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WOOO YOUR REQUESTS ARE BACK OPEN !! first of all, HII welcome back, how are you doing? are you doing alright? i hope you are !!! >> p.s, this is the same anon who requested tall husband!reader nd 141 <33 i'll be 🦗 anon from now on!!
i've come back with another (awfully long 😔) rq !! if that's fine....,,!!
okay so i absolutely adore m!readers, and i have another one for that, so the idea is kind of like,, reader is a bit older/the same age as [char], and he's transmasc! though, he didn't have time to transition in his earlier years- he's just recently started t. what do you think price, nikolai, alejandro, nd rudy's initial reactions are to him like being so giddy to start transitioning and just reactions to him changing his body in general? :)
sorry this is disgustingly long again, & feel free to delete this ask if you feel pressured at all <3
— sincerely, 🦗
Hey there! I'm actually doing better than I did yesterday, thank you :D And don't worry about sending in long requests, I don't mind it one bit! In fact, it helps me get a better feeling for what to write :> And don't worry, I was looking forward to writing this! This was probably my most anticipated request in a long time!
Price, Alejandro, Rodolfo and Nikolai with a Transmasc!S/O
Price: He knows that trans people exist. He’s supportive of them, but that doesn’t mean he understands what they’re going through. He’s never really had a phase where he explored his gender, he’s always felt comfortable being a man. However, he’s very understanding. As soon as you come up to him and tell him you’re finally getting your shots or your gel, he’s overjoyed. Yes, you’ve always been his boyfriend, ever since you came out to him, but you’re finally getting to go on the journey of getting HRT? He smiles along with you and gives you a big hug when you can barely sit still from glee. However, that joy doesn’t compare to actually watching you transition. You’re slowly growing a beard, your voice is getting deeper, your fat distribution is changing. He’s there to celebrate every step of it with you. If you’re alright with it, then he’d like to take a picture of you every once in a while so you can watch how far you’ve come yourself. However, he will sometimes make you go on a jog with him. Might force you to go to the gym with him as well since he can imagine working out could make you feel even manlier. Since he’s on deployment for months at a time, he always finds it to be a treat whenever he gets home. After all, he gets to see you transition so much in all this time. In order to celebrate all these milestones he will take you out on a lot of dates, with him paying, of course. You’re his most ideal man, you need to know just how loved you are. Lots of praise too, you’ve come so far, you’ve gone through so much, you’re so very strong. You’ve gone through things Price can’t even imagine. He’s definitely extremely supportive of you.
Alejandro: He’s never considered himself anything but a man either, but he loves trans people. In fact, I like to imagine that he’d actively stand up for them if someone is being a dick towards them. Alejandro is a well respected man who can make just about anyone shut up, he will not tolerate any bigotry. So, as soon as you come out to him, he gets a big smile on his face and immediately starts calling you his boyfriend. And, once you go on T, he’s just as happy as you are. You’ve had to live in such an uncomfortable body all this time, finally you get to feel like yourself. He’ll help you with your testosterone as well, if you let him, of course. Every time he delivers your shot to you or rubs the gel in he gives you a hug afterwards, shaking a bit with excitement, always raving about how happy he is for you. Sometimes he jokes about how hormones can also be exchanged through making out, but you don’t have to kiss him if you don’t want to. Again, it’s just a joke. You’re his handsome man and if anyone ever dared to disrespect or misgender you then they’ll end up with a black eye. As mentioned above, he does not tolerate bigotry in the slightest. Sometimes he’ll run his thumb over your beard and tell you just how gorgeous of a man you are, and how happy he is to have you with him. On your dysphoric days he’ll remind you that you’re the most wonderful man to have ever existed. Trans is just an adjective, you are a man, you’ve always been one. Sits you on his lap, wraps a blanket around you and lists all the traits that make you a man. And even if he can’t make the dysphoria go away, he’ll still stay with you and cuddle you until you feel better.
Rodolfo: I think there was a time in Rodolfo’s life where he thought he was better off as a woman, but that phase didn’t last too long, a year at most. He didn’t go through with anything either, but he knows what dysphoria feels like to some degree. Ergo he’ll never be a bigot towards trans people. He respects them quite a lot, being misgendered and referred to by the wrong name feels so disheartening, having to go through all of that for such a long time is horrible. So he feels a bit bad when you come out to him, thinking that he’s referred to you by the wrong name and pronouns for such a long time. He apologizes for that as well. Of course, he wishes you all the best and will support you through whatever you wanna do. In fact, if you wanna get surgery then he offers to split the costs with you, he just loves you that much. Once you tell him you’ve finally gotten the prescription for testosterone he’s ecstatic. On the outside he may seem calm, but on the inside he’s a bit disarrayed from the happiness he feels for you. He picks you up and spins you around because he’s just that giddy. Will also help you administer your shots or help you apply your gel, if you’re comfortable with that. He’s very observant, so after a few weeks he’ll tell you how you’re slowly starting to change. Like Price, he’ll invite you to do workouts with him so you can become stronger. However, he also offers to learn about other things with you. Is not above teaching you how to ride a motorcycle either, if you don’t already know. Riding one always makes him feel very masculine. As soon as you grow your first stubble, he’ll cradle your face in his hands before squeezing you so tight, you’d think he wanted to break a rib or two. Praises you so much when he sees you slowly change, he just loves you so so dearly.
Nikolai: Not trans himself, has never had a phase either, but if he likes you then he’ll actually pay for your surgery. He actually paid for Gaz’ top surgery because he’s like a son to him and wanted him to be well. You’re Nikolai’s boyfriend, so naturally he’ll pay for anything you might need. Top surgery, bottom surgery, testosterone, doesn’t matter, you’ll get it from him because he wants to be a supportive boyfriend. He’s a very observant man, so he likely had a hunch you were a trans man before you even told him. While he may not have said anything, he wasn’t particularly surprised when you told him. Asked you for your preferred name and pronouns and hasn’t referred to you as anything else since. He didn’t make a big deal out of it. Has threatened bigots before, though. When you told him you finally got to be on T, after all those years, he was happy. Again, he didn’t make too big of a deal out of it, but he told you how proud he was of you. Like Alejandro, he also joked about making out with you, though. Nothing serious, if you didn’t want it to be, however. Will also point out the small differences as soon as he notices them. As you change more and more, he subconsciously becomes more touchy with you. You’re just such a sweet man, he can’t help it. No real reason, just watching you become more and more content with yourself makes his heart flutter too, so he falls in love with you even more than he did before. If you want to, you’re more than welcome to wear his clothes too, regardless of whether they’re too big on you or not. Nikolai is a very tall guy, so there’s a good chance they are. As a joke, he teaches you the sacred art of grilling in summer. You’ll be able to make the meanest burgers around.
#cod#cod x reader#john price#john price x reader#price x reader#alejandro vargas#alejandro vargas x reader#rodolfo parra#rodolfo parra x reader#cod nikolai#nikolai x reader#transmasc!reader#male!reader#writing this gave me such gender euphoria you have no idea#One of these days I'm gonna go on T and become the most handsome man out there#Just thinking about how I'm gonna change makes me so euphoric I wish I was on T already#nothing makes me happier than writing transmasc readers#thank you so much for sending in this request!!! it made me so very happy!#my mind is kind of disarrayed right now because I'm just that giddy which means I can't think properly#so sorry if these tags are kind of jumbled haha!#I need more people as supportive as these guys in my life!#I am thinking about my future where I will transition and it makes me so happy. Thank you so much for that!#shaking with excitement right now! I hope you're doing well anon! I'm going to knit you a nice scarf to show my gratitude!!!
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*runs into room in full costume*
Trick or tre-sike, its nothing but TRICKS today!
*chucks a toilet paper roll at the goon tower that is Ace/Leo and feckin RUNS*
muahahahahahhaaaaaaaa time to THRIIIIVVEEE
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Touché, morse anon...
Ah...look at you go
#ace answers#i had a feeling i'd see ya in my inbox morse anon..#ya got me i'll admit it#leo doesn't get it cuz he's old/lh#anywhizzle!#i hope you're having a very safe and happy halloween morse anon 🎃🙌✨#thank you for this#until next time...#:)
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question would there be a relatively similar group to the scientist studying the clan cats but for the jellicles? surely the cats somehow becoming relatively bipedal over a period of time would attract at least some interest if not just for the "there are little guys running around wadda ell" factor
I like to think there's a lot of variation in cats in this universe, a little more than normal. Kinda like, trading away some "purebreeds" in exchange for there being more "regional variations," y'know?
(Some purebreeds do exist though but I have more fun making them up than referencing specific breeds)
So Jellicles are like Clan cats, their odd variations aren't too nonstandard. Clan cats probably have,
Sharper claws and thicker pelts
A more developed 'thumb'
A wider range of patterns
Where Jellicles probably have
A thicker clavicle allowing for more motion of the upper arms
"Back heavy" haunches which makes them appear oddly bipedal
It would also be SUPER cool if their legs had that Reindeer hoof clicky thing, which made their dances sound like tapdancing
#I am also reluctant to give Jellicles the use of fire#Like the Jellicle Ball Fire is a very special thing they don't control. Maybe it's Bonfire Night?#Original anon I hope you're happy you made Jellicles canon I guess lmao#If I make more than 3 posts on a thing it's practically canon#better bones au#Should this get a tag#BB!Jellicle Cats
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Hello :) I see you draw! Do you take requests? Would you be willing to draw -
Teen-High-Binder Transmasc Normal?
Teen High binder VS Miku binder: who will win?
Its a tie! Trans rights <3 Anyways love you anon happy pride month :)
#camera draws#dndads#dungeons and daddies#glad to be graced with the presence of the teen high binder anon#but im more of a writer in the dndads fandom so as you can see i dont have a solid normal design </3#apologies anon :(#also im not formally open for requests but throw something in my ask box and if i like it enough ill do it <33#anyways low energy recently so this isn't great but i hope you enjoy anon#you're doing a great service to the dndads fandom#this made me very happy to draw <3
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Hey! I was just wondering what your thoughts on Janeway x Seven were? (Love your content btw, it makes me happy)
Janeway/Seven Aesthetics, Themes: God & Her Angel. Creator and Creation -> Monster Movie, It's Alive!, Works of Art. Overbearing expectation. Overwhelming conditional love. "I'd die for you, I'd do anything for you" and meaning it. Requited but Unconsummated love (to 'consummate' here has no sexual connotation but a sense of being 'complete'). Unexpressed but constant pressure. Biting the hand that feeds you. Being keenly observed. A Certain Type of Control being mistaken for care. "I know what's best for you". The lofty and the ungraspable. Teacher/Student. Ant vs Machine. Sad old timey people in photographs standing too far away to see their faces. Telling someone to 'run' while holding the scruff of their neck. Womanhood and Personhood as idealized concepts. Womanhood and Personhood as performance. Hypocrisy. Benevolent[?] Gods are still Gods in the end. Idealization of the other until they can only disappoint or awe you <- Inability to truly see eye-to-eye. Mother/Father Issues. Power Imbalance. Victorian era. The 20's. Perfection and the yearning for it.
It's difficult to love someone who means and is so much to you. Who is no longer another person but a complex web of identities that sometimes clash or contradict one another.
I like Janeway/Seven but only in a very specific way! I feel like most of the ways I see it are too boring for me personally to be invested. In my mind it's a relationship that would never actually come to pass (Janeway would ultimately not allow it even if she encouraged it - mixed signals) but which would take up a large portion of both of their minds and lives.
Janeway is Everything to Seven. She's her worst enemy and the love of her life and she killed her and she gave her new life and she's the reason for all her suffering, all her joy. Infuriating and exhilarating. Deeply confusing.
Janeway meanwhile sees Seven as a poor little thing, as dangerous, as a work of art, as herself, as something that can be MORE than what she is now, as an attractive woman, a child, her friend, her subordinate, a concept, an ingenue, a genius etc.
Are you trying to make me A woman or Your woman? Am I a human before that? Am I a person first or your subordinate first? If you're nothing like the Borg why does this feel so familiar? [Receiving orders and carrying them out, bending to your will eventually even if we bicker beforehand.]
"You're free to do what you want, Seven." [Within reason.] "You don't have to obey anyone, Seven." [Except me.] "This is your life, Seven. Your identity to do what you want with." [Except when I don't agree.]
Seven: I don't want this.
Janeway: You don't know what you want.
Seven: I don't like this.
Janeway: You will, eventually.
Seven: What if I want to do something else?
Janeway: You won't.
It's what you are, don't resist it. / Resistance is futile.
Janeway says that Seven can do as she pleases but as the captain of a starship she cannot actually allow that. And as a person who has a history of strong moral opinions on what is right and wrong (and a further history of asserting these opinions as factual, rules, and to be adhered to by others) she probably wouldn't have been the best person to explore one's humanity with even if they had been equals in regards to rank.
I don't mean to make Janeway a villain in saying this, I earnestly think it's a very interesting facet of her personality. Flaws build character and Janeway has a tendency to impose very high standards for herself and those around her.
Whatever Seven did and does would be taken by Janeway as a reflection of herself in my mind. Seven the person exists because Janeway gave her life, after all. This is inescapable v_v No matter how far Seven strays from Janeway's original vision of/for her - she will always be in the shadow of it. It's a debt that can never be repaid and not because Janeway desires to hold it above her head (she explicitly would NOT) - it's just the nature of the thing.
The situation might not be ideal but damn sure someone or something's gonna be idealized.
So conclusion I very much like Seven/Janeway but only in a specific way which makes most content for it not really my thing..hEHEHE. The worst predicament.
#THANK YOU VERY MUCH~!!!!#Q&A#kind anon#I hope thismakes you happy too!!! Sorry I am like this!!#Janeway/Seven#the line 'I think you're punishing me because I don't think the way you do. I'm not becoming more like you.'#coupled with Janeways lack of response to it.......C'MOOOOONNNN AAAAAAAA~!!! /pos#I love kinda toxic dark and complicated relationships in fiction...they are so interesting and fun to explore#also y'allre gonna have to right click open image in new tab this one sorry v_v#star trek relationship aesthetic
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Allow me, if you will, a moment to go absolutely rabid over your blog and everything that goes on here. I’ve always loved history but the USA hardly likes teaching anything that isn’t American History. I’ve forgotten how much I love WORLD history, specifically the rise and fall of empires.
I’ve been smothering myself in your posts and I love it ALL. JC, Pompey, Crassus, Sulla, Octavian, Antony, Cassius, and Brutus. Wow what a mood. You don’t miss on your references or your modern AU’s and I’m over here like- I’m trying to buy whatever web comic you put out, book you write, etc.
Also, if you’d be so kind to list some material with like themes to start breaking into these topics. Preferably materials in English or translated materials.
HELL YEAH LET'S GO
if you really want to start on the ground floor for breaking into something, I'd recommend my personal favorite approach which is picking the figure that's most interesting to you, reading through plutarch's biography on them (free! online! in english!) and then putting their name through a jstor search and reading whatever sounds fun.
other than that, the primary theme I've been wandering around in lately, so these are the materials I've been really enjoyed related to that:
The Deaths of the Republic: Imagery of the Body Politic in Ciceronian Rome, Brian Walters
The Game of Death in Ancient Rome: Arena Sport and Political Suicide, Paul Plass
Ideology in Cold Blood: A Reading of Lucan's Civil War, Shadi Bartsch
Statius and Virgil: The Thebaid and the Reinterpretation of the Aeneid, Randall T. Ganiban
Rome, Blood & Power, Gareth C Sampson
I also have a comparatives tag where I play connect the dots with texts that made my brain go brrr
#also thank u 💓#ive been obsessed with history and historical non fiction since i was like. five. and my dad noticed that i liked watching documentaries#on pbs lmao#i lucked out: all of my history teachers through highschool were FANTASTIC but my sister's grasp on history#(w/ different teachers) is way worse and she was like. all honors and got a wicked scholarship to a very nice college#idk where im going with that. something about how history is taught with such inconsistency makes me feel :|#i feel passionately abt the subject so i want other people to love it too aughghhhhh#and the way history is taught in schools unless you get a good teacher. is not conducive to this. its a TRAGEDY#thinking about how my best favorite man mabini. ppl not knowing that polio was what caused paralysis in his legs#back when heneral luna came out. (head in hands)#like its good to learn! that was a learning moment for people! but also @ the education department: im fucking coming for you.#IM GETTING OFF TRACK thank u for sending this anon this ask made me really happy to read 🥺🥰💕💕💖💞#i hope you're having a nice day!#ask tag
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Lol I just saw that formula 2 post of Paul Aron and kinds scrolled past it- then my brain clicked and I scrolled up- that neck??? Those arms??? 🤤
I just wanted to send it to you, I open Tumblr and there it is, your last post hahaha
I mean I know Paul Aron exists and that he's pretty cute looking, but I never noticed that neck 🙈
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pleaseee bestie i told myself to only simp for oscar’s arms/hands/neck, no one else's (except for liam’s too)(and clem’s…. i still have that clem hand dump that’s been in my drafts for so many months), but……..
tell me, how am i supposed to not simp for this ??? bestie????????
like the thing about paul is. he's so so pretty and he's cute and i wanna pinch his cheeks (like especially when he smiles, and the way he laughs like a 3-year-old? oh dear), but he's also so hot and it doesn't make sense to me!!! how can he do it all?? and the neck is so good and he hasn't even driven f2 yet, imagine the f1 neck he would get 😭
#and don't get me started on his chest. like. babyyy you're so hot#he's so insanely fit#karl 🫶🫶🫶 i'm so thankful for your work#his veiny arms…….. i don’t usually think it’s very hot but like#wow#i think its so funny how he has the cute little name bracelets and stuff and then your eyes wander a little higher and 😳 oh god#talking about his laugh made me 😭 every time i think about it i just :(((#yall are not ready for the compilation i've been building over the season#loveee thank you for this ask 🫶 it makes me so happy to talk about paul#hope u have a good weekend!!! <3<3#asks!#anon!#✨!
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For part 4: I've got this idea of mine where Thena blaming Minerva for what happened to Gil and she ordered her that he wants Gil back under her after this mission.
I want you to decide for the rest! I know this is a lot and I am sorry TT, I just wanna say again that your works are beautiful and so are you. Thank you! xoxo
"How'd it go?"
Thena closed the passenger side door with a huff, clipping her seat belt rather aggressively. "It could have gone worse, I suppose."
"So you didn't mouth off and get fired?" Kingo asked as he pulled out of the lot of the agency office building. "I would say I was impressed if you weren't already on suspension for it."
Thena just shrugged. She didn't much care about the suspension, even considering she was a senior agent, and this kind of thing would reflect on her for a very long time to come. It was a well deserved suspension, given how she had screamed in the face of not only Minerva but the Section Chief as well.
All that having been said, Gil had almost died.
The recovery operation was a success. Thena was the best when it came to infiltration, especially after things had already not gone to plan. She and the rest of Special Ops had arrived at the scene and cleaned things up concisely and without mercy.
She had gone further in with Kingo, intent on finding Gil. At the very least they had confirmed that he wasn't one of the reported casualties, but that still left him as potentially injured.
Thena had found him in one of the back corners of the labyrinth of storage lockers. He was barely breathing and there was blood everywhere. If they had been any later, he probably would have...
She had gone in the ambulance with him, Kingo having covered for her absence, with Minerva's help to corroborate Thena's definitely-good-enough reason for leaving the scene.
She owed that much to Minerva, and after she had gotten in her face about the whole thing being her fault. That was unfair of her, and Thena knew it. She knew what being a team leader meant--what it meant to have people's lives in their hands and be solely responsible for it when things went bad.
She was feeling...fragile.
Minerva had taken it like a champ, because of course she had. She didn't reprimand Thena for it, didn't shout back at her, didn't even demand an apology for it later.
The Chief still had her suspended for her behaviour but Thena hadn't cared then and she still didn't, now.
"Did you do what I told you?" Kingo asked as he drove, letting Thena take it easy in the passenger's seat.
Thena crossed her arms, "I displayed...appropriate remorse."
Kingo rolled his eyes, "come on, Boss. I can't do shit with both you and Gil out of commission."
"I know," she mumbled, looking down at her bag on her lap. She really had attempted to appear apologetic for her actions. "I did offer my apologies for it."
"Did you seem sorry?" Kingo looked over at her as he slowed to a stop, "really?"
Thena rolled her eyes and shook her head, "sorry enough."
"So, no," Kingo scoffed and shook his head as well. "If you and Gil get fired, I've gotta get out of this line of work."
Thena smiled, "we're not fired, Kingo. Not yet, anyway."
"Yet," he huffed as he started driving again. He glanced at her, "the transfer?"
"I said that even if I was fired, Gil would be back on Special Ops in exchange."
"Thena-"
"It was the only way I'd go peacefully," she shrugged, repeating it exactly as she had stated it in her probation hearing. "That's all that matters."
Kingo snuck his eyes over to her as she toyed with the bag on her knees. She was fidgeting. "You really think Gil is going to still work here if you don't?"
Thena ignored him. "It's just one more week."
Kingo made a grand show of rolling his eyes at her as he pulled over, "I don't know, Boss. I've already neglected all the paperwork I can. They're going to start asking me to actually do it instead of waiting for you to get back."
Thena gave him a smile as she gripped the handle of the car door, "serves you right."
He leaned down to look at her even as she got out, "just come back soon, please? And tell the big guy I want him back even sooner!"
Thena waved to him as he drove off again. She had to admit, Kingo didn't drive as much like a hellion as she had initially expected he would. And he had very helpfully given her a ride whenever she needed it during her suspension period. She turned, letting herself into the apartment with her key.
"Hey!"
"Hey," she smiled as she walked in, kicking off her shoes by the door and walking into the kitchen. "I'm getting a little too used to not having to wear heels."
"Well, it's not like you need 'em."
Thena rounded the corner, leaning against the wall as she admired the sight of Gilgamesh in the kitchen, on his feet, alive and well. Moderately well, "what's on?"
"Just some easy pasta," he smiled at her from the stove, stirring it with his left hand while his right remained in a sling. She gave him a look and he laughed outright, "relax, nothing strenuous involved."
He had taken a bullet to the leg, as well as endured a shattered clavicle that would have him in a sling for two months. He would still be on desk duty even by the time he was cleared to return to work.
Thena wandered closer, inhaling the delicious smelling sauce. He really was a surprisingly skilled home cook.
He looked over at her, the sizzling of pasta underscoring them. "Get fired?"
"No, but I think Minerva vouched for both of us," Thena sighed. She didn't love the idea of being indebted to her old comrade, but she had to admit that she owed her quite a lot, at this point. "They said that the suspension will be over next week, and after that they'll 'keep an eye on me', so... "
He nudged her with his good elbow gently, "I told you not to speak your mind. Just tell them you're very sorry for what you did and move on."
She raised a brow at him, "is that what you said at your probation hearing?"
"No, I told them that they were old bastards who could go to hell."
Thena laughed, partly from the joke, and partly because it probably wasn't that far from the truth, knowing Gil. For all the shit she got for not minding her manners around their superiors, Gil was a pretty honest guy, even in the worst scenarios.
Gil turned off the stove burner and turned to her, "you were pretty hurt, after that op. I couldn't just let that go."
She looked up at him too, her eyes drifting over the sling holding his arm and then down over the extensive bandaging he had received in the hospital. Even a week after being released, some of them still had to be maintained regularly. "How do you think I felt?"
He smiled, giving her shoulder a squeeze before moving to the cupboard with the bowls, "hey, we got through it--both of us."
Thena moved faster, bumping him out of the way with her hip to reach them before he could, "barely."
He smiled, letting her reach them for herself, instead moving to get them both water glasses. "But we did."
Thena set down the bowls beside the pan of pasta. She had apologised plenty already, and that was after Gil had awoken and told her he didn't have any clue what she was apologising for (and telling her to take it back, too). But seeing him more in the past week than she had in the past month still made her heart clench in her chest.
"Thena?"
She smiled, spooning out plenty for both of them (although that meant that his serving was double the size of hers). "Sit down, Gilgamesh."
He chuckled, obeying the order with a big grin on his face, "yes, ma'am."
She let him see her rolling her eyes at him as she came over with their lunch. She sat down, leaving her suit jacket on the back of her chair. She kept forgetting things at Gil's place, being here to help take care of him so often. She had reminded herself plenty of times already not to get so comfortable here.
"Hey."
Thena looked up, already smiling because Gil was. He twirled some pasta around his fork from his bowl and held up the bite for her. He was cute; she shook her head at him. "I have my own."
Gil shrugged, "you need more. This is why you're so skinny."
Thena's jaw dropped, although it made an opening for Gil to poke at her lip with the pasta fork. She huffed before biting down on it with a glare. "You are still my Agent, Gilgamesh."
"Sorry, sir," he laughed as he pulled the fork back. "Y'know, I thought you were kinda skinny for an Agent when you first recruited me, too."
"Oh, did you," Thena scoffed as she took a bite of her own lunch. "What else did you think?--since you're feeling candid?"
Gil shrugged, his shoulders still moving with his barely contained laughter, "that you weren't nearly as hard to read as everyone said you were."
She rolled her eyes again.
"And that you were kinda pretty, too."
She stopped in the middle of bringing her fork up to her lips. She looked over at him but he was shovelling in another bite, as if he hadn't even heard what he'd said.
"This is isn't bad for only having one hand," he commented as he took a massive bite for himself.
Thena just sighed and took another bite as well. It was moments like this that made her not want her suspension to actually end.
#Thenamesh Special Forces AU#pt 4#no you're beautiful anon!!#but really thank you#thank you for entrusting me with your idea!#I hope you like how it's turned out!#very drama very angst#but with a happy ending#because I am a soft hearted bird#I am a soft birb#and I cannot take heartache#I think Thena would understand what position Minerva was put in#and while she's not happy about Gil being put in danger#I don't think she would have it in her to really truly blame Minerva for him getting hurt#and Minerva also understands why Thena lashed out#especially when she saw her leave in the ambulance with him#hunched over his body with tears in her eyes#The Chief had already told her she was on suspension#he turned around to reprimand her some more and Kingo said she was...injured#Minerva agreed yes sir she also needed medical attention that's why she's gone#anyway#Thena is helping take care of Gil#because the doctor asked if he lived alone or if he had someone who could help him#and Thena said I volunteer as tribute#she's there more often than not#like she goes back to her place sometimes#but it's really not as often as one might suspect of 'platonic co-workers'
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hi there! im the anon who isnt happy with his surgery results. i wanna thank you for everything that u said! my friends are very supportive but ive only been able to open up to three ppl about my disappointment and none of them have your level of understanding (not blaming them just stating facts) i think ive been feeling guilty over all of this, which makes it worse. like im supposed to be happy but im not. now that ive accepted it, i have to work on a way to be okay until november. thank u sm!
I'm so glad to hear from you again! It's really disappointing that there's this expectation that trans people must perform happiness for others in our transition... it isn't right or fair or realistic. I don't know what your life is like personally, but I am confident you will be able to get through this. You are stronger than you know, you are more worthy than you may realize <3
#ask#anon#trans#transgender#lgbt#lgbtq#ftm#mtf#nonbinary#i honestly think the whole 'you have to be perfectly happy when you're transitioning otherwise you're [x/y/z]' to be toxic as all hell#because it denies people the ability to feel the full range of their emotions which is so damaging#it's damaging to feel like you're a 'bad trans' because you're experiencing a very common feeling (unsatisfying feelings about your body)#there can be trans people who are unsatisfied with parts/all of their transition and that doesn't mean transitioning is bad or...#...that they don't deserve compassion/understanding#this is just a tangentially-related waffle and not directed at anon since i'm making sweeping statements...#...and i don't want to imply anything about anon...#...because again it's just a trend that i' making a broad statement about and i don't direct it at them#i am so confident that you (anon) will get through all of this. i hope this is something you can look back on and look at yourself...#...with care and compassion. you are worth the effort it takes to be happy/satisfied/content
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* send GRAPHIC + a name , or aesthetic subject and i will make an edit related to this !!!
anonymous asked : If it's not too late, could I request GRAPHIC + Hinamori or Matsumoto?
#anonymous#lucifer's graphics#okAY I FINALLY *FINALLY* FINISHED THIS#i spent. like. easily three to five hours trying to get the third image cleaned up.#that one did not want to come together at ALL.#but oh lordy i worked so hard on these#i hope you're happy with them anon-san!#personally i think the top most rangiku graphic is my fave of the whole set#cha cha CHA--#okay but really hope that you like this set anon!#i tried very hard to make this good hghggh.
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hi! uh... am I trapped in a very weird mandela effect or have you written a naruto fanfic before on ffn.net? because I have this clear image of your profile in my mind and the fic in question, I just want to make sure I'm not going crazy or anything
Nonny your memory is insane and absolutely correct. Do you eat a lot of fish? Get a lot of sleep? Those are what people recc me for better memory LMAO. My first two fanfics was actually Naruto fic from 2013 and I wrote on ff.net until 2017 when I migrated to AO3. I would not recommend reading any of it because I was 11-15 years old at the time of posting and it very much reads accordingly but yes, and please tell me how you have such an incredible memory.
My ff.net profile: https://www.fanfiction.net/u/5055860/RebelzHeart
Remember to eat lots, sleep well, and floss when brushing your teeth!!
#anon asks#SO CRAZY THAT YOU REMEMBER THIS#they each had like... 10 readers max i think brooo#nonny i love you i hope you know that how did you stay with me so long??? through my awful naruto fic???#i remember getting a hate comment on my naruto fics and being like bro you are talking to a 5th grader#this ask unlocked something in me#i also got a very sweet comment on my ao3 account being like 'i think you're plagarizing from rebelzheart on ff.net'#and i was so happy to be like '!!! that's me and this is a rewrite!!!'#i love y'all so very much this made me so happy
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2 awkward moods from reading this blog: 1) Nnoitra, you are disgusting 2) closeted bisexuals solidarity ///Toby you&ur writing are great <5
❝ I hate 'ta break it 'ta ya, but most guys are like me. Maybe some pretend 'ta be nice, but it's just so they can get some pussy. ❞ That would be his reply to being called ' disgusting ' ( it was not something new to him ). He supposed people were used to guys censoring themselves, to at least seem like they were decent. Nnoitra was not about that. He didn't like being fake. Like HELL he was going to change who he was just to make others comfortable. If people couldn't deal with him? It was their fucking problem.
--- As for being closeted. That was a different matter. That was not about faking something, but rather just keeping something private. If he didn't do that, then people would perceive him in a different way. They'd see him as something he was not. So, by keeping this part of him hidden, he actually gave people a MORE authentic view of him. That's how he saw it anyway. Sometimes, it was frustrating. A lot of the times, he wished the world was different, so that he didn't have to be closeted. And SOMETIMES, he even wished someone would understand what it was like. Maybe he didn't want to talk to someone about it, but yeah - having some solidarity would be nice.
#[ !! thank you very much for the ask anon! :O ]#[ you're so nice t-t i'm very happy you enjoy my writing! ]#[ AND ALSO !! i try to write nnoitra as a multi-layered character ]#[ because yeah he's absolutely horrible but even he has sides to him that people can relate to ]#[ so it makes me super happy that you can see the different sides of him! ]#[ thank you very much for sending this kind ask! ]#despair for me. ╱ in character.#talking shit. ╱ answers.#burn the city. ╱ main verse.#[ and also - i hope you reach a point where you feel safe and comfortable about being bisexual ]
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Sup, I've been silently lurking and liking stuff on your blog for atleast 1 year now (I can't exactly remember when, I just know that it's probably a year now if not then almost a year) and I love your art so much. Your MineDai art is lovey and funny (and what introduced me to you), but seriously... you creating MasaDai art is the wish I didn't think would happen and thank god it did. I see it as a crack ship and almost no one ships it from what I've seen before, so to have someone do some art is great and it's from you so it's more lovely. The moment I saw Masato's emo looking punk ass and know that he is around the same age as Daigo, then dressing up in a more formal way in his later years... I knew this can be a ship, a funny one even (and even funnier with Ichi and others). Thank you for this blessing.
Anyways, I love your art and it always makes me laugh or atleast smile. Ngl, it also did motivate me to keep improving and practicing to draw better 💙. And maybe create some fanart as well when I'm finish being shy 😅 lol
(Ps. I noticed something and I find it funny how people tend to (mostly) ship Daigo to characters that are canonically dead or never to be seen again after their appearance in one canon game XD. Like bro's romantic life is a mess, they be leaving or dropping like flies. Okay that's it, bye bye. Have a good or atleast a decent night/day. 🤗)
hi howdy lurker, thanks for stickin round so long ! :^)
ALWAYS happy to hear people likin my stuff and how it can make their day better whether it's makin em laugh or it's just something they can look at and go 'oh sweet', it's my main drivin force for drawin so much so i'm glad to hear it every so often ^^
SAME ON MASATO/DAIGO THO i remember playing Y7 and my immediate reaction to masato was just that he was like daigo if rgg leaned more into him being goth and it KO'd me. i just needed them to be A Thing immediately- AND THE FACT HE DOES BRUSH UP AND 'BECOME DOMESTICATED' IS SOOOOO (masumi saying that they should think similar to each other since they're about the same age is, while very VERY small, does feed my delusions more too so that's always fun). i can't even blame people for not expanding on their potential more though: masato already is a controversial character to talk about, so trying to discuss him for too long kinda gets awkward. i'll be the freak soldier willing to bear that burden of loving him tho 🫡
i could talk hours and write essays about masadai so i'll spare you the rest of the ramble: it makes me so happy to hear people pick up drawing more after following me 😭❤ art's so fun and it's always great seeing what other people can make and do, and it's such a personal experience so whenever i get to be a part of that somewhat it makes me overjoyed :') i'd love to see what you make if you ever want to share it with us anon 🤭 but no pressure, i get being shy about wanting to share things you draw, so even if you never post anything just know i'm still supportin you and what you do and i hope you're havin fun !
#fave#snap chats#replying to the PS down here because my tags basically function like a PS segment lmaoo#but yeah no it's not daigos fault his interesting dynamics only include dead/one-off characters </3#honestly i like that tho. something about the exclusivity makes it better somehow#i mean we can see if aoki survives in 8. which i dont believe but ill never forget the day i finished 7 and everyone was copin LMAOOO#ouuugh anon you shouldnt have mentioned masadai cause now i wanna draw them#but i woke up to my arm being numb so i wanna conserve whatver durability it has left for the comms i have this week 😭#guess i'll just have to write hehe#anyways again !! this was very sweet to boot up me computer to :')#i cant stress how much i love gettin asks like these they really do start my day off right#i hope you're havin a lovely one anon ^^ and i hope my posts can continue to make you happy !
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Hi, me again, a long-time fan, especially of the Carnivores series. I saw you took down Carnivores. I understand why, but I would like to share my thoughts. Please hear me out.
Unlike some of the other stories you took down, Carnivores is all about Daesung. To me, it is about Daesung’s temperament, resilience, and all the little things cute and lovable about him. It is about how he copes with the world around him. It is not about that person at all. How can that very minor, irrelevant part of story, or person, take away something so beautiful. This, sadly, kind of already happened in the real world. I just hope it won’t repeat again here, or ever.
You and many of us probably gave that person too much credit. Do you find him remotely interesting enough to be really worth your time and struggle? Is that person worth you throwing away all the hard work and talent you put into Carnivores? Carnivores seems special to you, like it is to me, and he is not worth it. The world is a complex jungle, we can never overcome all the evil, but at least we can celebrate the light that we found.
Something more practical. In most chapters, except for Bright Like the Sun, that person didn’t really play much of a role. As far as I remember, he didn’t even show up in New Heights, Laying Claim, First of Many. These chapters also feel like they can stand alone. It is a tricky for my favorite chapter Dreams Like Ashes Float, but it is so beautiful that I just want to chop out that person's part. Or perhaps change the name? Just some ideas, not even suggestions. I am just sad that Carnivores is now gone for something so irrelevant and forgettable.
Anyway, if taking down Carnivores brings you peace of mind, please know that I respect and support your decision. I remember you were very happy and tremendously creative when you first came to this fandom. I hope you can get back to that good place, even if BigBang or even Daesung is not there. Just know that your work has inspired and is deeply appreciated by some fans.
Hi, wow, thank you 🥹
I quietly took down the Carnivores series in about October of last year, around the time I realized TOP's moon scene in Still Life was set in the future, not the past, and the music video was BIGBANG's way of telling us they were going to be apart awhile longer as they go their separate ways and pursue solo projects. I decided I should do the same -- focus on projects -- and turned my attention once again to Carnivores.
First of all, I took the series down for reasons only partly related to the former member. You're right; for the most part, his role in the story is relatively insignificant, with a few exceptions, the biggest being Bright Like the Sun, which, uh, is filled with a whole slew of problematic messaging given the state of BIGBANG today -- most notably the Seungri rescue scene toward the end (after a landslide, stuck in the mud under a crumbling bluff) and Daesung's insistence on not leaving him behind. Carnivores goes hard on the theme of family, of a "found" family -- in this case, a found family of five. Because a long time ago (in a galaxy far, far away...) that was my absolute favorite thing in this fandom. As it is now, I'm deeply uncomfortable with promoting that subject matter using the names and likenesses of the BIGBANG members, even in my past work.
I'm sorry you're sad about Carnivores being gone. I thought a few people might be when/if they found out, and I still feel a twinge of guilt over snatching it away from the few people who liked it. But my reasons for taking it private aren't all bad or sad. Not to me, anyway. I'm not ready to share in too much detail because it's still in the extreme early stages, but the plain truth is I took Carnivores down because I have plans for the series. Non-fanfiction plans. I want to turn it into original fiction with the goal of publishing it.
But before that... I need to rewrite the whole thing. Overhaul it all. No one will be removed from the story; everyone's names will be changed. Well, they already have been. After some brain retraining (lol) and a brief adjustment period, I don't even think of the guys in terms of their BIGBANG names anymore; I now think, talk, and write about them using their new names. Someone once said to me (once upon a time) that as much as the characters reflect their inspirations (the members), they have lives of their own. Though it's taken some time, in the years since I concluded the series in 2018 (and in a way, the hiatus helped with this) I feel I've finally managed to unlink them from their inspirations. While preserving their personalities, of course, and holding tightly to everything I came to love about them while developing and telling their story all those years ago. They're still familiar and dear to me, and I still want them to be known... just in a new and improved way. And to a wider audience.
On the one hand, I'm really excited about it. On the other, I'm a little overwhelmed. I spent a few weeks in the fall reading through the series slowly and critically, returning to it in a way I hadn't since its initial run in 2016-2018, and I thought, "Well, it's a start." I didn't hate it, but it was so much worse than I remembered haha. Yet, at the same time, it was neat to see my growth as an author from beginning to end, and by the time I reached Innocence and Instinct, there really wasn't much I felt required major revisions. All in all, what I used to view as a finished product I now see as a first draft. To take what I have, 300 thousand words in 8 parts, and reshape it to fit my new vision will be no small task!
You're correct in sensing that Carnivores is special to me. It always has been and I'm sure always will be. Unlike those other stories I took down, removing it from my list of fics is like gutting my body of work. Yes, the events of 2019 did dampen my fond feelings for it. But I've since found a way to love it again, and to even breathe new life into it. It's set to undergo so much change (expansion and enrichment) I didn't want it "out there" anymore in its original form, where anyone can access it and see what it used to be. And I needed to disconnect it from BIGBANG, preferably long before it reaches the publishing stage. If I can be successful with this, I think it will all be worth it.
#...#I just realized 'after a landslide stuck in the mud under a crumbling bluff' is a surprisingly fitting description#for seungri throughout the events of 2019 and the trial that followed#because a bluff is not just a steep cliff -- it's also a kind of lie#a crumbling bluff = a lie that's falling apart#I'm sure y'all see where this is going#lol this is what happens when you're sensitive to symbolic imagery#but at the same time... I do so love working double meanings into my writing#anyway#your 'you were very happy and tremendously creative when you first came to this fandom'#and 'I hope you can get back to that good place' comments#really packed a punch -- in an 'I'm so touched' kind of way#you've been around a long time huh#if I touch on that I'll go off on another tangent and I think this is enough for now#so I'll leave it at thank you again... from the bottom of my heart#bigbang#carnivores#fanfiction#ask#anon
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My name is Levi and my favorite emoji rn is 🤺
Levi my love my beloved my baby my husband my most precious person my entire world 🥺❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ I will give you the moon and the stars and the universe if you want me to <333 also because you're Levi, I'm giving you the best of the best and everything I can 💖💖💖💖 and of course, you're getting more of everything because you're my love <333
Chinese name: 勇安 (Yong An): 勇 (Yong = brave, courageous, fierce); 安 (An = peaceful, quiet, tranquil, safe)
Japanese name: 翔 (Shou = soar, fly, glide)
Korean name: 준용 joon-yong (Hanja: 俊荣 Jun Rong): 준 [俊] (Jun = handsome, talented, capable); 용 [荣] (Yong/Rong = honour, glory, flourish, prosper)
Bubble tea order: Earl grey milk tea, 0% sugar, no ice
Dessert: Lavender cookies // Palmier // Hanami dango
Send me your name and I'll give you three things!!
#anon.asks#rei.answers#lovely anons <3#i was smiling to myself when i woke up and saw this ask 🥺#anon i love you and you are very kind thank you <3#it probably doesn't mean much to you but to see 'levi' in my inbox is making me so happy haha thank you so much#i hope you like everything i've given you!!!#i really put in a lot of thought behind those names hehe#also... earl grey milk tea no ice no sugar is my favourite bubble tea drink to order#also i love palmiers and hanami dango so much#i know you're not levi but i just wanted to share my favourite things with 'levi' haha#i'm rambling oops but really!! thank you anon <3#i hope you can drop by again as my levi 🤺 anon maybe...? hehe#no pressure ofc haha but really once again thank you for this!!! i am now a very happy girl ^^
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The symptoms you’re describing sounds a whole lot like burn out, which happens to the best of us when we push ourselves too long and hard past our limits. It definitely would seem easier to rely on external statistics (likes and reblogs/retweets) to determine the value of your work when you can’t see it yourself, but this is definitely something that can make you feel worse when the numbers don’t hit your expected target. Regardless of the size of your audience, it’s not unreasonable to want or desire for interaction and positive feedback for work you’ve put time and effort into producing, especially when you’ve done so with more limited resources (time/energy etc) than you had access to before. While it’s not a sure-fire way to cure burnout, taking a break and getting enough rest as well as allowing yourself some breathing space can help. Take care of yourself! Love your work—but don’t burn yourself down to the ground! There’s only one like and one reblog that I can give 😢 even if I want to give more…
hey anon! first, thank you for taking the time to write and send this in 🥺 second, it's a bit of a late reply bc i started crying while reading this for the first time and had to come back to it later ajdsdjfsjdf ;;;
you're probably right, i think it is burnout. i've been telling myself otherwise for months now bc i've been worried that the frequency of my posts has set myself up for others to expect something of me + not making art to share would be letting my followers down. but that's also locked me in a cycle of feeling guilty for either not drawing or making something that has no love behind it. logically, i know that taking a break would help, but i'm apparently not the best at allowing myself to take it easy 😅 still, i'll take your words to heart.
ty again for this, and i promise your one like and reblog is enough! i'm thankful that you leave notes on my posts and immensely grateful that you would even consider giving more <3
#no bc why did i think it was a good idea to scroll through posts about b.ts enlistment after my first read through#all that did was make me cry harder sdfsjds though i guess that goes to show how long i've been unconsciously worried about this#regarding the thing about posting and getting attention#that's definitely correct and it feels weird to admit bc it's extrinsic motivation#i obviously draw for my own happiness and it's been that way my entire life#but ever since i started sharing my art on social media i've been exposed to external validation from strangers#the main reason i started this blog was to challenge myself and see if people aside from irl friends/family actually think my art is good#and i secretly hoped i could make some friends along the way bc. it was a very lonely point in my life#so ig you're right it isn't Bad to want others to acknowledge your hard work#it's definitely just a different experience that i'm constantly in the process of accepting#but ty again anon i'm giving you a hug rn#or if you don't like hugs then i am shaking your hand or smth#if you're one of the ppl that consistently leaves notes on my posts then i'm sure i recognize your username when it pops up in my notifs#and even if you aren't one of them i still appreciate the notes and ofc this ask#anyway i hope you're having a nice day!#letter
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