void state progress and success!!!
I'm updating every day privately (now public) hehe
(scroll down and read pink highlighted paragraph for success story I had started attempting void much earlier than this)
day 1: tried but eventually fell asleep
day 2. did an extensive reasearch, like all day, read ton of success stories, got insane inspiration. believed void was real and manifestations are instant. I tried and got into hypnagogic state. but fell asleep
day 3: re read all the success stories again and again whole day and became more confident, I made mental notes on common symptoms I'd have, affirmed little. all night I played subliminals, binaural beats etc but got tired and fell asleep
day 4: still motivated, angry but persisting, I am affirming, made more mental notes on how I should go about void, did more reasearch on Hinduism interpretation on void, read about void on reddit, YouTube, explore astral projection and sleep paralysis video's comment section (they had similar symptoms just like void) became even more confident with void, tried methods but eventually i got exhausted and fell asleep
day 5: MADE MY OWN RULES. YES, no notes or anything, it's my way baby, it'll go how I want it to go, when I want it go. no more sending asks to bloggers, no more doubting, no more worrying the process. Just believing it will happen. not worrying about the circumstances. I'm very confident that today IS THE DAY 💅
day 6: I couldn't enter, i slept lmao
day 7: I got to the vibrational stage but my thoughts were distractibg and I slept
day 8: I learnt about sleep paralysis and tried that
day 9: last night didn't work, but I'll persist
day 10: i just slept, void is messing with my sleep schedule
day 11: spend A LOT OF TIME researching about void in Hinduism and got a lot of confidence but didn't enter
day 12: AGAIN SPENT A LOT OF TIME RESEARCHING about void in Hinduism but didn't make it
day 13: I'm getting closer to something very important and I need to enter void on a time crunch. I cried
day 14: everything is exhausting, but I still tried entering void but rolled over anf slept
day 15: i drank coffee to stay awake and I'm doing the meditation sitting up so that I don't roll over and fall asleep
(UGHHHHHHHHHH GOD )
day 16: I found a subliminal that made my body vibrate within first 2 minutes of listening?? and I looped it overnight but fell asleep sometime while listening but I'm still hopeful.
day 17: stupid exams
day 18: studied for my next stupid exams
day 19: I am so tired I didn't attempt I wanted to sleep peacefully
day 20: Literally my entire life is on hold because I am trying to get into void, I do realise this is unhealthy but at the same time I am so much confident that I can do it? I don't know how to explain this confidence but I know I will enter the void.
day 21: more exams and didn't attempt
day 22:
I DID IT GUYS I DID IT OMGGG THIS FEELS SO GOOD OH GOD JDKEODJDJDN I LOVE THIS FOR ME I FEEL UNSTOPPABLE I CHANGED MY ENTIRE LIFE THIS IS SO BIG TO ME Y'ALL DON'T HAVE A CLUE AHHHHH. I'M GONNA CRY. I HAVE EVERYTHING I EVER WANTED JSBSJDKDODKSNSN
quick thanks to all loass bloggers on Tumblr and Sammy Ingram (she shitted about void but it's okay lmao is her limiting belief but I'm thanking her for introducing the law to me) my fav bloggers are @rosellesworkshop @fleurlx @blushydior @stargirl-kira @multiversebaddie @zen-shu @prettymindset111 @luvforend @sa777urn @aphroditeapprenticee @gorgeouslypink @littlemissprettyprincess @sirensplayhouse thanks for answering my asks.
ANDDD all the anons who posted void success stories and thanks to @voidsuccess for compiling them!!! (i used to obsessively surf her blog day and night until day 10 lmaoo)
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Memories, like ghosts, tend to come as they go. And, well, I tried my best to believe kingdoms are built to protect what's within. But your walls were built too steep for me. I can't be the one, I can't be the one who's lonely for you. No, you're not the one I need. I want love that feels like home and deep inside of me. I feel the storm awakening. I won't give up, I won't give up, I won't give up, I won't give up even if it kills me tonight. I'll give it up, I'll give it up, I'll give it up, I'll give it up. Give up on the dream of you and I. I see visions in my mind so close that I can feel them come alive. Count my blessings, learn my lessons, and move on with my life. I won't give up, I won't give up, I won't give up, I won't give up even if it takes a little time.
I Won't Give Up by Kelly Clarkson
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Demon listen I love u I do but u are truly the only person I’ve seen thirsting after ego LOL
I can’t believe this… This… This can’t be true… I…
I can’t be the only Ego Jinpachi thirster!!!
If that’s the case… Maybe I’ll do a little one shot or something. A tiny series on the side for my own viewing pleasure? I actually… Really like Blue Lock. I used to play Soccer as a kid but it was never fun for me. As a player. Watching? Oh, that I could enjoy. It looks like I will have to be the change I want to see in the world.
Sorry to everyone in advance. I understand you have crushes on the players… Isagi… Bachira… Kunigami… Reo… Seishiro… Sae… Rin… Maybe even my personal favorite Ryusei (I know his hair is stupid.)
But I want their coach.
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Maybe I am delusional
This is the part of my life where a few years down the road I will look back and there will be one of two outcomes:
1 - wow you knew all along.
2 - you are definitely delusional but at least you had fun.
And when I say that I mean because despite all this time that has passed I still think there’s a way back. I feel it every day when I’m going about my day. I feel it in the most random things that I see during the day. When I hear someone talk about bacon and it makes me think about that one time you told me your brother eats raw bacon. Is he ok by the way?
It’s when I think back of the first night we slept on the same bed. Nothing happened, we’re just tired and fell asleep. I remember waking up in the middle of the night and you were there. You got up to get some water and I thought you surely would go to your room but you came back to snuggle me in. It was then when I knew I wanted to spend every single day of my existence with you.
It’s when I’m driving around and I can see you on the passenger seat. It’s when I’m at the grocery store and I go by the aisle of your favourite drink thinking about the times when I got that for you.
It’s when I’m just making some food and I see your ghost around. It’s when I’m in the living room looking at my couch remembering that one time we just laid there without talking, just holding each other.
So, I’m not fighting any of these thoughts anymore. I’m laying all my weapons down. When they come I will watch them play in my head and then they will go as they always do. I haven’t seen you in a long time. I haven’t talked to you in so long. I don’t know how my brain does any of this. But I’m not arguing anymore.
I will go on living my life, making memories, going to new places, meeting new people. A few years down the road I know I will look back at this time and smile. Because even if I truly never see you again, I will never regret loving you.
So now I wait.
soon we will know how delusional I am. And that’s ok.
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i am really sad that i had to stop and think that getting the sigil of ashina tattoed on my throat will not be a good choice at the moment in terms of keeping my job, so well... maybe in the future
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