Just getting this idea out there so that maybe I'll actually finish writing it one day, but -

I've been on a Legend of Zelda kick recently. Currently replaying BOTW. Never played AOC but I've watched gameplay and all the cutscenes so I know what happens. Planning to play that and TOTK again soon. But I've got this idea cooking in my head.

Theres a post that talks about "what if you could find the Divine Beasts in the Depths", and another funny post that was just "what if Teba was the sage of Wind and not Tulin?" And I remembered when BOTW had just come out, and then AOC after, and people were speculating about the characters, like Teba, being the New Champions and getting to bond to the Divine Beasts.

That didn't happen in canon, but. Hear me out. What if even just one of the Divine Beasts bonded with a New Champion... like say, the one who doesn't become a Sage?

Teba, Sidon, Riju, and Yunobo return from their adventure in the past/alternate timeline/whatever, having saved those Champions and that Hyrule from destruction. Their own timeline is still the same, but they continue on as they do in canon.

Except they all meet up shortly after returning home, and one of them (Sidon or Riju maybe) asks "hey did anyone else try going to the Divine Beasts only to get rejected" and while the rest are like "yup wonder what that's about, sad" Teba is like "no wtf are you all talking about I was settling back in with my wife and kid."

But something about it sticks with Teba. He goes home, looks up at Vah Medoh, and thinks, 'it probably won't work but I may as well try just to confirm.'

...Vah Medoh accepts him as its new pilot.

I'm unsure as to whether or not Revali's spirit will still be there for a quick hello - but if he is, he'd be like "whomst?!" And Teba would be like "if you were still alive I'd definitely adopt you because thanks to some time travel shenanigans i know that you desperately needed a parental figure in your life".

Mostly everything else proceeds as is canon up to the start of TOTK - except for the other Divine Beasts continuing to chill at their resting places, because upon hearing about Teba successfully bonding with Medoh, the others want to keep trying.

But, for whatever reason, Hylia decided that you cannot be both a Sage and a Divine Beast pilot, so the Beasts acknowledge them but never quite accept them as their pilots.

Then, TOTK. Then the chasms. Then, the other 3 Divine Beasts taking a plunge into the Depths.

Teba freaks out a little bit, but Medoh is circling Rito Village and is fine, except now there's these random floating islands but also a fuckass blizzard that's making it almost impossible to keep everyone fed, and Teba's just been saddled with Elder status so he's super in charge and Tulin is in a bit of a "I can do anything let me prove it let's go" phase and is trying to convince Teba to use Vah Medoh to fly up and stop the blizzard, but Teba is way too busy trying to keep the village from falling apart to go right now -

Then Link shows up, and Tulin runs off, and Link follows him, and the two go up and find the Stormwind Ark and fight Colgera and as the magical blizzard finally ends, Teba is just like "what the fuck".

Tulin tells him he's become a Sage, and isn't that cool dad?! And Teba is like "you're 12 and you're going to help fight a demon king?!?! Wtf?!"

But then at some point, Tulin (who knows the other Sages from that time he was in AOC, and meeting them a few times with his dad after) one day looks up from his breakfast and says "oh hey Sidon just became the Sage of Water! I saw it through my connection with Link!" And that's when it clicks into place for Teba why the Beasts never quite accepted the other "New Champions" - because they were destined for something else.

But Vah Medoh is still here. And it's pissed that it's fellow Beasts are gone and it also wants to blast Ganondorf in the face.

Unfortunately, Teba can't let it blast the castle when Link and co go to confront the Zelda illusion, because Tulin is there, Link is there, Sidon and Riju and Yunobo are there, and it's not the real demon king yet anyway.

Teba is grumpy about it, about letting Tulin go off and risk his life when he's a child and Teba is an adult, but then a huge dark dragon explodes out from the chasm below the castle and Vah Medoh is all too happy to fire upon it, knowing it's Ganondorf and wanting some sweet revenge of its own.

Teba's just surprised he can see the dark dragon, it's huge but he'd heard tales of only the young, or those chosen by thr goddesses, could see dragons. Maybe it's because of Vah Medoh that he can see this one, and the little light dragon that comes in and - hey is that Link?!

Maybe it ends with Teba going down to the Depths with Link to visit the other Divine Beasts, and suggesting that the locations stay known so that future generations may try to awaken them. They don't really need the Beasts anymore since both Calamity Ganon and Ganondorf have been defeated, but Medoh doesn't want to turn off and is happy just chilling at Rito Village with Teba. The end.

I have like 2.5k of this already written, I just wanted to use this post to write more of the ideas for the fic structure before I go to bed lol. And this idea probably doesn't make a hell of a lot of sense canon-wise, but it doesn't need to because the only reason this exists is because i love Teba and wish he'd gotten more screntime (or at least some spoken dialogue in the cutscenes!) in TOTK.

im really sad thinkin abt some of my friends

ive only seen bits and pieces of what happened to predesterone, i know they got deleted (at least twice) and the ceo is making defamatory statements about them, but im genuinely confused as to where I could find this all going down. if u dont wanna gather links or whatever i get it its just that everything popped up on my dash suddenly and i want to know whats happening but i dont know how to find out

theres obviously a lot of people posting rn but ill try to get some links together to sum it up as best i can find- keep in mind i never followed her myself and only distantly knew of her so there are people closer to the situation that probably have more stuff they can tell you though, and searching her url(s) has a lot of info

avery has i think two blogs deleted yeah, unsure about any older ones but predstrogen and avewy/predesterone were both deleted very recently

predstrogen (the first blog) was allegedly deleted for "sexually explicit material" despite any posts that may have been labelled as such being marked with a community label and her blog recently being manually approved as NOT containing adult content. she also talks in this post, as well as here, about how she has had a support ticket open for several months for harassment she was receiving that has not been dealt with

this is an example of the threats and harassment she has been receiving. ive seen a few different people get this ask copy pasted

the CEO of tumblr made a post wherin he publicly aired information regarding her deletion and threatened legal action against her , showing examples of the alleged death threats where no actual threats were made and telling people in the replies to just leave if they were unhappy with the moderation of the site

avery made a post about this and her new blog was again deleted within five minutes of her making it

multiple people who have made posts about the situation have said matt has DMed them and confronted them

this is word im hearing secondhand, so if i get any details wrong please correct me, but posts of hers such as her transition timeline are apparently ones that were flagged. i cant find any screenshots but many of her posts, including one that was a silly edit of a snow leapord wearing shoes, have been completely wiped from the site. if anyone has a screenshot or link to both the original post and it being deleted i can add it to this

again there are a lot of posts going around but these are i think what you really need to know whats going on...

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(reblogs are greatly appreciated, it helps get my content out there! if you guys like what you see, please reblog it too <:D)

my insomniac ahh had to make this, so imagine:

the atsv babes with an insomniac partner (part 1 !)

miles would probably not have been bothered if you texted him in the middle of the night, well a little disoriented because he was in the middle of sleeping peacefully, but when it came to you, nothing was a bother. he would be worried though, like you messaging him at that time? it had to have been important. so he checks your messages and just chuckles to himself when you text him, "miles bb i cant sleep tell me a story :(" he'd text you back, "want me 2 swing u round nyc? make u feel better (´｡• ◡ •｡`) ♡" you'd always giggle at the cute little kaomojis he'd send, they always cheered you up no matter how irritating your insomnia would get. "ngl i think i cant sleep bc of u" you text him. he raised an eyebrow and texts you back, "wdym?" as he waits for your message, miles' mind began to think that, lately, you did seem pretty lethargic and tired at school. you were caught sleeping in class once and tried to cover for you that you were both studying up late at night for your geography finals or something, when in reality, you were struggling to sleep at night. he sighed, he felt bad he couldn't help you fall asleep right then and there, but he really wanted to do something to ease your burden. it wasn't long until you texted him back a selfie of you curled up in your bed, smiling, with dark circles under your eyes and with disheveled hair all the while from all the tossing and turning. you had a caption there that said, "bc when i finally sleep i find myself missing u, dont leave me while im sleeping ok?" he blushed as he saw your cute face, even if it was tired and sleepy. he took a bed selfie of his own, the same fashion as yours--disheveled and smiling as he's tucked in, with the caption, "ofc not ill even visit ur dreams if u want me to ( ∩´͈ ᐜ `͈∩)"

gwen would probably be doing her rounds as spider woman when she noticed a faint light still on by your room. she decided to check in on you, the last time that light was on, you were overworking yourself on a group project you carried all on your own she kicked those slackers' asses the next day. the minute she got there, she noticed you were tossing and turning a whole lot in your bed, clearly struggling to find the right position and spot on your bed to sleep in comfortably. she winced, you seemed really stiff and uncomfortable, you didn't look like sleep was coming to take you away to dreamland any time soon. she lightly knocked on your window, which made you get up immediately. you smiled when you saw her, and you opened the window for her. "hey," you said, clearly tired but unable to sleep. "hey." she replied with a grin as she sat by your windowsill. "can't sleep?" she asked and you nodded slowly. "that... really sucks." she said, taking her mask off to look at you. she was sorry she couldn't say anything better to help the situation, but whatever you were going through, she didn't want you to go through it alone. you laid back down on your bed, "what about you? any plans to sleep tonight, spider woman?" you asked her, to which she chuckled. "not when you're new york's only defender. and especially not when my partner is struggling to sleep on such a fine night." "well... can you maybe sit down next to me? it's not gonna be anything weird, i just... i have a feeling i couldn't sleep because of everything that's happened to us lately–i just really missed you." you say as you look up at her, now in front of you as she hopped off the windowsill and walked toward you. "like how we used to do at sleepovers?" she asked as she gently pulled up a chair and sat across from you. you smiled. "yeah... just like how we used to do at sleepovers." you said as gwen took your hand in her own. even with the suit on, it was warm. you could feel her pulse, the life in her veins and the love she had for you. "i really love you, gwen." you say as she leaned over to kiss your forehead. "love you, too. i hope you'll sleep well tonight." she said as she brushed a few stray hairs away from your face as you closed your eyes, smiling and holding her hand all the while, with her not intending nor planning to ever let you go.

My last post on this (tho ill keep reblogging others' posts) but a few days ago I actually wanted to complain about this and then never did so ill do it now.

I unfollowed Noah a few weeks ago? On insta. And completly forgot that he also has tiktok and that i followed him there so one of his newer videos popped up on my page and it was smth like Eleven dancing in Fortnite and i checked the comments, hoping to see some palestenian flags🇵🇸 or anyone calling him out, but it was FILLED with support for him and "youre back baby🥺" "noah online era again!" "omg ily! Pls say hi to me🥺" and then i opened his full acc and noticed that That recent video was also more viewed and liked than some of his previous videos... all he had to do for so many people to switch up was... post a stupid fucking tiktok about Stranger Things... and just like that he was being idolised again, all it took...

Fucking pathetic and sad.

Love Will Byers all u want (he'll probably always be one of my alltime favourite characters too) but do not hide behind that to support Noah or Brett or Levy or whatever. Theyre awful human beings and they dont care about anyone but themselves. You can love the character and hate the actor. Fanarts and ao3 are free, you dont need to support ST. Pirate the show, make your own merch, only interact with free fanmade content. There's no need to show support for official Stranger Things stuff. Actually, take it a step further and boycott what the bds movement is asking to boycott!

These are the main ones!

But the people, on their own, also started these specific boycotts! (Starbucks too! I was obsessed with pumpkin spice latte but im never stepping foot inside a Starbucks again).

Again, the MAIN TARGETS are the ones inside the first box. The second and third box are about putting PRESSURE on them (ofc we cant boycott google but we Can put pressure) and the last box is the "the people started it on their own without the bds asking" boycotts! Disney and Starbucks (although both missing from the 4th box) are actually part of the "people started/led" boycotts too!

There are also people out there sharing FREE books (online) about Palestine! It's easy to look up but I can send you some if you don't find anything, I'm reading one myself.

There are also essays made by others that summarise specific books!

(Apparently this one also has a voiceover? Not sure bc I still havent checked it out but I saw Multiple people reccomend it and will hopefully get to it soon!)

Last thing: depending on where you live (im not from the US, nor live there, and that's the main genocide supporter) you can also call your representatives, send emails (you can find premade speeches) and go to protests! And most of all, you can share the videos from Palestine! By journalists such as Motaz, Bisam and Plestia.

do you ever struggle with motivation to work on diy projects? right now i feel like i can't bring myself to pick up my needle to start sowing :( do you have any tips?

Hi! ah yes, that happens to everyone i think!

Sometimes i think the answer is rest, choosing a different project or just not being artsy for the night; recharging creative batteries is very important and i honestly go through phases of intense creation and making lots of stuff followed by dry periods where i kinda dont have the energy or motiviation but will collect ideas maybe or just rest and when i come back to my work its just refreshing and joyful and wonderful;

if you cant/dont want to do that, my big tip is to make things as enjoybale as you can while you do it; tidy the space a tad, straighten up, turn on good lighting, maybe get a glass of water....you can get MEGA cozy if u want and get the blankets and scented candle or hot tea/(beverage of choice), put a fav show on and get all hunkered in for some nice creativity, or it could be as simple as putting on a podcast/playlist you like while you craft. i dont like to craft in silence and honestly i find it can be fun to do sewing projects or whatveer when im really into a show/movie/etc cause it gives me an excuse to binge content while still being "productive"

if its something you dont want to do but has to be done as part of completeing a project i usually will set a timer and only do the unpleasant thing for 30 min lets say (or tell yourself you will reward yourself with something nice (a cup of coffee, a video to watch, a nice walk, whatever, when its done)

the tip of "do it scared" "do it bad" "do it half way" whatvever is a good thing i need to remind myself often when the fear of perfectionism is getting in the way

for practical motivation, the best thing i find that gets me wanting to create is seeing other peoples creations, so ill keep screenshots of inspiring things to look back on or have a scroll through youtube/tumblr if im lacking ideas, just seeing the things other people make generally gets the gears turning for me

dont beat yourself up if you don't get to it though! theres always tomorrow/next week/next year, and diy is supposed to be about fun, so enjoy yourself, have fun, and good luck <3 sorry this was so scattered- others feel free to add on

One year back on Tumblr

So, I am a little late on this since my one year mark was on the 21st. I originally wanted to do something fun for my one year anniversary but I realized that I just am burnt out at the moment. I am sure that you've noticed the lack of content- and I am sorry. I am hoping soon.

Instead, I've decided to make a post for some of the highlights since I've come back to tumblr. I've met so many wonderful people that I know that I wouldn't have had the honor to meet otherwise. I just want to list some of my mutuals and also artists and writers I've had the opportunity to find and interact with that i think you should all check out their content if you haven't already.

I am going to separate this by fandom lol because I love you all but I tend to lose myself in trying to remember everyone sometimes.

The Witcher first because it is what gave me the inspiration to come back and share my random bits of writing with you all.

@seidenbros steffi, beloved, you are truly the sweetest and kindest person ever. I have been blessed with your presence. you have been one of my biggest sources of encouragement and defiantly a huge enabler. you have listened to countless rants and ideas of story ideas that didn't always take off but that didn't stop us from ranting about them and fleshing them out to the point where they may as well have appeared, fully written and perfectly edited.

@cosmos-coma hello, sweetheart <3 one- happy belated birthday once more. I am so angry with myself for having gotten it wrong. Thank you for the light youve brought to my life. our letters and just being able to have someone to talk about the random craziness in life has been the absolute craziness of this world and our lives has been amazing. thank you for everything youve done, your unending adoration for my mini me who is the epitome of chaos but makes for some hilarious stories. I love our friendship more than words could ever properly express.

@queenxxxsupreme Kacey, you're probably my biggest enabler. you are an amazing writer, and an even better friend- even if you don't feel like you are sometimes. you've helped me through more than you realize in the last year that we've known each other. I can't wait to enact our plans to run away to another state and be cryptids in the woods and sell fancy cheese to rich people by the sea shore.

@daughterofautumn Goose, I haven't known you quite as long as the others but you have definitely sewn yourself perfectly into my life. your chaos and crazy energy fuels me daily. you and your obsessions (inadvertently dragging me into said obsessions) make my entire day. i love your energy. not to mention the absolute chaos that is your life. please sleep more darling, and drink plenty of water. I worry.

Arcane next!

this fandom was one that I defiantly stalked in silence for at least a month before I finally gave into the brain rot specifically for a wonderful person who amazes me with the depths of the love and kindness Shes shown to everyone who has the absolute pleasure to engage with her.

@grumpyoutlaw Grumpy, my beloved- my muse. you have been nothing but an absolute delight, a light, the very heart of this fandom. your art was what brought me into your orbit but your kindness has kept me around. writing that first piece for you was possibly the most spur of the moment but also the greatest domino that has affected the sheer amount of community i have been honored to encounter. thank you for everything. I adore you so much!

@thedreamlessnights Jams. I don't even know where to start. thank you for being so wonderful to me. your vampire fic was pinnacle for dragging me into this fandom well before i even fully committed to the fandom itself. and you followed me?? before I posted anything?? it always baffled me. you claim it was vibes lol and ill take it. you're an amazing writer and friend and I cant believe i get to call such an amazing, open, supportive person my friend. the space you've opened for everyone who wishes to let them have space to be themselves has been a blessing on my day-to-day life.

@sherwood-forests darling, I know we haven't spoken much but you are defiantly responsible for my Silco brain rot. I took a chance on your dragon fic and I cant ever recommend it enough. not to mention how kind you are?? you are the real treasure! thank you for encouraging me and being a light for everyone in the fandom.

@cedarcia DARLING. where to start? i can't believe you follow me and i cant believe I've been given the chance to be your friend. your talent is almost as impressive as your heart. you're always the first to hop on the train to try and help someone the best you can. I cant wait to visit and dress up like pirates to go sailing.

@thehistoriangirl first and foremost, your rants your T A G S... darling they give me life. getting to freaking out over our blorbos and stories we are working on (with a sprinkle of life outside fandom) has been amazing. bouncing ideas with you has never been boring in any capacity and the only thing i know to expect when i see that I've gotten a message from you is sheer just E N E R G Y and i LIVE for it. it is unmatched. not to mention you are 100% an enabler. ahaha

@mariana-souza getting to know you, in the short time that I've gotten to, has been amazing. getting to see how much work you put into your work- both art and writing- has been motivating to say the least. i love that we are able to just scream about things together- how you always seem to know what questions to ask when were talking about each others WIPs. your art is what brought you to my attention, and I am so glad I made the decision to interact with you further.

Shadow and Bone/Six of crows next!!

somehow, i feel like this fandom is simultaneously the smallest of the fandoms i find myself somewhat active in, but also the most tight knit.

@maliciousbrekker Cal. I don't know where to start- you are a wonderfully talented person and so very kind to everyone (also, I am sorry about dragging you into arcane in the middle of your SOC love <3) you are so relatable and i cant help but laugh at something you've posted at least once a day because S A M E. i know we aren't super close but just knowing i have such a wonderful mutual like you, who has on more than one occasion reached out just to check on me, i appreciate you more than you know and seeing your name pop up in my notifications always brings me joy.

@ell0ra-br3kk3r @sophierequests-trashblog I adore you both, I am sorry that we don't talk more often, you are both so pure and i love the interactions that we've had, even if they've been minimal. your amazing writers that i cant ever get enough of. thank you for being so welcoming into the fandom even if I've only ever written one piece to it in total lol. <3

there are several other moots that i just haven't gotten to engage with much at all, but i see you! in my notifications every day, and it makes my day every time. @insult-2-injury @astudyincontrasts @uniquedeerwitch

and of course- I can never forget my friend @rainbowpitofdoom you have been around for so long. we have seen each other grow and change and learn. you are honestly one of the best friends I've ever had and just getting to know you as a person has made me a better person and i need you to know this. I love you lots, Chesh and i don't know where id be without you.

every single one of these lovelies are wonderfully talented and just amazing people. they are writers and artists and they are a delight to know and get to engage with- i promise. if you ever need something new, or just to read something again, please! give them some love. they deserve every bit of it.

I love you all, and if you ever ever need anything please do not hesitate to reach out. even if its just needing to talk to someone. i truly thank every lucky star out there that ive been lucky enough to meet you all.

dont say sorry we love the paragraphs!! tbh i cant stand a lot of md fanfics because of how they characterize uzi in particular, they just do not do her depth justice. and you're so right about the narration too. its so subtle but a lot of great fics go above and beyond to take narration from just describing the world to actually representing a characters perspective- literally and figuratively. hostile takeover is a masterclass in it tbh. its actually inspired me to try and get into writing for md because you need to be the content you want to see in the world ig- im starting with rp rn though because i find that to be the easiest way to get into a characters head, ya know? also your dollxn piece made me physically ill (positive). im shipping them now but exclusively in the way your fanart is framing it (also great song choice listening to it and staring at the art really sent me) - juzi anon

I think a good narration is like, an unspoken art when it comes to writing. I LOVE fics that make a point to have the characters thoughts be a part of the narration; It speaks volumes to how that person write the character themself and can even make for some really impactful dialog thats not even spoken. I think the biggest strength of Hostile Takeover (from the chapters I've read!) is its ability to make a character's narration show the subtle, unseen things about the characters themselves. (Which is why I love J's chapters so much, J puts up such a large persona that being able to read the thoughts she actually has is so!!! arugh!!!!!)

Also: I'm glad to see you taking an inspiration for writing, I've honestly thought many a time to force myself into writing fics just because theres so many ideas I have that I do not have the time or skill to illustrate lol. I actually started posting artwork because I wanted to see more fanart for my own rarepair!!! And I can understand the whole roleplaying thing (I haven't roleplayed canon characters since my.. *shudders* MMO days /j) I grew up on roleplaying and still do on occasion! (OCs I mean haha) I think its a great stepping stone to writing full blown chapters and stuff, all about practice or whatever!!

oh and: I'm glad you liked that piece lmao. N x Doll is one of those ships I thought about for 2 seconds and went "wait no I get it.". I've honestly thought about making more art of it just because its left such a impact on my skull. (ITs... the only enemies to lovers you could HAVE with N canonically w/o messing w/ his character and i am OBSESSED)

Dreams are weird and crazy, and if I were to ever get into the science of the brain, this is what I'd want to study.

I've actually wanted to talk about this for a while because I find it bizarre, so for context: I have very realistic, vivid, and interactive dreams. So much so that when I wake up, I really need a 30-minute adjustment period to move from one world back to reality. This adjustment also helps me to remember what my dream actually was. I also feel it's important to point out that I am a very light sleeper, so I have a lot of trouble falling asleep and staying asleep. Because I will wake up multiple times a night, which results in me having multiple dreams per night.

My dreams range from realistic scenarios to the craziest plots you've ever seen,

I only have realistic dreams when I nervous or I know something important is coming up like the first day of school or an important work shift, so ill run scenarios on how to deal with it through my dreams. These dreams usually start people in my life, and it can be so realistic that when I wake up, I really have to question if that was something that really happened or not.

My favorites include the ones where there is a really cool apocalypse. There is some sort of evil, big baddie, or a natural disaster that left the world scrambling. In these, I usually have a mix of people I know and npcs that have intensive backstories that me as the mc already knows. These dreams usually have a bad ending that ends with me being ripped apart or bitten or just dying to wake up. (And mind you, i can have all five senses in my dreams, so when I feel pain, I wake up with the same sorta pain just nulled down) but it's all in good fun, I actually really enjoy these dreams.

The ones I usually don't tell people about are my weird and not easy to explain dreams. In these dreams, we have a sort of hero journey, and these dreams will last FOREVER. The story can shift from one focus to another in a snap, but it all connects together sort of cohesively. Out of all of the dreams I've had like this, each character has been original and not really based on any sort of reference from reality or content I've seen. I am never myself in these dreams, always some convoluted character with a drenched past (and in one case I was actually two at the same time, twins that I managed to see and feel at the same time) These dreams can really mess up my psyche and I have a lot of trouble adjusting back to the real world after waking up, especially if there is no conclusion. However, I do get good story ideas from it.

The most dream-like dreams I've had are the ones where I become aware, and thus in full control. These dream usually start out with a mash of a ton of contrasting ideas. For example: I'm in my elementary school gym with a bunch of weird creatures, outside the window I can see Rudolph the red nosed reindeer and Thomas the tank engine speeding down a street. Then I become hyper aware I'm in a dream and start to take control. These dreams never last long and I usually wake up a couple of seconds after realizing where I am.

With all this said I can have horrible nightmares but I usually blow them off due to their nature. I'm really quick to dismiss any sort of your typical horror as it just doesn't hit me. So my brain really started getting creative, making me witness my murder my own family, drowning myself in a shallow pool (I've never been scared of water, quite the opposite but that is just one that stuck out because I woke up very shaken), dropping babies off a ledge, etc. Pretty much these dreams dig into my fears of committing crimes I would never commit and 9 times out of 10 I usually can't say anything during these dreams. I cant speak, scream, nothing. And I always wake up with a start and drenched in sweat.

Now, the weirdest part I have is when my brain will try to sike me out. Sometimes, when I am done with a dream or am revving to wake up, my dream will "wake up" into another dream, but this dream is exactly my reality. I will wake up in the same bed I went to sleep in, go about my morning routine, talk with my dad or roommate, and go about my daily business. It isn't until one tint little thing out of the ordinary happens that I realize that this, in fact, is NOT the real world, and I really have to wake up. I get angry at those dreams because now I have to do everything I just did all over again.

And finally , my sleep paralysis dreams! These are really rare, and I've only had about 4 or 5 in the last couple of years. I used to get sleep paralysis quite frequently as a child, but something changed, and now it only gets it every now and again. I'm usually stuck unable to move, and I'm aware of this, however my dreams will make me seem as though I'm merely a camera angle in my own life and I'm able to pan around and witness whatever world is going on while fully aware that my body cannot move to experience it. This can range from my brain visualizing a conversation I know I can hear in the room next to me, to something where I am witnessing a monster killer outside my window creep closer to my paralyzed form. Funky things that are not preferred. I'm glad I don't get them much anymore.

TWO THINGS … cant stop thinking about ur tags on a lewis post being “evil ex wife isms” like thats literally it . also do you think you’ll explore the lando/zak dynamic more in fic 🙇 i’m obsessed with “doggy?” “woof” THEY R SO GROSS !!! 😍😍

hello anon this ask finds me so well on this pleasant thursday night.......

as far as lewis goes like. god. this whole era hes in currently. truly the like. post nico era. post divorce era. you cant TELL ME he ISNT serving hot ex wife every goddamn race weekend. like with the sunglasses.....the big shoes......girl hes on his way to take all my money in the divorce and ill still be asking him to take me back like. ok.

ON THE SECOND POINT god god i hate that i do genuinely yearn to make more lando/zak content im so sorry to the class 🚶‍♂️🚶‍♂️🚶‍♂️🚶‍♂️ i want to write a sequel chapter or orange sherbet really bad so we will see if the next few races offer any inspiration in that regard....and yeah those two one their own. i do wanna write or draw them specifically at some point. i love the sleaze of them. like both with this cockiness and sarcasm and childish humor and shiteating grins thats like (to some) charming on lando and skeezy on zak. to me they are so the same in a lot of ways......aside from having a type i also think zak sees lando as what he thinks he was when he was younger....and also does care about lando thinking he is Cool For An Old Guy. Lando sure does let him think that....what he doesnt know wont hurt him! im just such a sucker for a slimy boss/employee relationship especially when theyre both so. ugh. i just know they gossip together. i know theyre whispering about each other behind backs. i know theyre [redacted redacted redacted] like are you kidding me. anyways. i'll see myself out.

im in such a weird spot where i wanna make a story. i wanna create since i cant do comms rn, and im like...well, i started this vast splatoon story, i wanna finish it one day...

but the thing is i also made like, extremely intricate human versions im way more attached to, because i have more freedom with what i can do in my own / my friends little universes. and those ones are way more mature.

but i cant like... make "content" of it. i want to do art for myself but at the same time i know no one will really see it? that and like, i still really want to wrap up these stories i started as a teen. i do love them. i do enjoy these versions of them, they are the original and ive poured my heart and soul into them.

but im like mostly scared younger people will find the separated human versions and ill get into trouble orz. im paranoid even though i havent drawn anything immoral, im scared people will take that original attachment and make something bad of it. ive had fandom people drag me through the dirt before and ive been harassed and iknow well how to avoid these things now but it still makes me nervous.

i suppose one day i can follow other peoples footsteps and remake it to be a more adult human story. i know to some people it doesnt matter, ive run into plenty of stories online where i went "oh i wanna learn more" only to learn what i saw was their silly intricate au too. so i know its not THAT big of a deal, especially when i like seeing people do that.

but my brain likes to keep thngs organized in a specific way and 💥💥

can you tell us what tags you use on the regularly? can be for anything, stuff you align with, laugh at, find cool etc etc

THANK YOU FOR ASKING I AM SO HAPPY !!!! HUGS YOU HUGS YOU HUGS Y

okay so I'm pretty bad at tagging things/having a tagging system, I had a blog back in 2016 (middle school) and I was so efficient at tagging my reblogged supernatural gifs, dan and phil clips, and voltron posting but when I lost access to that blog and made this new one I told myself not to take it as seriously (and somehow thought it'd be cringey if i was ultra organized?? which doesn't make sense and I'm still upset at myself for,,) SO for the first half of this blog I didn't tag anything I reblogged at all, I'd just go to town and go through tags I liked (mainly danganronpa) and reblogged infinitely. and I LOVE text shit-posts so it was a mix of everything I enjoyed and found funny

recently though I decided I want to be more organized about things I reblog, at least the main stuff. nagito komaeda is a character that my loved ones will have to pry out of my cold dead hands when i decease so i tag most things about him/art of him with just #nagito, similar to #hajime because they're the 2 characters i blog about the most, and of course the ship between them as #komahina -- I scroll through that one whenever I need comfort lols so having posts that I already love tagged as them on here is helpful for that.

if i see any general danganronpa art that isnt mainly nagito and/or hajime, ill add the #danganronpa/#dr2 tag (though not always)

((unfortunately since I got into that habit of not tagging ANYTHING when this blog started, half the time, I don't add tags even though I should. it's really more a vibes feeling, if I'm in a tagging-mood things will be tagged, and if I'm not then I don't))

i tag #taylor swift in case any of my followers want to mute posts about her since my main thing is dangan, and I know a lot of people dont like her. i also tag general other interests like #persona 5 and #sims 2 (the lore in this game goes CRAZY i cant even WHATEVER U GET IT)

i tag #suggestive for anything mildly NSFW again to help filter that content out for anyone uncomfortable seeing that

my #lisa tag is for my partner, anything that reminds me of her. tags like #ref are usually for posts that I want to re-read later or revisit, or anything that will be useful to me one day. sometimes ill see something interesting but dont have time to read it then and there so i reblog in a rush. #reminders is a recent one, it's for the same thing except more personal/more for me. and if i ever use #for me, it's essentially for the same.

ive started trying to use #lilyyaps for any post that I'm directly writing/shit-posting because I've never had a personalized tag for me yapping and posting (i was allergic to it until recently)

but yeah that's the extent of any "system" i have, all vibes no thoughts. nothing strict or crazy as u can tell. THANK you for asking though I really really appreciate the opportunity you handed me to yap <3<3

having a full blown meltdown rn and i’m just i give up this is too much for me to handle. my assignment is due tonight and it’s a written report and a presentation, but i’ve been working on this for two whole months now and im exhausted and im frustrated and my last straw was zoom not letting me record the presentation. i submitted the report with the merged slides of my presentation but i just can’t do it. i don’t mind presenting but something’s wrong with zoom and there’s no record button. i’ve recorded countless meetings before and i just don’t have the mental state to calmly navigate this situation so im gonna say fuck it. even if i get 5% marks on this assignment ill pass this course and honestly that’s all that matters. cause i’m tired i’ve worked a lot this trimester, and this week. i’m at my limit. i can’t do anything else now. i can’t find my laptop and i do NOT want to look for it. i have an exam in the morning and i am fully losing my mind rn. i’m not even scared about the exam or its contents, just scared of technical difficulties and they make me feel so angry and frustrated i start hyperventilating and wanting to tear out my own hair i have a full on stress headache right now. a proper migraine. i cant do this. i want to scream. i am so fuckinh angry rn. i hate this i hate everything and i hate myself and i imagine this was being exorcised would feel like.

aaa i havent made one of these in a very long time :( i havent been doing great BUT i have been keeping up with all of your updates!!! AND YOU DESERVE THE WORD SPAM OF APPRECIATION so I am PULLING MYSELF UP BY MY BOOTSTRAPS BECAUSE when i say i deVOURED the new zombie apocalypse fic holy FUCKK it was so good he brought her yarn:(( i bawled hes so sweet I LOVED HOW COMFORTABLE AND FLUFFY THAT WHOLE FIC WAS. AND YOU>??? WROTE IT SO FAST?? insane. 

AND NEW RUN WILD!!! A TREAT!??!?!!!! A TREAT FOR ME!!!?!??! EEEEEE OUEUGUYEEEGEHEHEHEHEHE you made my week im not even going to lie i grinned so wide when i saw

SHES AVOIDING THEM :((( NOOOOOO she’s kinda real for that though me too girl me too

WOW OKAY I CANT BELIEVE HE JUST INTERRUPTS HER ROUTINE LIKE THAT LLLL BOOOO so RUDE TO OUR GIRL (jk) 

Awwwwww Konig bad at recon ehhehehehhhehehehe ough that’s cute HELP THEY’RE DOING THE WEIRD CAREFUL DANCE OF COURTSHIP SHE IS NOT PICKING IT UP PLSSSSSSS IM CRYING SHES SO CONFUSED SHES SO AHAHAUAKAKKAKAKAKA 

The mice :(((( FREE THEM sobbing (lol imagine she’s allowed to go back for them and finds them all dead- I NEED TO STOP) OHHH I LOVE HOW THEY’RE BEING MORE TOUCHY yess pls my girl is touch starved and so am I LMFSIUDF HIEJWODFR AWWW HE’S ACCEPTING HER FUSSING CUZ HE SAW HOW SHE TOOK THE REJECTION THE LAST TIME :(((( OUGHH FIFUHRFIUEFROFW AND SHES SO SCARED OF COMING BETWEEN THEM :(( SHE TELLS HIM RIGHT AWAY KONIG GAVE HER GIFT CRYING I love her girl said I am NOT a homewrecker good for her HDUWIJDQWEFRHKF SHES SO FUNNY FOR THAT THO SHES SO REAL

“What do you need in the pack room?” Her answer being nothing what if I cried she’s so just like me fr she doesn’t KNOW WHAT SHE WANTS/NEEDS IM SOBBING? SHES SO CONVINCED SHE’S NOT WANTED SHES SO INSECURE mood PLEASE SOMEONE HUG HER where is Logan a Logan should exist in every fic he would fix things “Then we’ll figure it out” I teared up fr stop :( ill cry HE’S SHOWING HER SHE’S HERE TO STAY WHAT IF I THREW UP?? HURLED?? CRIED??? AOUGHHH the hurt in the hurt comfort is hurting the slow burn (its not even that slow im just bouncing up and down impatiently but medium burn just doesn’t hit the same) is BURNING and im EATING IT UPPPP thank you for doing it again and giving us full course 5 star meals to enjoy I hope you’re doing good today and everyday love and appreciate you sm thank you for the incredible content <3333

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Noooooo I hope you're feeling better!!! Please take care of yourself, rest if you can, stay hydrated, all of that. 💖

Her hee thank youuuuuuuuu! Johnny is so sweet when he wants to be. And you know his mum gave him a nudge in the right direction too lol. The best thing you can get a yarn crafter is more yarn. Especially during a zombie apocalypse when you can't exactly pop down to the store to buy more.

Hee hee mink is having some Feelings and she is not sure how to handle them. These two are not making it easy on her. The courtship they're trying is careful and slow and intricate, especially since they're a bonded pair.

I knew that line would get you! Her answering "nothing" then "I don't know" to what she needs. Mwahaha. I loved writing that. Mink has shoved down what it is to be a shifter to keep herself safe, and now that she has a pack again and space to be a shifter, she's struggling. Poor thing. I should make things easier on her.

Or not. 😈

Thank you darling!! I was so excited to get this ask from you. I hope you're feeling better, and remember to rest and take care of yourself! 💖💖

Hey! I’m a huge fan of your MarVey works. They aren’t the usual fluff fest or shameless pwp I consume but it holds an INSANELY special place in my heart. Writing has always been difficult to me, especially writing raw real feelings. I had forced myself to a writing style I had absolutely hated but reading your work had just inspired me immensely. I have so much more to say but word limit- your writing touched me in ways I’ve never felt.

Im sorry, BACK AGAIN. “tell me how far it is to the end of the world” absolutely decimated me. I did not go through something as traumatic as Mike did but I’ve always been ill in some forms. I know how it feels, the experience of being unsure about your emotions, the frustration with your injury: “why cant i go back to the way it was before” and cursing everyone out. I cried at how well-put mike’s emotions were. They didn't have to make sense, he was allowed to feel how he wanted. I loved it

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okay so first of all, thank you so much, i'm thrilled you like my fics! and that you read them even though the content isn't your usual thing!

i am so, so glad you were able to find some inspiration in my writing. i know exactly how it feels to force yourself to write a certain way because you think it's the best way to get your message across, or the only way to do it justice, it sucks a lot and it's very draining, and if reading my fics helped you to find your voice at all, i am beyond flattered, truly. that is such a kind thing to say, i don't really have an adequate response, but...thank you, thank you, thank you.

i. i cannot tell you how much it means to me that you got so much out that fic. that fic in particular. that series is so dear to me, and the fact that you connected to mike's emotions especially is just. i don't know what more i can say, i'm very touched.

and thank you so much for these incredibly lovely messages! 💖