Wait I just realized something.

Depsite how obvious it is we never got an actual in show confirmation that Huntlow is canon.

In other words...

The closest thing to a straight ship in the show got the usual queer ship treatment!

Do birds dream of flight?

Some mornings I wake up and want to cry. I am exhausted, it is quarter to six and I would love to keep sleeping but my toddler is awake and full of energy so I slog downstairs, leaving everyone else to sleep. This happens every single day with the variety being the actual wake-up: sometimes it is earlier, sometimes I can even get to a little past 6. Sometimes I get up through the night too...

I deal with the evenings too, of course, and on weekends I am mostly there too. And I know children are only this small for a short period of time, and I enjoy spending time with them.

But I am also approaching critically low battery level. I need some sort of downtime, but at home, because I have so much stuff to do. But my days start with getting the kids ready, then work and then immediately dealing with kids again, there is hardly any downtime, and it is taking a toll on me and my health. Like physical health: I can see I look bad, and ai am somehow gaining weight, while I need to loose 20kg to feel myself, to like myself again.

The problem is, I don't know how to rebalance it all. I want to go to the gym, but by the time the kids are down and the key chores are done it is 9pm or even later, and I am exhausted, and operating on 5h of sleep is not easy. I am underslept, so my willpower is not great and I crave carbs (which is probably where the problems start).

I try to make sure my partner gets enough sleep, if I am already awake, what is the point of waking up someone else. I feel like I need to somehow plan time specifically to myself, but then... well, it is not very fair, is it? There are times when I take one or the other child to classes, so my partner is looking after the other. It is not like he is having some free time exactly, so I feel bad asking for time just by myself.

I am trying to figure out why I need this and my partner doesn't. I mean, he has the office commute, I wfh. He seems to be ok, while I am on the verge of tears and feel totally out of it. And the problem is, the more tired I am, the less I delegate and the more I try to crawl through it, what happens is that I try to withdraw more, which means others take more space, which means I feel cornered. It's a viscious circle, and I am trying to remember what the therapist said before they stopped my sessions nearly 2 years ago. The little recharging breaks like watching even half an episode of a series at lunchbreak come to mind. But my lunchbreaks lately are... well, taken over by work or I feel too guilty or too impatient, I have no idea why.

Many people here in NL take a 4 day week with a paycut (and less holidays), spend one more day with their kids instead of taking them to daycare or aftershock care. I feel like I have no capacity for this, with an already super-tight budget and the bare minimum of holidays, and already giving the kids all my spare time. I know a lot of people have it way harder, and I have no idea how you guys are doing this.

The thought of starting a YouTube channel is literally keeping me awake...

Does anyone else have the problem of their stomach hanging further than their thighs, and so shorts if they're not skin tight or long, the leg holes shift forward and then you can see up them? I don't want people seeing my underwear in public but I CANNOT wear shorts with more than like a 2inch inseam. I guess I need to invest in tights....

i think there's nothing funnier than being a writer that doesn't know how to write smut on kinktober. you just lay down, grab a drink and enter your prefered ship's tag on ao3 and enjoy thirty one days of pure derangement. i love it.

If Ted and Nate talk, then I might just burst into tears and be unable to finish the episode.

god, art is so COOL everyone is so TALENTED why the fuck am i not LEARNING and DRAWING why am i so SCARED OF FAILURE

Having someone who is slowly destroying themselves around and not knowing what to do is dessesperating...

When you know your character has some GRAND PLAN but they haven't told you the plan yet...

To me, it's obvious Toya will live, but what I wonder is how he will physically because I feel his body has to get healed or regenerated in some way. How do you think Dabi will get healed? He's too burnt to keep using his current body to live imo, could Eri be used?

This is where I really just don't know

Part of me wonders if a LOT of people will get caught up in an accidental LARGE scale Eri rewind to undo recent damage on people like Touya and Tomura and Spinner, as well as maybe civilians who got hurt undoing their injuries

Another part of me wonders if the ice component of his body will help heal him a little and that'll be how

Another part of me wonders if once the fire is out he won't look so much like a skeleton and it was just done for demonic-looking dramatic effect. Least likely imo but you never know lol

Honestly I've no idea but I'm open to whatever. I do think he'll definitely live forever with a mostly burned body, but he'll be shown that he's comfortable with his life regardless

An idea I’ve had in my head the longest is everyone returns to how they were pre-final war cuz of an Eri rewind. Everybody is still banged up but they're not in any death-like or brain-mush states like they're in now. But this idea exists mostly to cover Touya AND others, it’s not central to Touya, so killing two birds with one stone type of deal, and in my head the idea was a life saving measure rather than a “let’s do this just cuz” measure. Based on how things are going idk if it’s needed for a life saving measure for Touya. And Hori doesn’t always undo serious damage. The only instances I can think of off the top of my head are Tomura’s hand returning to normal with all the weird shit his body is going through and all of those people in the OH arc getting rewound back to their original bodies.

If I’m looking at Touya only and not lumping him in with the likes of Tomura and Spinner, I expect him to get some sort of healing/possible regeneration in some areas but ultimately expect him to be pretty medically fragile at the end, I just don’t know to what extent.

Oh god oh god I'm BOILING and it's like 1am in the morning (doing a night shift and I'm bored as fuck)

Tomorrow it's going to be 40°C here. My house doesn't have A/C yet. Again, if I stop posting just assume I self combusted or something.

It's 2003 all over again :/

I thought"well I will survive this summer again without AC then the next year I will install AC".

Nope. Worst decision of my life, especially because my meds make me suffer so much from heat.

I'm going back asking Google how do I resume a project I had to interrupt 3 times due to life happening and be disappointed in the answers.

also, it's meaningful, in ways that I don't know how to explain, that evelyn starts the movie pretty much an homophobe and then realizes that, if things were just this much different, she too could love a woman

These guys always behave well

My Aunt Snapchats me pictures of her martini every single day. Every. Single. Day. And I'm starting to worry.

if anybody has any tips/advice on dealing with chronic pain it would be much appreciated <3