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barelymaddy · 8 months

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Sun Sign Observations☀️

!These are based purely on my interractions with the signs.Some people might not relate due to different chart placements,but i tried to incorporate the things i noticed overall in people with certain sun signs!

Aries Sun

-Chill but hyper at the same time -usually has light colored eyes

-a bit childish

-independent

-hard-worker(usually good grades)

-pretty popular

-friendly

-funny AF

-loud

-a bit intimidating

-gets into a lot of accidents

-messy and impulsive

Taurus Sun

-very calm

-low-key crazy

-hopeless-romantic

-cute

-artistic

-unbothered

-very stubborn

-accepting

-gives good advice

-usually from a wealthy background

-mommy issues

Gemini Sun

-the most popular in their group of friends

-usually has light-colored hair(have dyed their hair a lighter color at least once)

-charming

-smart

-usually part of a fandom

-cool(does a lot of random stuff)

-moody

-very skilled at what they do

Cancer Sun

-introverted

-intimidating

-anger-issues

-coddling

-not afraid to cut a bitch

-private

-protective

-kinda bitchy

-likes to gossip

-mommy

-likes mind-games

-cute but deadly

Leo Sun

-Usually pretty confident

-friendly

-high-key crazy

-very open

-charismatic

-wants to be rich

-a lot of flings

-dramatic

-has a lot of crazy stories

-very dead inside

-likes to flirt

-very attached to their families in some way

Virgo Sun

-is sick almost all the time

-chaotic

-obsessed with order(hyper-fixated on the way they organize their stuff)

-quiet at first

-tired 24/7 but on those rare occasions they're not,they are very fun

-gets along with everyone(does not like everyone)

-dorky

-pets and plushies💚

-very pretty(a lot of them have red/ginger hair lol)

Libra Sun

-appears to be very fake at first.👀 -pretty

-looks younger than they are

-likes aesthetics and is very trendy

-artistic

-devil's advocate

-just

-bad liar

-caring

-has a lot of love problems(failed relationships)

-very accepting(nothing can phase them at this point)

-secretly hates everybody

Scorpio Sun

-dark aesthetic

-edgy

-superiority complex

-smart

-extroverted introvert

-tendency towards rock/metal -opinionated

-intimidating

-good listener

-great intuition

-likes to tease their friends and crush

-owns a cat

Sagittarius Sun

-looks like a golden retriever(idk why y'all keep saying horse)

-z o o m i e s

-class clown

-fuckboy vibes

-unstable

-has dark secrets

-funny

-attractive

-proud(more than leos)

-impulsive

-anger-issues

-runs away from their problems -introverted extrovert

-not good at dressing up(most of them)

-can be a bit of a bully sometimes

-likes to gossip

Capricorn Sun

-ambitious but lazy(dunno)

-tired AF

-smart

-has lots of responsabilities

-sarcastic(and funny)

-intimidating

-chill

-very low-key

-your dad

-"i'm not mad,im just dissapointed"(is mad)

-prefers darker/neutral aesthetics

-reliable

-direct

-diplomatic

-very stubborn and hard to please

Aquarius Sun

-introverted extrovert

-very silly and chaotic

-"doesn't do emotions"(cries in secret)

-funny

-talks in an odd manner

-nerdy

-creatve

-misunderstood genius

-pretty,stubborn

-tech-savvy

-poker-face

Pisces Sun

-dreamy

-distracted

-can be very stand-offish

-escapist

-⚠️TW:could be dealing with addictions

-surfer vibes

-has particular topics they know a lot about

-more introverted

-knows and has many secrets

-artistic

-silent but deadly

#astro notes #astrology notes #astrology #sun signs #astro observations #astrology observations

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cookinguptales · 9 months

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I almost wrote a small essay in the tags of that "fanwork as content" post but realized that it would probably be better off as its own post. So now it's... a large, rambling essay. lmao

Like... to preface, AO3 is great, it's a great resource for fandom, it feels good to have a centralized location that works well. That said, there has been a steady decline in how I've felt treated as an author since we switched to an archive-only model of fic.

For people who are newer to fandom, pre-AO3 (and even in the early days of AO3), people often crossposted fic. Sometimes to websites, sometimes to journals (particularly LJ/DW), sometimes to communities, sometimes to kink memes...

AO3, while certainly one of the primary places you could upload stuff, wasn't necessarily where you would get most of your primary interaction about your fic. It was always designed to be an archive, not a social media site.

But since we moved to an archive model (and away from LJ/DW) I've noticed that fic gets almost no traction on sites that actually are intended for social interaction. I'm not saying it's easy for any creator in fandom, but god. The numbers on fic posts are just downright demoralizing.

I don't mean to sound arrogant here, but I think I'm a pretty good writer. People seem to really connect with my fic. In multiple fandoms, I've written fic that most people have read and enjoyed, to the point where people have just taken it for granted that if someone reads fic in the fandom, they've probably read something I've written.

All this is to say, I know I've written fics that people like. I know I've written fics that people connect with. And I know those posts still only get like 5 notes sometimes on Tumblr.

I'm proud of my work and I'm happy that it's gotten such a warm welcome on AO3!!! But there are times when I feel like all this means that I could write literally the best fic on earth and still no one would talk to me. People still wouldn't want to interact with me on social media sites.

I wrestled for... honestly, a long time with all this. I had a hard time putting into words why this felt so uh. Bad. Was I just self-conscious about my own writing? Yes, but that's a separate issue. Was I just jealous of others' popularity? Sort of, but it went deeper than that.

I had an issue with a fandom that I don't write in anymore. I got a lot of fanart based on my fic, which was great, which was amazing, there were even fan comics made. Visual media travels better on social media than fic. That's just a fact. And I had to watch as repeatedly, art based on the fic I wrote got thousands of notes while my fic got maybe 12. And I realized the power of social media vs. AO3 because it did get to audiences that weren't familiar with my fic and people started to give those artists credit for my ideas.

I remember watching the tags of those posts because it was occasionally the only way I'd hear feedback on what I'd written (imagine getting one comment and 5 notes on a fic, then seeing dozens of people in the tags of fanart saying that it was their favorite fic in the fandom! it was weird!) and seeing the tags gradually devolve into "oh, this is such a neat idea for an AU, artist OP" or "wow this dialogue is perfect [artist] I love it" and like

It's weird to feel so happy because so many people are enjoying your work in a transformative way but also so unhappy because you have been completely removed from the equation. No one... even knows you wrote those things anymore. You have been removed in favor of a more "marketable" version of your work.

It's uh. It's a bad feeling. I stopped writing in that fandom eventually.

So again, I felt like... idk, like there was no point in me even trying. Because I could write the best fic on earth and still somehow get erased as a person. People would want my "content," but they wouldn't want me.

I think that's what hurt my feelings so much.

What I've realized is this: what I miss is the sense of community. On LJ, you could post a fic, cross-post it to a community, and there would be comments that would become conversations that would become lasting friendships. Not always! But often. I still talk to some people daily who I met through fic on LJ over a decade ago.

In the archive model, there has almost become a death of the author. The me on social media and the me on AO3 are very different; more importantly, it's almost like it's viewed as the "me" is on social media, but the work is on AO3. I am absent. There is only the fic, not the person who created it.

And that's okay, but when you try to combine those two things on social media and it goes over like a lead balloon... idk. There's an odd sense of dehumanization. I don't mean it in like... I don't know, a dramatic human rights violation kind of way. More that I literally feel like less of a human person the way I interact with fandom these days. Like I'm no longer a person who writes fic as a way to connect with my fellow fans and more a "content creator" whose human side is separate from my creation and never the twain shall meet.

(And I'll admit it feels especially galling to be forced into the capitalistic "content creator" box when it's not even a thing I can make money off of, lmao. It's like the worst of both worlds. I feel like if I can't make money off fanfic, I should at least be exempt from capitalistic social trends during its creation.)

I'm not so much complaining about my current fandom; WWDITS has actually been one of the best fandoms for interaction I've been in since the birth of AO3. That's one of the reasons I keep writing stories for fellow fans to read -- many of those fans feel like my friends, and I want to make them happy.

I think that poster was right when they talked about how the pivot from fan to "content creator" has fucked up fandom. There is this sense that we should be treating fandom like a job, often a fast-paced one with no pay. There is this idea that we should be separated from our "content" like you might a worker from their product, and blah blah blah alienation of labor, Marx, I get it, but damn if that isn't a shitty thing to do to your fellow fans who are making art for the love of art.

There are so many things I do love about AO3. I like having a central, organized place to put my fic. I like not having to worry about my work being lost to the ages. I like having an organized comments section I can return to on bad days to cheer myself up.

But I don't like the way that fic has kind of been relegated to a portion of fandom where people aren't particularly social. I don't like the way that authors are separated from their writing. I hear people complain sometimes about A/Ns because god forbid an author leave any trace of their actual personality to distract you from their content.

I can't have DMs with someone on AO3. I can't add someone to my friends list. There are no "beloved mutuals." There is just my work and the people who are kind enough to comment on it, even if they never actually engage with me elsewhere.

It's... a weird feeling, to feel so loved and unloved at the same time. Like you keep writing trying to make something good enough that people will talk to you but like. That's really not how it works. lmao. The best fic in the world won't make you friends anymore. It won't make people see you as a fellow fan rather than a pen name under a title.

My fic is some of the most personal stuff in the entire world, but my personhood is stripped away from it. It's so fucking weird. People like my fic, but they don't like me. They remember my stories but not the person who told them. It's bizarre. It feels like having your life and experiences strip-mined for content, and then the rest of it is just... left behind.

Frankly... I work in the publishing industry IRL and I have had opportunities to write professionally. Real, tangible opportunities. But I turned them down because I've seen it, the way that trying to fit such an intensely personal art form into a capitalistic framework can be exhausting, dehumanizing, and stressful. I don't want that for my work. Fandom has always been an escape from that.

But now fandom is starting to conform to those exact same capitalistic frameworks (and ofc without any kind of capitalistic compensation) and I hate to see it. It's so stressful. I feel like we're losing a lot of what makes fandom fun for writers and we're getting pretty much nothing in return. I'm not surprised that so many writer friends I know in fandom have quit.

like damn, I just wanna have fun with a bunch of dumbshits who love to overanalyze vampires and cry over their dumbshit shenanigans, not take on a second job. one that, I reiterate, I am not being paid for.

(Note: I am not asking for payment, just that I not be treated like a worker. The tradeoff for treating someone like a worker is that they get compensated for it. If I'm not being compensated, no one gets to treat me like this is my fucking job.)

It's a weird thing, because for a lot of people, fandom has become their job. Fanartists at cons selling fanart, youtube essayists making money off videos, professional cosplayers with sponsorships, etc. And so fandom is becoming more corporate, more capitalistic, more marketable. It's frustrating for those who don't want to capitalize on our fannish output, and doubly frustrating for people who are legally unable to do so.

I'm realizing as I write this that I'm most upset about the nonconsensual capitalization of fandom, particularly when imposed on people who are unable to access the very meager benefits of capitalism. I didn't ask for any of this!

Feels like when I'd be forced to go to assemblies for the US military when I was in high school. Like I'm morally opposed to all this but I'm also not physically fit for "service" anyway, so it's doubly insulting. I feel like I've been opted into the, ah, corporatization of fandom when I'm not even eligible for employee benefits. None of this should even apply to me! ;;

Okay!! I'm all het up now so I'm gonna go eat lunch and go for a walk! No monetization of hobbies, only trees.

#I need to go look at a tree lmao #just me #vent post #ask to tag idrk

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emostudent · 11 months

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15 questions 15 mutuals

tagged by @emozionidinchiostro (thanks amo<3)

are you named after anyone? no, idk why they chose my name, my mum said she liked the meaning of it AND it was of jewish origins so it was perfect.

when was the last time you cried? this morning, it's exams season for uni students in my country and i'm failing so, so bad, i was held back a year (more or less) and i see all of my friends graduating while i'm still here.

do you have kids? no. and i'm not planning on having any in the future, i'll be perfectly content with my single and childless aunt status.

do you use sarcasm a lot? yes, it's the only way i'm able to communicate with other people.

what sports do you play/have played? contrary to popular belief, MANY. i've done ballet for 10 years, swimming for 6, volleyball for 2, kickboxing for 4 and i've been running for 4/5, now i'm doing pilates (cuz i'm old and my back hurts) and weight training at the gym.

what's the first thing you notice about people? how they are dressed: do their clothes fit? are their clothes fashionable? are their clothes nice? are their clothes clean? what's their aesthetic? i think that clothes tell you a lot about the person.

what's your eye colour? plain and boring brown (like they are really, REALLY brown, like when you draw something and you use the fill brush, no speck of gold or darker brown no nothing, like sims default eyes.

scary movies or happy endings? what about scary movies with a happy ending? i don't really like unhappy endings, those are the movies i never rewatch because i want to watch happy things, if i wanted to watch something sad and depressing i'd just have take a look at my life.

any special talents? i can drive a plane? idk if that's a special talent, maybe more like a skill(yes this is a flex). as far as talents go i'd say i'm a very good liar (but i only unse my powers for good) and people naturally open up to me, so i'd say i'm a good listener.

where were you born? italy! funnily enough, i was born in the hospital right netx to to what it would've been my high school!

what are your hobbies? readin' 'n' drawin', in other words the classics, but i also love crocheting!

do you have pets? AH. i wish.

how tall are you? exactly 163cm

favourite subject in school? in high school it was either english, physics or laboratory of architecture, in uni it's introduction to astrophysics, inorganic chemistry and physics 3.

dream job? i have MANY: i'd love to be an astrophysicist and do research on the composition of the first generation of stars, or be a tattoo artist, no in between.

tags: @sadieshavingsex @elisastales @thiamsxbitch @sammysdemonblood @self-loathing-angel-of-thursday2 @babygirldilf @isthisanything @amaranthhiding @unitedfandomsoftheworld @the-haiku-bot @seccendedos @manicmoonbug @ihaveacorgi @pipperdaper @highcoltage

#i feel so excited this is the first time i have ever been tagged

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vnzndt · 5 months

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Honestly like this is gonna sound really annoying or whatever but finding out that he doesn't run the fanart acc after the initial sort of disappointment it was like. Kind of really relieving for me because I left twitter completely a few weeks ago, and it was the only thing that made me wanna go back was the sliver of a chance he might see my shit but. Idk. It makes me feel better about leaving. I got my rt and my reply I think that's enough :)

nooo i don’t think it’s annoying at all

imo there’s been a lot of unspoken jealousy and competition in the fanartist community when it came to the dranart account and i think it clouded a lot of artist’s vision and motivation when it became such a driving factor in posting fanart. it definitely was not dream’s fault and it’s also not any artist’s fault because jealousy is a very natural emotion which is bound to be triggered ESPECIALLY when posting on a platform as toxic as twitter (which essentially feels like literal high school with its cliques and popularity and weird hierarchies, not a dttwt problem, but an every fandom on twitter problem)

all in all i think relief is a super valid reaction to all of this and i definitely feel it too even if i don’t plan on leaving twitter. the need for validation via a dranart like was affecting me a lot more than i realized and that sliver of hope he would notice it was definitely a driving factor behind my motivation & how it somewhat shifted from drawing for fun -> drawing for attention

i think it’s been both disappointing and eye opening and i hope more artists feel comfortable enough to talk about the burnout that was unintentionally caused by the nature of twitter & its algorithm, including how that swayed who got a dranart notice or not, not wether dream actually “liked” your art or not.

i also hope this is an opportunity for growth when it comes to the community uplifting artists, not just dream, which i think is something we’ve struggled with as a fanbase in the past. i think that alone plays a big part into the toxic mindset a lot of us have developed where dranart notice = huge boost from the community, huge boost from the community = feeling insecure about a lack of interaction on posts that didn’t get a dranart notice, when it could easily be somewhat avoided if non-artists uplifted art by simply looking for it out of their own volition and not because dranart put it on their timeline

i’m yapping so much but my point is it’s okay to be relived and i think we should embrace it & acknowledge that there’s a reason as to WHY we’re relieved, because that relief doesn’t just come from nowhere 🥸

#i could talk about the fanartist community and its dynamics for hours #what 4 years in dttwt does to a mf #ollie asks #yapping

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woetoy · 9 months

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Anon art human again, I mean finding views or just acknowledgement for you art, I'm broke and either way wouldn't feel right blazing the nsfw stuff I draw but it gets no traffic or notes. Idk leaving an ask was impulsive but I really respect your art and was curious how you got your followers, if it was more a waiting thing or you found the right areas to post.

I dunno, it probably takes patients to get attention but finding motivation to make good art and then getting nothing but emptiness and boredom at the end of the process isn't motivating lol. Anyways Im thankful for your response and apologetic cause I got this trigger instinct to just blurt my questions to the cool artist I found on tumblr, and I'm sorry for bothering you so

No worries, I just felt bad that I didn't understand ya!

Getting noticed depends on a lot of things. I've had several accounts through 12 years spent on this site, and this one is the first that kinda popped off!

Do you make art that has crowd appeal? As in, is it a little silly, cute or relatable? Does it have a story behind it besides looking pretty? Is it attached to a fandom? Are you making stuff for an underrepresented niche? I often see people make something that is technically impressive, or their personal best, but it doesn't get shared too much because it lacks that appeal. It sounds harsh, I know, but it happens to me too. Until recently, my most popular piece was a doodle I banged out in an hour - just how it is, but I'm happy it resonated with people! You can have a look around at what other people post and see which posts of theirs do better or worse as well.

I don't follow the rule of posting at specific peak times, or posting every day. But I do try to tag stuff appropriately. Tumblr only uses the first 5 tags from your post in the search function, the rest you use for categorizing for your blog. So if you're starting out, it really is a waiting game until someone notices and shares your stuff, unless you have a buddy that can boost you.

I come here to have fun, I make art for me and if other people like it - awesome! I don't really optimize that well for social media reach, I just have my characters and their little stories. I do my specific niche of porn/kinks that are fun for me to draw and talk about. It helps that I have a more solid art style now than I did when I started. Apparently I've been doing NSFW for the past 7 years, and early this year is when it took off on tumblr.

To counteract the emptiness, it helps to have friends to bounce ideas around with or to make characters together with. It's why I create, really. I do it with friends because that's what I find fulfilling. And then I feel driven to draw and post about it as well, and that's been true all this time for me.

I hope you can find fulfillment as well, I think it does come through sometimes if a piece was made for reach or from personal joy. I for sure see that in ancient fanart I've done, I hate those pieces. But the personal stuff that I did for fun is still cute to me, even if it did get at most 5 notes way back when.

Sorry if my thoughts are jumbled. But yeah, this is what I do and what worked for me. But it's always different person to person. Much luck in your endeavors!

#woetxt

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calpalsworld · 1 year

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So the behind the scenes for Pizza Tower is literally the worst. The creator is literally the worst. If i was in the same room as someone like this I would probably become a killer. Other fans have already said their opinions, basically "I get why people like the game but I can't engage with it anymore" etc. That's pretty much how I'm feeling. I feel disgusted and betrayed and it hurts to remember something I like about the game, and then remember it was made by these dangerous people. Maybe at some point if I do get the urge to draw the characters again, maybe I'll put a huge DNI banner that says "fuck bigots die mcpig" or something. But I need a bit to think about if thats a good decision or not... I feel like its not... On one hand I want to say "I'm gonna take the good parts of this game and make it what the creator hates" but I also have no clue if thats a good idea, and I need a while to think about it.

One BIG THING I'm asking of everyone, and I may make another post asking this question later, is does anyone know any Pizza Tower alternatives??? Any media that is cartoony and simple and crazy and well animated? I really wish I could find something that had the things I liked in Pizza Tower. Please comment or send me an ask if you have any suggestions.

Anyway heres some PERSONAL thoughts that are NOT as important:

I feel disappointed in myself for noticing problematic character designs from the start and convincing myself that maybe the bigotry was unintentional, that it was just a negative side effect of being inspired by other (bigoted) things. It was obviously not. I should've known it was intentional.

A lot of people have been saying "Pizza Tower being problematic was obvious due to the art style," which is partially true, but at the same time that makes me really sad. My first exposure to the game was my friend saying "this looks like something you would make!" And I've been fucking obsessed with the art style ever since. For those who don't know, I used to be an exclusively "shitpost" artist, which I REALLY enjoyed, and art college has made me more and more corporate. So sadly.... Pizza Tower made me feel connected to how I used to draw and create art. I was really happy to see such a creative and unconventional art style that is like my own thriving with popularity, and I liked to imagine that maybe the creator was similar to me (he is not). Lately I've started saying "I'm not gonna make sanitized art anymore I'm gonna only make crazy stuff" and yeah that was literally because of... Pizza Tower.... which has been revealed to be made by the worst people ever.... (so yeah lmk if you guys have any recommended alternatives).

Last thing is I think it has been cool how Peppino has become an iconic ass trans-headcanoned character for a lot of tumblr. So I guess thats the reason why I most likely won't judge anyone for drawing Pizza Tower. We got something awesome going that was our own thing. But you have to remember McPig is also a racist, and trans headcanons don't do anything to fight against that.

I just hope the people who will continue to draw art to spite McPig's intentions openly acknowledge how fucked up the game's creation is, and don't promote the game. If you continue being a Pizza Tower fan please at least be self-aware and adamantly against the creator. Like post a link to pirate the game along with every time you post art of it or something to counteract your inherent promotion of the game, idk. Don't let bigots get away with being popular. That is dangerous.

TLDR:;

No more Pizza Tower for me, at least for a while, if I do ever post something Pizza Tower-related again it will be staunchly anti-Pizza Tower. Someday, I hope to create something like fun and silly like Pizza Tower, but antifascist. Also, new hyperfixation recommendations that are similar to Pizza Tower strongly encouraged, thank you!

#pizza tower

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coppycatz · 8 months

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Since many have approached me asking what's happening ajsjkskd I want to give few clarification on my post specifically.

What I mentioned is just my own opinion. It's not meant to blame anyone, like I said it's how I feel. I'm not hurt by the fandom at the moment. I kind of switched to caring about other things and there's a lot happening irl right now. If you want to ask please go to people who made posts about leaving, as it's their feelings that matter.

I am not targeting anyone specifically, a lot of things mentioned has happened back in 2015 and the fact that same or similar things are happening now just means that nothing has changed. Which is dumb, tbh. 🙃

While I support my friends, please stop for a bit and breath. You've been getting very angry lately and yall know what I'm talking about. Remember that friend who quit? Well the deal was that even if they weren't extremely popular, they still got love. Idk how to explain this. It's completely valid to feel neglected, to compare yourself and feel like you're not good enough. I know this first hand. I've cried daily because of my art being shit. I've seen people do "best fandom artists" lists and so on. I know it's hard to deal with, I do. But I've returned and I kept meeting people who were happy about Coppy being active. So as much as I feel like it's wrong that here there's always "top", "middle" and "low" popularity blogs, in my opinion there are also things we notice less because of the hierarchy - like our own fans.

That being said I still think and will always think that some things are damaging and I've made a list on one server of what we can stop doing in my opinion to make people feel more welcome. Which I guess I might post here when I'll get back there, cause I left it 🙃

I personally don't know why many are uncomfortable with new members from TikTok, but I assume that maybe since new members joined old issues resurfaced, since said members were unfamiliar with what potentially could be okay or not to do.

I've been told that people are getting anon hate. Just stop? Talk normally instead. Wtf, honesly. Anon hate is for pussies. I've been called a blunt person numerous times, cause I just say a lot of things straight to the face. Idk why are you so scared of that. It's not always pleasant, but at least it's honest.

I also feel like we all need to talk more. We don't express our feelings till it gets to the boiling point which is bad. Can't we just all be more open, idk?

I've learnt due to past experiences that many people are simply not understandading each other, like as if speaking a different language? Idk. We are also so stressed and on edge somehow, I thought that it's just me, but many seem to be feeling similarly.

Fandom goes to therapy

#Ratz are talking

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ruthlesslistener · 6 months

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Different anon here (putting that just in case so you dont get mad or whatever), you did hit first. Claiming others are "icky" or "dangerous" is a lot more serious than you think, especially with lots of followers like you. And if you wouldn't mind me saying this, but it doesn't look like a sincere apology to me when you add the last bit that says "Well. We hurt each other so there". Can't you apologise without making things about yourself? The reply isn't meant for me, but I kinda notice you have this tendency where you make things about yourself in the end in a lot of your old replies concerning this issue you made for yourself. Which I think also helped fuel the flames to the old problems you faced. Idk, maybe its cause I'm so sick of seeing popular fanfic writers/artist control fandoms whether unintentionally or not. They also apologise like you, making the other party look bad by making it all about themselves.

(First off if this comes off as angry I apologize, I'm not angry I'm tired and confused)

I mean. Yeah I did say that it was gross, but I'm pretty sure I've already said that the error that caused the problem was that I had a completely different perception of what I was talking about than what was actually being said (a genuine error on my part), and also that I didn't realize my words had the connotations that they did, which was another misstep that lead to hurt feelings. Both of those were genuine mistakes caused by me a.) Not knowing what the fuck I was talking about and b.) me forgetting the fact that people don't have the same ideas about fiction that I do. Not really sure what else to do other than repeat that it was a mistake over and over, since the only other option would be to delete what I said but that would be dishonest and wrong. I DID fuck up.

As for the apology, I am sincere that I didn't mean to cause harm, but I am also sincere when I said that the response hit a specific trigger and hurt me as well- because it did. It did hit that specific trigger zone and I see no reason why I shouldn't be clear about it, especially since I wanted to make it apparent that I wasn't just shitting on people and dragging their name through the mud because I have some social status I wanted to flaunt or w/ever. I assumed it would make anon feel better while also asserting the fact that their behavior wasn't exactly okay either because I DID repeatedly say that I wanted the topic to be dropped and it didn't. Even the ground, try to lay down rules to prevent future conflicts, that sort of thing. It was a two-part statement- one, the apology and admittance that I was wrong, and two, the showing of vulnerability on my part to prove that I view myself as on equal standing as them and that I am also flawed and inherent to biases, while also pointing out how to not cause future conflict. I assumed that would be the most effective. I didn't even consider the fandom pov thing or power dynamics, bc this at its core was a misunderstanding between two people that had the misfortune of happening on a public platform.

I will agree that I do have an issue with talking about myself though, because to be frank, my own pov is kind of the only thing I know and so explaining my thought process as it goes is the familiar beaten path. When I say that I'm autistic and have been isolated my whole life apart from one friend (also isolated) and my immidiate family, that isn't a lie. I didn't start talking to more than the same 3 people for extended periods on a regular basis until I was 17. And those three people were my mom, my bff, and a close friend I picked up in high school when I was 15. And even then, those talking periods would be no longer than an hour at a time. This isn't a good thing by any means nor a method of excusing myself, just a means of explaining why I do it and that it's not because I think the world centers around me, just that I have to translate what I think to it for communication with other people to start making sense. Its def. something that I struggle with in even basic conversations, though I am working on that via interjecting various questions and comments about other people vs just proccing an infodump. It's most likely a low empathy issue that I still need to learn workarounds for, because I'm a very low-empathy autistic.

I CAN say that I grow more tempted to just delete and remake to start anew by the day, though, because the thought of being popular and having an influence/being on a pedestal puts me in a state dangerously close to a panic attack. The problem is that I cannot figure out a way to do that in a manner that would actually work, plus I cannot tolerate change.

But genuinely, the thought of power dynamics...it frightens me. My ideal would be a world where I can just push my thoughts and writing out and not be seen at all, except that I can't manage that because then I'd have nobody to discuss hyperfixations or special interests with. I don't WANT to have any sway over people. And its partially because of things like this- because I don't want to fuck up by tripping over an unseen landmine of a social error and then have my reaction be absorbed uncritically, or have that error be held under scrutiny. It makes me feel sick

#sorry this is probably just upsetting and frustrating to you. but i dont know how to pjrase it any other way #if i express my sorrow over the issue more clearly thats manipulative. and im not angry #nor do i think its just about me- i just dont know anything ELSE to say. i cant place myself in the other anons shoes #so this is all i have for sincerity #my apologies for that #anon #reply

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Ok so, hello, new Ordem Paranormal fan here, I'm not Brazillian so I apologize if any of my questions are stupid, and if you do not want to/don't have the answer to any of my questions, I will not be offended. I've just finished O Segredo Na Floresta (That ending man...fuck) and while I know some spoilers from later campaigns, I generally don't know the context around them. Now that I've gotten that out of the way, I have way too many questions, so feel free to pick and choose. 1. I've noticed that the artist between the second and third campaign changes, or at least I think that's the case because the styles are incredibly different. I'm assuming that it's because Cellbit wanted more realism, but I was curious if that was it or not because I can't really find anything on my own (the wiki, sadly, doesn't seem to have pages for the artists :() (I'm just curious about this, I like both art styles) 2. Have you ever had a llonguet or coxhina? Not entirely related to Ordem Paranormal but they mentioned those foods a few times so I was curious as to how good they were, they both look good tbh 3. It only gets worse from here doesn't it. (This next question is more so Desconjuracao and Calamidade than either of the ones I've watched) 4. I know about the relics, do they all work differently? I mean, yeah they do but like, the human in that body dies when they take over, right? But like, can they make the body immortal or does the body still age? I assume not with the God of Death because...yeah just saw that, but it could still decompose I guess. Idk, the relics fascinate me and I'm really excited for Desconjuracao to get translated 5. How many times does the system change? Because the first campaign was a d6 system, the second is a d100 system, but the wiki says Ordem Paranormal is a d20 system. Does it get more finalized by Desconjuracao? Or will it take til Calamidade for me to see the current system? I'm really hoping the rulebook gets translated someday, I'd love to play or gm, and I'm curious as to what campaign would be a good reference for what it might be like. 6. Do you have a favorite character? I don't have many people to talk Ordem Paranormal in depth with so I'm curious as to what other fans opinions are. Also, are there any characters that generally people really dislike? 7. Not sure if you read fanfics or comics, but do you have any you'd recommend? Even if it's for later campaigns I could put it on the backburner, I'd love to see more fanworks than what I've found on my own Ok so, that's a lot so I'll stop asking stuff for now, thank you so much for letting me ramble hahaha

1- well you are a minority because people really hate the old artist (Rafael da Hq) well it was changed because the new artist (Orenjiro) did beutiful fanart and cellbit decided that he would do the art for ordem ever since! (Minus o segredo na ilha, that was bonees), but the main reason why the fandom does not talk is because he did tracing and was exposed for pedophilia, also i did not know that there wasn’t any wiki pages for the artists like what? They maybe will do some soon!

2- because of your grammar i unfortunaly dont know what you ment by what you ment by llounguet but i already had many coxinhas in my life lol, they are a pretty popular "salgado" (salty food) and i really like it, the ones filled with chicken are the best (i mean its pretty rare a coxinha be anything BUT filled with chicken but WHAT EVER), i hope you get to taste coxinha, is pretty good

3- Oh honey, you didn’t even get to see the worst deaths in ordem paranormal history lol

4- i mean you won’t get much about the calamity relics since they are more important in calidade but basicly the human body that the relic is inhabiting dosen't age and is pretty much imortal (unless other relic kills it) bur when the human body of the relic dies, they just poof like the human body dosen't exist anymore and they go to another human to continue doing their elements Jobs

5- Oh honey the only season that they play 100% from the ordem paranormal rpg rulebook is sinais do outro lado, this system had a fuck ton of changes and rewrites especially because the comunity was very involved in it

6- Oh i have a bunch of them but my main favs are liz and my baby joui 💜, so the fandom is fascinating because the character can be very loved with a very toxic fanbase but also very hated with a bunch of toxic haters (joui's case lol) but most of the time the really hated character's are from the villans side, mainly npc's but this hatred is generely only really prevelent for character's with players when the season is airing yk? But for me is kinda hard to tell witch character is the most hated for all fandom because it really depends on your fandom circle because is pretty commun to get a bunch of comments of "OMG WHY DO YOU HATE THIS CHARACTER" for pretty much evey character in ordem

7- about fanfics... i unfortunaly don’t have much recomendations because i do not read much ordem fanfics (especially because the fandom is kinda dead right now and all ordem ficwritters became spiderbit/guapoduo ficwritters) well the fanprojects are kinda dead right now unfortunately, but there is official comics of ordem paranormal that adapt the first season and the first part of season 2 translated to english that you can buy it officially in e-book form! I also have a project for myself in adapt ordem seasons in manga form (and rewrite some stuff that dosen't make sanse) and make a silly self indulgent fanfic adding two oc's of mine as character's living the happy horror's that is the ordem paranormal universe, but i little idvice if you want to see ordem content

Go to Twitter, there is more people there the here unfortunaly

I hope my answers helped and any questions just hit my ask box!

#ordem paranormal #a ordem paranormal #aop #opq #ask blog!

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Some headcanons I have about Eddie that are based on exactly 0% canonical evidence and 100% the Vibe:

(Kept below a cut to spare the long scroll)

Eddie is extremely musically inclined and while I know this might seem like a "Duh" thing, I mean that he picks up on music almost as soon as he starts playing it, he's got perfect pitch, taught himself musical theory, knows ALL the classical artists and DOES listen to them to hone his hearing, so he can basically parse out a note while listening alone. That is to say, if Eddie wasn't from a poor family, he'd be one of those prodigy kids.

He read the Lord of the Rings series, The Hobbit, and The Silmarillion - and he actually understood the Silmarillion. (Look, I've tried reading it and it's hard. Could just be me, tho.) He also read all the Narnia books and ended up disliking them for the disservice they do to Susan.

He never forgets a face. This is why he remembers Chrissy so well - he also remembers just about everyone he used to get along with/play with in elementary and early middle school. He's basically Veronica Sawyer here, tbh. ("Dear Diary, my teenage angst bullshit has a body count.")

His Uncle Wayne introduced him to heavy metal and rock music.

Eddie initially embraced heavy metal because it was so opposite of what his father (a Christain fundamentalist who listened primarily to Frank Sinatra and piano and lowkey headcanoned himself as a member of the Mafia because he went to one (1) pizza place in New York twenty years ago) listened to.

It took years to for Eddie to realize the reason his father taught him things like how to hotwire a car was because his father took vindication from the fact Eddie was going to turn out exactly like him, so Eddie couldn't blame his father for his faults because they were "ultimately the same." Edit: Adding here because after re-reading I feel it's slightly unclear, but Eddie's father was trying to purposefully sabotage Eddie's life.

While Eddie absolutely worked his heart out to buy that electric guitar himself, Uncle Wayne would occasionally "accidentally" drop money in the piggy bank. Eddie, not known to be the best at addition, did not notice.

The curls are real. He just styles them to look like that. For reasons.

His mom was an angel. C'mon, that's how this shit works. She probably died tragically. Either that or she ran away the way Billy's mom did or something, which could explain some of Eddie's bitterness about himself running away all the time. (Besides the tough-guy thing from being a metalhead and such.)

About the scene where Eddie throws his vest at Steve: Lots of people have said this shows signs of how much he trusts Steve (the vest being an important part of his identity), and from a shipping standpoint I totally agree, but I also like to think Eddie preferred to keep the leather jacket, because leather is heavier and in a stressful situation like that, he might have felt more comfortable with the weight. (This is also kind of a ND headcanon based on how feel myself when I'm overwhelmed.) So it could be that he trusts Steve with the vest AND he prefers to keep the leather jacket. You can also kind of see this in his scene with Chrissy. He starts hugging his arms/crossing them over his chest and all these things read as slight discomfort to me - maybe because he'd prefer to have the jacket and vest on, but he took it off to make Chrissy feel more at ease? Idk, but it would be super sweet of him if true.

You know he NEVER takes the jacket and vest off unless absolutely necessary. Like it has to be 100°F before he does.

He had a crush on Steve Harrington. He masked this crush by vehemently insisting he didn't like Steve because he was popular and shit. I know this is cliche but I love it ok

Those stains are from beer, soup, coffee, etc that he's set on the edge of the bed and repeatedly spilled because He Just NEVER Learns

He'll frequently substitute words/sentences with lines and phrases from books and movies he's read as a means of communicating when all else fails. (Same, bro)

Eddie has the ENTIRE Rocky Horror Picture Show memorized. Down to the point he could rewatch the whole thing in his head when he's bored in class.

#eddie munson #stranger things #headcanons #eddie munson headcanons #steddie

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acethedria · 2 years

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SPOILERS

FOR

EPISODE

!!!!!

Okay so some general things to point out

The room

Clearly whoever owns this room is either Eugene or somebody connected to Eugene

The person in black is clearly Eugene, but the thing to analyze here is why there are two separate outfits. Is star outfit current Eugene and purple outfit past Eugene? Are they brothers?

Additionally ofc there’s the question of the cats.

Notice how the cats who are either in purple or are with the person in purple are all orange/yellow, meanwhile all of the motivational posters are red cats.

This implies that there are actually two separate cats. Ofc the question is, what happened to them? Where did they go? I think the fact that the red ones are all on the motivational posters, to me, implies the red one died.

Although interestingly, the fact that the orange cat also… is purple guy in some of the drawings imo also sort of makes it seem like the orange cat is purple guy’s fursona lmao. Idk

Honestly I think the weirdest bit is the drawings of the Drawtectives.

Like why is there a bunch of childlike drawings of the Drawtectives, specifically in their S2 designs (which means it’s a maximum of 2 months old) despite Eugene being much older than a tiny child. The main reason I don’t entirely go along with the idea of it being “Eugene is just bad at drawing” is that the person who drew all this put smiley faces on EVERYTHING. That screams “childlike” a lot more than “inexperienced artist”. Even Flash had more detailed eyes and a nose.

Although admittedly, Flash was coloured in pretty sloppily with markers it seems

So I’m not fully dismissing the idea.

Also ofc we have Train Rules and a drawing of the Harvey Hornswoggle Circus. Clearly I think this means whoever owns this room likely designed the circus or had ideas for it. Who do we know who had a big project underway? Eugene and Terry. Guess who also LOVES the circus: Eugene.

Also now we know there are in fact THREE ticket levels. First Class, Polaris, and 16 Psyche.

Also one last thing before we get into more speculative theorycrafting

The train log says “(Toby’s copy)”. Which… who the hell is Toby?

Theories!

Okay so, the Ticket Taker is definitely a very important player. Don’t forget, he was on the poster with Eugene that Julia posted the day of S2’s first episode.

And ofc a lot of people are speculating on who the hell The Ticket Taker even is.

So I submit three theories to you

The Ticket Taker is Eugene’s brother

Okay so, TTT and Eugene have similar designs in that they have long black cloaks with high collars on. My idea is that black outfit guy is Eugene and purple outfit guy is TTT. There isn’t really much evidence for this but it’s an idea I had.

The Ticket Taker is Eugene’s cat

This one is definitely more popular, and it was one of my first thoughts for some reason after analyzing the room a bit. I don’t really see any reason why other than that base visual connection in design and the fact that there’s cats all over the room, but still it’s a possibility.

The Ticket Taker is Eugene’s son

This one I think makes more sense but is somehow more farfetched than the other two lol. Once again, visually similar designs, but also it would fully explain the childlike drawings in the cabin. If this is TTT’s cabin, then it would make sense for him to draw his dad and his cat doing stuff. It would make sense for him to draw the people his dad was talking about (The Drawtectives). It would also make sense for him to have a set of rules to follow as he would still be a child, and also it would explain who Toby is. Additionally, I think it would make purple outfit be Toby meanwhile Eugene is still black outfit guy.

However it does make me want to know, if any of these are true… why are they a big ticket puncher man? Why can they punch holes in people?

Other theories

Now I have my personal crackpot theory:

The Ticket Taker is actually an ally

I’ve said before I think Harvey is the culprit behind it all and I stand by that.

However I also have the idea that, what if The Ticket Taker was secretly working against Harvey the whole time. What if TTT was the fall guy for if Eugene being the fall guy was found out? If he was the owner of the cabin, it would explain why there are two separate misspellings of Eugene Finch’s name. (Fuck I hit the Tumblr image limit) “Eugine” with the business card (we still don’t even know if Tallon Tscoutt is a real person), and “Fincg” with the contract.

Additionally, all of those pieces of paper with the Draco constellation did lead them to the room where TTT immediately ambushed them. I think the entire time he might have been leading them there so he could talk with them, or at least attempt to communicate.

What if TTT putting people “in holding” is actually him taking them off the train. We haven’t seen a single person who’s felt like they could leave any time they wanted, so it’s kind of clear they’re all trapped. And it is kinda suspicious that the only passenger we’ve met so far who isn’t the Drawtectives, is the person who got hole punched. Don’t know how to interpret that.

Additionally, what if he was carrying Conrad away because he actually just wanted to keep Conrad from making him seem scary.

Idk exactly how everything works out but I am fully convinced (granted I’ve convinced myself) that The Ticket Taker is an ally to the Drawtectives.

#drawtectives #drawtectives theory

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al-hekima-madara-blog · 2 years

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Madara has been my favourite character of all time. The depth of his character is just sooo well written ig? Idk. But when i see posts when madara the fricking warlord, reduced into a literal housewife......... Ughhhh its just pisses me tf off. Like i dont wanna hate on the people who made such art or wrote such fanfics but like at least respect his character a little. Its like a lion is suddenly deplected as a fkn kitten in need of milk. Like tf? I wanna tell them to stop it, but then again i don't wanna say something mean to people who are just living their life. Like its their opinion even if it pisses me off sm that i wanna throw my phone to a wall, bang my head and die with how chrige it makes me feel. What do you feel about such fanfic or art? Do you believe these artists need to stop it?

Amen to this ! To answer you, artists are free to create whatever they like however being free doesn't mean you're magically waterproof to critics. When you put something out in the world people gonna have a reaction. And if it's about a pre-existant character rooted on some tangible reality like canon, anime, Kishimoto's interview, other member of his crew's interview ect ect.... So yeah if that's OOC, people are gonna point out it's OOC. As simple as that.

But what is most important is your own ethic. How do you spend your time in tumblr? How do you contribute actively to the fandom you like? What do you reblog? Do you engage in conversation anonymously and/or directly with artists that you admire? Do you commission them for a visual you would like to see? Do you tips/or kofi them? Are you genuinely curious about their working process? What inspire them? Do you comment under your favourite fanfic? Do you post review of your fav fics and why you like it? Do you encourage around you people who do good analysis/meta? Do you write yourself your own thoughts even if it had been said before by others? there is always a different angle only you could have notice. Do you write fic yourself? even just a small one shot? Do you draw even if it's just a doodle?

I do everything I've listed above except drawing but that's something I wanna do in a near future. And for a blog who's less than a year, centered around a character as you said with depth, who is not part of the tier 10 or even 20 in term of popularity. I'm really thriving to the point I don't have time now to answer everyone as quickly as before, my notifications are always active even if I'm not there for days. I'm also engaging conversation with a lot of talented, articulate, funny people everyday. It takes maybe more time that if I was doing what the majority are doing but the reward is that I'm rarely bitter, less headache, and I don't have trolls. My dashboard reflects 80% of time what I love about Madara. I'm always excited to show my next post or read my mutuals. So yeah be authentic, consistent on creating and uplifting contents that you like and that will naturally attract around you the fandom that you want.

#madara #madara fandom

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theriu · 2 years

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IDK maybe I’ll get in trouble for asking this, but why are people in a lot of manga and manhwa and such just so...tall? Like they look SO tall, proportionally. Especially the legs but also often the torsos. Super tall beans.

But conversely, people in those and surrounding countries (to the best of my knowledge and the Average Height Records I researched) aren’t usually very tall (I think the average is 5ft.6-8in.) That’s not a bad thing, it just makes the contrast even more noticeable. I remember learning how to draw people and realizing that people drawn from life are not anywhere NEAR as tall as I thought they were based on various comic styles.

And now my brain is off on a sociological tangent, like. Is it BECAUSE people aren’t especially tall that they draw tall characters? Or did some artist(s) draw some really popular art and their style happened to involve drawing people with really long legs, and that became the popular norm? I’ve especially noticed it in characters designed to be hot, they are the tallest of tall bois (girls too, sometimes, but there’s a reverse trend where the female lead is really short so I guess it balances).

Anyhoo those are my sleepy brain ramblings for tonight, please feel free to chip in with your own thoughts (or knowledgeable facts if you are more in-the-know on The History Of Eastern Comics And/Or Society), thank you and goodnight.

#manga #anime #manhwa #river rambles #tall characters

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Omg yeah it was pi day yesterday! Completely forgot about that lol math is just hard and you’re one in the lucky ones who actually GET IT which is honestly amazing! I feel like as long as you don’t make any kids cry you’re good lol

AND MY BESTIE IS A GOOD SINGER?!??? I shouldn’t even be surprised bc of course you would be good! Idk why but that just makes me smile! I fear that the universe made you be shy in front of people because you would have been too powerful lol bc being good at math, being THE SWEETEST PERSON EVER, being a great writer and being able to sing??? YOU WOULD BE TOO POWERFUL!

Love that you just wanna look at Harry while driving, ICONIC! I get the scent thing! You definitely seem the type to like very natural or just overall comforting smells that don’t overpower but who knows scents can be very tricky! I love this specific Christmas candle that’s sold only in target and it’s smells so good! If by next holiday season I remember to look up the name I’ll let you know bc I think you would like it!

You know what’s wild, Harry’s 2019 SNL performance is what pushed me into this fandom! Was a casual listener before! Something about him using brass instruments for his live performances and showcasing them just did something to me plus HE LOOKED SO HOT HE HAD ME FEELING THINGS😵‍💫🫨 and omg you’re literally so kind! And music theory could honestly be your vibe! Music and just anything creative in general is just so important to me, I agree that I think I would die too lol aside from 1D did you have any artists that you would consider to be your top picks without question?

ALSOOOOOO toothpaste WAS SO GOOD! IVE NEVER WANTED TO BE AT THE DENTIST MORE TGAN EVER!! Like ahhh so so good and cute! Him taking her in on a short notice was so nice! But my girl was stressed and I love how immediately Harry was there to ground her and clam her down a bit! Their chemistry is just so good lol I would love to read more of them when inspiration hits! also I just love how you treat all your anons! Hope that this does make 🐱 feel a bit better!

Hope you’re having a lovely weekend bestie!!!-💜

I think if a kid cried because of me I would quit 😭

HAHAHA there are a lot of things I think I was slighted on because I would be too powerful. I can't imagine what my life would be like if I drank water regularly and/or worked out properly.

I have Harry all over my apartment (calendar, laptop background, and I hid him in one of our photo collages of our friends and family--technically it's a pick of 1D but still) and he's all over my classroom. So he's never too far from my sight. Poor bf thinks I'm crazy but I like to tell him I've known Harry longer than I've known him 😂 tbh idk how I've kept a bf this long when my heart belongs to Harry.

OOOH Def keep the candle in mind next holiday season! I LOVE Target so I will be first in line to get it 😂

He was so cute in 2019. I was just looking at 2018 pics of him and it's weird that was SIX years ago but that might be my favorite version of him 💕

As for another artist? Hmm...right now probs Noah Kahan; when I was young I LOVED Hilary Duff (her name was Sam in A Cinderella Story and made out with Chad Michael Murray so I ALWAYS wanted to be her (still do--she's so pretty and perfect)) I don't think I'm a diehard fan of any artist in particular--I'm def the popular song by a band/musician by and large. Maybe The Goo Goo Dolls or Vanessa Carlton. I think I could write an entire series of stories based on their music. I also like music my parents listened to more than anything on pop radio tbh. I think it's under the umbrella of classic rock/rock in general (John Mellencamp, Queen, The Eagles, Bruce Springsteen, I'm sure you get the vibe). I've def mentioned I'm not really all that musical and I don't do deep dives into most musicians or bands. I'm ashamed to say I only vaguely understand the lore of Fleetwood Mac/Stevie Nicks and I feel like that's sacrilegious where Harry is such a big fan hehehe

Anyway, I know you went through an emo phase and obviously we LOVE Paramore but what other musicians do you like?

Very glad you liked Toothpaste! I hated the dentist growing up. I'm less scared now but MC is ME. I've had a LOT of dental work done over the years and I think in scale of health my priorities are (1) Mental (2) Dental (3) Physical. I could never be a doctor but I think i could do pretty good as a dentist. Last time I went to the dentist I was thinking about how scared I used to be and how much I hated it but I thought about how nice it would be if Harry was my dentist 🥰 So there will be more to it, but yes, I wanted to make my sweet 🐱-anon happy 💕

I hope you don't mind, I'm going to tag 🎶 because music talks are our specialty and I feel like I've never mentioned this to her! 💕

Thanks for your message bestie, it's so good to talk to you. Hope you get to relax a little this weekend! 💕

xoxo

#💜#🎶#toothpaste

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(assorted rambling, thoughts and babbling due to my present rewatch and counting of b.astard son and d.evil himself) - obviously it’s evident there is a Type regarding mercury; but... it gets a bit more sinister if consider most blonde kids hair darkens as they get older (idk if the writers like took that into casting etc but it explains why gabriel’s mentor has brown hair and it also can factor into gabriel’s possible bleaching of his own hair though it’s noticeably White) which could also be from the hinted at backfiring spell backstory and very much maybe not his choice but it also might be his choice orrr could be all three combined - with cilia *pardon the misspelling i have no brain cells* how... did she get her blood? given from what we know her parents died that day/it’s implied she has no other relatives (unless she does unmentioned or like i keep not catching it) - gabriel really has probably seen a lot of death in his 19 years alive; like not even talking upon getting dragged through a whole ass prophecy ordeal and everything... the way he takes time/care to i’m guessing make that flower crown+go get a flower or how he rushes over to his friend despite how they last interacted (is genuinely upset because had been one of his first friends/family etc and lingers for a moment there) and trying to get the facts straight while somebody is dying/calming down nathan’s freak out without cracking himself - the soundtrack, i love it and i find the choice for when nathan is getting beat up naturally fucked up but it suits the vibe to have some a catchy song playing; it could “lighten” the mood up but it really also does a good ‘they really are beating him within an inch of life+worst basically for sport and knowing he’ll just heal/can’t do anything about it’ also the boat dancing song *intercut with you know That which it is intercut with* but seriously all the songs/it feels very curated instead of just throwing music/popular songs+artists in cuz why not - being fed up with the supposed prophecy is actually god tier writing (bonus for having actual plot be like Misinterpretation is your greatest enemy) like not enough media does the everything becomes a shitshow due to a prophecy and then it turns out the prophecy is actually a result of the shit show instead/different context - the 0 hesitation i’ll save your life by probably losing my own situations (especially towards the end like this guy really tossed his whole body into somebody who could easily end his life and was like Run meanwhile then instead of that he scrambles to try intervene- thusly annalise then has to decimate the problem to actually save gabriel+nathan) known each other very shortly and yet even from the start tbh it was ride or die - just little characterizations and character traits etc like !!!! annalise apparently constantly spilling things on the cream carpet in her room, or how gabriel tends to have anxious hand movements/reassuring hand squeezes, or like heartbeats in certain moments with nathan (especially when it’s things like him listening to gabriel’s resting heart beating and picking up it shifting upon wake up or him listening to annalise’s on the boat *arguably i’d say maybe listening to both just not enough awareness etc* but also he’s just really bad at specifying or having awareness regarding it)

#spoilers cw #♥ i can’t breathe. 》 mun post #long post cw #death mention cw #dark themes cw #(swear if this show gets cancelled it genuinely will suck- but i will abstain from that rant that's boiling away at me lately in general)#(me realizing i never tagged the last hc post in gabriel's tag vs knowing it means it wont be in the main tag peace of mind)#(i really want to write/rp but i dont owe anything and people are naturally very busy etc nowadays)

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