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c-a-e-l-a · 3 years

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another one of my past rambles. this was posted on july 20...around aleab naria's updates too oh god i've so many jamikali vents bc of that event 😭

this one is mostly kalim-centric and it's just me being depressed over how my best boi's usually misunderstood by some fans... it's a pet peeve of mine to see others completely disregard the depth & potential of his character : // like it pisses me off so mUCH when they just woobify him & make him out as a happy-go-lucky & somewhat dim-witted dormhead who always depends on and causes trouble for jamil, like can't they see he's trying? that there's obv more to him?? I can't stress this enough agagagagaga

oh right, this was written WAY before the current revelations on kalim's character (which, admittedly, aren't that many *sighhs*) and my current hcs & perceptions on jamil & kalim have changed a lot from back then.

of course, the frustration they cause me r still there, but yknow :") it's been half a year & i'll never get out of this snakepit

...well anyway. off to the ramble--

07/20/2021: no but it just hit me that jamil at least had his sister and his middle school friend (who is this guy) to hang out with as a kid, while kalim only had jamil..

and right, in kalim's bday ssr personal story, kalim mentions that he does play with his siblings every once in a while, but like, if that were the case, then why does he go out of his way to find jamil & play with him???? besides, according to jamil in kalim's lab coat personal story, there were times when the other parents of the asim household would try to assassinate kalim.... and to avoid that, i think kalim's contact with others---including his younger siblings---was limited as much as possible. (09/29/21: EMPHASIS ON "I THINK.")

that would explain why kalim is so attached to jamil tbh, because in his eyes, jamil's always been his only trusted friend....... save for the magic carpet of course, but don't you think it's lonely? having a magical carpet for a best friend. . .

and additionally, while kalim does acknowledge & appreciate jamil for the person that he is, he's gotten used to depending on him for the most part of his life, because of his upbringing.. and that's what makes it so suffocating on jamil's part, bc while kalim's intentions have been nothing but pure, they're also quite selfish.

like, the thought of kalim following jamil to nrc bc he's afraid to lose him is. . . .very possible. i mean, kalim's nearly lost him after he got poisoned in his stead, too, and that would explain the over-attachment even more. but the thing is, that choice of kalim's was wrong, since it only made jamil feel even more suffocated. . . .and then it lead to the scarabia incident.

kalim's character development in the pomefiore arc shows that he's beginning to realize that his selfishness played a part in jamil's overblot. but at the same time, he acknowledges that it's also because he was never given a chance to realize that he was wrong. everyone's coddled him since before, and it never occurred to him that he was being too much. . .

which leads to the question... "is kalim okay?" hAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA of course not.

this guy's still smiling despite everything that's happened in the scarabia arc---no, rather, he's been smiling despite all the kidnapping & attempts at his life in the past. he's smiling as he struggles w/ the fact that jamil's never truly seen him as a friend, w/ the fact that everything he's ever achieved was given to him bc of his societal status. he's smiling amid all the self-doubt, distrust, and inequity that's being thrown his way, and if i ever EVER see someone say that he doesn't deserve just as much help as everyone else in this godforsaken game, I WILL SMITE YOU WITH MY JAMIKALI ANGST.

someone save him I JUST NEED AT LEAST ONE TWST CHARACTER WHO SEES KALIM FOR WHO HE IS. PLS YANAAAA (09/29/21: I was struggling so much here oh god)

. . . . . okay enough abt that, i'm just saying this bc i managed to catch a break rn, and also bc amid the outbreak of najma fanart, i've also been seeing fanart of child kalim watching the fireworks festival all alone. twst fanartists kill me. twst kills me.

(09/29/2021: uhhhhhh yeah no one should tell past me about what happened in chapter 6)

#twst #twisted wonderland #twst analysis #twst spoilers #twst ramble #twst kalim #twst jamil #jamil viper #kalim al asim #jamikali????#Its been months but someone please give Kalim a hug #and jamil too #everyone deserves a hug

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cancerfairy · 2 years

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Hello there luv! I was like “omgomgomg” when I saw that you were actually thinking about me ahhh<33 but your reading was so good I couldn’t help but come back for more hehe

my questions : how is p.r.’s current energy/feelings towards me like has it changed or will it (is that two questions or one?? Sorry about that😅)? how should I go on with this situation with him, like how should I proceed I mean?

your reading ~ your life next month (in honor of Feb starting tomorrow)

Oh wow ok I see a lot of fulfillment coming in this February for you. I’m not sure if you’re a student, college I’m guessing, either way this month is bringing in a lot of abundance in terms of higher education. Either that or just a lot dedication towards learning and studying from your end. I see that there’s going to be a lot of “going to get things done right” energy here. Not only will you be able to do well in school or education wise but you might be able to find a balance within your life and work/education . Yet, I urge you to be weary of handling too many tasks at one time, remember that you are human and need time to rest Luv. Decisions also might need to be made this month that may cause you some internal struggle. Again, there’s quite a bit of ambitious energy within this ready. I see you’re ready to take on your tasks with strength and head on. I see there might be rapid movement in your education, maybe classes are going really fast, or even in career yet the difficulties will be less. You’ll soar through the sky with energy. There might be a theme of looking inward this month. Maybe taking a look at your own habits and behaviors that tie you down and figuring out how to let go and move forward. There’s the message of not letting yourself hold you back, take whatever fears and anxieties you have and confront them with the vigilant energy you have.

Cards : 3 of Coins, Two of Coins, Eight of Wands, The Devil (r)

Your future spouse current energy

Oof, ok so they might not be going through a good time right now. There might be some bad news that bogged them down recently or they’re having a setback with something or someone. There are so many different decisions laid out in front of them and what they can do about the issue yet they’re unsure on how to proceed, even overwhelmed. Yet they might be just now finding some clarity..actually maybe the issue , or “truth”, that was brought to them is what is causing them some trouble. Something that was hidden was just brought out and it may have caused them a lot of stress. Yet, whatever it is, is something that they are choosing to not run away from. They’re confronting it right then and there despite the confusion it brings to them. Yeah I’m sensing this issue is about someone else . They might be either leaning on someone else for help on this matter or even be solving the issue related to that person. Overall, they’re a bit unstable right now but slowly getting back up.

Cards: Page of Wands (r) Seven of Cups (r) The moon (r) Two of Cups

I hope the readings resonated! If not then I will not mind doing them again :)) Or if you have any further questions then feel free to ask <3 Honestly, I wish more cards came out but for some reason more weren’t coming out 🥲 Either way I hope you enjoyed <3

thank you for the readings bb <3 i'm not in school rn but i will be keeping an eye out and updating you if something you mentioned happens. but i definitely do think i'll have to make a bunch of decisions this month sigh bc i really need to confront my anxieties you're right :(

for the fs one.. oof seems like he's going through it rn but yk he'll probably get through it bc that's simply life

❁ your exchange:

᪥ your question: what are p.r's feelings about you and have they changed/will they?

༄ cards you got: the fool, the high priestess, nine of pentacles, the tower, the four of wands -- two of swords at the bottom

p.r wants to start new with you and wants a new beginning with you. i got the message "i want your forgiveness" perhaps he did something to you or confused you with his feelings before and it made you stressed but i'm seeing he felt bad about it. like i said before he still thinks you two have some sort of soul connection and it's something his intuition is telling him as well. i think he adores you and wants to build something with you.. something tangible and perhaps a relationship? but he's confused right now and kind of at a crossroads. i'm also getting he feels intimidated by you a bit. maybe you're someone who seems independent or you have this like "girlboss" aura LMAO but yeah he feels comfortable around you yet intimidated if that makes sense. i feel like his feelings will change and develop into a stronger and more stable energy. but i do have to empathize that his overall energy is very indecisive. because i got three major arcana i can tell he feels a lot for you and i believe it's only a matter of time before there's a stable offering with the four of wands as the last card.

᪥ your other question: what should you do in this situation/ how should you proceed?

༄ cards you got: queen of cups, death, king of pentacles rx, three of wands, the empress, page of pentacles rx, the hanged man -- the tower at the bottom

you're being asked to do nothing but be patient. you need to pour some of the love you have him for him back into yourself. you need to stabilize your own emotions, get in tune with them and then change your outlook and perspective on this situation. the more you try to force something to happen, the farther it drifts from you. change will happen eventually but you need to be more patient with yourself. worry about the tangible things in your life and things you can work on. search for ways to love yourself and recognize that you are lovable. you need to work on your codependency with this person or with things you're addicted to in your life because they affect your romantic life too. you also need to let go of control issues. it's causing stagnancy in your love life and you just need to let things unfold the way they're supposed to.

i'm sorry if this is short btw, i got pretty straight forward answers so there wasn't much to write about :(

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freevoidman · 5 years

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Okay I’m reading through Porg’s update so some of y’all can save your braincells and here are some great highlights (under a readmore bc i couldn’t help but tear into a few things she suggested):

Flat out ignoring that Vergil had changed by the end of the game as a result of V and Urizen’s separate experiences.

In trying to make V and Urizen their own character, she throws out the idea of Vergil being manipulated by the Qliphoth/Urizen (??? somehow??? even though the tree is implied to be non-sentient i believe???), with V being a Devil hunter looking through the remains of Mallet Island (which was completely blown up, turned to rubble, and then swallowed by the sea, so... that can’t happen), finding the cane which makes him youthful and not sick but... having the cane makes it so he can only kill demons through the cane??? for some reason??? And he needs the Qliphoth fruit to heal himself and free him from the curse???

How did she make V’s backstory even more confusing and complicated how the fuck did she do that

Almost immediately after bringing up the cane, she instead changes it to be one of the rings he’s wearing because she wants her “precious V” to use weapons other than the cane, which makes all the prior paragraphs about the cane’s curse and only using it pointless. She’s the one writing this fic, why can’t she edit her own work so it’s more cohesive?

Despite saying that V should be a Devil Hunter, she doesn’t explain why someone who is supposed to be killing demons would form a pact with at least three to fight demons. Her rewrite dismisses Visions of V, and she even states later that the manga is a waste of time as it won’t ever be translated into English (which 1) is not a limiting factor to reading it as many people have translated it already and 2) doesn’t dismiss it’s value at building up V’s character, who she supposedly likes the best).

Also, for someone who complains about DMC5 being a rehash of DMC3, she’s sure doing her best to change it to a rehash of DMC1 (Vergil being controlled by an outside force, bringing back Mallet Island, bringing back Mundus [the cane is supposed to be tied to Mundus]).

V apparently can’t be human because she wants to give him a devil trigger, despite having 3 familiars and his own strength. Okay I guess?

Also it’s really fucking sick how she describes V changing, because it’s apparently V fusing with Nightmare? Devil May Cry has never been one for body horror but she straight up says she was inspired by “The Thing (1982), The Fly (1986), Bloodborne, and Resident Evil 7″ for the transformation imagery and I wanted to nope the fuck out of there real quick.

Her segments of actual fiction writing and dialogue are really bad it’s almost like a parody Youtube skit.

She switches between prose and script writing randomly, it’s really odd. She does it primarily with Dante i’ve noticed? Here’s an example I wrote of what she does:

“Hey, don’t stress out about it will you?” Says John following a few steps behind VINCENT: Don’t get your panties in a twist

And that just happens... randomly? Like, there’s no indication why she’s doing that it just happens.

She straight up writes notes in her fic about the controls for character actions in-game what the hell--

She also shamelessly puts in a link to artwork that clearly isn’t her’s (and I highly doubt she got permission to post about) to try and show what V’s Devil Trigger would look like. I couldn’t find it because I don’t know how pixiv works, but that’s just a shitty move, especially with how she treats artists on tumblr when they draw art of Vergil.

EDIT: Porg has now straight up copy-pasted the art into her fic without the artist’s permission which is, we all know, fucking theft. While it is good artistry, is just a weird mashup of Vergil’s and Dante’s. It’s not all that unique and I don’t understand why she had to reference a bunch of body horror shit when all the Devil Triggers in game are essentially just a large flash of light and a seamless transition between forms??? It’s good art, I’m not trying to bash the artist, but... Porg, you could’ve been a little more original here rather than just ripping off another artist’s designs...

Everyone in her fic acts super casually to seeing Vergil alive in the Qliphoth and it’s like... honey, no.

Vergil acts WILDLY out of character holy fuck. Like, I know I should have expected that but this is NOT how Vergil would act in the slightest. She’s pretty much writing an OC.

Building off of this: EVERYONE acts OOC and... it’s not exactly cringey, but it is perfect proof that Porg doesn’t know what she’s doing and hasn’t properly analyzed the characters.

Dante acts weirdly... detached? There’s no sign of him acting like his normal goofball-y self, and he’s much more serious than normal. He actually acts more like cannon Vergil than himself, actually. (He also knows CPR apparently? Which... is a skill he would really never bother learning, so...)

Nero doesn’t act nearly as emotional, and acts calmly for some reason. You can’t feel any of his emotions behind his dialogue, only through the adverbs added to the tags)

V is too informative. He knows way too much about random shit that... no one should rightfully know. I’ll mention it more later, but... V doesn’t act like himself and I don’t really know how to explain it.

Vergil is essentially her OC. Seriously--he’s not as brooding or snarky, he’s far too open and apologetic, there’s practically no sense of rivalry between him and Dante. Weirdly, he acts more like canon V than fic!V does, despite the fact that Porg wants to establish V and Vergil and separate characters. His actions also make no sense when put alongside his canon personality. We aren’t reading anything about Vergil, we’re reading about Porg’s weirdly idealized version of him.

I’m going to make a break in the post here because I feel like this is the part that needs the most attention:

Porg goes OUT OF HER WAY to dedicate a GIANT portion of this chapter to her own OC: Nero’s mom. There are several long paragraphs of establishing the relationship between her OC and Vergil, talking about leaving Fortuna, how they were ‘happy’ and then saying that after a hurricane (inspired by hurricane hugo, you’ll see later) she got separated from Vergil, never reconnected with him, GAVE BIRTH, died from a demon attack with Nero staying near her corpse, and then Nero was found by humans and taken off the mainland to be taken to an orphanage on Fortuna. She wanted a massive amount of time to be taken out of the fun parts of playing Devil May Cry to establish a relationship that would never come back and essentially turn into a 15 minute soap opera inserted into a game about having fun killing demons.

Alright back to the noted highlights.

Porg confirms in her fic that the universe of Devil May Cry happens in the US, and that Fortuna is an island along the southeast coast and I want to fucking rip my eyeballs out at this point.

The ONLY REASON why she is doing this is because she lives in Florida. I know she does, and she just wants to imply that this is all happening near her home turf. How anyone who lives in Florida thinks an island like Fortuna can exist is beyond me though, because playing through 4, most of the buildings are inspired by Italian designs, and no one in the states would build an entire island with italian designs. I’ve been to Florida multiple times--there’s no buildings there even REMOTELY designed to match Fortuna.

EDIT: I have been informed that Porg actually lives in Pennsylvania, not Florida, which makes both more and less sense. Why Florida? Why not a hidden island up on the east coast? Why does this have to be taking place in the states at all Porg???

Yeah, let’s take Nero off the MAINLAND OF FLORIDA after a DEVASTATING HURRICANE and send him to an orphanage on an ISLAND which would’ve been hit the hardest by ANY hurricane. TOTAL SENSE.

She tries to make her own timeline for the series using actual real world dates and events and it’s terrible (she references Hurricane Hugo in 1989, and confidently states that 3 took place in 1990, despite all evidence for the actual dates of events being fan theory established through circumstantial evidence).

There’s so much horror movie inspiration here--not cheap horror, but really twisted shit that... doesn’t fit with Devil May Cry’s tone at all? In the slightest? She references Jacob’s Ladder, plus all the other body horror media I wrote above.

Straight up just tears Vergil’s arm off which sure, I guess we gotta make THAT a parallel between Nero and Vergil. They can have a father son moment over being physically maimed.

In the scene immediately before this, Urizen picks up Vergil by the head and roots around Vergil’s memories (somehow???) to show him all the ‘bad moments’ in his life to traumatize him. She describes it as the audience getting flashes of him falling to hell, charging Mundus, being Nelo Angelo, etc.

This causes Vergil to cry and beg for Urizen to stop. Then Urizen rips off his arm. So. Yeah. Another point for the OOC!Vergil/OC-taking-Vergil’s-place board.

Also this point ALONE made me realize that Porg does not know how much time, effort, and money needs to be put into making assets. Like, the entire fic she was stressing that everything be done in 5′s HD Graphics--including the ruins of Mallet Island, so I have to assume she’d want these little snippets in HD too, which would be a massive money hole creating these assets for one scene that lasts maybe ten seconds total.

I know I stated it in one of my earlier posts, but most of what she’s writing would fit better with a sequel for the reboot series, not DMC5. It would make her OOC writing of Vergil make sense, all the horror movie inspiration and body horror shit would fit better there, especially all the crappy dialogue too.

She somehow made Griffon even MORE annoying than in cannon.

BTW if I had to listen to poetry while fighting the final boss of a video game, I’d sooner turn my PS4 off. Not that poetry isn’t cool and all, but it cheapens the final fight and distracts you. It wouldn’t work.

EDIT: I realized this point made no sense without context, sorry. Porg made the Book of Urizen (the poetry book by William Blake referenced multiple times by V) either weirdly prophetic or made it out like Blake had inner knowledge of demon powers or... something along those lines, and V magically has the knowledge that reciting poetry from the book about Urizen will... harm him? Weaken him? Open a gate to hell (she mentions a portal appearing near him)? It’s very unclear, but she essentially rewrites Urizen as the final boss, and makes it three stages (V [Griffon recites some verses, which is what the first point was about], Vergil and Dante [this is where Vergil gets his arm ripped off btw], and then Nero) with all three of them reading poetry from the book to deal the “final blow” to Urizen. I’d much rather have Vergil be the final boss than have to go through a three-stage boss fight while every character I play as recites poetry to kill the boss.

She mentions Dante using Sin DT against Urizen but I’m pretty sure with her fuckery of the game’s events Dante can’t GET Sin DT? Because there’s no fight between Nero and Urizen where he’d intervene?

COMPLETELY IGNORES VERGIL’S DEVELOPMENT OF WANTING TO TRAVEL WITH HIS BROTHER THROUGH HELL TO ELIMINATE THE QLIPHOTH FUCK OFF.

Also she changed the lore of the Qliphoth so that it sprouts semi-naturally around every 500 or so years? So... shouldn’t leaving the Qliphoth roots be fine now? Since it’s natural?

Nico acts like growing back arms is totally normal

Wrote an INCREDIBLY shoe-horned in moment in the van with Dante filling Trish and Lady in about finding Vergil and everything that happened where, once again, Trish and Lady act almost completely nonplussed that Vergil is alive after 20+ years in hell, with about 9 of those ten years being trapped under Mundus’ control and corrupted by the Demon King

Seriously why is no one surprised in this fic that Vergil survived? Dante has a brief moment before finding him, but everyone finds out and accepts it like flipping a switch (once again--ESPECIALLY DANTE, which is NOT how the grieving process works)

Porg states that the ending is trash because the twins are fighting in hell, but completely ignores that most of Dante and Vergil’s lives have been built on conflict and they like fighting demons, especially Dante. Both of them were happy and doing what they love.

She also completely ignores through this entire thing that Dante was really fucking depressed in the novels leading up to 5 but hey I don’t even know if she can read.

I can vaguely agree that Trish and Lady were sidelined and they should’ve had a bigger role. However, I can’t fault the directors for not doing this, because they were already developing three playable characters with their own unique fighting styles. She writes all this shit about the story, writes notes about controls and mission layouts, but forgets that it takes a lot more than pressing a single button to code a game.

She just doesn’t know what she’s talking about. Seriously, none of these things are cohesive or edited properly, and despite her saying she wanted better for Vergil, or Nero, or Dante, or V, she writes all of them incredibly out of character and doing illogical actions. I just... I don’t get it.

The best part is--I can’t even tell her about these things, or give constructive criticism. She moderates the comments on her fic and isn’t afraid to delete anything she doesn’t agree with or can’t make a ‘passionate rant’ about.

#devil may cry #derelict-stranger #thephantomporg84 #i'm doing y'all a favor here

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whatsupstairs · 4 years

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At that point the subsequent stage is to send a guarantee and they caution in large strong letters: If you send two cases, we will deny your guarantee demand!!

I nearly feel like i'm causing them a genuine bother with my guarantee. mastitis, engorgement, child encouraging, not having a siphon for about fourteen days are for the most part issues that they appear to be extremely indifferent about.

Purchase this siphon. Truly, quit looking, get it. This audit is long yet will ideally respond to any inquiries you have. Or on the other hand post one and I'll attempt to answer it.

Not long ago I had twins conceived at 34 weeks. They were progressing nicely, yet spent some time in the NICU. At the point when children are in the NICU, you become overly fixated on how a lot of milk they are getting. They can't return home until they take their "essentials" and put on weight. Subsequently, I've essentially been solely siphoning since they were conceived. My young lady would hook, yet I was unable to tell the amount she was getting and she would get drained following a couple of moments and wouldn't take the remainder of her jug. My kid had breathing issues from the start and was being sustained with a cylinder for the initial 10 days. After that he needed to figure out how to eat and would get worn out, so I didn't attempt to nurture him. Since I needed to sustain two and needed to share my stock, siphoning was the best approach.

Since I had preemies, my protection paid for me to utilize a Medela Lactina siphon. This is the huge blue thing that is "medical clinic evaluation" and retails for a boatload ($1500 for hell's sake!). I utilized the Lactina for the initial two months yet needed something increasingly compact (I purchased a vehicle connector so I could connect it and siphon in the vehicle on long outings). What's more, the Lactina is noisy as anyone can imagine, which was irritating and I really secured it with a cover to stifle the sound so I could siphon in a similar room my significant other and multi year old little girl were sitting in front of the TV in so I could be a piece of the family. I thought about getting a Medela Freestyle, however read blended audits about having the option to look after stockpile. Having twins I would not like to hazard my stockpile going down.

I went out on a limb an and purchased this siphon utilizing gift vouchers for about a large portion of the expense. I assumed if it didn't work in any event I wasn't out all the cash. Best. Choice. Ever.

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Marvelousness:

- It is SUPER peaceful contrasted with the Lactina. I have no clue how it analyzes to different siphons, yet it will be pleasant to have busy working and have the option to pick up the telephone while siphoning.

- It is entirely versatile. I needed something I could clasp to my belt and stroll around the house, yet that is the Freestyle and I was unable to hazard it. This is really lightweight, and I'm really thinking about getting a strip through the handle and putting it over my neck. It never bombs that when I'm siphoning my significant other is out of the house and my more established little girl needs something. At any rate, I've put it on with my sans hands siphoning bra (Simple Wishes brand-purchase that as well) and had the option to put it on the kitchen counter to make containers or lunch or whatever. Haven't had a go at preparing supper yet, yet that may occur.

- Nightlight is truly flawless, and has two levels.

- Timer is a cool component. Most people don't have to siphon for more than 15-20 minutes, yet most people don't have twins. The clock close the siphon off following 30 minutes which is to what extent I siphon for. I used to set a clock on my telephone, however don't have to do that so much any longer.

- Massage highlight is entirely clever. This siphon nearly beats when making suction. It was somewhat unusual from the start since the other siphon didn't do it, yet it really makes siphoning truly agreeable. The "rub" include accelerates the siphon and is intended to invigorate frustration. When you have setback, you should kill the back rub include. (I don't, I like the quickest speed for my siphoning. Yet, once more, twins.)

- Memory include the siphon recalls what your last "typical" and "knead" settings were and returns to them.

- Vacuum control-I utilize the siphon on either level 2 or 3. It has 12 levels. Stunning. As a medical attendant I'm truly pondering who might require level 12. Perhaps for somebody with modified areolas. Possibly if the battery ever gets frail I'll have to go up.

Idiosyncrasies:

- It required some investment (most likely 12 hours) to completely charge the battery when I initially got the siphon. It additionally says it can run connected, which is valid, yet so far as should be obvious really utilizes the battery whether or not or not it is connected. I could not be right.

- If you utilize the nightlight include while siphoning it will deplete your battery quicker, and you will probably not get an entire three hours of siphon time. Presumably not an issue for a great many people but rather important.

- The containers and siphon pack are quite modest. That would likely be my greatest issue about the entire thing. In the event that we are spending this a lot of cash on a siphon, the pack ought to be outstanding. (Most siphon units are quite horrendous, so this is about decent.) But everything isn't lost. The parts of the bargains really fit into my unit I had been utilizing with my Medela. Likewise, and this is an issue with most siphon units, most ladies would need to lean forward to get the milk to drop down when sitting upstanding. Along these lines, my Lactina pack had removable spines which I quickly hurled and utilized the calculated ones from Pumpin' Pal. (Purchase those as well.) Also, I purchased a siphon connector unit that worked with the Playtex bottles I was utilizing so I could siphon legitimately into the drop-in liners. (Cleaner that way, in the end the containers will get gross regardless of what you do.)

- If you are not utilizing their reverse valves, you have to focus on your tubing. I am not, and have gotten some dampness into one of the cylinders on the end. I simply blow it out with a hair dryer in a few seconds. The tubing is not much and you could undoubtedly supplant it with something from the tool shop on the off chance that you expected to. It would likewise be quite simple to jerryrig the tubing from another siphon pack, which I may do so I can join the reverse valves.

The "cons" I recorded here may appear to be a ton, yet to me it wasn't sufficient that I would remove a star. I've had it for about fourteen days and I love it, and haven't saw a drop in supply. I'll refresh this audit in the event that anything changes, yet I don't see that occurrence.

So go purchase this siphon. Or then again put it on your library or list of things to get. You won't be grieved.

Connections for the items I referenced:

Pumpin' Pal Super Shields, Angled Pumping Flanges, the Best Flanges By Far in a Complete Set of All Sizes Mom Will Need

Straightforward Wishes Hands-Free Breastpump Bra, Pink, XS-L

Playtex Drop-Ins System Breast Milk Storage Kit

Refreshed 10/16/13 - A couple more item connects for all the parts I'm utilizing with my cobbled-together custom made unit. You truly needn't bother with anything other than the calculated spines and sans hands siphoning bra, however on the off chance that you needed to sort something out that is more easy to understand, here are the connections:

Medela Personal Fit Breastsheild Connectors - Medela 87071

Medela Valves and Membranes (Set of 1)

UPDATE 10/28/13-I've returned to work and am taking this siphon to and fro. I simply put it in a little tote pack I had at home. I made two siphon units so I can leave one at home and one in my office grinding away and all I reclaim and forward is the siphon. That likely wasn't fundamental, however I presumably would have wound up overlooking something one day so this was my approach to ensure that didn't occur. Siphon is magnificent, and no one can hear it when I pick up the telephone. The specialist in the workplace beside me is siphoning also, and you can hear her siphon a few doors down...

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roseamongroses · 4 years

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Antithesis: “what do you have? “ I have a kNIFE” “NO”

[Specific-Summary]: They should expect growing pains. For not everything to feel right or make sense. That doesn't mean it'll always hurt, nor does it mean they can't have fun along the way. It's senior year. Everything may be different. It won't be senior year for long. Everything will be okay.

[General Warnings]: Implied Emotional Abuse, Implied Physical Abuse, Bad Parents are Bad Parents, Mild Sexual Content/jokes,Mentioned Homophobia, Mentions of underage drinking (backround), Some Catcalling,Cursing , Self Hate,implied pregnancy talk/inability to become pregnant, adults arguing where the “kid” can hear it, adults drinking,

[Tags/mood:] highschool au, fluff and angst but its all good, chat fic, teen stress, its flordia no snow we die like men [Pairing:] Roceit (Roman Sanders/ Deceit Sanders), hinted future/possible logince/roloceit/loceit [Characters]Roman Sanders/Deceit (Dmitri) Sanders, Virgil Sanders, Logan Sanders, Patton Sanders, Remy (Sleep) Sanders, Nate Sanders, Dragon Witch (Diana) Remus “The Duke” Sanders (minor/brief)

(Ao3) (Previously)

(8) (9) (10) (11) (12) (13) (14) (15)

(16) (17) (18)

L: I May Have Lost Roman

V: nice

P: not nice :)

V: i feel vaguely threatened

Rem:@L how the fuck did you manage that Rem: nvm i know how just give me details

L:I don’t know ? One second we were at check out L: Next minute he was Gone and Nieve is looking suspicious

L:Hold on lemme ask Dmitri

V: why is he there

L: I mean he’s actually pretty chill L: But he dropped Roman off and Nieve got attached L:I’m...not sure if she’s planning on letting him go?

V:logan, my friend, my buddy, V:the only person in this chat with basic reading comprehension

Rem: that’s pretty fair

P: it really is tbh

V: Send. Pictures.

L: Okay L: Slight Issue

V: you lost the snake too

L: I lost Dmitri too and Nieve is not spilling

Rem: oh they’re defeinately fucking

L:...Where? The bathroom?

Rem: Don’t knock it till you try it ;)

V: not to be that guy but im vetoing this discussion V: cause thats a Yikes even for you Remy

L: Alright time to find them

Rem: check ;))) the;))) bathrooms ;;))))

L: Remy.

Rem: alrighlright too far ill stop

L: Thank you.

V: keep me updated V: i only have silence and physics homework as company

L:Huh L:Found them

L: Roman….found a katanna…

V: im sorry WHAT V: Why The Fuck Does He Have A Sword

Rem: drop the location of that store man

L: 1) It’s a Katanna L: 2)I will certainly Not. L: 3) He’s trying to convince Dmitri why he should have it

L…..and Dmitri looks more amused then concerned

V: if I can't have a tarantula he sure as hell cant have a sword

L:I told him it was probably fake/ poorly made and that he should take the time to invest the proper skill in money in a real one

V: goddamit logan you cant logic roman.

L: It worked. He put it back. L: So I say I can do what I want with roman

Rem: some spicy takes from the chats only brain cell ;)

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“So you’re turning eighteen, in a few months. ” His aunt said, dabbing her cheeks with a napkin. She still managed to hold an air of prestige despite getting utterly shitfaced the night before. Her appointments have been going well.

Dmitri looked up, masking his surprise and holding his tongue.

Dr. Montag looked over, quieting the running water and placing the dish was he was cleaning down, “Really?” he said, brushing his hands, “You got any plans?” he asked, Dmitri.

“Oh we usually do something small,” His aunt interjected, “But seeing as he’s my father’s favorite grandchild,” Only grandchild, “He’s is flying from Paris to join us. And he was never a man of modesty so I’ve been thinking about doing something special for the occasion.”

Oh.

Dmitri fought the smile creeping on his face, ducking his head. He shouldn’t be surprised that she remembered after all if his grandfather was visiting. It’s how he got his phone, laptop, his car.

It’s probably why she puts up with him, to begin with. Cause it wasn’t guilt.

“--We should get your hair cut,” She continued, and Dmitri snapped out of his thoughts, “Maybe invite Diana--he’d like her,” she murmured.

“Diana and I a-” He closed his mouth, and his aunt’s eyes shot over.

“You broke up?” She narrowed her eyes, examining her nails, “Huh, makes sense seeing as...” she gestured at him vaguely, “So who have you been sneaking around with?”

“I’m not sneaking around with anyone,” Dmitri said, meeting her gaze. And technically he was right, it’s not sneaking if she just hasn’t been asking. And he’s given up on telling.

Dr. Montag’s eyebrows knitted together confused,” Well that isn’t true,”

Dmitri’s eyes went wide, stomach sinking.

His Aunt’s grin spread, “Oh really?”

Fuck, Fuck, Fuck, Fuck--

“He’s been helping me out, hon,” Dr. Montag set down a glass of water and pills beside her plate, “You’ve been so stressed lately,” he looked guilty and produced some tickets, “I thought I’d surprise you.”

Her face softened and like that the tension left the room. Those two got to linger in whatever lovey-dovey spell had taken hold of them in the last few months, but Dmitri was still on edge.

She still kept him on edge, but he could get her back. Even the playing field. Anytime he could leave this—Anytime he could flip this switch and put her on edge and make her—

He stopped eating, setting his plate aside.

He felt sick.

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R:helllloooo R:anyone up R: sigh R: allll by mySELLLLF

L: Roman?

R: the one and lonely yes hello human contact???

L: Are you alright? It’s 3 am why are you still awake?

R: why are YOU up mm????

L: My parents have newborn twins. What’s your excuse?

R: well fuck got me there

R: i was texting dee but he was rlly tired and i stILL can’t sleep

L: Any particular reason?

R: u m

L: Private chat?

R: please

- [TheTruthAboutTheMoon]

TheWalkingMouth: Okay shoot

Cowboy:it's stupid

TheWalkingMouth: I’ll tell you if it's stupid or not just say it

Cowboy: i just….like Cowboy: it's all kinda….hitting me a ll at once and i Really don’t like thinking about it but i cant bottle shit up either like you bastards so i feel like the human equivelent og a washing machine with too much laundry in it

TheWalkingMouth: Then don’t? TheWalkingMouth: Even if it's too ‘stupid’ for me I’m sure Dmitri wouldn’t mind

Cowboy: yeah but i feel like im going to say something shitty to him i Cowboy: like we should talk about it Cowboy: and i will Cowboy: but not now--later when it's not too stressful for either of us

TheWalkingMouth: Why would you say something shitty?

Cowboy: idk id jst get frustrated trying to explain it Cowboy: like hes smart as hell and probbaly get it without me saying anything but like Cowboy: I have neither the patience nor articulation right now to explain like a civil person and he doesnt need me being shitty about it

Cowboy:like,,,,,for example,,,,, if he fucks up in school, he’ll get recommended a tutor and teachers would assume hes doing his best and hes such a sweet and quiet boy

Cowboy: like he is sweet!!but hes a little shit too!! And gets away with it!!! Half those pranks he pulled on virgil, as Iconic as they were he never got in trouble for them!!!

Cowboy: when i fuck up i

Cowboy: god it's stupid

TheWalkingMouth: Might not get a second chance? Yeah I get it.

TheWalkingMouth:Remember when I first transferred here? None of the teachers would take me seriously bc of my accent and if they did, they were afraid of me. I could repeat something another kid said word for word and still be told I had an attitude.

Cowboy: god i remembered that Cowboy: you answered his yes or no questions in a fuckin montone, quiet ass voice and he legit called in the office cause he got scared of a goddamn freshman

Cowboy: But ye when i fuck up Cowboy: im suddenly the lazy ass brown kid who should spend less time corrupting youth with my feminine hips and curls Cowboy: like it's not like a lot of them say it outright but it feels like if im not perfect im fufilling all the stereotypes

TheWalkingMouth: Ah okay, rant away

Cowboy: OK like like like im not like virgil right?? in a lot of ways and it fuckin shows

Cowboy: he’s been planning on going into engineering since sixth grade meanwhile i only got my shit together in highschool

Cowboy: and like now that im here/???what now??? My mother expects me to have my shit together meanwhile im over here freaking the fuck out over whether not it's worth it to even try Cowboy: like yes mother i want to go to an art/or librel arts school that may or may not accept me that we may or may not afford to find a career in who the hell knows because if i have to sit in a healthcare class or a applied mathmatics class like you did i miight actually shank the professor????

Cowboy: that i dread the thought of not trying to explore my options outside of this fucking state but i dread the thought of going bc i cant stand the thought of being away from home but i cant fucking find a reason to stay cause everyone i love is leaving or planning their own life anyway???

Cowboy: like remys gunna fuck off to who knows where regardless of whether or not he has a plans or money, pattons gunna take care of his grandmother whereever the fuck a canada ,moms moving in with tia, virgils already mentally flipping me off ready to fuck nasa , and i only fucking hope dmitri even getss the chance to choose where he goes but hes g o n e and i die from yearning behind a screen like the gay victorian i am , and you….i actually dont know

TheWalkingMouth: Teaching for either biology or physics

Cowboy: huh it fits but what about chemistry??

TheWalkingMouth: Fuck chemistry.

Cowboy: oh thank god we’re on the same page

TheWalkingMouth: Anyway, I assume you’re more worried about whether you should apply rather then if you could get in?

Cowboy: i think so

TheWalkingMouth: Well if my opinion means anything to you

Cowboy: more than you’re assuming but yeah continue

TheWalkinMouth: Wait

Cowboy: nothing nothing continue

TheWalkingMouth: Okay-- I think you should go for it but you don’t need to dive head first into it and commit to everything 100% like virgil did.

TheWalkingMouth: You’re allowed to keep your options open, to have backup plans for back up plans

TheWalkingMouth: It doesn’t mean you’re not passionate about your art. Doesn’t mean you’re inevitably going to get a office job and abandon all your dreams. It means you’re being smart and not backing yourself into a corner

TheWalkingMouth:It’s okay to be scared. It’s okay not to have it all figured out

TheWalkingMouth: Nobody does.

TheWalkingMouth: Even if no one else gives you a second chance at least give yourself a second chance.

TheWalkingMouth: It’s perfectly normal to be afraid to fuck up and get fucked over TheWalkingMouth: That doesn’t mean you will everytime TheWalkingMouth: And it certainly doesn’t mean it's the end

Cowboy:

[...Cowboy is typing…]

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@daflangstlairde

@ace-anx

@cataclysm-al

#Roman sanders #Deceit Sanders #Roceit #ts sides #sanders sides #sanders sides fanfiction #ts virgil #ts logan #ts remy #Antithesis

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clownmoontoon · 6 years

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I'm interested in watching Osomatsu-san, but I have a few questions, if that's ok. 1. Sub or dub? 2. How do I know who's who? I already know some of the easy ones, thanks to you. Thank you in advance! (P.s. Thanks for telling me about BNHA!)

ITS A REALLY GREAT ANIME AND IT HAS SOME OF THE BEST CHARACTER WRITING I HAVE EVER SEEN. IT IS ABSOLUTELY ONE OF MY TOP FAVE ANIMES EVER

HOWEVER

idk how old you are (or the age of anyone possibly reading this) so i feel i should say Osomatsu-san has a lot of mature themes and is CLEARLY meant for a more mature audience of the adult/college age/MAYBE later teen variety

all the main and most important side characters in the show are at least in their 20′s.

im not recommending this show to kids is what im saying haha

its nowhere near as wholesome as hero aca

ANYWAY ONTO YOUR QUESTIONS

1. Sub or Dub?

as of right now there is no dub Viz Media, who most recently did the redub of sailor moon (AND ITS FANTASTIC BTW SO IT GIVES ME HIGH HOPES FOR MATSUS), had sent out a tweet saying that the dub was going to be released some time in October of this year but …nothing happened?? my buddy @arr-jim-lad even contacted them about it, and they responded that there were no updates to mention. ://///SO right now sub is all we got haha

ITS REALLY GOOD THO SO ITS NOT LIKE A NEGATIVE OR ANYTHING BC THESE VOICE ACTORS ARE AMAZINGdef my fave voice actors of any sub ive watched (and ive watched quite a few)

2. How do I know who’s who? I already know some of the easy ones, thanks to you.

one of my fave aspects of this show is that after a few eps, despite them all having the same face, it becomes VERY EASY to tell them apart haha this is part of why the character writing is so strong imo!

but here’s a few tips and tricks to look for just in case you cant tell right away!

🌈COLORS!!!🌈

❤️Osomatsu - the eldest of the sextuplets and the show’s namesake - RED

💙Karamatsu - 2nd eldest - BLUE

💚Choromatsu - 3rd eldest - GREEN

💜Ichimatsu - 4th brother - PURPLE

💛Jyushimatsu - 5th brother - YELLOW

💖Todomatsu - 6th and youngest brother - PINK

the easiest thing to get the hang of first when it comes to noticing the matsus is def their designated colors! Even when theyre not in their trademark hoodies they can usually be seen wearing their colors somewhere on themselves so if you cant tell who’s who right away LOOK FOR THE COLORS!!

if theyre all wearing matching outfits you can look at their hair shinies bc they’ll usually be their color when nothing else is! (tho those are a bit more subtle in coloring bc ..well..shinies haha)

😄EXPRESSIONS and QUIRKS😎

each of the bros has a standard neutral expression, and some of them have fun quirks that make it very easy to tell who’s who! lets start backwards this time \(ouo)/ (mostly bc from the start the youngest bros are def easiest to recognize…besides karamatsu ofc)

this got quite long so check under the cut for all the bro details and fun collages i made for each bro bc i love this show too much! \(>u

💖Todomatsu (pinky boi)💖

he’s the designated “cute” boy, and the worst/best self-centered millennial stereotype. actually a total mean girl in disguise, and (according to his bros) a “vile monster”. i love him and he’s a cute demon. not the worst bro but pretty darn close.

neutral expression: :3voice: highest pitch of the bros and often whiny quirks: - can usually be seen w his smartphone - acts the most feminine (covers his chest if naked or topless)- always has eye shinies - two hairs sticking out on the top of his head - calls all his bros “niisan” since he’s the youngest

next up MY BOOOYYYYY

💛Jyushimatsu (YELLOW SUNSHINE LIGHT OF MY LIFE)💛

the hyper-active, forever smiling, incredibly powerful, baseball boy! if something weird and crazy is going on jyushimatsu is either directly involved or about to be. he’s always laughing, smiling and making weird jokes/noises. a very sweet boy who is entirely too powerful. He often dresses as animals, and is used as an “attack dog” to torture whichever brother he’s commanded to (usually oso). A very unpredictable boy to say the least. Its hard to imagine an ooc version of him bc there isnt much he would not do or say.HE IS MY FAVE BEST SUNSHINE BOY

neutral expression: 8Dvoice: lowest pitch of the bros but also the loudest, often making weird/nonsensical sounds/noises such as: BBBBOEHBA!! 8Dquirks: - often goes cross eyed - is incredibly strong, can lift and throw his adult brothers like nbd - never has eye shinies in the anime unless he’s about to cry - wears shorts when everyone else is wearing pants, also some times wears a traffic cone on his head- wiggly arms and sleeves too long (even when its not the hoodie, usually his sleeves are always too long haha)- only one hair sticking out on the top of his head

((MANY THANKS TO @arr-jim-lad FOR THE TILTED PIC IDEA ITS ADORABLE))

next up my second fave, NEKOMATSU

💜Ichimatsu (purple cat man)💜

the designated darkmatsu, ichi is the slow moving, constantly slouching, quietest boy who thinks cats are way better than people. the least motivated matsu, even going out to do fun things (like drinking or gambling) is some times too much trouble. for him a good time is laying on the floor and thinking about death (and also cats). a fan of torture, if the situation calls for causing trauma he’s suddenly very talkative and plays w his voice a lot. he is the second brother (after my boy jyushi) that is often called upon when one of the other brothers (or anyone) needs to be tortured. i love this boy and he is good to my fave boy god bless suujimatsu

neutral expression: B(voice: usually very low, slow and monotone quirks: - eyes always half lidded, no shinies - always slouched- messy hair (some times w cat ears)- only bro to wear track pants (w the line on the side)- has a diff cat in his lap almost every ep, but does not actually own one- two hairs sticking out on the top of his head

up next everyone’s fave otaku,

💚Choromatsu (green frog weeb man)💚

the resident brother mom and a total idol otaku, choromatsu isnt concerned w much else besides his idol obsession and proving he’s way more responsible than his brothers. he often walks todomatsu to the bathroom at night and waits for him to finish since youngest bro is scared of the dark (reminder theyre both grown men in their 20′s). he thinks he’s better suited to be the oldest brother and leader rather than osomatsu and even points it out once, with agreements from both todomatsu and ichimatsu.if anything crazy happens choro is the first to scream about it not being ok. he’s got the strongest will of all the brothers and can never be persuaded to change his mind about a situation. he’s not a fighter at all and usually chooses to stay on the sidelines even if he agrees w whatever the bros are fighting about (killing god for instance).he’s under constant stress bc he’s pretending to do his best while his brothers are terrible i love him give this poor green man a vacation

neutral expression: :voice: higher pitched, not as high as todo but still higher among the bros, and usually using it to yell @ brosquirks: - smallest pupils, no shinies (in the anime)- usually has a worried expression- wears plaid a lot- is irritated almost all the time - wont look for a job bc he’s determined to be an idol manager- no hairs sticking out on top of his head

AND NEXT MY THIRD FAVE AND EASILY THE MOST BEAUTIFUL MATSU

💙 KARAMATSU 💙

LOOK AT THIS BEAUTIFUL MAN, THIS PAINFUL ADONIS OF MATSUS!! IS THAT A GLITTER CROP TOP THAT DOESNT COVER THE CHEST?? IT SURE IS!! ARE THOSE JEAN BOOTY SHORTS?? YOURE DAMN RIGHT THEY ARE!!!

karamatsu is EASILY the most recognizable matsu. w those amazing eyebrows, constant use and abuse of anime eyes, wild variety of glittery, revealing, and leather clothing its no wonder he’s called painful oh my god i love this man DID I MENTION HE SPEAKS RANDOM ENGLISH FOR NO REASON AND ITS GREATalso he’s probably the most caring brother who genuinely wants his brothers to be happy and know theyre loved very much by him ;;

if you cant immediately spot this matsu i dont know what to say to you tbqh

neutral expression: >:Dvoice: he makes his voice deep to sound cool p much all the time but its actually higher pitched than it seems quirks: - wears sunglasses, skulls, a leather jacket, sparkly everything, and p much anything he thinks is “cool”- easily the most expressive matsu just look for those eyebrows haha- puts his finger under his chin a lot - “BURAZAHS” - "heh!”- two hairs sticking out on the top of his head

and now on to the final, the oldest, and arguably the worst matsu

💔Osomatsu💔

THERE HE IS!!!! THE TRASH KING BROTHER!!!!i kid, i kid sort ofimplying that the matsus are not all trash boys is just a joke tbqhfor me osomatsu was absolutely the hardest bro to recognize when i first watched the show, and i think the biggest tip i can give for him is just to look for the red boy scratching under his nose. also the boy who looks like he would buy and sell you. he’s a pretty brilliant con man and a good fighter too, but his laziness outweighs anything that he could possibly achieve in. he’s absolute trash but in a way still lovable?? OH ACTUALLY if youre familiar w the anime Lupin the Third just look for the brother that makes the most Lupin-esque faces he’s got that classic-anime-comedy-male-lead look more than any of the other bros so that might help you recognize him!

could literally be lupin’s little bro haha

neutral expression: its like a stretched version of this :3 w teeth showingvoice: higher pitched, he plays w his voice almost as much as jyushimatsu, very playful and teasing, hardly ever serious sounding quirks: - scratching under his noise- obsessed w money and women (and never has either)- the most addicted to gambling of all the bros (this is sounding less like quirks and more like serious problems omg), favors horse races and pachinko- the “leader”, usually the one telling the others what to do (even if they rarely listen)- calls no one “niisan” since he’s the oldest - two hairs sticking out on top of his head

WOW THIS CAME OUT MUCH LONGER THAN I MEANT IT TO!! if im not careful people might think i love these trash neets or smth oh no

but ye! i hope this helps! or was at least an entertaining read haha❤️💙💚💜💛💖

#osomatsu san #osomatsu #karamatsu #choromatsu #ichimatsu #jyushimatsu #todomatsu #clown honks #moonime #THIS TOOK ME LIKE THREE DAYS TO FINISH HAHA

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doecrowned · 6 years

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i’m an entire day late but i’m finally getting to my intros ... yesterday just wasn’t my day but hello lovelies, i’m lo, or lola, 9teen and stressing in gmt+1, i’ve got two babies here, elia martell, princess of dorne who does already have an intro ( here ) from a lil while back though i do plan on updating it at some point as some aspects have changed! though she’s still the honourable, cunning yet kind, queer namesake of the late elia martell .... on the other side of the coin is this girly right here, myranda baratheon, great/grand-daughter of arya and gendry ( whom myra loves very much ) who i’ll be getting into down below but before i do ... pls come plot with us, i’ll leave some connections at the end of this but i give everyone permission to attack my im’s or message me on discord @ #3454 about anything & everything from plots and connections to just asoiaf.. i’m 100% down ♡

( marina moschen / 19 / cisfemale ) → there has been whispers around the keep that MYRANDA BARATHEON, the LADY of THE STORMLANDS has been spotted. everyone knows she can be very WAYWARD, but some may know that she can be BENEVOLENT & ASPIRING. she has pledged her alligence to HOUSE BARATHEON & STARK , i wonder how long she’ll last in the capital ?

firstly she absolutely adores her grandparents/great-grandparents, trust a day won’t go by without myranda having dropped arya and gendry into a conversation somehow, she’s so immensely proud of her lineage, always seen beaming at the mere concept of her being a descendant of the great ‘storm queen’ … she just loves being a baratheon so much advjsdk

her parents on the other hand, truly wanted to make a little lady out of myranda, have her be the perfect little girl who’d grow up to marry well and charm the royal court because that’s how she graced the world, a doe-eyed, sweet tempered girl.

she started off as an incredibly gentle soul, who was both benevolent and obedient but aged 8, things began to change and myranda took a keen interest in activities considered less ‘lady-like’ by westerosi society, she began riding more often than not, racing through the rocky terrain of the stormlands on her beloved friesian stallion named ‘orys’. it’s at this time, she also picked up a sword, training just as much as her brother did though mainly in her own time as her parents swore off the idea of myranda partaking in weapon training when really she should’ve been sat practising needlework.

it’s from this that she’s grown such a rebellious streak, straying further from what’s expected of a lady such as herself with each passing day.

thus she tends to scoff in the face of tradition, myranda thoroughly believes its in her blood to do so, having been descended from arya stark, one of the most unconventional women to grace the land of westeros and her husband, gendry baratheon, a once-bastard who rose up from a title that was so looked down upon to claim all that his family have now. she believes in more than being a chaste young lady, entering a betrothal found for her by others and living out the rest of her days as a dutiful wife, producing heirs until she can longer do so… she’d rather be playing an active role in shaping the future of westeros, the world that she’ll be living in, and hopefully ruling over in the future.

you’ll often find her running through the forest, or through storm’s end, along the cliff’s edge, bare foot and in a dress that is beyond inappropriate for that particular activity… it’ll often be a long, floaty thing, myranda having let her hair down and allowed the sea spray to drench her before returning home to a chorus of tsking from all her maids.

she adores her homeland and is honestly quite upset to be leaving it to go to the capital however she finds it to be good practise as one of her dreams is to travel, to essos and to each and every corner of westeros, feeling she’s had a pretty sheltered childhood growing up, having never travelled too far from the stormlands before really, no matter how many times she tried...

despite her wild streak and the wolf blood running through her veins, as inherited from arya’s stark side of the family, myra is incredibly talented in deceiving people into thinking she’s the lady she really should be... all of her mother’s teachings and moanings didn’t go to waste ... trust, she knows how to act, speak and portray herself as the lady of storm’s end and the stormlands, i think she finds it entertaining to act in that way, to dress up and prance around like some women in westeros do.

her allegiance lies with her house, and that of her stark family in the north, she’s not entirely, if at all, that devoted to the targaryens but again.. she play her part pretty damn convincingly.

all in all, myra’s not entirely sure what she wants to do in life... she’s keen on the idea of becoming a sellsword or perhaps a member of the small council, though at present... her sole task at hand is swaying conversation away from any potential betrothals coming her way as she understands her hand in marriage is a well desired objective of several noble families.

overall though !!!! myranda is an incredibly chill young girl, who will 100% fight you, physically or just through sharp-tongued quips and japes which all come from an incredibly gentle and warm heart. she’s got the best of intentions and just wants to enjoy life to its fullest, taking advantage of all it has to offer.

that’s all i’ve got for now, but onto some specific connections...

a potential betrothal, one in talks: it’s myranda’s worst nightmare to be promised to someone right now, there’s a sense of entrapment she feels is attached to betrothals and there’s still so much she wants to do and achieve in her life before she even begins to consider such a thing... i’d imagine it’s a pretty mutual feeling of discontent shared between both parties, enough that they could perhaps laugh over it when together but yeah, she wouldn’t touch on this topic with a 10ft pole unless forced to.

her first crush / love: this is just pure fluff ( a lil angst ) !!!!!!!! & very specific, so i’ll probably send it in but she had a massive crush on the kennel master’s son at storm’s end during her early teens. they used to train together in the yard, sparring with one another, riding and racing one another upon horseback, just being cute, soft friends who had feelings for one another but were always incredibly hesitant to act on those feelings. myranda’s very much asexual, having little sexual attraction there, instead just a pure emotional attachment. i imagine he went on to become a knight, kingsguard member, guard for house baratheon, idk but i think myra’s always held this character in very high regard and they undoubtedly hold a special place in her heart.

gal pals: i’m just a sucker for women supporting women so any ladies who wanna group up whilst in the capital and have a little fun, cause a little chaos... hit myranda up bc she’s 100% there for that.

^ even people that she could perhaps fight against, train against, ride/race against like... anyone up for a challenge, cute friendly or rival-esque sorta dynamics would be cool to see.

again, that’s all i’ve got but pls hmu, either on here or over on discord, i’d be so incredibly happy to chat ♡

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cantskank · 4 years

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so i just talked to my mom! and it was a FUCKING mess!

like. i never want to talk about what’s going on with work stuff cause tbh right now i’m fucking miserable and i actually hate what i’m doing but idk if it’s just covid-related stuff blocking me or if i should actually just give up.

anyway i told her i didn’t wanna talk about it today (we talk at least once a week and i always give a brief answer on what’s going on with stuff) and it turned into like a whole thing where to her i’m like withholding and trying to not have a close relationship with her.

which maybe it’s a little correct? but at least part of the reason i keep myself emotionally a bit distant from her is that i don’t trust her to react well to me. like if i were to tell her the truth (like, ‘oh x is not going well for me’) she would pick me apart? which she already started doing once i told her i didn’t want to talk about work

anyway it devolved a bit into talking about how she doesn’t want to talk about the things i care about either which she like totally didn’t understand (lots of ‘oh but that’s just how i am’ I KNOW THAT’S HOW YOU ARE BUT I AM MY OWN PERSON AND REACT IN DIFFERENT WAYS TO THINGS TOO)

then it became ‘oh well i guess you don’t want to have the sort of closeness with me that i have with my mother’ which like. fine. if you want to be that reductionist sure. i was trying to explain how i’ve never felt understood in the family and i’ve learned to accept that sometimes (all the time) i don’t get to talk about what i care about with anyone and it’s not somehow different when it’s you talking about feelings but okay be very accusatory and turn me into the awful person for things

like maybe the reason i don’t share feelings with you is because you do this to me

and it’s like, from my perspective i always play by your rules at least a little bit. like i kinda knew it might not end well but i set a boundary and that was Not Acceptable. (i pointed this out to her but it was totally disregarded and ‘no i’m right because you never talk to me anyways’, i guess having a boundary means less if i’ve previously been reluctant to talk about something before.)

AND the whole thing was also brought about kinda because she asked if i was considering dropping my phd and i basically answered ‘maybe but i’m not looking to make any changes right now’. and despite her past reassurances of ‘oh if it’s not working out it’s fine, we’ll always support you, blah blah blah’ of course that did not go over well, it became ‘well why has it taken so long for you to write, why aren’t you updating me, etc etc’. and when i expressed my discomfort/frustration at that attitude that was when it really blew up

like um. maybe me sharing that is proving the point that you’re not someone i can trust???

like i know that i tend to set very particular expectations for how people treat me in friendships (and i can think of some moments in my childhood that come from her that might have caused that mindset in me) but like. that’s my safety mechanism!! i’m sorry that i’m someone who would rather be alone than have a friend that didn’t treat me the way i wanted and really deeply care about them while being treated like shit

anyway then my dad came to see what was going on and like. i get on naturally with my dad much better than with my mom probably. like we have similar personalities (except he like. works very hard and i am lazy as fuck) and we have similar music tastes (and have gone to shows together) and are both much more chill. and a big difference between him and my mom is that he actually listens and pays attention to what i say (although having him around/getting his attention is much more difficult).

so he comes in and takes the phone and tries to talk to me. he has no clue what’s going on and i don’t want to explain the situation with my mom right there in case i say something she doesn’t like and it re-sparks the argument. also i’m crying (and i never cry in front of anyone if i can help it) so i don’t even really want to try speaking. so he guesses that i’m upset because i’m stressed, and it’s not untrue (though absolutely not the main reason at the moment), since stress is why i didn’t want to talk about stuff at the beginning. so he starts trying to give advice like get out of my apartment more (which i’ve actually been like doing the last few days so i haven’t been doing so badly on that front) which i appreciated! it was just challenging to have my mom right there and not even feel like i could get comforted by my dad? or get comforted about the right thing?

like she’s super sensitive about not being favorite i think- which like i know i’m not either of my parents’ favorite, so it feels kinda hypocritical; i’ve gotten used to it and never complained, so like why does she get to make it a big deal?- and if i’m honest i do prefer talking to my dad. which like she’s winning anyways, bc dad’s around less and so i talk to her more anyways.

anyway, what i’m saying is i can’t get comforted by my dad because i can’t explain the full situation without her saying ‘oh so you’ll talk to dad? you clearly don’t care about me‘ and it’s just like!! i should get to receive comfort without you making it about yourself! literally all i’m doing wrong is disagreeing with you and i’m still trying to care about your feelings

idk that’s basically it. she’s pissed since i don’t care enough to tell her how i feel about work and i just want to like be my own person (

oh yeah and also there was stuff in there about ‘i’m just concerned with how you’re struggling in quarantine, you should maybe See Someone’ meaning therapy and i undoubtedly need therapy but 1 i’ve been waiting until i’m off my parent’s health insurance so she won’t know (like idk how it works anyway but i’m never telling her if i go to therapy so i’m just waiting until then) and 2 everyone’s struggling right now and 3 IT’S A SHITTY FUCKING MOVE TO TELL SOMEONE THEY SHOULD GET THERAPY IN RESPONSE TO THEM TELLING YOU THEY THINK THEY MIGHT BE CONSIDERING QUITTING THEIR JOB. like if you were ~~sooooOOOOoo concerned~~ why haven’t you floated this by months ago? only now you bring it up? when i’m not behaving the way you want/expect? therapy for me to get me back to feeling the ‘right’ emotions?? she’s told me i should maybe go to therapy before although in that case it was sending me to therapy and i was 14 or 15 and struggling with having moved. like she’s only brought it up twice and those were when i wasn’t ‘behaving’ myself as expected. therapy is not something you like threaten/bring in to ‘correct’ when someone is feeling a way you don’t think they should be. like if you’re really thinking i should go to therapy then you should be suggesting it out of support? when you feel like you really understand how i’m feeling/what i’m going through? and not as something to bring me back into line.

anyway then she texted and basically said ‘sorry and i guess i’ll stop trying to be (part of) your support network, i’ll assume you’ve got other people looking out for you’ which like...? what? okay? like even as a teen i was having to be the more mature one and this is another passive-aggressive thing i have to deal with. and in the past i might have apologized? but nowadays my tolerance for that bullshit is extremely low. so i just said ‘not what i was going for but you do you’ essentially and she texted back ‘what were you going for’ and i haven’t responded yet. i will presumably but probably not tonight, i cannot deal. i don’t even know where to start with that, she just really does not get it. and i thought i could almost make her get it today by explaining my perspective but all she wants to think about is herself and her perspective and how she’s right.

so basically i’m very done with things tonight. and i’ve cried a couple times since because i’m just feeling very shitty about everything. here’s hoping tomorrow is better.

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