i really think we need to start holding ccs and blogs that whitewash/colorwash idols accountable. people will always be like "whitewashing is so bad i never do it on purpose! i will not reblog those sets!" but there have been SO many instances in which i've run into a cc whitewashing and the gifset is reblogged by every one of their mutuals. like kpopblr has such an obsession with mutuals to the point where it's like people can't even recognize when their own mutual has whitewashed a set. like guys. use your brains. it's not that hard. sometimes ccs make mistakes and that is okay, both when it comes to creating the set and reblogging from a mutual. people usually tend to automatically trust a mutual so they may not be as careful when reblogging (which i am also definitely guilty of). but if the same cc is whitewashing sets, and the same mutuals are reblogging them, despite all of the people involved saying that they absolutely condemn whitewashing.... then i don't even know what to say. if you're really as against whitewashing/colorwashing as you say you are, hold your own mutuals accountable.

sore winners and sore losers

😀 i love setting out to draw 1 character multiple times but ending up drawing multiple characters 1 time instead 😀 i love it so much 😀

Rot wings concept featuring rot suns because I got bored waiting for my brother to finish grocery shopping

something something warped funhouse mirror images that keep me up at night

unsure how to word this but there is something about having ocs with unsavory events happening in their past where it's like. talking about it, even when asked, seems almost gratuitous and inappropriate. and i'd much rather describe it through the oc themself and/or draw Them saying it. which is like. fitting for the subject matter? like of course its weird to talk about somebody else's business...!

and falls back into humanizing em/exploratory writing and development where u consider the impact of words said/words unsaid/HOW those words are said etc etc

I'm not usually a person to post on many serious matters not regarding fandom on here, but as someone who watched a lot of his stuff and posted about him in the past a bunch, I just wanted to say that I'm no longer am going to interacting with any of Wilbur's content and if you support Wilbur Soot then please don't follow my blog because you are not welcome here. All strength and love to Shubble in this ✊

Let’s Talk Aftermarkets!

so Ostermad’s excellent magazine BXLLET CLIP is out now, and I wanted to talk a bit about my contribution! i wrote three modular tools called Aftermarkets, designed to amplify or fill gaps in the original game. BXLLET’s only ten pages long, so i definitely left a lot on the cutting room floor when making it. Aftermarkets felt like a fun way to recycle some of those concepts!

for those who dont know, BXLLET is a post-apocalyptic cowboy game about violence, and the role it plays in helping the world rebuild. players are wandering vagrants who grow stronger the more bullets they carry, and can always kill with a single shot. the game’s then not about *whether* you can kill someone, but what’ll happen if you do.

when I was writing the Aftermarkets, I wanted to make sure they each contributed something to that core idea, either pushing games towards engaging with those ideas or putting wrinkles in the way they usually play out.

first up, we’ve got Bullet Rations, a guide for GMs on how to distribute bullets. the number of bullets available in a game has a huge influence on its tone, with less bullets pushing a session towards a quieter, more calculating state, and more offering the potential for frenetic hyperviolence. however, the base game never offered a ton of support around this. i wanted to make a system that would be easy to incorporate and give some more overt guidance around this for people new to the system, but that’s still backgrounded enough to allow for weirder games with different philosophies around bullets than mine. my favorite part of this system is that, since it puts a cap on the number of bullets available in any given session, and that cap is shared between PCs and NPCs, players looking to consolidate power are naturally gonna become more and more distrustful of everyone around them.

second up, Running Beasts! my personal favorite. Beasts are dangerous and mysterious, and can range anywhere from “weird post-apoc set dressing” to “major existential threat.” this Aftermarket’s designed to give GMs and players some handholds when telling stories about Beasts, keeping them serious and dangerous while also fleshing out why they do what they do and (hopefully) building some sympathy. my favorite part here is how many new ways it gives players to resolve an encounter with a Beast besides “kill it to death,” and how some of those solutions can carry serious consequences.

and lastly, there’s Shooting First. i was anxious about writing this one cuz i dont want BXLLET to turn into a game of tactical combat, but having some sharp, simple rules for resolving face-offs that also carry with them some devastating consequences felt very in-line with the game. i love how there’s some really heartbreaking stories you can tell with this one, and i cant wait to play with it myself.

thanks for reading! check these all out in BXLLET CLIP, alongside a bunch of other phenomenal modules from different ttrpg creators, as well as a fun interview between Ellie and myself!

the school arc to me is so good because it drags ciel out of his position as a powerful figure and literally places him in the shoes of the person he could have been. the circus arc ALSO drags him out of his position as big bad queens watch dog/head of the phantomhive estate but the school arc feels like a mockery of a future that never was. this is what he could have been had his parents not died. and even then its NOT because he will never be that kid.

he never was.

not to be mean but i'm starting to think christianity on the whole is just a death cult

omg do you guys wanna hear about the church family tree from my rvb fantasy au. i spent quite a bit of time working it out bc, since its fantasy, theres no ai and i had to figure out how it would translate lol

this will contain mild spoilers for my au but a) it doesnt exist yet and b) most of them are derived from the plot of rvb so theyre kind of already spoiled. so. anyway, on to the actual post

ok so first off. church (alpha) has DID. so all the ai fragments exist but theyre no longer ai and theyre in his head the whole time. and this includes beta!tex (tentatively called beth? since tex also exists. we'll get to that). it also includes epsilon which will be. interesting. i have some ideas for how to handle that but its kinda besides the point.

the director is churchs father, and allison is churchs mother (who dies when church is a kid). the director is also carolinas father, but carolina has a different mother, so church and carolina are half siblings. tex was also raised by the director but she is not blood related to any of them - she bears a coincidental resemblance to allison (in personality, not necessarily physical appearance), which is why the director favours her over carolina (keeping the carolina/tex favourite child tension, of course). i havent worked out exactly when the director took in tex, but if it was early enough that the director named her, he probably would have named her allison (i mean, he also named his son after himself in this au. you know he'd do it, ESPECIALLY if allison is already dead at this point) and she chooses to go by tex or smth. alternatively, the director named her tex the same way he named the other freelancers like washington and york, keeping the whole "leaving your old name (read: old self) behind when you join the freelancers" thing from canon, meaning that her previous name (and whether she had one at all) is irrelevant. hmmm now that i say that, its probably the latter tbh

now, i may keep beth being based on allison, but while i know what an introject is, i dont know if i feel comfortable really. representing one. so it may not be CANON canon but itll probably be canon to me. additionally, church is raised separately from carolina, tex, and eventually the other freelancers [the freelancers are kinda like a family in this au btw. but like a fucked up hierarchal one. and church is completely isolated from it even though the director is "raising" him. anyway] for plot reasons, but he coincidentally runs into tex one day as kids and they meet in secret for years until tex eventually helps him escape the director. which is to say. beth will likely pick up traits/mannerisms from tex just by virtue of tex being churchs only friend in childhood, combined with the fact that allison and tex are kind of similar in personality. so shes blood related to allison and potentially an introject of her, and has spent a lot of time with tex/knows her very well, so shes gonna have similarities to both of them but she is ultimately her own person. in churchs head.

uhhhh i think that covers it? anyway this means i get to write interactions between tex and beth which will be extremely fun. i like tex as a character and itll probably be difficult to decide how to characterize her in 2 different ways (plus allison but shes gonna be dead for most of it so i dont really have to worry about her) and then to have them interact? they would be chaotic besties i just KNOW it

Not saying im worried that between the prominence of kirkwall and now a poweful ancient tevinter blood-magic fueled artefact being on the loose the enigma of kirkwall might get relevant again but. yknow.

BRO SOMETHING HAPPENED AT WORK!!! I'M HOLED UP IK THE BATHROOM RN JUST TO TELL YOU!!!!!!

Ok ok ok. So during the lunch rush, this lady walks up to the register to pay for her food. No biggie, huh? I do my job as normal. That's what you do...

And then I looked up and saw the woman wearing a shirt of MY WIFE!!!

IT WAS THIS EXACT ONE!!! Well the color was more of a lavender but STILL!!!! MY WIFE CAME TO SEE ME AT WORK!!! I ALMOST SCREAMED IN THIS WOMANS FACE!!!!! I WAS ROCKING ON MY HEELS IN EXCITEMENT!!!! THIS ONE MOMENT MADE MY DAY!!! XD

I am embarrassed that I got this excited and happy over a T-shirt 😅 (and admittedly a little more embarrassed/flustered when i imagined if Tiffany was really right there. Like, no, don't look at me when I smell like burritos 😅😅😅😅), but at the same time, I SAW MY FIRST F/O OUT IN THE WILD!!!!

I may get this shirt now 🤔 have you ever had moments like this when you see your F/O on merch or something? XD ^^

I woke up at the ungodly time of 5.30am on a Saturday for no apparent reason, checked my notifications, and saw THIS and I was instantly okay with it XDD

YOUR WIFE!!

IN PUBLIC, IT WAS YOU'RE WIFE!!! B E F O R E YOU!!!

WAHHH! XDD

Omg, I can just feel your excitement XDD THAT SOUNDS SO FUN OMG XDD YES!! TIFFANY CAME TO SEE YOU AT WORK!! SHE DOESNT CARE THAT YOU SMELL LIKE BURRITOS!!! 💜💕💜💕💜💕 SHE WANTED TO SEE YOU AND FLUSTER YOU A BIT! XD

If Red Lantern Rankorr has 1000 haters one of them is me. If he has 100 haters I'm there. If he only has 1 hater that is me. If no one hates him I am no longer on this Earth. I hate Rankorr. Fuck that bitch

LMAOO going through my drafts rn and damn I really hated this guy. I mean I still do but idk this is funny to me

red vs blue restoration blew such huge chunks im actually mad. like completely enraged. and i wouldnt have it any other way. rest in peace you son of a bitch

MY MUM JUST BOUGHT ME AND HER TICKETS TO SEE SIX?? UNPROMPTED???? SHE IS THE MOST CONFUSING WOMAN ALIVE??????? BUT YAAAAAYYYY