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kingdomheartsmarts · 7 months

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I know I don't really post on here too often anymore. I still love Kingdom Hearts, I just haven't had any KH juice recently but I wanted to put this here since my love of Kingdom Hearts birthed this blog.

I've loved kingdom hearts since I was a kid. I really loved watching my brother play and it was enough of everything to be magical. I got older. I went through hell. And Kingdom Hearts got me through it. My grandma died, my uncle died, my other uncle died, my grandpa fell, my grandpa got worse, my grandpa died, my mom got cancer, my dad went through work hell, my brother was dealing with a lot, my mom lost her job of almost 40 years, we lost my step-grandmother, I lost an aunt and uncle to COVID, and I always ended up running back to Kingdom Hearts as an escape and comfort.

I started this blog in high school. It was before COVID and I was trying to be happy with myself and learn my way through life. The pandemic happened and all in all, I had it better than a lot of people.

Since 2020-2021, I really haven't had that fire I had to write for Kingdom Hearts, but I've still loved it. So here I am today.

I have an unfortunate cynical view that whenever my life feels too good, some tragedy comes and ruins me. And that happened this week.

My family is quite tight-knit, for the better and worse, and this last Thursday, after a family shopping trip, my brother's dog passed away very suddenly. She was 3. And It's been really hard. We got her in the pandemic and she was a lot of love we needed through our misery. And we lost her, suddenly, without warning, and without real foreseen reason. And it's so fucking hard. I keep hearing my brother when he was told; I keep hearing him crying and wailing while I went back out through sobs and got the rest of the groceries. And then I went and I sat at a spot I went to as a child. I used to have a shitty little kindle where I would listen to a piano cover album of Kingdom Hearts music, and I just sat. And that day I sat and I just. Sobbed. And these last few nights I've been having to listen to Dearly Beloved to get by. To cry, to mourn, to move forward. I hate it.

I hate that I keep reliving when I was told, I hate I keep thinking about her, I hate that I feel trapped in my mourning because that's my only option, I hate it so fucking much. But. There's that little, almost childlike comfort, that Kingdom Hearts has given me through that.

I have to mourn. I wish I didn't have a brain like a checklist, but I do, and I have to fully mourn to move on and I know it and I don't want to. I don't want to have to move on. At the same time, I have to be strong. I'm the one who takes care of the house, who takes care of our other animals, who cleans for the most part. It's me. And I'm forced to keep going even when I want to break down.

It's going to be hard for a while now. It's hell. I can't go to sleep without crying. My glasses keep getting cried tears on them.

I guess what I'm trying to say is this blog helped me to love Kingdom Hearts a lot more than I probably would have, and that's come back to help me now. I don't even know what I"m trying to say, but. I'm typing this through tears while a Megamind fanart stares me down in the bottom corner. I feel like that's a true tumblr experience.

I guess I just want to say thank you for letting me love this with all of you. Thank you for giving me a place to escape to and grow and learn and be myself when I didn't have anywhere else to go.

#kingdom hearts #kingdom hearts blog #kingdom hearts 2 #kingdom hearts ii #dearly beloved #the only way to move past hell and to get through hell is to just keep going #and fuck i don't want to do that #but i have to #and I'll be okay on the other side #but for now I'll listen to dearly beloved with rain in the background for the next few hours.#tw animal death #tw pet death #tw animal loss #tw pet loss #tw loss #tw death

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lume-nosity · 6 months

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JFDSJFLDSKJF LUME HAVE I EvER MENTIONED STRAIGHT UP HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU LIKE YOU WERE THE FIRST PERSON I ACTIVELY FOLLOWED AFTER MY FEW DaYS ON TUMBLR AND I WAS SO SCARED TO ASK TO BE YOUR MOOTIE BUT YOU WERE SO NICE AND I AM STILL TO THIS DAY SO HAPPY WHENEVER I GET A NOTIF SAYING THAT yOUVE SAID SOMETHING COMPLETLEY UNHEARD OF ABySYmAL IMPROBABLE AND PROBABLY SOCIALLY UNNACEPTABLE BUT I STILL LVOE YOU BECAUSE YOURE JUST BEING A SILLY GOOSE AND WE ARE ALL SILLY GOOSES ?!?!

this made me have the biggest smile ever and the day hasn’t even started yet.. that’s something. basically i just woke up and smiled really big :) it’s a good feeling but ahem. this’ll be quite long so bear with me.

MELONNNN MY SWEET FELLOW (NORMAL) XIAO SIMP LOVER I LOVE YOU TOO SOSOSOSO MUCH I’M SUPER GLAD I WAS THE FIRST PERSON YOU ACTIVELY FOLLOW WHEN YOU FIRST STARTED HERE!! DON’T EVER BE SCARED TO TALK TO ME ABOUT ANYTHING, POP IN MY INBOX, OR WHATEVER ELSE BECAUSE INTERACTING WITH PEOPLE IS MY FORTE (NOT IRL THOUGH THAT’S A GIVEN BUT YOU GET WHAT I MEAN)

I LOVE MAKING NEW MUTUALS SO NOOOO DON’T BE SCARED TO ASK IF YOU WANT TO BE MUTUALS WITH ME THIS GOES FOR ANYONE TOO BECAUSE I LIKE MEETING NEW PEOPLE HERE REGARDLESS OF WHERE THEY STAND IN THEIR PLATFORM <3 JUST PICKING MUTUALS UP TO BE ONE OF MY CHILDREN PLATONICALLY BECAUSE SOME SEE ME AS A PARENTAL FIGURE (MAKES SENSE BECAUSE I’M OLD AND WRINKLING ALREADY MY INTELLIGENCE LEVELS ARE ACTIVELY DROPPING) OR JUST GOOD FRIENDS TO MESS AROUND WITH AND HAVE A GOOD TIME I SUPPOSE, SEE ME AS A PARENT, COOL, A NICE FRIEND, COOL, A TALENTED WRITER EVEN THOUGH I RARELY WRITE NOW, SURE YEAH, A CRAZY PERSON, FAIR, AND MORE

TO HEAR THAT I’M NICE AND ALL THAT JAZZ ESPECIALLY SEEING THAT PEOPLE ARE COMFORTABLE AND HAPPY WITH JUST A FEW WORDS COMING OUT OF MY MOUTH MAKES ME HAPPY AND GIDDY INSIDE THIS IS SOMETHING I REALLY NEED TO HEAR, ESPECIALLY THIS ASK, SO THANK YOU MAN!! I’M NICE I DON’T BITE I PROMISE THOSE WHO KNOW ME CAN VOUCH

IT MAKES ME HAPPY TO SEE HOW MUCH YOU’VE GROWN DURING YOUR TIME HERE BECAUSE I REMEMBER YOUR BLOG BEING GREEN AND CUTE AND ALL THAT! AND YOUR BLOG IS MORE ORGANIZED (MORE ORGANIZED THAN ME THAT’S FOR SURE) AND PRETTY AND COLORFUL AND YOUR WORKS GETTING A FEW NOTES BUT NOW YOU’RE GETTING THOUSANDS!! WHICH IS VERY MUCH DESERVED!!! LOVE YOUR WORK!!!! I FEEL LIKE A PROUD PARENT/MOM/DAD NGL IT BRINGS A TEAR TO MY EYE TO SEE MUTUALS GETTING THE LOVE AND ATTENTION THEY DESERVE FOR THEIR TALENTS

I KNOW I SAY THE MOST WILDEST, SOCIALLY UNACCEPTABLE, UNHEARD OF AND OTHER BIG WORDS THINGS AT TIMES (we love being silly) AND TO SEE SOMEONE BEING HAPPY OVER THEM IS JUST FHAHFHSGSDHSH???? WOOO SOMEONE ENJOYS SEEING ME BEING GOOFY AND OVERALL A MENACE TO SOCIETY LET’S GOOO

WE’RE ALL JUST SILLY GOOSES YOU’RE RIGHT, IT’S THAT NICE FEELING OF SILLINESS THAT YOU CAN’T SEEM TO GET RID OF (IT HAS TAKEN OVER ME AS YOU CAN SEE)

ALSO I SEE THAT YOU WERE STUDYING THE OTHER DAY AND STRESSING OUT GOING APESHIT ABOUT IT I WOULD’VE MADE THAT COMMENT LONGER HAD I NOT BEEN IN SCHOOL AND THAT DUMBASS CHARACTER LIMIT (WOW LOOK AT ME BEING SNEAKY WITH IT, DON’T TRY THIS GUYS UNLESS YOUR SCHOOL IS CHILL) SO I CAN SAY IT HERE!!! #LUMESTUDYTIPSFRFR ANYONE CAN USE THEM

IF YOU’RE STUDYING, TAKE BREAKS FOR LIKE 10 OR 30 MINUTES MAX BECAUSE THAT’S WHAT I DO WHEN I STUDY FOR SO LONG! DON’TTT EVER STUDY FOR A LONG PERIOD OF TIME WITHOUT BREAKS THAT’LL HURT YOU A LOT (TAKE IT FROM ME, DON’T DO THAT IT’S BAD. 2020 ME WAS STUPID)

EAT A LITTLE SNACK BECAUSE YOUR BRAIN AND STOMACH NEEDS SOME FOOD TO FEED OFF OF TO FUNCTION, A DRINK TO HYDRATE FROM IT CAN BE WATER JUICE OR WHATEVER AS LONG AS IT MAKES YOU HAPPY! MAYBE EVEN PLAY SOME LOFI OR A STUDY PLAYLIST IN THE BACKGROUND FOR A COMFORTING VIBE :3 IF YOU’RE STRUGGLING ON THE MATERIAL THERE ARE VIDEOS OUT THERE, INTERNET IS YOUR BEST FRIEND IN STUFF LIKE THIS, MY GO-TO IS ORGANIC CHEMISTRY TUTOR AND BRAINLY!

OH AND SLEEP. I KNOW PEOPLE SAY STUFF LIKE ‘haha i’m not sleeping this exam is important’ BUT NO. SLEEP IS ESSENTIAL AND LOSING THAT SAID AMOUNT OF SLEEP COULD AFFECT YOUR WORK ETHIC THE NEXT DAY, I DID THAT ONE TIME AND MAN WAS I OUT, SO GET SOME AMOUNT OF SLEEP IF YOU’RE ABLE TO IS WHAT I’M SAYING. IF IT’S A REALLY SERIOUS EXAM THAT YOU INSIST YOU HAVE TO STAY UP FOR THEN I USUALLY TAKE A NAP AS SOON AS I GET HOME IT DOESN’T MATTER WHAT TIME. THEN AGAIN, WHAT TIME YOU SLEEP IS THE TIME YOU SLEEP AND I CAN’T CONTROL THAT, I WAS JUST A LITTLE WORRIED IS ALL

SO UH YEAH THAT’S ALL I WANTED TO SAY IN THAT COMMENT! (IF YOU WERE WILLING TO READ ALL OF THAT LMFOSJFIE I WOULD WRITE MORE BUT I WON’T BORE YOU OUT AND SOUND LIKE A NERD) I HOPE YOU HAVE A GOOD DAY AND AFTER THAT AND AFTER THAT AND WHENEVER THE DAYS PASS BECAUSE IT’LL GET REPETITIVE AND HAVE I WISH YOU A MASSIVE AMOUNT OF GOOD LUCK (YES YOU GET TO HAVE A SHIT TON OF LUCK NOW BECAUSE I BLESSED YOU NOW SO ENJOY THAT, I’M APPARENTLY THE EMBODIMENT OF GACHA LUCK AND NORMAL LUCK SO YEAH YOU’RE VERY WELCOME) LOVE YOU MAN TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF 🫶✨

#📬 lume answers #💛 lumes mutuals #🤍; melon!#finally answering asks here since like??? months???? but anyways onto the w h o l e s o m e #you don’t understand how much i needed to hear that #makes me cry irl tbh but in a good way #(it did make me shed a little tear but HFHDHF)#I LOVE YOU MELONNNNN #SO MUCHHHHH #MWAH MWAH MWAHHHH #AGAIN PLEASE DON’T BE AFRAID TO TALK TO ME ABOUT WHATEVER #EVEN IF I SEEM LIKE I DON’T CARE OR DRY AF I GENUINELY LOVE PEOPLE TALKING TO ME OR RAMBLING ABOUT ANYTHING #ALSO MELON IF YOU SEE THIS IT HAS BEEN MONTHS LAST TIME YOU ASKED BUT YOU CAN HAVE MY DISCORD IF YOU NEED IT #<- IF YOU WANT OF COURSE I’LL DM IT TO YOU BECAUSE I’M COMFORTABLE IN SHARING IT AFTER THESE MANY MONTHS #(WE LOVE REGAINING TRUST AGAIN)#AAAAA THIS MAKES ME SO HAPPY YOU DON’T UNDERSTAND #A FEW WORDS SIMILAR TO THIS CAN AND WILL MAKE A PERSON’S DAY (TRUST)

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star-vibing-prompts · 8 months

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Random shit I had or others had said as prompts.

Warnings: Swearing, Mentions of sus, dark humor(probably), dark themes(also probably), Sensitive topics

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"Motherfucker is high on cat nip at the top."

"Imma just kick this fish then-"

"Let me sleep with you!"

"STOP CREAMING YOURSELF"

"Let me throw your child!"

"I smacked a bad guy's booty."

"That was a good ass slap!"

"Give me all these delicious batteries!"

"Everybody died in this family!"

"I JUST SHOT HER BODY WITH MY GUN-"

"I DIDNT EVEN KNOW I HAD BALLS STILL!"

"I got stuff on my neck!"

"Be honest, am I hot?" "I'M GAY-"

"IMMA WHIP OUT MY BEANS ESSAY"

"Not the duckussy"

"Already sus gonna hide in the ooc"

"Okay I got my happiness, bye"

"I like me some Among Us"

"Can someone hold me please"

"[Name] stop searching. I wanna search something up to on him!"

"IS HE WRITING A FANFIC OML"

"I KNOW BUT WHEN I LAUGH I SOMEHOW CHOKE ACK-"

"You're more grosser than I am."

"Ohh~ Hee got the rizz~"

"OKAY BACK TO CRYING"

"I love dying screaming"

"IM CRYING WHAT DID WE JUST WALK IN ON???"

"I will slap myself if I say something sus"

"Let her scream lmao."

"Being force to talk by a 14 year old"

"Such a beautiful break up"

"STOP RIZZING ME"

"Anyway does anyone want to get slap by me?"

"Damn she hot"

"THE FUCK WOMAN???"

"DAMN I AM A LONELY BITCH"

"Actually *SHITTING* himself would be pooping. *PISSING* himself would be peeing."

"Why did you eat mah stick?"

"STOP EATING POOP???? WHOS POOP EVEN IS THAT???"

"I- Wha- ho- ...MY BRAIN CANT HANDLE THISI-"

"I think u just pissed him up even more"

"And why are you creaming [Name]?" "Damn tell me how you really feel about the cream jesus"

"One of them is: What the fuck is going on at this point and why am I still here for it?"

"I just love killing people!"

"I want to fuck Optimus Prime."

"Allergies are kicking me ass"

"I would've given you some but you didn't talk fast enough /j"

"[NAME] PLEASE I BE SILLY"

"I SWEAR ON [NAME] IT AINT ME"

"Why is [Name] robbing [Name2]"

"Enjoy your last peaceful moments"

"You were the chosen one"

"Then speak it"

"And [Name] just set himself on fire"

"I feel like I am being judged now,,,,,bye." *disappears*

"The shame has already been done there is no going back"

"My mom used to buy me robux before she mcfucking died"

"I BROKE MY STICK"

"THEY DONT KNOW WHAT GOES ON BEHIND CLOSED DOORS"

"My gaydar told me"

"What the fuck are smiley fries."

"Rice with beef broth because we have no chicken"

"Anime cat girls are canon within Spongebob now."

"The Cat Has Ingested The Wall"

"Split dat chicken wingg"

"Oeuur... digs chicken wing out of the carpet"

SHRIEKS AND BREAKS IN THROUGH A WINDOW

"They have been bestowed the name [New name]"

"I love the fumbling with the remote"

"Literally vibrating in my chair, I’m really excited for the game"

"That's so sad imagine someone hated you so much they wouldn't even spend more than 5 bucks to hire a hitman"

"Bro's gonna be willing to die after that"

"FLOOFY AND GOOBER"

"I wanna invite them for tea and crumpets

The best type of relationship"

"ILL FORFEIT ALL MY LEGAL POSSESSIONS TO HIM"

"Like damn dude you don't need THAT much eye liner"

"This is so emo"

"My dude needs to look fabulous"

"WHAT A GOOBER ! FOOLISH LITTLE FELLOW"

"OMG ITS MY KID"

"LIL GUY IS SPEEDY ASF"

"They got a little too silly"

"ITTY BITTY"

"They just need to put some ice on it"

"Aww noo they spilled the cranberry juice" :(

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burnsopale · 2 months

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Just wanted to say thanks so much for your lovely tags on my VetVimes and VetVimesSybil art ❤️ you absolutely nailed the vibes for the sleepy couch scene and it made me very happy!

And also wanted to say that fun fact; my partner's pitch of and reaction to Putting The Commander To Bed is what finally got me to start reading the City Watch books after I've putting it off so long (for no real reason other than books are hard) so that I could read the fic too because it sounded so incredibly up my alley. And I have been devouring the series since the start of the year and I love it, so thank you for that!! I haven't done this much reading or creating in forever!!

I recently got the point in canon where I can read your fic without spoilers too and I am loving it immensely! You write them so well it lives in my brain! I want to shake Vimes around and then put him in bed under several blankets!

You guys are all being so nice to me these days! Aaaaaah!

First of all, tell your partner thank you from me for pitching the fic to you. :D

Discworld is fantastic for getting those creative juices flowing. I'm so happy for you! And happy for the fandom cause we get amazing art from it! I adore what I've seen so far and hope you bless us with more!

Also hurray, you like the fic! I'm so glad! Thank you! Vimes does indeed need to be given a good shaking and then a proper tuck into bed.

#Judin answers #Putting the Commander to Bed #Thank you so so much! Aaaah!

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early20sfailingplenty · 2 years

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early20sfailingplenty's 1k follower celebration❤️

Aaaaa, we did itttttt ~ !!!!! 💜💜💜💜💜

It's been... a wild ride since I started this blog 21/9/2021, huh? I was starting the second year of my degree at the same time as starting a new job and it was... A Time Of My Life, for sure. But now look! There's 1k of you and that's just phenomenal.

So many of you have been nothing but lovely; sending in asks or encouragement, support, advice, love, making me drop my uwus so many times there's almost no point in picking them up because just as soon as I do, one of you makes me drop them again.

Writing for the Sinclairs is always a blast as well, and I adore delving into their psyches and working them out. My characterisation isn't always perfect but most of what I write is well received, the friendships I've made are gonna be long lasting, and all of this accounts to so much of my happiness and sense of peace.

The Sinclairs have made me bolder, braver, and though Vincent is the one I fell in love with first, I love and cherish each of the brothers equally. You can't have one without the other two, at least in my opinion (which may not be yours and that's okay), and I wouldn't want them like that, anyway. For me, the Sinclairs are the Sinclairs because they've spent their lives together and none of them would be alive without the other two to make it that way. It's horrific, tragic, grotesque, and they're objectively fucking terrible people, but we love them and that's really important.

So, as a thank you to all of you, old-time followers and new followers and people who might hit follow because of this post, I have devised a combination of ways to celebrate this milestone.

The details are below the cut, as are the rules for this celebration and my masterlists.

THIS IS A HOUSE OF WAX AND SINCLAIR ONLY EVENT!

A handwritten note of appreciation from me to you in your two favourite colours (if you don't specify, I'll choose two of my favourite colours, instead).

Send me a link to a House of Wax tumblr fic and I'll reblog it with some uwu-dropping commentary (great for people who want more exposure! The writer of the fic MUST be 18+)

Send a GIF of a Sinclair and I'll write a short headcanon paragraph inspired by the GIF.

Blog shoutouts! Again, the blog owner MUST be 18+!

A note from a Sinclair of your choosing (or all three, but if you do choose all three then it'll take longer for me to post because it's three notes rather than just one and that requires more brain juice).

Send me a few sentences about you and I'll write a short headcanon paragraph about you and a Sinclair (you MUST be 18+ for this AND you must tell me which Sinclair you would prefer. Again, all three is an option but it'll take me longer).

Ask for a moodboard - give me a few words, name a Sinclair, and I'll see what I can do!

Ask me questions about myself! Anything burning you want to ask me? Obviously, no personal information will be given and such questions will be deleted (and anything extremely invasive will likely get you blocked), but questions about my favourite characters, medias, my habits, likes, dislikes, philosophies yada yada are all acceptable!

Want to vent? Want to give me some advice or do you want to ask for some advice? Want to tell me how you feel about me? Feel free to come and scream at the void. Be polite, be kind, and if you wouldn't say it to someone face to face, then don't click the send button! Rudeness will mean you get publicly clowned on, outright offense will get you blocked, so be warned! I want this to be a safe space for EVERYONE. And speaking of...

Want to gush about your favourite Sinclair or all of them? Come into my inbox, let loose, go wild!!!!💜

What are the rules for this celebration?

Nothing major!

Be kind, be polite, anons are welcomed as are people off anon, please specify this is for the 1k celebration when sending in your asks, yada yada we're all adults here. Followers and non-followers welcomed, any pronouns, MUST BE 18+ TO PARTICIPATE OR YOU WILL BE BLOCKED.

NOWHERE ON THIS POST DO I SAY THAT YOU CAN ONLY PICK ONE OPTION. GO AHEAD AND HAVE FUN, PICK WHATEVER YOU WANT! Just be aware that the more options you choose, the longer it’ll take me to fulfil what you’d like!💖

Please only use the ask box to participate in this celebration; anything sent through the comments or DMs will be ignored.

How long will this celebration go on for?

I'll run it for two weeks to the day from posting this, and then I will close the celebration. This is so everyone has a chance to get something in if they want to, and after the date has passed, I will no longer accept asks marked as being for the celebration. However, I will continue to answer asks submitted prior to the deadline, just so then everyone receives something. That seems fair to me, and I hope it does to you as well.

Finally, links to my masterlists!

Masterlist 1 || Masterlist 2 || Masterlist 3 || Masterlist 4 || Masterlist 5

Happy reading, and thank you immensely for the support!💜💜💜💜

#house of wax #slasher x reader #erika's 1k celebration #<-- please block this tag if you don't wanna see it

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natsmagi · 1 year

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(future au anon) OKAY BE READY BC IT'S VERY ANGSTY me and my friend loves angst wayy too much lol

So uh first of all tw suicide :')

Yeah hum i guess you can guess where it went with that

Basically Tsumugi unalived himself yeah-

Which traumatized Natsume and their daughter, Marisa (i was the one who made her!) pretty hard and now they're suuuper overprotective of eachother in fear anything happens to the others like calling each other VERY often Marisa would even get late to practice sometimes (bc ofc most kids are idols too and with time we decided ES accepted girls and other genders too) and Marisa often sleep at home too instead of the ES dorms and like if Anything remotely bad happens to his daughter Natsume would go MAD

It also affected Marisa personality a lot since she was pretty young when that happened so now she's SUPER parano and anxious about her loved ones wellbeing and like she would cling to her friends a lot and always ask them if they're okay bc she always worries they ever..you know. Do what Tsumugi did

Also Marisa is a big nerd (is that the term) she's super into books, animes/mangas, games and such and also a looot into the magic stuff her dad does teehee she also likes drawing and i like to imagine she's the one designing her unit clothes

ANYWAY but its time i actually explain why Tsumugi did what he did. So uh very basically me and my friend decided Eichi died of his illness to give the Wataei family angst which well ended with ES in a MESS since Eichi is like. An important figure in it yk. And so Tsumugi as he now became President of NewDi OR WHATEVER YOU CALL IT got super stressed and pressured with stuff (also grief of Eichi dying) and also with time the idol industry became much more strict and uh. Overworking? Idk how to explain but uh yeah all that was just too much for poor Mugi

It might be ooc idk,,but i decided to not have any mercy to the Eccentrics in this au (i mean do we have mercy on anyone really) and so uh oopsies Natsume i took ur husband away

Damn i ended up rambling a lot sorry i got excited,,i love this au i lot i would love to tell u more if ur ever interested?? :')

IM ??????? WELL THAT WAS NOT WHAT I WAS EXPECTING THATS FOR SURE

BUT IT IS A REALLY INTERESTING PREMISE........ im not the angstiest guy myself sorry im a big fan of happiness and joy and love but id say this is a very good foundation for the story ur telling from what im hearing !! and given the circumstances of everything i can see these events taking place....... BUT I CANT STOP THINKING ABT THE EMOTIONAL TURMOIL NATSUME WOULD GO THROUGH. like given everything theyve been through, all their promises together, baby tsumugi vowing "lets become happy together, you and me" to natsume-chan when they were kids, now even forming a family together, thinking theyve gotten their happy ending, only for the man he loves to then take his own life due to stress and anguish. im very fixated on the feeling of "i wasnt enough/i didnt do enough" natsume would be suffering through. the amount of regret he'd face. maybe wishing he'd been nicer to tsumugi. had put in more effort. given him a stronger sense of love and security while he had the chance, but now hes gone and the only memory he has left of him is marisa. This au sure is getting the brain juices pumping THATS FOR SURE

#cw suicide #AND YOU CAN TELL ME MORE IF YOU WANT TO IT SOUNDS INTERESTING!!#again though i love my angst with a happy ending if anything. gotta have the pain be worth it in the end for me #that said though anything can work so long as the premise is good and u DO have a solid one......... u should definitely expand on it!!!#ask

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superannuatedseeker · 1 month

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Tumblr intro post 2024 Edition

Oh hello. I am Ren. Cishet, she/her. This is my tumblr. It goes all the way back to 2012, but I haven’t really been active on it for several years now. So time to reintroduce myself to the tumblrverse, I guess, and see if I can generate some social interactions.

So, I turn 61 in a couple of months. I know, that’s ancient in tumblr years, but I also know there are a few other Gen Xers out there. I always identify myself as a Mom before anything, even though my daughter @missr3n3 is a grown-ass adult and awesome creator, so check her out. But I am also Mom by nature, taking care of others, nurturing and encouraging them. Oh! And I’m a cat-mom to a female ginger named Starlord.

Since the pandemic, I work from home, which is essential since during the dumpster fire of 2020 I suffered a (mild)traumatic brain injury (yeah, mild, she gently shook her head disbelievingly) and if I had to go back to my pre-pandemic routine, well, I couldn’t and I’d be living a very different life. So let’s get the brain injury out of the way. It’s one of those invisible disabilities, and I’m quite functional most of the time, but it is still there and it is a bitch. It limits the amount of energy I have in a day, limits what I can do, where I can go, and even after learning to skillfully manage my life around it for more than three years, I am one bright light or loud sound away from spending a day or more in bed. Some things can’t be anticipated or worked around, and therefore, have to be endured. All that said, I try to stay focused on more positive things and not let this become my entire identity.

So what do I do, and why might you, fellow tumblor, be interested in following this here little blog thing?

Crochet – after a nearly three-year break, I have been able to pick up my hook again, and while it can be frustrating and slow-going, I’m quite happy to have it back in my life. This is a pattern by BonnieBayCrochet on Youtube.

Diamond Painting – instead of focusing on things I can’t do any more, I sought to find something I could do and diamond painting is one of these things, so I guess I’ll be posting about those projects, though again they move slowly.

Acrylic Painting – something else I had to take a break from that is still a frustratingly slow process for me. I am hoping I can build some accountability into this blog by posting any progress I make with it. This is a painting I finished awhile ago. Based on the work of Yobanka Art Paint on Youtube.

And this is the unfinished painting that has been staring me down for the past year. From a tutorial by The Art Sherpa on Youtube.

Television/streaming – I am a fan of Asian dramas, though good ones can be hard to find and subtitles do soak up my available brain juice. I wish I was enjoying “Mysterious Lotus Casebook” more than I am, given that I finally broke down and I gave iQiYi my $8.99 to see it. However, I got “War of Faith” in the bargain and after a couple of episodes I’m enjoying it. I find most American media too much for my brain to take, but there are plenty of vintage dramas on the free streaming platforms. I am currently working my way through “Have Gun Will Travel” and the original “Dynasty.”

Reading – I used to read – a lot – but I don’t have the concentration for it anymore. However, when I could, I read a lot of books and I’m happy to comment on them.

Music – this is the thing my brain injury truly robbed me of and the hardest adjustment to make. I love everything from classical to kpop, though the only group I continue to follow, just to see how my boys are doing, is VIXX. For now, when I can, I listen to classical guitar pieces played on very low volume, with occasional visits to vintage country music (Waylon Jennings anyone?), when my brain has the capacity. Favorites have always included Ian Hunter and Van Halen, but rock and pop tend to do my head in, so that is more from memory these days.

Other interests are Buddhist philosophy, cooking, cleaning channels on Youtube, and other people. That means you! Yes, you! I would love to know about your life, your interests, your ups and downs, hopes and dreams. Unless you’re a bot, or your only interest is porn, or you need my credit card information, or you are a horny old man who thinks this is a dating site. But I’m a glass-half-full kinda old cat lady, so I prefer to think there are plenty of people out here in Tumbland who are interested in sharing this journey, with a slice of cake and a cup of tea, of course.

#intro post #missr3n3art #brain injury #crochet #painting #diamond painting #books #music #gen xers #cdramas #kdramas #VIXX #waylon jennings #Ian Hunter #Van Halen #retro television #tea #cake

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tetrisfinished · 4 months

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the past few days

over the past few days i've been wanting to crack open my laptop and start typing out the cacophony happening in my brain. (i understand the definition of this word, i can only half guess that my use of it is correct, so if it's wrong - shut up).

but of course, now that i've finally pulled the motivation out, nothing is coming to mind. even though i've experienced some big feelings all i can recall are as follows:

wanted to spend a full post talking about how a whole year begins, middles, and ends within the month of january at the pace that this month goes through. and i'm rigtht on this, so don't fight me.

wanted to have a full fledged pity party for myself as i do so often and title it "the path to hell is paved with good intentions". i would have started it off with "...and i think i'm walking that very path right now". it was going to be such a fun, self loathing sesh. but that's out of my system in the current moment. if summoned with even a little bit of effort, it would come running back, but WE ARE ADULTS AND WE ARE MOVING PAST IT.

so yasir is coming back tomorrow.

and i'm happy about it.

let's sit with that for a moment. i want to be brutally and totally honest with myself and I don't know if that brutality lies in the "fact" that i'm genuinely happy for myself that my husband is returning or that i'm overjoyed that i won't have to see esa hurting anymore.

frankly, if either of those are true....it would be a brutal honest thing. why couldn't i just be normal and have both of them be true, you ask?

maybe [queue gasp] I AM NORMAL and both of those ARE TRUE.

but to get to the bottom of that....i'm going to take a pause. you won't obviously experience it as you read it, but future komal, i want you to know that you stopped typing, closed your eyes, and TRULY contemplated which of those 3 scenarios were the most true for you. now.

okay. i've sat with my feelings and my truth and i've thought about it. and here it is:

as people have been asking how i'm feeling and if i'm excited for yasir to be coming back tomorrow, i've been responding with "yes!", "so ecstatic", general happiness and merriment.

i've even given thought to how i will greet him. will i run up to him and give him a kiss on his forehead? but that will of course break my heart because he will immediately pull away and push me away since that's probably the most embarassing scenario that could happen to him.

will i walk up non chalantly and give him a fist bump? to spite his family because supposedly they would make so much fun of his stupid wife's pda-ing ways so that will give them something to talk about?

as you can see, the crazy juices have been running on full gear.

i think....truly, and honestly, i haven't decided. maybe there will be a lot of commotion at the airport and i'll be generally handling esa so i won't be able to react much to him returning.

but the fact is....i think i want to kiss him. and hug him. and feel him reciprocate it. i want to action these things that i know will return in sort of a heartbreak for me, because....because what? i think i'm seeking validation? i think, most of all....i'm seeking his love.

i'm seeking a feeling of knowing that he will hug me back despite how embarrassed he might feel. that he will give me the love the way i want to receive it despite that giving me something the way i want goes against every single principle that he upholds in his adult life.

so i guess the question becomes - do i really want him to hug me and kiss me back? or do i want to see that he could? am i seeking the wrong sort of love? am i seeking it for the wrong intentions?

i don't know. all i know is...i would like to experience it.

but i think 2 months - the duration of him being away - is not really a long enough time for him to show me love as if he's just seeing us against after years and years of separation.

so....here's my resolution for tomorrow. i will respectfully and happily welcome him back. i will be happy about it. but i will not show my happiness at the cost of my heartache. i will not hug him or kiss him (unless he initiates it, but do i even need to say that bit out loud?) because i don't know how much more i can continue to make myself open and vulnerable to this man who...cares for so much more beyond me and his consideration of me.

and that might sound like it's coming off resentful - and maybe it was 2 months ago when i was living it. but now, it's really just fact.

that's not to say that it won't become resentment again tomorrow or the day after or the day after.

the heart is a fickle fickle thing.

ANYWAY. that's that. now onto true and genuine feelings that i can express and i won't be broken hearted or vulnerable in expressing.

but even as i'm about to type this out, there is doubt creeping into my mind about the truthfulness of my belief. anyway. i was going to say....i will be so happy to have esa see his father tomorrow.

i've not done right by esa i think. when i got mad at him and yelled any time during the past 2 months - he asked for his baba. and how come i'm still the person carrying this guilt? i was there, i was present, i was an asshole parent who yelled at her kid but i was there goddammit. so how come this guilt isn't going away?

anyway. i'm just a big open wound over here.

i'm going to stop. i should get some sleep tonight otherwise who's going to overthink all of this tomorrow.

goodnight.

-k

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tamerajedwards · 1 year

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Sunday morning blog- update on Mom 5-28-22

It is Memorial weekend and I wish we were out placing flowers on the gravesides of our loved ones, including working on Dads headstone but life took a different turn.

It is day 7 of Moms recovery ❤️‍🩹. She became septic (that’s when infection enters the bloodstream from a given location in your body and travels everywhere and could damage or shut down your organs and even cause death ) and we aren’t sure which infection caused it but the doctor is leaning towards her ear infection. Btw if your loved one ever seems confused take them to the doctor immediately because it could be an infection.

Mom is settled into Parkridge Care/rehab Center in Pleasant Hill. It’s just a couple of blocks from my place. She has a sweet little old lady roommate named Ruby who is very kind and I found her sitting with a bag of almond joy candy bars in her lap when we arrived. She was hunched over and making noises half asleep as we brought mom in. I thought oh dear.. but to my surprise she perked up and started talking to my sister and I and is smart and coherent as a whip. She is a great roommate for mom and looks after her. We love 💕 her already and look after her too. She loves looking out at the birds all day long.

Mom was not fond about being here but she is still very very weak and needs cared for including feeding. She doesn’t eat much and pushes the fork away when I try to feed her although she does love 💕 orange 🍊 juice and milk! Her vitals are good. She has asked if we called her sister Diane to wish her happy birthday and I had to let her know that Diane is in heaven with her parents. The confusion is still there. When sepsis hits the brain and organs this can happen ugh BUT we are believing God will get us through this. He is faithful! She made it through two heart surgeries and now this so I know she’ll pull through. She’s a stubborn lady with great determination! She loves God and has a family who loves her deeply!

My sister Danny is a saint! She is with mom most of the time and I take 4-6 hour shifts when I can. I’m running between mom and helping out with my grand kids and the odd jobs I hold down.

I am grateful for the Mercy Hospital staff as well as the Parkridge staff who have taken amazing care of our mother. We would be lost without all of them.

I put my massage therapy skills to use and brought lotion in to massage her legs this morning. I did that for my grandmother when she was in hospital. Physical touch is so extremely important.

Times like this remind me of how short and precious life is. When I leave a hospital or care facility I open the door and walk into the sunshine 🌞 thanking God that in still young enough to feel good, enjoy life, run and play. But I’m reminded that not too far off in the future this will be me. I can only pray that people will be there for me when I’m old and ailing ready to depart this world and meet my Savior. The journey isn’t easy but God promises us grace all the way through. Be blessed my friends. I love you all. Thank you for the continued prayers. Xo T ❤️

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misseviehyde · 1 year

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BRAIN DRAINED

Sarah Jones looked at the steering wheel of her car and knew she didn't know how to drive anymore.

The knowledge... it was just... gone.

Panic gripped her, as her evil step-daughter Kayleigh giggled and finished checking her makeup in a pocket mirror.

"What's the matter? Can't remember how this works? Move over and let me show you then."

"But.. but you don't know how to drive either," whimpered Sarah.

"Oh... don't I?"

Climbing into the drivers seat, Kayleigh laughed as she easily adjusted the seat position and smoothly started up the engine.

She reversed effortlessly - driving out of the parking space like she had been driving for years.

"H... how?" boggled Sarah.

"Haven't you worked it out yet you dumb bitch? I took the knowledge out of your head and now I have all your former skill."

"Bu... but how?" sobbed Sarah in horror.

"That doesn't matter," laughed Kayleigh. "All you need to know is that I drained both you and Daddy of this knowledge. I'm the only one in the family who can drive now... you both are dependent on me."

Kayleigh was so fucking wet as she drove home... having this power was intoxicating.

*************

Hours later and Sarah and Paul lay slumped on the sofa with Kayleigh seated opposite them. She was wearing a weird contraption on her head - it looked like a collander with various circuits and bits of electronics attached.

Kayleigh moaned as the helmet pulsed with power and she sucked more knowledge from her parents. Their thoughts and memories were hers to enjoy now.

"Fuck yessssss... give it all to me. Once I make you both totally dumb and useless - then I'll have complete control of your lives. I'm taking it all - your PIN numbers, your passwords, your knowledge of who does what and pays what. Soon I will be the boss of this house."

Kayleigh grinned maliciously.

"And as for you Daddy... falling in love with such a useless bitch like Sarah after Mom died. Haha I'm going to suck out all the nice memories you have of Sarah. I'm gonna make you forget all the loving nice things about her, so you only remember the bad. Soon you'll hate her as much as I do."

Kayleigh didn't bother to absorb the memories of Sarah - she simply allowed them to be lost forever as she stripped her father of his love for his wife.

She fingered herself deeper and deeper as she did so - squirting and groaning in a spray of cum as the last memories were eliminated.

"Fuck yes... your lives are mine to play with. You're both my fucking dolls now."

Kayleigh's eyes lit up as she considered whether the helmet would allow her to plant memories and knowledge into her victims.

She was still figuring out it's full potential after obtaining it from the pathetic nerd who'd built it. Josh was deeply in love with her and had given her the helmet as a gift so she could pass her maths test.

She'd ripped that knowledge from his head - along with everything else she wanted. He didn't even remember desiging the brain-drainer anymore.

Kayleigh had never been smart, but now she was... or at least now she had all the knowledge and skills she needed without having to lift a finger.

Focusing her will on her step-mom she began to transmit thoughts into Sarah's head.

I worship Kayleigh

I am a useless lesbian slut that wants to serve my step-daughters tight teen pussy.

My happy place is between Kayleigh's thighs eating her out.

I like being Kayleigh's slut.

Kayleigh laughed as she saw it was working and Sarah twitched in her comatose sleep as her new programming was forced into her mind.

Taking off the helmet, Kayleigh placed it safely into a box and snapped her fingers to wake up her parents.

Her Dad looked on in disgust as his wife crawled on all fours towards Kayleigh and obediently placed her head on her lap.

"I made a fucking mess when I squirted everywhere. Clean me up bitch."

"Yes Mistress," said Sarah as she eagerly began to lick up Kayleigh's juices.

"You're fucking disgusting," spat Kayleigh's Dad as he looked on for a moment and left the room in outrage.

"Don't worry - he's probably gone upstairs to jerk off. I used my powers to make him a pervert who gets off to all this."

"Why are you doing this to us Mistress?" asked Sarah almost innocently as Kayleigh ground her pussy in her step-moms face.

"Mmmmmh because I can," she laughed. "Now make me squirt again you fat bitch."

#evie hyde #girl bully #mind control

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corruptedroses · 2 years

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You think you can do a NSFW headcanon of all the Freddys? (Including Fred bear and Nedbear of possible?) 👉🏾👈🏾

All versions of Freddy + Nedbear and Fredbear NSFW headcanons 🐻

AGE IN BIO OR IT'S ON SIGHT

AU version of the animatronics - none have children souls in them (and why the fuck would I write about kids on a smut blog?) and you can picture them however you want, human, animatronic, anthro, etc.

Dreadbear has been excluded for the time being (24/1/2021) as I had no fucking clue what to write for him, I'm sorry.

Holy fuck this one took a hella long time to complete due to the number of characters that are bears within the series — there are over 15 bears across both books and games (though I kept to the games for simplicity sake) and writing something unique for most of them defiantly came to be a challenge to where I ran out of brain juice half way through.

I'll probably come back here at a later date to fix shit up and / or add additional content warnings if requested to, but have fun.

If you wish to support me in being a degen [and get a custom story], my kofi is here

Content warnings — not every one of these are for each Freddy, but I'm counting them all since they do appear in this post: praise kink, mentions of brat taming, orgasm denial, taunting, corruption kink, overstimulation, face sitting, cock warming, breeding kink, tummy bulge, pegging, fear play, food play, daddy kink, pregnancy kink, cum inflation, degradation, master/petplay, pain play, unhealthy relationships, knives cutting into skin, blood play, size kink, cock choking, breath play, biting, marking, thigh riding, clothed sex, first times, dubious consent (Funtime Freddy)*

*Specially mentioned for Funtime Freddy

DEAD DOVE: DO NOT EAT

Fredbear/Golden Freddy (I am counting them as the same person bc fuck you (lovingly))

Soft dom, a defiant soft dom switch

Being one of the first iterations of the bear mascot (alongside Spring bonnie), he used to be a rather soft person, however, as the years have gone by and he has witnessed the horrors of the franchise, I feel like he has hardened slightly in personality. More standoffish, but he will hold a soft spot for those he cares about most.

Also a rather vanilla person, however, it is slightly harder to convince him to be intimate since he's worried about hurting others so usually you have to initiate intimacy. It doesn't mean that he doesn't initiate it himself, it just so happens that he doesn't prioritise it. When he does wish to initiate intimacy though, he's always so sweet and will be upfront and honest with you while kissing your wrists. He hates dancing around floral words and would rather have you understand his intentions straight away.

He has a praise kink, 100%, but he doesn't do it in a way that is filthy but more "you're so beautiful", "I love you so much" and so on. When he's a bit drunk he however can get a bit more explicit. However, he loves getting praised back and you will notice his gaze become more fonder.

surprisingly quiet, doesn't say much during sex besides what I mentioned above and isn't exactly vocal with moans, however, he does let out grunts and will respond back if you talk to him.

Up for morning sex, though he doesn't like kissing in the morning given that he tends to have horrible morning breath and doesn't want you to suffer because of it.

He fucks slow and deep, likes to savour the moment and will hold off his own end to see you blissed out and drunk on him before rubbing soothing circles into your back as you drift off to sleep.

Watch out if he's angry though, he is into angry sex.

Original Freddy

I get huge brat tamer vibes but also Gentleman dom switch. A bit lazy sometimes but is happy the majority of the time nonetheless.

He will never, ever raise his voice towards you, however, his voice will ooze that type of authority in it that makes your legs weak when he addresses you, even in the moments he doesn't mean to be like that. He's a natural-born leader and will be the type to show it.

if you're a brat, well, have a fun time with him since while he may entertain your brattiness, he tends to get a bit impatient after a while, even warning/taunting you that his patience is running a bit thin.

Isn't afraid of not letting you have what you want and will tell you that: he doesn't need sexual gratification much, but watching you squirm, beg and plead is like music to his ears.

Corruption kink? Corruption kink — if your first kiss is with him, he'll be happy, but if he gets to pop your cherry for the first time then oh god will his eyebrows raise when you tell him before an evil smile would make its way across his mouth.

Be especially bratty and holy shit, while he likes leaving you high and dry he also likes to watch you cry as he overstimulates you, especially on his tongue, watching your hands gripping onto anything they can as you scream and sob his name.

god tier aftercare and will make sure that you rest the next day, no exceptions and will even call into work for you (if he can) to say that you need to take the day off before cuddling you.

Toy Freddy

A service bottom — you've seen this dude play video games, he gives off that giant nerd energy and I am going to feed into that so fucking hard. Innocent, weeby nerd that wants to make sure that you are pleased in any way possible. He is a people pleaser

His first was probably with you and oh god, for as much as he likes to tell people to not be nervous he was so nervous and cute the entire time that you accidentally may have overstimulated him.

Probably didn't know what a clit or a prostate was, much less touched himself and yet somehow he gives head like a fucking champ and will leave you seeing stars. Also naturally great with his fingers (bc gamers got good fingers yooo).

He wants you to sit on his face. He likes the idea of being able to see nothing but you and have your pretty thighs around his head, his hands and fingers holding onto them as he can barely breathe without smelling you and he could cum by that thought alone.

probably likes cockwarming while he's playing his games and as much as he whines and begs for you to do something while having him buried in you, it gives him the motivation to try and win his games.

Probably easily jealous, jealous sex is something that happens often as a result and is really the only time he will top because he wants to remind you who you have wrapped around your pretty little finger.

Listen, while he might not like kids, dude loves the idea of breeding you so full that you have a tummy bulge because of him and anything like that being mentioned will get him going.

Ok, look, he's trying with aftercare and while he's not the bed with it, fuck, he's so cute fretting over you despite the fact that he probably got pegged and you should be the one looking after him. Would probably take a bit to even convince him to sit down if he's on the receiving end.

Shadow Freddy please reference shadow bonnie here, as most headcanons about shadow bonnie are similar with freddy

switch Top — got no reason for this one

Shadow Freddy is probably ok with there being a little light within the room, however, he prefers that it remains dim due to the fact he has vision problems due to something about his eyes.

Given that there is a little light allowed to be in the room, Freddy is able to get a bit more creative with you especially since you can see his face.

Being a sensual person, I feel like he's into food play for the reason of watching you squirm, especially using things such as chocolate since it's better to clean up compared to sticky items such as honey. Will not dribble any near any sort of holes or in any areas where it may be uncomfortable, mainly will dribble around the chest and stomach.

ok this is more fluffy and cute than nsfw but humming while stroking his fingers down his back, lulling you to sleep and making sure you're well looked after if how most sessions with him end.

100% would tell you he loves you while balls deep inside, sorry.

Phantom Freddy (ngl this cunt gave me the hardest time)

ok, so it's actually hard as fuck to put a label on this one because I feel like he's a bit all over the place depending on his general mood, however, there tend to be some consistencies whenever the two of you get intimate.

Loves to scare the shit out of you when he's in the mood, something about wanting to hear the blood racing through your veins before he got to the "main show" as he calls it. However, if you're showing hella real distress.

he is and always is terribly corny during sex, spitting out stupid puns or lazy remarks that make you want to roll your eyes, though don't open your mouth or he'll shove you down on to him.

You know Billy Loomis from the first scream? Very similar personality, for those who haven't watched it, a bit unhinged but clever.

Ironically, despite liking to play with fear he stresses the idea of safewords during sex since he's dead, a literal ghost, he cannot tell if something will hurt you or not since he cannot feel it and has on occasions gone too far. This scares him, please make sure you use your safe words with him.

Nightmare Freddy

Soft or strict daddy dom, no in between — people forget that before Glamrock, Nightmare was the original DILF of the Freddys since look at him and his three sons. He defiantly knows how to dick down.

Despite being a nightmare, I feel like he's also a huge person when it comes to safewords and its one of the first things discussed since he knows he can get a bit carried away when he gets into it. He's someone who follows carnal instinct, he knows he can easily hurt you and even gives you other options to stop him if he doesn't, even full permission to knock him the fuck out.

Like most of the other Freddys, huge into praise but is defiantly more dirty when it comes down to it, and if you allow it, will call you things such as his 'little slut', 'cumdumpster', and even 'little breeder'.

Call him 'daddy' and you won't be able to walk for days.

100% also into fear play, he's a motherfucking nightmare ofc.

Being a father of three, you would think that was enough for him, but fuck he likes the idea of you being round and pregnant with his offspring and will mention it.

If you're pregnant, he would 100% be willing to dick you down every time you ask him, hell, he wouldn't even give a shit if he didn't get to cum if it meant that he got to see your face flushed, stomach large with his spawn and begging for more. Hell, you'll get the same thing if your stomach is just distended from his cum.

also god-tier aftercare.

Nightmare

Dom top, is defiantly into master/pet play and wants your total and utter submission

if he can inflict any pain on you, he fucking will because I don't think he'll show any mercy unless you actually scream your safeword, and that will take a few times given that his name reason of existence is to bring pain.

Probably one of the least healthy dynamics out of any Freddy on this list when it comes to the bedroom, probably rivalled by Funtime's craziness when it comes to giving affection since he'll only do it in bed to watch your eyes bubble with tears as he says sweet nothings while cutting into your skin with one of his fingernails, sharp as a knife.

Now, he won't kill you or maim you, no, no, that's not something that will do, but drawing blood is something he defiantly loves to do [if above wasn't enough of a reason to guess that], especially if he gets to lick it up.

Wants to use you as a fleshlight, will use you as a fleshlight. His hand can fit around you so easily and hold shit it's hot ok.

He's ok at aftercare, but he isn't exactly good at it in terms of the patching up part since he exists to hurt, not care for. He does try though. Excellent cook tho.

Nightmare Fredbear

Soft sadomasochistic switch (mostly top)

Holy fuck this man is different compared to the regular Fredbear, because basically mix him and Nightmare and you have the perfect example of how Nightmare Fredbear is.

You have the mixture of the tenderness of Fredbear and then the sadism of Nightmare and it's so delicious the way he looks at you, calling you the sweetest names while you're choking on his cock.

Pull on his hair and scratch the shit out of him, step on his balls and not let him cum, as much as he loves to give you [compared to his normal self] pain he loves receiving it back and those little blissed noises he makes between pained grunts will send shocks to your regions hidden below.

the thrill of being both under him and being in control of him are both an amazing feeling given how he's a beast of a creature. Huge, deadly, and yet he shows compassion for you like no other man could.

If you're both down for it, he would love to try out breath play since watching your face turn different shades as he's plowing into you is so erotic for him and holy shit listening to your mewls like that is a huge turn on. Won't restrict you for too long in fear of you passing out (unless you like that), but seeing how his hand can fit around your throat so easy - huge turn on.

Better aftercare than Nightmare, that's for sure, however, he can be a bit clumsy about it sometimes. Any nick with his nails will be kissed better as he hands you a cup of water.

Funtime Freddy

Sadist top — Funtime is obviously like, halfway to becoming the FNAF version of Joker in canon and you cannot tell he doesn't like the idea of hurting his partner and will not bottom for anyone. Being with him is defiantly not healthy when he's in the mood to hurt.

Very attentive for all the wrong reasons at times, sure, he has his soft moments where he'll nuzzle you gently, but as soon as he notices you're relaxed he will fucking bite you. Hard. He will not take a chunk out of you but it sure feels like it.

Like Phantom Freddy, probably deep into fear play and will make sure you're scared of him, however, unlike Phantom Freddy, he thrives off that power. It takes a lot to convince him to stop given how far gone he can be once he senses any sort of fear.

Love, loves to leave marks all over you in places where he knows you cannot hide them. To him, that's his way of telling the world that you are his, and his alone.

Also loves, loves to hear you whimper and moan and say how good he's making you feel [even if you aren't feeling too good] because it strokes his ego. Stroke it enough and he may slow down and praise you, telling you how well you're doing.

terrible with aftercare — he tends to be self-centred but if you're bleeding he will look after you. It's even rarer that he genuinely wants to look after you though.

If I ever write for this Freddy, it most likely would be dub-con esque

Rockstar Freddy

Service top or a soft dom, similar to Rockstar Bonnie he enjoys the idea of having someone with their full attention on him and is defiantly greedy about it too — a bit possessive at times, he really, really just wants all your attention on him.

most likely into thigh riding, especially with clothing on; he doesn't exactly have his own sexual drive himself, but watching as you so desperately try and come to your finish [maybe even with your wrists bound behind your back with his tie], it gives him satisfaction just listening to you beg and plead with him to let you finish. If he's feeling nice he may bounce you slightly, but he wants you to do most of the work.

He's a fucking tease sometimes, loves watching you squirm as he runs his lips up and down your thigh, telling you how good you smell until you're practically begging for him to eat you our / give you head. He wants you to want him.

Also wants to do it on the stage.

Big, big on making sure you've came at least three times before he's had his shot, overstimulating you as he praises you, telling you that he wants to see one more and how sexy you look to him, his other hand dragging up and down your side as he nibbles at your neck.

He and Glamrock Freddy are basically head to head on how amazing their aftercare is, after all, Rockstar Freddy doesn't want his starlet to feel too sore.

Nedd bear

Switch — Like Toy Freddy is probably also a pretty nervous being when it comes to the prospect of being intimate with his partners, probably has never felt wanted either, so when you come to him and say that you want him in that way he almost falls over himself.

An absolute sweetheart, defiantly the type to laugh and crack jokes during the moment as a way to ease the tension, Nedd just hates the prospect of you or himself being uncomfortable when you're so bare to each other.

Very vocal and will always ask where you like to be touched, please guide his hands since that may be the favourite part about you: your hands. Show him where you like to be touched, talk to him about what you want to do.

He probably tries to make the first time together rather romantic with roses and everything, though you got a thorn stuck in your right leg since he forgot to cut the thorns off and felt so bad for ruining the mood.

Intertwines your fingers together whenever he can; he loves feeling you grip onto him as if he was the whole world and it makes his chest flutter with giddiness every time you do.

Surprisingly good at aftercare.

Lefty

(he and Fredbear act the exact same way, I might come back to him at a later date)

Glamrock Freddy

Service Top: Glamrock style

Does not have a daddy kink — I cannot see him with it personally and I'm sorry for anyone who wants him to have one.

The most gentle out of all the Freddys and is very loving, even in bed. He will never attempt to hurt you physically and instead likes the idea of pleasing you more than hurting you. The only time he will hurt you is by accident.

On the other hand, he wants you to crush his head between your thighs, please and thanks.

he's fucking huge compared to everyone [nightmares do not count since they're meant to be inhumanly large] else and while his hands may not be able to fit around your waist, he can easily pick you up when he wants you to.

Only Freddy that wouldn't mind doing a threesome — all down for doing it with Bonnie too.

He isn't the type to take unnecessary risks so sorry, no public sex but he can and will take you into any room nearby that can lock to fuck you stupid.

Most interested in toys, as he likes the idea of being able to play with you without touching you directly and will allow you to use toys on him if you so wish.

Ass man, he loves to grab and hold it and will leave pleasant marks on your ass from his grip.

as mentioned before, amazing at aftercare and will make sure that you feel loved.

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ceciiibaby · 2 years

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A Morning to Remember (18+) Part 2

Author's Note: Thank you guys so much for all of the love and support that you have shown to Part 1 of this story!!!! I love this community so much and I am incredibly excited to keep adding on to this series while we wait for more Fezco content 😓 As always, if any of you lovely human beings have any suggestions for a potential story or even just general feedback, please do not hesitate to let me know. I utterly hope you enjoy this filth 😌

Warnings: Smut on top of smut, passionate and loving Fezco, mentions of praise kinks, swearing, and fluff towards the end

"Oh fuck baby. Your fingers feel so good." As (Y/N) feels her eyes gradually begin to roll towards the back of her head, she can't help but think about all of the times that Fezco has made her feel this way. It would probably come as as surprise to some, given the young man's distant and unapproachable demeanor, but Fez has always cared about the feelings of others. Years ago, when Ashtray came home from his first day of school in tears, the only thing that Fez wanted to do was make him happy. He wanted the tears to stop as quickly as they had started. And he never wanted to see them flow down his little brother's face again. That, to him, is the true definition of love. "How the fuck am I supposed to love somebody and not do what I gotta do for 'em?" These are the words that he told (Y/N) the first time she asked him why he cared so much about taking care of her. Before meeting Fezco, (Y/N) could not remember the last time that someone in her life had gone out of their way to do anything for her. After her parents decided to get a divorce when she was just 10 years old, (Y/N) quickly learned how to set her thoughts and opinions aside for the sake of her family. She never wanted to upset anyone or make them feel worse than she knew they already did. The silence became her comfort zone, and that is where her Fezzy had found her, all those years ago.

It was not easy, in the beginning, for (Y/N) to let her boyfriend do so many things for her. But there was no limit to his kindness, and he wanted her to see this. As their relationship progressed and the lovers began to do what all teenagers in love inevitably do, (Y/N) was pleasantly surprised to discover just how much her man wanted to please her. Fez would never hesitate to spend hours with his tongue between her legs, showing her in seconds the things that he could not say. This was his home away from home, and as he tasted her sweetness and felt the way her body responded to him, Fezco knew that he would never get enough of this paradise that only he would ever know about.

For (Y/N), the feeling was much deeper than the orgasms. The physical release that he gave her body was wonderful, and she always went to sleep feeling like she was on cloud nine, but the strongest effects of their lovemaking were felt in her brain. Fezco knew her body, but he also knew her mind. He knew how much it aroused her to have his undivided attention. And he knew that after being considered a second thought for a majority of her life, (Y/N) was dying to be a priority. She would never verbally say this to him, out of fear that she would sound selfish, but Fezco could see how much she wanted to be admired. His angel was craving some appreciation, and he would not rest until he knew that she was fully satisfied.

"I wanna spend the rest of my life just like this, baby. Feeling all of your sweet juices running down my fingers. Fuck, I wanna taste you so bad, angel." "Fez, if you don't stop talking like that, I'm gonna cum." Fezco can't help how he feels in this moment. He wants her to know how much he loves it when she has an orgasm because of him. "You feel that, mamas." He has his clothed erection pressed into her thigh as he watches her grab the sheets from the bed under them. (Y/N) is certain that she is going to explode once she feels more pressure being applied to her clit. She suddenly feels the heavy weight of Fez's cock against her thigh, and as she knows that she cannot hold her release back any longer. "Open your eyes, beautiful. Let me see your face while you cum all over my fingers. Fuck, baby. How the hell did I get so lucky?" Although this is not the first (or the last) orgasm that has come from Fezco, (Y/N) is overwhelmed by the incredible feeling that courses through her body. "Hey angel. You're okay. Take a deep breath for me. You did so good." (Y/N) is certain that she is going to cum again when she opens her eyes and sees Fez sucking her juices off his fingers. The moans that fall from his lips are enough to give her the energy that she needs to push him down onto the bed. "It's my turn to take care of you now." Fez immediately wraps his arms around her waist and sits against the bed's headboard. "You already have, gorgeous." (Y/N) playfully rolls her eyes at this and rubs her hands down his warm chest. "You know what I mean, smartass." They stare into each other's eyes as they laugh, feeling their love lingering in the air around them. "I know, mamas. But I don't want you thinking about me. I'm good as long as you're good." (Y/N)'s heart swells more than she thought it ever could. She loves this man with every fiber of her being. And she is going to make sure that he knows it.

"Oh fuck, (Y/N). Your pussy feels so good." The sounds that she is making on top of him has Fezco's mind in shambles. Grabbing onto the headboard for stability, (Y/N) can only close her eyes in pleasure as she feels every vein on his cock rubbing the inside of her walls. "Mmmm. Damn, mamas. I'm not gonna be able to hold on much longer. You look too fucking good right now." (Y/N) moans out louder than she intended and Fezco pulls her body against his, smashing his lips against hers. "I got you, angel. Let it all out for me." Fezco places one hand on the small of her back as the other holds her face above his. He feels her walls clenching around his cock, and he knows that she won't last much longer. Looking into her eyes, Fez is positive that he can see his future. This is his person, his one in seven billion. And no one else will ever be enough for him. "I'm gonna cum again, baby. Fuck. I love you." He can't wait any longer. She is truly perfect. "I love you too, baby. So much. Now cum for me, sweetheart. I'm right here with you. Forever."

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