If you want an idea of how I'd act if I ever met Joseph Mawle in person...this is the most accurate example I can give you...🤣

Please tell me I am not the only one!

I mean...can you blame me?! Look at this man! 🥵

Hiii, i love your stuff and kinda from a distance really look up at you for, in my perception, being able to express yourself without giving a fuck. Thats sick dude, Im so so afraid, of absolutely everything, its nice to think like i might grow into someone less apologetic of my existence. Nice to see people just being yknow

hey, thank you, this is really really nice. the secret that is probably not a secret is that i am also deeply afraid a lot of the time lmao -- but less than i used to be, and in ways that feel less stifling and self-suffocating, if that makes sense.

like, it used to be "i'm scared that if i express myself the way i want to, everyone will find me obnoxious, so let's just sand those edges down to be safe" -- now my fears are more like "now that i'm expressing myself in a way that feels natural and real, i'm afraid that it's all stupid/vapid/not worthwhile or meaningful" (<- specifically abt my art) or "i'm happy that i talk and act the way i want to now, but what if it makes me impossible to befriend," etc etc etc. which still feels bad and puts me in a funk a lot of the time but at least it's a fear that comes After/in reaction to doing stuff, rather than a fear that STOPS me from doing stuff, you know? like, it's evolved into a kind of fear that's less in my way.

anyway. i believe you'll experience something like this, because wanting to grow is the first step of growing. the fact that u hope or wish for something different means you're already on your way. to fewer fucks!! or at least distributing the fucks u give in a way that serves u better

IM A DAY LATE BUT HAPPY LEGION COMIC RELEASE EVERYONE!!!

i am perfectly capable of hurting people and being insufferable. i realize this. and it doesnt make me an inherently bad person, it makes me just like everyone else.

bweird OCtober day 3, OLD OC, is Skyra – an extremely edgy but very earnest star wars self-insert, and the earliest named OC that i have a paper trail for. she turns 11 this year, and in that entire time i’ve never managed to update her design one bit <3

bonus original concept art from 2012 under the cut:

baby steps <3

rb with your progress!!

I only lurked on the Internet for a long time and still do not post on most websites I visit but it really is nice to have a place where I can talk about things like animated shows and music and other assorted interests without being judged

i haven’t really talked about my plan for this blog and just wanted to let you guys know i’m gonna stay on this blog. i’ll rebrand but i’m gonna leave all my gifsets up. i might turn off reblogs on my dream ones. definitely taking a major step back overall but i’ll probably still watch/post about other streamers going forward :) thanks for all the support over the last year and a half. i’m so proud and greatful for what this community has given me <3

My sister-in-law frustrates me to no end even though we barely ever interact because she keeps inviting my partner to parties with her Christian Republican friends, even though my partner told her not to send an invite to us if those friends will be there. And even though my sister-in-law is bisexual!!

And then she turns around and complains about not knowing how to deal with her friends saying, like, horrible sexist stuff as though that is just some natural unavoidable quirk of having friends!

Like, these Christian Republicans she has befriended don't seem to be kind - they're not even nice a lot of the time! They don't make for good friends, and she doesn't seem happy or supported in relation to them. In fact, she basically only ever talks about how her friends and/or current boyfriend are making her unhappy!

Because here's the thing: The effect of prioritizing 'including your Trump-supporter friends at your parties' over 'being invested in creating a safe space for marginalized people in your home', is that people who DO care about creating those safe spaces... won't wanna hang out with you! Because if you invite both cats and mice to your table equally, only the cats will show!

She's so afraid of losing the shitty friends she has now that she allows them to act as barriers to accessing friends who are invested in her wellbeing in a capitalistic hellscape!

It makes me sad because she's basically trapped herself, and there's nothing I can do to offer help without either compromising my morals or making my partner's life way harder by starting shit with her family.

Like, I consider myself a good friend, yeah? I try really really hard to be one, and it matters to me immensely. I am ride-or-die for the folks I love, and I am invested in being open and vulnerable and radically safe to be around when it comes to building strong friendships that are mutually fulfilling. I have a unique talent for validating people that I have honed for years because I genuinely want to make sure people feel safe and loved and seen.

And if my sister-in-law and I were friends, I could give all of that to her. I would strive to be an example of what it looks like when someone decides to care about you and treat you right on purpose, without expecting anything in return but your mutual respect. She would be family. She would be [Queer] Family. I would see to it that she knew she could call on me when she needed a friend.

But like.

This asshole has invited me to hang out with Trump supporters on multiple occasions.

We ain't gonna be friends.

"it's always darkest b4 crimson dawn" ....OH MY GOD NINA?!?!?!?!!?

i kinda slay olayed that one huh sahdlksahdksa

i’ll like shut up after this but lately a lot of people have been saying affirming things to me, unprompted, about things ive been working on for years. even when semi prompted they still assert things i used to be told all the time are not true. like its nice to see material change in my relationships to people around me. of course its still painful that i was shitty to people in the past and im not shy about bringing up past shitty behavior because i have little interest in pretending it never happened (not fair to Them) or im not still meant to be accountable for my actions despite change (not fair to Me) but when people are straight up shocked when i tell them things i was told about myself, repeatedly, both by people who did and did not like me, my entire life. idk. im a whole new beast baby.

don' dweeblog

I thought everyone was just hating on m/f relationships for house but holy shit I am finished with two (2) episodes and season 7 is in fact actively terrible so far.

Hairpin Triggers hurts to write and it's incredibly triggering but at the same time it's also the only thing stopping me from spiraling out of control.

i read your post about misogyny in wrestling and full transparency i was like ugh it’s not that big of a deal but then i sorta kept thinking about it and i was like no wait it is and it was so disappointing realizing that my mindset has been influenced to be like oh yeah i’m cool with whatever just to not seem like i’m an annoying woman you know and i hate that about myself, being a woman and a fan of wrestling is hard.

i'm glad that you were able to get past your initial response, but having a high tolerance or being able to look past some things does not make you a bad person. you do not deserve to hate yourself for an understandable reaction that has been conditioned into you by patriarchy. the important thing is that you gave it more than just that knee-jerk thought, and i truly think you should be proud of yourself for that! it's very easy to see a post and write it off as too complainy or not a big deal. please do not hate yourself for this - reserve that feeling for the forces that made that a necessity for you.

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Apparently mckenzie 'retired' his number and is going by 6 instead of 19 now !

So important he (forced) (bugged) (begged) (annoyed) HAD gabe congratulate him on his accomplishment??? He looks so done 😭😭

Also. This.

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