I would personally like to thank Matpat for the endings cheat sheet because while I do love theories, I am also dumb as dirt

still haven’t gotten over the fact that Enzo will leave the acting industry for two years. Though I completely understand his decision, his passion is acting, not being famous. He is a man who prefers to live his life on the low, in peace, and not with this riot that he received. I will miss seeing him around. I at least hope he stays active on his instagram <3.

Ep 12 Hakutou 🤍🍑☺️🥹😭

<3 ESCAPE THE NIGHT MATPAT <3

just binged the second season of The Ghost and Molly McGee this weekend.

I’m not crying, you’re crying.

i am crying right now because of a stupid show i’m watching and my favorite character just died and I’m not sure what to do with myself. i don’t think i’ve been impacted by a character death this hard in a long time, if not ever. it isn’t fair. he was such a good guy! it is one of those shows where you can’t get attached to the characters however and i realized this and decided to get attached anyway. rookie mistake i have made one too many times. it’s okay though because i am now going to project all my sadness into my writing :) watch out *insert character name here* I hope your ready to feel the feels.

i’ll be fine in a few days, lmao. imma just need a moment.

Edit: I just finished the show and I’m crying so much because the ending…the symbolism and everything…oh my god…I’m going to need 5-10 businesses days

i have 3 more weeks with my therapist…

i can’t stand him 🤣🤣🤨

Peace

It’s actually so bittersweet that Matt Pat is leaving game theory. I have like so many things to say, so many feelings, so many comments.

Like he is the reason I like science and video games. I literally used to wait for him to do let’s plays of games I was excited for because I couldn’t afford to buy the game myself. On top of that I really enjoyed watching his lore videos, they were always something so fun and so strange.

It’s also weird because some degree we get closure before it even happens. Like I get to now live the next nine weeks knowing that this person who has changed my life is leaving soon. It’s so bittersweet to have this ability to know the future and yet be unable to stop it.

Like I’m also so proud of this man. He has come so far and has truly shaped part of YouTube‘s landscape for years to come. I mean from his play to his merch having a built-in ARG, to his actual ARG. He has truly changed the way I look at media and the world around me in general.

It’s exciting to know that he is working on new projects like a possible game and a new Lofi based ARG. But at the same time it’s so heart wrenching to know that the rest of my life is going to be lived without hearing this man’s voice from a screen once every week. and I know he’s never like truly gonna go away, I imagine he will still be on GT live until the end of summer so at least we get to see him play more video games. But then what? Like what happens after?

I don’t know I have so many feelings that range from acceptance to sadness to the realization that this is what it means to be old. And maybe there’s something to be said about being the first generation to have grown up with this specific style of media, maybe there’s something to be said about the parasocial nature of YouTube, and how it means that people can simultaneously leave in more potent mark on your life, but also a more potent Scar on it but I’m not gonna say it. Because in someway, I am mourning my childhood.

From Mat Pat, to Tom Scott, to stampy cat, to captainsparklez, this truly has been the end of a generation. I wanna be able to say with confidence that I am so proud of being able to have both grown up with these people, and be able to say that I watch them up until they’re retirements. Years from now I will look back on these people, and I’m sure many more who will choose to leave the reins for someone else, and I will laugh.

But for now, I will cry. I will cry for the things that will never be the same again. I will cry as finally, finally, I am an adult.

Thank you so much MatPat, and I’m excited to see what you and the rest of the team do next

guys i have something to say

i’m not ready i’m not ready i’m not ready i’m not ready i’m not ready i’m not ready i’m not ready i’m not ready i’m not ready i’m not ready i’m not ready i’m not ready i’m not ready i’m not ready i’m not ready

Just had a going away party for my GM and him and I have BG3 brainworms so it was like

in honor of finally finishing my first bg3 playthrough after a 70 hour run, i present a compilation of mr vincent doing what he did best: saving the world, kissing his husband, and making silly puns 😌

Hisam’s “girl why?” 😂

little benji <3