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golbrocklovely · 5 months

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I saw a vid on tt and wanted to ask you if its really true? So i saw vid about- something gross happened to colby when he was in public shower 6 years ago and someone tried to yk..him. People said he deleted that vid, because of how sensitive it was for him and how he is scared to go to a place like that . Idk if you know something about this, im asking because people spread rumours like about the elton showing colbys wrist. If this really happened, im so sorry for him, no one deserves that🩷

i've seen the clip you're referring to. i vaguely remember that vlog enough on it's own as well. that being said, colby never said anything about being touched inappropriately. the story itself was just him explaining how when he was in a public shower a man came up to him, tapped him on the shoulder, and started talking to him. and he was uncomfortable by it bc they were both naked. but that was all that happened.

colby has also deleted a lot of older videos over the years, and has never explained why that is the case. so, that would also mean that this video got removed without any explanation. it's very possible this video got removed for something else entirely. fans are jumping to the conclusion that he was "molested" (as the tiktok claims) even tho colby himself has never said that or claimed that to be the case.

i don't think this was done maliciously (like how a lot of the elton rumors were/are) but it is, once again, the fandom jumping the gun on a situation that colby himself joked about. while yes, it was a creepy thing to have happened to him, he never said it was more serious than that.

#ask #personal #colby brock

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corvids-core-sys · 5 months

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screw it, we have some tags we might as well list them will be updated over time [ayor] = proceed at your own risk shiri(shi:) - #shiriken (may appear on other blogs we interact with) #shirikry (my quarantine for my mental illnesses, im traumatized) [ayor] bdubs(none) - #cryingmoss (traumatized last life bdubs who probably has OLD) [ayor] cat train/wilbur(ct:) - #cat on da train (this is a wilbur dreamtive factive who mostly talks to his friends and shitposts) [safe] maindave(d:) #davedakin (uhhhhhh i know he has vague nsfw'd on insta before but idk about here, really old frequent fronter from around when we thought we where kingenic still hence the being a kin, he isnt tho) [safe????] our core w/ too many das(and signoffs) - #ingramwings (base tag for ingram no matter the state) (they might add da tags) [safeeee???] roxy(ro:) - #roxytonic (i think she just vibes tbh) [probably safe] mono(mn:) - #your monogisty (traumatized child who led a gang of homeless kids, he is p fun to talk to) [safe] ash(ash:) - #ashallyart (she is traumatized and bisexual idk what to tell you) [safe iirc] ttango(ttt:) #mistewteknight (they are so so violently gay they literally married one of their partners thought their ask box iirc) [safe adjacent i think] redd(rd:) - #rdhandedafullhouse (depressed gay rich kid, he is literally what it says on the box. mildly prone to impulsively trauma dumping while wanting to build up walls so thick he could survive the apocalypse along with all his nearly lined up bottles of feelings [safe?????] matilda(mati:) #matihoney (she is matilda, like from the movie adaptation of the kids book about terrible parents, she is chill) [safe] gir(gir:) - #gir notzim (again, what the box says, so many of our older introjs are very compliant) [safe] Vriska(unknown) - #vriskabite (careful, she is a vriska<3jhon/lh) [safe adjacent i think] ds dirk(dsd:) - #doushdirk (from a long abandoned and deleted and revamped as non hs, and then abandoned again au from insta, trauma go brr) [safe] dell(de:) - #delldagirl (trans fem beta strider kid, trauma™, gets onto fights with maindave like a petulant little sister) [safe????] rose(tt:) - (i cant find her tag T-T, in a subsystem with another rose(roseA) [ayor, verbally dismantles fakeclaimers in our ask box] scarlett(pg:) - #scarlett.text.ca (textposts) [ayor. some of them have discourse but i tag those thourally] #scarlett.reblog.ca (reblogs) sols/solsy(sy:) - #solsisposting (general tag for factive sols) [ayor tw alcoholic] doly(dl:) - #dolythedisgrace (mentally ill quarantine and vent tag) [ayor] MISC #the deformit system - our old system name but mostly been replaced or removed only on rb convos we dont have the energy to go through. #ask the deformit system - our old askbox tag we aslo havent gone tough and fixed/removed

#shiriken #hoping and paying i typed all the urls right or im gunna cry this took so long #(dl: everytime i try and fix this tumblr fuckes it up even mmore everyone is just going to have to deal with it being broken as ever loving #dl: ok i think ive fixed everything finally

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karmautistic · 3 years

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I'm bored as fuck drop your salt about v&tsk

Oh jeez... fandomwise or canonwise?

I don't think there's much I can say canonwise that hasn't already been said. All the characters of color are based off of vaguely racist stereotypes (I.E. Yong being the "Jinx Asian character") and stuff like that, all complaints of which I agree with.

But uh, oh man, fandomwise? Jesus where do I begin.

How about varigo interpretations?

I just think, imo, I've seen a lot of people portray them in a way that just... rubs me the wrong way as a gay man. I really hate the stereotype of "smaller guy is big pushover and so easily flustered and uwu shy" and then "bigger/taller guy is flirty and strongk and an asshole but its ok because its hot♡"

I actually don't see this as often as I thought I would, but im assuming that's because I tend to stick to people in my own friend circle for varigo content, but that doesn't mean I haven't ran into it.

Varian's not shy and he's not a pushover, like holy shit I can not emphasize the enough, if Hugo said any of the "uber hot flirty" lines half the people write Varian getting flustered by, he would have bodyslammed Hugo in 10 seconds flat.

There's just something so stupid about the idea of Hugo being an overly flirty guy who pushes boundaries and doesn't respect personal space or romantic advances and thats... thats supposed to be attractive? No.

I mean, I know most of the characters have vague personalities so there's not exact way to write them in-character except Varian. He is literally the most fleshed out from tangled the series and from what we've seen, he's clever, insightful, and oh my god he is stubborn. There is just no way in hell he'd lay down and take flirting from some random dude.

One thing I still don't get about people writing him as a push-over even after season three is... Yeah in season three, he was a damsel in distress a lot, but he... still had a lot of moments of sass... Did you. Guy's not. Watch the show?

Are you willfully ignoring character traits so it can be """sexy"""?

They tend to reduce Varian to a weird push-over which is. The opposite of his character. He's a sassy dude who may have a hard time turning people down do to maybe past situations,, he's still not going to lay down and let Hugo push him around.

People are very much too worried about what is "sexy" in mlm ships than what's healthy.

Also Varian literally spent so much of tts having trusts issues aeound his dad and raps and everyone and then unhealthy relationships of manipulation around the saporians. I just think he should have a healthy relationship with trust and communication and not just. "Mmm haha flirt sexy"

Also I just. CALL ME CRAZY but I think portraying all mlm as "hot flirty guy who pushes boundaries" and "person who finds being pushed around and abused sexy" is... bad. Like. Its just bad. Wtf yall.

Thats about it for varigo but one more thing that bugs me abt the fan base is like. People arguing over 7k being Canon or not.

Like. People get excited and thats fine but then there's people who are like... idk I don't wanna be mad at them bc I know they're trying to help and like. Tell people not to get their hopes up, but I promise saying "its probably not gonna happen" doesn't. Do anything. It just seems kinda mean tbh.

Like yeah idk maybe its not maybe it is happening idc at this point, let people be happy with their own things and if it ends up not being canon they can find out on their own. Like who cares just leave it alone idk lol.

Kind also ties into a lot of tts fans that dislike complaining abt 7k posts showing up in the tts tag... like. Just. Mute 7k or vat7k or whatever???? There is a mute button on tumblr dot com you can use it. I promise you will not die of annoyance because tumblr use Hugospubichair69420 posted another varigo drawing in the tts tag. If its not depicting abusive or legitimately harmful content then like. Keep scrolling.

Idk sorry my brain scrampled egg and I could word this more eloquently if I tried but I wont.♡

#alchemythoughts.txt #asks #anon

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everythingsakura · 4 years

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sakura time travel fic idea

i have a new idea in mind i want to write but like,,, i just know i wont be able to commit TT

okay so it goes like this; sakura travelling back in time but she doesn’t end up near konoha, she ends up somewhere near the beginnings of what would be nadeshiko village and the women there accept her when she gets over her hysteria (lol) and proves her strength. (i would write about sakura starting the nadeshiko village too but,, im horrible at world-building ;-; but wouldn’t that be interesting though?)

and the fic starts with tobirama going missing. well, either him or hashirama or even the uchiha brothers (izuna ALWAYS lives in my AUs, shh) depending on whoever you feel like writing first. then the remaining founders get thrown into a frenzy because he was only supposed to be away for a week at most, why isn’t he back yet?? and then they set out to find him, and surprise-surprise, tobirama has been held captive by a feral (?? ugh men) sakura who has claimed him as her own after he defeated her in battle and she somehow managed to drag her back to the village.

they try to barter with her to please give the prickly white haired senju back, we really miss him (madara and izuna gag but smile through the pain) and hashirama needs someone to balance him out back home, but sakura vehemently defends her property. (probably put a surprise kiss or something vaguely harassing like gripping tobi’s ass or something XD). she sets a deal with them that they can have him back if they defeat her in battle, but doesn’t inform them of the repercussions when they do (sneaky woman, you).

so they play rock paper scissors or something to decided who to sacrifice do the honours and it’s madara.

in classic sakura fashion, she scares the balls off him with her strength but also weirdly turns him on with her little display and it provides enough of a distraction for her to win.

then,,, idk what happens BUT SAKURA WILL GET HER HAREM OF BEEFCAKES BY HOOK OR BY CROOK. the end.

#ayon writes #fic ideas #i want to write this so bad #but i don't think i will be able to commit #but still :c #it's stuck in my head #sakura haruno #haruno sakura #sakura #multisaku #hashisaku #tobisaku #madasaku #izusaku #pls don't steal #if you want to use please credit :'c

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scarakitty · 3 years

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Hii so I saw that matchups were open! Well I think they are- I'd like a male match up for genshin if you will ^^ I'm an INTP and I'm super clumsy- well I like to tell myself that I'm just unlucky but everyone disagrees and says that I'm just clumsy. Also I'm an ambivert and I usually am really nervous with people I just met or don't really know but I'm really energetic with people I've known for awhile. I apologize a lot and most of my friends hate it but it's kinda a habit of mine. Oh and I ramble a lot- sorry if I do that 💀 I'm also sorta touch starved- I don't like saying stuff like that tho because it sounds oddly self aware and narcissistic and that's the last thing I wanna come across as 😿 I also cry a lot. And I don't think that's a good thing but I do and it's not necessarily just when I'm sad I usually cry about anything 😭 and I'm really into scary movies, paranormal stuff, and uhhh things like that yea- sorry if that was vague TT I'm also really loyal (like idk I could nEvEr cheat or go behind someone's back to do anything) and I love my friends so much :) I watch a lot of true crime stories and documentarys as well and uhhh that's all I'm kinda boring tbh. I uhhh make a lot of spelling mistakes too I had to proof read this like 3 times and probably still missed something 💀 SHSHHHSSS SORRY IF THIS WAS LIKE BAD I DIDN'T SEE ANY RULES OR ANYTHING SO I DIDN'T REALLY KNOW WHAT TO SAY SINCE I'VE NEVER REQUESTED A MATCHUP anyways now I'm gonna ask this and aggressively exit out of Tumblr bc I'm nervous ✨

heey!!! thank u for requesting!

i match u with razor!!!!!

the top 3 is:

1. razor

2. kaeya

3. bennett

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sorry i cant do this time headcanons, im so tired 😩

if u want u can request some and I will do them soon :)

#genshin impact matchups #genshin impact headcanons #genshin impact #bennett genshin impact #genshin impact kaeya

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mingi-bubu · 4 years

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Watch Super Junior KRY’s “When We Were Us” MV with Me!

In honor of SuJu KRY’s comeback, i have decided to celebrate by doing a wwm for their new mv!!

If you haven’t watched it yet and plan to, there are a lot of scenes with TVs with flickering screens so I’m just wanting to have you be aware of that bc I know there are sensitivities to flashing lights. IDK if it’s like strong enough, I guess for lack of better words, to like do anything, but better safe than sorry.

This goes through 3 cycles of my watching it and each cycle will be labeled with what my focus was aka;ldkfajs;

Support KRY and go stream When We Were Us!!

Cycle I: Watching it for the First Time

kyuhyun in the floral suit im dyinggg

his voice is always so good im in love

wookie’s tie is cuuuteee

i love the plant shots

yasss yesungie the chambray suit

blue contacts??? ive missed you since pink magic

if i focus on anything but the visuals i will cry

i personally really like wookie in this floral shirt/bomber jacket thing

the necklace kyu wears is so delicate

the c

the lclose up im

his eyes

yesungie ugh

the harmoniey

THE HARMOINEIS

GOD IVE MISSED KRY SO MUCH

UGH HTIS WAS SO GOOD

TIME TO LOOP IT AND THIS TIME FOCUS ON THE MUSIC MORE LOL

Cycle II: Music Focus

i relally like the strings

i understand its a ballad but wowowow i really like the strings in this opening measures

the piano is very peaceful

like i dont often like instrumentals but i can definitely see myself listening to the instrumental version of this song if they do that

it kind of sounds like an ost or out of a movie

the way that yesung is able to go from more raspy deeper notes to effortlessly sliding up the octaves and have his voice become clearer is always so impressive to me

wookie’s voice is always so clear in how how he sings the lyrics

kyuhyuns voice is literally so individualistic i am in love with it

i love when they sing in harmony personally

i also love when they just vocalize in the high notes

its very niceee

Cycle III: Visuals Focus

given that the title of their comeback album is when we were us, my opinion is that the flickering television sets are supposed to evoke a feeling of nostalgia

The scenes have a vaguely, I don’t know what to call it, dusty??? Dreamlike??? quality to them

this is especially seen when ryeowook is singing in the plants

and when yesung has his close up solo in a blue tinted room

the styles of many parts of this set kind of remind me of like music videos from the 80s and 90s

as an aside, i just realized that i could turn on captions. i am just as disappointed in me as you are

anyways

the sepia/brown lighting definitely emphasizes a feeling of an older time

yesung singing with himself projected onto the screen behind him really reminds me of Whitney Houston for whatever reason

i think that having them not really interact with the camera at first helps with the idea of it being focused on something from the past

like they cant even look bc it’s too much

god i wish i had paid more attention in my theatre class wrt filming hhhhh

i would have better insights then maybe

i dont really have any deeper thoughts on this or any better analyses on this but i think the juxtaposition of kyuhyun in the floral suit surrounded by the screens is visually very interesting

he’s the center and focus of course but visually its an interesting set up

i like how the lights appeared to come on when the chorus started for the first time

like it mimicked the sun rising and then at the end of the chorus the “sun sets”

i think my favorite shot in this is probably when wook’s in the flowers

i think ive figured out why the kyu shot is so interesting to me

the light is behind the wall so that it’s distorted in a way and it really only spreads around him

so like even tho he’s literally in the center of the shot and his outfit makes him stand out, the lighting outlines him as well

tt i just want to talk to the set designers all the time i have so many questions

like half the reason i watch mvs is bc i used to do set design and prop management in high school and so i just constantly look at it

side note they did really really well on yesung’s eye makeup like i love that for him genuinely

i do not know how to address wookie in the drying linens nor the futuristic white and blue set up

like theres benches and seats that are cubes and rectangular prisms with a pool in the center?? for no reason???

i mean i guess it could connect to the lyrics about the “blue summer day” aber i dont know what it has much to do with anything

i love that the we dont really see the guys in the k.r.y order until like almost 30 seconds into the mv

ive watched this mv at least 10 times by now

idk it makes me happy the boys are able to live their ballad singer dreams esp wook and kyu

kyu is literally wearing either a blazer or button down or both for the entire mv while yesung and wook’s outfits are changed up more in terms of style

i like kyu’s shoes at the end

i just think the white circle is neat

im watching this for the one more time and then i need to move on to something else ajlaskdjf

this time im taking into account the lyrics

when you try your best but the one you love is lost from you

wowowow i was right to wait until the end of this to actually listen and read the lyrics along with it bc like i said in the beginning i was going to cry

i guess they’re called kry for a reason (:

anyways, if you read this and have ideas about certain things/better analyses of the mv let me know!!!

i would love to discuss this with someone ^-^

thank you for reading!!!!!

stay safe and stay healthy <33333

#when we were us #suju #super junior #sj kry #suju kry #super junior kry #jae.txt #jae.wwm

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rhimorechill · 4 years

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1-30 can i just have your opinion on all of them please

KDHSKHFKFB whoever u are anon ur actually my only follower ever

1. are you of the “tom nook is a crook” or “tom nook is an honest businessman” opinion ?

HES AN HONEST BUSINESSMAN !!! ur loans have NO interest and he was handing out 100k interest/month for a good while there !!!!! the only reason it dropped to 10k is b/c i accidentally made a mil while tryna get dreamies ok. the whole "nook inc owns the entire island" thing is KINDA WEIRD but like ! i mean. its still a pretty sweet deal

2. do you play as yourself or a made up character ?

i play as me !! and then everyone tells me my character is cute which ROCKS

3. where is your house located ?

well CURRENTLY. its just at the center of the island. but once i get terraforming (which will be as soon as i get lolly, mitzi, and purrl) it will be on its own little island in the middle of the island

4. who were your first villagers ?

hamlet and renee ! and bea and agent s and broccolo. oh and quillson. theyre all gone now but i moved bea into a friends island so i can visit her later !!

5. preferable method of earning bells ?

turnip runs babey !!! srsly i will pay like 500k tips and make a million in PROFIT (per run !!) its fucking awesome. i never use turnip exchange tho that shit website always stops telling me where i am in the queue

6. what villager personalities do you typically get along best with ?

i love all of them. so much. normal and lazy villagers might take the cake, but ankha was on my island for 2 days and nearly stole my heart, so snooty villagers r up there too. smug villagers ? like i mostly have experience w raymond b/c i fucking HATED quillson and keaton n ed i barely paid attention to (ed gets points tho. he shares my bday) but that goddamn nerd has a war with slugs. we love to see it. peppy villagers rock (i have THREE on my island rn... but ugh i gotta kick out merry sometime..... i love her but i just !! have too many). i CANNOT hate jock villagers those guys just wanna work out !!! and talk abt working out !!!! theyve done nothing wrong in their whole lives. uchi villagers are great too and cranky villagers r trying their best !!! every villager is good is what im saying. even quillson (i guess)

7. who is your current best friend in the game ?

MGHGSHGD felicity or raymond !!! they send me mail all the time and also i really like raymond. b/c hes such a fucking NERD of an accountant. and felicity was the first of my dreamies to move in so im 💚 when it comes to her...... SOMEDAY. lolly will also be my bff. lolly come home

8. is there a villager you want to get rid of ?

MERRY WHITNEY VELMA. PLEASE GO AWAY. U R ALL SWEETIES BUT NONE OF U MADE THE CUT. ONLY ONE OF U IS EVEN A CAT. (if you want whitney or velma pls dm me !!! someone asked for merry already but id love for them to be on islands where ppl love em)

9. do you hoard a lot of items ?

YES. i did a purge the other day and laid a fuckton of items out to give away. it did not fit and i had to shove some on the cliffs. i still have a big pile waiting to be taken. meanwhile my storage gets new items added

10. take medicine or save & restart ?

medicine is for chumps.

11. where is your favorite spot in your village ?

HMMMM i rlly like my entrance !!!! its rlly neat and has green AND pink mums + trees..... and fencing and a path. IDK i worked hard on it and think it turned out rlly well !!!! other than that maybe my shopping area ? i dont have terraforming yet so theres a lot i Havent Gotten To wrt my island (like my cliffs are almost entirely undeveloped b/c i havent placed any inclines. so theres no pathing)

12. what achievement do you want to hit the most ? (ex: golden equipment, all fish / bugs, etc)

its not REALLY an achievement but i want all my dreamies real bad. after that i want a 5 star island !! i would like a lily of the valley. or 20.

13. do you know any secret tips ?

HMMM i dont think so ?? i dont really know any secrets. ive been trying out campsite cycling and it has Not been going well tho. if u need tips on tting to move villagers out or smthn i can help w that !! this is such a vague q that im like DO i know smthn ??? that is a secret ?????? i also vaguely know abt *m**b* sp**f*ng but im not allowed to do that soooo. thats a pipe dream. fun fact: its not a secret but gardening is SO fucking complicated theres genetics n shit. its wild. thank god someone straight up gave me blue roses so i dont have to go thru that shit. also do not tt backwards when dealing with turnips. not even 30 mins to save ur 600+ prices frm closing time. They Will Change

14. who are your dreamies ?

THESE CATS (i know major shocker from tumblr user pumakittycat. app is acnh life)

15. favorite furniture item ?

HMMMM THIS IS A TOUGH ONE. maybe mum cushions ? those r cute as fuck. i love every flower item, honestly, frm garden wagons to flower stands to pansy tables to hycanith lamps to. idk the bonsai shelf ? i have one of those. i also love my sea globe. its great. WAIT DO RUGS AND WALLS/FLOORS COUNT THERES NO QUESTIONS ABT THOSE i love so many FUCKING items. also autumn woods wall, if ur out there,

16. favorite clothing item / outfit ?

my green clover dress !!!! its the best thing EVER. my full outfit also consists of a silver tiara, a cherry blossom pouchette, white fishnets, and green rubbertoed sneakers. and, ofc, clover facepaint. ALSO FOR CONTEXT. my island is named clover bay thats why im like Clover Time. Theyre Important To The Aesthetic. im also an aro bitch who loves overall dresses. b/c they slap

17. favorite museum room ?

I LOVE THE LITTLE BUTTERFLY ROOM do not even TALK to me unless ur the butterfly room in the museum THERES SO MANY AT ALL TIMES ITS SO NICE

18. cedar, fruit, or palm tree ?

FRUIT. i literally chopped down every single hardwood tree on my island and replaced them w orange trees

19. favorite fruit ?

.......Oranges

20. favorite fish ?

HM. bitterling has a special place in my heart for being my Only fish model. whale sharks also rock tho. and thats only of the ones ive caught !!! i also love frogs, turtles, and obligatorily catfish. oh and seahorses and bettas

21. favorite bug ?

HM. ladybugs maybe. and both birdwings ! maybe also emperors butterflies. possibly others as well

22. favorite flower breed ?

MUMS !!!!!

23. favorite crossbred rare flower breed + color ?

GREEN MUMS.

24. favorite villager personality ?

havent we been over this ? im a dumb bitch who likes all of them way too much

25. favorite time of day to play ?

i uh. play. all the time. i tt a Lot tho so i like setting my time to 1pm ? idk it Feels like a good time

26. favorite special visitor event or reward ? (ex: selecting an art piece from redd, aiding guliver and getting a special item, etc)

SAHARAH. im obsessed w the fucking rugs and the tickets and the lottery. i also love celeste, and gulliver has a spot on the faves list for providing lucky cats sometimes (also a fave item) and for having been to space

27. favorite kk song ?

call me basic, but bubblegum kk plays at all times in my living room

28. favorite animal crossing game ?

ACNH lmao. i never really sat down and got Dedicated to city folk, which is the only other game ive played

29. if you’ve played animal crossing before, are there any animals you’re nostalgic for ? if this is your first game, has any animal in particular left some effect on you ?

ROVERRRRR come home :( also harriet.... i Miss Her. and resetti (i REFUSE to use rescue services dont @ me). and also the bus driver guy who took u to the city. If You Were An NPC In City Folk I Miss You Now

30. share a story from your gameplay

SO. i love the little alien easter egg. i set up a photoshoot and made like a little storyline abt the aliens and stuff. i even got a flying saucer and put that down and used it. and every fucking time !!!! i do shit with aliens !!!!!!! gulliver shows up on my beach. i know he went to space in cf n stuff (I GOT FLAVOR TEXT ONE TIME-- DURING NH-- ABT HIM NOT WANTING TO GO BACK EVEN) so i think its fucking hilarious that the aliens show up.... so does he

#rhi's asks #anon #acnh #LMAOOOOO thank u for asking so much....... heres a brick wall of text

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shikrasong · 5 years

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☜☞ why not do both? owo

talkin ships ;; accepting !

☜ (a ship I have) :

yknow that post about developing feelings when you’re jokeshipping? yes hi that post is vagueing me and @bllybutcher and i do not appreciate it???

honestly, though, Tim and Butcher are… scarily alike, like super scarily, like i sat and read all of The Boys comic and just had to stare long and hard because wow. some of Butcher’s moves are just. very like what Tim would do, and even has done in canon. they’re both so emotionally closed off, focused on work, and loyal to only a small few, and they play their cards so close to their chests and always have a scheme for everything. god, there’s a line, about Butcher never saying something that’s not furthering his own agenda? and it reminded me SO much of Tim.

…and now they’re stuck on each other and worried about the other’s self-sacrificing tendencies and im… TT~TT soft… they’re a nonstop barrage of smartass remarks and bickering that’re actually thinly veiled expressions of concern for each other’s well-being and it means the w o r l d to me.

☞ (a ship I want) :

who do i who does Tim have to murder to get a little more Anarky in his life??? i honestly fell in love with Lonnie during the moments he was around in R.ed R.obin, and i have every intent of going to find more, but even just that friendship in that arc makes me wish i had an Anarky to write with? seeing if they could really overcome their differences in ideology and upbringing when Tim has strayed so far from the light, if they could still be friends when Lonnie’s intent is to tear down the machine and Tim’s is to profit off it.

idk man i just… gimmeee

#smallblueboyscout #fracture my spine and swear that you’re mine ;; shikrasong + bllybutcher #¤ what do you say ; answers ¤

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berrymeter · 2 years

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welllllllelelel the teasers!! boring 😪 at least the looks are. the hanbok is pretty tho. they all look good especially dongju😞💕 BUT disregarding all that. i found a clip of the tt cause they performed it at their concert and it’s probably in top 3 of their tts. or top 2 or top 1 like it’s a vibe. quieter than their other comebacks but so pretty and an earworm. i’m being vague bc i know u want to go in blind but this is more specific sorry—def inspired by shangrila. or in that family of songs. it’s not really like gaja at all! but if u end up disliking it forget that i said it was shangrila’s family bc that would be an insult to vixx 😖 super pretty tho i’m looking forward to it u should check out at least the title!! there’s also a million other comebacks this month so getting a first win is….😭😬😞😔😒😣😢 but alas. how are u my dear friendddddd 💕💕💕 how was daylight savings time! how’s the extra hour! i’m personally gonna use it to see if i can hibernate for winter like bears can so if i’m gone forever that’s why -tt

HIIII great to see u here!! um see im gonna be honest with u but ummm shangri la...... is one of the few vixx tts... that i don't really have feelings about 😳 it's uh slow and uh idk not my thing akdjjs it is good but not a favourite so <3 if the tt i don't like much i will be prepared. n yeah i think dongju's the one who looks most interesting atm why are they obsessed with being boring these days i am tired 😭

awaa... um we had daylight savings last week and uh i forgot about it so uh i failed to get my extra hour of sleep 😞 looking up at the oven & seeing 5 am then looking at my phone & seeing 4 am broke me. im not sure what i can make of it now 😞😞 pain and suffering. but otherwise i'm okay. i mean there are annoying things here & there but i'll live 😁😁 maybe!!! i hope u've been doing greattt 💖💖

#asks #tt anon #my emoji usage... delightful is it not

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itain · 7 years

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long.. complaint post essentially

id say rant but its less anger than just.. despair i guess

oh god i feel at this moment.... very hopeless

ive just kinda been frozen since i got home,,, talked some, ate dinner, etc... but there is so much i need to get done but i {feel i} cant do until i finish one thing in particular...... like so many rows stacked up in tetris that all get cleared with the one block that fits them all... i mean perhaps nobody thinks its that big a deal,,, idk......... i just feel like i cant breath... literally it feels like my chest is a bit tight just thinking of all this shit stressing me... like once i finally get one thing done turns out its not done and i had 10 more things to do as well... i feel that in the time it takes for me to take one step, i’m pushed back like 20 paces....

you know when you have so much stressing you that you play games or just fucking fill your mind with static to pretend nothing is wrong?? you waste time having fun while the stress just looms next to you all day every day?? thats like my usual state of being.... and here is the other end.. where things come crashing down, and im panicking, and im frozen because i can never solve things, i have to find an order in the chaos, and at this point everything immidiately turns negative and i wonder why im even alive rn... i like that ive written this much and still remained so vague.......... SIGH

uh lets see i mean its mostly all just financial shit

the biggest block rn is the fucking gym... gee am i getting so damn sick of this shit.... i am ready to sccream over this fucking gym...... ive been trying to quit almost since ive started... i FINALLY send the shit i need to on time..... and they didnt do it???? so i need to call them tomorrow asking why they havent drafted the quitting fee, and im sure theyll ask if i did the fucking secure mail where i get notified when they recieve it, and no i didnt bc i dont have money, and they will come up with some bullshit excuse reason why i cant quit still, and at that point ill want to scream and cry, i fucking wish that could solve my problem??? why cant i be like my dad who yells at the customer service people on the phone till they solve everything for free???? why cant i ask that of him now?? thoughts like these... who let me be an adult, how will i not get fucked out of shit because im a fucking pushover who just wants to please everyone and be polite.....

then lets see.......... the student loans..... the big issue with this... i mean 50 bucks a month starting in october... i mean we will fucking see if i have the money... considering im already drowning now, i fucking doubt, but my biggest concern is the logistics... what amount am i paying back? how do i know that its set up to draft out of my account??? questions i dont want to ask anyone because i’ll feel like a fucking idiot and i’ll just cry about it instead pls.... so i’ll just rot till october tyvm...

and what else... my biggest fear is the combination of these two, that i cant quit the gym and im paying like 75 fucking bucks a month for two things that have made my life nothing but hell...

but i think the other biggest stressor is the small shit adding up rn... for like 2+ months (i havent really counted but i know its been a long time now) my phone isnt working without a charger.... and to even get it replaced for a working model is like 75 bucks.. id buy some shit phone but thats 20 bucks that can be spent towards surviving... like, see above bills.... oh and id switch to an old phone of mine to even ask if thats possible would fucking cost money bc metro pcs wont answer shit without seeing money first ugh.. its made all communication and leisure time way more difficult as im chained to the wall and only a few short times a day for either.... so setting aside that, ill just fucking pray for that for christmas orz the other “small shit”...... oil needs to be changed on the car,,, means i have to find some time to buy oil, figure out what fucking oil to buy, where to buuy, if i have the money, etc... communicate with coworker friend and get a day we both have off so her friend?? can change my oil for me for free, bless.... but thats not even possible till i get back from my vacation.... so a week or two..... then we have the registration sticker that needs to be updated before september,,,, 80 to 85 bucks my dad said... that obv cant be updated with a code on my car so again, it has to wait a couple weeks... even driving with a code on my car gives me such anxiety...

so moving on to.... i guess the tiny shit that isnt as big problems but only have become such because im mega stressed..... thought i had finished the laundry... found another bag orz... apartment much more disorganized than i thought.. you know how order in the home gives a certain peace of mind.... and vise versa.... bf and i are fucking depressed and at least i want pills but that is a faraway dream rn, booking a fucking appointment, much less having $$ for a perscription????? trying to work out then losing motivation so quickly as always... but because i want to dedicate my energy towards cleaning this place... which just somehow never happens.... just never seeing a way to save money??? ive been so damn frugal and i still cant pay my bills and here i am with more bills, meanwhile my dad posting his stupid fucking bullshit on facebook about “choose happiness” like money doesnt have a fucking say in the matter.... and all the low self esteem and negative thoughts that accompany all this situation... wanting to “do something nice because ive been having a hard life/week” and then still feeling like shit, or feeling guilty for having spent anything then complaining about money...

i guess last thing i wanted to touch on..... the vacation... bfs mom takes me with them on their family vacations.... honestly i feel like the goth in the prep family? like im too much drama to make them happy.. ive been pretty open with her about my feelings towards my dad and stepmom, mostly bc she is super giving and nice and agrees with me against them.. and recently ive been more open, like about my depression even... and like... she even said she would get me a scrip... like....... i just.. this kind of thing, the vacations, the covering my half of rent, even while she doesnt have a job rn (she is rich but tighter on $$ now so) but i feel so guilty accepting it.. like if i justify it, then arent i being too greedy?? but i literally cant refuse it, or i’d be on the street right now so..... but i just feel like she owns me... if i were her daughter i think id be more okay but like... if john and i break up she put like, thousands into SOME CHICK.... i feel like in the far future i’ll need to write her a check too;; i told bf i wasnt rly feeling the vacation... of course because of the neverending drama surrounding me (yeah yeah im not saying drama is drawn to me, yeah i create it okay) this will just kinda strain more the relationship and they’ll all think i have some issue with them or smth that i gotta ruin every family trip... so i’ll just go.. but like... self esteem is out the window, so i wont want any pics.. i doubt bf will either, we both have gained so much weight, and i have perma acne that gets worse by the day, and i cant even afford to get my hair cut or colored again so its just this grown out mess.... then in the other respect of a vacation... i think ill just be worried the whole time about my finances... i mean i wont be able to spend money on anything so -shrugs- i get to just look at a bunch of nice things, thinking “i wish” or feel the guilt of her wanting to get it for me.... oh god yeah and same things w my friends.... i want to hang with them?? but i dont have money for shit??? and every time they pay for smth i die inside bc when will i even be able to pay them back its the same thing but theyre poor TT

anyways i guess thats most of it..... i guess im feeling tired maybe ill just pass out watching some youtube videos.... i was wanting to get a drawing done but ~*the cycle of feeling like shit*~ will occur worse then...

#negative #long post #dont read #sorry i exist #i wish i didnt too #the shit thing is even writing this out and posting im like...#its like there is two of me and one is saying you just want attention.. you want pity. you want money.#well fuck i want happiness but ill get what i can i guess

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