The only one whose intentions I can't entirely understand is Nick. Like Boston is pretty harmless, he is just a hoe and a shitty friend. Mew is straight-laced and could be devilish, but pretends to be a kind of a saint to get away with things. Top is just a red flag, all around. Ray is broken in a way he himself doesn't understand and (falsely) projects loving Mew will resolve all his hurt. Sand is a walking green flag, at least so far. But Nick, I don't know, I can't tell if he's just starting out as a Machiavellian villain that'll do a double kill on both Boston and Top, or he is just obsessed with Boston to hurt him but keep Boston on a leash.
Anon, I'm gonna skip over you writing that "Boston is pretty harmless" so I can get to your ask - Nick.
In this series, Raymond is my #1, but Nicolas is my strong #2, and it's partially because they remind me of a good ass country song.
Think Brokeback Mountain's Jack Twist screaming his legendary line "I wish I knew how to quit you" because that shit is a good ass country song delivered in one line.
*switching into my west Texas accent*
Yes, I wrote "country song" in a post about Thai gays.
See, I love music. I have a large collection of vinyl records and CDs. I like going to music festivals and concerts. I love rap for its wordplay. I love ranchera for the dramatics ("El Rey" anyone?). And I love country for its storytelling.
So the second Nick called Top instead of Mew, I heard Dolly Parton's iconic "Jolene"
In case you are not familiar with the legend who is "Jolene," the song deals with a woman begging another woman to not take her man. This woman knows she cannot compete with Jolene. She knows she is not as beautiful or alluring, so she begs Jolene to let her man go, in hopes that he'll come back to her.
Hopefully, I won't be hearing Dolly Parton's other masterpiece "I Will Always Love You" (yes, the one that Whitney Houston covered for The Bodyguard).
And I always hear the incredible Patsy Cline's "Crazy" whenever Nick looks at Boston.
Crazy for thinking that my love could hold you
I'm crazy for trying and crazy for crying
And I'm crazy for loving you
Because even though Nick is matching Boston's "No Boundaries" energy, he isn't malicious, not yet anyway. No.
Nick is in love, with a guy who doesn't love him back.
And he knows that.
But knowing doesn't help when it comes to matters of the heart.
Other genres have songs that capture the feeling of losing your mind over someone who doesn't love you and being incapable of stopping, but a good ass country song just really hits at the core of that kind of toxic love.
Like Dan + Shay's "How Not To" which tells the story of a man who knows that his lover is no good, but doesn't know how not to love them.
So I read Nick as a boy in desperate love with the wrong man. He is Rascal Flatts "What Hurts the Most" when the lead singers croons that the worst part of his love was "not seeing that love in you."
And that type of love makes you do crazy shit.
Boston was honest in the beginning that he didn't want anything serious, and even though he has changed his tune when needed, everyone else has warned Nick as well about Boston.
Nick knew who walked into his store the second he looked into Boston's eyes.
Yet he couldn't stop himself from falling in love.
If Oh No! Here Comes Trouble taught me anything, it's that love can be an obsession mostly when grieving love, and Nick has to be grieving the love he knows he will never get from Boston while still loving him.
So this is why Nicolas is my #2. He is a good ass country song about a man who hopes that his love will make his lover stay, only to realize that his love isn't enough and probably never will be.
And before any of you ask, Ray is the drinking side of good country songs, but he and Sand in particular are "Tennessee Whiskey"
I've looked for love in all the same old places
Found the bottom of a bottle's always dry
But when you poured out your heart, I didn't waste it
'Cause there's nothing like your love to get me high
You're as smooth as Tennessee whiskey
You're as sweet as strawberry wine
You're as warm as a glass of brandy
So raise your bottle to Nick's pain.
And slow dance under some hicktown's bar lights.
Because like my girl Bonnie Raitt sang " I will give up this fight 'cause I can't make you love me, if you don't" (yeah, that famous song George Michael covered).
Please settle this debate, my partner and i are fighting about this hard. I will refrain from saying some of his comments about Star Trek, but he's CONVINCED that Vader would win, on his own, against the entire Borg Collective.
it’s ALSO weird that pedri still made that comment when he knows how much of a fuss this would cause he’s not naive
I don't see anything weird about what he said tho. Idk about you but I don't think he puts what random people would think about him at the forefront of his before speaking. That's his friend and he said as much, him adding the detail of them not seeing as much of each other anymore shouldn't take away from his earlier statement that their relationship is spectacular. You can't look at how wide Gavi smiled after seeing Pedri and think they're not great friends. Just look at them 😭
He is not immune to the opinions of others. Especially when that opinion is a constant repeat. A resounding 'Why are you like this?' A constant that has followed him since day one.
Astor doesn't understand why he continues to be asked this, over and over, when he was made for Hell and learned everything he knows from being surrounded by sinners who loath themselves and kill each other over land and drugs and anything else in between. He learned how to be from people that use each other and put each other through the worst things possible for their own gain. He doesn't get how he's wrong when he learned it all from his surroundings and yet he's always asked 'Why are you like this?'
He doesn't know what Earth was like, he doesn't know what it was like to have the promise of Heaven if he acted a certain way. Astor has only ever experienced Hell and he is exactly what a creature would be when given a crash course in how to be a person and then tossed into the world that belongs to demons.
He is like this because that's what he was taught and yet he is constantly told it's wrong.
thinking about connor in prague saying "dad's theory was you got two fighting dogs, you send the weak one away, you punish the weak one." in relation to this episode, and the way the siblings view abuse inside their own family.
shiv and kendall and their belief that connor and roman are the weak dogs that got the brunt of logan's worst behavior, because abuse is reserved for the kids who can't behave - the ones who aren't smart and mature enough to make it in the world. abuse evokes pity, because abuse is what happens when you expect too much from people who obviously aren't capable of more.
and then they go forward in life, believing that they're just naturally more intelligent and more capable than connor and roman, as if being raised seeing what happens to you if you aren't a perfect child wasn't the entire point of the "punish the weak dog" mentality that logan instilled in them. the looming threat implied behind any praise they do receive that tacitly tells them "you're not like roman and connor" because everyone knows what happens to roman and connor.
the absolute height of the rich capitalist mindset. "we're succeeding because of our own merit, and other people fail because they don't have what it takes" when in reality they're succeeding because of arbitrary rules made up by someone who knows that infighting makes meaner dogs.
I just remembered that up until 5th grade, all of the sports teams I was in weren't separated by gender. I played basketball and baseball with boys. And we did just fine.
It wasn't until 6th grade when they segregated it by gender. It didn't make sense to me. I was now in softball because of baseball, because "softball is for girls" and "baseball is for boys" (which confused me bc my dad was on an adult softball team).
Now, my brother's all-male team didn't win a single game. My all-girls team won every single one.
They presented the boys' team with this HUGE trophy, and if you wanted replicas of it, they were $30 each.
My team was presented with a very small trophy. Extras were $5.
That's when I decided gender-segregated sports were bullshit.