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archive-rat · 5 months

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how quickly things change…

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insufferablemod · 15 days

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rlly wanted 2 try n do somethng 4 the ask blawg for 413 but school n health r kicking my ass

#health ass in both hand and am sick rip #hand is slowly getting better #still prob at least 2 months till it Might be good lol but theres def progress!#i originally had a wjole ass event planned 4 aip but uhhh #i very much did Not have time 4 that this year BUT hopefully next year!!! >:)#but did manage 2 doodle a davesprite which was fun #fun 2 do more colors #rambles

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silenthillbunni · 23 days

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#it went!!! idk lately my pain treshhold has been so low bc im in pain all the time #so i just dont wnna be in pain anymore... he said that now it'll still hurt for a few days T-T #but he wasnt exactly sure what it was but i had.. a cavity??#im not rlly sure abt the english terms for all of this but the tooth is dying lol #but instead of immediately killing it nd getting a root fill he said that we should give the tooth a chance #so he fixed what he could fix #i hate dentist treatments bc of all the air nd water nd my anxiety i need to swallow constantly #but this time i actually told them abt it nd he was very helpful sksks #he even said 'ok now take a break nd swallow' so i didnt need to be so anxious #nd it was a relief bc he wasnt bad at all. he was actually rlly nice nd easy to talk to phewww #it cost abt $80 so i can manage to be without that until next week!!!!#so yeah it went much better than i had anticipated so im happy abt that #but yeah the problem still isnt 100% fixed yet so im still not relieved #he said i had a cavity in my other tooth as well but that we needed to check that at another time #im so frustrated bc i brush my teeth 2/day i use mouthwash i floss....#and for the last 7 months i havent even had any sugar!!!!! like why did this still happen.. o.o #oh nd he also said that i probably clench my teeth nd yeah i do that a lot more than i've realized #your teeth arent supposed to be touching!! never!! only when u eat #my teeth.... are touching pretty much all day omg. bc im so tense nd anxious #he said that he couldnt be sure bc he didnt have enough info to go on but that could have contributed to this #well well... i did it nd went even if i didnt want to #hopefully my tooth will be better now. nd i have another appt in may to see what i could get done further #if financial aid for it gets approved tho it might not #but yeah.. god dental pain nd issues is my no. 1 fear bc im poor nd i cant afford it

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mildmayfoxe · 8 months

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hahaha hey you guys guess what. you'll never believe it. got the guy who's in charge of my fraud case on the phone and he was like "who'd you give one-time security codes to yesterday" and i was like "the guy who called me from the fraud department after they noticed a weird login in florida??" and he was like "that was the fuckin hacker. you got got. IDIOT!!!!!!!!!!" i handed my entire savings over to a fucking guy on the phone on a silver platter. like some kind of fuckin rube. bro

#IT IS OK THOUGH I HAVE BEEN SORTING IT OUT #account is LOCKED DOWN! card is DELETED! fraud paperwork has been FILED! i have requested a fraud alert AND credit freeze #from the NATIONAL CREDIT BUREAU!#a friend of mine is taking me to MAINE next saturday to go to the BANK! i sent an email to my landlord asking if i can pay rent by CHECK!#i went to my other bank and deposited my BONDS! so i have some MONEY! to pay RENT!#i also got a new debit card from them. and made sure i could use my old checks.#i also bought some STAMPS while i was out and a BIRTHDAY PRESENT for a FRIEND #now i am going to start switching over some auto deposits #so when i get my paycheck on tuesday i will actually get it.#i feel so STUPID but i think i have done all i can to fix this. i am feeling better about it #by next weekend i will have my money again. it's all fine #and hopefully next time i will not get got so easily. lol.#anyway dont get got by people pretending to be your bank i guess. i did think it was weird how many questions they asked but..#they ALWAYS ask lots of questions at the bank!!!!!#i got a text message FROM the bank saying they would be calling me soon and then the next call was from the scammer #and then like a half hour later got one from the bank and was confused bc they'd just 'called me'#anyway. it'll be fine. scary for a while but at least i have things i can do to make it better. it's all good #genuinely feeling like i ought to take out like a thousand bucks cash and keep it in my desk to replace my bonds tho tbh hahah #just in case something like this happens again. you never know. what would i have done if i DIDNT have those yknow #ok thank u all for being along on this journey with me

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red--dragoon · 2 years

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Director Chimera

Level: 100 Bajillion Leadership: 100 / Karizma: 100 Easyness to Carry: 80 / Durtyness: 20

I crocheted Anya's chimera plushie from Spy x Family! He is very loosely based on this teddy bear pattern, and we had a great time at this year’s first anime con :)

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gaydexvocaloid · 9 months

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#not art #i’ll prob bump this a couple times to see everyone’s answers #idk if my art is yk good enough for comms yet but idk i’ve been really trying this year #doing a lot of independent art studying to try get better #hopefully its enough but idk LOL #anyway answer honestly plsss #i’ll prob ask this again closer to next year but i thought i might as well ask now anyway #also first time doing a poll so if this doesn’t work sory : (

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voiceshearingyouloud · 8 months

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I was feeling extremely suicidal today, like the worst I have in maybe four or five years now, and I was deliberating over whether I should go to the hospital like pretty much all day and now that I feel better I realise that the moment I started drafting my suicide note in my head was probably when I should’ve decided that 😭

#it’s so hard to think logically in the moment though; and I didn’t want to worry my dad or my partner #even though me killing myself would hurt them more obviously lol #I’m glad I feel better though #finally at like 5pm after doing all the chores and getting dressed and making meals and napping and going outside and exercising and calling #people and watching my favourite things #and none of it made even the slightest difference #(and I was drafting my suicide note)#I was like alright I need to do something about this because I’m gonna get exhausted and lose the fight pretty soon #which is always how my suicidality has been #I’ve never made a plan I’ve just come very very close to being worn down by the constant obsession and just giving in #which is hard to explain to ER nurses!#anyway. as soon as I decided that it instantly was like a cloud went away so that was weird as hell and I still don’t get it but at least I #don’t want to die as much anymore!#I’m seriously good now; like just normal sad and tired #but it does scare me that it took me so long to decide to go to the hospital #cause that was really cutting it close for a while there 😬#I don’t trust myself to get it right the next time. but hopefully I’ll remember this and just go #anne speaks #now I’m just dying over how hilarious it was that I was literally drafting my suicide note and still was like hmm I wouldn’t want to worry #my partner so I don’t think it’s wise to go to the hospital.#like girl?? what???#suicidality tw #tw suicidality #suicide mention #suicide tw #tw suicide #all the trigger tags cause this post is pretty graphic lol #but anyway I’m totally safe now #wouldn’t want anyone to worry if you’re the type to worry about this #:-)

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coldercreation · 8 months

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TMI emo rant - I'm just moping lmao ( don't read if others being emo makes you mopey too, I don't wanna mope-fy this space :'< take care xx )

When the lady in the workout video says ‘the fact that you showed up for this exercise today is already something that deserves a pat on the back’ after you have felt like a hot garbage of a human being the whole day, week, month, just…

damn lady. coming for my praise and attention starved butt like that 😒

#legit made me feel some sort of way lol I wasn't prepared #not even sure why it stood out like that #like it felt like praise obvs but also made me a bit more sad and disappointed with life lmao #just doin my silly little workout bc I have nothing else to do or going on #don't get me wrong #working out is amazing #it is an achievement to do some sort of movement and it can feel so challenging at times to get it done #but when I don't have anything else going on it just felt like...#well yeah... sad and disappointed in life ig #like oh yeah #THIS is the biggest thing I've achieved recently #sometimes that is a huge achievement for real #but for me atm this all just feels so insignificant :(#and by 'this' I probably just mean me #so basically I'm just being all emo today for some reason #and I shall keep doing my next workout after ranting here unsolicited #and hopefully tomorrow will feel better #xx

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dadatello · 9 months

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Is there anything Dadatello is purposefully doing differently in raising Minitello and Leo to the way that Splinter raised him the first time? Also, is there anything specific he has purposefully carried on doing with his boys that Splinter did with him? Any traditions or anything like that?

"You know, I don't often show emotion, but it's scientifically proven to be beneficial for a child's development. Which is to say... this is important for the kids.

Losing Leonardo at the end there... had me thinking. I shouldn't act like I take my family for granted. He was a champion. And a damn good leader, too.

Just don't tell 'Nardo Junior all of that. It'll go to his head."

#rottmnt #rottmnt au #rise donnie #rise leo #save rottmnt #hopefully this ask hits two birds with one stone #he trains these two the proper way - although Lou Jitsu movies are not excluded from the curriculum lol #they get education on the Hamato clan for as far as it doesn't provide spoiler alerts for their future.#and for all his flaws he still tries to be there as if he was their actual father #at the same time he tries to do Better than Splinter. he doesn't hit them outside of training - although that has its own reasoning #and he tries his best to show the kids that they're amazing individuals :]#I'd have gone more into depth on how he tries to keep their mixed culture alive but I get very exhausted drawing these easily fdhdlf #next time...#anonymous #ask

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pepprs · 10 months

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art fight day 2 and im getting mentally ill about it lol

#purrs #i want to DRAW and i feel pressure abt revenging ppl in a timely manner (which is ridiculous bc its literally the 2nd day and i don’t have #that standard for anyone else but me) but my fucking wrist is fucked up and i basically took a break all day and just tried outlining my #next attack and all the progress i made with it feeling a little better is back out the window after like 10 mins of trying. tingles and #stiffness. UGH!!! and nerve stuff freaks me out so even outside of art fight im stressed / agitated abt feeling like this. aughhhhh #delete later #hopefully im feeling better by tomorrow bc i don’t think i can / should try again for the rest of the day. im so sad lol. this sucks #and it’s not just drawing either like EVERYTHING i do with my wrist feels bad. typing… eating.. doing dishes… misery and despair.

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take-ya-to-the-ghey-bar · 4 months

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Not sure yet if i'll have the time/energy to do these before the day™ actually gets here, but-- Feel free to leave a like on this post to have Micchan give your muse a Christmas gift~♡

#{|ooc post|}#multi muses-- please specify a target~#probably gonna reblog this a couple times before we hit the date--#and of course-- i do already have a lil list in mind of muses who'll likely be getting gifts regardless of liking this or not lol #but still-- this seems like a fun lil thing-- so imma join in~#and if i don't have them sent out in time-- then at the very least i'll post them sometime into next month--#hopefully the first week of it-- or even better before we actually close out the year--#but not matter which-- i *will* eventually get them done lol

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eternal-brainrot · 6 months

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GUESS WHOS GETTING A NEW JOB WOOOO \^o^/ can leave this awful place lol B)

#getting a barista job :)#itll be like almost half the hours i currently do but 1. the pay is better and 2. i was told i can pick up more shifts so it id still enough #for me to get by with rent and groceries and stuff #and i hopefully wont be constantly frustrated at existence and filled with as much internal dread lol #do think its funny tho cuz the last converstaion i had with my current job was them hassling me about my disability again and now the next #time i see them im gonna be handing in my notice lol. serves them right #does mean i have to have the stress of learning a new job (will cry myself to sleep the first week of a new job lol) but it shoulf be good #once ive got the hang of things and feel less overwhelmed!!#ive always liked the idea of being a barista as well :)#only worked at my current job 2 months and that still feels like too long lmao. people never last very long here from what ive heard tbh #which just goes to show how shit it is #anyway!! a bit nervous but also very relieved

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passumbapper · 1 year

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so my band's sort-of-co-frontman quit (overall W - genuinely incredible player and singer, good dude, good friend, dogshit team player who just improvises his way out of everything and doesn't practice) so the four of us left have decided to just shuffle parts around and pick up more instrument/vocal double duty for the time being. so im learning to sing more while playing bass (sometimes lead, sometimes backups) and my god this shit is difficult

#usually when i would sing lead i'd play guitar and hand off bass to one of the guitarists #im honestly hype to get better at this and im getting it but. my god. brain HURTY #im gonna be hunkered down drilling songs 100% of my free time the next couple weeks #because we're playing at the community college commencement barbecue in may LOL #am i legally required to play a hofner now?#other bonus is we are no longer constrained by his boomer ass music taste and can start doing some actual fun pop music hopefully

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britneyshakespeare · 1 year

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why does scheduling my work days give me so much stress and anxiety