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fedoraspooky · 2 months

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In light of tumblr shooting itself in the foot, I've been thinking about what I should do with my art from now on. Obviously, deleting my old posts off here isn't gonna do shit, it's essentially locking my door after my house got emptied out by burglars. Especially with my old rp account I no longer can log into, they're just gonna steal and sell my old art that I posted there and I can't even flip a questionably-affective toggle about it.

Thing is, I dunno how many people are gonna actually leave. I'm not even sure I will, since I have a lot of friends here... And after so many shitty updates a lot of people are just hanging on out of spite at this point.

That said, I'm considering that for art posts and stuff, maybe I'll post them elsewhere and just link to them here so they're not on tumblr's servers? Idk... Tumblr tends to kill the visibility of links but I'm not really sure what else I can do.

Also, there's the question of where to actually post new stuff. Bluesky seems the most active but I dont know if old posts cut off after a certain amount of posts like twitter does, in which case that would not be a good archive in the long run. xnx

Cohost is functionally pretty close to tumblr, but ngl it seems super isolated on there bc of its commitment to not showing any likes on your posts. I get that its to combat the social media numbers game, but the downside is that it looks like nobody's even seen your work. If people like something of yours there's no way outside of notifs to see it, so scrolling down on your page and seeing only zeros after zeros of comments on stuff (comments are the only visible number), it's easy to feel like you're just posting into a void.

Pillowfort is pretty good, and they just added tag blocking and the ability to queue/schedule posts. Still kinda quiet and invite only, but if you sign up for the invite queue you can get one pretty fast. Also i probaby have a ton of invites sitting around if anyone wants one. I wish it had an app, but mobile web version works well enough I guess, and I'm already used to doing that with sheezy and newgrounds, so I just have those open in mobile tabs together.

Speaking of, Newgrounds has been pretty good, but due to the nature of the portal system and stuff you're more encouraged to post only your better-looking stuff there. You CAN post doodles if you want, but only outside of the portal, which limits their visibility. Kinda like dA's scraps system I guess.

Sheezy looks super promising customization-wise so I'm thinking of posting there more when it opens up to more peeps.

Toyhouse also looks really good for OC and story things too, and also has a good degree of customization.

There's probs options I haven't even thought about, but its good to know there ARE options. I may post in several of those places for now and see how it goes. Test the waters a bit.

If you're thinking of moving your art elsewhere lemme know where, I'm curious to see where people are going :o

Especially you moots, i need to refind my pals in these other places!

#tumblr #tumblr alternatives #alright where we droppin boys?

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bucksfucks · 2 years

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an indefinite hiatus ♥︎

hey friends, to start let me just say that i will summarize all of my rambling at the end so you can just scroll down to it, besties.

before i begin, i just want to say thank you to each and every single person who has ever liked, reblogged, read, or interacted with this blog. this has been a wonderful chapter of my life and i don’t think i can put into words how meaningful all of our interactions have been!

i’ve had this blog for almost 2 years, but i have been on tumblr since 2014, so too fucking long one could argue. basically, tumblr has become a very large part in my life (YIKES). so i’ll try to put into words how i feel:

i am exhausted, drained, and completely and utterly burnt out.

there was a time where i could pump out stories after stories while answering asks and doing au days while juggling everything else, but i no longer have the mental energy for that. and it is to no one’s fault but my own—i did this to myself.

as many of you know, i’m a graduate student. i’m at the end of my masters and truthfully, i have no fucking idea what i want to do after. i haven’t decided if i can manage a phd (or if it’s worth it) or if i want to take time off or jump right into a job.

but what i do know, is that i need a break.

before august of 2021, i was really active on this blog and i think many of you remember those days and truth be told…i miss being able to be on here as much as i once was!

in all honesty, i’ve hit a creative roadblock. i love bucky barnes and i love marvel, just not like before. something shifted a little while back and i haven’t felt inspired to write something i enjoyed.

i took a bit of a break a few weeks ago and before that, i wasn’t on here very much at all. that felt nice. it was refreshing and something that i clearly and very desperately needed.

i also realized that i want to do more than write pure smut. now please let me clarify; i love writing filthy and sinful things. but i want to explore other areas such as character and world building. so, maybe that’s something i’ll pursue after some time as well.

WHAT’S HAPPENING TO FAKING IT?

this is a story that i really like writing and while i cannot PROMISE to update it….any updates will be done on my a03.

this leads me into the next point: what’s happening to the blog and my writing?

this blog will NOT go anywhere. it will remain up and i will NOT take down any of my stories (though i will transfer them slowly onto my a03). that being said, please do not copy, save or plagiarize any of my work in my absence.

i might come back, though, most likely not on here. if i do, it will be under a new blog and if you happen to find me later on i promise you’ll know it’s me.

masterlist | masterlist ii. | my a03

to finish…i guess i’ve been feeling this way for a really long time, but i’ve been desperately holding onto this blog for some unknown reason. this is my safe space and i always knew that i could come back, but today, i got a sign that it was time.

please remember to protect your mental health first. take time for you and focus on yourself always. i want everyone to know that i have loved being besties with anyone and everyone who interacted with me. i mean it. so many of you are such wonderful, genuine people with hearts so big it makes me feel like the luckiest person on the internet.

this is becoming too long for no reason other than i’m a virgo. so. let me wrap this up real quick <<3

TL;DR — i’m blipping out. nothing will be deleted. i may come back (not on this blog). i’ll always be a slut for bucky. i love u all oh so very much. thank you for absolutely everything.

i would tag mutuals but…that feels weird. idk. i have this weird idea in my head that i’m a burden (something i need to work on) so if you’re seeing this and you’re my mutual…lots of forehead kisses for you!

side note: this is oddly something i’m struggling to do. to leave this blog—i’m hesitating. but i know i need to do this. so here i am, ripping off the bandaid.

much much love,

nora.

#nora talks to herself ＊*♡( ⁎ᵕᴗᵕ⁎ ）

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ladydeznutz · 3 years

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When He Loved Me (Peter Parker x Reader)

A/N: My first fic and it's angst that came into my head around 3am. I've always wanted to write fics, but I didn't like how I wrote and I was embarrassed. First time writing for others so I tried to keep away from using just she/her pronouns, but if that's what you'd like just lemme know

I can write for other fandoms, and imma make a list of the fandoms I like bc I have so many I forget. I'll also add some other things if it interests me. Not comfortable with nsfw just yet so apologies. Anyways, enjoy the fic ig and please give me criticism if you see something wrong

idk how tumblr works with spacing and all that so hopefully this comes decent looking

Prompt: Please, don't leave me.

TW: S**cide mention

Every day had started to feel the same to you for a while now.

It started when he began missing date nights with you. He was always so excited about them, and then they were happening less and less often. You still saw him on occasion, but it felt more like "business" than anything else.

You didn't get the same giddy feeling you used to get when you'd see him; it felt like going out with him was more of a chore. You couldn't even complain to him about it even if you wanted to. Anytime you did see him long enough, he was always gone within a second, always in a rush. You never knew what he even did with himself or if he was thinking about you at all.

It definitely didn't help that you'd always catch him hanging out with his friends. You confronted Ned about it, but he was always so dismissive. Hell, you had even talked to Michelle about the whole thing. At first, she sympathized, but then it was as if a switch was flipped. You used to go to her to vent about Peter and the relationship. Now, she was practically telling you that you were overreacting.

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You felt like you were going to have a mental breakdown.

Learning about a loved one's passing is always one of the hardest things for anyone to deal with, especially when it's someone you deeply care about.

You had just received the news that your best friend had killed himself a couple of hours ago.

You didn't know how to feel.

You couldn't wrap your head around it. There was no warning.

You and he had been friends since childhood, and you knew each other so well that neither one of you could even remember a time when the other wasn't around.

Your hands shook as you picked up the phone to call Peter. Your tears finally fell as you listened to the constant ringing of the phone, and you knew he wasn't going to answer. Rage grew within you as you heard his voicemail message causing you to throw your phone across the room. It crashed into the wall and broke, but you didn't pay any mind to it as you fell to the ground and let out a wailed sob.

Why did this have to happen?

You could barely catch your breath between sobs.

Your body shook.

You didn't care about anything anymore.

You didn't care about Peter anymore.

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Weeks had passed, and Peter was exhausted.

Tracking down a gang, taking them down, and meeting another Spider-Man had just been a lot for him to take in. He was so tired, he didn't even want to think about it anymore. His back ached as he climbed through his window.

He was just so damned tired.

He stripped out of his suit, took off his web-shooters, and placed them back in his closet. Then, he took a quick shower.

His job was a bit easier to have Ned and MJ know he was Spider-Man. Now he just had to tell you.

Peter stood in the middle of the room and weighed out what would happen. He felt sorry for lying to you, and he knew that he was being distant. He just didn't have the courage to deal with any of it because he was worried about you. He couldn't lose you too.

As Peter lied down to finally get some rest, he wondered how you were doing. Karen had said you tried calling him, but he couldn't answer he had been in the middle of a stakeout.

He got up and rummaged through his book bag to get his phone, turning it on to scroll through his messages. He sat up as he realized how many he had gotten. Had something happened?

As he scrolled through, his heart broke. So many people had posted about the loss of Jay and were gossiping about why he did it. When he finally went through them all, he looked at your one missed call and gulped.

You had called him that day, and he didn't pick up.

He clicked the voice mail and listened to the message. All that he could hear were your pained sniffles, a shout, and then the line cut off.

He felt sick as he replayed the message.

Peter already felt awful about lying to you; he had to fix this. He quickly texted you, put his web-shooters back on, and was ut the window.

He knew the way to your house, so it took him no time to et there. As he was getting ready to knock on your window, he did a double-take and took a closer look.

Someone was sitting in your room; it looked like he had been waiting for you. Peter quirked an eyebrow as he looked at the guy. He was wearing a red and green jacket with shorts and sneakers. He also looked like he was wearing tights?

Suddenly, you walked into the room, so Peter backed away from the window to hide in the shadows. You seemed to be upset as you were wiping your eyes quite a bit.

"I'm sorry Miles. I didn't think I'd start crying like that," you said as you sat on your bed.

"Hey, it's okay," he replied as he stood up and moved closer to you. You sniffled as you tried to regain your composure. Peter didn't quite know how to react. Who was this? What was going on?

"I just...he..." you groan out in frustration as you grip your hair. Miles' eyes widen as he sees tears start flowing from your eyes again.

"You wanna talk about it?" he asks as he wraps an arm around your shoulders. You shrug as you shake your head.

"It's complicated, and besides, that's what our therapy's for" you chuckle dryly. Miles' eyes wander the room as he tries to think of something to do to cheer you up. "How 'bout we go out tonight?" he suggests.

"I don't like the tone of that voice" you sass as you turn to give him a look. Peter watches Miles turn around, and his eyes widen. Miles was wearing a suit, a Spider-Man suit. The same Spider-Man he saw the other week.

"Any place you wanna go to, we'll go" he adds with a cheeky smile. "Really? You're not busy?" You cross your arms as you stare him down.

"Nah, night's been quiet. Besides, I might be busy tomorrow, then you'd miss your favorite person in the world" he winks as you begin to smile. Peter's heart sank as he realized what was happening. He thwipped a web to the building across from yours and sat down on the edge of the roof. Pulling out his phone, he sent you a text.

Can we talk tomorrow?

Giggling could be heard from across the street. Peter looked up and bit his lip as you glanced at your phone and threw it on your bed. You got onto Miles' back, and you both swung away.

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After you tried calling Peter that day, you stopped reaching out to him altogether. You decided that you'd wait to talk to him until he finally realized you weren't there. It had been about five weeks, and in those five weeks, you had gone to therapy and counseling.

You met Miles in counseling. He was sweet but seemed to get off topic a lot. When you were getting ready to leave one session, he had come up to you, put his hand on your shoulder, and let out a simple "Hey." One thing led to another, and you had both bonded over your losses. You went to Miles' uncle's funeral, and he went to Jay's funeral with you.

You were currently sitting on a swing at the playground as you waited for Peter. It was taking him forever to show, and at this point, you wanted to get this whole conversation over with.

Frowning, you looked around, wondering why he was taking so long. He should've been here by now. Maybe he decided not to come after all.

When that thought crossed your mind, you scoffed and stood up. Before you could go anywhere, however, you felt someone gently grab your hand. Looking back, you saw Peter staring at you with a small smile on his face.

"You came."

"Of course I did"

Peter pulls you towards him and wraps his arms around you. You take a deep breath as you stare off towards the slide. He pulls away when he realizes you're not hugging him back. The both of you pull away awkwardly as you look at each other.

"Peter-" "(Y/N)-" both of you speak at the same time.

"I- I have o tell you something" he starts with a stutter. You wait patiently as you motion for him to continue. "I know th-that I've been....not here for you for a while-" he cuts himself off when he hears you scoff.

"I.....I had these things, and I should've told you as soon as we started dating, and I'm sorry. I know I've been an asshole, more than that actually" you roll your eyes and shake your head as he continues.

"I just.....I love you, and I want you to know that even though I don't show it a lot" he finishes as he rubs the back of his head nervously.

The good thing about coming to this park was that there was usually no one here, and you were glad no one was here right now because boy were you fuming. "Told me about what Parker?" Your hand goes to your hip as you glare at him.

"W-Well....uhm......that guy that you talk to.......I'm like him I guess. Spider-Man." Your eyes widen when you hear the first part. "How the hell do you know I've been talking to someone?"

Peter stumbles with his words as he realizes he's been caught red-handed, "Uh...I was gonna visit yesterday, and I kinda....saw you..talking to him....." You narrow your eyes as you pick up a stick and throw it at him. He ducked before he could get hit, but you were already in his face.

"You were spying on me?!"

"I-I wasn't trying to! I was just-"

"Christ Peter!" All this time of you not being here, and now all of a sudden you just wanna show up out of nowhere because of what?! Jay?! Is that why you're finally talking to me?!" Panic stirs in Peter's eyes as he tries to come up with an excuse.

"I tried so hard to get you to talk to me, and you only wanna talk now because of that shit?! Peter, I can't do this shit with you anymore. I don't care if you're Spider-Man; what was the point of not telling me in the first place?! We live in New York for God's sake!!"

Your face is red as you frustratingly wipe away your tears with your forearm. Peter stays silent as he watches you; he can't say anything right now because you've hit the nail on the head.

"Y-You know what, fuck this. I can't do this shit any-anymore, Peter. But please tel-tell me; w-what did I do wrong? I di-did my best to keep both of us h-h-happy. Please, just tell me what I did wr-wrong." Your words are barely recognizable as you hold yourself to keep you're shaking body still.

Peter steps forward, but instead of stopping him like he thought you would, he cups your face gently as he looks into your eyes.

"(Y/N).....I'm so sorry I made you think this was all your fault. You did make me happy; you still do. I just...I've been so busy being Spider-man that I've neglected you, and I'm sorry for that. But I do still love you, (Y/N). I swear I'll stop doing everything just for you. I-I'll give up being Spider-Man."

You watch him unravel as he keeps talking. You can't bring yourself to care, however, as he spills his heart out. Too much disappointment has built up over the months.

"Pete...."

"Please......(Y/N), just give me another chance. I'll do anything, just please, don't leave me." His voice is soft and insecure as he begs you, almost quivering as he says it. It doesn't invoke any sort of feeling in you though. His sad eyes watch as you pull away from him,

"I'm sorry Peter" you whisper softly as you turn around and walk away.

He doesn't run after you or even shout.

Peter simply watches you walk away until you're out of view. The only thing he can hear is your footsteps as they fade into the distance.

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A/N: Alright so...this whole thing was based on how I could see him being Spider-Man in the beginning ig? Imo I feel like between him and Miles, the latter would be the first to tell you he's Spider-Man

And I always felt like him being away like that with no real reason would make an s/o feel like it's their fault or sumn. Like, I've always seen fics where he and the reader always make up about it, but I wanted to try the bad ending where even though he had good intentions, he's just not ready to handle being a hero, student, and partner.

#peter parker oneshot #peter parker x reader #peter parker fic #peter parker fanfiction #miles morales #miles morales x reader #marvel mcu #marvel imagine #marvel one shot #peter parker imagine

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shirari · 3 years

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My moots as random stuff in my house

Headcanons by. Your lovely moot Hikari LMAO

Why am I doing this? Cuz I keep on associating hq characters as the stuff here as well and ur the victim now HAHAHJSJJDMSMS

Any who, forgive me for bothering you <\3

If I missed anyone, it's maybe cuz I'm still a bit timid to tag you??? If anything, pls hmu to be added cuz there are tons of stuff here aakwndksndjsndn. Non moots can ask for a haikyuu character tho.

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☆Oya @oni-girx

The coffee table

Cuz I'm always around the coffee table when I'm downstairs and never even bother eating on the dining table. The same way I'm always in groupchats instead of servers in discord goodbye-

It's hella messy on it too like?? Why is my febreeze down here wth put it back in my room-

Haikyuu character I associated this item with : Kotarou Bokuto/Yuu Nishinoya (this place has so many random stuff on it like how Bokuto randomly goes emo or even radiates Noya's chaotic energy-)

☆Rosie @sookyshima

Well, my favourite old handbag my *mom bought me way back in the end of 2018.

It was bright red, but it's worn out now sadly.

The colour looked good with any of my outfits ngl, cuz i wear lots of dark colours lol

I cherished this handbag the same way I cherish my elder moot, Rosie <333

No I'm not calling you old. I'm just born too late🧍🏻‍♀️

Haikyuu character I associated this item with : Tetsurou Kuroo (Red looks hot on him and the fact *Kuroo doesn't have a mother.... It hurts me a little bit)

☆Spencer @spiritingawaytoanime

The yummy meiji crackers I only occasionally eat.

I love the crackers but I only have it when I felt like it </3

Same as our interactions lately, very occasional but enjoyable uwu

Btw I was kinda confused... Who's elliot-

Haikyuu character I associated this item with : Tsutomu Goshiki (I only simp for him whenever I actually feel like, especially when I scroll through general shiratorizawa content occasionally lol)

☆Lili @lilikags

For some reason, my dad's chamomile tea

Idk why but I literally smell fragrance tea when I see you around tumblr interacting or I'm just scrolling around 🤷🏻‍♀️

And I liked that, however it kinda intimidated me cuz it smelled elegant-

It smelled something like Chai tea. Anything classy actually.

Haikyuu character I associated this item with : Akaashi Keiji (English breakfast sounds nice or maybe even Earl Grey :D)

☆Inez @shoyotime

The grandfather wall clock

It's old and classy, but it needs some repairs to work again.

I actually don't know why but it's one of the prettiest things I see in my house lol. So as you Inez :')

Some have said you're quite mature, so it makes sense in some way? Yeah :D

Haikyuu character I associated this item with : Wakatoshi Ushijima (Wakatoshi radiates those dark academia vibes and I think it's really classy, me love)

☆Nova @mysterystarz

Your url makes me think of the star shaped fairy lights hung around my porch-

It's pretty so makes sense hehe

I'm getting sleepy as I write omg-why am I spending 1 whole minute on how do I elaborate

Okay screw it, you're simply the stars to Keiji's universe uwu

Haikyuu character I associated this item with : Kourai Hoshiumi (Hoshiumi means star sea so-)

☆El @sugurus-princess

I say ur my black acoustic guitar cuz it fits ur blog theme :D

I literally waited years for the time I start learning guitar. Sadly, I don't really have time or motivation anymore cuz I've been so burnt out :')

Okay why th is Hikari Are (Haikyuu op season 3) moonlight version by BurnOut Syndromes playing while talking about my guitar omfg 😭

The song I was trying to learn recently was Pure Imagination :')

Haikyuu character I associated this item with : Aran Ojiro (no I'm not being racist because my guitar is black, I cherish my guitar sm and I'm soft for Aran pls😭❤️)

☆Xy @xybi

Bread/The brand new bread maker my dad bought last week

Every time I see you around, I can smell bakery pastries like tarts and sweet buns for some reason. Oh and also cookies.

I ain't even Tanjiro/Gonpachiro but here I am smelling my moots auras in tumblr

Idk u that much so far but I guess u can be many things the same way pastries do. (sweet, salty, sour or savoury kinds of things like that??)

Haikyuu character I associated this item with : Tooru Oikawa (cuz I immediately thought of making milkbread when I heard about getting a bread maker lol)

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hikari's word. Wondering about your favourite as something random? Hmu at @hikaoi ! My writing blog for the headcanon. It's still empty so I wanted to fill it somehow for now hehe

#Which is Aran's last name-#Send help kabxksjdn #🌼hikari.is.speaking #🍙~moots! oya #🌌~moots! nova #🌹~moots! rosie #🐦~moots! lili #☕~moots! xy #🍁~moots! spencer #🍂~moots! inez #📚~moots! el #haikyuu headcanons

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blissedoutphil · 3 years

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Tops Only Part 2

Dan’s favourite actor just opened a new bar right by the street near his apartment, and he couldn’t wait to check it out. One problem though, it was for Tops only, and Dan wasn’t one.

1389 words of Top!Phil, bottom!dan, AU where everyone’s born with a Type (top/bottom/switch)

There's a tiny part in here that was inspired by the Weenie Hut Jr episode of Spongebob. gotta love that classic

~Part 1~

or read on ao3!

“Thought you were gonna unstan him now.”

Dan rolled his eyes at Anthony’s remark, then went back to scrolling his tumblr. His post about how unfair Phil was with the bar had gained traction, and it was largely supported by his fellow Type. Though there were some Tops who grumbled about how people were taking things too seriously or tried to explain that it wasn’t unfair. Dan blocked those accounts. What do they know about unfair treatment?

Dan had asked Anthony to help with his plan B tonight: Perhaps they could let him in if he came with a Top. It would definitely irritate him if they allowed this, but at least he would be let in. Anthony easily agreed to try it out, so here they were waiting in line. He was a friend Dan didn’t deserve, always willing to indulge in Dan’s fanboying.

Dan had waited a couple of weeks, walking past the bar everyday but from across the road instead. He'd observed the different bouncers, trying to work out their schedules as he didn’t want to cross paths with the same one from his original attempt.

They stepped up to the new bouncer, who easily let Anthony through after they flashed their ID. But he held out a hand in front of Dan when Dan tried to quickly follow Anthony.

“Oh, I’m with him,” Dan reasoned.

“Still no can do buddy,” the bouncer stepped between him and Anthony.

“It’s okay I can take care of him,” Anthony spoke to the bouncer casually.

Inside, Dan hated the statement. He can take care of himself, thank you very much. But that’s just how the world worked and treated Types - Tops protect and care for their Bottoms. He understood where Anthony was playing at, so he played along and nodded with wide pleading eyes.

“Sorry,” the bouncer shook his head.

Dan frowned, but at least this bouncer was polite. Unfortunately though, he’d judged the guy too soon.

“I think you’d be better off in a Bottoms Only Bar,” the bouncer then suggested lightheartedly.

"Bottoms only?!" Dan repeated in surprise and seethed, “are you fucking kidding me?”

The bouncer shrugged unapologetically, swiftly moving on to the next person. Anthony shot Dan an apologetic look before he entered. Dan had prepared for this outcome, instructing Anthony to enter without him if he couldn’t so that he can bring back updates on what goes on inside that makes it so unacceptable for Dan to be let in.

Dan made his way back home begrudgingly, imagining himself opening a Bottoms Only Bar. See how Phil would like being excluded like this.

He sighed as he reached his door, shaking his head at his own thoughts. Why would Phil care about Dan’s made up Bottoms Only bar, he doesn’t even know who Dan is.

Dan entered his apartment and sprawled on his sofa, opting to scroll the internet while he waited for Anthony. The security at Phil’s bar was good, he read quite a number of fans’ posts on how they tried to sneak in not just through the bouncers but through any possible back doors. So far, nobody has had any luck still.

Anthony finally returned past 1am, startling Dan out of his accidental nap when he knocked on Dan’s door. Dan narrowed his eyes at Anthony when he opened the door.

“You didn’t need to be there that long,” Dan grumbled.

“Dude, it was...” Anthony was clearly very pumped up and tipsy after a good night out but he quietened, not wanting to make Dan feel bad about being unable to enter.

“Just tell me,” Dan groaned, slumping back on his sofa.

So Anthony related the events of his night. How there were Bottom waiters enticing the guests while serving their dessert and drinks. Giving them a show and dancing with the Tops, even getting sexual with those who gave extra tips.

“Did you like… get it on with a waiter or what?” Dan said judgmentally.

Anthony shrugged playfully, “The opportunity presented itself…”

Dan fake retched at Anthony’s confession, and got a playful punch on his shoulder in return.

It was clear from what Anthony told him that the bar really was catered for Tops only. That still didn’t satisfy Dan, though.

“He could’ve made an all-inclusive bar,” he pouted.

Anthony sighed empathically but he countered softly, “Well, it’s Phil’s way of finally expressing his Type I guess.”

“By capitalising on it and alienating a big part of his fanbase?” Dan spat.

“You really should unstan him if it bothers you, this is getting unhealthy.”

“Don’t tell me what to do,” Dan stuck his tongue out at Anthony.

“I saw him there,” Anthony admitted in a small voice.

“What?” Dan perked up instantly, “What was he doing? Did you get any pictures?!”

“I didn’t, but I think he’s there most nights. He made a short appearance and thanked everyone for coming and supporting him. Played around with some of the Bottoms for a bit.”

Dan scoffed, but deep down he felt a bout of envy. He wondered how those Bottoms got the job.

“Trust me Dan, you wouldn’t enjoy it there anyway. You’re not missing out on anything,” Anthony tried to comfort him.

“I guess. Thanks for getting the inside scoop,” Dan joked half-heartedly, getting up from the couch.

“I’ve prepared the guest room,” he yawned as he headed towards his own room.

He’d heard enough. Maybe Anthony was right, there was no reason to let some celebrity affect him this much. He decided to sleep his negativity off, abruptly leaving Anthony in the lounge. His friend had stayed over enough times to know to make himself comfortable in Dan’s home anyway.

Of course, unstanning someone Dan had adored for years was easier said than done. A few days later, he was back on his bullshit. He’d tried searching for any information online on how to get a job in Phil’s bar, but there was nothing at all. He frowned, he of all people should’ve seen information about it. How the hell did he miss any job ads or casting calls or auditions or whatever?

Dan sighed as he walked past the bar from across the road after work again. He could’ve been working in there right now. Seeing Phil every night. Maybe dancing with him. Instead he was stuck in some boring office admin job.

The queue to enter never wavered despite it being almost a month since opening already. And despite knowing almost everything there was to know about the bar, Dan still longed to step inside and see it for himself.

He visited Anthony for lunch the next day. And to drop Plan C on his friend.

“Are you insane?!” Anthony said incredulously upon hearing Plan C.

“C’monnn, everyone says we look freakishly alike anyway!” Dan persuaded.

“And what happens if they find out you’re using my ID? Will you pay the fine for me? Bail me out of jail?” Anthony stared at him disbelievingly.

“Don’t be so dramatic!”

“Oh I’m the dramatic one here? It’s just a bar Dan, let it go.”

Dan fell silent. He knew Anthony was right, there was no point in arguing. He sagged against his chair in defeat.

Perhaps Anthony felt guilty for dismissing his idea like that because after their lunch, Anthony sat Dan down on his couch and turned on one of Dan’s favourite movies that Phil starred in. It was telling that Anthony was trying to cheer Dan up because he would never watch that movie on his own accord.

“How long are you gonna be all mopey like this?” Anthony sighed after the movie ended and Dan was still being quiet.

“How come... I didn’t at least know they were hiring waiters or something?" Dan spoke wistfully.

Anthony gave a long suffering sigh before saying, “Maybe that could be your Plan D if C doesn’t work out.”

Dan looked up at his friend in surprise, finding Anthony’s hand outstretched towards him with his ID in hand.

“Really?” Dan said in an unsure but hopeful tone.

“Take it before I change my mind,” Anthony huffed.

“Thank you!” Dan leapt up to land in Anthony’s lap and crush him in a tight hug, “I owe you one.”

“Just don’t do anything stupid to get yourself caught,” Anthony chuckled, returning the hug.

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~Part 1~

This chapter's kinda short but dw next one's gonna be longer! Sorry no sign of Phil (yet) but hope yall enjoyed some danthony this chapter :) I'm enjoying projecting fan behaviour onto Dan lol

There will be either 4 or 5 parts for this fic, idk we'll see! lmk what you think so far~

#My fic #Tops Only #phan #Phanfic #phan fic #Dan and Phil #stereo

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yangyangthegerman · 3 years

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Ultimate Group Tag

Tagged by @negrowhat (thank you, dear!)

Group chosen: WayV (cause I wanna make this relatively easy for me and idk who my fave group is tbh)

1. Who was your first bias?

Ten (since he's been that guy already before the unit debuted)

2. Who is your bias now?

Ten

3. What was the first MV you watched by them?

Regular (since that was the first one they released, right?)

4. What’s your favorite MV?

Take Off (I like the camera work/ effects they did for some dance parts a lot) or Turn Back Time (for the looks and the concept)

5. If you could only listen to one of their songs for the rest of your life, which would it be?

After midnight

6. Who would you want to see them collab with?

I don't know and I don't particularly care? (but I really liked the Ten, Xiaojun & Ginjo collab)

7. What (MV) concept do you want to see them do?

Something dark or mysterious, similar to TBT maybe but with more of a story

8. Have you ever had a dream with any of the members in it?

Yes, a good amount of very different ones actually.

9. If you could spend a day with one member, who would it be and what would you do?

Probably Ten. (It’s so lame to choose the bias but there's a reason I’m drawn to his presence more than others’, okay?) We could just hang out with the cats and talk a whole lot! Or go to an art museum. And truthfully, I’d love to see him practice a choreo and watch him dance for some time, witness the process of it all. Idk.

(Well, if it’s an entire day, all of these things! I’m just really curious if we got along and were vibing irl)

10. Which member do you think you would get along with best?

Lucas? He’s fun and outgoing, so it would be rather easy, I guess. And he’s flirty and weird with words, which is very relatable. (Or Yangyang, as a fellow German, kind of...)

11. Which member do you think you would argue with?

If we’re talking serious arguing... Kun? Can’t explain why, it’s just a feeling.

Also Ten? Cause we’re both brats. (A bit more playfully Yangyang. He’s still a kid.)

I feel like, Winwin and Xiaojun would only silently judge me and Hendery and Lucas wouldn't care that much.

12. If you had to let one member scroll through your tumblr, who would it be?

Lucas. He wouldn't keep his mouth shut about the things he saw, I know, but at least he would only laugh and joke around and not hardcore judge me or sth.

Tagging: @monctcircle @thebapderp @joongoo @wonstal @softjeon @husberttee @wizliar @jsuh @tuanzie @proseeuhn @llx--xll @taesaqua (only if you guys want to, no pressure!)

#honestly im just here trying to figure out the logistics of hanging out or arguing with them. like would i be bringing my child? i mean...#its all not real but... realistically????#also not me being like: ten lucas yangyang top3 because less of a language barrier #ok bye #personal #tag game #alternatively for the day with ten: getting tattoos #he can watch me get his face tattooed tbh its about time

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knightofameris · 4 years

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of us — edmund pevensie

Request: Ed x Reader when the reader stayed in Narnia after the end of LWW and the Pevensie’s come back and find books about like how she died and there’s a personal letter from reader to Ed and idk lot and lots of fluffiness. Maybe it could start @ the train station with Ed missing her and saying “I get to see (Y/n)” as the train transports them? Idk this is sad but I like the idea.

Setting: beginning of Prince Caspian Contains: Angst, Sadness, a bit of Fluff lmao. Death of reader Word Count: 1467

Parts of it follows the book and not the movie. Also vice versa. Also apologies for the ending being meh. Oh and I added in my own thing lol.

Enjoy! I realized I said I would have Just a Bit of Faith up next but I got writer’s block for that one lmao. I’ll figure something out. Also, apologies to this anon I realized I didn’t copy paste this one into my drafts when I was scrolling through my tumblr the other day.

[repost from my old blog, 2016, it is now 2020]

(Y/n) sat at the windowsill of her room writing a letter. She stopped reading and looked out into the beauty of the forest beyond Cair Paravel. If she looked more towards her left, she’d see the glistening ocean. Everything was quiet here in Cair Paravel. Her newly wedded husband, Edmund, and his siblings had gone off to hunt for the White Stag. She would have gone along with them but she wanted some time to herself in her room.

Quick footsteps were heard outside the room and the door burst open.

“Queen (Y/n)!” (Y/n) jumped a bit in fright but relaxed when she noticed it was just Mr. Beaver.

“Yes?” She asked. (Y/n) stood up and set the letter down on her desk.

“High King Peter, Queen Susan, Queen Lucy, and-and King Edmund… They’re gone!”

“What?!” (Y/n) walked out and towards the entrance of the Castle with Mr. Beaver alongside her. “How do you know?”

“Their horses was just left there. Philip told us everything. He’s right there.” Mr. Beaver pointed out Phillip who was taking a drink at a nearby pond.

(Y/n) quickly ran over to Phillip. “Phillip? Wh-what happened?"

"Queen (Y/n)! I-I’m sorry. I’ll take you to where they disappeared… I’ll tell you what happened along the way,” (Y/n) nodded and got on Phillip’s back.

“Do you mind if Mr. Beaver comes with us?” Phillip shook his head. (Y/n) held out her hand and he grabbed it to pull himself up.

Phillip set off towards the Lantern Waste.

“They were talking about a sort of dream of a dream about the lampost. Queen Lucy then ran off and went into the bushes over there,” Phillip motioned towards the vines and bushes nearby. That’s when it hit (Y/n). London, England, the War. They had gone back.

“… I know where they went,” (Y/n) said. “They went back to our home world… But they might not come back.”

“Why not?”

“Sometimes the passage opens up, sometimes it won’t. I have a feeling that it won’t open back up for them. Not yet… I-I have to go back. My family might be worried and-and Edmund and the Pevensie’s I have to…”

"But, Queen (Y/n) we won’t have anyone to rule over Narnia… We need you here…” Mr. Beaver said. (Y/n) was torn. She could go back and be with the Pevensies and back even with her own family… Or she can take up the responsibility to take care of Narnia. She chose the latter.

“I-I’ll stay…” (Y/n) replied. Mr. Beaver beamed.

Phillip spoke up, “But after you pass, who will take over?"

(Y/n) smiled sadly and put her hand on her stomach, "The prince or princess that Edmund will never know of…”

***

“It’s been a year, how long does He expect us to wait?” Peter sighed and sat down on the bench next to Edmund.

"I’m sure we’ll be back we just have to be patient,” Susan tried to comfort her older brother. She looked down the tunnel but then she caught the sight of this one boy who tried to ask her on a date of some sort. She turned her head quickly towards her siblings.

“Quick, make it look like you’re talking to me.”

“We are talking to you,” Edmund replied smartly. Susan rolled her eyes.

“Ow! Stop that!” Lucy stood up from the bench in a jolt.

Her siblings looked at her as if she was crazy. Lucy continued to point at the bench. “Something bit me!”

“Lucy what are you- Ow! What was that?” Susan bolted up from her seat. One by one the other two followed suit. The train started to speed by but it sped by too quickly. They all looked around and the other civilians seemed like there was nothing going on. The Pevensies stared at each other and something clicked in their heads.

"It feels like magic!” Lucy smiled.

“We’ll have to hold hands!” Edmund suggested, quickly grabbing Lucy’s but hesitating when it came to his older brother.

A sudden realization came for Edmund, however. “I-I’ll see (Y/n) again!” In the next second, they all saw that they were standing in a cave. The siblings exchanged faces and they ran off onto the beach shore.

Although, something was just not sitting right for Edmund when he entered here. It worsened when he looked up after splashing water on his siblings.

“Were there always ruins in Narnia?” Edmund pointed up above at the ruins on the cliff above.

Edmund looked around the Kings and Queens hidden room. There was an extra chest, however. No doubt it was (Y/n)’s since a statue of her stood there.

“Hey, it’s…” Lucy walked over towards (Y/n)’s chest. “… (Y/n)…” She put her hand upon the statue behind it. Her other siblings stood behind her. One thought went through all of their heads.

“Do you think she’s still… Alive?” Lucy asked the question that they all dreaded and didn’t want to answer.

“… Only one way to find out,” Edmund moved forward and lifted the top of the chest. With a bit of a struggle, he pushed it off. Dust flew up into the air. Edmund fanned it out of his face.

Surprisingly enough, unlike what they found in their chest, there were just books and a letter. On that letter, it read ‘To Edmund.’

“Strange…” Edmund picked up the letter. The dark pit in his stomach just got deeper.

Lucy grabbed one of the books that were right at the top that read 'The End of the Golden Age with Queen (Y/n).“ Susan’s eye caught something else, "The End of Narnia."

"This is quite peculiar, how would (Y/n) know about the End of Narnia?” Peter asked. “I wouldn’t think that Narnia ended right after we left.”

“Perhaps not, but I would know. Especially since I put those there,” a young voice called out behind them. Peter gripped his sword and turned around. “Hey, no need for violence, High King Peter."

"Who are you?” Peter’s eyes narrowed. The (e/c) boy smiled. Something about him looked familiar, but they just couldn’t place it. Edmund stared at this boy with undying interest.

“It’s been centuries since we’ve seen the four of you, I’m assuming the horn worked?” He completely dodged the question.

Susan was taken aback. She looked at him with a confused look. “Horn? Do you mean-”

“Yes, I mean your horn,” The boy then looked over at Edmund. “You still need to read the letter.”

Edmund looked at him warily. “Not yet, we’re still trying to figure out who you are.” He sighed.

“Guess I can’t avoid this…” He murmured the first part. “Allistor Pevensie, a pleasure to meet my ancestors,” the brunette hair boy bowed. “I just want to say, I’m sorry for your losses.”

“Losses what do you mean-?” Peter almost questioned but stopped.

“The Beavers, Mr. Tumnus…” Lucy started off. Her siblings turned their heads quickly to her. “They’re gone.”

“(Y/n)…” Edmund looked down. “So, she’s not here…” Tears are already forming.

“I-I’m sorry,” Allistor looked at them solemnly. “Th-that letter you’re holding. It holds most of the explanations, the rest I can do so."

Edmund started to open up the letter and read allowed.

"Dear Edmund,

I’m afraid this is the last letter I can write. I’m growing weaker and weaker. I’ve left more letters for you to read and hopefully you’ll be back here in Narnia.

Just so you know, I never did remarry, I took care of Narnia for you and your family, for us. Hopefully, we’ll still be here. The country, I mean.

And, depending on how long it is in the future you read this, hopefully, one of your grandchildren or great times whatever grandchildren will take you around Narnia and show you how it’s changed. To answer it, yes we had a child. I was going to tell you, but you had gone back to England. I’m sorry. She’s beautiful. She has your eyes and your wit. She’s strong yet caring… Her name’s Helen. After your mother. I hope you’re okay with that. It’s a shame you never saw her wedding… Her husband actually took our name instead, in honor of the four Kings and Queens.

I’m hoping this will be the first letter you’ll read. Just know, I still love you and I always will. I’ll be watching over you in Aslan’s Country… I’ll be waiting.

Love,

(Y/n) Pevensie.”

Teardrops started to slowly hit the paper but started to speed up. They were soon accompanied by sobbing.

“I’ll always love you, Edmund.”

#edmund x reader #edmund pevensie x reader #edmund pevensie drabble #edmund pevensie imagine #a.writes

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katierosefun · 3 years

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author interview tag game

thank you for the tag, @pandora15! <3

Name: caroline

Fandoms: mostly the clone wars, but i also have some marvel stuff, and waaay back in the day, i wrote some doctor who and merlin stuff!

Where you post: primarily on ao3! i mostly just write on tumblr when i’m accepting prompts from like...ask games or something.

Most Popular Oneshot: real

Most Popular Multichap: to these memories (this fic only recently hit 1k kudos, and my heart?? w h a t)

Favorite Story You’ve Written: def. to these memories because a) longest fic i’ve ever written, and b) oh, the hours i logged into writing this fic, and c) oh, the outlining that went into this fic...i’m very proud of myself for completing the fic, and of course, i credit this to everyone who showed their lovely support for the story. :’)

Fic You Were Nervous to Post: uhhh definitely too far just because it’s...rather personal. i sometimes say that there’ll be a scene or two or just straight up a line or two that’s plucked out of my real life, and i think it’s inevitable for writers of any kind, including fic writers, to isolate their real lives completely from whatever they’re writing, and?? this fic is probably the most personal for me because of that. i remember kinda hem-hawwing about posting it, because i was like whoa, maybe this is a little too personal? but then i steeled myself and was like, “okay, well, would this have lifted my spirits when i needed a story like this??” and then decided to post it.

How you choose your titles: i def. toss and turn between titles! there’s a few fics of mine that are straight-up song lyrics (no surprise there), but to my surprise (as i was looking through my catalogue of fics just now), i realize that a lot of my fics are usually just words or two about what i think might have been extremely important to the story. (or captures the overall tone/theme of the story, anyways.)

Do you outline? for multi-chapter fics and relatively long one-shots with lots of moving parts, i’ll outline. but for shorter one-shots and prompts, i’ll usually just stick with the image that compelled me to write the prompt/one-shot in the first place! (and then kinda write around that.)

Complete: uhhhhh, i’m gonna answer relatively for all my clone wars fics, because in total, i have 74 completed fics. (make that...75, hopefully in a few minutes or hours!) but out of clone wars fics, i have 46 completed fics! (and again, hopefully 47 in a little while.) a part of me is lowkey hoping that i’ll get up to 100 total fics by the end of this year. a part of me highly doubts it, but given how much i was able to write over summer break, i’m...intruiged if i wind up somehow writing another twenty or so fics by the end of this year. (asfsf my wip list is long enough to fill in for another twenty fics. caroline finish all your wips challenge.)

In Progress: okay, so officially, time, wondrous time is in progress and online. but in terms of the works in progress on my laptop...i have...*mutters, counting* fourteen official wips. (ten of them are one-shots, and the other four are longform fics. one of them, i’m hoping to release next week (!!!), and another, i’m hoping to release hopefully around mid-december. uhhh so fingers crossed??)

Coming Soon/Not Yet Started: oops, i guess i kinda already answered that question, but eh, might as well! the one coming out next week (hopefully!! caroline get your shit together challenge!!) is titled most ardently, and it’s an obitine au based off pride & prejudice because i cannot and will not shut up about obitine being the period drama ship out of star wars okay--

and then the other longform fic that is very overdue is called getting lost in a big galaxy, which is a fix-it of sorts taking place after season 5. anakin’s gone missing, and obi-wan winds up going on a galaxy-ride road trip with ahsoka (who, remember, has left the order) to find their idiot. this is honestly my excuse to just write more obi-wan and ahsoka content. hopefully, that’ll be posted in december!! (despite the fact i...originally meant to post it in august oOps.)

and then there’s this other longform fic which...might be coming in early 2021 called red, underlined, which is essentially...uh. everyone’s a stressed out law-school student, and anakin might have accidentally murdered professor palpatine, and now anakin, obi-wan, ahsoka, padme, and rex are all trying to find out what the hell to do with themselves because they’re all in on it. (def. influenced by how to get away with murder except without the criminal justice professor to lead them through the ropes. so more chaos. kind of a dark comedy vibe, if anything else? anakin no is major theme in this one. uh, i mean, maybe anakin was justified in murdering creep palpatine because our gang’s gonna find out what was going on in the background, but either way! lots of “holy shit are we good people are we bad people what are we doing”. lots of questions about morality! ethics! law school student study nights with anakin sprawled out on the floor and obi-wan wearing glasses (which he pushes up the bridge of his nose whenever he’s about to lecture anakin that no, that’s not how that statute works, dumbass) and ahsoka just bringing snacks and rex catching paper airplanes and padme being the one to supply everyone with very neat flashcards. this fic is gonna be an absolute beheamoth, and i’m estimating about 45 chapters? like...130K+ words? help? yeah idk either this really blew up in my head

and then...this stupid, wonderful, boring, amazing job, which is...office x tcw au. only not? it’s very, very loosely based off the office, but not really. obi-wan moves in as a new manager of a company, and we’ve got anakin being like “lol new guy i’m gonna mess with him”, and ahsoka being the one who’s both like “please don’t mess with our new boss” but also being like “actually, wait, lemme help”, rex being in hr and being like “i don’t get paid enough for this”. (also there’s some parts that are written like actual interviews like you would find in the office, so there’s this one bit where uhhh

Obi-Wan flicks his eyes to the cameras in silent question before turning back to Ahsoka. “Well, if you need to call maintenance, then I hardly think you need my permission—”

“Thanks!” Ahsoka says quickly, and she’s about to disappear from the doorway when Obi-Wan stands up.

“Wait, Ahsoka, what exactly—”

Ahsoka re-appears at the doorway. “Oh, right,” she says. “Um—maybe just stay away from the men’s bathroom for a little bit.” She pauses.

“Actually, just stay away from them for the rest of the day.” She hovers by the door for a minute longer, and then she adds quickly, “And maybe also avoid the breakroom. Everything’s fine!”

And with a perfectly not-fine smile, Ahsoka disappears from the doorway.

Obi-Wan stares at where Ahsoka was just a moment ago, and the he turns to the cameras in disbelief. “Did she just—” Unable to finish his own sentence, Obi-Wan starts out the door. “Ahsoka?”

The camera follows Obi-Wan out of the conference room and into the breakroom. There are only muffled shouts—Anakin’s shouts, and then Rex’s, and then Ahsoka’s frantic “no, sorry, everything’s fine!”, and then Obi-Wan’s loud, “What is going on in here?”

surprise y’all just got a snippet i’m sorry can you tell i’m weirdly into this au?? i need to rewrite some scenes but uh there you go

Prompts: for the most part, yes! i have some stuff in my faq about prompts that i’ll probably turn down (mostly anything that’s...above a certain rating/really, realy heavy themes that i just don’t think i can tackle with justice or with enough education on my end). i can be a little slow with prompts, but i’ll get to all of them in time!

Upcoming Work You’re Most Excited About: uhhhh i have too many that i’m excited about. literally i can write a mini essay on every single one of the fics i’m working on? but uhhh i guess since i already talked about all my major longform fics above (asdfasdfsd didn’t mean to do that, i’m so sorry for everyone who had to scroll past that word-vomit), i guess the one i’m most excited about releasing is the post season 7 obi-wan-and-ahsoka-finally-talk-about-how-they-miss-each-other-also-sorry-for-fighting-with-you-i-know-you-were-just-trying-your-best fic. (not a whole ton of spoilers for this one, but uh. i’m looking at some of these scenes and making frustrated sounds because there’s this one particular instance where i’m like, ahsoka. ahsoka just talk to him just ta lk to him but then lol no talking :)) also maybe some h/c? lowkey sickfic might be involved in this somehow? might have accidentally served as a precursor to to these memories? help? this fic just ballooned. caroline keep your ideas contained challenge!)

No Pressure Tags: @lightasthesun @soplantyourownflowers @ohhellokenobiand anyone else who wants to join!

#tag game #thank you!!#caroline.....control your wips challenge #also i am so sorry this got sO long and SO OUT OF HAND #also....lol caroline stop writing so many longform fic challenge #i really love writing one-shots #i really really love writing one shots #but like also. also there's a part of me that's like 'im gonna hyperfixate on this au sO HARD'#thankfully tho i think those are all the longform wips #there's also that one time travel fix it longform fic i have in the back of my head....#but lol i still haven't outlined it yet

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halalhyungwon · 3 years

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ult tag @kpophours 💕

ults — only doing this for sf9 bc i should sleep soon sjgsjsh 🥰 this got a bit long so I'll put a cut

1 — who was your first bias?

i honestly don't know shskshj i remember listening to shadow for the first time and hearing youngbins verse and being like oh whos that 🤩🤩 and at one point also zuho🤩🤩 but then also when i watched the mafia dance i was like chani? :O but then also when the enough video came out i was like 👀taeyang👀 until eventually when i actually wanted to stan i saw jaeyoon and the rest is history 😌 (obvi not really seeing as i now have 4 biases but nevermind that. ive already rambled too much)

2 — who is your bias now?

jaeyoondawonyoungbinchani. in that order. most days.

3 — what was the first mv you watched by them?

now or never 💯 (omg anna twinnn)

4 — what’s your favourite mv?

rpm japanese ver or mamma mia

5 — if you could only listen to one of their songs for the rest of your life, which would it be?

into the night (stealing your comment anna: (round and round, I’m so sorry honey))

6 — who would you want to see them collab with?

anna can i steal ur answer?? kai x taeyang would just be..amazing... but honestly i can't really think of any collabs i want 🤷🏾‍♀️

7 — what (mv) concept do you want to see them do?

im uncreative so im stealing your answer again royalty concept would be so sexy dawon as my throne i am ready to take a seat 😊😋

8 — have you ever had a dream with any of the members in it?

SCREAM. yes. ive had a good handful am i supposed to talk about all of them???💀 i'll just mention some bias line ones

most recently i had a dream where youngbin & i were facetiming before bed and i guess he had just showered bc his hair was wet ? (maybe my brain was thinking abt that one vlive that got taken down 💀) idr what we talked abt :(( but i was v soft youngbin just take my heart

there was another youngbin dream and we were like in terrace house??? or smth. we were roommates and at one point i was hanging out with him and im too lazy to type out the whole thing plus it's so cringe embarrassing how flustered I was 🙈 but long story short my friend cockblocked me.

there was a dawon one where we were married and one day he came home from work and I like covered his face in smooches and we were all happy n giggly and :((

all my jaeyoon dreams suck he never pays attention to me skgsksg

there's this one dream with chani when I got his autograph but then his mom came and ate the paper ??? shsjshdkh💀💀💀

I've had more but ill stop there im sorry

9 — if you could spend the day with one member, who would it be and what would you do?

only one??😭😭 umm youngbin :( idk just go out to eat maybe bowling??? watching his vlogs always make me wanna hang out with him :( okay yeah i always wanna hang out with him :(( ♡

10 — which member do you think you would get on with best?

none of them im so awkward skgsksg maybe inseong

11 — which member do you think you would argue with?

dawon skhsksgs

12 — if you had to let one member scroll through your tumblr, who would it be?

inseong. idk why i just know i can't let bias line see it. well maybe youngbin. I cant let chani see how many times I call him baby

#tagged #last one for now i need to sleep lmaooo #ty for tagging my wifey ilyyy #i know this is like over a month old but better late than never right 💀💀💀

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deukaeloveclub · 3 years

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ult group tag tagged by @leeyubinz

thanks for the tag 😊 i’ll answer for dreamcatcher and twice

1. who was your first bias?

sua (and about a month later handong too)

2. who is your bias now?

ot7 <3

3. what was the first mv you watched by them?

chase me

4. what’s your favourite mv?

fly high, you and i, deja vu

5. if you could only listen to one of their songs for the rest of your life, which would it be?

LMAO i still have an ask about what my favorite dc track is from over a year ago because while I listen to a song it's my favorite

6. who would you want to see them collab with?

oh i have a post for this. also twice for selfish reasons

7. what (mv) concept do you want to see them do?

you know i also have a post for this too, i think this would be a fun special album to put out in summer or something (also my concept tag is filled with other people’s ideas on this and there’s a lot of cool stuff in there)

8. have you ever had a dream with any of the members in it?

yes! i’ve had 2 dreams with all 7 of the members and they were sooo nice. :( now i want to have another one.

9. if you could spend a day with one member, who would it be and what would you do?

i hate to choose >:( however might first thoughts were handong, yoohyeon, and jiu. with handong i’d want to go on a cafe date/food centered day because she eats out with friends a lot and knows good places. i’d want to hang out with yoohyeon because her english would make the whole situation easier and i’d want to play games with her!! i feel like we would match each others skills and it would be really fun to play. and for jiu, it honestly doesn’t matter what specifically we do i just want to feel her wonderful aura in person

10. which member do you think you would get along with best?

i feel like all of the members are so easy to get along with, like everyone loves working with them. hmm I’m most like handong and dami so probably them. although my friends are actually more loud and affectionate and chaotic like sua and gahyeon so maybe those two

11. which member do you think you would argue with?

lol sua or gahyeon because i argue with my friends too. oh actually! i think i would get into arguments with yoohyeon over like really dumb stuff just for the fun of it

12. if you had to let one member scroll through your tumblr, who would it be?

you know my initial reaction was like oh no but i scrolled through my blog a bit just to see and honestly any of them (the most embarrassing thing about my tumblr might be how many posts I make in a day). generally my rule is to not post things if i’m not willing to own up to it (tumblr may not be twitter but like it’s still the internet) and i’ve mostly followed that. that being said yoohyeon because she’s very much an internet denizen herself or jiu because even if she’s judging me she’ll just have the same smile and laugh she always does

twice

1. who is your bias now?

mina

2. who is your bias now?

hahaha unnie line (mina, nayeon, sana, jihyo, jeongyeon, momo)

3. what was the first mv you watched by them?

not sure, i think i saw them before i decided to get into kpop? but once i was into i want to say likey because i feel like i understood who they were by the time i watched heart shaker

4. what’s your favourite mv?

hmmm what is love, breakthrough, feel special, or merry & happy

5. if you could only listen to one of their songs for the rest of your life, which would it be?

i refuse, whenever i don’t know what i want to listen to i go to twice and hit shuffle. having only one twice song is simply unthinkable

6. who would you want to see them collab with?

i’ll repeat and say dreamcatcher here too but weirdly it’s not something i’ve thought about a lot. oh blackpink and red velvet because we don’t get to see them interact nearly enough, rather than a song i’d want them to “collab” on something like time to twice. i don’t have any music collabs for the group but i do want to see chaeyoung and jiwoo collab. I guess just continuing to collab with producers that aren’t jyp?

7. what (mv) concept do you want to see them do?

gosh, i don’t know they’ve done so much already. a mystery concept? they could go sherlock or film noir or cozy mystery or clue. oh or they could revisit old concepts with a new spin. ie. (like ooh-ahh) zombies but . . . it's sci-fi and they’re researchers looking for a cure. or (cheer up, what is love) movies but this time they’re the movie makers (director, cameraperson, gaffer, etc) and . . . they’re indie filmmakers and things aren’t coming out picture perfect. or (heart shaker, can’t stop me) a train concept, a romantic train concept, a meet cute on a train. but there’s dopplegangers? mmm maybe no dopplegangers. anyways you get the point

8. have you ever had a dream with any of the members in it?

yeah, sana appeared in a dream that featured a lot of idols and i had another dream with nayeon...

9. if you could spend a day with one member, who would it be and what would you do?

hmm once again going to be classically me and not choose. with nayeon i’d want to binge some drama or movies at home while devouring snacks and playing with kookeu. i want to spend a day with momo but i think we’re both too shy to warm up to each other in just one day. with sana idk some kind of activity or day out but mostly I just wanna experience the magnitude of her stare irl. with mina, oh! i’d want to go to the theatre! maybe see a matinee musical relax a bit then see a ballet at night. i’d want to spend a day with dahyun just cuz i was picturing what it would be like for each member and i just had no idea what the dynamic would be like with her so now i’m curious.

10. which member do you think you would get along with best?

hmm i see myself a lot in mina so i definitely think we’d get along. but then there’s also nayeon who is loud and chaotic like so many of my friends and i can definitely see myself being a chaos enabler to. once we got over the meeting/knowing each other hump i think i’d get along well with momo too. sana reminds me of my sister in some ways so we’d get along well. i think it’d be easy to vibe with tzuyu too.

11. which member do you think you would argue with?

jihyo, i definitely think we’d bicker esp when i also get competitive and i would love to tease her which could also lead to arguments.

12. if you had to let one member scroll through your tumblr, who would it be?

hmm, any of them? let’s go with dahyun, mina, or sana i think they’d tease me the least about it

#yeah i'm bad at choosing things but oh well #in a lapslock sort of mood #tag game #key talks

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mollydollyjournals · 3 years

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I like the part where I get to eat...I don't like the part where I finish eating and I'm still hungry. This is already as much as I can excuse for myself...

I was still 156.4 before I ate, but I'm hoping that's high because I just drank loads. I want that to be lower before I go to bed. So I definitely can't eat any more. But I'm still hungry and it bugs me so much when this happens.

I can't really even look forward to breakfast tomorrow either because it'll just be coffee. Ideally I want to restrict until I get to 153 or below, then have a higher intake day. Realistically I think I'll need to eat a bit more at least the day after tomorrow. I feel exhausted today, in a way that's similar to liver problems. When there's just not enough useable energy circulating in your blood. And this time I know it's from eating less but just...I've barely done anything. I should not be this exhausted. My body is just not drawing on my fat stores for energy and I fucking hate it

I feel pretty horrible right now even after food, and at this rate I won't get through tomorrow on a similar intake. But I don't want to have a higher intake day before I reach a lower weight. My heart still feels weak too. Feeling physically weak like this doesn't make me feel successful like a lot of the ED memes say; my stomach rumbling and feeling empty does, but not this. This just makes me feel like I'm disintegrating and won't be able to handle restricting enough to lose weight.

I suppose if I'm feeling this weak I might be able to have a proper meal day ('binge/cheat' day) soon and have it make my metabolism work a bit, but I'm scared that'd just have the opposite effect. Idk. I just wish I didn't feel so weak and exhausted. But then I guess if I was going to have a wish granted I'd just wish my body worked properly and was normal and then I could lose weight in a healthy way. Maybe I wouldn't need to because I wouldn't be overweight.

I think I'll have to see how I feel when I get up tomorrow. If I feel really weak, I'll allow a small amount of food for breakfast. Hopefully that'll be enough. But ideally I won't have to at all. I guess we'll see. I feel really bloated right now but that's gonna be because I drank all the lax and had food. Hopefully I'll feel better later.

I feel really weak actually. It's too early to fall asleep. I wish I would, but I know if I turn the lights out now I'll just be tossing and turning for hours. I don't think I quite have the energy to keep watching anything so I'll just...scroll Tumblr... probably think about some stuff for my side blog...

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pinkysfaultorbrainsfault · 4 years

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animaniacs - season 1 episode 38 - spellbound

episode summary: inexplicably stuck in camelot times, brain tries to get the ingredience for a magic spell that allows the caster to take over the world. this episode has no relation to the other camelot episode and i don't... know why.

the rundown: we begin our episode with the assertion that this is England in 1194. at this point in history, everyone from fire emblem 16 has grown up and is gay married, but we're not focusing on them right now. we're going to camelot and asking about their round table.

lol.

anyway after we see this creepy spider do whatever he's doing, we meet... merlin, i guess.

my dude??? he looks different. did you go on queer eye, merlin? whatever. he technically doesn't say he's merlin, so... maybe he's the other guy? the older guy? who's like merlin's dad?

this fucker. is he in the original king arthur? idk man i only watch cartoons. anyway he is casting a spell and it is very important. important enough to require components from yoko ono, apparently. like she hasn't suffered on this show enough.

but who do we have here?

"mouse" as my flatmate elegantly put it when he walked past the tv room to get a water. but even better than mouse??? mouse in SHORTS. MOUSE IN SHORTS MOUSE IN SHORTS??? MOUSE IN SHORTS. MOUSE IN SHORTS LOOK AT HIS LITTLE LEGYS MOUSE IN SHORTS MOUSE IN. SHORTS MOUSE IN SHORTS. MOUSE IN SHORTS.

YES.

pinky is not wearing shorts, which is incredibly disappointing. he's wearing some sort of sleeveless shirt dress tunic thing in an awful colour that someone like kanye west or justin bieber probably sells on their merch store for like a thousand dollars. he got the yeezy fit, damn. despite the designer status of his clothes, his bedroom eyes still do not convince me.

"i wish i was a windowsill so i could be--! ah. um."

"an imbecile?"

"ah! haha good rhyme, brain!" the bop of the century. kanye west sells the "windowsill" remix in vinyl on his online store for an additional fifty dollars.

after naming a few more celebrities ("I win, you win, edwin newman") the cauldron explodes in a puff of green smoke! and we get!

a pie. “lo!” he cries. “i’ve made a nice pie.”

hm. pinky is impressed. brain is uh. i think he mentally checked out? whatever he's doing i cannot stop fucking laughing at it. i actually had to put this post on pause for longer than anticipated because brain’s stupid face got to me. i’m so sorry. i started writing this at like 11pm gmt on the 11th and it just didn’t get to y’all in time because of brain’s stupid fucking face.

i’m sorry. brain is less impressed and declares it a “waste of magic”, and that he “would never squander such mystical powers over mere pastry.”

“poit. but what if you were eating dinner and you forgot dessert?”

“maybe then.”

but there is trouble afoot! Old Man Merlin has realised that king arthur will want some of his pie, and decides he’d better eat it in the dungeon so that doesn’t happen.

brain takes this opportunity to look through Old Man Merlin’s big book of spells. he “will use merlin’s magic to take control of the world” and then we get another nice closeup of his funny little face.

i don’t know why animaniacs was so keen on doing this? does it happen this much in the reboot? it feels like every episode we stare brain down to assert dominance.

“oh, no, no. where will you find a magic spell for that?”

“in the table of contents, pinky.”

“oh, well, very good.”

(the table of contents also contains a spell to “win at blackjack”, next to the taking over the world spell. brain considers this, for a moment, and then decides now is probably not the time.)

so good thing they have all the components for the magic spell, eh? including the Half Eaten Gingerbread Cookie That’s Been Left On The Counter All Night.

hmm.

oh, wait, no they don’t. turns out they’re fresh out of red dragon toenails, so brain’s solution to this problem is just to... go and get more, which is obviously a thing people do. they have to cross the enchanted forest to do that. it has witches and stuff. pinky rightfully points out that that is a lot of danger to overcome, and brain gets his stealing-the-minivan vibes back and nicks Old Man Merlin’s magic wand. he only knows one spell, but that won’t stop him.

the first obstacle they have to cross is the gingerbread house owned by... witch hazel from looney tunes. she’s a lot less annoying here than in bugs bunny lost in time, and informs brain that she is “waiting for pudgy german children.” instead of taking her suggestion to “get outta here”, brain magics her ass.

charlie sheen, ben vereen, shrink to the size of a lima bean.

they do get their ass handed to them by aforementioned pudgy german children, but then the german children decide that the mice have syphillis and yeet them in the general direction of slappy squirrel, who is here now.

she starts an argument with the goodfeathers, who are also here now, and brain takes it as their cue to leave.

but never mind all that! good thing there’s a handy bridge over this stream!

unfortunately, the bridge likes to spawn Giant Purple Hands That Kidnap Goats, so brain concludes they should cross said bridge using Stealth. unfortunately pinky drops the wand on the source of the Giant Purple Hands, and it is... relatively unhappy.

so brain pulls out the old “ charlie sheen, ben vereen, shrink to the size of a lima bean” again.

i did definitely think the troll was going to kick him in the crotch. i was very much sure of this, actually. instead it yeets him into rita and runt and fucks off.

“for goodness sake boxy” i hear you cry, “aren’t they at the dragon yet! this review has lasted a good twenty years of scrolling down my dashboard!” and i hear you, and you’re right, but the first thing you need to understand is; pinky has spent this whole episode singing. that little guitar he has? he has spent the whole episode replicating windowsill. “we’re in the woods so dark and stinky, to conquer the world, go brain and--” and then he forgets his name and brain has to remind him that it’s pinky. or remind him of his own name, or suggest like, steam to rhyme with stream. that is the running gag of this episode, and it is very important, at this stage, that you know that. pinky has not, as of yet, stopped singing and playing the lute.

so even though they make it to the dragon pretty mucn unscathed (aside from brain getting sat on by a giant, but i won’t go into that unless y’all specifically want details) pinky just has to have his little song in order to keep the dragon asleep.

and then brain yells at him for forgetting the word “sandman”, which breaks the toenail off completely,

and also wakes up the dragon, which can’t be good. it’s not happy! it was growing its’ nails out for paris fashion week.

brain tries his best to rectify this situation.

“charlie sheen, ben vereen--!”

charlie sheen and ben vereen are dead. i’m sorry to have to tell you. they shrunk down so much they got stuck in the quantum zone from antman and the wasp. someone should probably do something about that.

anyway the mice decide to hightail it back to Old Man Merlin’s.

conclusion:

spoilies: they do make it back in one piece. i won’t detail the whole chase scene because it’s just a bunch of running, because the post is long enough already, and also because tumblr has eaten it three fucking times and i could basically type all this in my sleep now. the things i do for y’all. donate to the wavemaiden.

so pinky shoves all the ingredients into the pot, while brain finds The Take Over The World Spell. the dragon is harassing them this whole time, which feels unfair.

“listen carefully, pinky. i need to recite this spell exactly, and once i start i cannot stop. so i need you to be extra quiet, okay?”

“sure thing, brain.”

this lasts for approximately five minutes.

“brain’s the boss! he’ll rule with ease!”

“mystical powers, your might unfurled, grant that i become--”

“he’s the one! the big, erm. banana?”

“cheese!” yells brain, who has given up entirely by this point. “it rhymes with ease! big! cheese!”

hm.

“are you alright, brain?”

“i feel. odd.”

this is an interesting development.

so brain is cheese now! cool. i guess they have to wait for merlin to get back from Pie Heaven and turn him back, somehow? with his spare wand or whatever. this is definitely pinky’s fault, because brain did ask him to stay quiet for a bit surprisingly nicely (in brain terms) and he... did not. and now brain is a cheese.

on the other hand, this would probably work again if they tried it again, once merlin goes back to pick up some more toenails.

brain: 2 pinky: 3 outside influence: 5

“can i get you anything, brain? some medicine? a cracker?”

“were i not a large cheese, i would make you pay for that remark.”

#patb #animaniacs #pinky and the brain #a!#tumblr has now eaten this four times.#this time i saved the html though.#anyway sorry this took so long the heatwave is making everyone tired xnx

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aharris00britney · 4 years

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ASKS 18

Andromeda’s a big wide open galaxy; okay anyways here are some asks about Dead by Daylight, ayoshi collab, sims 5, my old recolors, and just some sweet people who sent me some nice messages <3

Anonymous said: In your collab with Ayoshi, the outfit that shows off the Ciara Top and Jess shorts, where can I find the garter belt accessory used with the shorts?

Those stockings get asked about SO much lmao. They are BY Ayoshi like.. idk why people ask about them. I desperately want him to remake them with new textures. Maybe one day lmao. All of his CC is in this post including the stocking (Miso Tights).

Anonymous said: Omg whos your dead by daylight main

Kate and Yui <3 I have been using Jane recently too. I play as Spirit for killer but I only do killer for the challenges LMAO

Anonymous said: I am very new to The Sims world, ts4 is my first time playing, and finding out I can have mods on my game change my world, and you are one of my favorite creators! So I just came to say you are really amazing. I think I have all of your hairs, and most of you others cc, it is because of you my townies look so cute nowadays!! Remember your effort is really valued and you are loved!!!

thank you so so so much ;n; I would really advise against having all of my hairs lmao there are like 150+ and a lot of the older ones have issues i want to fix... just need to find the time

Anonymous said: what do u use to get the little sparkles in your edits :o is it a brush?

I honestly don’t remember. Every since the first one I just use the same lookbook PSD that has the sparkle on it. These look similar though so try them.

Anonymous said: wcif the first two chokers used in your pic for your hairs you just put up on your patreon?

All of my patreon cc posts are public the day they go up. the download is for patrons only but the CC posts are public. Those always have the CC i use linked at the bottom. Always. They have since June of last year. Just go to my Patreon and scroll down to the hairs, and you will see them linked. No pledging or following required.

Anonymous said: Do you have a Ko-Fi? I’m wary about trying to send a one-off via Patreon incase I forget to cancel the next month.

I have a paypal.me link > here < but please don’t feel inclined to donate. Also if you do a one-off with Patreon you can cancel it right after you pledge and you’ll still have access to the Patreon content til the end of the month.

Anonymous said: not to rush you or anything but bella is one of the prettiest sims you've ever created and i can't wait for you to release her omg

Bella queen wbk (thank you)

Anonymous said: your models are so pretty! would you consider release the tray files of them?

that is the plan, not sure when though. I am building them a house rn which i’ve been having fun doing. They all lived in a basement before

Anonymous said: hi :) just out of curiosity, what is the EA policy u always mention concerning the third hairs in ur posts? thanks!

CC put on Patreon is supposed to be post within 21 days of going on Patreon. One of the community managers said it a while ago. I have the details on my Patreon about me page if you want to read and get links. <3

@ariapixie said: Happy New Years!!🎆🎉🎉🎆🎇🎆

thank you!!! i hope youve been having an amazing year so far <3

Anonymous said: Heey love :) I am obssessed with your hairstyles *_* you're the reason I switched from alpha to MM :) just wanted to ask you how come you no longer include recolors for your latest hairstyles? :)

well there were a few reasons:

1). I never used the recolors myself. I like the colors I just never used them 2). I got comments about the colors looking too metalic 3). I had started Patreon around that time and doing recolors for 3 (and sometimes more) hairs every month would have been a lot. Especially bc my DDS was broken so I had to do them a bit more complicated than just saving as DDS.

I know that some people really liked my recolors, and I am sorry if me stopping caused any issues. There are actions for the hair colors and recoloring hair is really easy to learn and do.

@sadnessimmer said: 💌This is the Amazing Person Award! Once you are given this award you are supposed to paste it in the ask of eight different people, who, in your opinion, deserve it. If you break the chain nothing will happen, but it is sweet to know someone thinks you’re amazing inside and out! 💌

Anonymous said: how is your content so amazing ily so much 🥺💕

Anonymous said: Thank you so much for all that you do! Your hairs and collabs are amazing

thank you so much!

Anonymous said: Could you ever see yourself creating hairs (or custom content in general) for the Sims 5 once it comes out?

If the style is something I enjoy and the creation method is similar yes

@ariapixie said: Hi I think tumblr ate my ask so I’m sorry if you’ve already gotten this. I really love your editing it’s so beautiful and I was wondering if you would ever consider doing a tutorial on how you do it

honestly most of the time i do stuff differently. I run the same topaz/sharpening actions every time and then add some shadows and play with curves. Nothing that is super intensive tbh. I wouldn’t even know how to go about doing a tutorial tbh

Anonymous said: What's your name on the gallery? I can't ever seem to find anything from you, or do you not have one?

aharris00britney; make sure you have CC enabled

@wcifblog said: Hi, I am in love with your CC. I'm a simmer for a long time but just lately I've been trying to learn how to make my own CC. I've seen some of your speed meshing videos and I was wondering if you'd ever consider making a tutorial for beginners on how to create a new mesh from scratch. (I'm trying to create a curly hair on blender but I'm stupid I guess). Thank you so much for all your work, love, Kel.

hey! thank you so much <3 I actually don’t mesh stuff from scratch though. So I’m afraid I am not able to help in that department :( I’m sorry

@tarrinix said: would it be possible for you to upload a mass file for download that has all of your hairs? (I'm asking for only the ones created by you so others don't miss out of credit links and things like that.)

I really wanted to get all my 2019 CC updated before the end of the year and have it up in a .zip. But I never got around do updating stuff from the start of the year. I need to get back into updating stuff I just am so.. unmotivated recently? Idk hopefully I can get all my stuff updated in the next few months and have some mass downloads for 2017, 2018, and 2019 stuff.

@xayami said: any thoughts on 365? 😳

well.... im excited for B#RN. that is what matters, right? LMAO I’m going through a Weyes Blood/FKA Twigs phase rn so I haven’t been listening to much kpop. Especially at the time that 365 released.

Anonymous said: the sim modeling your piper hair can murder me and i will thank her over and over how make good sim

Anonymous said: it's not even just her it's every GODDANG MODEL!!!

LMAO Ivy is my 2nd blond model. She is a queen isn’t she? She is actually the sim from this lookbook and I just randomly added her to my models household and she stayed.

#asks #if anyone knows some albums that are like titanic rising pls recommend #i listened to front way seat to earth already #and loved that too #love Magdalene too #i just want some new music zzz #ive been building an actual house for my model sims the past few days #bc they lived in a basement before #and it is so bad edfgsefdc i like NEVER build anything #then my mouse broke and i struggle using the trackpad #so im on break from it

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revol-lover · 4 years

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dreams don’t end at “30″

so i just had a little breakthrough and maybe this wont sound like anything to anyone else but i just have to share it

so i’ve talked about this before. about how my friend and i were both planning these personal development like goals for this year that covid got in the way of. and he said something, about how this is his last year in his 20s and he wanted to get some goals accomplished before 30

and i thought about that and realized something.

i have been feeling similarly about a few goals that i’ve been hanging onto for years and years. like i’m going to be honest with you, some people might remember this if you’ve been around here for a long time but probably not. anyway when i was in high school i really wanted to make music, sing, learn an instrument. and i did make some covers that i posted on myspace (showing my age here lol) and youtube but then i kind of gave up on it when

1) became 18 and realized my dream to go to NYC and pursue music when i was 18 wasn’t happening because of a million reasons (it was very much a pipe dream, right? i mean you can’t have that dream and not prepare for it and i didnt. also i was too scared at the time to even move out to my own place if i had the funds to do so because my parents wouldnt have really approved and i was still so under their thumb)

2) broke up with my musician boyfriend. which needed to happen. but he was the only person super passionate about that kind of goal at the time around me (till he ran lol) and he actually is still doing music now so good for him but basically

because of those 2 reasons i just let go of that dream all together as something i thought i wanted to do but was “unrealistic”.

but the thing about turning 30 and feelings like you needed to achieve all these personal/dreamy/goals in your 20s. what is that bullshit? why?

what changes when you cross over to 30? i’ll tell you one thing. media pushes movies, books, films, everything about people chasing their dreams in their 20s and “settling” down in their 30s. where’s my inspiring movie about the 32 year old mom who finally wrote a song and performed it live after being terrified her whole life of doing so?

think about it though

in your 30s you. *might* have a better paying job than you did in your 20s. which means, if you can manage to find time or a way for it, you *might* be able to save a little more money or afford to do something like, buy that guitar and guitar lessons in order to learn to play and write a song and live out your dream in some way, even if its just learning to play so you can play at an open mic. and maybe you’ll like that and you’ll somehow connect with likeminded people and form a band. idk. your dreams dont have to end in your 20s.

you dont have to fall into the trap of your 20s are for your dreams that are so big you feel like the chance of achieving them is getting struck by lightening

and then your 30s are for fancy adult goals like buying a house, and going on a $10k vacation and those things are probably just as hard as the goals you had in your 20s but the world wont make you see it that way. its seen as “selfish” to prioritize and budget for your artistic goals - but not a house. no that’s responsible and what you “should” do. but its ok to prioritize something that’s going to give your soul fulfillment too! we need to believe that! because it’s true. we are not here just to work our jobs and live mundane colorless lives once we aren’t considered “young” anymore (but 30s are still young. not what i’m saying)

you’re always going to be chasing something big and if you let the world control what that thing is you’re always going to be on some rat race.

it’s fine if you achieve your goals in a different order than the world says you were supposed to. i got married young and had a child young, that was how my life played out and i’m happy with that because, yes, finding love and becoming a mother very much were goals of mine.

yes i dropped out of college because i couldn’t afford it and i couldnt find a major that felt worth being in debt for. and also, because hey guess what? contrary to what a lot of people will try to lead you to believe, college is not for everyone. and college does not = success. college drop out does not = failure. it’s just an option of something you could do with your life. AND if you didn’t go to your college in your 20s it doesnt mean you can’t in your 30s. or 50s. hell my husband, who did go to college saw elderly (think, 80s!) people going to his college as students! college isn’t just for 18 year olds fresh out of high school.

My 27th birthday is in 2 weeks and no, i have not yet to worked up the courage to write an original song from words to music, or have the courage to get on a stage and sing anything, or talk to a stranger, or publish any of my writing or art, goals i’ve had whirling around in my brain since I was 18, but, it’s going to happen. maybe this year. maybe when i’m 35, but it’s going to happen. a number is not going to be the thing holding me back.

that whole mentality of “my youth is slipping away i need to achieve all these dreams before midnight the day of my 30th birthday” is so stupid and flawed and we all deserve to see ourselves, and our individual potential as more than that.

last part of this rant - one of the reason i even became so passionate about reignighting some of my dusty, old goals, that it turned out, i still cared about, is because i had a moment where i was like

ok i am a mom. i am someones mom. how will my daughter see me, as a person, not just her mom?

kevin and i always talk about how between the two of us we’ve both had a lot of quintessential young adult experiences that we look forward to sharing with her. like, quitting jobs, getting in car accidents, that one time i unknowingly participated in an illegal bonfire and ran from the cops then lied straight to their faces and somehow got away with it (literally my ONE act of teen rebellion), changing college majors like 3 years in (kevin), failed classes, tried cigarettes, etc like i’m ready, and hope that one day she will feel comfortable talking to us about things because we’ve been through things and have a lot of input and two different perspectives to offer

but further than that, i realized that i want her to know that her mom is a person too. i want her to know that mom is also passionate about writing, and music, and somehow tackled some of her goals in regards to that so that SHE can feel that SHE, too can do those things. and i know that, that is in part how it works

because,

my dad IS an artist. my dad IS a musician. yall. my dad is SO talented. my dad is brilliant. besides his artistic abilities which include, drawing literal realistic as fuck portraits, sculpting, painting, playing guitar, bass, piano, mandolin, he also knows music composition, etc etc etc beyond all of that, he also taught himself fucking PLUMBING and ELECTRICIAN SHIT to fix things in our house growing up. like he bought a book. and taught himself. my dad. i grew up thinking that was normal but i realized not everyones dad can just tear down the bathroom and rebuild it from scratch down to the plumbing without being a licensed professional.

but anyway the point is - as talented as my dad is, he doesnt really pursue his artistic dreams much. and its sad. i’m glad that i’ve seen some of the work he did when he was younger. i’m glad that if i bring it up, he’ll show me something he can do. but he doesnt pursue it anymore really. my dad works an exhausting physical labor job but even he, as a 50something year old has fallen into that trap of like, i dont have time to draw, but he will scroll his phone and read articles for hours and i’m not shaming him. i’m just saying we all have this problem in the modern era of technology and social media and what not (hell i am writing a post on tumblr instead of my book right now).

but if timing was different and my dad grew up in a different time, where lets say something distracted him from doing the little bit of art and music that he did when i was a kid that i was able to witness, if i hadnt seen that. i wouldnt know that.. in a way.. that’s in me. i mean, he’s my dad. if my dad could pick up a craft and work at it to be good at it, why can’t i? there are so many musicians and (kind unrelated but not rly - i think being “self made” is an art) business owners in my family. there’s either some common thread in our genetics ORRRRRRRRRR just growing up around people working at and succeeding at those kinds of goals shows you that it CAN be done so you’re more likely to believe in your abilities

and i want that for my daughter. because even as an almost 3 year old i can see that she has a gift for music, and reading. and even if i’m wrong about that and she grows up wanting to do some other thing as a job or hobby, i want her to know, by seeing her mom do it, that she can achieve anything she puts her heart to. you don’t have to box yourself in because of your age or your sex or the fact that you’re a parent.

and your dream doesnt have to become your career. it can be a hobby and still be fulfilling. like yes, 18 year old me dreamed about some life in nyc singing in clubs or bars or whatever and being ~famous (lol) and that did not happen, but i can still get out there and play open mic downtown and get that love of music, and desire to face my fear of performing out of my system. maybe i’ll love it. maybe i’ll hate it. but i’ll have done it. and that’s the ultimate goal.

sorry i went off but i had to get that out of my system and i’m very passionate about

#personal

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Which Arthur Is It: A Comprehensive Guide

Hello, BOS Fans!

Do you get confused by which Arthur the post on your dash is about?

Do you start reading a post about a sexy BOS bad boy only to find out you’re reading about some random cowboy?

Or are you a RDR fan who has the opposite problem (for some reason) and gets annoyed when your yeehaw post turns out to be an ad victoriam?

WELL THEN THIS GUIDE IS FOR YOU!

***Disclaimer: I have never played Red Dead Redemption 2, I played RDR 1 for like an hour, and I didn’t bother to do any research. This is just meant to be a little bit of fun, your game looks great, don’t get mad.***

Ever since Red Dead Redemption II came out, I get occasional posts about Arthur that turn out not to be about MY Arthur, but rather about some cowboy dude, I guess. It’s very frustrating.

Sure you could block the tag, but that’s work. They aren’t really hurting you, and if you’re like me and can’t help but click on the super obvious “HEY YOU BLOCKED THIS ARE YOU SUUUUUURRRRE YOU DON’T WANT TO SEE IT” thing that tumblr does, and would rather just scroll past, then you need help.

To that end, I have created this handy guide.

First off, appearance.

If it’s this handsome, brooding, sexy fucker, it’s Arthur Maxson.

(pic from the fallout wiki)

Please note the indoor landscape, the piercing blue eyes, the fresh and not at all scrabby looking haircut, and the distinctive leather coat with fur. So sexy. However the most defining feature is the scar, which he earned when he fought a deathclaw with his bare hands. His bare hands. Seriously, no wonder everyone’s horny on main for this guy.

However

If it’s this rugged cowboy type dude, it’s Arthur Morgan:

(pic from gamerant.com)

Please note the outdoorsyness, the purse, the old fashiony hat, and the bandana. Now he is also wearing a leather coat with fur, so it can be easy to get confused, but remember the key feature: NO SCAR. Where Arthur Maxson battled a deathclaw with his bare hands and won, I think this guy just battled a bear maybe. Just a regular one too, not even an irradiated one. And he probably had a revolver. So that’s important.

But what if there’s no screenshot, you ask!

I’m coming to that part. Hold on to your laser rifles, my darlings.

If it’s a text post referring only to Arthur, you have some cues.

If the post mentions

The Prydwen

His coat

The Brotherhood of Steel

The Commonwealth

How much he hates Synths, Ghouls, Supermutants, or Toasters

His Shiny Steel Dick

Then you’re reading an Arthur Maxson post.

If the post mentions

Horses

Uhhhh.... bandits I guess

Maybe a lost son? Or was that the first one idk I never played it

Camping! I think there’s camping in this!

More horses

Then you’ve got Arthur Morgan on your hands.

Some other things to look out for.

Companions.

Other people mentioned might be a good clue too.

Some people mentioned In Arthur Maxson posts:

Danse

Sole Survivor

“My OC”

Sarah Lyons

People with cool sounding ranks like Knight, Sentinel, or Paladin

Some people mentioned in Arthur Morgan posts:

Mary something or other

John Misdon maybe idk

Other old timey sounding names.

And the final clue, is the topic of the post.

If the post discusses these topics, it’s Arthur Maxson:

Wanting to fuck him

Wanting to kill him, either for his coat or because they hate him

Just hating him in general

Mocking him for being too young

Hating people because they like him

Sticking up for him because someone said something bad about him and they’ve just Had Enough

More wanting to fuck him

If the post discusses these topics, it’s Arthur Morgan:

Deep discussions on his background

His relationship with Mary or John or whoever

His relationship with his horse

The time he skinned a deer

Remember these key features:

Arthur Morgan is the Player Character, so people naturally identify with him.

Arthur Maxson is an attractive NPC who gets an inordinate amount of attention in the fandom because some people think he’s hot and some people hate that other people think he’s hot.

IN CONCLUSION

Hopefully that helps you weary Tumblr scrollers sort the two characters out. I know it certainly helped me. REBLOG TO SAVE A LIFE

Thank you for coming to my Ted Talk

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