit too much of things. spent too much money trying out foods, drinks, books, and happiness. wasting sleep to pay for the big indiligence, thinking that taking pictures with others equates to being closer to them. thinking that sitting down with the same friends means having another place to be in rather than my only place, my own room, my own heart. thinking she can fucking succeed and change the fates implanted and embedded in that life by studying hard, thinking that loving another soul would make it easier to care for, be gentler with, not spit at herself or the thought of being happy with the ill that is herself, thinking that volunteer acts and community care would change a flying fuck of anything, she's of no use again! wasted, wasted, the eyesore in the picture, humanely treated by the basis of humane ability to "pity", that it's always back to what you've always said, ma, "well it's life", that no one escapes their ocean. im drowning a bit too early, did you notice? that also i quite understand that paid concern from the educated, talented people that make their job being educationally concerned, doesn't truly help—no, ma, the bible won't help, of fucking course, never for long, like you always said. no hands are showing up here in this part of the deep sea where sunlight purposefully not shine onto it for how pitiful it is, how disgusting, annoying, and disappointing it is to shine over something that's too far and not made for it's colorful shine.
yet it seems that, ma, i have to be a doctor. even if i lose my heart and mind. i want to be something more. more than this piece of shit that keeps whining about the ONLY thing she should do, SHUT MY MOUTH, please, for i cant even stand it myself.
how many people can i touch and care for instead of this garbage that i am? i will show up tomorrow, and after that, after that, i will NOT be damned. i will be the helping hands ive always dreamed about—and after that? it's going to be alright then now that i can be less than a wound but also the bandages, orthosis, and IVs for the others.
i hope that in this one thing i can do then id find peace. i heard so, ma. so i wont lose my heart, at least. claire, my niece, has to know no disease will make her bedridden, as long as her aunt's carrying and piggybacking her around.
this prickly skin will do the most soft touches you've ever seen. that is if i get up to continue swimming, and for that, i might whine, but not for nothing—i will keep running.
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galamalion · 4 months
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┈ ✧.* 𝓇𝑜𝓂𝒶𝓃𝒸𝑒 𝒾𝓃 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝓇𝑒𝒹 𝓁𝒾𝓃𝑒
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┈ ✧.* summary﹕after a group breakfast, you attend your totally boring not-at-all-cool college classes and end your night on a particularly high note.
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╰┈➤ .𖥔 ݁ ˖ pairing﹕one piece x fem!reader
┈ ✧.* chapters﹕[i] [ii] [iii] [iv]
╰┈➤ .𖥔 ݁ ˖ w/c﹕3.6k
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┈ ✧.* chapter iv﹕breakfast, books, and bedtimes
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“Wakey-wakey, sleepyhead…” a feminine voice whispered from above.
You twitched at the sudden interruption to your sleep, blinking your eyes open once, then twice, and then snapping them fully shut before tucking under your blankets and turning the other direction.
“No…” you groaned, pressing your face into the pillow. “Five more minutes…”
“This isn’t a TV show, get up!” a different voice barked, yanking your blankets off.
Jumping up, sleep still plaguing your body, you lunged towards the blanket-thief, attempting to take your blanket back from their thieving hands.
“Give it back,” you whined, unable to pull it away from her.
“Nope! It’s time for class, no more sleeping!” she cooed.
You sat back in your bed, watching the figure as you slowly began to focus on objects, realizing it was Nami you were fighting.
“God damnit, Nami!” you hissed, stretching your tired body.
“I’m sorry,” Vivi pleaded, looking incredibly guilty. “Nami told me that we could wake you up, I didn’t know you would be so…unreceptive to the idea.”
“It’s fine, Vivi. I guess it’s good that I’m awake now. Do we have plans or something this morning?” you said, sluggishly getting out of bed and walking to your closet.
“Just breakfast,” Nami replied, sitting down on Vivi’s bed.
“With the boys?”
“With the boys,” she said, checking her phone. “They should be there already, want us to wait?”
“Nah.” You grabbed your shower-bag, towel, and fresh pair of clothes. “I’ll shower and be down in a little bit.”
“You sure?” Vivi asked, watching you walk into the small bathroom.
“Yeah, go ahead,” you called from inside, “I’m not leaving this room till I’m clean, you get me?”
“For sure,” you heard Nami sigh in understanding, “well, we’ll see you in a bit, ‘kay?”
“Got it!” You heard the door open and then shut, proceeding to then turn on the shower and hop in.
Once you finished and dried off, you changed into your clean clothes. After carefully brushing your wet hair, you quickly washed your face and headed out towards the dining hall. On your way there you checked your phone for the time, noticing a couple different texts from about half an hour ago.
| Straw Hat: Want brekfast with us? | Straw Hat: Hello | Straw Hat: Hello | Straw Hat: Hello | Straw Hat: Hello | Straw Hat: Hello
Oh, shit. Maybe this is why Vivi and Nami woke you up. You continued scrolling through your phone, seeing another text.
| Zoro: hey i took luffys phone away | Zoro: idk if youre awake so ill text nami  | Zoro: see you soon | Zoro: maybe Read 9:31 AM | You: yea shit my bad i was asleep | You: be up there soon!! | You: tell luffy that i’m nervous he’ll think i’m dead lol Read 9:32 AM | Zoro: lol
It took another minute of walking before you reached the dining hall, climbing the small flight of stairs to reach the top. Your appearance was immediately noted by your table of friends as you spotted Luffy waving excitedly at your entrance. Before he could scream your name—or whatever he planned on yelling—his mouth was quickly covered by Usopp who was then assisted by Sanji in dragging him back down to his chair.
You quickly grabbed a tray of food and made your way over to the table, sitting next to Vivi.
“Good morning, Sleeping Beauty!” Sanji cooed, giving you a teasing finger wave.
“She’s not a fairy tale character, you half-rate cook,” Zoro scoffed.
“The hell’s that supposed to mean, huh?” Sanji hissed, easily enraged by the words of his nemesis. “You tellin’ me she doesn’t look like a princess? What kind of gentlemen do you think you are?”
“I didn’t say she was ugly, I just think she’s not defined by the time she wakes up,” Zoro retorted, finishing his third bowl of rice.
“It’s alright, Zoro,” you reassured, “I mean, doesn’t every girl dream of being a princess? It’s kind of nice to hear it, I guess.”
“Not me!” Nami cheerily answered, peeling away at an orange. “I wanted to be rich, like that Rumplestiltskin guy!”
Sanji swooned, “I’ll be your Rumplestiltskin, my orange blossom!”
“I said I wanna be him, not owe anyone favors,” she scoffed. “But if you’re offering to spin straw into gold for me, go ahead!”
You listened into their three-way conversation for a little longer before turning to Vivi in hopes of a less fiery conversation.
“So, Vi, what classes have you got today?” you asked politely.
Vivi looked excited as she began her explanation, “Well, I have a civics class in about an hour, and then I’ll have a philosophy class after that, and then an economy class…I think that wraps up my day!”
“Wow, pretty wide area of studies,” you remarked. “You’re a political science major, right?”
“Yep!” Vivi clasped her hands together. “It’s good to have an open mind in this field, so I’m trying to gain more perspectives while studying here, so I think these kinds of classes suit me best.”
“Luffy could take a page out of your book,” you sighed.
“What? I don’t need any books! I already have mine!” Luffy hollered from across the table, mouth stuffed with meat. It was a miracle you could even tell what he was saying.
“Nothing, Luffy!” you called back, hoping the food flying from Luffy’s mouth wouldn’t land on anyone nearby.
Vivi politely cleared her throat, “What kind of classes do you have today?”
“Ugh,” you groaned, slouching in your seat.
“Well, that doesn’t appear to be a good sign,” Vivi observed.
“I just don’t want to go to chemistry,” you made a quick vomiting gesture. “I have two psychology classes after that, but I’d rather go to those first and chemistry last, ya feel me?”
Vivi nodded astutely, “Yes, but if you have chemistry now, then you can end your day off on a high note!”
“Always seeing the glass half-full, huh?” you asked, smiling at her enthusiasm.
“I certainly try to. I think it helps me view the world more brightly.”
“Not a bad reason to,” you sighed.
The eight of you ate breakfast together, constantly switching conversations as you all learned new bits and pieces from one another. Sanji was studying culinary arts, Usopp was studying engineering, Vivi had a personal butler back home, and Zoro grew up in a dojo. All in all, your friends' lives were far more interesting than your own. Growing up in a well-maintained orphanage didn’t do much for character growth, after all.
“Well,” you stood up, “my class is starting soon, so I should head out now,”
“Ah, leaving so soon, just like last time!” Sanji cried. “I’ll miss you, my sweet princess!”
“Have fun,” Zoro murmured, drinking from a flask of booze.
“Where the hell’d you get that?!” Usopp gaped.
You decided to make your exit before the situation got out of hand.
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“I hate chemistry,” you groaned, trekking over to the science building.
It wasn’t that chemistry was particularly hard, but it was a lot of work. Concepts could be explained, equations could be understood, and values could be memorized. But it was just so damn boring at times. Sitting still during lecture was insufferable, but you could keep up for a little bit, at least until the next new thing was introduced. Then you’d be lost. But that’s what office hours and tutors were for, you supposed.
You climbed the stairs up to your class, dreading the pit of boredom that awaited you within. Reaching the classroom, you carefully turned the handle and stepped inside. Immediately upon entering, you immediately noticed a familiar face.
Sitting at a lone table off to the side was your lab assistant, Law, if you remembered correctly. Was he really assisting two chemistry classes? What kind of psychotic lunatic would subject themselves to that kind of pain?
His mental state wasn’t something you particularly cared about, especially considering your somewhat embarrassing encounter with him. You decided to just claim a seat and ignore him until further notice, most likely until you needed help with something.
The class itself was cut and dry; Avogrado’s number is important and we’re all made of molecules. Once the lesson was over and the hour was up, you began to pack up your things, particularly slower than your fellow students, who were racing to exit the building.
Once you had your laptop (and pens, pencils, notebook, and calculator) all stored within your bag, you stood from your chair to leave.
“Last one to leave again, huh?” Law’s voice rang out as he stood from his table.
You took a deep breath in, “I guess so, yeah. Last one to wake up, last one to leave.”
“Bad habits can be hard to break,” he advised, walking to the door.
“And that’s why we have alarm clocks,” you muttered, following behind him.
Law snickered at your comment, “That’s what I thought when I was a freshman. They’re pretty effective until you pull three all-nighters in a row.”
“Well, I guess I won’t be pulling any all-nighters, then,” you asserted. “I’ll just have to study before I have a test.”
“Keep telling yourself that,” he smirked, turning into a different hallway than you, leaving you behind.
“Maybe I will,” you murmured to yourself, walking out of the building.
You strolled through campus, intent on heading back to your dorm and studying a little, maybe getting lunch with Vi and Nami later.
“____!” a voice shrilled from across your path.
Turning to your left, you saw Usopp and Zoro making their way towards you, the former waving.
“Hey, ____,” Usopp began, “me and Zoro were gonna go to the library and study, wanna come?” 
You thought for a moment, “Yeah sure, sounds like fun. I’ve got some work I need to finish up on.”
“Sweet!” Usopp cheered, charging towards the direction of the library. “Follow me, Usoppites!”
You and Zoro gave each other a knowing before the latter shrugged his shoulders, stomping after the young man.
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The three of you gathered together at a table, pulling up chairs and setting your notebooks and laptops up on top.
“So,” you began, opening up your computer, “anyone have exciting stories from their first week?”
“It’s only Tuesday,” Zoro groaned, rubbing his forehead and leaning back in his chair.
You rolled your eyes, “That doesn’t mean cool stuff can’t have happened, mossy .”
“Only annoying if it’s from Sanji,” he scoffed, crossing his arms with a tiny smirk on his face. What, was it the curly eyebrows that ruined the name for him?
“I have a story, kind of,” Usopp interjected sheepishly. “It’s about a guy in one of my engineering classes…”
“Well, spit it out,” Zoro grunted.
“Look who’s interested now,” you teased, poking him in the shoulder.
“Never said I wasn’t,” he fired back.
Usopp cleared his throat, “Well, there’s a huge guy in my mechanical engineering class, and I mean massive guy. Everything about him his huge—shoulders, thighs, calves, neck,”
“Dick?” Zoro chuckled, earning a playful shove from you.
“I can only assume so,” Usopp answered honestly. “But anyways, I don’t know why he’s in the class, he’s a junior .”
‘I know a thing or two about juniors,’ you thought to yourself, flipping through your notebook.
“I’ve heard some rumors from other students. A few say that the school’s making him retake the class because he beat up the teacher, but I’ve also heard that he beat up his entire class,” Usopp whispered, looking around as if the student would appear behind him. “But most importantly, people have said that he’s a G-A-N-G leader!”
You and Zoro shared a brief look before turning to Usopp.
“I know that Grand Line isn’t exactly known for its prim and properness, Usopp,” you reasoned, “however, if this guy really beat the shit out of his teacher or class or whatever he did, the school would probably expel him, not make him retake the class.”
“____ has a point,” Zoro yawned, “but there’s probably a reason he has those rumors around him. I’d keep an eye out.”
“No problemo!” Usopp straightened his papers, “I’m keeping a close eye on him, just in case he tries something dastardly. I won’t end up like my predecessors!”
All you could do was hesitantly accept Usopp’s resolution, slightly fearing for his safety if he were to be caught.
“Am I really the only one with a problem student in my classes?” Usopp grumbled, “I thought bad boys would be more widespread at Grand Line…”
“Well, I don’t have a problem student per se,” you lightly coughed, “but I have an assistant in two of my classes, and I think he’s gonna be a pain in my ass.”
Zoro quirked an eyebrow, “You think he’s gonna fail you or somethin’?”
“Well, no,” you admitted, “I just think he’s gonna be a pain in my ass.”
“Repeating what you said doesn’t make your meaning any clearer…” Usopp pointed out, chewing on the back of his pencil.
“Ok, well, it doesn’t matter,” you sighed, glaring down at your papers.
“I have a class with Luffy,” Zoro said coolly.
“What makes you think he counts as a bad boy?!” you and Usopp snarled.
After your little discussion, the three of you began working separately on your assignments. You focused on studying in advance of your next chemistry class, hoping to prove Law wrong in his assumptions. By keeping ahead of your work, you could easily sleep in far longer than intended. At least until you had a morning class. But you could worry about that next semester, or whenever the universe decided to sprinkle a little misfortune in your idealistic college experience. Damned universe.
The silence persisted for an hour, only interrupted by an occasional cough or hurried knee-bouncing beneath the table. Your phone was the first real disturbance, buzzing on the table and causing a light shiver to course through it. You hurriedly removed it and checked to see what caused the notification, spotting a text from Nami.
| Nami: hiiiiiiiii Read 6:53 PM | You: hey namiiiiiiiiiiiii | Nami: hey | Nami: so vi was wondering if u wanted to have a slumber party? | Nami: idk if u have anything going on rn but that’s on the table if u wanna join! | You: omg i’d love to | You: need me to bring anything up to the dorm? | Nami: no lol | Nami: vi already brought everything and is currently decorating the room | Nami: Attachment (1) Image
You looked at Nami’s picture, seeing a selfie of her sitting in the middle of a small tile floor, a sink and shower in the background.
| You: why are you in the bathroom? | Nami: i’ve been exiled while vi sets everything up | Nami: i’ll see if she can guide me out into the hallway so i can wait with u | You: ok i’ll be over soon | Nami: ♡
“Alright guys,” you breathed, standing up and gathering your things. “I have been cordially invited to attend a slumber party and must take my leave.”
“Will you be okay walking back alone?” Usopp asked.
You swung your bag over your shoulder, “Don’t worry, I’ll call you guys if I need anything.”
“Stay safe,” Zoro muttered, hunched over a stack of papers.
“Yeah, good luck with all that,” you laughed quietly, leaving the library.
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“Nami?” you called out, stepping into the hallway of your dorm floor.
“Right here!” Nami’s voice echoed back, spotting you and offering a small wave.
She was sitting up against the wall right next to your dorm room’s door and wearing her pajamas, peeling a small tangerine with her left hand and scrolling on her phone with her right.
“I’m so glad you’re here,” she groaned, pointing to a pile of tangerine peels, “I’ve been bored out of my mind waiting for Vi to finish setting up.”
“I assume a picturesque site awaits us behind the door,” you joked, sliding down beside her.
“Ugh, you and your big fancy-pants lingo,” she pouted, popping a tangerine slice into her mouth.
“What, is picturesque too big a word for your shiny golden brain?” you teased. “I’ll rephrase—It’s gonna be real purty in that room! How’d I do?”
Nami jabbed you with her elbow, earning a yelp from you.
“I’ll have you know, Little Miss Knows-a-Lot, that I won my elementary school’s spelling bee when I was—”
Before Nami could finish her retort, the door beside her flew open, revealing a very chipper Vivi dressed in her matching silk pajamas, holding another matching pair and a blindfold.
“Oh, good afternoon, ____! Thank you very much for agreeing to attend my slumber party. I have prepared a pair of pajamas for you to wear, but you’ll have to put on this blindfold to go get changed, I do not want my surprise ruined!”
You nodded, giving Nami a salute before allowing Vivi to lead you blindfolded into the bathroom to get changed. And, after changing, you patiently waited for Vivi to give you the go ahead to leave.
“You done yet, Vi?” you tapped on the bathroom door while reading the labels on everyone's skin care products.
“Almost, I promise!” she hollered back, “I just need to put on the finishing touches to make sure nothing falls down!”
“Falls down?” Nami shouted through the door. “Just what are you doing to our room?”
“Nothing permanent!” Vivi sang, clearly rushing back and forth in the room judging by her voice.
“I’ve had to start reading the backs of shampoo bottles now, Vi! If I run out of labels to read I think I’ll die,” you pleaded.
“Hey, be careful touching my stuff! Break it and you pay for it!” Nami barked, knocking viciously on her door.
“How am I gonna break a shampoo bottle?” you scoffed, placing it back down and reciprocating her violent knocks.
Just as you were about to send another knock Nami’s way, the bathroom door flew open, causing you to stumble forward and onto the floor.
“Oops! I’m so sorry!” Vivi cried, helping you up and opening the door to the dorm.
“Well, let’s see this awesome slumber party room…” Nami started, the words quickly dying on her tongue as she took in the room.
Beautiful was too dull a word to describe how absolutely stunning the room was. The blankets had been rearranged to form a tent structure between the two beds, using a tall stick that had come from who knows where with a base that allowed it to remain firmly planted without fear of toppling over. Little fairy lights decorated the ceiling of the fort, both large and tiny pillows decorated the sides of the fort, and soft, fluffy blankets were scattered about for snuggling purposes. Snacks were stacked within the fort along the bed frames, easily within reach of anyone who wanted anything, bowls sitting underneath a bed. On the other side of the fort was Vivi’s laptop with about fifteen tabs of different streaming services open for your viewing pleasure during this slumber party. 
Nami gaped at the sight, “Vi, it’s…” 
“...Picturesque?” you breathed, staring in amazement.
“Welcome!” Vivi clasped her hands in excitement before spreading them out, “to my very first slumber party!”
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asakurahaos · 5 months
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I was supposed to start seeing a new therapist today but couldnt go, so i was (again) going through all the things i should tell her when i do eventually go, and the thing that was last on that list was the fact that sometimes i just feel like pieces of me are just... resting? as in like stopping? falling away from me? idk how to properly explain it but ill try better when i talk to her. Anyways. The point was, i can feel pieces of me shutting down, and one time when i felt a piece 'go', i had the thought that i will fall asleep one time and just wont wake up bc ill completely shut down. And just now, i was thinking of that moment and trying to convince myself i cant rly sense things like that, that im just too obsessed w death, that its all in my head etc and opened youtube to take my mind off of it all...
Only to it to open to a short from a hospice nurse talking about people (not her patients & otherwise healthy ppl) who felt like they were going to die and did die soon after, with people in the comments talking abt their experiences w ppl close to them feeling the same thing i am feeling rn 🙃
One of them said their SIL felt like she always felt like she was going to die young, and thats what ive always felt too. Since i was abt 7 i felt that i was going to die at 33 (or early 30s in general). Im turning 30 in 4½ months. Ive always been super afraid of death, but now im feeling calm about it all.
Idk its all super weird to me cause like. I dont really mind dying but also i want to have some fun/happiness, but the thought of 'why does it matter when im going to die soon anyways' is stopping me. I have things i want to buy bc it would make me very happy to have them but i keep thinking, 'okay, but what will my family do w this after im gone? Im just gonna waste more money and leave them w things that will collect dust + be painful reminders of me, and i dont want to do that to them.'
I want to get rid of these thoughts. I want them gone. I want to live. I want to live longer than my 30s and i want to be healthy and happy and i want to enjoy life. Im so tired of this all. I want new experiences and new people in my life and to travel and visit my friends and family who live far away. I dont want to be paralyzed by the thoughts of death and 'why does it matter'. I want to refurnish my room - something ive always put off due to my 'close' death. I wish i could see my future, at least a glimpse of it, even if its really bad, just to know im still here.
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Hi :)
it's 14/02/23 aka v'day lol now wtvr you assume that v to be
Well it's 7:57 pm writing this before touching any of my pending projects, eating last 2 pieces of my dark chocolate missing you as fuck. But my mood swings are stable rn.. yesterday really sucked like firstly in school yk, i went to school only and only for you. I hate school nd Yk that nd then after I came home nd said ill ttyl nd then till the night it was understandable that i might not be able to talk to you again nd oh God it went like that.. other than that got into in argument with all my family yesterday nd cried till i suffocated myself, wasn't able to study cz the feeling of missing you was stronger than any other thing i was supposed to focus on.. well nvm
Since this morning I am just listening to hindi lovesick songs on full volume on speaker nd just missing you. Can't cry until everyone's asleep lol so i m behaving really unusual lol, "don't blame me love made me crazyyy" pfft
Well ofc I'm outta my mind nd can't do anything so I've decided to write one of these daily until you get your phone back :) you can't miss a detail no?
So i did somethings today that you'll be proud to listen hihi like papa gave a rose today so i stole that nd made a face mask out of that nd put that on my face it worked well (assuming), a lil of that mask is still left so i stored it, nd today chacha snatched my blanket off nd took me for a walk lol nd said he'll wake me up daily at 4 am from tomorrow so yea i said ok cz you'll be happy, also ive had 2 meals of a day like, whoa today i will complete my all 3 meals??? Insane. Other than that i just overshared mt feelings with everyone saying i miss you alot that i might die 💀 idc. Aa btw yesterday i felt like i can hold an eye contact with you for years like that's something i didn't expect from myself oof, but ydk you look really cute when give a shy smile from the other corner of the class, nd when you're out of my bus 😭 cutu .. well yesterday i felt so weird about you sitting alone so i asked Divya to accompany you but you- lol, nd that that moment in bus when you were looking away nd some kid shut the window off lmfaooooo i laughed too hard bruh 😭😭 cutie fr. Um
I don't wanna maintain distance really but i m forcing myself to cz ugh nvm btw today in the morning I saw you in my dream like any other day nd we were in a function, holding hands nd running, i woke up sad heh, nd nd day after tomorrow there's a wedding of some cousin of mine nd I'll wear full traditional, i was excited as so fuck but then i remembered you're not here to look at those photos nd compliment **sigh**. It's ok I'll save those photos for you to compliment me later :"") ilysm
any other detail will make this msg unreadable now so I'll stfu now. Bbye cutie i hope you're studying well unlike me nd being ok :") <3
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lilliebabie · 2 years
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tw: self condescension, loneliness, general mental illness and negative subjects (possibly psychotic thoughts)
This is not something to read if you are regressed
i dont feel good. i feel ill right now. its really embarrassing because i know its childish and unimportant and no one else would care like this but basically ive been a huge fan of the magnus archives since summer 2020 and its been a big part of my life, i was genuinely hyper fixated on it for a while like it was what i was thinking about seventy percent of the time. its still the only piece of media I consistently read fics for. I prepared myself well for its end and coped with it remarkably well for someone as pitiful as myself. i accepted it and felt okay. i really really felt ok, and satisfied and satiating and an appropriate amount of sad. i thought it was a good ending. a well written one. anyone with any good media literacy skills can probably know that an melancholy yet ambiguous ending was best for a show like tma. one of my biggest pet peeves is when pieces of media that closed their stories extremely intentionally and cleanly open it up again for more money and because there out of ideas. And tma isn’t even doing an extra thing like I thought they were suggesting with an arg they released. It’s a full on sequel. I feel so sick writing this. i know it’s pathetic. i know it’s embarrassing. but it feels like the corpse of something I loved was buried nicely within me and I’ve been through the stages of grief and I’ve accepted it, but now my acceptance has been broken because the corpse has been dug up and desecrates for money and a lack of ideas. seeing the worst parts of capitalism and of media and art within it taint my favorite art is really really hard right now. And it’s so rough because I think I recall Jonny sims emphasizing that this was the end point blank period. And it should have been. But nothing I love can stay nice. I don’t know. i can’t handle it all again. All the stress. This is also so so so embarrassing, no one looks at my posts so at this point I’m putting it out in tot he void which is fine by me, I just need to get it off my chest, but i am so so so painfully lonely and understimulated and uninterested in life too that ive been trying to imagine that Martin from tma is my friend. I try to hear him taking to me and being next to me because I feel like I’m losing my humanity and my connection to human being and my very being will literally cosmically unravel if I can’t put myself in delusion that I have a friend who loves me on a deeper level than is possible. I don’t know. I don’t know. They’re messing up my equilibrium. Everything was laid to rest. It’s a terrible decision writing wise too. The finale has lost all meaning. Rusty quill has been laying off workers and taking breaks on other works for this dumb arg bc I guess nothing was making them money so just bring back the FINISHED series you promised you wouldn’t bring back I guess. Nothing means anything anymore. When I found out about all this, like when it came out that this new content would be tma2 and that they were firing people if felt like k was losing it and I had to start calling out for people who don’t exist to keep me existing. I hate them. I can’t do this. It’s hard to watch such a well written thing become shut writing for money. HE SAID HE WOULDNT BRING IT BACK. i need to sleep now and I guess I’ll pretend there is another person here and I’ll make it real.
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