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softhe4rted · 10 months

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on loneliness jenny slate / japanese breakfast, posing for cars / corinne von lebusa, big glow / dadushin / alejandra pizarnik, tr. me / fka twings, home with you / avocado_ibuprofen / fiona apple, left alone / anne carson, “the anthropology of water”, plainwater / kiki smith, free fall / alejandra pizarnik, diaries

#hi my post #oooooohhh this is just a compilation of my own feelings lately #i know i have a red de apoyo i know i have my dearest friends but it's so hard to not feel alone when we're so far away #idk i just miss school and having someone to talk to everyday i'm not a text gal i need to hear your voice i need to see you i need someone #to caress my hair i need contact i need closeness i need to know somebody hears me #it's not all bad i do love my solitude but i just .... i just think in a room full of people nobody would choose me #lol i'm gonna stop now i just always use my tags as a venting space xd #also yes i had the audacity to translate alejandra pizarnik but i just couldn't find that bit already translated and i really wanted it her #web weaving #on loneliness #loneliness tag #being alone #jenny slate #japanese breakfast #posing for cars #corinne von lebusa #dadu shin #alejandra pizarnik #fka twigs #home with you #fiona apple #left alone #anne carson #plainwater #kiki smith #parallels #poetry #prose #words #lyrics

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sluttyten · 5 months

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My afraid-of-romance ass has just been asked by another regular customer for my number and the stupid thing is that again I do think this guy is kinda cute and I really probably should say yes

#the fear tho lmao #what am I afraid of? I have no fucking clue #this is why I’m still questioning my sexuality lol like what am I? do I even actually like guys? do I like anyone?#in an existential spiral at the moment #but honestly why do they always ask for my number #like dude just give me yours and let me make the decision when you’re not right here in front of me #but I felt bad telling him no today just because the last time a customer asked and I said yes I almost immediately regretted it #and then that didn’t work out because I thought he was too young #young* and now he still sometimes comes by and I just feel awkward about it #maybe I should turn to Facebook and see if I can find him because I have set an age limit for myself and I really don’t want to entertain #anyone younger than that #but I’m……… I know I’m like never active in here anymore #but I just needed to talk about this somewhere #because any of my coworkers would probably tell me I’m being ridiculous or they’d just seriously keep questioning why I keep saying no to #customers that hit on me and my best friend would probably also not get it #idk y’all I just needed to rant about it/talk about it #anyway I’m definitely gonna stress over this until tomorrow #and I’m gonna feel really bad if he stops coming by

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therapized-eddie · 13 days

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i've always felt that shannon dying allowed some fans to romanticize her character a little too.

#911 thoughts #i'm not the biggest fan of her myself #as a person i mean #i empathize but some of her choices i just can't get over #but i feel like most people either hate her with a passion or defend her too hard #and i feel like i see the assumption a lot #that her dying stopped her becoming the parent chris needed #and the truth is we don't know what would have happened if she stayed #maybe she would have become a good parent to chris #maybe she wouldn't have and would have become only partially present #maybe she would have taken off again #her dying allowed fans to spin off whatever possible future they want for her #anyway idk why i posted this do i really wanna get into shannon discourse lol #though i don't think this is discourse #i just wish i didn't always feel like i see the two extremes when people talk about her

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milkymeaty · 2 years

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do people really still think glados is chells mom........ at this point u might as well have a big fucking sign over ur head that reads "not too fond of lesbians" lol

#like cmon now. come ON now #yeah thats probably a little mean and u know what if u dont ship chelldos literally who fucking cares #but this whole constant ''but isnt she chells mom???'' shit needs to stop lol #idk if u just never got into the fandom or if u just never saw any other posts talking about it i dont care but for the love of GOD #stop with this fucking shit PLEASE LMAO its so fucking annoying man god fucking christ #how do u have the ppl who damn the damn game literally TELL YOU that chell and glados' relationship was meant to be romantic #AND U STILL THINK SHES HER MOM???????#''but but!!! the potato project!! the bring ur daughter to work day fair!!!!!!'' do we just not have critical thinking skills anymore #whatever man yall are so annoying lol chell isnt white glados sang a breakup song to her it had a romantic subplot to it #u just don't like cool baller lesbians lol go find a different fandom 👋🏽#i probably sound sooooo mean but i literally do not care ppl are ANNOYING today UGH #meaty babbles #portal #chelldos

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hecksupremechips · 2 months

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Honestly though I think it’s really a bad sign when I look at Shin Tsukimi and literally feel like he’s a self insert 😩

#the klock keeps ticking #yttd #i wanna replay yttd so bad but i also like Gotta play other stuff with the time i have akskks #but yeah the brainrot this specific character has given me idk if I ever really talked about it but it was BAD #i like obsessively played the game in like 3 days and it was not a good idea lol but just like shin #i had to take like a week to recover from this guy cuz i couldnt stop thinking about him and how hes just like me fr #first off just the very inconsistent personality hes got going on that is very me he has these different personalities he wears to cope with #all the traumatic shit happening hes both so helpless its comical and so manipulative its terrifying #and idk its really interesting how like good and bad he is at being manipulative like hes very smart and can analyze weaknesses and lie so #good not even he knows the truth but hes also grasping at straws he doesnt think things through at all #like the second main game he just didnt prepare at all hes fumbling his way through everything its going so bad #he just wants to go home he wants to outdo the game makers but hes being used by them so bad he wants it to STOP #and its just the way that like. it hits so hard cuz you know hes really not a bad person not at all he doesnt want any of this hes just #being horribly manipulated and doing whatever he can to survive but its also really scary how #well hes able to lie and manipulate and claw his way through but hes also weaker than a grade schooler #and you never forget that either and as much as he cheated his way through he still failed it was all just a cheap trick in the end #and all of this hits very hard like his personality is eerily similar to mine and just the way he thinks and acts #cuz im the same like im weak and a dweeb who likes funny cats but im also emotionally detached and observant and selfish #but where it hits the hardest is his relationship with midori like oooof that one was too real just like #the first person who was ever his friend was horribly abusive and treated him like a child and didnt respect any boundaries #and he just got sick pleasure out of seeing shin be upset and he was like. a groomer #and shin was fucking relieved when he died but also kept his scarf and adopted his personality to survive #and still goes by sou after ch2 and the scene that gets me the most is when shin ai is asked about his relationship with midori #and you can just SEE how horrified shin is because his deepest shame his abuse is being shared to everyone without his consent #and hes reliving it all in that moment and literally seeing who he used to be experiencing the abuse #he just curls into himself and like covers his ears and pulls his hair thats literally what i do AAAAAA #im just so grateful for the direction they took this character kokichi ouma wishes he was shin tsukimi so bad #and yeah just like damn. its scary how similar i am to shin like damn i really am going through it huh oof #I LOVE HIM I LOVE HIM I WILL DEFEND HIM WITH MY LIFE HE DID ALL OF THAT STUFF YOUR HONOR BUT LISTENNNN #have you considered that hes cute and smart and weird and maybe just needs friends who arent assholes

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opens-up-4-nobody · 7 months

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#aaaand thats a 3rd doctor. a psychiatrist. who listened to me ans thought: mm sounds like bip0lar lol #me: wow its so easy to get diagnosed as bip0lar. thats bc u r exhibiting lots of depression and a limit amount of mood elevation. that's #like. thats what bip0lar is. she was like yea ppl with bip0lar 2 spend like 75% of time being depressed and a lil elevated mood... which #sounds like what u r describing. me:#...yeah. but again its complicated by the 0cd and spectrum issues. but she independently brought up 4dhd. just when i was like no its all #0cd. here we r again. stuck back in the messy overlap. but whatever i got proscribed bip0lar medicine. lam1ctal. we'll see #bc everyone i talk to is like. we need to control the mood 1st. like so u dont die. and im like hm yeah good call lol #she seems super cool tho. like i would love to just talk to her. ugh. she wants to get a handle on the mood and then maybe add a stimulant #bc shes had it happen in thr past where someone comes in with debiltating 0cd and got treated with lam1ctol and a stimulant and the #obsessive rumination stopped. so well see. idk if ill actually qualify as 4dhd enough. well see. fingers crossed #my mood is a lil elevated rn so its all fun. well see if we tip off a cliff bc im getting less sleep and go go going #unrelated #ugh im scared to start the medine tho bc the ssri i got proscribed fucked me up so much. which is also an indicator of bip0lar #god dammit. if this works im gonna have to actually accept the idea of being bip0lar. i mean. it makes sense being on that spectrum #is just sounds insane and i was not expecting it despite my fucking obsession with understanding wtf my deal is #idk. whatever. doesnt matter

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fiepige · 8 months

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Read these great tags from @the-cat-and-the-birdie and I couldn't get the idea of Venom!Hobie in a pillow nest out of my brain so I just had to:

This is a dark and serious AU I swear!!! 😭

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xxlovelynovaxx · 9 months

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Ah. "Animals rights" bullshit okay. Being animals that are not obligate herbivores and eating the flesh of other animals because of it is "oppressing" non-human animals. And they called out my comparing it to anti-choicers because "murder is different than death" okay well anti-choicers think abortion is murder. I don't happen to consider a human killing an animal for food murder any more than I consider an animal killing another animal for food murder, especially when as you pointed out yourself some people can't survive without meat.

Or is it a contract killing/hit on every animal You've ever eaten to survive? Are you just not a murderer because you paid not to get your hands dirty?

Like yeah it's fucking NATURAL. Humans aren't some wondrous ascended beings that don't crawl through the dirt. We fuck and fight and survive and yes, part of that survival for many is KILLING.

And it's good that you don't think people should be forced onto veganism because that would be as bad as the people who want to force all animals to eat synthetic meat and hunt via robots or whatever but my gods can you imagine telling someone who has been a vegetarian by choice for years for animal WELFARE purposes (not rights) who is vegan for disability reasons that they are "justifying the oppression of animals" and "killing animals for food is murder" when you literally can't go vegan for health reasons yourself? Okay murderer. Guess your life matters more than those oppressed animals.

Like sorry I'm going full "you're an asshole and I despise you and I'm genuinely sorry for myself that I thought we could be friends".

Like yeah the anti-choicer metaphor wasn't perfect. But it also got you to cut right to the heart of the matter. You are so divorced from humans as part of the ecosystem and food chain you genuinely believe we have some moral duty to not kill animals (but only animals, not plants or fungi, which are also living and have some measure of sentience) and to hold ourselves separate from the biosphere to the greatest extent possible.

That's just ecofascism 101. Are we gonna do the "any form of hunting or land management, even responsibly by indigenous stewards using traditional practices is bad" next? Or are we gonna avoid that one because you hopefully know better than THAT and simply think that removing humans from ONLY one part of the consumptive chain is ✨different✨?

For reference:

Also where does "choosing to die" come in to this? I wasn't talking about euthanasia, I was talking about withdrawing the life support provided by a human body if the owner of that body stops consenting to providing it, therefore depriving a fetus dependent on that life support for survival of said survival. I'm pretty sure the fetus doesn't have a choice in the matter. (Whether or not it's "alive" doesn't have much to do with anything since it's been made pretty clear that medical autonomy in terms of mandated use of your body's parts or resources is unethical at ANY point. Even if you ARE killing it, we've determined that's the most ethical option.)

Also if we're going to make bullshit oppression claims why don't we talk about transspecies people who are obligate carnivores?

#literally I'm not a fucking legalist but no I don't believe murder in the sense of nonconsensual killing is always wrong #like self defense. hello.#like maybe my moral system is just built different but to call it oppression and make me out to be some kind of bigot?#come on. that's bullshit and you know it.#we're literally not talking about rights being taken away. also this is why animal welfare is such a better concept than animal rights #stop anthropomorphizing animals!! stop treating them like furry humans that can't speak!!#literally somehow both a veganism centrist and an 'animal rights' person at once #go yell at people for literally having a moral-spiritual belief system that encompasses eating animals as neutral somewhere else #oh and btw don't EVER fucking moralize any kind of food related consumption around me again that goes for everyone #meat is neutral. sugar is neutral. artificial sweeteners are neutral. preservatives are neutral. plants are neutral. fish are neutral. etc #some of these may be unhealthy for a given individual and their production under capitalism may be fucking harmful #but conceptually they are neutral and there are ways of making them physically so by changing the harmful systems #you can keep feeling bad about your oppression of poor animals or w/e. or maybe you don't feel bad idk #I happen to find that far more harmful than humans who want or need to eat meat - doing so - will ever be #thanks for the mask off moment where you decided it was actually okay to moralize food and survival #I'm so happy to say goodbye forever #(note: if you know who this is don't fucking harass them. I have them blocked and am being a bit nasty *bc* they can't see it)#(I don't want them to suffer. I just think they're a monumental asshole. gods know I'm one too.)#(let people be assholes 2k23 lol)

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gifti3 · 8 months

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Mc should be a billionare then, right?

#like in the future #i hope they are #or this is one of the things that dont really get brought up again?#idk #disclaimer i stopped around the beginning of s2 so im not fully informed #also why does mams switch between you and ya #ig it kinda makes sense but also not #when i say yall its consistent #when im talking casually of course #might be how japanese is set up #gifti3s obey me #obey me mammon #i want him next to me when im playing the lotto #omg mams and mc going to the casino #mams cant play he just needs to stand there and let mc do it lol

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guideaus · 2 months

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and seeing people talk about misogyny in fandom and seeing people unironically comment things like this is so tone-deaf.

our series written by a woman with tons of female characters has people like this participating and joining on the "you people are being dramatic" posts and you guys think thats ok??

#personal #like okay thanks for that.#ppl act like ur too serious if u talk abt fandom this way but that just shows they dont care #'fandom' is a hobby in how u participate w ficiton and if ur like. mocking women being ignored or saying anyone upset needs to #calm down and stop being dramatic i think thats shitty lol?#it might be dramatic to relate actual feminism to an anime. idk but i just cant help but think abt the decline of feminism online #and the whole misandry claim ppl are seriously believing while still trying to say gay rights #why is it a time to joke when someone points out sexism...

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philomaela · 5 days

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I wonder if Visenya saw dragonstone as her inheritance in a way and therefore Maegor’s rightful inheritance as well. There’s some interesting implications in the text, Maegor became known as “the prince of dragonstone” because he resided there with his mother.

She never protested Aenys becoming King (though she did try to get Maegor into the line of succession via marriage to Rhaena) but she left the hall and flew back to Dragonstone the minute Aenys formally claims Dragonstone for his own son. It’s not like Maegor was the presumptive heir before then either. Visenya had obviously conceded that the iron throne belonged to solely Aegons heir, but maybe she saw dragonstone as belonging to her and Aegon both because of the tradition of the eldest daughter and eldest son marrying and ruling it.

#text #a fabulous time #I wonder if I should start tagging things… more publicly #but I think not #I have a feeling that nothing I can say would be groundbreaking lol #what’s more talked about than asoiaf? maybe Star Wars #but idk #also I’m going through this book very slowly lmfao #I need to pick up the pace and stop pausing to read other things

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babeygirlbuckley · 1 year

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kinda tired of all these parent redemption arcs tbh. give chimney a gun