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foli-vora · 1 year

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Dave York and this quote 🫣

i’m trying to work here. no other thoughts. just dave. dave and his dick. dave and his dick and the playfully dark/dangerous side he’d bring out with his partner. dave. just dave. dave dave dave.

#foli answers #i choked a bit thinking about this #maybe he wraps a hand around the throat #gets all up in your face #murmurs his little threat #then seals it with the most gentle fucking kiss #his ability to bounce between soft and dangerous would have me permanently soaking through my underwear #i don’t even care

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johndbad · 1 month

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I am being so normal about this!!!!

#“just like... choke me a little bit”#i think we should think about them more #smosh #spt #anthony padilla #tommy bowe #antommy

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allyriadayne · 6 months

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Gladiator (2000) // House of the Dragon Season 1

"What is in me you hate so much?"

#SORRY FOR THE BUMFUCK QUALITY this is just me trying to watch a movie and thinking about Them #tags for my safekeeping #aegon ii targaryen #house of the dragon #aegon x alicent #alicent hightower #mariana does things #photoset #*hotd #when commodus killed his father yes YES YES the tiger is free and ready to devour!!!! i wouldn't mind aegon doing a bit of filial torment #tho i do honestly believe more than before aegon is going to be alicent's tiger in a very precarious leash #to either choke on it or kill the hand that feeds

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ivyithink · 2 years

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this quote* fits them so perfectly it’s actually scary. had to draw this, no other choice, sorry

* show “our flag means death”, of course (go watch it if you haven’t, it’s lovely)

#my art #my doodles #tv: mash #mash #m.a.s.h #this must have been done already but i haven’t seen it so…#legit got choked up a bit while drawing this #horrible bastards make me emotional every time i think about them for a bit too long #benjamin franklin pierce #hawkeye pierce #bj hunnicutt #hunnihawk

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natjennie · 1 year

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ookay fine yes maybe I saw a yonderland out of context video and watched the first episode what about it.

#cant get over 'doesnt seem very impressive' 'trevor youre a BLOB'#so yes im obsessed with the weird gay guy ben willbond plays. the elder.#i literally just watched episode one no spoilers #like i thought i understood vaguely what its about and i watched the out of context vid #and had LESS of an idea what its about #anyway 'cant i just call you elf' '... bit racist.' made me CHOKE #the absolute out of pocket-ness... insanity #idk where the name 'the six idiots' came from but #new hyperfixation alert? perhaps #just. the way its an ensemble of people playing a rotating cast is very fun #i like it. the theater of it is very good #very ofmd honestly #i like my tv shows to not take themselves seriously and be absolutely absurd #but with a deep sadness and melancholic triumph of the human spirit and kindness if you think about it for more than 8 seconds #thats my kind of tv #ANYWAY #yonderland #sigh #jennie watches yonderland

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thedreadvampy · 16 days

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Jujitsu class got me showing up to work with somewhat suspicious bruising and a sore neck from being choked. 10/10 would recommend.

#red said #gotta say like as someone who. the majority of physical abuse I've experienced has involved being thrown around #dragged around and choked #there is something weirdly emptying about these classes #i think it's less the learning to defend against it and more the idea that I'm doing it in a safe place #like with people who don't actually want to hurt me physically or emotionally #and I'm allowed to fight back and i won't be treated like I'm trying to hurt THEM physically or emotionally #I'm not particularly good at it cause I've got the strength and flexibility but i keep forgetting what I'm trying to do #like OK GOT OUT OF YOUR LOCK GOT YOUR ARM CONTROLLED. wait what was the next bit? oh no i lose.#but i often can't even cope with people TOUCHING my neck and not only did we do several moves that involved pushing on each others throats #but when i sparred with the tutor he had me in two different chokeholds plus one i wriggled out of and i had a GREAT time #it's SO DIFFERENT to do stuff where you trust the people you're with #EMPOWERING not EMPTYING those are very different words

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bunnyb34r · 1 month

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Why do pills keep getting stuck in like my esophagus 😭 it's not my throat bc I can't taste the pills but i can feel them in my esophagus/where the Adam's apple would be if I had one

I thought it was just happening with this one stupid tiny pill that just refuses to fully go down no matter what, but this advil is STUCK in my thrussy throat like ??? Bitch???

I've tried drinking more water, I've tried eating something after to dislodge it... what the fuck man

#marquilla #im gonna be so pissed if this is like a genetic thing bc my grandma had hers removed and she had such bad anxiety ab choking after the #surgery that she ate only scrambled eggs and a glass of milk for the rest of her life. like it was about a decade of that shit #i think she ate small bits of other foods occasionally but she would only tolerate a plate of eggs and a glass of milk to wash it down #it was sad... like i know it was her anxiety and not like the actual surgery bc i know that that is a very recoverable procedure but 😬#anyways eating sometimes helps but like i have to burp the pill back up a bit before i can knock it down more it's so stupid

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littleheartbeat · 1 year

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It was just a piece of fruit. A small, little, teeny tiny wedge of an apple.

Somehow, that piece was more than large enough to get wedged in my throat.

A cold feeling washed over me as my heart began to pound heavily in my head, so hard that I could feel each pulse throughout my body. Tentatively, I tried to take a breath, but found that I simply couldn’t. There wasn’t a passage of air at all.

No. No no. No, I couldn’t be choking, I couldn’t be.

You were downstairs. I had insisted on taking my apples with caramel dip to the bedroom so I could sit and relax. Funny how things turn out: A simple, calm evening turned into a life-threatening situation in an instant.

My hand reaches for my throat as I yank the covers off. In doing so, I knocked off several items from the nightstand. It would often be something I’d complain about, but in this case, it was a blessing. The crash caught your attention. Your voice calls my name from downstairs.

I scramble towards the bedroom door and do my best to shout. All that comes out of my now blueing lips is a gag. I slam my fists into my abdomen in a pathetic attempt to dislodge the fruit. I couldn’t feel it move one bit. Repeatedly, I do this. I even grab a nearby book and slam the edge of it up into my stomach.

Nothing worked.

On trembling limbs, I crawled out of the bedroom, unable to keep my drool from slipping from my lips and into the carpet. The stairs are just a few feet away, and now, you’re just a few steps away. I could make it-

My vision darkens as I began to crawl down the first few steps. My body slips and falls, colliding with nearly every step.

That is, until you meet me halfway and catch me in your strong arms. My body’s bucking and practically convulsing with pain and the lack of air. You see my pale lips, my reddened cheeks, the veins in my neck popping as my heart frantically beats away the little oxygen I have left.

You know that I’m unable to breathe, but you don’t know the cause. You simply assume that my heart is having a fit. I’m too slow in bringing my hands to my neck to signal that I’m choking.

So, you quickly tilt my head back, plug my nose, and give me as deep of a breath as you could. I can feel my cheeks expand, I could feel your breath try to make its way down my throat to my starved lungs, but it doesn’t make it there. The pressure from your air makes my ears pop. There’s no where for it to go.

You pull away and adjust my head once more, craning my neck further back in a painful manner. In response, my chest hitches higher and higher against your arms, desperate to get a single bit of your air. My hands painfully claw at my own chest, practically tearing at the material of my shirt, as if that was what was keeping my from breathing. It was as if I was trying to carve into my own body and yank the fruit out of my throat.

Once more, you offered me your air, blowing as hard as you could into me.

The air didn’t reach its destination. Once more, the apple stopped it. Only this time with the air, the fruit seemed to be pushed further down my throat.

I begin to panic more, fighting against your comforting arms and biting your lips. My hands go down to my abdomen to smack into myself once more. Compared to earlier, these are weak, pathetic slaps that barely make my body move. Was i truly this weak already?

I realized that I was dying. My head was pounding with pressure, my surroundings were already graying at the corners of my tearful eyes, and my body was fighting for some small amount of air.

Your eyes widen in both guilt and understanding. It clicked: I was choking.

On the stairs, you position yourself behind me and hook your arms around me. Your fist is placed right above my belly button, and with all of your might, you pull sharply into me.

No noise is made from me as you do this, so you do it again, and again, and again. By this point, I’m limp in your arms and my heads hanging down.

I can barely watch as your arms slam into me. I can barely feel as you begin to drag me upstairs to get me on a flat surface. I can barely feel your warm hands pressing into my cheeks to try and stir a reaction, I can barely feel your lips pressing into mine once more to give me your air, I can barely feel it fail to flow.

I can’t feel your hands as they thrust deep and hard with all of your weight into my body to try and get the apple out. I can barely see as your eyes are wild with horror and dismay. Your body bops up and down against mine. Funny, what would normally be such a pleasant sight of you on top of me is perhaps the very last thing I see.

I hear your voice.

And then I simply don’t.

Everything fades.

Part of life is that it ends.

Will you let this be the end?

#mmmmm not too crazy about this #but also I’m just off of an overnight and am thinking about choking #this is a bit of a fantasy right here #being silently killed and your partner doesn’t realize why you’re dying #so they’re using the wrong method to try and save you #and by the time they realize it’s too late #they try as hard as they can to save you but nothing works #and so comes the cpr when heimlich fails #cpr #resus #my writing #idk about it but ehhhdhdkdbdjdb #might delete I’m not confident in it-#still feeling unsure about my place here but I’d like to #i dunno have a little corner of my own

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sporkberries · 6 months

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Giant big wheel i spin everyday to decide what substance i think kaz has a problem with

#i think he’ll do about anything in a social setting. if everyones smoking for example he’ll smoke to #he def partied esp pre msf but i dont think he had any serious substance issues #post msf i think he did a lot of coke and drank a lot of alcohol bc like trauma #i think he got clean once he started diamond dogs and then started drinking a bit after losing his limbs #but he cant drink a lot bc losing his limbs made him a light weight #tpp kaz is def a wine drunk type or guy #and the in the 90’s to the 00’s i think he mainly drank beer and sometimes whiskey #i also think he smokes cigs on occasion but its not rlly a problem problem #in the good timeline where kaz gets better instead of worse he just smokes weed instead of going into the war business #oh and sometimes he misses bb and smokes a cigar but then remembers cigars are awful wnd he chokes on it

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fandom-hoarder · 1 year

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I'm in my goth!Sam feels and I can picture Sammy going all out like this when he was a teen.

ummm, yes, hello bestie this is perf

goth!teen sammy leans into the "evil witch" aesthetic John hates (and dean claims he distrusts by default but can't argue with his dick when Sammy makes himself up 🤷‍♂️) and all the weirdness that goes with it

Sam likes to do freakyass things and see how far he can push Dean, test the limits of his devotion. Test the limits of what he can get Dean to do to him.

Dean whines sometimes about why couldn't Sam try to copy robin tunney's good girl instead, but that is a very weak redirect. Dean does not go for the girl next door. He goes for the pushy girl in his car.

#asks #goth!sam #bestie tag #when i tell you this is fodder for gothclub!sam getting dean to choke him with his collar...#wincest #choking kink #🍋#the craft #fic fodder #witch!sam #tbh #psychic!sam that knows he's a little bit psychic and knows what his dad would think about that and doesn't say anything but--#goes about having a teenage rebellion about it and wants to make his outside look as scary as dad would think his inside is. but--#he's so scared too. he's so scared of dean thinking the things he knows dad would. scared dean would hate him if he knew the truth #so he pushes and pushes and pulls at Dean's limits---and doesn't fucking find any. not when it's sam.#weecest

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twilightarcade · 11 months

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some (4 of them) mildly old art with MILDLY (really) bright colors and a bunch of reds n blacks. In order of how much I want them to die with the death wish getting more severe as you go down

#semidailymaybeificanposting #what's ur problem girl (referring to myself)#most of these are like... not accurate #to nearly anything ever #I wanted to use a bunch of red in art for a bit and use a bunch of red I did #I was going to draw something today actually but I COULDNT. sad.#I think the top one is pretty ok.#like if I didn't have a few really particular grievances about it I think I would like it #'it would be good if it was good'. Basically #these all had little titles btw #in order: choking [] regulation [] RAGHH!!! [] please do not touch the artwork.#ok maybe not all of them had descriptive titles. Whatever. Your problem.#I dislike that last one a considerable amount btw #I could have done better what were you thinking me from the past. Amateur.#trying to schedule these maybe. Just so I don't go insane and blow up

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dont-offend-the-bees · 2 months

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We need better fucking care infrastructure. I should not be trusted with anyone's care ever 💛

#thing is caring for myself? I'm not GREAT at it but i can scrape by #i know my limits i know how much or little i need to survive i know that i can usually more or less bounce back after a tough time #i think if my life fell out from under me i could probably scrape it back even if i wound up doing a lot of couch surfing in the meantime #i genuinely don't know how I'll survive if i have to be fucking sole carer for someone #dad's on his way back now and he's been prescribed antibiotics and hopefully that's that #but at least a couple of times a year there's some shit like this #an awful cough or an infection or a fucking insane choice to like do some diy on the outside of the house standing on the windowsill #he fucking nearly chokes on his food once or twice a week #maybe he's just one of those cockroach type motherfuckers who'll never die no matter how the universe steps on him #but I'm fucking PISSED that he's taking that for granted and won't even sit and fucking talk to me about what happens when his luck runs out #I've been looking after mum alone for what four hours today and I'm already so tired and frustrated i wanna die #i am. a deeply impatient and unsociable creature.#i can be infinitely patient with friends! those are my fave people i chose to have them in my life I'd wait like a fucking mountain for them #mum and i were.... already sort of At Odds before all this started.#i'm the kid she never 100% really wanted and who never really 100% wanted to be here #and now we're stuck together and one day possibly sooner than any of us want it will be. just the two of us.#and i just. i don't know what that looks like. i really don't.#anyway. mental breakdown over hopefullly.#with a bit of luck dad and i actually fucking TALK before the next one #idk man. i never really knew what i wanted to do with my life but i thought I'd have time to figure it out #but maybe I'm just. the unqualified burnout with covid memory damage and a whole ass other human to care for #the exact thing i set out to avoid when i decided never to have kids #anyway. enough oversharing.#thank you anyone who's read my spiralling tag rambles in solidarity i love you #mr. bees speaks

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probablyahazard · 1 year

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im gonna need allospec people to stop placing romatic/sexual love and attraction above every other single type of attraction before i strangle someone. just because my qpr is platonic does not make it 'just best friends' or any less important than your relationship. just because u think we look like we're dating to you does not mean we're secretly in love with each other or that we need to behave in a certain way. please, for the love of all that is holy, shut the fuck up

#this post isnt about anyone in particular /gen #im just tired of people making specific assumptions about my qpr #specifically in a way that is no longer funny #like strangers thinking we're dating #atier bit #my parents trying to subtly hint that i should introduce my partner to them as my boyfriend #and giving me the sex talk?!#choke #hazardramblings #screaming into the tumblr void #aromantic #asexual #qpr #queer platonic relationship

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crimmson · 9 months

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between my computer deciding to rebel, and work, and life, and I feel like I have a perpetual minor cold with that kinda slightly stuffy feel and that taste in the back of my throat,

I am kindly requesting someone to just Old Yeller me at this point

#the computer one is pissibg me off particularly because i Just built this shit two years ago #then i do a driver update a couple of weeks ago and start noticing that now if i game and watch a stream at the same time #some windows process starts choking the fucking life out of my CPU after a couple of hours #and after following a chain of looking shit up i get to ghe event viewer #and there's just a nonstop parade of errors for typically one or two things #at this point i drag my dad in because im out of my depth #i do some more shit. i update and reflash the bios. i check drivers 500 times. i reformat the drive and reinstall windows from scratch.#even if it seems okay for a bit it eventually starts shitting out errors again.#they are either about DeviceGuard or complaining about the network #i look up some more things! i find some references but they tell me to turn off or on some things that are already enabled or disabled.#we begin thinking theres something wrong with the network part of the motherboard #i have an adapter we grabbed from work to try when i get home.#if that doesnt work then i am buying a new motherboard cpu memory and cpu cooler #because if im going to have to fucking replace shit then i might as well upgrade #part of me wants to keep the old stuff and set up a new computer and try troubleshooting because puzzle. and i hate not knowing WHAT PART #SPECIFICALLY is fucked #bro i am so TIRED #i JUST did the math a few weeks ago and was like YES if i live on ramen for a few pay cycles i will pay off my credit card and start saving #to put toward my student loans when those start up again. and my computer went 'lol thats cute'#like i am deathly afraid that i will replace all this shit and it'll STILL have this issue #like. it's useable. i could live with it. but it's clearly not normal behavior and that's what bothers me. something is clearly wrong.#not to sound old but remember when shit just fuckin worked #like i sat there for 5 hours yesterday trying different shit. finally thought i had fixed something. go to bed. wake up.#STREAM OF ERRORS for the network thing again every few minutes while i was asleep.#what are you DOING. what is WRONG WITH YOU.#my dad is looking over my shoulder at the event viewer like 'that looks like a SQL statement but why is it failing etc etc'#EXCELLENT QUESTION AND I ONLY UNDERSTOOD THREE OF THOSE WORDS! why is my computer sick!!#no it's not a virus. i promise. i was raised better than that #it FEELS like something fundamentally broke. it feels like a hardware thing. but how. what fucking demons did microsoft summon #in a driver update. that went into my computer and physically broke my shit

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tvrningout · 5 months

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i’m home and we are gonna write some fluff but gimme a minute bc this day took it out of me despite it being short 🥲

#it’s always the dang bath bomb parties dude 😭#and i’m wondering if maybe my hormones are coming for me with a vengeance bc i got so angry earlier and then choked up #and i’m choked up now thinking about it and it’s okay i’m fine but i feel maybe?? guilty bc my manager (and friend but still)#could tell something was wrong and just had me take five minutes to talk to her which helped a lot!!#and then i spoke to my mom bc i was like a deflated balloon when i got in the car #but talking about stuff is hard man especially when you can tell or feel like you’re overreacting bc something is off with you #be it hormones or sleep or food or just a bad brain day you know #so i’m gonna try to raise my mood a bit before i try to be here #sorry to rant!! i didn’t mean to honestly 🥲#and i hope you guys have had an easy sunday!! pls know y’all make me smile and make this hobby that much more fun 💜#get ready to ramble | ooc #tw vent #just in case :’ )

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miodiodavinci · 8 months

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ouhghgh , , , reached the point where my throat is in so much pain i can't sleep, even with cough drops , , , , i keep waking up every hour coughing so hard i start to throw up by the end , , , , it looks like my fever might finally be going down (original peak of 100.9, now down to 98.8) but god , , , , the agony , , , , , ,

#i gotta sleep too because i have a mandatory orientation at 9am tomorrow #(online conference thank god)#i'm just. frustrated and feeling helpless.#laid into my brother a bit over discord when he gave me a non-apology when i told him to keep this whole mess in mind #next time he plans on leaving his mask at home #i want to feel better soon ; ; ; ;#i have work i need to do and notes i need to take and i miss my partner a lot ; ; ; ; ; ; ; ;#i'm constantly thinking about how much of my room is just coated in covid particles at this point #and how hard it'll be to disinfect all of it when it comes time to end quarantine ; ; ;#i'm trying to cover my coughs but when i'm literally choking to the point that i'm practically retching into my trash can it's. hard;;;#ughghg ; ; ;#i'm frustrated i'm frustrated i'm frustrated ; ; ;#i want to go back in time and yell at my brother a hundred different times for all the stupid selfish ways he's been so careless #“ough this has just never happened before even during all the other times i've gone without a mask :(((”#“it seems my bad luck and poor immune system just got the better of me :(((”#just say you've gotten bold and careless and that this was just one huge risk in a long string of risks you've been taking since day one #you figured you were immune to consequences and now i'm paying the toll #couldn't even get him to promise to take a mask with him everywhere from now on until i laid into him for several minutes . . .#. . .

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