warning, long vent: stone ocean may not be my nr 1 fav part, but it is still one of the thoughest parts & if not the most intense one (of the first universe but also in gen) and the jobros n jofoe hit hard in this. there is no other way to describe it. i hate netflix for totally destroying the hype for jolyne as the main character of her own story. the voice actors have done an excellent job, netflix is just after the money and dp has bad luck (or not) to have to work with them. i mean it wont change a thing but i don´t want dp to collaborate with netflix for the coming parts. (won´t happen, ik ik)

and don´t get me at the haters. after seeing too much alpha male content on how giorno or josuke could have saved the world?? and defeat pucci, my question is: do you even get the plot? araki has mastered the dynamic btwn jobro & jofoe so much that it isnt about just oraing your way through. besides the fact that araki wanted to reset the world to write the next parts, you must be dumb to believe that it is about jolyne´s "failure" cz that´s crazy. the thought of staying in prison although ur innocent - yet you have to save ur father bc he read the diary of some 200 y.o man and it isn´t even ur fault? none of those haters would survive a day in jail.

i also heard the argument that it is the first part in which a jobro defeats a jofoe which is partly true cz have you even seen jolyne being the most selfless person by trying to stop pucci who is accelerating time and she knows she has not a single chance against him? i do not care. that scene should be in the louvre. oh and guess again how emporio got the cd. her standing up and giving her everything while everyone else is gone never fails to give me goosebumps.

since mappa doesn´t let their own animators live outside the studio, i rlly want the radicals to give part 7 time. they totally took the sht out of stone ocean and the bois want to see horses - that´s still so unfair idc. just bc some ppl hate the ending doesn´t mean you can enslave ppl to animate 100s of horses as fast as possible cz they are gonna cry the moment they see cgi. an unsatisfying endig never equals a bad ending/writing. yet i can hear them saying how unrealistic it is if jolyne "won". i love sbr but they massacred stone ocean. now we just toss so to the side? fck you netflix.

genshin nsfw hcs pt 2

read part 1!!

warnings: nsfw, MINORS DNI, drugging, bdsm, perv albedo, stalking ment, light talk on blood kink, cum play, exhibitionism, wax play, degrading, breeding kink, hair pulling

notes: i kept thinking of that fred song “my babysitters a vampire” while writing this and im sorry this is so late i meant to post this like 2 days ago

albedo

i just wanted to touch more on pervy albedo

can u imagine it.

albedo probably takes pictures of you and says their “for the memories” or “something to remind me of you when you leave mondstadt”

but he really only has them to jerk off to them cmon now

this is gonna sound stalker-ish but albedo probably watches u change through ur window

UVE PROBABLY CAUGHT HIM ONCE TOO

it’s such a funny thought to me omg

you see him outside ur window with his dick in his hand and he’s a stuttering mess LMFAO

you’ve probably caught him staring at ur ass a couple times too

if you ever go to the beach with him.. i’m praying for ur safety..

i feel like albedo would be a little bit of a family guy too

imagine babysitting klee with him and he’s just watching like “yeah.. i’m gonna have a family with u..”

breeding kink imo

arataki itto

sex.

i love him.

if you look closely on him you can see he has a spiked collar

pull it i DARE YOU

again,

MONSTER DICK

slaps his whole abdomen

probably big enough to kill a dragon

OK LET ME GET SERIOUS

he probably has a blood kink

just a lil one

like he’ll scratch up your thighs or bite you till you bleed bc he knows the mark will last

loves when you ride him

all of it can barely fit so he has to help you out

when he sees his dick imprint on ur stomach he’s going wild

he WILL go many rounds too

rip you and your holes bc he will fill ALL OF THEM

cums a lot

an unrealistic amount because i said so

if you don’t like cum play or any mess, he’ll TRY to stay clean

try

he fails in the end but he gets A for effort

diluc

yes.

my boy toy.

idk if i covered this already or not but enjoys wax play

he’ll light a candle and hold it over u and just watch it melt onto u

probably likes it on himself too

(if ur ever fucking him and he’s comfortable with it do it he’ll love you forever)

PULL!! HIS!! HAIR!!

whether you’re top or not, give it a nice lil tug

he may or may not moan

i forget whatever i said about him in the first hcs but this man is my whore idc

yes, he’s fucked you in the tavern

he’s fucked you while on the job too

he’ll take you to the back and give you that dickmeister9000

don’t play with him!!

doggy style, his favorite.

i feel like while diluc would fuck you in the tavern, he’s shy so he likes to keep you in the winery

the maids have definitely walked in on it more than once

it was just awkward staring before the poor maid just left

at this point adelinde is used to it though

so while it’s happening she just acts like normal and leaves

it’s scary as fuck

diluc probably got a few tips from albedo and may or may not have added a little extra sumthin sumthin to a new wine he wanted you to try

he’s experimental let him live

scaramouche

if this mf don’t get some damn official art

anyway

an absolute menace.

LIKE

HE WILL RUIN YOU

and he’s so mean too

he will degrade you to all hell

and he’s rough omg..

deadass i think his dick is like 7 inches

idk them short people be packing sometimes

hate sex is like normal with him

WAIT IMAGINE UR BOTH ENEMIES AND UR BOTH TIRED OF THE SEXUAL TENSION SO U SKIP RIGHT TO THE SEX

i’m a genius

probably into bdsm too

will tie you up

WILL PROBABLY SHOCK U WITH ELECTRO TOO

SPOILERS FOR INAZUMA STORY QUEST!!!

so u know how he kinda drugged mc in that place when we meet him again

what if he does that to u…

WITH CONSENT OF COURSE

spoilers over

i feel like scaramouche would actually be really big on consent

safe words with him are a must

he wants u to feel safe and comfortable

he’ll fuck you into oblivion yea

but only if ur okay with that

venti

whew

y’all.

it’s long.

like you would never imagine it

but it’s long

he’s very. very. fast.

like

lighting mcqueen don’t got shit on him

kachow

cums a moderate amount

probably has a thing for exhibitionism

he will dead ass fuck you in windrise

like just out in the open like that

will probably grope you at angels share

he’s very touchy me thinks

ooo pull his braids

PULL THEM HARD

he will love it.

fucked him so good he wrote a song abt it

Survey #430

“when the girl in the corner is everyone’s woman, she could kill you with a wink of her eye”

What kind of dog do you find most ugly? What a mean question. ;-; I don't think they're ugly, but I probably find chihuahuas to be the least visually appealing. Do you like wood floors or carpet better? Wood. Do you think the USA bullies other countries? Quite frankly, yes. Are you currently in love right now? No. Favorite fast food joint? Sonic. What would you do if your ex contacted you? THE ex, have a panic attack. Cry. Be wordlessly ecstatic. Be scared and confused. Do you still have feelings for your ex? Two, yes, but one is unrealistic considering I have no idea who he is anymore. It's been way too long for me to possibly, accurately like him. Ever tasted a flavored condom? No. Do you know CPR? No. How much do you care about your best friend? I'd die for her. Do you watch Dr. Phil? No. What age would you like to have a child? I don't want kids ever. Are your parents wealthy? Mom, absolutely not. Dad seems to be financially stable, but not wealthy or anything. Pick one state you’d love to live in? Alaska. How many pets do you want? And of what? Man, I want a LOT. I know I want more ball python morphs, a plains hognose, a woma python, numerous tarantulas, a fat-tailed gecko, a boa, orchid mantises, a sphynx, a tegu would be super cool... I'd love to have like an empire of pets one day, aha, but only so long as I could maintain them all and adequately provide for them. Have you ever asked someone out? Yes. When do you want to get married? I mean, I don't have a set age in mind. I want to get married when I'm ready. Can you play a musical instrument? I played the flute for yeeeaaaars in middle and high school, but I remember almost nothing by now. What if you stopped orgasming for the rest of your life? Idc, honestly. Does money make you happy? Money probably makes me happier than it should, but I'm not like madly in love with it or anything. Happens when you're poor your whole life. Your favorite breakfast food? Ugh, cinnamon rolls are a godsend. When was the last time you went to a funeral? I actually don't think I've ever been to one... only wakes. I really, really wish I could have gone to Jason's mom's, though... There was just no fucking way that I was going to risk upsetting Jason on THAT day of all days by popping up. Have you ever stolen someone’s boyfriend/girlfriend? Well, we never actually dated, but you could say that... Tell me the date of your first kiss. I don't know the exact date, but it was March 2012. Are your legs long or short? Normal, I guess? How many phobias do you have? Man, a lot. Is there a bookshelf in your room? No. Do you use the Facebook chat often? Barely at all. I only really use it to chat with Girt on the rare occasion we talk. Who got you hooked on the addiction you're addicted to (If you have one)? I discovered Mark on my own; I needed help in an Amnesia: The Dark Descent custom story, so I found his playthrough and watched it. Got a few laughs, subscribed. It was Jason who introduced me to Amnesia, though, so I can indirectly thank him, I guess? haha Are you currently worried about your parents finding out about something? No. Have you ever lived with a friend? Yeah, for a couple months. Have you ever only liked someone because you found out they liked you? No. Ever been on a real diet, or did you just stop eating? I've tried multiple diets. Have you ever known a white supremacist? I know multiple. Welcome to the South. Do you like the smell of a barbecue? Yesss. It's funny because I hate the food itself. Have you ever gone out in public in your pajamas? Yeah. It's not rare, if I'm being honest. How many times have you been to the ER? Too many times because of being suicidal. How many people are you currently texting? None. Anything exciting coming up? My nephew's birthday is in a few days! Would you rather get money or gift cards for your birthday? Money, so I can use it for anything. Do you have Instagram? I have three, ha ha. One for my basic photography, another for my morbid photos, and I went through a very short phase of having an Instagram for my pets. It still exists, but I don't really use it. Have you ever spoken to a detective before? No. Do you believe in ghosts? Yes. Do ladders scare you? Yes. Hot dogs or hamburgers? Cheeseburgers may possibly be my favorite food. Do you have any tattoos on your arms? I do. Have you ever owned or known someone who owned a black cat? I've owned plenty of black cats. What album is the last song you listened to from? It's from Disguise. What’s the last funny movie you watched? Probably Elf. Can you remember your parents’ birthdays? Mom's, yes. I only remember the month of my dad's. If you had to get a tattoo tomorrow, what would you pick? I think I want to get my tribute to Teddy next. How do you feel about band tattoos? Hey, go for it. I see nothing wrong with it. What piercing do you like most on the opposite sex? Probably snakebites. Lip piercings in general are hot lmao. Are you any good at applying make up? Noooo, my hands are so shaky. How old were the last 3 people you kissed? Sara's 23; idr the exact ages of Girt and Tyler. I think Tyler was a year younger than me, and Girt is at the bare minimum three years older than me. If you found out you got someone pregnant, what would you do? Well, I'm a cisgender female, so... Do you ever wonder what your ex is up to? Very frequently. Do you like your cell phone? I mean it's fine, but I'd like a new one. Is rap your favorite genre of music? No, it's actually my least favorite. Have you ever thrown up on anybody? Oh god, no. Do people think you’re happy? I think it's safe to say most people who know me know I'm clinically depressed. Or you know... maybe not. Quite a few people have been surprised to learn that about me because I can put on a good facade. What band would you stand in line for 24 hours to see? None, honestly. That's way too long. What was your worst childhood experience? I guess my dad's alcoholism. As a child, I thought it was a normal thing, but I do wonder if my fear of men has anything to do with how volatile drinking had a 50/50 chance of making him. He never hurt anyone, but he was just so mad and hateful towards the world sometimes. You can trade another person’s emotions for your own. Whose do you take? I have no idea. What was/is going to be your first waltz at your wedding? That'll depend on my partner and what song means the most to us/fits us best. "When It's Love" by Van Halen has been a consideration for forever, though. When it’s not summer, what do you miss most about it? I hate summer. I miss nothing about it. Do you consider yourself patriotic? No. What is the one thing that you need to do to die happy? Feel like I accomplished something notable. Do you consider yourself mainstream? No. What’s the riskiest thing you’ve ever done? Overdosing on cold medicine. What is life’s greatest mystery? Probably from whence we came. Humanity has fished for a definite answer forever. What was your favourite make-believe game as a kid? Pretending I was a meerkat hiding in a "burrow" that was a blanket fort, ha ha. Do you try your best at everything? Honestly, no. Who is your shoulder to cry on? My mom, without fail. What’s your standard excuse for not doing something? I dunno... it depends on the topic. Name the most beautiful person you know. As far as physical appearance goes, my friend Alon. Have you ever been to jail? No. What is one moment you wish you could have taken a picture of? Sara's face when I surprised her at her house for her birthday. It was absolutely fucking priceless. What place holds the most memories for you? Jason's house. Who was your first date? My puppy dog-love middle school bf Aaron. We went with a group of friends to a skating rink. My first one-on-one date was Jason. What’s the best trip you’ve ever been on? The zoo in 5th grade. It's the one and only time I've seen meerkats. For some weird reason, our zoo moved the meerkats not long after that visit. I THINK they said the environment just wasn't suitable for them, which I never really got... I think they mentioned the cold, but like, you have heating for them, and also, have you ever experienced a desert night? You consider all the other areas that have meerkats in their zoos and it's like... why, man. Bring my meerkats back. ;_; What do you think the earth will look like in 1,000 years? Oh dear God, I do NOT want to visualize that. My gut tells me it'll be a wasteland, probably without humans or most forms of life we have now. We have to get our shit straight, so very badly. I could rant for hours about how horribly and ungratefully we abuse our planet. Who makes you happy to be around? Sara! I feel like I can be my 100% authentic self, and we just vibe really well together. Like every time I've been there and she here, our friendship felt so natural and chill. I really, really need to save up for another trip up there. What secret have you tried to hide but it got out anyway? I kept the Joel situation to myself from pretty much everyone, but it eventually came out in front of Mom and Jason. It was actually the night of the breakup; I don't remember how it was relevant at all to mention, but I did in some form. Mom wisely never asked about it, and Jason obviously didn't. I was a stupid 12-year-old anyway, it's whatever now. Who/what is your everything? I will never. Ever. In five billion millennia. Let anyone be that again. How many people have you turned down when they asked you out? Ummm three? I think that's it. How many exes do you have? If I include everyone who ever had a title of "boyfriend/girlfriend," I have six. Who was your worst relationship with? Tyler. It was just pointless and the result of nothing but loneliness. What’s your ‘label’? (ex. punk, prep) I really, really don't care. Do you swear? How much? Like a sailor. I swore some beforehand, but I got really bad when Jason and I started dating. He swore a lot, and his mother did even more. I was around them as much as possible, so it rubbed off on me. What is the one thing that would make everything in your life fall apart? Losing my family, like being disowned or something like that. Especially when it comes to Mom. I rely on her so heavily, as much as I hate that. :/ What takes your breath away? Nature is very capable of that. Something like seeing big waterfalls in the mountains or something would marvel me. Are you patient? No, honestly. Are you a good dancer? No. Even when I took dance, I don't think I was great; however, I do think I was pretty skilled at clogging. Who would you call first in a life-threatening situation (not 911)? My mom. Who do you miss? Jason and his family, Megan, Alex, Hannia, Emily, Journee... a lot of people. Do you like snakes? I adore snakes.

I'll gladly help you procrastinate! For the character ask, Ayda Aguefort, Pete the Plug, and First of her Name, Sovereign Ruler of Candia and the Sugarlands, Witch-Queen of the Dairy Sea, High Priestess of the Sweetening Path, Archmage of Lost Sucrosia, Enemy of the Faith, The Sundae Sorceress, Storm-Captain of the Frosted Fleet, Queen Saccharina of House Frostwhip.

oh gosh this got LONG kldsaljda ty for the ask friend! sorry for the weird formatting i had to copy it from the notes app because i didn’t trust tumblr not to randomly delete it while i was typing

Ayda

Why I like them- goodness gracious why do I love Ayda? Best best best girl. She wants friends desperately but she has a hard time but she doesn’t try to change herself to do it? And she is just,, so brilliant and Wonderfull and she makes me very emotional. Fun fact, there’s a video on YouTube that’s just all of her appearances, and I started watching that when I couldn’t get access to dropout because I was so intrigued about what I saw on Tumblr! And she’s like 60% of the reason I got dropout

* Why I don’t- BEST GIRL.

* Favorite episode (scene if movie)- I mean the figayda first kiss and everything that preceded it was GOLD. Also the scene where adaine asks if she wants to hold boggy. What an angel.

* Favorite season/movie- sophomore year obviously! Can’t wait for more content with her as time goes on!

* Favorite line- “NOOO IT’S TOO CUTE!” And “if i was you, i wouldn’t want to be anyone else” “I too am a low quality child”

* Favorite outfit- the sweater she’s wearing in the full version of my icon because its says “reading is lit” and I love the pun sm! you know one of the bad kids would get it for her! https://rabdoidal.tumblr.com/post/190876580075/baby-youre-hands-down-the-best-thing-about-me-and

* OTP- Fig!! They’re such a good balance for each other! Fig is always trying to be other people, but around Ayda she’s growing into herself more! And Ayda learning from fig too, getting out of her comfort zone and GAH I LOVE THEM. IN THE WORDS OF LOU WILSON I BLESS THIS UNION

* Brotp- Adaine! Gorgug! And Cheese of course!

* Head Canon- I have no idea how junior year is gonna go, but I can see her spending time at Aguefort trying to talk more with her dad and see her friends since she doesn’t really know anyone else in Elmville? And she will slowly and accidentally take over their school library and anyone taking wizard classes will totally come to her for advice! Let Ayda have all the friends okay.

* Unpopular opinion- I talked about this in a different ask but her cameo in pirol felt just a bit out of place? Like if I hadn’t seen fhsy it would’ve really thrown me off and it kinda messed with the standalone nature of the season. That being said I LOVED that scene!! i want more of her and cheese being friends!

* A wish- idc how unrealistic it may be, fig and ayda will be high school sweethearts dang it! I think they’ll have their struggles for sure, but that’s endgame baby!

* An oh-god-please-dont-ever-happen- if brennan hurts her I WILL be meeting him in the denny’s parking lot, no mercy

* 5 words to best describe them- brilliant, radiant, outstanding, show-stopping, resplendent

* My nickname for them- best girl!!

Pete the Plug

Why I like them- my boy is really trying his best!! The voice of the dreams, who finds a home and people who love and respect and support him, who stares down the dream and asks to see its true form.

Why I don’t- I love him your honor!

Favorite episode (scene if movie)- yo I bingewatched this season so fast my memory is badddd so I’m not sure!

Favorite line: my memory is such garbage man!! Idk!! I just looked through his Tumblr tag and that one line in the coffee shop where he asks where the crying booth is is GOLD

Favorite outfit- cowboy hat KING

OTP- I am not immune to the Pete/ricky/ester/Sofia polycule,,

Brotp- Kingston!! they had a rough patch, but I love the way they grow to understand and care for each other! And also Nod ofc, their scenes were my favorite!

Head Canon: he pops up at the hospital to grab lunch with Kingston and the other nurses are just like “Kingston your boy is here” and no one corrects them

Unpopular opinion: I’m not sure tbh? I have trouble with these cause I’m not sure what the popular opinions are

A wish- someone get that boy a sweater. Its New York in December he’s gonna FREEZE he needs a COAT

An oh-god-please-dont-ever-happen- no more toxic relationships! Let him thrive!

5 words to best describe them- unpredictable, wild, wonderful, passionate, reckless

My nickname for them- not a nickname but occasionaly i will see fanart and just go KING in my head. love that vox fantasma

QUEEN SACCHARINA

* Why I like them: it’s illegal for me not to fall in love with Emily’s PCs. Her backstory absolutely wrecked me! She’s trying so hard, she was without a family for so long and she found a family and then she was finally reunited with her blood family and it was weird and complicated and FCK she’s so good

* Why I don’t- Emily axford does no wrong

* Favorite episode (scene if movie)- finale! Holy shit that finale! (Also for scene, that first round of combat where she thunder steps and saves Joren. Holy fcking moly.)

* Favorite line: god it hurt me DEEPLY, but I can’t stop thinking about “you can be my sister or my queen, but you can’t be both” “then I choose to be your queen”

Favorite outfit- anything as long as she has a CROWN dang it

OTP- a loving home where she can spread magic and have PEACE

Brotp- Theo!! Axmurph were killing me this season!

Head Canon- one of the ways she bonds with her family is taking them on rides on Cinnamon! That feeling of freedom, of magic; it helps them understand her better, and it shows that they trust her. The first time Ruby goes flying with her, she tells her to hang on so they can do something cool, and Ruby instinctually wraps her arms around Saccharina. It’s the first time they hug. They don’t mention it, but they both get a little misty eyed.

Unpopular opinion- I really wanted a scene where she asked about Jet. She’s spent so long wanting a family, just to find out once again the church had taken the chance from her. i have some,, personal feelings about what that would be like and I really wish that her feelings about that had been explored a little more

A wish: oh let her be happy PLEASE. Her family may have gotten off on the wrong foot, but those bonds WILL grow

An oh-god-please-dont-ever-happen- if we had gotten the bad ending of them turning on each other,, oh god

5 words to best describe them- fierce, magical, powerful, resilient, strong

My nickname for them- I just love the nickname Rina for her!!

hey im a trans guy and your trans twins fic is unrealistic and transphobic as FUCK, please dont ever write that again, like reading that literally triggered my dysphoria which rarely happens anymore with that shit but holy fuck referring to a trans guy's chest like that is gross even if youre writing them sayin it. even if the mod who wrote it is a trans guy you should consider how triggering it can be for others. and idc if anons ask you for that, its fetishistic and insulting.

hey, sj here, resident nb salt. im opening this to say that we're sorry to have triggered any dysphoria. that's not really what this blog is all about, we're not really making content to offend people. in fact, we're here to make content we want to see. sam and i, the authors of the trans!andrew series (me being most of the trans twins content creator) created the series to look at something from a new perspective, to branch out from all the cis gay ships in our life.

that said, we're not responsible for what you read, just like you're not responsible for what message we want to portray in our works. our intentions for writing the series was for some kind of sexual freedom and representation. if it seemed fetishistic, insulting, transphobic, or unrealistic to you, then that's totally valid. but pinning us as being those traits for writing those things isn't fair for either of us.

if you'd noticed, we stopped the nsfw trans twins fics by june of 2017. by may, i'd been noticing that our anons and requesters began seeing the trans twins au as a kind of nsfw scapegoat and i wasn't about it so i told sam it was making me uncomfortable, they said they noticed it too, and we stopped writing it for people. if we had a whim to write more of it, then we'd do it without pressure. even without the sex.

if that doesn't clear some things out, i would be glad to discuss this off-anon. it'd be kind of one-sided if you just keep anon-ing us. if not, well, sorry but we won't be entertaining any of your messages on anon.

(also, shoutout to @stylishsquid for giving us messes some guidance while answering this. thanks for being our resident wife :*)

after ep 4 and the ‘best of islam’ clip, skam is still only showin the negative with islam im lmao what does julie think this is gonna teach her non-muslim/white audience??? that sana shouldn’t feel angry and superstitious abt people?? that if she stops looking for hate then she wont find it?? as if when she stops lookin for racism its just gonna randomly stop for her. idek??? whats goin on here??? this muslim rep is horrendous and im sayin this as a non-muslim but as someone who follows another religion.

skam this season has shown muslims to be angry, paranoid, cold, lonely, sad, out of place. they made sana feel the worst kinds of misery, feel extremely isolated to the point where they villianized her twice, first with the insta account and then emailing willhell, just bc she ‘wouldn’t open up.’

im not sayin muslims cant feel any of these emotions or go through terrible times, but this is a show supposed to entertain, educate and relate to a teenage audience, an audience which is already filled with misconceptions abt islam.

as faiza once said in one of her posts, there needs to be a balance, a balance between the good and the bad. show sana feeling lonely and isolated and frustrated and angry and in pain. but also show her overcome that. let sana speak, let sana’s friends speak, let them all talk about what’s been happening, not throw it under the rug and go “pheww well.. offscreen they all made up now onto the next plot!” like… you seriously put that much pain onto sana for us to just… never get to see a conversation between her and the girls??? and listen, idec if this conversation comes this week or next. it is wayyy too late and unrealistic. idc if everything is tied up nicely by the end, none of us will ever forget the bitterness we felt throughout the whole journey with the only reprive being small happy moments that still didn’t make sense in the first place bc its lack of continuity.

lastly, what i wanted to say before i really trailed off: we saw sana in the 'best of islam’ clip weeks back. the way sana spoke abt believing in Allah and how much peace and stability praying brings to her was basically the purest, most important clip of the season tbh. that’s what religion is, that’s what islam is and that’s what islam brings into sana’s life.

its absolutely normal and healthy for sana to question certain things in islam, to question things that she’s not too sure about. but to show someone as strong in her faith as sana is, to show her absolutely miserable and for islam to be the reason why all these shitty things are happening… to throw all these obstacles at her which in turn makes the audience feel like “ugh this islam is turnin out to not be bringin anythin good into sana’s life, yousef was right, all it brings is hate and conflict and sana can solve all this if she just speaks up!” is a horrible msg. this season literally shows more abt how islam is 'restricting’ sana and making her 'cold and condescending’ oh and let’s not forget… a 'bitch.’ ….

its as if islam is what’s bringing all this pain onto sana when it was mainly other people’s ignorance, racism and intolerance. as if islam isnt what’s giving sana true peace when she prays, gives her guidelines to follow that makes her remember to be a good person, makes her feel like she means something bc of her relationship with her faith. there’s just no balance this season, none at all. religion is not inherently a bad thing which only causes you pain bc trust me if islam only brought sana heartache and pain, i dont think she would still want to be a practicing muslim. but that’s the thing: islam isnt at fault for bringing her all this pain but that’s exactly the opposite and toxic point the audience comes to.

almost everybody has something within their religion that may conflict with their values and/or lifestyle. but religion is ultimately abt your own relationship and connection to g-d. and in sana’s case, islam is shown to be… not great for her bc she’s struggling (bc sure its not her environment thats makin her suffer most. sure jan)

lol anyways this is mainly unedited im just pissed. what a shame this season has turned out to be.

Season 5 Blarke Headcanons to Break Your Fucking Soul

I started writing these after the spoilers so I guess a few are canon already but whatever. This is what I’ve been crying about every night and screaming at @octanakin whenever she’ll listen. Join me in pain. Also, I know @asweetdeception told me to make bullet points sooooo....  Oh and feel free to use any of these for a fic, just tag me so I can cry about it!

Blarke

Bellamy finding Clarke’s cell while looking around the Ark (I don't care if it’s not on the ring let me live) and finally breaking down when he sees her art, sobbing and repeating how sorry he is for leaving her

Clarke keeping a tally of how many days they've been gone on the wall (its already canon this hoe is did that™)

Every year on the “anniversary” of losing Clarke, Bellamy sits by that window, looking down at Earth and has a drink for Clarke.

And every year he tells her he still misses her and he should've told her he loved her when he had the chance.

Similarly, every year Clarke sits under the stars and tells Maddie stories about the boy in the stars and their struggles on the ground and how he’s coming back for her one day.

One night, Raven finds him sitting in Clarke’s cell, staring at the wall. They sit all night and talk about Clarke and Finn and how you never really get over losing the person you love.

***I wouldn't be surprised if they started something but just know i don't want it because then they’ll use it as lazy writing to add tension to blarke in s5 and raven deserves better.

She talks to him on the radio every night, even if he can’t hear her. She says she wishes they had more time, they deserved more time, and when he comes back, they’ll get it. (again ALREADY CANON. kinda)

She doesn’t even know if they survived up there or not, but she believes in her friends, and she believes in Bellamy.

What neither of them know is that ALIE is still up there and she’s the one preventing her radio signal from getting through.

The first year was the worst for Bellamy. He had nightmares almost every night and was irritable with everyone until Raven sat him down and told him this isn't what Clarke would’ve wanted.

Clarke’s wall is covered in pictures of her friends, so she doesn’t forget what they look looked like. But there’s more of Bellamy than anyone else. 

They were supposed to go back after 5 years.

He was supposed to come back for her after five years.

On the sixth year that Bellamy has a drink for her, Raven joins him and they talk about how great she was. How much she loved them, and how hard she tried, and how proud she would be of him.

On the sixth year without him, Clarke lays in the grass, looking towards the stars, and wonders why he isn't back yet. Because he’s not dead, he can’t be dead. She talks to him like he can hear her. She asks him where he is, like always.

As Bellamy and Raven share memories and drink, the radio at his hip suddenly goes off. At first it’s a cloud of static. Then, he almost catches a voice.

Clarke cries.

They stare at each other wide eyed, and scramble to hold the radio closer. They think they catch a woman asking “where are you?” Then the radio goes quiet, like she was never there. Bellamy doesn’t realize he’s shaking. He whispers her name. (highkey this is how i want the s5 premier to end even if the finale kinda trashed it idc this is my dream)

Clarke imagines a night where she does hear his voice talking back to her. It’s how she gets to sleep.

They don’t sleep for 3 days trying to find the radio signal again. They don't.

Nobody else believes him. They don’t think they should try to go down yet. It could've been anyone. Maybe he just heard something, he was drinking.

“I left her once, I’m not leaving her again. If there is even the slightest chance that was her voice and she is still alive down there, WE ARE GOING BACK.”

Raven has his back though and says they’re going to get her because she’s a true hoe *sunglasses emoji*

Personally, I’m thinking that ship is the mining colony everyone freaked out about in the articles, but I’m also totally on board for our delinquents to be with them, because I'm impatient.

When she sees him again its like he was never gone. He steps forward and his hair is just a little longer, he's got more wrinkles around his eyes. But it’s him.

When he sees her after 6 years its like seeing a ghost. Her hair is shorter and skin is dirtier, but then she smiles at him and its her.

They crash together and it feels like those six years never happened. They’re both crying and holding each other as close as they can get and he’s whispering apologies in her hair and she’s mouthing forgiveness into his shoulder. 

He immediately bonds with Maddie and Dad Mode™ activates. (Boy’s been in space without kids around for like 6 years, he's having withdrawals)

Delinquents

Emori gets pregnant and Murphy loses his shit because he’s not ready for that. Have you met him??

Uncle Bellamy is always there to help though

They make contact with the mining colony around year 3. There’s a sassy, headstrong captain thats got a thing for our own Raven Reyes (male or female i don't care someone just come along and put my girl first) and Bellamy won't stop teasing her about it.

Eggs is still trying to get into Bellboy’s pants and he’s still having none of it, but he oddly enough finds her easier to talk to, since he doesn’t really give a fuck about her opinion.

Monty finds Bellamy at the window one night and they both make a toast to their fallen friends. Bellamy tells jokes about all of Jasper’s pranks. Monty laughs about how everyone used to call them Mom and Dad. 

Bellamy gets hit in the head one day and gets selective amnesia where he forgets he ever had a sister. No one reminds him because they all hate her too. Bellamy is finally free of the white devil.

Its basically a hot mess the first month and Murphy won’t stop making jokes about drinking Bellamy’s piss.

Emori and Eggo are still amazed by everything 24/7

Raven takes on Emori as her new best friend and apprentice and they like to tease Murphy about being a shithead. I just want Emori to be friends with all the delinquents and finally have a family. (But Raven most of all.)

Harper is the first delinquent to try and actually befriend Eggo because she’s a ray of sunshine and its awkward at first, but they're cool now.

Monty helps the mining colony grow weed and then he smokes one out for Jasper.

Anyway, that’s what I’ve been crying about. Probably add more as the hiatus goes on, and I cannot stress this enough THESE ARE HEAD CANONS. WHILE I MAY REALLY WANT SOME OF THEM TO HAPPEN THIS ISNT ALL SPECULATION OR A DONE DEAL. THIS IS JUST WHAT I IMAGINE TO AVOID THE TEARS. So plz don't come at me telling me I’m being unrealistic, I know I am. 

Wtf? ''Kaneki is only with Touka because Hide is dead''. I'm anti touken but that's bullshit. They're friends, just friends. Kaneki's never showed any romantic interest in Hide (or anyone else, including Touka, in series).

You know, that post was just me being salty and any other day I would just shrug it off and and answer this as: yeah idc. 

But… People keeps insisting Hide and Kaneki are only friends. It’s funny to me, because it makes me think they all see their friend the same way Kaneki sees Hide, but the way Kaneki sees Hide is so utterly romantic? 

Maybe it just come from how I understand the world. In the end, that’s it, every interpretation is proyecting in some way or another. But I have little friends. Close ones? Probs ten, that including online folks. When I got into high school, I was friendless, zero. In the last year I met this wonderful people, a girl and a boy. They became my best friends. 

And even when we moved, I never felt “consumed by the desire to see them again.”

Because in friendship, closeness doesn’t really matter. You miss your friends and you want to be close with them, and goddamn, sometimes I wish I could have them every day next to me. But to be “consumed by the desire to see them again”?? 

That’s such a heavy shit. 

It sounds so romantic as well. I don’t know. Even if I felt that way, I think I could never said it out loud. Unless of course I don’t mind being romantically involved with them. You can say indeed that Kaneki is just being too nostalgic, that he only sees Hide as a bro (btw, I wouldn’t talk about my actual brother this way either, even though I miss him). But it is just so funny to me that a literature student talks about their friend in such a romantic way. Kaneki should know what the words mean and in which context they can be used. 

Then there is the fact that this was said and then IMMEDIATLY after Touka kissed him. 

Let me ask you a question, there would be any doubt in a narrative that a character is second plate, if Kaneki were talking about how much he misses Hinata-chan, his female childhood friend, and then Touka immediatly kisses him? 

And there is also the fact that Kaneki felt “so lonely without him”, that Kaneki thinks that if it weren’t for Hide he wouldn’t even make it, that he says in a light novel: “–But up until now, we’ve been together… maybe this sounds a little dramatic, but to me his existence is something I depend on as much as my heart… If that sort of thing were to disappear, I wouldn’t have anywhere to belong to.”It is the fact that Rize as a hallucination, and as such, Kaneki himself, told him “and your precious Hide-kun” as a separate entity of all his friends”

It is the fact that Hide is literally the person he wants to be, there has been thousand of metas about how Haise was, in many ways, a mimick of Hide, and while I don’t completely agree, I do think Haise is too entusiastic and Hide-like to be a coincidence. 

Yeah. Kaneki totally sees Hide as a bro. Kaneki is a super heterosexual dude who has never wished anything more of his sunshine friend, the guy who literally and figurative has saved him from insanity, more than once. 

Let’s also not forget that tg root a, Ishida approved even if they cut all the good stuff, gaves us an ending where Kaneki explicitely chooses Hide over Touka. 

(We’ll always have that shitty anime adaptation. And the good music).

I don’t even have to make this shit up. It’s rght there in the text. Hidekane couldn’t be more romantic, and if Hide had a pair of boobs, you’ll see his sacrifices for Kaneki went beyond friendship too (but we’re talking about Kaneki, not Hide). It just annoys me, because if you change any of their genders, they would be the endgame pairing, the pairing you’re clear it’s gonna become canon at the end of the story, people wouldn’t be giving up their hopes on a Hide return, they would be certain that it would happen any day, because shipping. 

But they’re both dudes, and thousand of people keep seeing this guys who would sell the world and themselves for each other, who literally see/saw each other as the reason to keep living (explicitly from Kaneki’s part and implicitly on Hide’s) as a purely platonic friendship. 

Sure, right. 

Man, you guys do have intense friendships. And I thought I was too gay with my best friend. Kudos on you for having relationships this intense. I personally don’t, which may be why I’m biased. My bad. 

To be honest, I’m not really mad that people doesn’t think there is such thing in the text or they don’t like it, that’s okay, I don’t think everyone has to believe Hidekane ever stood a chance. But it does annoys me a bit that people doesn’t even see why people ship Hidekane, as if a strong friendship that develops into romance wasn’t a beautiful concept. 

I’m not saying that Hide being the only thing keeping Kaneki alive is truth now, because it isn’t. Kaneki has a lot of friends now, Kaneki loves them, and Kaneki knows this. But if you think Kaneki has forgotten Hide in any way or form or that Hide isn’t still the most important person in his mind, well, I don’t know, it’s okay that you think that, because, duh, it’s fiction and you can interpret it however you like. But if we know something of Kaneki, is that he feels intensily, and I just find unrealistic that he moves Hide out of that dear place. But again, my interpretation, my gross powerful proyecting. 

Also, you’re technically incorrect. Just because Kaneki clearly didn’t want to be with Touka by the end of TG, doesn’t mean he didn’t have a romantic interest for her at one point. He did. And he does now again, no matter if we think is ooc or incorrect or narratively ecky. Kaneki loves Touka, finito, the text says so. And he also had a crush on her as Haise, there’s that.  

And he has also shown romantic interest to Rize. And you could even argue than Tsukiyama, with intense shipping googles of course, but you can still argue it. xd

(sorry for the mistakes, english is not my first language and i’m a bit busy to edit). 

it’s not that one, it’s just a random one, enjoy.

You know the fact that "just YOU were calling me or texting me" doesn't say anything. Those are some statements which u wrote to feel more relieved. Dunno why im writing this shit-text, don't even ask. Anyway, we know perfectly that the calling stuff was by reason of you being bored, or because u had something to share with///feeling shit and needed some compassion, comfort or whatever, even if you will not acknowledge this.idc.this shit is how it is. We're not lovers. We're not strangers. We're not friends. We're not "no one/nobody". We are. We are just we or I don't know how to express myself atm. Let me roll a cig. U asked me once what I dislike about you. You know perfectly that I am weak and I don't have so much courage,  and that it's very hard for me to open up or to express myself, especially after i moved to German, my confidence went to minus five thousand. The thing that I dislike is that you don't know yourself or don't know which part of you to be. Idc if you will get it wrong, im too exhausted, but read thoughtfully. It's not about the career, abilities, hobbies, and other shit. It's about being you and just you. You are kind when you don't need to be and you're not when you need to be, you don't prioritize and you don't see the world around yourself. I'm not mean now, I'm not telling you that being selfish is super bad, but don't be just self-centered when you can accomplish so many things and not to be ultra egotistical. I know that many people told you that you are cold and you don't care and blah blah blah, it's not like I do give a fuck about their statements, but I do about you and I know that you are so much better. But anyway, don't stop to listen to people opinions, it doesn't mean that you have to take it close to your heart, you just need to go through them and to make a conclusion. Why I'm telling you this? It's because we cannot see ourselves, but people can. They can see our actions, how we do things and et cetera. So yeah, what else. Don't forget to give and not only to ask. Or perhaps I'm just being selfish, maybe is the way in which I see you and I got to know you. But at least I know that the thing about priority is true. I never was one. I can be wrong. And no dear, it's not a confession. By the way, I never could imagine being in a relationship with you, it's so unrealistic, nonsensical, unachievable, impractical, unreachable whatever, call it how you want. But that feeling is so distant. Never could picture that we can be by each other's side, or calling you somehow special, like no one called you ever, or it’s more strange for me seeing u calling me somehow, damn, i think i got used to the things how are they now, and that is the main thing limiting me. I cannot see you supporting me, cooking together, sleeping or other activity which a normal couple is doing. I know that I'm not in love with you, i just cannot. Oh, this stuff is kinda offtopic, but let me continue, actually i never share these thoughts with you. They seemed so insignificant to me, like not so important to share. And they don't appear so often. Much more when im overthinking. But why not, it's 2-4 o'clock, the vulnerability time, or? I never told you that in front of my eyes you're my right person. I don't know you, meanwhile, I know you perfectly. Starting with appearance. You know that you're attractive, like very attractive. Your eyes, your smile, even the nose which you hate, your voice all of it. You're compassionate and the fact that you're still reading this prove that. You're unique. You're actually one of a kind. You're capable and talented and you may not see it because your talents are so ingrained in who you are, but your talents are impressive, just give it some more time. You're funny. Whether it's dry humor, dark or whatever, sun, you have a great sense of humor and don't even try to lie to me and say you've never made someone laugh, including yourself. At least u made me laugh so it means you are a  funny bitch :з, no more questions. You're sexy. Whether it's your jawline, your forearms, your legs, your hair, the way you walk... believe me you've made people undress you in their mind, and it probably happens fairly often. And at last but not least you're intelligent. I don't care if you are  1 class back or u have bad marks. You know things that no one else has even thought about because your interests, experiences, and knowledge are unique to you. You matter and you are special. Are you ready for more drama? here we go. We know each other for some years and we didn't spend so much time together, despite the fact that we were living in the same neighborhood. But you know what?  I can proudly say that I know you, I can see your flaws, your kindness, I can see fully that part of you which shapes you as you are. baaah so fucking confusing. Even if we weren't together, even if we didn't invest so much time into our "whatever" relationship(i think that u know that a relationship is not just a passion one.), I can say that i know you. And you know why you know perfectly why. Both of us are the same. It's boring and exciting at the same time. Eh, right person, wrong time. This phrase is so freakin' dull. I hate it, it's so fucking mainstreamed. My legs are cold. Anyway, that expression about time blah blah blah has more meanings and just the love one.  A medium one. :) So, I say that "we have a lot of growing to do", and I'm not wrong. Still, sometimes i hope that my creativity will extend and i will see a potential outcome that will keep me warm meanwhile I cannot see, touch, or speak to you. But at the same time, i don't want to bear those almost unbearable thoughts like "what if i will never reach the point of becoming the "ultimate person" in your eyes?" and "what if my personal growth takes me to a place where you can't come with me?" or "what if all works out?" And so on. Sometimes I wish you were the wrong person for me. Losing the wrong person isn't as hard as waiting for the right one to be ready.

You’re important. You matter for me. I don’t want to lose you.

Even not I still remember that unforgettable feeling when I left my country, the last minutes with you. I recall how you slipped your arms around me. You were perfectly kind and fragile. The hug. You melted into me like it was the last day of seeing me. You sweetly told me something, and i remember your voice. Even the pitch of your voice changed into something tender and husky. An uncommon pleasure.

I said nothing about the kiss. As you know I treasure more cuddle and hug than a kiss. And kinda didn't want to touch that topic. Idk, but it's kinda sad that I just felt a connection and just im remembering about it.

Perhaps i was wrong.

I'm not starting anything now, not pointing at anything, it is just a night of my thoughts, I decided to share them with you. A night when I was sensitive.

e 4:26 si stau pe tumblr acu, am inceput sa sriu la 1:19, chiar daca a fost un flux de ganduri, am mai recitit si am sters/editat. pe langa asta am vrut sa fie si corect gramatical. 

-i have an anxiety attack after posting this shit, dunno i feel like u will laugh, idk rlly idk. After you will read this post don't call me or text me. Try to act like u saw nothing. Would u?)

-or?