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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 7 months

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Parallel Lines and Brothers.

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #jiang cheng #lan wangji #lan xichen #jin zixuan #Does anyone else think about the tragedy of the parallel lines? Of characters who are parallel lines?#Of running the same course as someone. Of echoing each other in perfect synchronicity.#It's more than being a foil. It's about being on the same path and being so near to each other.#and yet parallel lines never intersect. They cannot meet each other despite their existence being tied to another.#I think the brothers tragedy is just as much of a tragedy of parallel lines as is pre-resurrection wangxian.#Jiang Cheng and Wei Wuxian spend so much time running side by side and yet - they cant close this gap between them.#Even if their relationship never recovers - they are forever tied together through their past. The good and bad and ugly.#All the things that are left unsaid between them. All the love and sacrifices they made for each other that are never shared. Parallel line #I firmly believe any post-canon material that would have them be indifferent towards each other is just...really doing them a disservice.#And dear god the Lan brothers. They certainly love each other! Its a far fonder fraternal relationship than jiangxian (/platonic)#They fool you by having you think they have a good read on each other. Lan Xichen certainly wingmans + advocates for lwj!#But lets not forget - Lan Xichen by the end is in the reverse situation and headspace as Lan Wangji by the end of this story.#Lan Wangji is more free and open than he has ever been. He's in love. He's married. He and wwx are intersecting lines.#& LXC who grew up with and lived the same path as LWJ - who even is said to resemble him visually - his parallel line - shuts himself away #Despite all the love LWJ has for his brother I don't think he ever manages to reach him.

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lunarharp · 1 year

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into the deep end - 30k T orufrey fic, focusing on memory trauma, disability, and romance.

the sweet oblivion of the victim, the poisoned freedom of the other.

for one moment - it had felt like two parts returned - the needed reunion of two disparate halves. no more secrets, no more pain.

the moment you get to give back what you never wanted to take. that moment, under the night-blooming flowers, when they had both let out the same single broken sigh of relief.

but they were never whole to begin with, were they?

qifrey swore he wouldn't say 'sorry' to this man any more if he could help it - sorry is cheap now. he didn't want to be in a position ever again where you only have 'sorry' left. so he just looks down into the threads of his blanket, strains his eye until it hurts, feeling his insides - his throat, heart and head - burn with pain. he expects more, but olly says nothing.

olly says nothing.

#witch hat tag #orufrey #sorry i wanted to make a new post for my fic since the first illustration is new.#*stands in the middle of a desolate field in the pouring rain* Please Read My Tale...Blease..Oh god please..*collapses to the ground*#someone asked if there's spoilers in it. Um...yes. Sorry...it's about everything #maybe i should describe it more? it's about qifrey becoming more and more disabled - as i feel is his canon trajectory #and both of them processing the choices that have been made. it was necessary for me to explore this in order to fully understand orufrey #and for them to have the cathartic conclusion-that's why this is important to me for my witch hat fanwork making life. this connects it all #and having dived into qifrey's mind and lived through oru's feelings i was able to get to a place that is possible for them.#the hit/kudos ratio is so pathetic idek what happened. ppl opening it realising its long and saving it for later or just bailing lmfao #idek any more i hate advertising my writing i hate trying to get more ppl to read my long fics it's so hard 🥲#i'm so much prouder of this than my art...i was able to sink deeply into the orufrey feelings i had always wanted to fully explore #so. it's there lol.........i reread the date/kiss segment today after trying to forget about it thinking maybe the fic is just BAD lol #and like.....nope! i like it very much and this is what i was trying to get across. and it's always there to be read by anyone who wants to #and i will always remember the bliss i felt while writing when i was just lost in their world and living as them. dear GOD i love them.#i'm grateful to myself that i put in the work and love to make this so that i can always come back to it. i wanna illustrate scenes properly #but i'm never satisfied with drawing things i've written because i just can't capture the vivid experience in my mind. maybe one day.

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mwagneto · 3 months

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dick turpin show dares to ask the question, "what if ofmd was really really bad"

#it took me and araf like 3 hours to get through these coz we kept having to pause every 10 seconds in disbelief #like omg i thought it was gonna be similar but that they were just trying to get in on the genre hype #no it's. beat by beat the exact same show im going insane💀#i love how like 90% of things happen for LITERALLY no reason other than they happened in ofmd nsnxsjdjdn😭😭😭#jesus CHRISTTTT JUST PICK UP OFMD THEN. IT'S RIGHT THERE #the completely made up adventures of dick turpin #tcmuaodt #dear god this title sucks

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fromthegraveyard · 6 months

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why didn't anyone make a destiel meme about spn possibly coming back i can't believe i had to find out about this the normal way

#destiel #spn #supernatural #also dear god why won't you let this show DIE?#it's almost funny that the characters that kept being brought back to life against their will #are part of a show that keeps coming back to life against everyone's will #did you read that?? ALMOST #listen i love spn so much i grew up with this show it is so special to me and recently i've been getting full on obsessed with it again #BUT IT'S OVER LET IT DIE #the ending was absolute shit so just leave it as it is #stop trying to add on to it “the winchesters” made it clear that it doesn't work #just please leave spn alone you guys have fucked it over again and again after season six just let it REST #that said yes i will at least try to watch if it does come back #but i couldn't get through the first few minutes of “the winchesters” so possibly the same thing will happen again

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tragedykery · 1 year

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screaming at the top of my lungs TANÉ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ok that’s all

#the priory of the orange tree #miduchi tané #tané #roots of chaos #tpotot #I am. sososo normal about her #girl who just read the part where nayimathun and tané talk after tané has rescued her voice I have a normal amount of feelings about this #just. god tané and nayimathun is so so so dear to me #tané’s self-hatred and guilt and fear and feeling of unworthiness (and let’s be real depression) and how nayimathun helps her through it #she cares for her and helps her and accepts her for who she is and what she has done #even if she is ‘impure’ and she has made mistakes and hurt people #she is worthy. she has the blood of the sea and the sea is not always pure. she has a dragon’s heart.#just. god. I love their relationship so much and both times tané loses nayimathun always nearly break me #r #roc #where’s that post I made about her #elli rambles

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swordsonnet · 4 months

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i made a fox! (pattern here, though i took some liberties with it)

#it's not perfect obvs but i think it's kinda cute :)#and i definitely learned a lot - if only because i had to redo multiple parts because they didn't look right #esp the embroidery on the nose. oh dear god the embroidery. thing is: i don't actually know how to embroider #it would've probably been easier if i'd just googled it but instead i insisted on learning through trial and error #the end result still looks a bit clumsy but trust me it's leagues above my first attempt #made this as a birthday present for my mum :)#crochet #crochetblr #amigurumi

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missingn000 · 1 year

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we all have that friend we talk to a normal amount

#was scrolling through chat history & the top one made me crack up and prompted me to search for call times and. dear god lmao #it is perhaps unsurprising that this is the friend who knows 95% of the rest of tpg #putting the 3 hour one on the collage i was like ''whoa that call was so short''#anyway how the fuck do i not have a #lin tag

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arolesbianism · 1 month

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Yet another beautiful day to have the Maxwel tag blocked (can't see half of the posts in the Wendy tags)

#rat rambles #starve posting #maxwell posters have lost any semblance of tolerance from me ages ago Ive yet to meet a maxwell fan who's just like a normal person #and to clarify I actually do like maxwel as I am the number one just some asshole whos in too deep enjoyer #but dear god are ppl just absolutely incapable of being normal abt this man and everyone around him #and even beyond that ppl just do not get this man like please he is indeed interesting but not because of some 'retconed redemption'#like pls we can live in a world where he is not an irridemable monster and is in fact just some guy while also still being a flawed person #like the fact that he is so deeply flawed in ways that he never actually properly adressed and challenged is the interesting thing to me #like look at me. he went through horrible shit he didnt deserve. that didnt inherently make him a better or worse person #it just made him a more miserable person #and he didnt escape because of some change of heart or character development #and afterwards he teamed up with wilson because of necessity #I do think on some level he genuinely cares abt the other survivors and he does have genuine regret for how things turned out #but again those things dont inherently mean he moved past the flaws that got him here it just means he has the ability to recognize that #shit sucks and that he wish none of it happened #its why encore is one of my favorite animations from a character perspective because it shows some juicy charlie and maxwell stuff #mainly it shows both that charlie has not forgiven his ass and is manipulating him and that maxwell is still susceptible to it #which isnt a sigh of them rolling back development it's just a sign that maxwell is easy to manipulate with the right cards #which adds up considering his past and his present very well in my opinion #this is a man whos historically always ran away from his problems and is always on the hunt for a sense of control #and charlie tapped into both that and his ever present guilt #its in fact very unsurprising and not out of place for him to fall for that sort of manipulation #and it also makes for a great set up for the inevitable betrayal from charlie as maxwell is hit by the harsh reality of his situation #and that whole situation would lead to some yummy tasty parallels when charlie inevitably gets betrayed herself (I hope)#the ways charlie and maxwel are so similar yet so different facinates me deeply I love how much charlie doesnt realize shes kinda fucked #I want her to be betrayed so hard and left in the dust with no ground to stand on I want the rug pulled out from under her feet #her composition comes from her confidence in the necessity of her actions and the moral superiority she feels over maxwell #so having her sense of superiority be revoked would make for a super fascinating dynamic as she tries to justify the situation in her head #I wanna see her siral and then maybe change her pronouns idk

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ask-artsy-oncie · 11 months

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I honestly wonder if Ty is going to get people acting in the same “soft baby sadboi who is ILLEGAL to hurt in even the most slapstick of slapstick ways, who should never face the consequences of his actions ever, who can do no wrong” way they did was Louie, simply because he has a sad backstory.

#Hell no I'm not tagging this it's too mean. I'm honestly curious though because I know how bad this fandom can be.#God imagine if Ty had a mother who made mistakes/was imperfect/(god forbid) parented him. The bloodshed...#Listen I love Ty and I (jokingly) want everyone to be nice to him always #but if he gets Louie treatment I'd be so frustrated lmfao.#Dear god what if people did the same 'calling him by his full name is misgendering and therefore violence' bullshit people did with Louie #EVEN THOUGH LLEWELLYN IS A BOY'S NAME AND PEOPLE JUST ASSUMED IT WAS A GIRL'S NAME.#So much bullshit... so much bullshit I've waded through....#vent #kinda...? it's really more like. preemptive curiosity that is mildly funny to ponder and less fun to experience #kinda like the concept of Talespin Discourse before 2021 happened

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kimjiwoong · 11 months

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I can't separate art from artist by the way especially when the artist was someone I really enjoyed listening to as a person. sigh

#sometimes white men are disappointing #even when they make songs that truly mean shit to me #if i believe you and love it if we made it are just some of the songs that have helped me go through so much shit #i remember hugging a stranger when i saw them live and we were both crying out hearts out to love it if we made it #their entire discography is really dear to me #nana!!! god that song is so dear to me #im so pissed and bitter and sad when i think abt him #sigh anyways #it's not a big deal but :/#rose.txt

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soutsuji · 5 months

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I like how Kiyohara Hiro transed Kawaminami's gender in the manga adaptation, and then Ayatsuji Yukito was basically like "oh okay yeah you're right, she's a girl". It's so funny to me

#.txt #decagon house #mansion murders/yakata series #god the mystery club truly is just a safe haven for a bunch of queer weirdos #i think at one point i tried drawing a chart of whatever bizarre subtext is going on between those guys #unfortunately i lost it #i wish kodansha would release physical copies of the manga just so that i could have them on my shelf #and so that i could flip through those 4 panel bonus comics at the end whenever i pleased #because those are so so dear to me #kiyohara looked at a relatively well known mystery novel and went 'okay but what if i made this story HURT'#fleshed out the characters. gave them lives #aughhhhh #i need to reread both the manga adaptation and the original novel #just so that i could compare them side by side more #jukkakukan no satsujin #kawaminami akira/conan doyle #kawaminami takaaki #decagonposting

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dragonheirs · 10 months

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between jim butcher and stephen king I'm never reading another male fantasy author again

#mostly hyperbolic but dear god.#granted dresden files is not as overtly painful as it was early in the series #but the last book has made me realize. just because it's not overt doesn't mean he's not still #Weird about women #and what I read of king was his 80s dark tower stuff but #sir what the FUCK #anyways never touching that series again #and probably any other of his books #I'm trying to get through the first alera book of butcher's and just #I don't think I can

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silhouettecrow · 10 months

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365 Days of Writing Prompts: Day 217

Adjective: Earthy

Noun: Lung

Definitions for those who need/want them:

Earthy: resembling or suggestive of earth or soil; (of a person or their language) direct and uninhibited, especially about sexual subjects or bodily functions

Lung: each of the pair of organs situated within the rib cage, consisting of elastic sacs with branching passages into which air is drawn, so that oxygen can pass into the blood and carbon dioxide be removed, and lungs are characteristic of vertebrates other than fish, though similar structures are present in some other animal groups; an open space in a town or city, where people can breathe fresher air

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snailfen · 1 year

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the gourmand experience thus far: rotundness

#rain world downpour spoilers #rain world spoilers #FINALLY MADE A DENT OF PROGRESS IN DIRECTION. holy shit #but um most of my grocery list is done! a lot of stuff i needed was in shoreline. i also ran into an orange lizard in shaded citadel..???#im guessing it was a lineage step. cus i killed and ate a mole lizard for the list a cycle earlier. iirc orange lizards dont normally spawn #in shaded #ALSO MIRAHEZE UPDATED. thankfully you dont HAVE to kill a red centipede for the list! its either that or an aquapede. whew #so anyways i just went for that in shoreline #got a cyan in industrial #decided to make a quick stop at sky islands before heading to fp??? for some reason. took forever to find an eggbug jesus #its so funny what pebs says to gourmand. Gluttonous Beast..... rotundness. hehe #anyways i unlocked slugpups early through the cheats menu but never found any on survivor/monk. i ran into one at a karma gate shelter help #ITS FUNNY CUS I SAW PIPE LIGHTS INDICATING THAT SOMETHING LEFT WHEN I ENTERED THE SHELTER. IM AT THE TOP OF CANOPY #fucking NOTHING gets up there. so i popped back out. saw nothing. figured it was just a batfly. went back in. boom. baby jumpscare #so um. i have a baby now!!! im on my way to subterranean and i have two items left. so smooth sailing from here #still need to come up with a name for the little guy.... i wanna do a title like the campaign slugcats? theyre a white slugpup #oh god i have to be responsible for them the entire way. if i run into another one ill cry cus i wont be able to leave it there #but dear god the difficulty will Not be Fun. why am i like this.#mossball.txt #nebi gaming moment #the gourmand

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thiswaycomessomethingwicked · 1 year

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‘What are your plans?’ Jocelyn makes a vague gesture. ‘Do you have somewhere to stay? You’re an Assassin, so I presume you are able to procure employment.’

‘Oh, right,’ Downey accepts the brandy. Amber liquid catching in amber light. He thinks that for all his reptilian nature, Jocelyn is remarkably handsome. Calm, too. Cool. A glacier. Downey feels as if spring melt-water were washing over him reminding him that there is an earth and ground and water beneath that ground and he should perhaps plant his feet on still soil upon occasion. ‘I’ve a room at the Guild, and yes there’s some employment. Teaching,’ he pulls a preemptive face, in case Jocelyn should sneer at the lowliness of it. ‘Though I don’t have my first class for another few weeks.’

‘Honourable profession,’ Jocelyn replies. ‘But one you’ll need to keep your nose clean for or you’ll lose it faster than you can blink.’

‘I know,’ Downey scowls. ‘I’m not entirely stupid. Though I find it repugnant that I am expected to follow laws and strictures that I do not think worthy of my adherence. Rules are only to be followed so long as they serve as a means to an end.’ He pauses to sip the brandy which is, when he goes to the bottle, thirty years old. Gods, Jocelyn doesn’t shirk on the pleasures in life. Downey admires this in him. ‘Indeed, I’m rather convinced that no one became a great assassin by always obeying the rules��our own of the Guild or laws more broadly. On the other hand, no one ever became a great assassin by disobeying rules and getting caught.’

‘An admirable, if somewhat dubious mindset.’

Downey out here with the morals of an alley-cat. Granted, Downey’s rebound Jocelyn can hardly speak.

#Downey is like: what if I fuck my father's best friend? would that be a good life choice?#In present day Vetinari is like: I'm sorry you slept with your potential future father in law who was your father's friend #in order to get revenge on your father?#Did I understand that correctly?#And Downey is like: hmmm yeah 20-year-old me really made some Peak Decisions.#Vetinari stares into the camera like he's on the office #Downey: so listen babe - I was Going Through It and he was present and willing and all in all not the worst decision I made that summer #Vetinari: oh dear gods what other decisions did you make that summer #Downey: so many. luckily I was drunk for much of it so only have passing memories of them most of which are blurry #at some point he got his head screwed on correctly #and his life sorted out #thus always the redux #writing #discworld #lord downey

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syssyadmin · 2 years

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you know, the hurricane magnitude scale only goes from categories 1 - 5 based on wind speed, meanwhile the richter* magnitude scale goes from 1 - 9+ on a logarithmic scale

and my point is. i’ve been through CAT5 tummy events before but i’m starting to think this one’s more of a richter 7. maybe more

#*richter scale is not exactly what's used today. but the name is still used often enough anyway #ANYWAY CAN MY TUMMY PLEASE STOP..#doctor made me go off my AR med for a week and immediately started throwing up again #now i actually get to see a GI (eventually??) and have my meds back but. please please. i can only sleep through so many days #and i like. need to find a job and shit before i run out of money.. dear god

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