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baekuras · 1 year
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Every time I pass by the timewriter starting the mine section I have to take a second and just look at how many cigarettes are around, mostly wondering if all of them are from Luis waiting around for Leon to get to him
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ca-suffit · 3 months
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This antiblack campaign the fandom just tried to kick up again (to avoid talking about the real issue with Nalyra) reveals how powerless they're starting to truly feel now.
They don't have many users left to vilify so they're putting people on blocklists who are brand new (I was here 3 days lol) or not even really in the fandom. That looks goofy and desperate but then it keeps going. DMing strangers to say "the truth" isn't about racism and "talk to me if you really want to know about anything." Everyone's reblogging those blocklist posts now and adding large commentary suddenly, when before they often fully sat it out. They're doing this in a group to look like they have larger numbers and are "revealing" there's a "big secret bullying problem"....except nobody believes them. Because there's plenty of accounts who are out here saying this shit straight to their faces and they pretend we all don't exist. All of this group has to manufacture drama solely because they just don't want to talk about harmful shit they actually do.
Neil has to make an antiblack statement she made suddenly be about antisemitism towards her, Nalyra's antiblackness is "actually" fans upset about shipping and "what's REALLY coming" in S2, showmey0urfangs is always happy to show up with her dumb screencaps and villain monologue nobody asked for so she can make her everlasting outrage about popular black fics and "feminized" Louis sound deeper than it is, Virginia suddenly cries about IRL issues and wants to leave the fandom because she wants to distract from the Nalyra receipts, Keybearer accused another black fan of trolling people and getting accounts suspended on twitter in 2023 when a Marius fan eventually confessed to it and his eternal shame for that means now every black fan except him is a bully (despite nobody talking about this ever anymore except him), chicalepidopterare mocks a black fan for blocking her "because I thought we were supposed to talk about racism" and then poorly tries to frame any retaliation against her to look like bullying ("see, they're misogynistic, they're bullying my art, they're mean for disliking these ships!").
To quote Claudia here, "You must think me an idiot." And the big cherry on top is also how none of these losers can stand to hear any mention of race....in the fandom of the show that nonstop talks about race. They're using very basic (and meant in a gentle, loving way) teasing of Jacob as proof that black fans are racist against Jacob too, black fans hate Jacob's white wife. People hate Lestat for being white too (what?). They can write crap meta all day about Lestat letting Louis "rape" him and only white victims (Lestat) being real victims to the evil black and brown "true" manipulators (Claudia, Louis, Armand) but gentle teasing from black fans about Jacob's haircut is the real racism. Okay lol. Care to tell us again why you think Delainey's Claudia looks "less innocent" now then? This 3D chess you think you're playing isn't playing how you think for anyone else.
I also notice that afaik there's not a single black American in this group. Idek if there's many Americans of any kind in the group. It's been a lot of shaming to black Americans specifically though, again from the show that's focused on black Americans....by people who aren't black Americans.
"There's people pretending to be black so it's okay to keep hating this whole group." It's not enough you already nonstop shit on black fans as it is, now you have to try to angle it as if none of this could be authentic in the first place. Vile behavior. For what? Tumblr isn't even a platform that pays you for whatever clout you have, so really what is the point here. In a small ass fandom on top of it. Some of you have pretty grown kids too, this is extra sad. It makes all the jumping through hoops to coddle Lestat's behavior make sense though, if you're the same kind of person yourself. Anyway, maybe you don't actually know everything because race exists in the real world beyond how Anne Rice wrote about it in her useless books! You make books written by a racist white woman your whole personality and guess what your outlook on life is going to be.
It's been really pathetic to especially watch any fans of color move more to this extreme bullying side as time has gone on. It will never pay off to promote white fandom ideals. These accounts you're trying to cuddle up to aren't even that big. The fandom outside of the tags actually has much more popular posts, supporters, and fics...although that's also half of what this all is actually about, fic numbers. Again, these are grown adults obsessing over this. We could have a whole different fandom if this group didn't exist and keep wanting to gatekeep everything and be the only people who get praise about anything.
It's no surprise that people who worship Anne Rice have major ego problems themselves. It's been fucked up to deal with but the good thing now is that big egos have big collapses eventually and that's what we're starting to see happening now. People are sick of you and able to see through your basic ass manipulation techniques. People just want to have a fandom, they're not here to worship fans who want to be dictators. Nobody is here for your fragility, losers.
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thehoundwrites · 2 years
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Smut alphabet: Homelander
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Pushing the bottom Homelander agenda suck my dick
18+ MINORS DNI - don't look at me
TW: straight cis white guy, idek smut
A = Aftercare (What they’re like after sex)
He needs physical affection, even if it's a quickie. He'll have you sit in his lap if you two are at his work, so he can uphold his reputation. Otherwise he'd love to cuddle up to you and fall asleep while you hold him. Pet his hair and tell him how much you love him
B = Body part (Their favourite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)
Favorite part of his body is everything, he's worked hard to get the godly physique he has. Inspired by Greek gods statues and portraits he's extremely confident with his body. On his partner he loves their lips, and their tits. He has an obsession with softer women, or smaller women so he can stand out against them. But he also has a thing for masculine (muscley/ taller/ etc) women that can step on him.
C = Cum (Anything to do with cum basically… I’m a disgusting person)
He cums early when he's a sub, it's canon. If you're gonna Dom him expect some extra steps. He loves cumming inside of you mostly, breeding you. Or cumming over your face or tits. He has a cum kink absolutely, it's a possessive thing.
D = Dirty Secret (Pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)
Mommy kink, it's not a secret after a few times with him. When you top him he wants to be babied, cuddled and held. He wants to fall asleep sucking your tits he absolutely loves it.
E = Experience (How experienced are they? Do they know what they’re doing?)
He's very experienced with domming, taking out his frustrations on hundreds of adoring fans ready to worship him for an ounce of affection. But when it comes to subbing he's not that experienced. He rarely meets a woman he'd open up to in that way, nevermind telling them about what he likes. His reputation could be ruined, he would be perceived as weak.
F = Favourite Position (This goes without saying. Will probably include a visual)
Cowboy, he loves when you ride him. He loves seeing your tits bounce, or the face you make when you cum on his cock. Extraordinary. He also could get the chance to see a lump in your stomach if he fucks you feel enough which he loves. He could also start flying, and you could ride him in the air.
Doggy style, he loves taking you from behind absolutely ravaging whatever home he decides he wants, since he is the homelander and he'll do whatever he wants.
G = Goofy (Are they more serious in the moment, or are they humorous, etc)
Not goofy at all. Very serious, mood changer if you start laughing.
H = Hair (How well groomed are they, does the carpet match the drapes, etc.)
Only slightly shaved, but his chest isn't and he has a snail trail going up his stomach.
I = Intimacy (How are they during the moment, romantic aspect…)
He's only intimate if he's in love with you, if you top him. Otherwise it's purely for his pleasure and if you cum well uh. Good for you.
J = Jack Off (Masturbation headcanon)
I think he'd be into mutual masturbation, he definitely has a kink for watching you get off. He's kinda a stalker canonically so id imagine he'd watch you sometimes and jerk off. He probably does it more often than he admits.
K = Kink (One or more of their kinks)
He's a switch so:
Sub:
Mommy kink, praise kink, gentleness, intimacy, eating out, hair pulling, discipline (but not punishment) rewards, breeding, tit fetish, impregnation kink, milking kink, through clothes, Overstimulation
Dom:
Daddy kink, rough sex, taking it out on you, choking, breeding, bruises, impact play, gags, binds, deepthroating, cum kink, master kink, begging, crying anything that takes away all of your control and gives it to him.
L = Location (Favourite places to do the do)
He likes his office, over his desk on his couch, with minimal risk of getting caught but the risk is still there
M = Motivation (What turns them on, gets them going)
Honestly anything: most of the time seeing women naked mostly you. If you wanted he could fuck you at anytime. You just gotta beg or tell him to get on his knees.
N = NO (Something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)
I don't think there's many things he WOULDNT do. I mean he's horrible.
O = Oral (Preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc)
He loves eating out, getting his face ridden, a pretty girl using his mouth to cum. It's amazing especially when they pull his hair and call him a good boy.
He also loves face fucking the way you look at him through teary eyes, drool pouring down your mouth how you gag and choke around his cock but won't let go until he gets the orgasm he deserves.
P = Pace (Are they fast and rough? Slow and sensual? etc.)
When he Dom's it's always rough depending on the mood he'd go slower to tease you, or fast to take out his day on you
When he subs he loves slow and sensual, being held and worshiped and cuddled.
Q = Quickie (Their opinions on quickies rather than proper sex, how often, etc.)
He's okay with quickies, but only if it's necessary like there's a mission soon but he's gotta get rid of his boner poking through his skin tight suit.
R = Risk (Are they game to experiment, do they take risks, etc.)
He'll try anything
S = Stamina (How many rounds can they go for, how long do they last…)
When he' Doms he could go all night but when he subs he can barely last a minute. But that's kind of cute tho.
T = Toy (Do they own toys? Do they use them? On a partner or themselves?)
He owns toys (you) to use on his partner, vibrators, restraints, bullets, clamps, and gags.
U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)
He'll tease you until your sobbing and begging him to let you cum.
V = Volume (How loud they are, what sounds they make)
He likes to talk when he fucks you, loud over dramatic groans and "shut ups" and anything to humiliate you. He loves to see you get flustered. But when he's a sub he'll try to be as quiet as he can only a few whispers or soft groans.
W = Wild Card (Get a random headcanon for the character of your choice)
He would love to have an audience when he fucks you but no one can touch you but him.
X = X-Ray (Let’s see what’s going on in those pants, picture or words)
He's not small but not the biggest 6/7 inches when soft but really thick, uncut and well groomed, only stubble, and 8 ish inches when hard, he's got a pretty dick.
Y = Yearning (How high is their sex drive?)
He's ready to go for his partner whenever they want, but gets really pissed and will kill people who only want that from him.
Z = ZZZ (… how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)
100% will fall asleep in your arms if there's time.
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clatterbane · 7 months
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Back home from that second damned full general anesthesia gastroscopy session, and I survived. Just about. Feeling pretty rough about now, and very little of it is from the procedure itself. Still pretty full of Migraine Potion, of course, to make everything more pleasant.
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But! This happened. Sure, the whole extra fuss of getting anesthesiology involved makes everything so much safer and better. Particularly with the T1 diabetes!
The main Dunning-Kruger part that I was referring to with the anesthesiologist I got hold of today was that she seemed to be operating under the strange idea that diabetes means that you need a constant supply of glucose, or you will go hypoglycemic. (As in, the exact fucking opposite of how anything works.) And that the long-acting insulin that I was not due to take would also somehow help keep my blood sugar from going dangerously low right then and there? Idek. Maybe she thinks that is a depot shot of extended release sugar? 🥴 (Again, it must be Opposite Day in the Anesthesiologyverse.)
There may have been some language/communication issues there. But yeah that really did not seem to be the main problem. This also was not an issue at all last time. It was definitely that anesthesiologist giving crazy instructions.
Hospitals are not a healthy place for T1 diabetics to end up anyway. There is so much piss-poor knowledge paired with God complexes going around. But, that's one of the strangest understandings that I have ever even heard of.
At least that was only half of my usual Lantus dose they insisted on giving me. So, when saying that it was not due for hours yet--and I that I did not want or need it--did not work? I went ahead and took the shit rather than go completely ballistic at them, because at least that was unlikely to do any actual harm. Guess I'll take the other half when the next dose is actually due, and hope the dosing disruption doesn't fuck me up too bad over the next few days.
(Though at least that was not my entire daily Lantus dose they were screwing with. I regularly take it twice a day, to help keep things steadier. So, a few units hours early should hopefully not make much difference.)
But yeah, I'm glad that nurse in the pre-op and after recovery post-op section did have more of a clue, saw what was shooting my blood sugar up immediately, and stopped the IV before it just kept climbing. Several more units of insulin later, and I am just feeling like slightly reheated shit after that little roller coaster ride. It could have been much worse, but that shit kind of scared me anyway.
Also glad it really isn't a long procedure, other than all the waiting and extra rigmarole compared to just going straight into an endoscopy room like I was doing before they decided to do this instead. They thankfully didn't have that long to pump my insulin-deficient ass full of liquid sugar.
Though, I did end up stuck for longer in the actual recovery room, getting glucosed up with no brakes, because the coughing from the intubation tearing up my throat triggered enough of an asthma attack this time when I did NOT have access to the inhaler I preemptively brought along after last time, that they ended up giving me this mask nebulizer treatment in there.
So much safer and better! 😒
But, I am finally home and now making some coffee.
And I am so glad that ordeal is over with for another month now. With some talk of shifting it to every 6 weeks after that. I really hope I don't get that same anesthesiologist again.
At any rate, I intend to be loud if I have to about NO FREAKING GLUCOSE. They were purposely not using it before.
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whoreadsnowadays · 3 months
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IDEK??? A LITTLE??? ALL!???? HDJSJSJSJ
Oh god it's finally time to go through the 2012 Cameron backstory for full understanding of Caleb. (And also the rest of his fucked up lil family :3)
Tw: physical and verbal abuse, neglect, alcoholism, homophobia, childbirth-death, and anything else just let me know ;3
Okay here we go. We start off by introducing Cam's older cousins. Jesse is the oldest, Mason is his younger brother. Well they live with their mother Alice, until she dies in childbirth with their younger sister Amy. When Alice dies, Jesse is 10, and Mason is 8.
When she dies they move in with their aunt and uncle. Mary and Travis. Well, these two are the worst people in the world. And they already have two kids, 3 years old, Caleb and Cameron, twins :3! And then, three years later, they have a third son, Penn.
Now, Travis is a neglectful parent. He doesn't interact with any of the kids, he ignores them until they piss him off and then... he gets physical.
Mary, is verbally abusive! She's constantly degrading and belittling the kids and making them do chores and housework. All of them except her golden child, Caleb. Caleb is her pride and joy, her sweetie pie. Cameron? He's the excess that came along with him. She despises Cameron. :)
Caleb eventually starts to understand the privilege he has, and like any asshole kid. He uses it to his advantage. He's constantly getting Cam in trouble, demanding they spend every waking hour together no matter what. While Cam plays along with a smile, because despite everything he still loves Caleb, even if he is.. kinda mean.. and.. kinda awful..
But Cam confides in Mason! Who is essentially Mary's lapdog. He's her yes man, too spineless and scared to say no to her. The only way he disobeys is by helping his siblings/cousins. He's there for Cam when Cal is extra awful, or when his parents are rougher than usual. He's the only one who's ever there for Cam.
You may be wondering, what about Jesse? He's the oldest, why isn't he helping? Well that's because Jesse has been in a downward spiral since he was 10 years old. He tried to help. He tried to disobey and be there for his family. But then he found an escape, alcohol. And he took it and ran with it. And after years and years of downing bottle after bottle, he's too drunk to even spare a glance at his family, past the punches and threats thrown his way from Travis and Mary.
And Amy? She's a little ray of sunshine. Or, she would be.. if her family wasn't constantly ignoring and putting her down. She's stifled, and scared. Mary is terrifying, and so is Travis, and she's too scared to go out of line. So she just blends in and tries not to stand out.
Penn is probably the most forgotten of all of the kids. The youngest is usually the baby of the family, but not here. This here is a boy genius, a true evil mastermind. He's keeping quiet and drawing no attention to himself, using the forgotten child advantage to keep his plans a secret. Amy and Penn are close, they have to be. They're all they have. Penn is concocting a plan to get them both out of here, but it's taking some time.
But! Then! Cam finds out :0 he likes boys. Naturally, he freaks out. He panics, going to Caleb, (his other half, his twin brother who loves him surely) and he confesses. And Caleb panics. He rushes down the stairs, immediately snitching to his parents in a scared rush.
And suddenly things were happening. Words were being yelled, Cam was off the floor, held up by the shirt gathered in his father's fists. The next thing he knew he was on the floor with Mason stood in front of him, yelling for him to grab whatever he could and get the fuck outside. So he ran upstairs to his bedroom, the one he shared with Caleb, amd he stuffed everything together. There's no time for thoughts just actions. He could cry and panic later, he needed to get out of here.
Mason ran behind him on the way out, ushering him into Jesse's red truck, climbing in and grabbing the keys left in the ignition to start up the car just as their door slammed open. They didn't hear Travis' yells, as Mason revved the engine and drove just as fast as he could out of their neighborhood. He didn't dare slow down until they were out of town, out of state even.
And I'm exhausted so everything else speed run
Mason has an online friend named Kara who offers them a home in New York! They obviously take her up on that offer. Mason and Kara quickly become WAY more than friends and suddenly they're dating and smooching
Cam moves into the school district and meets Casey freshman year, immediately attaches himself to him and now they're besties forever and ever.
And yea :3 that's Cam's backstory teehee
And wr have a whole ass au where actually their families are good and not abusive or neglectful actually. So there's that. Uhm. And I wanna be SO CLEAR. None of the kids are supposed to be unsympathetic. They are all victims in their own right. BUT Caleb is a bitch <3 its okay cuz I love him.
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raspberryconverse · 1 year
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So back in January, Lola got an infected toe (see footnote on this entry). We thought she fell in one of Mable's holes, but the x-ray didn't show any broken bones, but it was an infection, not a tumor because it responded very well to antibiotics. After the $800 visit (which my spouse actually paid for, even though Lola is my dog, because I didn't have that much in savings*), my spouse suggested we get pet insurance for her. She's old (10½), so it'd be better to get her covered now before her health starts to decline because of age.
Well, that was a total crapshoot.
First off, the insurance company found in one of her vet records that she was an American Staffordshire Terrier and determined that meant she was not, in fact, a mixed breed dog (even though she totally is and is actually only 23% AmStaff) and they decided to raise the premium on her policy by about 50% unless I get the vet to send a letter saying that she's not (there was also a miscommunication because my spouse talked to the vet about it because phone anxiety and offered to write it and just have them sign and fax it over, but I didn't know my spouse was expecting me to do it because they said "we" have to write the letter). Now, I got an email saying they did a review of her vet records and are basically not going to cover a whole bunch of shit, including anything dental related because she has tartar buildup. So IDEK what I'm paying $150 a month for now.
I didn't even want to do the insurance thing in the first place because they tend to be expensive and not cover anything worthwhile, but I trusted my spouse and signed up for the plan they found. Now that I've found out it isn't going to cover anything, I've wasted at least $500 on premiums that could have gone to more important things. My spouse pulled their typical, "It's all my fault, I'm a bad person" deflection they always do when I get mad about something they did/said and that sent me off the deep end. I really lost my shit after that. Like hysterical sobbing.
But here's the kicker: I was eating lunch at the table and my spouse asks if I took my medicine today.
Oh, fuck no.
I can't even begin to go into how fucking insulting that question was. Like, I'm upset, so I must have forgotten to take my medication, right? You've got to be fucking kidding me.
"Well, I was just trying to make sure you were ok."
"No, I'm not fucking ok! I haven't been ok for a long time and I can't fucking doing anything about it because I can't get my fucking blood pressure under control!"
God, I really fucking hate myself.
Oh, and my spouse also offered to give me the money I spent on premiums for this shit insurance, but that doesn't fucking help with anything because it's still money lost. At the end of the day, it's still money that went to a scam of a company and no towards, IDK, a new screen door or something. Whether it came out of my account or my spouse's is irrelevant because we're supposed to be a team. I mean, my spouse's bonus is going towards stuff we need for the house. They don't have to spend it on that, but they're going to. So whether I paid it or my spouse did just doesn't matter because we still need to try to use both our incomes to pay for things that need to be done. Money I lost is still money that could have been put elsewhere.
*I also have my Petco credit card as the main payment method on our rewards account, so I actually had at least $800 put on my card towards cat food and litter in the last year without my spouse reimbursing me for it, so we determined we're even when it comes to that. Basically, Lola is my dog, Meeah is my spouse's cat and Mable is both of our responsibility. I got Lola before I met my spouse and I never wanted a cat, but Mable was a joint decision. Plus, we don't have all our money go into our joint accounts to allow us autonomy, but we do both throw extra money in there if we need it for something.
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camellia-salazar · 2 years
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Anyone want more thoughts on the Turbine AU? Because I got some. Here are some facts on the AU because I want to show more. I just want to. Enjoy! :3
RED
Scout: he tried to mimic BLU Sniper once by over drinking BONK soda but it didn't work..
Soldier: once he tried to help build things for RED Engie, it didn't work either.
Pyro: isn't really the best Pybro due to being distracted a lot.
Demoman: Doesn't drink as much as the other Demo, tho he still does just as much as any other. Also when drunk he gets extra flirty.
Heavy: he's either in his office or sometime during war. He doesn't show up anywhere else.
Engineer: he doesn't admit it, but Soldier sometimes calms him down more than anyone.
Medic: nobody knows how he became the way he is, but no one questions it either.. except Scout and Spy, but since Spy forgotten who he is and his life, Scout is the only one.
Sniper: before him and BLU Engie actually met for the first time, he would watch him from afar. He would used to shoot him but at one point he noticed something that kept him from shooting.. eventually Engie saw his dot and Sniper would panickly turn away towards something else.. (the beginning of the story technically, sorry for spoilers, technically)
Spy: before he forgot, he was probably like other spies. Tho idk what to make his past character yet. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
BLU
Scout: He doesn't drink BONK as much as any other Scout.. he probably thought that it caused him to become insane.. probably did but it could be something else..
Soldier: he used to be the life of the party along side Demoman, now he gets angry whenever somebody in base disrespect or disregard Demo, now they're both downers..
Pyro: he used to be the Pybro for Engie, but then he became the offence class he was meant to be (according to Heavy or Medic idk who would say that but it's one of them), so he would run off and fight like he was "supposed to".
Demoman: he used to be a Demoknight before he got depressed.. he loved to charge at people and slice their heads off. Now he just places stickybombs and just sit or lay around and wait.. Soldier would come in and check on him from time to time.. (this is making me sad let's move on-)
Heavy: whenever he goes out to fight, he and medic would be together, but whenever they aren't fighting he usually stays in his office (like the RED Heavy) and work on paper work or something. Idk.
Engineer: sometimes he wouldn't feel like he is worthy of his teammates and friends.. especially the RED Sniper. RED Sniper would remind him sometimes and Engie would agree, but he couldn't shake off this feeling.. not yet anyways. He hopes..
Medic: he would try to heal everyone, but he would mostly pocket Pyro. It just so happens to.. well.. happen. One time pyro was the only one who spawned when he would so he dealt with him instead of anyone else. They beat that round together and brag about it at dinner every day that week. They became friends at the end of the round. :3
Sniper: yes, he's an huntsman Sniper, but he didn't start off that way. During the first two 2Fort weeks, he was a Sniping sniper. Of course he would go 1v1 with the other team's Sniper, but then something happens in the story (that could take forever to talk about..) so he eventually became a huntsman (idek why or how just yet but he did).
Spy: he of course got along with medic and surprisingly engineer. He didn't think it was possible for an engineer to get along with a spy, but they sorta hit it off. He also tried to get good with the Sniper, but ever since his son stepped out if line Sniper wanted nothing to do with the team, especially "a creepy spook and his creepy son". Spy didn't like his attitude and decided not wanting anything to do with him neither.. even tho they were starting to warm up with each other..
So there you have it. This is fun, hopefully I'll share more about this AU. Sorry it's been so long for this one, but at least I had enough ideas for this. (Sorry if it seems I changed some things, idk if I did or not).
Thanks for reading! 😁👍
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Having a rough go of it today. My SO is struggling a bit due to the holidays. Just family stuff. Stuff I can't help with or relate to. My family has its problems but nothing like his. So I don't really want to ask him for support rn because he is doing his own thing and I can't really support him though that either, I never am able to help even when I have the energy to give.
Everyone at work is pestering me today due to just garbage reasons. And you can't be honest with anyone because it's rude to say "hey just saying you obsessing over your numbers is incredibly counter productive to making them improve. All the time you spend refreshing this page is time you should be working, ya know, the thing that improves your numbers. Work gave me the extra person I asked for for a site but completely wrong schedule. Like they don't have work at all until this person is almost clocked out. Despite repeatedly saying it has to be a 2nd shift person and the fact that we have actually done this exact mistake at least 3 times I just have to do it again. And the poor worker is the person who suffers for it. They just do not pay attention or give a shit. And everyone is bitching about lag and slowness and errors and it's just like. Then call IT. I'm not having any of that shit. I know y'all hate using the phone but I'm not calling for you so I can just tell them everything you said. Do it yourself. And another lead called in today so extra people stuff for me which is my least favorite part of this job by a lot. I fucking hate people, no one can handle any problems or even tries. I don't know the shit they keep asking me either but every time literally the first thing I try works so it's incredibly frustrating that no one thinks for a second or tries anything besides just foisting it into me. Fucking frustrating.
This should be a low stress day because work isn't that bad and I don't have to call anyone for OT but it's just terrible today. Everyone is just complaining, my cats are mean, my SO is mad at my cat, my family won't stop texting me for actually unknown reasons they have nothing to say. I am not handling work well at all today. It's just too much today. I've been here 3 hours and it's feels like at least twice that long. I really really really don't know how I'm going to do it. And I just can't get into anything I'm trying to do some old Christmas radio but it's just not working and idek what to try next. I'm half way to just sitting here for the rest of my shift and doing fuck all and seeing if anyone notices.
Done with this day. Done with incompetent people. Done with people who can't do anything unless I'm holding their hand. Done with my stupid cats and I'm done with my family. I still need to buy a fucking car and it feels like it's never gonna happen because I'm either working or recovering from it.
I hope 2022 will be kinder to me. I don't think it can be meaner. All the people who died this year can't die twice at least.
Complete side note but Ansel Asgort has a mega punchable face to me and his dumbfuck west side story ad (with that fucking flag over them like fucking gag me I wish that movie a very die) and he looks like this to me am I alone here?
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genshinconfessions · 3 years
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Oh man yeah, grades are such a... Thing
I live in Germany, so our school system is different to the US, as are our grades, but basically, we have grades from 1 to 6, and the lower, the better. I need to have an average of 1.4 in the thing I'm doing now to study psychology (in Germany, but I could always study elsewhere without a certain average score) like I want to and right now I'm at 2.3 so... Yeah. 2.3 isn't bad mind you, just... Way worse than what I used to have. I graduated with 1.2 average from my last school a year ago lol.
About the Sucrose thing: yeah I still can't say I like her much, probably because I'm not big on the naive innocent girl personality in general (maybe because it reminds me too much of, well, me), but I relate so hard whenever she just goes on a rant about anything lol. I felt similarly with Zhongli and his tangents about anything and everything because yeah. Same.
Please throw some random facts my way if you get the chance btw I love them so much. Especially when it's that one topic that's super niche but you are so Passionate about but never get the chance to rant about, I love those rants :))
I love how we're apparently bonding over school stress and nerdy characters right now btw
-Seelie <3
oohhhh i see. yeah i'm sure you know about US grades (A-F), but we also have a thing called GPA which usually goes from 0-4 (lowest to highest). i graduated high school with a 3.96 unweighted gpa, and my GPA now, at the beginning of junior year, is literally like... idek. i don't really want to know (jk i could look it up but it makes me stressed).
i just want to go off on a tangent and thank all my major professors last semester for making the final exams open book and 24 hours. and my electronics professor for giving us a ton of extra credit and also being super nice about grading. that's the ONLY reason why i managed to get Bs as my final grades.
(not my math prof >:( she was the class that i pass/failed [because then the grade doesn't get counted in your gpa] fuck her and fuck that class)
also yeah i think i part of the reason why i like childe so much is because i WANT to be him :( oh to be a bloodthirsty warmongering hot young adult who's a high-ranking mafia government official with water/electric powers and the power to slice down anyone in one's path...
i honestly don't have many random facts. my go-to random fact is 'do you know why you never see pregnant birds? it's because birds are pregnant for literally less than a day (most only a few hours) because otherwise they'd be too heavy to fly'.
or, idk, i could wax poetic about james clerk maxwell, but i don't actually know that much about him. it's just that, almost everything we have today originated from maxwell's equations (and by 'everything' i mean electronics and all related). that man was unparalleled.
also quantum entanglement. that shit blew my MIND.
- katheryne from liyue
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deepiphany · 3 years
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“When I close my eyes, it's you there in my mind”
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“Why do I pull you close and then ask you for space?”
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✿8 LETTERS✿
Jennifer pushed her back to prevent them to fall in her face. Today was a long day. She had to stay back in Uni to complete an assignment as she had completely forgot about and if she hadn't turned it in today itself, she couldn't have been able to pass the semester. As she had turned in the due assignment and looked at her watch, she had thought, 'I'm... Doomed!!! RUN!'. She was late for her work.
She had to work extra hours than what her shift was to compensate for being late. On normal days, her work place manager would have let her off the hook since she was always quite punctual but since she worked in a food place and since it was weekend, there was too much crowd and they often needed more employees than usual to handle everything smoothly.
She smiled sadly as she realised that there won't be anyone worrying about her going home late since she lived alone. She didn't have a boyfriend who would occasionally check on her either. All her friends were just as busy as she was so she didn't expect anything from them.
On her way out of the 'Staff Only' room which she had been in for the past ten minutes for a quick rest, she collided with someone near the exit.
"Oh I'm sorry." She apologized quickly. "I wasn't looking—" she looked up at the person standing in front of her and paused. "Oh, Cameron!"
She knew Cameron since the day she had joined here. He was pretty easy to get along with as he was very charming, friendly and out going. They worked together for a few months and then their shifts never overlapped again after her Uni started. She had started missing him a lot, unaware of the fact that she might've developed a little spot in her heart for him.
"It's alright." He smiled at her. "I need to go though, kinda in a hurry. Let's catch up with each other later!" He said as he began walking in the direction of the Kitchen.
"Works with me." Jennifer yelled loud enough for him to hear as he had already stepped inside the kitchen by then.
'Alright. You can pull through! Only a few minutes left until I'm free!' She thought to herself as she looked at the clock.
She worked diligently no matter how hard it was on her until the last minute of her shift. She wondered how all these people went out like this on such a cold night. It was the start of winter and everyone were wearing coats or sweaters and gloves to warm themselves up. Sadly for Jennifer they didn't have a warm uniform so she occasionally had shivers run down her spine everytime the door opened and the cold wind blew right by her side.
She smiled merrily when the clock ticked to terminate her working hours for that day and quickly removed her apron as she made her way towards the changing room.
She changed quickly in her regular clothes and put on some warm clothes over then. As soon as she got out as she started looking for Cameron. She would be lying if she said she wasn't excited to spend some time with him after all these months.
She searched for him everywhere but to no vail. He couldn't be found anywhere. She pouted sadly as she thought he might've been too tired and had forgot about her. He might've just went straight home.
She sighed as she left her working building and started walking towards her appartment on the sidewalk. It was pretty late so there was no one to be seen on the road. Buses had stopped running so she had no choice but to just walk.
A long time had passed until she sensed someone's presence behind her. She heard someone's footstep's walking in the same pace as she was.
At first she thought that it might be someone innocent. But she got a little taste of fear when that person seemed to take the exact same turns as her at intersections.
'It's okay. They might be living in the same area as mine.' She consoled herself.
She licked her lips nervously when the footsteps started to speed and could be heard closer and closer to her.
'No! This isn't it!' She started running for her dear life.
"Whoever you are! Just back off! I have a weapon on me!" She tried to threaten them with wavering voice.
"Jennifer!" They called out her name making her halt in tracks. "It's me— ouch!"
They hadn't expected her to stop all of a sudden and bumped their nose on the back of her head.
"Cameron!" She whipped around with anger evident in her voice. "What the hell do you think you are doing?"
"I was worried about you, okay?" He said as he rubbed his nose with his hands to lower the pain that he felt. "No need to raise your voice at me like this. It's just that it's quite late so I wanted to accompany you."
Her anger quickly dissipated upon listening to his words. "Oh Cameron..." She said with a small smile on her lips.
"Also, I've been wanting to say something..." He trailed off as both of them began walking together.
"Shoot." Jennifer said as her veins filled with thrill. She knew where this was going. Finally she was going to see the day she had been waiting for!
"You know me the best, you know my worst, seen me hurt, but you don't judge, that, right there, is the scariest feeling..."
"W-what are you talking about?" She said, completely taken aback. 'I don't know anything about you except for the small time we spent together working!' she thought to herself.
"Opening and closing up again I've been hurt so I don't trust. Now here we are, staring at the ceiling." He continued to say.
"We're on a road... Staring at a lamp post..." She said as she made a weird face. What the hell was going through Cameron's mind?
"Isn't it amazing?" He said as he took her hands in his, making her blush a little. She was thankful that it was winter so she already had redness on her cheeks making it hard to notice her blushing.
"How almost every line on our hands align, when your hand's in mine—"
"We're literally wearing gloves right now, idiot!" She frowned at him.
"It's like I'm whole again. Isn't that a sign? I should speak my mind?" He asked her.
She pulled her hand out of his grip with force. "What the hell are you talking about, Cameron? If you're here to play decipher the cryptogram then I'm sorry I don't have time for your BS. Leave me alone if this is what you wanted to do!" She began walking away from him.
"All it is...is... eight letters..." He stammered. "So why is it so hard to say?"
She halted in her steps and gulped in anticipation. Was he going to say the exact same thing that she had imagined?
"What eight letters are you talking about?" She turned around to ask him and walked closer to him to hear him clearly.
"I— I. Uh... I don't know how to say it... I— I'm sorry..."
She smiled kindly towards him. "It's okay," she said. "I won't make fun of you. No one would know what you say to me now." She took his hands in hers.
"B... BUTTOCKS!" He finally managed to say.
"What the hell?" She pushed his hands away from her, making Cameron stumble backwards. "Are you freaking crazy? What do you expect me to say?" She felt so offended at his words. "IDIOT!" She yelled. "You don't know anything!"
"Then what do you want me to say!? What should've I said, huh!?" He yelled back at her in frustration.
"It's so freaking easy, you idiot!" She sighed in frustration.
"FARTFACE!"
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I know! I know that I raised everyone's expectations by adding some image aesthetics (that I totally didn't rip off of Pinterest) and lyrics aesthetics in the beginning but then you scroll towards the end and see "FARTFACE" and just wonder what happened here O_o
Ugh idek what happened here it's all because I couldn't get this out of my head when writing this—
[my screenrecorder sucks at recording good quality audio bare with me :)]
“It isn't cute nor is it funny, I've written a cursed story” — Dee; December 2020
I KNOW I WON'T GET ANY STORIES REQUESTS NOW AND IT'S OKAY I UNDERSTAND WHY ANYONE WOULD NOT WANT TO ASK ME TO WRITE ANYTHING FOR THEM(ᗒᗩᗕ)
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pink-spaceturtle5 · 7 years
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Even slightly older male: *shows me any form of approval/affection* Me, tearing up: I will make you proud, please love me I'll be good child
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cinaminho · 5 years
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{A/N} I want you all to know that this is not fact, only fake, opinions not based on any concrete information! Readers! If you're not emotionally competent enough to understand that this is made up! And is Just for imagination, if you will take this seriously and have unhealthy thoughts regarding Rocky or any idol I write about then do not read my content. I will not take responsibility for your thoughts and actions because if you're old enough to read it and be on this blog then I figure you're old enough to hold yourself accountable for your thoughts taking them seriously when I cleary stated that this is make believe.
Now with that being said -- Leggo♡
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Boyfriend! Rocky/Park Minhyuk {Astro}
Request: Hi, can i request some fluff with astro rocky? maybe something with boyfriend!rocky
I think boyfriend! Rocky is a very balanced Rocky, I feel even if he has little no experience in that area that he'd still be very great at being a lover in a romantic way. He just seems very mature about a lot.
🌹 - Basic Stuff - 🌹
Definitely see him as a chill type, not a possessive type I think he is the kind of guy to deeply invest himself after a decent amount of time of being together, once you have him though, that's it. He's all in, all about making it work.
I don't see him with someone who's with that 'silent treatment' stuff , immature unnecessarily long time periods of not talking when you guys have a disagreement (he doesn't like the word fight or argument, I just feel he wouldn't , weird I know)
but if you are like that I think he'd only put up with it for maybe a day or two before telling you to stop being childish, he wouldn't tolerate this behavior from anyone else besides his members probably , but because he understands a relationship might go through these things he'll let you act out for a bit but after that time you have to talk.
I think he's definitely a 'solve the problem as soon as possible' type of guy, c'mon man, all that extra sh*t is unnecessary like, get it over with so he can get back to loving you!!
Speaking of loving you, I don't think it'd be private ..but not necessarily too out in the open. People would know he's taken also that you are as well , but not necessarily by each other, the only people to know THAT are you, your family, his as well plus members and the company, y'know?
Of course this would all be told after you're both sure it's going somewhere.
Though it's hidden from many the most important people know exactly who he's with as well as in your life the people you hold dearly know you're with him as well.
I think he's very big on privacy so he is careful about public outings together but really only covers up with a cap/hat keeping his head down with his arm wrapped around your shoulder, only looking up when many people aren't around which is actually more often than you may think.
This covers the Altercation part of this and a little bit of the overall ordeal.
♡ - Affection - ♡
Y'know how I said Rocky has his arm around you in public outings, I think it's a most common overall interaction of affection towards you to him.
It's saying 'we're together' not too much, not too little that one action says everything he wants people to know. He's definitely one to switch it up occasionally though no matter where you are even if you're alone, that arm may still around you but he may add an occasional kiss to your cheek gently cupping your chin and bringing the side of your face to his lips then asking if you're okay, what's on your mind?, do you need anything?
I think he also likes kissing your knuckles jeez when did I become a cliche mushy bitch?, fingertip kisses, temple, middle of your forehead, just not straight lips all the time because HE'S DIFFERENT
I'm not saying the lips are a rare spot that he kisses but I just feel he usually gives you a goodbye kiss, I missed you kiss, if they don't happen often they're long whenever they do
I think he'd like to caress the back of your hand and hear about your day with a cute small genuine smile on his lips just admiring whatever part of your face that he can see
Loves when YOU give him a back hug
Loves when YOU are the big spoon while cuddling that's one thing where he doesn't fight you to take care of him on
Will not mind cooking for you or together
Just wants you to know that you don't have to everything
Just likes when you watch him dance he doesn't necessarily make you join in if you don't like it, he'd respect it as long as you respected his intrest in it. Hype up his dance ego his #1 hype person
Is that affection ?? Idek man
It's just little cute things
Rub your fingers through his hair it's a bonus for you both
He doesn't mind you initiating The affection pretty much anything he does to you, you do back to him which he loves.
I think, by the way, in the beginning of all this affectionate loving he may be a little timid but it'd quickly grow into him being comfortable With Affection, because In his mind 'this is normal In a relationship' , 'this should happen right? Yeah' so all good. NEXT CAASEEE!!
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A relationship with Rocky would seem to good to be true because In this generation , what's 'love' without many disagreements and yelling? It isn't real if you don't bicker a lot? Yeah right, you and Rocky shut that down
You guys have what I call a 90's love, y'know, where buying another gender food that isn't your S/O wasn't considered cheating. My generation is so fuckin dumb I was so close to being a 90's kid bruh
Your boundaries make sense
You don't really question his loyalty to you and vise versa
Support his dreams, understand the situation you're in with him and there is no doubt that he'll do the same for you
Every second he has to rest will mostly be donated to you because as I said, once he's all in that's it. Whatever it takes to prove he wants you two go as far as you can together.
OH!!! and another thing! Don't be afraid to confide in him. He listens firsts and talks second, when he knows you'll need it or he'll save it for later, he wants to be one of if not THE first person you confide in.
He'll protect your feelings as much as possible but all while being respectfully honest , he'd want the same from you.
Don't be surprised if you open up quicker than expected to him because he provides that feeling of safety that you can do that. That's what he wanted, he succeeded, except it, embrace it.
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- Sorry if this was terrible and messy I'm not really good with bulletin scenarios! Thank you for the request I love Astro so I really enjoyed this 💖💖
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Chinese drama thoughts/rant time
Just finished watching Miss Truth and I like her way better with Su Fu even if he was getting close to her with an ulterior motive at first. Anyone who fucking gouges out a piece of their heart (literally) to save my life is kind of - you can't really outdo that??? And they didn't even give him a chance to explain to her - or rather she didn't even give him a chance to explain to her and literally left him to be killed by his people. I don't care how hurt you are or how disbelieving they didn't even like make a thing out of 'You saved my life' like he saved you multiple times. I know she's unconventional but usually saving someone's life counts for at least some currency/to be taken into consideration.
On the other hand Xiao Song (the male lead) literally humiliates her on multiple occasions 'in the name of being good to her secretly' and at one point has her in chains and threatens her non-stop. Fuck off how is that better.
If I had the time and Did These Things I would write a fic where she doesn't abandon Su Fu to the assassins surrounding him that he's literally cutting down because she has a fucking conscience, gives him a chance to fucking explain, is maybe conflicted about it for a while before trying to mend their relationship maybe and they are honest and truthful with each other and open up.
The writing of emotional turns was abysmal in this and they really didn't earn or show enough to really get an emotional investment, things just Happened.
Also, Sang Chen totally did not have to lose his hand at the end uselessly and they could have been much better with the whole relationship dynamic engagement with the female lead, again.
Was she a strong-willed character? Yeah. But she also was not very likable and although I get that not all women need to be Good and Nurturing and Virtuous in all the 'right ways' like I mean honestly though?? The relationship she had with Su Fu was transactional from the beginning to some extent so a) I don't know why she's so surprised or betrayed, b) she knew he's an assassin who belongs to an organisation which almost always and presumably has its own rules etc. so again, why so surprised or betrayed, the first time she met him she already literally caused him to get stabbed, what the fuck, come on. Can't you even just count that as 'I owe you my life x2 (at least), I caused you to get hurt x idek how many times, let's call this even even though I clearly owe my life to you in multiple ways' like so Xiao Song can be awful to you in the name of not telling you things for your own good and doing stuff for you behind your back but this guy who has been trained as a cold assassin since young and isn't loved or valued by his family and the court can't be a cold assassin keeping you alive in the name of using you while he finds himself inexorably saving you and doing extra shit that he doesn't actually need to be doing in the name of making the trap more believable every time, like killing people from his own assassins' society? He could well have been written as actually the double agent he's supposed to be.
Anyway!
P.S. Su Fu also proved to be pretty good at crime-solving as well so he could, again, well have been written into a decent enough partner for her on the work front as well and Xiao Song written to be 'I think we work great together but I love this guy actually sorry let's be friends'.
P.P.S. If Su Fu doesn't say a lot to Ran Yan (female lead) at all about what his motives are, that's easily explained by the fact that the leader of the society is constantly around and comes into the room from wherever she was hiding in the back or out of sight as soon as Ran Yan leaves.
Just because the good court-appointed guy doesn't mean he has to be the one the female lead ends up with, ffs.
Addendum: I haven't been in much contact with any fiction anything at all for a while and thinking about all this is really hammering home how much it really is a matter of just choosing to write something a certain way; that you in fact choose the path your characters take. Thinking about this in the context of people arguing about HP the series when the many ethical issues were written into it that way completely by the author.
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