my thing is you get me a little drunk and i'll start blubbering about Now That We Don't Talk and right now that's whats happening and let me tell you. she said "i guess i don't have a say" after having soooo much to say! even thought they're over, she spent all that time getting to know them and she's left standing there, holding it all in her hands. she still knows they get anxious, she knows how hot they are that they turn heads at a party, how their shorter hair felt when she ran her fingers through it, she knows what they look like when they're pretending to be someone else, their favorite music, who they looked up to, but now she has no use for any of that information anymore. nobody to tell it to. nobody to give her opinions to anymore, but she still has them because she still cares! what does she do with all that care now? who can she tell if she can't tell anyone? where does she put it? she wants so badly to tell them all of this just to know what they'd say back to her, but now she'll never ever know. it's that phantom limb, that love you lost too soon and too fast. like how The Beths said "Love is learned over time until you're an expert in a dying field" and phoebe waller bridge said "I don’t know what to do with it. With all the love I have for her. I don’t know where to put it, now." and that's it isn't it!!! into the song!! she puts it into the SONG!! it's a cathartic dumping ground for the all care left over, making a patchwork something out of the scraps. and so the song ends with determined spite, sending it all off like a funeral pyre or a flaming, viking farewell pushed out to sea. the only way she can let it go is to burn it with white hot indignation, burn it so she can't take it back, and she will be better off, goddamnit, she has to believe that. because the truth is that she will never actually, really know if she truly is better off, what they'd say or what her words would mean to them even after all this time. because she can't ask and they won't answer anyway because they don't talk and they never will again. cheers to that!!!

who wants to hear my absolutely stunning ideas for atla soap opera aus

I HEARD YOU HAVE A SONA,,, MAY YOU SHOW MAYHAPS..??? :0

i do have one yes! been having one for a while, mostly based on how i look irl, here's a (really bad and rushed) reference

never really posted about her because i thought no one would be interested HSJKHFJKHDKJEHG but yeag. her name is himawari which basically means sunflower and she wants to be a nurse

kai  (allegedly)  has the best raves and lopez shows up just to get away from sarge and the cardboard cutouts.... 5 bucks is a small price to pay for some peace.

also he can just turn his ears off when a shitty song comes on or when kai annoys him

I think the way the Lady and the Thin Man became a lot more enjoyable to me as a duo when I stopped believing Six to be the Lady needs to be studied in a lab

hope this doesn't awaken anything in me..........

[video description: an ace attorney screencap of simon blackquill in the defense bench. he says "Are you still stuck on that line of thinking?" he then quite roughly grabs our point of view by the collar and pulls "us" close, saying (with ace attorney hit sfx), "Motive, opportunity, and an injury to his forehead -- Is that all it takes to make you stop believing in your client?!" He stares intently at the player as the textbox disappears for a few seconds. /end description]

it is beyond frustrating to see the loz series so dedicated to going in such a new & innovative direction in regards to gameplay, yet still so stagnant in regards to the story. like, sorry to be that person but the fact that it's 2023 & you STILL can't play as zelda in any of the main games is mind-boggling to me. even in totk, a major part of the story still revolves around rescuing- sorry, finding her. she has such a deep meaningful story (which is a step in the right direction, for sure!), but the player can only experience it secondhand as link. she is allowed to be a companion character, but only for the first 5 minutes of the 100+ hours you can spend in the game, as a little teaser for the OTHER companions you get much later (who pretty much all suck except tulin & sort of yunobo, but that's another post). we see her sacrifice, but we only get small snippets of the experiences that led up to that sacrifice. she is put through so much trauma & has to make this impossible choice, & we don't even get to grieve her properly or tell anyone what became of her. & by the end of the game, it doesn't matter because she's back to her regular old self, same as she was before she swallowed the stone, with no lasting physical or mental effects whatsoever, because why should her sacrifice actually have any meaning outside of how it served link? & before anyone argues with me for saying that, yes obviously it did have meaning outside of how it served link. but the way she is restored in the most ridiculous deus ex machina i've ever seen in a zelda game cheapens it severely. everything magically gets fixed by rauru & sonia, & just like link's arm, zelda is left no worse for wear, because of course we can't possibly have our main characters permanently changed by any of these horrific events they've lived through, oh no nothing like that.

link saves the day & gets rewarded with the beautiful princess.

this IS the basic story of almost every single zelda game & you can split hairs all you want, but it's the same with totk as well & i'm just so beyond sick of it. i think zelda (the character AND the series as a whole) deserves so much better than that.

Nocturne is so underrated I don't get it, do people just never meet her in the house of grief. she's Shadowheart's old friend who gives quite a few little details about Shadowheart's past... she's the only Sharran left standing if you don't go the dark justiciar route sooo most people, she's an absolute sweetie... at the end of that quest she's just as emotionally shattered as Shadowheart but unlike her with no support system (so we should be her friend!) she's ourple, she's canonically trans, she's another example of a Sharran whose heart is soft and willing to open up... there are so many good npcs and I love them dearly but this one is for Nocturne who is so lovely

ok it was this screenshot. even if it angers Lady Shar!!! who says something like that. I really wish there was a quest following this because she doesn't have anywhere else to go at the moment :'(

super shitty mspaint doodle to check if I still got it in regards to drawing with just a mouse. The answer is no, and my hand hurts.

She started to run out of hair dye.

Chica: Hey, if you were a bug, what do you think you'd be?

Roxy: I dunno... A wolf spider? Maybe a butterfly?

Chica: Yeah?

Roxy: Yeah, why? What do you think I'd be?

Chica: Hm... I think you'd be a bumblebee.

Roxy: What? Why??

Chica: Cause you're always beesy!!

Roxy: ...... >:|

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been getting back into mother 3 after All That and every time i see the sunflower field im like. whoa. that's so neat. i am Not overthinking it !

it's 3 am and i am deeply invested in the fanon i have created for myself with my various evil british people shows

I love my friends

i printed pictures of Tink today, I get them tomorrow.  I came across a video I have of her just whining and yeah. but this is one of my favorite pictures.  truly, the best most feistiest girl (that’s her Tired toy she loved and wouldn’t take any replacements, i caught on quick as to how much money i’d waste if i kept trying to change the toy :’))

here's lumina recreated (to the best of my abilities) in gacha club!