rubyetc.com / unknown / @/rbhvleo (tumblr) / Venetta Octavia The Burning / David Lynch The Angriest Dog in the World / Japanese Breakfast Boyish / unknown / @/jovialtorchlight (tumblr)
i. rubyetc
[ Messy drawing of two hands holding a bird. "HOLD ME, / NICELY, / I'M UNLOVELY" ]
ii. unknown
[ Black and white background image of people fighting. A man kneels down holding his head with his right hand in front of the audience. Right behind him is another man raising his fist in a punch. People lay on top of each other in the background. "WHY ARE YOU FULL OF RAGE?" ]
iii. @/rbhvleo
[ "TELL ME WHERE TO PUT THE ANGER / TELL ME WHERE TO PUT THE ANGER / TELL ME WHERE TO PUT THE ANGER" ]
iv. Venetta Octavia, The Burning
[ "You are shaking fists & trembling teeth. I know: You did not mean to be cruel. That does not eman you were kind." ]
v. David Lynch, The Angriest Dog in the World
[ Stylized drawing of a tied up dog in the backyard of a house. "The dog who is so angry he cannot move. He cannot eat. He cannot sleep. He can just barely growl. / ...Bound so tightly with tension and anger, he approaches the state of rigor mortis." ]
vi. Japanese Breakfast, Boyish
[ "And all of my devotion turns violent" ]
vii. unknown
[ "You are / a better knife / than you are / a person." ]
vii. @/jovialtorchlight
[ "once you understand the form kill it / once you understand the form kill it / once you understand the form kill it / once the form is dead hold it and weep / once the form is dead hold it and weep / once the form is dead hold it and weep / once the form is dead hold it and weep / once the form is dead hold it and weep / once the form is dead hold it and weep / once you have wept for the dead whatever / once you have wept for the dead whatever / once you have wept for the dead whatever / once you have wept for the dead whatever / once you have wept for the dead whatever / once you have wept for the dead whatever / HOLD THE LAST LIGHT AND MOLD IT / HOLD THE LAST LIGHT AND MOLD IT / HOLD THE LAST LIGHT AND MOLD IT / HOLD THE LAST LIGHT AND MOLD IT" ]
Jeff Buckley, "So Real" | My Chemical Romance, "Mama" | Safia Elhillo, "Mama" (from Home is Not a Country, via @feral-ballad) | Silas Denver Melvin, "Twenty" (from Grit: Poems) | Greta Gerwig, Lady Bird | Michelle Zauner, Crying in H Mart | The Shins, "The Rifle's Spiral" | Melissa Broder, Milk Fed
on loneliness
jenny slate / japanese breakfast, posing for cars / corinne von lebusa, big glow / dadushin / alejandra pizarnik, tr. me / fka twings, home with you / avocado_ibuprofen / fiona apple, left alone / anne carson, “the anthropology of water”, plainwater / kiki smith, free fall / alejandra pizarnik, diaries
thinking about the thesis of japanese breakfast’s music…… being good and trying to be better despite it all……. heft says “i spent the summer trying to be sweeter”. the body is a blade goes “try your best to slowly withdraw from the darkest impulses of your heart”. slide tackle opens with “i want to be good / i wanna navigate this hate in my heart” :-( despite it all!!!!!! we should try and be good!!!!!!!
on fox (+samantha) mulder, grief, & childhood trauma.
the x-files, 1994-2018 / the fall of the house of usher, steven berkoff / vanishing acts, jodi picoult / hard times, ethel cain / unknown / mysterious skin, scott heim / unknown / letter to an old poet, boygenius / soft sounds from another planet, japanese breakfast / sharp objects, gillian flynn